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I put up a good front.

But if you peel everything back... Hello, Woodlawn!

Thank you guys for coming out to support tonight's benefit concert for the

Immigrant Defense Law Center!

As some of you may know, this is an issue that's truly near and dear to my

heart.

I think I might just be a fraud.

So thanks for meeting here.

We're still trying to lock down a regular meeting spot, so stay tuned for

time. I'm on the edge of my feet.

Babe, can you not with the attitude?

I really want to get more involved this year.

Okay. This is me making an effort.

Look, I geotagged us on Snapchat.

Sup, ladies?

I mean women.

Sorry, people.

Are gender terms forbidden here?

All good.

I'm just a little stressed out about my mom's whole citizenship situation.

Oh, so she finally submitted her application?

Yep. Now we just wait and see if the U .S. government's feeling benevolent,

which doesn't seem too likely these days. I know the waiting sucks, but

try to stay positive.

Jane, are you joining LGBTQQIAA Club?

Well, Val and Denise invited me, but I had class.

Val more invited me. Denise just kind of grunted.

Hey, people. So I just heard that Sinclair Matthews is coming here.

Sinclair. Yeah, the peroxide blonde next to Ann Colter, staunch Trump supporter,

the assailant of all things queer, brown, and non -Christian.

She's coming to Woodlawn in three days.

Fuck no, she's not.

Maybe I should focus on directing for now.

Uh, yeah, sure. That's a good plan.

You don't think I could?

I mean, it's a lot of time. Taylor!

Hey, we're planning a protest to stop Sinclair Matthews from spewing her

homophobic bile all over campus.

I think your voice could really get it trending.

I don't want to alienate, like, half my fan base.

Well, right now you have no fan base, so this will actually get you back on

base.

You know what?

Fuck yeah.

I'm in.

Great.

Sinclair Matthews is also against former fake Persian royalty, so you should

come to a meet. My demo, then. Wouldn't miss it.

Taylor, I'll text you the details.

Sweet.

Hey, sign our petition to cancel Sinclair Matthews' speech on campus.

Or not. It's only your freedom at sea.

Don't let the bastards grind you down, Chris.

Or do.

I don't care.

Come on, that anti -gay Fox News talking head affects you too. We're halfway

through Handmaid's Tale. Doesn't that fulfill my obligations as a homosexual?

Not all of your obligations.

You're suddenly awfully affectionate, huh?

I'm going to go get some water.

Can't implement change dehydrated, right?

I'm San Junipero. I mean, obviously superior.

I respectfully disagree. Hang the DJ all the way. Okay. What are you guys

talking about?

Just which romance -themed, non -depressing Black Mirror episode is

Cool. She ask you about Liv yet?

What?

You know, for her story.

She's doing a podcast.

Got to work those sources, right, Lex? I got to go to class.

To be continued.

Uh, right.

Hey, Lex, wait up. Did I hear Evan say you have a podcast?

I guess you might have.

That's so perfect.

I'm actually looking for someone audio -savvy to help me record speeches at the

Sinclair Matthews protest.

I assume you're down to help us find bigotry down in the backyard, right?

going to wind up saying yes. Better to just go with it. Actually, I've never

recorded a live event before.

Oh, I can help with that. I did Model UN in high school, and I always recorded

our debates.

Kind of your civic duty as a woman of color and a non -shitbag.

Well, in that case, I guess I'm in there like somewhere.

Great, I'll fill you in then.

An observation?

School spirit's really working for you right now.

I really have to finish this chapter before class tomorrow.

What?

What is it?

It's only me trying to initiate with no witnesses nearby.

I'm just tired, babe.

Sometimes it seems like you only want me when you're getting credit for it.

I'm not a prop in your woke queer girl one -woman show.

Okay, but do you remember that time that you had a migraine after the acapella

concert and I wanted to have sex?

Whatever. Now I'm tired.

You've got all that reading to do.

We're out of duct tape. I don't think that's my department.

Circuit breaker will hold for DJ Uncle Money, but each move set requires more

power. And if the extension cords don't get taped down if somebody trips, this

is your event and very much your department.

There should be some in the back.

Fine, I'll go check.

Are you trying to impress your Fitbit?

Slow down.

I'm just trying to get there before all the snacks are gone.

My mom's calling.

Do you want me to stay?

No, it's fine.

I'll see you later.

Good luck.

Hi, Mommy. ¿Qué pasa?

Me la dieron.

Hey.

Want to help organize a political protest?

It's no fun at all, so you'll probably love it.

Yeah, you know.

I'm gay.

All right, big news, everyone.

According to her latest tweet, Sinclair Matthews is focusing her campus speech

on the evils of immigration, not about gay rights.

So we are going to need one hell of a speech if we want to take her down.

Well, we have Taylor Price.

Ugh, no.

Taylor Price is canceled.

He got Liv Steele pregnant and probably killed her.

We know for a fact he didn't do any of those things. Look, innocent or not,

spotlighting Taylor could be toxic to the protest.

I'll let him down easy.

Now, what we need is someone who is directly affected by the immigration

crackdown.

What?

Not to make you talk about... private things, but if your mom were to not get

citizenship, your story would be very powerful.

Well, I guess now's a good time as any to tell you guys that she didn't get it.

She didn't get it?

Okay, well, unfortunately,

Valentina Velez, you are our new featured speaker.

You okay there?

Yeah, I'm fine. Just distracted. Give me a minute.

Do you watch a lot of porn?

What?

My mom's a shrink, and she said guys our age watch too much porn, like multiple

windows going all at the same time.

It's causing rampant ED.

Wait, you've probably been with half those porn stars. Maybe that's the

There's no problem. I'm just distracted.

I should go.

Maybe you can come back tomorrow night?

I'm gonna send you some articles.

Good luck.

We need to reduce ambient signal sound to pick up clear audio at the protest.

I started researching it after we talked yesterday.

Old study habits die hard.

I was that girl in high school.

Yeah, I was more the write the paper the night before type.

Hmm. Coasting to that sweet B, huh?

Well, usually an A.

I hate people like you.

Wait, did we just get into a fight? Did I miss our fight?

I don't mean you specifically.

I just mean the people that everything comes easy for.

Not everything, but, um, yeah.

When I get into something, I get into it. Like this stuff.

This plugs in here, right?

So what doesn't come easy then?

Um, family stuff.

Family stuff how?

Uh... in the my parents don't get me, my sister takes up all the air in the

room, woe is me college essay kind of way.

Which you wrote the night before.

Which I wrote the night before.

What's that for?

Cheering you up.

You got bad news.

Hence the hug.

Hi.

What's up?

Nothing, just... Do you think it's weird that I'm talking about my mom publicly?

Not weird for you.

Hey, do you know what is weird?

Lex's podcast archive only has one episode on it.

About some murder at Harvard in 2001.

And it's only ten minutes long.

Lex never claimed she was Sarah Koenig.

There's just something off about her.

Oh, maybe she party follows or something on Instagram and I forgot about it.

She's actually pretty cool.

Should I be worried that she's going to steal you away from me?

Wouldn't that be convenient for you?

Val, I... I'm kidding.

Hey, you going to the protest later?

Jane's going to that, right?

Yeah, she's an ally.

Yeah, I think I'll sit this one out.

Okay, Jane will be there, but a bunch of other people will be there, too.

What about that freshman I saw you talking to?

Lex, is it?

I bet she'll be there.

Yeah, there's nothing happening there. Well, I may not be an expert on matters

of the heart, but you got to get off the bench and take another swing.

I know you're a film guy. Just deal with the sports references.

Okay, look.

Lex is some sort of journalist.

Okay, she's doing a podcast on Liv's death.

She's only talking to me because I hauled a camera on her last year. She's

interested in me. She just wants to pump me for info.

Okay, well, we'll let her. It gives you guys a chance to get to know each other.

It's just not a good idea.

Why? Because when it comes to live, it's more complicated than you

realize. What do you mean?

I... Hey, Chris.

Hey.

Are you ready to head out? Yeah.

Actually, would you mind if we cut up for a minute?

Just some awkward host breakup business.

Oh, yeah. I'll see you later.

Um, looks like somebody needs a reminder not to get chatty.

With Chris or Lex or anyone, really.

You remember why, right?

Would you mind saying it for me?

You go down.

I go down.

Anything else?

Yeah, um... I miss you.

Where is it?

My Child of Immigrants shirt. Have you seen it?

Maybe in the load of laundry you're currently drying?

Hey.

I know I bust your balls about do -gooding.

But this protest today is important.

And I'm so proud of you.

And I bet your mom is too.

Hi, Miss Velez, it's Denise.

Val's in the laundry room.

How are you holding up?

Hey.

Look, I'm really sorry.

With all the live rumors, people were concerned it would be a bit of a

distraction. You know what?

Don't worry about it.

My publicist doesn't like me getting political anyway.

So you're okay?

Me? Yeah, I'm great.

I mean, talk the Hollywood douchebag mess, maybe, but otherwise, I'm great.

You're not a douchebag.

But I am a mess.

Yeah, you and me both.

You're like the most put -together person here.

I don't know about that.

You know exactly who you are, and you don't pretend to be anything but.

You're authentic.

People admire that.

I know I do.

In the dryer.

Come on.

Featured speaker. Can't be late.

Hey, Val.

Hi.

So?

Where are you going in such a rush?

The year was 2001.

America was at war.

But a far more private war was taking place on Harvard's esteemed campus.

Whitney Timmons, then a sophomore, recalls the collegiate atmosphere as

particularly intense.

Okay, it's almost time.

Wish me luck. Your mom called when you were in the laundry room.

We spoke.

Can we talk about this later?

I don't think so.

No.

You recording?

Do you mind pausing?

I don't think the protesters need to hear this.

I'm sorry for throwing a little extra salt on you the other day with Carlos. I

just, maybe I was dealing with some of my own shit.

Shit like a sidelining mic in a frog costume?

Did you have a good reason?

Yeah, I did, but... But it wasn't worth it.

You want to keep me company?

Yeah.

Together, united, we'll never be divided.

Together, united, we'll never be divided.

Together, united, we'll never be divided.

Together, united, we'll never be divided.

Okay, here goes nothing.

Together, united, we'll never be divided.

Okay, I am, like, obsessed with you guys. Thanks.

All right.

Thank you guys so much for coming.

Today we're going to hear from a person who has a very personal connection to

this issue.

Look, it just, it came out.

I'm not hurting anyone. It's for a good cause. It's like you're afraid to be

quiet.

You need to be as loud as possible with everything, with being queer, your mom's

legal status.

Why isn't the truth enough?

Why aren't you and me enough, Denise?

Or are you and me just a lie?

Like the one you're about to go out there and tell.

I hear Sinclair has been coming.

Congrats.

Are you okay?

Put up a good front.

But if you peel everything back, I think I might just be a fraud.

A lot of things, but...

Fraud isn't at the top of my list.

Sometimes I just catch myself saying things and doing things and I wonder who

is that I'm trying to impress.

You do good things that matter.

I do those things because I'm selfish.

Because I want the credit.

I can't trust my motives. They don't hold up.

You're being very hard on yourself.

Yeah.

Maybe I should be hard on you.

Last year when I saw Carlos' trailer,

I realized that nothing about you was real.

And if I was able to just go along with it, just give in to it, I think you

broke me somehow. Like, you just broke my radar.

I don't trust people easily.

I trusted you, and you made a complete fool out of me.

Sorry.

I just... It just... It all...

got away from me.

I don't care.

I don't care that you're sorry.

I get it.

I get how the big lie starts.

But now I'm no better than you.

And before I met you, I thought maybe I used to be.

What's your big lie, Valentina?

Val! We just got off the phone with the Immigrant Defense Law Center. We're

starting a fundraiser in December, but it's going to be everything.

Oh my god, that's amazing!

Thank you guys, this is awesome!

What's that?

It's just some footage of Liv that I'm editing for her memorial.

Bummer walk down memory lane.

Hey.

I heard about you and Denise.

You okay?

Yes. No.

I don't know.

Do you want some ice cream?

I still have some left over from my breakup with Carlos.

I'm just going to go to bed.

Okay, well just know that I'm always here for you.

Okay. Thank you.

You're making a podcast about Liv Steele, right?

Uh, yeah.

We grew up together, did you know that?

I knew Liv longer than anyone else here. How come you never asked me about her?

I guess I... I just didn't do a thorough job of scouting.

Bullshit.

I know who you are.