All language subtitles for Red Shoe Diaries s01e10 Emilys Dance

Dear Red Shoes, I feel your pain.

And I know that sometimes the pain can
be so great that fantasy takes the place

of reality.

Especially when you're alone.

I know because for a long time I thought
I was living my life truthfully.

That I thought I was pushing myself as
hard as I could.

Yes.

I know that lie.

September 8th.

My time in L .A. is almost up.

Either I get this Freedom Williams video
or it's back home for me.

See, I promised my mom when I left, if
things didn't start to move in six

months, I'd come home and get a real
job.

I've gotten close a few times.

But for some reason...

Something inside always stops me from
letting go.

Maybe it's because there's just so many
really good dancers out here.

I mean, really good dancers.

Or maybe it's because deep down, I just
don't believe I'm good enough.

I don't know.

And to make things even worse,

The moment I laid eyes on freedom, I
knew I was in trouble.

He's just so focused, so disciplined.

Every time he looks at me, it's like
he's looking right through me.

Here's what's happening.

Everybody know A .C.? A .C., where are
you?

A .C. is a choreographer.

He's in it from New York. Take it from
the top, really strong.

This is Tampa. She's the casting
director.

How long have you been dancing?

All my life. All my life.

I'm the director.

What we're going to be doing is we're
going to be interviewing most of you.

Right. Name, place of birth.

Hall of the Knee.

Allison Kramer.

Emily Johnston, Columbus, Ohio.

Tony Reed.

Faster.

Los Angeles, California.

Faster. We're talking energy here. Emily
Johnston, Columbus, Ohio.

How old are you, Allison Kramer?

I'm 22.

20 -something.

20 -something, huh?

Then cut those interviews against the
footage that we're doing for the video.

We're also going to film the whole
thing.

How long do you give yourself to make
it, Emily?

Six months, a year.

What if it takes you longer?

Well, if it's meant to be, it'll happen.

What if it doesn't?

I wouldn't have any peace.

Then I'll do something else.

I don't even want to think about it.

Okay. That's a good attitude.

Good luck.

Now, I'm going to ask you to get up.

Go up against that wall. I'm going to
say a word to you. I want you to say the

first thing that comes into your mind,
okay?

Freedom.

Equality. Moving.

Move for me, honey. It's okay.

Come on. I want to see it in your body.
You're a dancer. Move.

Freedom. How does it make you feel?

Alive. Free.

Good, good. Move.

Good. Freedom. Say it.

Freedom.

Screaming. Freedom!

Dancing. Do not give me attitude. Tell
me the first thing that comes into your

mind. Honey, that is the first thing
that comes to my mind.

Freedom.

I don't know.

Freedom.

One, two, three.

Three, down four. You're looking at the
floor. Right hand goes on the back.

Bring the butt up. Can we change the
lights, get some atmosphere, put some

in?

Put on some dark music, something dark.

Whenever you're ready.

Really sexy, man.

You're going to dance. Leave.

I'm going to give you the AC. You know
freedom.

How you doing?

You did great.

Thanks.

Hey.

Let me know.

On the next floor, the vibe is hot and
the folks is sore. These blue contacts

within, if you're a puss, then don't
forget.

Out of hand, I'm setting in. Puss is
where our dance is hit.

Take your time, but be discreet, because
you never know who you're meeting.

Hey, so this is the most.

Stevie's going to work with the girls.
Paige is going to work with the guys.

Yeah, and there's a story that goes with
it, too.

Emily's going to be dancing lead.

She's going to be playing Freedom's
girlfriend.

The back story is she was brought up in
the projects.

She was a really talented dancer, but
she's gotten really frustrated lately,

she's fallen on the bad times, and she's
got a gangster boyfriend now.

But Freedom, who also grew up in the
projects and really, really loved this

girl, and this girl loved him, has just
cut a new song, you know, because he's

left the projects and he's worked really
hard, and he's come back because he

knows how great a dancer this girl is,
and he begs her to dance in the video

with him.

Gangster finds out about it, he goes
ballistic because he's frightened of

the girl. He doesn't want to hear about
freedom, so you know bad things are

going to happen.

So what you got? You got your bad guys,
you got your gangster, you got freedom.

Who's the hero?

And you got the girl in between.

I want to bring the gangsters in.

Come on in.

I want to show you exactly what we're
going to do. Let's do this first, okay?

Emily.

Come on in.

Okay, you guys are over here.

You're here. Come here.

Freedom's over here.

Okay, here's what happens.

You ready?

I'm going to be you, okay?

You come back.

The first thing that's going to happen
is you want to keep Emily here.

She's... Let her...

Be on her own for a second, and then
you're going to come in here. And you're

going to come in here, and you're going
to, okay, I want you.

No, you stay there. Stay there.

Okay. And you're here. Just do that.

Now, she's going to try to go away.
You're going to go like this. I'm going

be you now. You go.

You go like this. You stop her. Come in
and stop her, but it's a dance.

And then you move back like that, okay?

At the same time that this is happening,
you keep doing this.

You come in, boom, put the piece on her
face. Put it on her, man.

But you don't want to shoot him, man,
because what are you going to tell your

mother? What are you going to tell your
mother, huh?

Your mother's going to say, what am I
going to tell my mother, man? Don't make

me shoot you. Don't make me shoot you.
Don't make me shoot you like that.

Come on now, do this. Do this. What?

Right away, you guys take freedom. Boom.

Get her. Go.

Go. Go.

Now what you want to happen, begin to
spin her, spin her, spin her, spin her,

spin her. Back over to that corner.

onto the floor that's it now we'll crawl
to freedom you see him with a gun get

down get down you guys come over don't
let her get there no matter what happens

that's it okay and freedom at a certain
time man it's the attitude man just get

you know this guy's got a fucking gun on
you man but keep him moving keep him

moving keep him moving get an attitude
break away break away music

I'm sorry.

Just give me a minute. I'll get it.

I feel it. It's just not coming out. I'm
sorry.

It's okay.

It's okay. It's easy.

Just go over a routine with her. Yeah,
you just gotta... Just listen to the

music. Get the routine.

Just feel it.

It's not a problem, man.

She knows the moves.

Right?

Yeah.

I know.

They had the same problem, too, when I
was starting out. You see?

Felt all this emotion inside.

Then one day, I was at this club, right,
in the sky, yo.

It's a fly.

It's a moon.

A crazy moon.

So I stepped to him. I said, yo, man,
what's your secret? He said, simple.

If he ever got blocked up in his mind,
right, he'd pick out somebody he knew

fuck me.

They kind of like fly him up against the
wall like this for you. What's up, man?

What's up?

Come with me. Come with me. Come on. You
a daddy boy? What's up? You saw him?

You saw him?

Yeah, just like that.

You know what I'm saying? Real simple.

You see, he said this emotion would
start to send to him, and his juices

start to flow, sort of like a jump
start, like a boost. You know what I'm

saying? You know what I mean?

Do you know what I'm trying to say? You
can push me.

Come on.

Just push me.

Push yourself.

Just let it go. Don't be scared.

Come on, baby. I'm all yours. What's up?
Push me.

Come for me.

Come for me.

Here it is. I'll take care of it.

Come on. Come on.

You've got to release yourself.

You've got to stop thinking.

Everything's held up tight.

Release it. Let it go.

We're going to break for the day.

And AC, make it work. We're back
tomorrow.

Eight o 'clock.

This is it.

I'm so nervous.

I can barely breathe.

No more excuses.

Freedom's right.

I've got to rise above my technique and
let my emotions flow.

All I can say is, I just wish I could
see what other people see in me.

I got this jam I want to play for you,
all right? Hold on. I'm going to win.

Don't go nowhere. I'm going to play for
you.

Yo, man, let me call you back.

Five minutes.

Joe, trust me. I'm going to call you
back. Five minutes. I'm going to win.

What are you doing here?

I'm out of clean underwear.

Just like you.

Hmm.

Guess I just never imagined someone like
you doing his own underwear.

Well, who gets wrong, sweetheart?

Somebody's gotta do it.

I mean, I'm not that famous yet, and
even if I was, I wouldn't be handing out

underwear to somebody clean.

Yeah. You're welcome.

Thanks for being so understanding today.

It's no problem. Don't mention it.
You're gonna be great.

You just gotta... Gotta what?

You gotta release.

You gotta rise to the occasion.

Yeah.

I know. I mean, I don't understand it.
Nothing like this has happened before.

It's like...

I feel all the emotion. I feel all the
energy, you know, and then, boom,

something happens, and I just, I mean,
I'm gone.

Yeah, that's probably because you've
never been pushed before.

No, I'm not pushed, you know. I'm used
to being pushed.

I don't know. Not the way I look today.
Not under this much pressure. I don't

think so. Ah, you're one pompous son of
a bitch. Ah, you should try what I

suggested.

Go ahead.

Push.

Push me.

Come on. I'm telling you, you'll be
surprised.

The things you'll find when everything
just comes out. Pow!

Push. Freedom, I'm not going to push
you.

Come on. Push.

That's ridiculous. I'm not going to push
you. All right.

I understand.

We'll be doing this for the next ten
years.

And it's got to rise above the
inhibition. Come from out of order.

Fuck you.

Oh. Oh.

Seriously look around.

There's no one here but this sound and
you and me. Step one, two, three. What a

perfect harmony.

Step one was all those years of
practicing so hide your tears. Step two,

in you and do not forget what to do. Do,
do, do. Come on, come on, come on.

You can do it. You can. Check it out.

Step three is the hard part and it
requires the heart.

You must have it from the start if you
believe in your art. All in all, there

no clue of exactly what to do. You must
reach for the stars and hold on to them

like glue. This is the part that will
send most running home back to the coast

with their tails between their legs all
broke up like scrambled eggs. So come

on, push, push, push.

You can do it. Come on, come on. You can
do it. Do it.

Come on. See this? Just take it.

Just take it. There it is.

Come on.

Come on.

Release. I know you can do it. I
wouldn't push you if I didn't believe

do it. Come on.

Come on.

Release. If I didn't want you to, I
wouldn't ask you to.

We wouldn't be here.

Come on. I won't stop until you commit.

You've got to get this part. Come on.
See? There it is. I see it.

Come on. Come on.

Come on.

That's it.

That's it. That's it.

Come on now.

You know you can do it.

That's what you got to do.

You got to commit.

This will be hard.

All that anger and tension you got is
bottled up.

It's bottled up.

Come on.

That's it.

You got to reach.

You got to dig deep.

You can be whatever you want to be.

But you got to believe.

You know how beautiful you look tonight?

Yeah, man.

The next day.

D -Day.

The day of the shoot.

Couldn't sleep.

Can't eat.

Still too nervous.

What's happening?

A .C.

Yeah, what's up? Talk to me.

You ready?

You girls ready?

Let's do it.

Everybody up here, let's see what it
looks like.

With a new track.

This ain't fiction, it's fact.

I made the rules that'll make you wanna
groove. That'll make you wanna prove my

moves to all that.

Dance till you feel like I feel. Now,
grab your girl and then move that house.

Now is the time. Now is the year. And
this is the world premiere.

Back to the phone.

Break it down for me, brother.

One, two, one more is three. Here we go.
You want to flow? Join with me.

Wave your hands in the air from side to
side.

There's no shame to claim the fame that
I became.

Do everybody scream that name?

I thought you had this worked out.

She'll get it. Just give us one more
chance, man. Chill.

It's no problem.

Just give us ten minutes, man. Just give
us ten minutes. I don't have ten

minutes. Let's do the European version.

The unrated version. Let's do it now.

Hold on, hold on. She can do it, man.
She can do it. All right, listen up.

doing the European version.

Emily, close off. You're going to need
body makeup. What? What?

Hey, you sign the nudity rider. All you
girls sign the nudity rider.

I'm not taking off my clothes.

All right. Just give us ten more
minutes, man. No, no. We don't have ten

minutes. We've got so much time. We've
got so much money. I don't want you to

anything you're not comfortable with.
Listen, then if that's your attitude...

No, no, wait a minute. I got another
girl here.

Great. Come on.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. Let me
take your hair.

I'm out.

That's it, man.

Jesus Christ, man. Get a grip on it.
Where's the stuff you spoke to? I don't

care. I really don't care.

Unrated version now.

Put the music on. Put the music on.
European version. Let's go.

Let me

know.

On the dance floor, the vibe is hot and
the force is sore. Passing through,

contact within. If you're a puss, then
don't begin.

Out of hand, I must admit, but this is
where our dance is hit. Take your time,

but be discreet, cause you never know
who you might meet.

You don't give a shit?

Bullshit. You're full of shit. I'm
telling you. Just leave me alone, okay?

my chance. I blew it.

No, you didn't blow anything, but you
know what you're doing? You're blowing

right now. All of a sudden, it's not
comfortable, so you're just going to

out on me?

Wall to wall, the price is high.

You might meet that type of guy or type
of girl who rock your world and trade

your diamonds for their pearls. You can
stand and end the days, picking up their

sexy ways.

You might have to paraphrase what you
call the fatter days.

All in all, there is no clue. If the sex
is good, take two. Sometimes I don't

know what to do. I might explode all
over you, all over you.

All over you. Who was that last night?

You knew I was down and you took
advantage of me.

If that was me taking advantage of you
last night, then I need to check myself

into a loony bin for an overhaul. You're
right. Could you do it? Send a bill to

me.

Okay.

I understand now.

Okay. Thank you.

European version, please.

No problem. That's the way you want to
do it. You want to do the European

version? Let's do it. We can do it right
now. All right. It's not a problem.

It's not a problem. What do you want?

What do you want? I'll hit you. Hit you.

That's exactly it. Now just take that
passion, honey, and just start to dance.

Just take all that emotion you're
feeling and just start to dance. That's

Just reach down.

You got it. You got it. Now what I want
to do is I want to pick up the video

exactly where we left off.

Everybody just get it in the position.
That's it, honey. Just reach down. You

got it.

Just reach down. I want to pick it up.

You got what you wanted, huh?

You bet your ass.

I did.

I got what I wanted.

Now what do I do?

Not with my career, but the way I feel
about freedom.

Rule number one.

The last thing my mother said before I
left home was, never, never fall in love

with a rock star.

And if you do, then go immediately to
rule number two.

If you gotta love him, Take it one day
at a time.

Somehow what I learned from him was to
push past what I thought my limits were.

And most importantly, to trust myself.

Love to learn to trust myself, too.