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Packed your favourite pyjamas.

Oh, thanks.

Except I think they'll make me wear one of those horrible gowns.

Yeah. I can do it.

I know you can. I want to carry it for you.

You're the sweetest kid.

Hey, I thought I was the sweetest.

No, you're the cool one.

I guess we better hide inside.

It's like I can actually see the dark cloud that's over his head.

I want to make it go away, but this is just so huge. I have no idea how.

Hey, I'm just coming.

and just stay connected.

Don't wish it all away.

I hope we'll always stay electric

friends.

It's fine, you don't have to.

I want to make sure you're as comfortable as is humanly possible.

Why, you never normally care.

Lies in Flanders. Do you remember that time you stole my umbrella?

No, no, I don't remember that, no.

Stop messing about, you two.

I know you're worried.

I know you both are.

But this operation, the doctors do it all the time.

Yeah, I know.

Being silly.

You're not being silly.

You're not being silly, you're being a normal amount of scared.

Just remember they're doing this to get the cancer out of me.

Nana, can you do me a favour?

If these two ever look like they're worrying... Paul's stupid faces? You got

Now, which one of you wants the first hug?

Mum? Lee, hi.

What is it? Awkward.

Because you came to London without telling me? Because I'm so busy today.

I'm going to a yoga workshop.

Since when did you do yoga?

Since I finished reading Inside Your Inner Self.

It's an amazing book, Lee. It's really opened my mind.

Great.

Good for you.

I don't know why you're upset.

I'm not upset. Because you wouldn't have wanted to see me anyway. You never want

to see me. Don't turn this around.

You came to London to do yoga instead of talk to me.

Your mothering gets zero points.

I should get coffee because I'm the one who's supposed to make you guys not

worry.

Doing things like getting coffee kind of helps me to not worry.

Yeah, yeah, of course.

Let's drink your coffee.

Now I feel bad for your coffee.

We should drink both. I think excessive amounts of caffeine will help in this

situation.

Watch your mouth.

You two are weird.

Good morning, foundation year.

Your assignment this week is a reward for all your hard work so far.

No more hard work?

Nice try, but no.

You'll be creating your outfits for the summer ball.

Does the summer ball?

Like a prom?

How did I not know about this?

Would it be a prom prince and princess?

No, we're an art college, not an American high school. So our prince and

princess will be more artistic.

Got it.

Again, no.

Because the whole idea is sexist and outdated.

Not. It's a recognition of important students.

With tiara.

I'm not going to budge on this.

Oh, what if I do all the organisation for the vote? I've done it before and

everyone agreed it was the best night of their lives. Our headteacher, Mrs

Evans, she cried.

Nisa, no.

Just concentrate on your design.

Make that special.

And that goes for all of you. You have until the ball to create something

amazing.

Let's go.

Have you told anyone else?

Um, no.

No, I haven't really been great at saying it out loud.

I guess it makes it more real the more you say it.

Yeah, and the more people that know, the more I've got to talk about it.

But also the more people to support you.

Yoguring. As what? To a different workshop.

No mum wants zero points.

But I can't stop just because you're here now.

I've got to work.

OK, well, we can still spend time together.

I'll just watch you work.

Nope, that's just unsettling.

Follow me.

How's it going?

Not great. I'm in hospital.

Which one? I'll be there in a... No, it's not me. I'm fine.

It's my mum.

She's having an operation.

She's got cancer.

Wow.

Wow, that's bad.

That's really bad.

That's so bad.

That's bad. I need to stop saying how bad it is because it's just making it

more...

No, no, it's fine. I should get back.

So, um... Later.

Okay, uh, later, Skater.

Later, Skater.

What was that?

I have just one really important question for you.

Do you think Meghan Markle is an inspiration?

Um... Because she is a role model and a feminist and a princess.

Technically, she's a duchess.

Duchess, princess, same difference.

I just think if you respect Meghan Markle at all, there should be a prince

princess for the ball.

And if I don't?

Ali, I think that might be actual treason.

Nisha, has it occurred to you that this obsession with the ball may be

distracting you from your work?

really distracted, so if we could resolve this now.

I'd try, but no.

Look, I'll tell you what. You finish your design and then we'll talk.

So you'll consider it?

Only if you finish.

Fine, I'll finish and you won't go to prison for treason.

Like the time I don't know I'm not gonna break

Under your control

be like they are in Gilmore Girls.

They just hang out and chat together.

Because you're not Lorelei. You're Emily.

I am not. I'm fun.

You're judgmental.

Okay.

Thanks for coming. This has been great.

You can't just leave. I delayed my workshop for this.

So, what do we do?

Talk about how we don't talk enough?

No.

Tell me what you were working on.

A dress for the summer ball.

Really? For a ball?

Seems sort of plain.

And there's the judgment.

Sorry.

Why don't you tell me about your insides book?

Or whatever it is.

Inside your inner self?

Sure.

It's really opened my eyes.

I didn't realise how closed off I was being, how I wasn't focusing on my own

energy. You know, I was letting it get mixed up with other people's energies.

It's really important to cleanse yourself every once in a while.

Yep.

Cleaning's important. Can you not text while I'm talking to you?

I should... I should get back to work.

Fine, but I'm coming, okay?

Even if it is unsettling.

What's that?

Oh, um, it's nothing. It's not important.

Not now, anyway.

The stars are aligned.

Oh!

Okay, guys, what do you think? Do you reckon it's time for Stupid Faces?

No, I'm fine.

Can't help.

Okay, so this one is always a classic.

Always a hit. Oh, and then... I like that one.

Another solid entry.

Oh, and then there's...

Uh -huh.

What about this one?

Feels like we're reaching a bit.

Sorry.

Thought I had a bigger repertoire.

Thanks for trying.

In chapter two, it talks about how the key thing is space.

Just those few hours by yourself every once in a while.

That's so true. It's like me time matters.

Yes, me time matters. I love that.

Sometimes these words of wisdom just fall out of me.

Oh, I love her. Is she your friend?

Not exactly.

Then have you thought about spending more time with her?

You could ask her advice on how to do your hair.

No.

I never knew you could make things like this.

Of course not, because you don't actually know me.

If you did, you wouldn't suggest swapping style tips with Nisha.

I do know you.

I know that you're difficult and prickly.

Everyone knows that. You're my mum. Try harder.

Okay. Okay.

I know that the colour yellow really washes you out.

I think you just proved my point.

Yes, level 20.

Only four more to go.

Can you now?

What?

Just stop playing that game.

No! You made me lose.

Good, now you can go. I was doing really well.

Maybe you can finish it another time.

Now I just have to sit here and think about what's happening.

Instead of learning these constellations to put these stars in order.

Well, that sounds kind of educational.

To win Stardust to feed my unicorn.

Oh.

Sam, can I just play my game?

Because I can do that.

But I can't do anything for Mum.

Maybe... Maybe it's okay to just accept that.

You mean, accept that I can't do anything?

That doesn't sound okay.

No, I mean, maybe it's, um... You don't have to do anything.

Maybe it's okay to just... Pause.

To feel it.

Be scared.

It's okay to cry.

How would I know that?

You never do.

Yeah, you're right.

Well, maybe we can both be scared.

Maybe we can both cry.

It's just horrible that someone in there...

You're overreacting.

I do know you.

I know some things, anyway. I know that you push people away because you're

afraid of getting hurt.

OK. Fine.

You do know me.

You just wish I was a different person.

Oh, that's not... Don't even try and say it's not true.

I just sometimes wish we liked the same things.

But we don't.

I don't like any of the things that you like.

I don't like girly dresses or getting my nails done. I don't like handbags

or yoga or guys.

What?

I mean, I like them.

But not in the same way I like girls.

Are you coming out to me?

Um, possibly, yes.

I think so.

Okay.

Okay.

Why didn't you tell me before?

The only thing you've ever approved of in my life is Lenny, so... Not the only

thing.

I approve of your strength and your independence.

I approve of your spirit and your heart.

There have been times when I've wanted a daughter more like me, but I was wrong.

Because I doubt that girl would ever make me proud.

You know Nancy's phone game?

You stand to suggest giving it back to her? Hey!

I wasn't going to suggest that.

Oh. But maybe she's on to something.

A distraction might not be a bad thing.

Maybe. Yeah? Because I've got an idea. But, you know, only if you want to do

Tell me.

So, Lee texted me this week's assignment.

We basically have to design our outfit for the foundation end -of -year ball.

I could do some designing.

Yeah? Great.

Can I help?

Yeah, that's the general idea.

Cool. I'm gonna add so many unicorns.

Finally.

What do you think?

It feels like something's missing. Maybe a headpiece of some sort?

I really wasn't expecting you to finish so quickly.

And this is good.

At least it's very good.

It doesn't even look rushed.

So are you ready to admit defeat?

Okay, Misha, look, I said we would talk, but I have questions.

This whole prince and princess thing, I assume students vote.

Those with the most votes win, making it no more than a popularity contest?

No, Ali, because this is the Athena.

Students won't just vote on popularity.

They'll also vote on things like, you know, talent and creativity.

But still, it seems to me that it's just about you wanting validation.

And I'm just wondering why that's so important to you.

That's a really good question.

You're always asking really good questions.

I know I don't always show it, but you're a really good teacher.

Oh, well, thank you.

See? Right there. I validated you and you liked it. Everyone needs validation,

even you.

Okay, fine.

If you organise it all, I suppose we can have...

If we're setting feminism back, we're taking the boys with us.

Thank you. And don't worry, I'll be a really good dictator.

A new ruler.

Can I look yet?

Almost.

I thought you didn't like dresses like that.

It's not for me.

It's for you.

Okay, feedback.

Loving the front.

The back needs a bit of work.

It's going to take a lot longer to do that. Just don't move too much.

It just needs to last long enough to take a proper photo.

Only if you're in it as well.

Fine. Let me find someone to take it. Why don't you do it?

Because that would make it better. Your first selfie.

My baby's all grown up.

You have a very warped definition of grown up.

I felt like I just blinked and it was done.

Are you in pain?

No, they gave me the good drugs.

Good.

So how was it? Did these two keep you occupied?

Yeah, they did good.

Stupid faces.

Amongst other things.

Thank you.

As soon as we get home, I'm going to make spaghetti.

I'm good at spaghetti.

No, she's not.

I am.

It's meant to be crunchy.

That's what al dente means.

I didn't know that.

I'll take it back. She's great at spaghetti.

You two should be heading off, shouldn't you?

Oh, there is really no rush.

I can't let you miss any more college because of me.

Don't worry. We've been keeping up.

Good.

I'm glad you came.

The more familiar faces, the less hospitally it feels.

It's just really nice to see you.

Awake and doing okay, and I'd like to talk to you outside for a minute.

Do you mind staying with her, Nancy?

I love you.

Are you okay?

Um, not really.

This could be a pretty long road.

Well, let's just be positive.

Or realistic.

Okay, well, realistically, we don't know anything yet, so... I know that I can't

leave Mom alone with Nancy Spaghetti.

Look, we can stay here another night, get some good food.

I mean, permanently.

Huh?

I think I have to leave the Athena.

We've got this all together, no matter what they say.

We'll weather any storm and we'll ride it to the end. Just take the next step.