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Previously on Touched by an Angel.

She's my assignment, isn't she, Tess?
The woman who was sitting there.

It's driving me crazy, that song.

It's Jed's song, Daddy.

No, it's our song.

Have you heard of the Winslow family
revival?

My little brother, Jed.

Shall water You're setting me up. Come
on, it's time your daddy heard you sing

in front of an audience.

I'm going to throw you off this bus
right now. I'll do it for you.

We have a seat for you now.

If you were being honest about what
happened, you'd have to acknowledge that

failed you.

He allowed this event to occur.

What terrible thing happened? She's the
angel I was telling you about.

Well, that's very interesting.

She's going to help me with the reunion.

I'm looking for a Jedediah K. Winslow at
this address.

Yeah, that's me.

So I'm thinking maybe it's time y 'all
started looking for another preacher. If

you come to Nashville with us right now,
God is going to give both Winslow

families the answers that they've been
looking for.

Nashville.

I like Nashville.

I'm sure your grandma and grandpa would
want to come.

What about Uncle Jed?

Well, that's up to you.

Monica went to look for him, but that
doesn't mean he has to come.

Who are you talking to?

Who's she talking to?

I'm talking to my son.

I was standing by my window on a cold
and

cloudy day.

So there never was a Donnie. Oh, yes.

But he died in the accident.

And Diana doesn't remember.

Not yet.

But it's time.

It's time to remember everything now.

J .D. and his sister will be wanting to
know why we brought them into this.

And actually, Tess, so will I.

Give it time.

When God heals something, he doesn't
just patch it up. He makes it stronger

it was before.

He's got plans for the Winslow family.

Both of them.

Remember when you told me that I had a
new gift for seeing human beings from

inside out?

Well, I understand There's someone else
who needs a revival

isn't there?

Yes, there is baby Yes, there is

Every burden, every load, I will

rise and I will walk with you.

I'll walk with you till the sun don't
even shine.

Walk with you every time I tell you I'll
walk.

I miss the music a lot. So do I.

You know, the coincidence is amazing.

I mean, your family name is Winslow. Our
family name is Winslow.

Y 'all are musical. So were we.

Your family has a ministry. Our family
has a ministry.

Oh, yeah, I know.

It's like looking into a mirror, isn't
it? Well, it just makes me wonder what

brought y 'all here.

We heard you were trying to have a
family reunion.

That's right. You know, honey, we don't
really know why we're here.

Your friend Monica told us that you
needed help.

Yeah, that's right.

It's true. It's just, it's been so
difficult since my husband's been ill.

I mean, Danny and I moved in here just
so we could be near him. Isn't that

right, Danny?

Danny?

Honestly, that boy has a terrible habit
of just running off.

I'm sorry.

It's okay.

No problem.

Well, it looks like at least two people
have the name of Jedediah K. Winslow.

Yes, he's not Diana's brother -in -law.
But I don't believe that it's a mistake

that he's here.

I think that J .D. and Cynthia are
supposed to be here.

I'm not a superstitious person, Monica.
I don't believe that things always

happen for a reason.

Neither do I.

I've seen all sorts of things happen for
no good reason whatsoever. But I've

also seen God.

Take things like that and use them to
create opportunities that you could

imagine. That's why I brought the other
Winslows back here.

So, you just thought you'd toss a couple
of complete strangers into the mix and

just see what God could make of it. No,
that's not what I mean.

You know, Diana is clearly mentally ill,
so I try to cut her a little slack when

it comes to this relentless faith in
God, but...

You seem to be a relatively stable
person, Monica, and here you are talking

same way. And here you are actually
listening to me?

It's my job to listen.

Look, I appreciate that you tried to
find Jed.

I just have to find another way to do
this.

Let me try again. If Jed really is the
key, then surely it's worth another try.

I want your word.

that you will only bring back the
correct Jedediah K. Winslow this time.

I promise.

I'll need to speak with the survivors.

Well, there are only three of them. Two,
actually.

They aren't in any condition to be much
help. But they're people of faith.

And faith is a very powerful thing.

Yes.

Well, look what it's done for Diana.

The woman believes in angels.

That woman in there thinks you're an
angel.

She's got me sitting here in Nashville
talking to an invisible little boy. Now,

I only packed enough for three days.

Now, I want to know, when is this going
to start making some sense?

The Titans start minicamp next week.

Hard to believe it's football season
again already.

Titans are a good team.

Maybe we'll get season tickets.

Then you're up to it.

Excuse me, I hope I'm not interrupting.

Well, not at all. Come right in.

Are you new?

Or do you work night?

We don't get over here much at night
because we don't drive after dark.

I'm Lila.

I'm Monica.

It's about time they got some new blood
in this ward.

Actually, I'm not a nurse.

I'm a friend of your daughter -in
-law's.

Diana?

Has something happened?

She's all right.

It's just that... Well, she really needs
to see some family right now.

Oh.

But, you know, being here all the time
just makes it so hard to get over there.

And then, too, the last time we were
there seemed to upset her.

Watching her sit there.

Talking to Danny.

I'm sorry.

And you know, she still thinks Josh is
just in another bedroom, sleeping in on

Saturday morning.

Did Diana ask you to come?

No, Dr. Markham did.

You see, I'm looking for your other son,
Jed.

Jed.

Don't know where the boy is.

Don't want to know.

The doctor believes that if Diana could
see him again, she would remember

everything that happened.

Maybe it'd be just as well if she didn't
remember.

I wish I didn't.

Monica, I'll see you out.

Well, uh... Mr.

Wendlow, I hope that you can find the
time to see Diana.

You're the only father she ever really
had.

The last time I saw Diana, she was going
on about having a family reunion for a

baby. She still is.

She even prayed for an angel to help
make it happen.

Well, to tell you the truth, I've been
praying for an angel, too.

Or for something to help me make some
sense out of all this.

Don't get me wrong.

It's not that I've spent the last three
years.

Asking God why it happened. I know why
it happened.

Walter fell asleep at the wheel.

It's not God's fault.

But the problem is, everybody else
thinks it's their fault.

And Diana, as damaged as that poor child
is,

well, you know, she's right.

This family, whatever's left, sure does
need to get back together

again.

It just seems so impossible right now.

With God, all things are possible.

Yeah.

We used to sing a song about that.

Monica, try Memphis.

Jed always used to talk about... Going
to Memphis, hanging around Beale Street.

To learn the blues.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Nashville now is Memphis?

I don't care if the spirit is leading
you.

Anything across the state line and it's
a federal case, you got it?

Cynthia, I didn't kidnap you. You came
of your own free will.

J .D. came of his own free will. I came
to keep him from using it too much.

I'd rather be in Memphis with Monica
than thinking of a new sermon for next

Sunday. Shame on you.

I keep telling you, Cynthia, I'm no kind
of preacher at all. I'm terrible at it.

I wish I weren't, but that's the way it
is.

Do you hear that?

Do you hear that? J .D., get your
guitar.

What is she doing?

I'd say the spirits were leading her.

You better hope so, because I'm going to
kill you when we get home.

If you call me, would I hear you?

If you held back my tears,

would I see myself?

If you held back my tears,

would I see myself? Oh, my Lord.

He's a bum.

I'm sure that's him.

J .D., are you ready?

What do you want me to do?

I want you to convince Jed to come back
to Nashville so he can see Diana.

You know I'm no good at preaching.

I'm not asking you to preach.

I'm asking you to use the gift that God
gave you. Use your music, J .D.

Watch where you spit on when they don't
use words.

You don't understand.

Find the Lord before you need him.
Before you need him.

And never lose your pride.

Never lose your pride.

Don't ever sell your status.

Life's a long ride.

My bad.

Name's Jed Winslow.

Ah, I know.

Mine too.

You kidding me?

Yep. See that lady over there?

That's my sister Cynthia.

And the lady standing next to her,
that's Monica.

She found me while she was looking for
you.

What does she want?

Well, she wants you to come back to your
family.

I got no family anymore.

That's not true.

I met your sister now.

And from what I understand, you got a
mama, a daddy, and a brother who needs

you. Were you a private detective or
something?

Nope. I'm a preacher.

Really? Yeah, but I'm terrible at
sermons.

And I ain't baptized a fool yet.

I got baptized when I was little.

I guess it didn't stick.

Oh, it stuck.

Sounds like you just didn't.

Sound like pretty good preaching to me.

But it'll take an act of God to get me
back there.

Well, what do you think this is?

This ain't no coincidence, young pal.

Well, you might be safe, might be
reborn, might own a car

with a big, loud horn.

Maybe it's just news on your television.

Or it might be God trying to get your
attention.

You never fail.

He starts off preaching, ends up
singing.

Might look like a mouth, live it in your
kitchen.

Might be God trying to get your
attention.

Something like that.

I will not drown in shallow water.

Not with your... Funny, Danny, I

can't remember the next word.

Me either.

I will not drown in shallow water.

Not with your...

Sure. Diana, you've got company.

Lila! Oh, my goodness!

Oh, how long has it been?

Look at you. You look wonderful.

You know, Danny and I were just thinking
about you.

Well, yeah.

Oh, Danny, say hi to your grandma.

Danny?

Sorry, he kind of runs off like that.

Well, I... Oh, I know.

Let's go see if Josh is up.

That's a good idea. Let's go do that.

Danny?

Well, maybe he's outside.

No.

What do you see, Diane?

Keep going, Diana. It's all right.
You're safe here.

What do you see?

Everybody's on the bus.

Everybody but Jed.

Go on.

There's a nice -looking fella named
Anderson where Jed should be.

We drove all night.

Everybody slept late.

Go on. Stay with us. Stay with us.

Where are you, Diana? Where are you?

Where are you?

I'm with Danny.

I will not drown.

It's shallow water.

I will not drown.

It's shallow water.

But he did, Diana.

He did.

He did.

He did.

Oh, God.

He did.

Oh, Jed.

They're gone, Jed.

Well, honey, we sure did miss you.

But thank the Lord. He saw fit to look
over you and bring you back to him.

I'm not too interested in the Lord these
days.

Oh, now, you can't say that.

Why not?

He could have stopped this, but he
didn't.

I'm sorry.

I hadn't stopped believing.

He just seems awful far away right now.

Sweetheart.

You know, he's not one who moves.

Now the real work begins.

It may take years for Diana to learn to
cope with what she's finally remembered.

I don't think that it will.

Well, you're not a therapist, are you?
No, I'm not. No, and you have no

understanding of the mechanics of what
we're dealing with here. You see, now

that Diana knows the truth about the
accident, we can get past this God

obsession and start dealing with
reality.

I believe that it was the reality of
Diana's faith that kept her from self

-destructing in the first place, Doctor,
and I believe that it's the reality of

her faith.

that will hasten her healing now. I've
read the articles about faith and

recovery, Monica, and perhaps her faith
is real, but the object of her faith

isn't. I mean, God is a crutch, a useful
one at times, perhaps, but it's time to

throw away the crutches.

And, Monica, she was believing in angels
yesterday.

What if I told you that by tomorrow
you'd be believing in them too?

I say make an appointment to see me as
soon as possible.

What do you believe in, Doctor?

I believe in the truth.

I believe in what I can see and touch
and know.

I believe in my own mind and my own
will.

Those are the things that I put my faith
in.

Is that really faith?

Or is that just your own special brand
of denial?

Goodbye, sweet baby.

Mommy loves you.

And I'll see you again someday.

He was a wonderful little boy.

I guess I just decided I'd rather lose
my mind than lose him.

And my husband.

And all of them.

I understand.

I told myself Josh was just taking naps
in the other room.

I told myself my family wasn't dead.

We're just not speaking to each other.

And I thought you were an angel.

But in a way, Monica, you were.

You may not know it, but I believe God
sent you to me.

He does things like that, you know.

Yes, I know.

Thank you for being my friend when I
needed one.

And now... Now what?

those to do with the rest of my life?

What did I survive for?

I don't know what God's plan is for you,
Diana.

But I know that if you keep going, you
will find out.

It's the keep going part I'm having a
little trouble with right now.

But this too shall pass, right?

How do you feel today?

Like a wrung -out sponge.

Under the circumstances, I'd say that's
pretty good.

Under the circumstances, I'd say it's a
miracle.

It's my first day without Danny.

Yes?

Is that all right?

I miss him.

You are just starting your grieving
process. It would take time to figure

How you want to deal with all of the
loss.

I already know.

I want to bring the rest of my family
back together.

I want a reunion now more than ever.

I don't believe your father -in -law is
ready for any family reunion.

Well, you don't know Carter like I do.

Carter Winslow is a very angry man. He
has a lot of issues to work through.

Yes, but God will bring him through it.

I thought we had gotten rid of this God
thing.

Doctor, I may have lost my mind, but I
never lost my faith.

And God never, ever lost track of me.

And that might sound crazy to you, but I
know it's true.

And now I know what I need to do about
my family and my husband.

And I'm ready to leave this place and do
it.

Daddy, you are not remotely ready to
leave here.

I feel sorry for you, Rebecca.

Because all you have to believe in is
your PhD and a bunch of books.

And that must be a really lonely way to
live.

We are not here to talk about me.

I'm beginning to wonder about that, you
know.

After all, God sent Monica to help me.

Maybe.

Maybe he sent me to help you.

That's enough for now.

I have a reunion to work on.

See you later.

What are they doing in there, taking a
vote?

Listen, Cynthia.

Are you always like this?

Yes. Are you always like that?

Absolutely.

Hello, Carter.

I'm glad you're feeling better,
sweetheart.

He can hear you.

Doctor said there's no brain activity.

The doctor's wrong.

They said these machines are the only
thing keeping Joshua alive.

The doctors were wrong about you, and
they're wrong about my son.

Why don't you tell them what you'd like
to do, Diana?

I want a family reunion.

No.

Carter, please.

Jet's right outside.

He's come back.

He's waiting to see you. Please talk to
him.

I will not ever talk to that boy again.

As far as I'm concerned, I have no other
son.

And I will stay here beside Joshua until
God sees fit to take me away.

Carter, you're being irrational.

You're blaming Jed somehow for what
happened because you're afraid to blame

And you're afraid to blame God because
you're afraid people will call you a

hypocrite. A hypocrite. That's right.

Darling, you're afraid to admit that
your

faith has been shaken.

It's no shame to struggle with your
faith, Mr. Renslow.

Don't try to be the perfect example. Try
to be...

The honest example of someone who held
on to his faith in spite of his doubt.

You have to forgive Jed and let him back
in the family, Carter.

And you're going to have to let go of
Joshua.

We all have.

No.

No, absolutely not.

Yes, he's not there.

We have to let him go.

Carter, we've got to move on.

I will not hear one more word. Monica,
make him stop.

Please listen to me.

Make him stop.

This isn't life.

He's my husband. It's my decision.

You're not capable of making that
decision.

Maybe I wasn't before, but I am now.

Aren't I, Monica?

Tell him, Monica.

Diana, it's not your father -in -law's
decision. It's not even your decision.

Monica, I will thank you not to
interfere.

Tell them, Monica, please.

Mr. and Mrs. Winslow, Diana, in your
revival shows, did you ever sing songs

about angels?

Occasionally. What does that have to do
with Joshua?

Joshua's right here in this room.

His brain is dead, but his spirit is
very much alive.

And he is speaking to me.

What? And I can see him.

And I can hear him.

Because... Well, because I'm an angel.

It's true.

Diana prayed for an angel and God
answered her prayer.

Yes, her mind was damaged at the time,
but her spirit...

like Joshua's right now, was safe in
God's hands.

It was her spirit that he heard. It was
her spirit that he sustained.

And it is the spirit of Joshua that at
this very moment is speaking to you.

I believe you.

I do.

Joshua, honey.

I love you.

And I miss you.

And I don't want to say goodbye, but I
can't bear to see you like this.

Tell her that I love her beyond any

words. That it's okay to let me go.

Because I'm going to be with our Lord.

And I'm going to see Danny.

And tell her, please, that I'm going to
wait for her.

Diana.

He wants you to know that he loves you
beyond words.

That it's all right to let him go.

Because he'll be with the Lord.

He's going to see Danny.

And he's going to wait for me.

Is he?

Can you?

Yes, Mrs. Winslow.

Just listen, and he'll speak to you.

Alma?

Thank you for loving me through
everything.

And for teaching me the right way to
live.

And for forgiving me when I got it all
wrong.

Oh, Carter, honey, he's here.

I can feel it.

Son.

Daddy, please listen to me.

I want to go home.

But it's okay.

I'm not scared.

It's because I know where I'm going.

And it was you that taught me that.

Thank you, Dad.

He wants to go home, Mr. Winslow.

Yes, I know.

But he feels he can't until he knows his
family's all right.

Your son, your other son, Jed, he wrote
a song on that last day.

Remember?

I will not drown in shallow water.

It was a song of hope and faith.

And yet you blamed Jed and the song
precisely because they did not drown and

because Joshua and Danny and so many
others did.

Do you remember the rest of the words?

I did not come this far to falter.

I will not rest until I'm free.

You survived.

It is not a sin.

It is a gift.

God didn't bring you this far to see you
fail now.

Carter, you've been singing about
revival for 30 years.

It's time you started to live it.

It's time that you let God create a new
family.

He's not asking you to forget. He's
asking you to forgive.

God is waiting for an answer.

And so are your sons.

Where is he?

Where is Jet?

What

do

you suppose they're not talking about?

That's how men talk.

Okay. What do you suppose it has to do
with us, and can we please go home soon?

Not yet.

Hmm.

Carter's getting ready.

See, he's scratching his head the way he
does when he's warming up for a show.

Yep, there he goes.

Do you remember when you stole those
eggs out of that chicken coop back in

Missouri?

I was nine.

Stealing is stealing.

You know, it seemed like you'd been mad
at me for one thing or another my whole

life.

I figured deep down you blamed me for
the accident, too.

What?

I don't blame you. I didn't... I never
blamed you.

Why didn't you want to see me?

Because... Because you always tell the
truth.

I wasn't ready to hear it.

Because the truth is, it was my fault, I
know that.

I'm the one who lost his temper.

Made his drive all night.

I was so angry.

They laid my pride to get the best of
me.

And because of that, I lost everything.

You didn't lose everything.

You still have Mom, and Diana, and me.

Oh, I'm sorry, son.

I'm sorry, too.

Who'd have thought that we'd find each
other here,

where we lost everyone else?

I guess it seems like a good place to
start over.

There's only one way to start over, I
know.

Hey, we got a soul need re -baptizing
here.

Got a preacher up there?

Now you know why you're here, J .D.

Go on down there.

Will now be.

Girl.

Daddy in his good hat and Mama in her
Sunday dress.

Watched with pride as I stood there in
the water up to my chest.

And the preacher spoke about the
cleansing blood. Jedediah K. Winslow, I

you in the name of the Father, the Son,
And the Holy Ghost.

And the

Holy

Ghost. But I felt like a newborn baby,
cradled up in the arms

of the Lord.

Father Winslow, I baptize you in the
name of the Father, and of the Son, and

of the Holy Ghost.

There was glory in the air.

There was dinner on the ground.

And my sins, which were many, were
washed away and gone.

Along with a buffalo nickel, I forgot to
leave at home.

But that seemed like such a small, small
price to pay

for the blessed peace of mind.

Came to me that day.

It was down with the old man, up with
the new.

Raised to walk in the ways of life.

I didn't see no angels, just a few
saints on the shore.

But I felt like a newborn baby.

Would you hurry up? We've got to be in
Atlanta by 7.

Well,

let's go, sir.

I wonder, have you changed your mind
about God now?

Not yet.

I'm starting to have faith that

someday I will.

Could be sooner than you think.

You need a lift somewhere?

No, thank you.

I have one.

Well.

You take care.

Monica.

Thanks.

For your help.

My pleasure.

Just a few saints on the shore, but I
felt like a newborn baby,

ladled up in the arms of the Lord.

I felt like a newborn baby, ladled up in
the arms

of the Lord.