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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:04,010 --> 00:00:09,510 I started making these tapes because I wanted people's stories and I hoped that 2 00:00:09,510 --> 00:00:10,510 they'd matter someday. 3 00:00:11,790 --> 00:00:15,710 And now I 4 00:00:15,710 --> 00:00:22,670 guess that possibility feels much more real to 5 00:00:22,670 --> 00:00:23,670 me. 6 00:00:25,650 --> 00:00:28,930 These tapes are important. 7 00:00:29,970 --> 00:00:31,870 Someone will watch them someday. 8 00:00:33,710 --> 00:00:34,710 They'll know. 9 00:00:37,490 --> 00:00:43,670 They'll know what happened and how we helped one another, 10 00:00:43,830 --> 00:00:46,410 how we survived. 11 00:00:50,430 --> 00:00:51,730 There will be a future. 12 00:01:11,080 --> 00:01:13,680 I'm from Dallas. How did you two meet? It was a hurricane. 13 00:01:14,060 --> 00:01:17,600 So I'm hiding in the back of a big spot, praying to Jesus the roof don't come 14 00:01:17,600 --> 00:01:22,160 off, and who comes limping in but old Earl here, gasping his leg just bleeding 15 00:01:22,160 --> 00:01:23,240 all over the floor. 16 00:01:24,320 --> 00:01:26,440 I fought a tree, and the tree won. 17 00:01:27,180 --> 00:01:29,440 Well, I helped him, and he helped me. 18 00:01:29,640 --> 00:01:31,360 We've been helping each other out ever since. 19 00:01:32,400 --> 00:01:33,760 I never had a daughter. 20 00:01:34,460 --> 00:01:35,460 Earl's my rock. 21 00:01:35,580 --> 00:01:38,220 I swear to God I don't know where I'd be without him. 22 00:01:38,940 --> 00:01:40,400 Look at him, blushing. 23 00:01:40,620 --> 00:01:41,640 I ain't. 24 00:01:43,380 --> 00:01:44,380 We're good together. 25 00:01:44,440 --> 00:01:46,440 He's good with the dead. I'm good with the living. 26 00:01:46,780 --> 00:01:47,780 And fishing? 27 00:01:48,180 --> 00:01:50,600 I never had a fish before Earl taught me. 28 00:01:51,500 --> 00:01:53,960 Only thing my daddy taught me was how to make a stiff drink. 29 00:01:54,460 --> 00:01:56,420 She caught a striped bass the other week. 30 00:01:56,840 --> 00:01:58,000 It was this big. 31 00:02:00,700 --> 00:02:02,520 You were alone when Earl found you? 32 00:02:03,680 --> 00:02:06,560 Girl, I've been on my own since I was 16. 33 00:02:07,520 --> 00:02:08,519 Never knew my mama. 34 00:02:08,800 --> 00:02:12,900 Just had some pictures and a pearl necklace she won in a singing contest. 35 00:02:14,720 --> 00:02:15,800 You still have it? 36 00:02:17,980 --> 00:02:23,980 Back when I was living in a tent city under I -30, before it all started, I 37 00:02:23,980 --> 00:02:28,460 didn't want nobody to steal it, so I put it in an old cigar box and buried it. 38 00:02:31,020 --> 00:02:34,960 You said before that he helped you after you helped him. 39 00:02:35,840 --> 00:02:36,840 Yeah. 40 00:02:37,360 --> 00:02:39,880 How do you know found me in the back of that big spot? 41 00:02:41,080 --> 00:02:45,100 I was messed up From what? 42 00:02:46,860 --> 00:02:53,340 Things I saw things I did What kinds of things 43 00:02:53,340 --> 00:02:56,600 Bad things 44 00:02:56,600 --> 00:03:02,920 There's a line between right and wrong 45 00:03:02,920 --> 00:03:05,760 I promised myself I'd never cross it 46 00:03:06,570 --> 00:03:07,570 But I did. 47 00:03:08,210 --> 00:03:13,350 You did what you had to do to stay alive. It just came so naturally, like I 48 00:03:13,350 --> 00:03:15,330 brushing my teeth. It was easy. 49 00:03:17,590 --> 00:03:20,090 We didn't have to talk about it. He just understood. 50 00:03:22,290 --> 00:03:23,610 Why do you think that is, Earl? 51 00:03:26,530 --> 00:03:27,530 Because I've been there. 52 00:03:29,410 --> 00:03:33,590 I crossed over that same line down in them tunnels in Hobo Woods. 53 00:03:35,030 --> 00:03:36,030 Say what? 54 00:03:36,880 --> 00:03:38,080 You were a tunnel rat. 55 00:03:39,720 --> 00:03:40,720 Yes, ma 'am. 56 00:03:41,200 --> 00:03:43,620 Non gratis enus rodentum. 57 00:03:44,160 --> 00:03:45,440 The hell does that mean? 58 00:03:47,800 --> 00:03:49,400 Not worth a rat's ass. 59 00:03:52,220 --> 00:03:54,020 They call me the Descrubadon. 60 00:03:55,640 --> 00:03:59,460 If he sees us underground hiding, I'd find him. 61 00:04:00,400 --> 00:04:01,400 Damn. 62 00:04:03,560 --> 00:04:07,260 They'd nail snakes to the door right at our level so they could... Bites you in 63 00:04:07,260 --> 00:04:08,260 the face. 64 00:04:09,620 --> 00:04:12,540 I still wake up in the middle of the night hearing that hissing. 65 00:04:14,340 --> 00:04:15,580 Sounds like the dead. 66 00:04:17,779 --> 00:04:19,399 When I got through them tunnels. 67 00:04:20,399 --> 00:04:23,420 Same way you survived that tent city, CJ. 68 00:04:24,480 --> 00:04:26,120 We're survivors, you and me. 69 00:04:28,760 --> 00:04:30,920 How come you never told me about that before? 70 00:04:33,830 --> 00:04:36,970 Why didn't you tell me about that cigar box with your mama's thing? 71 00:04:38,890 --> 00:04:39,890 I don't know. 72 00:04:40,290 --> 00:04:41,670 I think about it sometimes. 73 00:04:42,690 --> 00:04:43,830 Wonder if it's still there. 74 00:04:45,210 --> 00:04:46,210 Let's go see. 75 00:04:47,390 --> 00:04:48,770 Ain't no way I could find it. 76 00:04:50,090 --> 00:04:51,830 You forget who you're talking to. 77 00:04:52,490 --> 00:04:54,230 I'm the descubadore, remember? 78 00:04:56,910 --> 00:04:58,350 That's why he's my ride or die. 79 00:04:59,650 --> 00:05:00,930 The way I see it. 80 00:05:01,750 --> 00:05:03,590 We've already been through hell and back. 81 00:05:04,670 --> 00:05:10,310 What we've seen, what we've done, makes all this look like a walk in the park. 82 00:05:12,130 --> 00:05:18,250 Thinking about you crawling through those tunnels, getting bit by a snake, 83 00:05:18,250 --> 00:05:19,610 me feel like I can do anything. 84 00:05:22,910 --> 00:05:29,890 Having you to look after, having you looking after me, keeps me going. 85 00:05:31,500 --> 00:05:32,880 Gets me up in the morning. 86 00:05:34,920 --> 00:05:36,460 And for that, I am grateful. 87 00:05:38,000 --> 00:05:39,220 You're fixing to make me cry. 88 00:05:40,400 --> 00:05:41,400 I mean it. 89 00:05:42,740 --> 00:05:43,740 I know you do, Earl. 90 00:05:44,100 --> 00:05:45,100 I love you, too. 91 00:06:04,750 --> 00:06:05,750 Let's talk. 92 00:06:06,470 --> 00:06:07,790 You're talking about the Boy Scouts. 93 00:06:08,250 --> 00:06:10,330 Yes. I was scout leader for both my boys. 94 00:06:11,310 --> 00:06:17,950 So, give us a Coke can, we can make you a lantern, signal mirror, even a penny 95 00:06:17,950 --> 00:06:18,950 stove. 96 00:06:20,310 --> 00:06:23,510 I had a buddy, he was a prepper. 97 00:06:25,190 --> 00:06:26,370 God, we used to laugh at him. 98 00:06:27,190 --> 00:06:33,230 Just... I hope he made it just so he could say, I told you so, because... 99 00:06:33,900 --> 00:06:34,900 He did. 100 00:06:36,600 --> 00:06:38,480 We're going to be okay out here for a while. 101 00:06:39,000 --> 00:06:41,660 We've got the lake for water and fish. 102 00:06:43,620 --> 00:06:46,360 Kyle, he nabbed a whitetail a couple weeks ago. 103 00:06:46,640 --> 00:06:48,800 A few more of those, we'll be set for the winter. 104 00:06:50,220 --> 00:06:55,820 Not a lot of folks live up there, so daisy pushers, they're not much of a 105 00:06:55,820 --> 00:06:59,360 problem. I mean, coming down here was the most dangerous thing I've done in 106 00:06:59,360 --> 00:07:00,360 months. 107 00:07:01,020 --> 00:07:02,240 What made you take the chance? 108 00:07:06,090 --> 00:07:07,090 A library. 109 00:07:08,570 --> 00:07:11,270 Not much nuance in Grisham on the fifth read. 110 00:07:12,390 --> 00:07:13,930 You risked your life for books. 111 00:07:16,070 --> 00:07:17,130 And a check on the bank. 112 00:07:18,730 --> 00:07:19,950 Is that where you worked before? 113 00:07:20,570 --> 00:07:24,150 Yeah. Manager, clemency, savings and trust. 114 00:07:25,530 --> 00:07:27,090 Safe deposit boxes and the like. 115 00:07:29,930 --> 00:07:32,810 When people started getting sick, I locked it down tight. 116 00:07:33,150 --> 00:07:34,910 Took the family up to the cabin. 117 00:07:35,939 --> 00:07:36,939 Up on Lake Worth. 118 00:07:38,900 --> 00:07:40,180 They didn't want me to come down here. 119 00:07:40,840 --> 00:07:42,760 Stacy, she raised a fuss. 120 00:07:43,440 --> 00:07:47,040 But I had to see with my own eyes if the vault was still standing. 121 00:07:48,600 --> 00:07:49,600 Was it? 122 00:07:50,720 --> 00:07:51,720 Yes, ma 'am. 123 00:07:53,500 --> 00:07:55,820 Window smashed, cash was gone, but the vault? 124 00:07:57,260 --> 00:07:58,320 Just as I left it. 125 00:08:00,200 --> 00:08:02,100 Might be a good place to stash some things. 126 00:08:04,910 --> 00:08:05,910 I reckon so. 127 00:08:06,550 --> 00:08:10,570 But I'm not planning to go back down there. Anyone else have access? 128 00:08:12,910 --> 00:08:14,630 Ava Johnson, assistant manager. 129 00:08:15,750 --> 00:08:17,710 She was anyway. 130 00:08:17,910 --> 00:08:20,430 I have no way of telling if she's still alive. 131 00:08:21,530 --> 00:08:24,270 You could give me the combination. 132 00:08:25,030 --> 00:08:26,650 I don't know how I feel about that. 133 00:08:27,330 --> 00:08:28,330 I get it. 134 00:08:28,410 --> 00:08:29,990 I just want to keep some things safe. 135 00:08:31,870 --> 00:08:33,210 That money belongs to someone. 136 00:08:34,250 --> 00:08:36,049 Those things are family heirlooms. 137 00:08:36,490 --> 00:08:37,830 Things that hold meaning. 138 00:08:39,390 --> 00:08:40,970 You think they're coming back for it? 139 00:08:43,070 --> 00:08:44,070 Yeah. 140 00:08:44,310 --> 00:08:45,310 I don't know. 141 00:08:45,570 --> 00:08:47,490 People don't care about those things anymore. 142 00:08:48,350 --> 00:08:49,370 Not those things. 143 00:08:50,070 --> 00:08:53,070 I'm not talking about old car titles. 144 00:08:55,110 --> 00:08:56,330 I'm talking about history. 145 00:08:57,530 --> 00:09:00,030 You know, a grandfather's wife from the war. 146 00:09:01,650 --> 00:09:03,990 Diamonds swallowed outside of Ellis Island. 147 00:09:06,030 --> 00:09:07,810 Those vaults have stories. 148 00:09:08,270 --> 00:09:13,390 Yeah, stories of the people who put them there, but... Anyone else, they're 149 00:09:13,390 --> 00:09:14,590 relics of a bygone era? 150 00:09:15,050 --> 00:09:18,650 They're not all relics. We are arguing for the same thing. 151 00:09:18,950 --> 00:09:20,810 The preservation of history. 152 00:09:21,270 --> 00:09:27,030 The difference is I'm preserving who we are, not what we had. 153 00:09:28,250 --> 00:09:29,310 I have a duty. 154 00:09:29,650 --> 00:09:30,650 So do I. 155 00:09:31,690 --> 00:09:35,070 One day when this is all over, there has to be documentation. 156 00:09:35,890 --> 00:09:36,890 People need to know. 157 00:09:37,770 --> 00:09:42,390 Look, if someone opens your vault in a hundred years, what can they learn from 158 00:09:42,390 --> 00:09:45,390 an old watch or a diamond? They'll need context, right? 159 00:09:46,150 --> 00:09:49,090 They're going to want to know who kept them safe. They're going to want to know 160 00:09:49,090 --> 00:09:50,890 about you. 161 00:09:53,030 --> 00:09:54,550 I don't know if they want to see that. 162 00:09:55,670 --> 00:09:56,670 Who knows? 163 00:09:56,970 --> 00:10:00,850 This tape, your story, could really help someone someday. 164 00:10:07,470 --> 00:10:09,070 Next time I go down, I'll take you with me. 165 00:10:10,090 --> 00:10:13,610 Every time you leave, you don't know if you'll make it back. 166 00:10:13,830 --> 00:10:14,830 Now you're sounding like Stacy. 167 00:10:15,030 --> 00:10:17,030 Well, maybe Stacy's right. 168 00:10:17,650 --> 00:10:18,830 What if you don't make it back? 169 00:10:21,770 --> 00:10:24,010 Let's just say this tape was what they had of you. 170 00:10:24,890 --> 00:10:26,410 Is there anything you'd want to tell them? 171 00:10:30,630 --> 00:10:33,150 Yeah, I'd probably start out. 172 00:10:33,370 --> 00:10:34,370 Say it here. 173 00:10:36,230 --> 00:10:37,230 Boys? 174 00:10:37,740 --> 00:10:40,780 Kyle, Lee, stay safe. 175 00:10:44,320 --> 00:10:45,320 Be good to your mother. 176 00:10:49,280 --> 00:10:50,780 Be good to everybody you meet. 177 00:10:52,040 --> 00:10:53,120 We're in a different world. 178 00:10:54,220 --> 00:10:55,920 We all need to look out for one another. 179 00:11:08,270 --> 00:11:13,570 If you're seeing this, I'm sorry I got killed. 180 00:11:25,110 --> 00:11:28,870 I've loved you ever since you told me to kiss you down there on that river. 181 00:11:37,870 --> 00:11:43,770 I love you and raising that family together was the greatest joy of my 182 00:12:03,490 --> 00:12:04,570 I'll give you that combination. 183 00:12:09,290 --> 00:12:14,050 Probably won't be discovered for a hundred years, but fill it with stories. 184 00:12:14,690 --> 00:12:16,710 All kinds of stories from all kinds of people. 185 00:12:18,810 --> 00:12:19,810 For the future. 186 00:12:21,150 --> 00:12:22,150 Whatever that is. 187 00:12:23,590 --> 00:12:24,590 I won't. 188 00:12:27,630 --> 00:12:28,630 Guess I'll arrive with. 189 00:12:46,190 --> 00:12:47,190 What do you want to know? 190 00:12:48,430 --> 00:12:50,610 Start with your name, where you're from. 191 00:12:53,250 --> 00:12:54,970 My name is Samora Sinclair. 192 00:12:55,570 --> 00:12:58,370 I was born and raised in Matthews, North Carolina. 193 00:13:00,510 --> 00:13:01,510 Where were you headed? 194 00:13:04,950 --> 00:13:07,830 Forty -six days ago, I was on my way to Tucson, Arizona. 195 00:13:09,850 --> 00:13:10,850 What happened? 196 00:13:11,790 --> 00:13:12,790 My sister died. 197 00:13:20,260 --> 00:13:22,140 Sorry, what are you doing? 198 00:13:22,440 --> 00:13:23,800 Counting my pennies. 199 00:13:26,260 --> 00:13:27,480 How many are there? 200 00:13:29,200 --> 00:13:30,200 Always five. 201 00:13:31,720 --> 00:13:32,940 Always odd years. 202 00:13:35,860 --> 00:13:37,360 What happens if they're not? 203 00:13:44,700 --> 00:13:46,880 I'm... I'm not crazy. 204 00:13:50,600 --> 00:13:52,280 Hey, everyone copes in their own way. 205 00:13:56,100 --> 00:14:01,640 I was diagnosed with OCD when I was 11. I was on chlorovan, triple, andromedal. 206 00:14:02,920 --> 00:14:04,820 Cognitive behavioral therapy twice a week. 207 00:14:06,280 --> 00:14:07,600 I learned to manage it. 208 00:14:08,800 --> 00:14:09,920 I had a job. 209 00:14:11,040 --> 00:14:12,040 A boyfriend. 210 00:14:13,360 --> 00:14:15,400 I was a fully functioning adult. 211 00:14:18,220 --> 00:14:19,880 And then when everything went bad, 212 00:14:21,800 --> 00:14:22,800 So did I. 213 00:14:23,980 --> 00:14:29,900 I started pulling my hair out again, and I started 214 00:14:29,900 --> 00:14:32,180 counting again. 215 00:14:35,380 --> 00:14:36,380 Counting what? 216 00:14:37,880 --> 00:14:38,880 Everything. 217 00:14:40,400 --> 00:14:42,920 Today I took 18 ,903 steps. 218 00:14:44,120 --> 00:14:45,600 Your jacket has six buttons. 219 00:14:46,380 --> 00:14:47,700 Mine also has six. 220 00:14:49,290 --> 00:14:51,910 I have worn it for 553 days. 221 00:14:55,010 --> 00:14:56,090 Well, it's a nice jacket. 222 00:14:59,390 --> 00:15:00,390 Thank you. 223 00:15:01,330 --> 00:15:03,130 I always button it from the bottom. 224 00:15:03,810 --> 00:15:04,810 It's safer. 225 00:15:06,930 --> 00:15:09,430 I know how that sounds, but it's true. 226 00:15:14,410 --> 00:15:15,610 How did your sister die? 227 00:15:17,900 --> 00:15:19,140 I didn't have my pennies. 228 00:15:20,060 --> 00:15:25,700 I only had four, and I have to have five. I pulled up in an office building, 229 00:15:25,700 --> 00:15:28,820 the dead were pushing up against the entrance. 230 00:15:31,640 --> 00:15:36,500 Our group wanted to go out the back, but I can't do that. 231 00:15:38,320 --> 00:15:39,320 Why not? 232 00:15:40,580 --> 00:15:41,880 I just can't. 233 00:15:43,100 --> 00:15:44,200 I have to go down. 234 00:15:44,570 --> 00:15:47,690 The staircase, I went up, and I have to go out the entrance I came in. 235 00:15:48,070 --> 00:15:49,290 Crystal got bit in the shoulder. 236 00:15:59,690 --> 00:16:05,450 The 59th dead person that I killed 237 00:16:05,450 --> 00:16:07,510 was my little sister. 238 00:16:10,990 --> 00:16:12,150 And it was my fault. 239 00:16:15,080 --> 00:16:16,360 What did you do after that? 240 00:16:19,420 --> 00:16:20,420 I counted. 241 00:16:21,580 --> 00:16:24,680 The trees, the dead, everything. 242 00:16:25,680 --> 00:16:27,320 I couldn't handle anything else. 243 00:16:30,040 --> 00:16:32,460 I had one gun and four bullets. 244 00:16:33,640 --> 00:16:40,580 More than enough to, you know... I 245 00:16:40,580 --> 00:16:41,600 was just so tired. 246 00:16:45,710 --> 00:16:46,890 Crystal loved sunset. 247 00:16:49,230 --> 00:16:52,170 So I climbed the highest west -facing point that I could find. 248 00:16:55,510 --> 00:16:56,530 It was beautiful. 249 00:16:59,210 --> 00:17:02,930 It felt like Crystal was just on the other side. 250 00:17:06,869 --> 00:17:08,770 All I had to do was pull the trigger. 251 00:17:11,810 --> 00:17:12,810 What happened? 252 00:17:18,510 --> 00:17:19,510 I heard it. 253 00:17:21,550 --> 00:17:26,510 The loudest sound I heard in... I don't know how long. 254 00:17:29,010 --> 00:17:30,430 And then I saw it. 255 00:17:32,730 --> 00:17:38,330 This soaring over the mountain, this squatty little bus with wings and 256 00:17:38,330 --> 00:17:40,770 propellers just flying through the sky. 257 00:17:43,450 --> 00:17:44,910 It was you and your friends. 258 00:17:48,780 --> 00:17:54,040 When I saw that plane, I... For the first time since it all started, 259 00:17:54,140 --> 00:17:56,480 I stopped counting. 260 00:17:59,240 --> 00:18:01,620 There was just one plane. 261 00:18:02,640 --> 00:18:05,000 One plane soaring through the sky. 262 00:18:06,040 --> 00:18:12,820 And to see something so big and mechanical, something 263 00:18:12,820 --> 00:18:17,580 man -made, I... I don't know. 264 00:18:19,850 --> 00:18:20,870 I wasn't scared anymore. 265 00:18:24,330 --> 00:18:28,730 I didn't want to count the dead or the seconds it would take me to hit the 266 00:18:28,730 --> 00:18:29,730 ground. 267 00:18:32,030 --> 00:18:34,730 I wanted to count the steps I would take to find that plane. 268 00:18:37,390 --> 00:18:38,390 And? 269 00:18:40,390 --> 00:18:41,390 How many? 270 00:18:41,730 --> 00:18:43,670 31 ,703. 271 00:18:46,330 --> 00:18:47,330 Nice odd number. 272 00:18:50,290 --> 00:18:51,290 Yeah. 273 00:18:57,210 --> 00:19:01,210 Since I joined you people, things have been better. 274 00:19:02,130 --> 00:19:03,130 I'm managing. 275 00:19:04,230 --> 00:19:07,690 I'm still counting, except now I count supplies. 276 00:19:10,350 --> 00:19:16,690 We have 209 help boxes, 200 pallets of bottled water, 450 277 00:19:16,690 --> 00:19:18,850 peanut butter protein bars. 278 00:19:21,870 --> 00:19:23,710 June set me up to manage the supplies. 279 00:19:24,390 --> 00:19:28,770 And it's a job I'm uniquely suited for. 280 00:19:32,050 --> 00:19:35,550 I'm using my affliction to help people. 281 00:19:38,830 --> 00:19:40,050 Like you helped me. 282 00:19:43,870 --> 00:19:46,490 And that feels... 283 00:19:53,040 --> 00:19:54,660 I'm glad you found us when you did. 284 00:19:56,800 --> 00:19:59,460 Me too. 285 00:20:18,820 --> 00:20:21,640 I get these noodles. 286 00:20:22,090 --> 00:20:23,090 And you take me to Tyler? 287 00:20:23,170 --> 00:20:24,170 Yep. 288 00:20:24,310 --> 00:20:25,870 All I got to do is tell you my story. 289 00:20:26,430 --> 00:20:27,430 Yep. 290 00:20:28,750 --> 00:20:30,330 It's a hundred miles from here. Why? 291 00:20:31,690 --> 00:20:32,690 Stories are important. 292 00:20:33,510 --> 00:20:35,070 You might change your mind after you hear mine. 293 00:20:35,750 --> 00:20:36,850 You can be the judge of that. 294 00:20:37,970 --> 00:20:38,970 Start with your name. 295 00:20:40,210 --> 00:20:41,210 Ed. 296 00:20:41,690 --> 00:20:42,690 Where are you from, Ed? 297 00:20:43,510 --> 00:20:44,510 Oregon. 298 00:20:45,130 --> 00:20:46,210 Where are you trying to go? 299 00:20:47,610 --> 00:20:48,610 The people there? 300 00:20:49,810 --> 00:20:50,810 My family. 301 00:20:51,660 --> 00:20:52,880 I think they are. 302 00:20:53,360 --> 00:20:54,360 I don't know. 303 00:20:55,720 --> 00:20:56,820 Long way from home? 304 00:20:58,500 --> 00:21:00,860 I started in Daytona. 305 00:21:01,520 --> 00:21:02,720 What's in Daytona? 306 00:21:03,660 --> 00:21:04,660 Nothing good. 307 00:21:04,980 --> 00:21:05,980 Even then. 308 00:21:07,140 --> 00:21:08,960 So what were you doing in Daytona? 309 00:21:12,440 --> 00:21:13,680 You want to go to Tyler? 310 00:21:13,940 --> 00:21:15,100 You've got to work with me here. 311 00:21:17,300 --> 00:21:19,240 I was touring. 312 00:21:19,640 --> 00:21:20,640 In a band? 313 00:21:20,960 --> 00:21:21,960 Yeah, I wish. 314 00:21:22,360 --> 00:21:23,360 Sports team? 315 00:21:23,680 --> 00:21:25,080 I look like the athletic type. 316 00:21:26,120 --> 00:21:27,120 What then? 317 00:21:35,140 --> 00:21:38,620 It's really, really dumb. 318 00:21:43,260 --> 00:21:44,820 I did stand up. 319 00:21:46,700 --> 00:21:48,420 Why didn't you want to tell me that? 320 00:21:48,720 --> 00:21:49,720 Because it's pathetic. 321 00:21:50,590 --> 00:21:55,750 I left my parents, my sister, a nephew I've never met. 322 00:21:56,530 --> 00:21:57,530 And all for what? 323 00:21:58,070 --> 00:21:59,070 A dumb dream? 324 00:22:00,750 --> 00:22:05,910 You know, I told myself that when I make it big, I'm going to give it all back. 325 00:22:06,550 --> 00:22:09,450 I'm going to pay my parents' mortgage. I'm going to buy my sister a car. 326 00:22:11,250 --> 00:22:13,110 That's just what I told myself. 327 00:22:13,890 --> 00:22:15,350 And it wasn't for them. 328 00:22:16,070 --> 00:22:17,070 Who was it for? 329 00:22:18,690 --> 00:22:19,690 Who do you think? 330 00:22:22,510 --> 00:22:25,730 I wasn't doing it to help out my family. 331 00:22:26,330 --> 00:22:31,930 I was doing it because I wanted people to like me and to think that I was 332 00:22:33,050 --> 00:22:39,310 But the people that did like me, who thought I was funny, were 3 ,000 miles 333 00:22:39,310 --> 00:22:40,310 when it all went to shit. 334 00:22:42,330 --> 00:22:44,850 So you were chasing your dream. 335 00:22:45,870 --> 00:22:46,870 So bad about that. 336 00:22:48,230 --> 00:22:49,510 It was never going to happen. 337 00:22:50,230 --> 00:22:51,930 I just couldn't. 338 00:22:52,170 --> 00:22:53,570 See it. Why wasn't it going to happen? 339 00:22:54,610 --> 00:22:55,630 Because I wasn't very good. 340 00:22:56,010 --> 00:22:57,250 Oh, come on. You don't know that. 341 00:22:58,990 --> 00:23:00,290 I could use a good laugh. 342 00:23:00,570 --> 00:23:01,570 Try me. 343 00:23:01,610 --> 00:23:04,230 No, you don't want to hear any of my jokes. 344 00:23:04,990 --> 00:23:08,650 I want your story. This is part of it. 345 00:23:11,950 --> 00:23:14,210 It's a long walk to Tyler. All right. 346 00:23:16,310 --> 00:23:20,750 So, I used to do this bit about rappers. 347 00:23:21,520 --> 00:23:22,680 Thinking about liquor. 348 00:23:23,760 --> 00:23:27,480 And the whole thing would end with a pirate rap. 349 00:23:27,780 --> 00:23:28,780 A pirate? 350 00:23:31,140 --> 00:23:32,140 So stupid. 351 00:23:33,940 --> 00:23:38,560 Cruising into port and we're looking for a party. Yo ho ho and a bottle of 352 00:23:38,560 --> 00:23:39,560 Bacardi. 353 00:23:43,440 --> 00:23:45,520 Yeah, they didn't laugh in Daytona either. 354 00:23:49,040 --> 00:23:50,040 What? 355 00:23:55,080 --> 00:24:01,740 Before this conversation, I don't think I spoke to another living person for 356 00:24:01,740 --> 00:24:02,740 three months. 357 00:24:03,980 --> 00:24:10,800 And it's taken me, I don't know, a year 358 00:24:10,800 --> 00:24:12,480 just to make it this far. 359 00:24:14,800 --> 00:24:17,280 It'll take me another year to get to Oregon. 360 00:24:20,420 --> 00:24:23,560 And I don't... 361 00:24:23,800 --> 00:24:26,500 I don't know if my family's still there. 362 00:24:28,540 --> 00:24:29,540 If they're still alive. 363 00:24:33,380 --> 00:24:36,740 My nephew, he'd be two by now. 364 00:24:39,940 --> 00:24:41,280 I never even met him. 365 00:24:45,480 --> 00:24:46,480 That's on me. 366 00:24:48,720 --> 00:24:49,720 That's all on me. 367 00:24:53,340 --> 00:24:55,360 I'm sorry. I don't mean to complain. 368 00:24:55,600 --> 00:24:59,680 I mean, it's hard out there for everybody, you know. 369 00:25:00,120 --> 00:25:01,120 I do. 370 00:25:28,080 --> 00:25:29,260 We are good to go. 371 00:25:31,500 --> 00:25:33,060 I didn't even get my knife out. 372 00:25:36,460 --> 00:25:38,580 You know, it's a wonder that I'm still alive. 373 00:25:39,520 --> 00:25:45,020 No, yeah, it's... Like, the number of times I've almost died. 374 00:25:45,660 --> 00:25:48,280 And not even good close calls. 375 00:25:48,480 --> 00:25:51,700 You know, not like I was, you know, saving an orphanage or something. 376 00:25:51,920 --> 00:25:54,460 No, it's always the stupidest things. 377 00:25:54,680 --> 00:25:55,339 Like what? 378 00:25:55,340 --> 00:25:56,340 Like that. 379 00:25:58,030 --> 00:26:04,450 Or this one time, you know, I found this burlap sack of beans, right? Enough for 380 00:26:04,450 --> 00:26:09,650 a month, okay? That is a rare triumph for me, all right? So, you know, I'm 381 00:26:09,650 --> 00:26:15,590 walking back with my prize, and out of nowhere, one of them comes up, okay? 382 00:26:15,590 --> 00:26:19,550 scary guy, you know, teeth sticking out, one -eyed dangling and stuff, yeah. 383 00:26:19,790 --> 00:26:24,690 So, oh, and they're never alone, okay? So more of them start, you know, 384 00:26:24,690 --> 00:26:28,360 stumbling out from... everywhere and they're coming at me but of course all i 385 00:26:28,360 --> 00:26:32,760 care about are the beans all right so googly eyes he's reaching for me he's 386 00:26:32,760 --> 00:26:36,400 snapping away and i'm you know pushing against him with my bag and i'm swinging 387 00:26:36,400 --> 00:26:41,440 my machete around and stuff finally i i just i just take off i i run away as 388 00:26:41,440 --> 00:26:47,500 fast as i can and you know i still got the bag which is good you know uh but 389 00:26:47,500 --> 00:26:53,380 it's it's kind of heavy and and i look behind me and googly's gone well sort of 390 00:26:53,380 --> 00:26:57,240 okay turns out Uh, he's still attached to the bag. 391 00:26:57,560 --> 00:26:58,560 Oh! Yeah. 392 00:26:58,840 --> 00:27:00,500 Well, at least half of him was. 393 00:27:01,360 --> 00:27:07,220 His arm had gone through the bag, entrails flopping about, and I had been 394 00:27:07,220 --> 00:27:11,780 dragging half of this nightmare demon down the street like it was some 395 00:27:11,780 --> 00:27:17,080 prize. And the best part is, all right, there was a big hole in the bag, and I 396 00:27:17,080 --> 00:27:20,340 lost all the beans. I lost every last one of them. 397 00:27:27,950 --> 00:27:28,950 Thank you. 398 00:27:29,010 --> 00:27:30,010 Oh, my. 399 00:27:32,290 --> 00:27:35,790 Reminding me what it feels like to make someone laugh. 400 00:27:37,550 --> 00:27:38,550 Yeah. 401 00:27:38,730 --> 00:27:39,790 It's been a while. 402 00:27:40,930 --> 00:27:46,950 You know, if you like near -death stories told by the mouth of an idiot, 403 00:27:47,110 --> 00:27:49,190 I got loads. 404 00:27:49,490 --> 00:27:50,489 My favorite kind. 405 00:27:50,490 --> 00:27:53,950 Yeah. Near -death stories told by an idiot. Yeah. Yeah. I'm your guy. Who 406 00:27:53,950 --> 00:27:54,950 doesn't love those? 407 00:27:58,830 --> 00:28:00,590 What is it to Waco? 408 00:28:01,430 --> 00:28:02,430 Four hours, you think? 409 00:28:04,450 --> 00:28:07,190 Yeah, that's like 300 miles from here. 410 00:28:07,790 --> 00:28:09,930 Well, I liked your story. 411 00:28:10,270 --> 00:28:11,270 I want to hear more. 412 00:28:12,410 --> 00:28:13,910 Waco's on the table if you want it. 413 00:28:14,490 --> 00:28:16,450 Yeah. Yeah, definitely. 414 00:28:16,730 --> 00:28:18,010 Okay. Sweet. 415 00:28:18,230 --> 00:28:19,230 Let's do it. 416 00:28:39,500 --> 00:28:40,500 back a little. 417 00:28:41,700 --> 00:28:43,440 I used to do this in medical school. 418 00:28:44,680 --> 00:28:46,320 It helps with dexterity. 419 00:28:54,660 --> 00:29:01,340 I was a trauma surgeon at St. 420 00:29:01,540 --> 00:29:05,520 Joseph's back when it first broke out before we knew anything. 421 00:29:08,200 --> 00:29:09,980 We were on the front lines in the ER. 422 00:29:11,540 --> 00:29:17,740 A lot of doctors, a lot of good friends died trying to help people, 423 00:29:18,020 --> 00:29:20,360 just trying to do their job. 424 00:29:23,920 --> 00:29:30,740 My husband, Ryan, was an engineer for the city, and we managed to make it out 425 00:29:30,740 --> 00:29:31,740 town somehow. 426 00:29:33,620 --> 00:29:34,980 We landed in a settlement. 427 00:29:37,200 --> 00:29:39,120 A lot of need for medical care. 428 00:29:39,820 --> 00:29:46,660 Everything from stitches to horse and 429 00:29:46,660 --> 00:29:47,660 stitches. 430 00:29:52,740 --> 00:29:56,200 Ryan used to say that my hands were more precious than a good fence. 431 00:30:00,800 --> 00:30:02,760 A new world made Ryan brave. 432 00:30:05,680 --> 00:30:06,960 That doesn't always happen. 433 00:30:09,160 --> 00:30:14,440 And sometimes fear, true fear, brings out the worst in people. 434 00:30:17,120 --> 00:30:18,280 But not Ryan. 435 00:30:22,240 --> 00:30:28,820 The way that he protected me, it wasn't just because he loved me. 436 00:30:30,100 --> 00:30:34,580 It's because he knew that there weren't... 437 00:30:34,880 --> 00:30:36,720 Many people left that could do what I do. 438 00:30:38,880 --> 00:30:41,800 And he knew that people needed me to survive. 439 00:30:43,860 --> 00:30:45,280 And that was his gift to the world. 440 00:30:46,480 --> 00:30:47,480 Keeping me alive. 441 00:30:52,460 --> 00:30:53,520 What happened to him? 442 00:31:00,460 --> 00:31:01,880 How about your hand? 443 00:31:02,440 --> 00:31:04,580 What happened? The DSW to the abdomen. 444 00:31:06,580 --> 00:31:09,040 The victim got on the wrong side of the herd. 445 00:31:09,760 --> 00:31:11,020 You know how they herd, right? 446 00:31:14,280 --> 00:31:19,680 Well, he was trying to lead the herd away from the camp. 447 00:31:21,700 --> 00:31:27,780 Somebody got nervous, fired into the herd, and the bullet hit him in the 448 00:31:27,780 --> 00:31:28,780 stomach. 449 00:31:30,640 --> 00:31:34,640 When it came clean through, I knew he was bleeding out. 450 00:31:36,740 --> 00:31:38,140 So I had him on the table. 451 00:31:39,640 --> 00:31:41,400 No monitor, no power. 452 00:31:42,020 --> 00:31:43,760 Didn't even have a chance to sterilize. 453 00:31:44,700 --> 00:31:45,700 Not that it mattered. 454 00:31:48,940 --> 00:31:54,620 I was so focused on stopping the bleeding that I 455 00:31:54,620 --> 00:31:59,260 didn't realize that he had died. 456 00:32:04,140 --> 00:32:05,780 He was probably reaching out for me. 457 00:32:06,560 --> 00:32:07,580 So scared. 458 00:32:09,560 --> 00:32:12,020 I was so focused on keeping him alive. 459 00:32:13,820 --> 00:32:14,860 I didn't know. 460 00:32:17,960 --> 00:32:19,120 Until he bit me. 461 00:32:20,960 --> 00:32:24,160 I knew I had maybe a minute to amputate. 462 00:32:25,180 --> 00:32:30,060 It ain't pretty, but I'm alive. 463 00:32:36,870 --> 00:32:38,370 Patient. He was your husband. 464 00:32:45,930 --> 00:32:47,490 Is that obvious, huh? 465 00:32:50,890 --> 00:32:52,510 Why didn't you want to tell me? 466 00:32:56,030 --> 00:32:58,130 Because I didn't want that to be how he was remembered. 467 00:33:02,440 --> 00:33:07,920 Because if he knew that his death meant that I couldn't operate again, 468 00:33:08,040 --> 00:33:14,800 if he knew that his final act of selfless 469 00:33:14,800 --> 00:33:19,160 bravery took that away from people, people who needed it, 470 00:33:19,520 --> 00:33:26,340 it would be like, I don't know, 471 00:33:26,500 --> 00:33:28,160 it would be like he died all over again. 472 00:33:35,700 --> 00:33:42,640 That's why I have to relearn how to operate with one hand I Have to 473 00:33:42,640 --> 00:33:49,580 So that I can help people so that his 474 00:33:49,580 --> 00:33:50,580 death won't be for nothing 475 00:34:06,460 --> 00:34:07,460 That's what I'm going to do. 32963

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