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I went back to the mountain for reasons
I couldn't explain.

I believe it is something humans do,
too.

They sometimes return to the place where
everything changed for them one day,

where a transformation occurred that set
them on a new course.

For me, that place was here, high above
the desert, far below the heavens.

The place where I nearly fell from
grace.

The place where God lifted me higher
than I had ever been.

I have come back to the mountain because
something profound has happened to me.

I have changed somehow.

But I can't quite describe what is
different.

Well, I can.

And I'm going to give it to you fast
because I don't like it up here.

But I do, Ted.

I think it's going to become my own
special place.

Well, you're welcome to it. It's a
little too drafty up here for me.

Come on, angel girl, sit down. We're
gonna have to talk.

Is something wrong?

No, just something different.

Yes, I know.

But what is it?

You went into the desert and you were
tempted.

But you didn't surrender to Satan.

But whenever you...

Get that close to evil.

The world never seems the same again.

What do you mean?

When you came up on this mountain and
returned to your creator,

he didn't just say, let's go back to the
way it was.

He took your mistakes and made something
new and good out of them.

He's given you another gift.

What is it?

Well, you've always had a kind and
generous heart, truly loving human

beings.

But up to now, you've just seen them
from an angel's point of view, from the

outside in.

What other way is there?

The way God sees people, from the inside
out.

And from now on, Every once in a while,
he's going to let you see people like

that, too.

From the inside out? Yes.

And am I going to learn how to do this
before my next assignment?

This is your next assignment, and we're
going to start right away.

We're just going to get in the car and
ride around until the spirit speaks to

you.

Just drive around until the spirit moves
me. Mm -hmm.

Things really have changed.

Nothing is moving.

You've got to be patient.

And you've got to learn to listen, baby.

There's an angel for every human being
on that street out there.

And you've just got to wait until God
leads you to yours.

Okay. Stop.

Dee, what did I tell you?

Who is it, that man over there, or the
lady at the bus stop?

It's a bus.

A bus?

Well, that's a start.

Now remember, you're new at this.

So don't get discouraged if it takes a
while to get the hang of seeing things

from the inside out.

I thought it was supposed to be about
people.

Well, people ride buses, don't they?

Sit down.

Be patient.

Something will come.

Well, Rome wasn't built in a day. No,
wait, wait, wait, wait.

Wait.

I will not drown in shallow

water.

Not with your love within my reach.

There you go.

You're getting it, baby. You're really
getting it.

Not with your love within my reach That
did not

come this far forward And will not rest

until I'm free I will not rest

until I'm free

Till the dawn don't even shine.

Walk with you.

Every time I tell you I'll walk with
you.

Believe me, I'll walk with you.

What am I seeing, Tess?

What God wants you to see.

It's time to study, baby.

Time to hit the books, pal.

Is this what you mean about seeing life
from the inside out?

Yeah.

What you're seeing is the past.

But before long, you're going to begin
to think how it changed the present.

It's like seeing ripples on the water.

And you're holding the pebble that will
splash in the pond and create them.

Don't try to understand it now. Just let
it happen.

If this is the past,

Tess, where are they all now?

Is Daddy still asleep, Danny?

Yep. Well, I'll tell him you say
goodbye.

You have a good day at school.

Okay, bye, Mom.

Bye, sweetheart.

I love you.

Have you done any more thinking about
your husband?

Well, yes, actually.

I've been thinking if Josh was not going
to take the first step, then somebody

else has to.

I mean, how can a family that's been
together and been so close for so long

let... Three whole years go by without
even speaking to each other.

What do you think?

Well, I think it's ridiculous.

I mean, one silly little argument and a
30 -year tradition goes right down the

drain.

I mean, I know I'm just the in -law
here, but somebody's got to step in and

something because, well, it's really
hard on Danny.

You know, he misses his aunts and uncles
and especially his grandma and grandpa,

and he can't get his dad to talk about
it, so...

So, this is very interesting. This is
the first time you've expressed any

interest in resolving what happened.

Why now?

Well, I've been praying about it a lot.

And I know God's going to send me what I
need.

Maybe, maybe even an angel.

An angel?

Yeah.

I've never seen one, but...

I need one to help me now.

To help you with what?

A family reunion.

Do you really think that's possible?

With God, anything's possible.

I know you don't believe in God.

I never said that.

Faith and religion have their place, but
is it possible that you're using them?

as a way to avoid being honest with
yourself.

People can have problems and still
believe in God, you know.

Yes, but if you were being honest about
what happened, you'd have to acknowledge

that God failed you.

He allowed this event to occur.

It's not God's fault we broke up.

Is it possible that you're protecting
God at the expense of your own therapy?

God doesn't need my protection.

Then who are you protecting?

She's my assignment, isn't she, Tess?
The woman who was sitting there.

Her name is Diana.

You're doing well.

Keep listening.

Why don't we go back to that last day?

Why do we keep going over this?

Because sometimes when there's been a
loss...

We tend to block out important details
about that loss.

The details that could help us
understand why it occurred and give us

of what we need to do to heal. We
stopped singing together, and we haven't

spoken since then. That's all.

And yeah, that's a loss, but I don't
need to heal. I just need a reunion.

I think, Diana, that what has happened
to your family

has had...

a greater impact on you than you are
able to admit.

I think that this is very likely the
reason you are suffering those headaches

you tell me about and the memory lapses
and the fatigue.

And I think the best way to figure out
what's going on is to go

back to a time before those symptoms
occurred and try to

find out what happened.

Okay?

The last performance.

Yeah.

The last show.

We didn't even know it.

Well, we always started with the same
song.

What a time. What a time.

What

a

time.

The family that things together clings
together.

And I'm here to tell you, we're still at
it.

Would you believe it's been 30 years?

The beautiful wife, Lila, is here with
us tonight, as always.

And our son, Joshua, his wife, Diana,
and our grandson, Danny.

My brother, Vaughn, his wife, June, and
the windmill boy.

And our other son, Jed, who's over there
behind that guitar, keeping to himself

as usual.

You'll get to know the rest of the
family as we go on through the rest of

evening.

They're very good.

Are?

Were.

This bus was their home on the road.

They sang their songs for thousands of
people.

And then one day, the music stopped.

But why? That's what I still don't know.

Don't worry about that.

What do you know?

That Diana is out there somewhere.

That faith is all that's keeping her
spirit alive and she's about to lose

that.

Go ahead.

And that she's waiting for me.

Why am I here sitting on a bus listening
to the past?

I've got to find Diana now.

But what would you say if you did?

The truth is coming, baby.

You've got to learn to wait and learn to
listen.

It's driving me crazy, that song.

Jed wrote it that day, and we only sing
it once.

Jed wrote a lot of songs for your
family, isn't that right?

Yeah, he's so talented.

That's always been the problem.

That was the problem that morning.

How so?

Well, let me back up.

See, we had to get an early start
because our show was that night in

Not that schedules meant much in our
family, except to my father -in -law.

Diane.

Hit the horn, Walter.

You always have to blow that horn,
Carter. No, I don't have to.

But I'd like to.

Come on. Get on the bus. We're late.

Is that a new one, Jed?

Yeah, gonna be. A couple of things will
work out in the course, but I believe

it'll be a good one for us.

I will not drown in shallow water.

Come on, boys. We gotta move it. Oh,
falter.

I did not come to sport a falter.

I will not drown.

What's a hypotenuse?

Well, a hypotenuse is a rhinoceros's
cousin.

What? Yes, Carl, I do know how early it
is, but I want to make sure it's done

right.

Last time we played there, that piano
was so out of tune, it set the dogs to

barking all over the neighborhood.

I know, I know, it's a lot more curves,
but there's a lot less traffic.

It'll cut a good 45 minutes off our
time.

Carter, he knows where he's going.

I'm such a fan of your family, Mrs.
Winslow. I saw you guys back in

96 and then again in 97.

Well, thank you.

Carter, isn't that sweet?

Hey,

you know, I could sing that song.

Well, your Uncle Jed wrote that song.
Don't you think he should be the one to

sing it?

Yeah, I guess so.

Danny, when you're 13, I'll let you sing
the solo.

Really? Promise?

You have my promise.

Joshua, I think you should sing that
song.

But it's Jed's song, Daddy.

No. No, it's our song.

And I want you to sing the lead.

He's just never going to give Jed a
chance.

Not right.

I know Joshua would be thrilled to let
Jed take one of his songs.

Oh, I know, sweetie.

We'd all be thrilled to see Jed coming
to his own.

I just don't know how we're ever going
to get Carter to see it.

Diana?

Diana?

You just stopped.

I think that's enough.

It sounds like there was some tension in
your family.

It was nothing.

You know, the kind of thing that happens
when you're cooped up on the road for a

long time.

The truth is that Jed was always the
quiet one.

And Joshua had the personality.

Carter isn't a bad man.

He just knows what the audience wants to
see.

And the audience loved Joshua.

So he never gave Jed a chance.

But... I did.

I think I've got a test.

Something happened that day that pulled
this family apart.

They all loved each other until
something came between them.

Jealousy, I think.

It pulled them apart.

And that's why the family doesn't talk
anymore, and that's why they don't sing

anymore.

Stop thinking.

And stop looking at them.

And start loving them and listening to
them, and you'll hear where the music

went.

It's terrible.

So terrible.

Yes, it's terrible, but not hopeless.

You cannot change the past, Angel Girl.

But now that you understand it, you're
ready to meet Diana.

I will not drown in shallow water.

Not...

Not with your love.

Hey, Mom.

What are you doing?

I'm trying to figure out that song that
your Uncle Jed was teaching your cousins

on the bus.

You remember. You liked it a lot.

No, I don't remember.

I gotta go to school.

Okay, baby.

Are you gonna...

I will not drown in shallow water.

Not with your love within my reach.

I did not come this far to falter and
will not rest until

I'm free.

Hello. Did Danny let you in?

I hope I'm not intruding.

Can I help you?

Actually, I'm here to help you.

You're my angel.

Were you expecting an angel?

Yeah.

You're the real enchilada, right?

Yes, I am the real enchilada.

Well, we have lots to do.

Now, Danny already went to school, so
you'll have to meet him later. But

somebody else I want you to meet right
now.

Your therapist.

How'd you...

You're an angel.

Of course. I guess you know all about
it.

Yes, I do.

Well, let's go.

Rebecca, this is Monica.

Hello. Hello.

She's the angel I was telling you about.

Oh, really?

Well, that's very interesting.

She's going to help me with the reunion.

Well, I... I think we need to talk about
that a little more and see if it's

really a good idea.

Maybe I should wait outside.

Oh, what for?

I mean, it's not like you can keep any
secrets from an angel, right?

She can stay.

Can't she?

It's unusual.

But I'll leave it up to you, Diana.

Great.

Now, last time we talked, there was some
trouble between Jed and Joshua over a

song.

Can we talk more about that?

I can talk about anything now.

Well, at the time, it didn't seem like a
big deal, but looking back on it, I can

see it was the beginning of the end.

Everything just started to fall apart
after that.

Thank you. Thank you, ladies and
gentlemen. Thank you.

You know, we stand up here on this
stage.

And we sing praises to God, not because
our lives have been easy, but because

when times have gotten tough, we know
that we have a father and a comforter to

talk to and to trust in.

Now, I give thanks to the Lord for his
many blessings each and

every day.

And one of those blessings is my brother
Jed.

Right over there.

Now, you folks don't know this, but many
of the songs that we sing up here on

this stage were written by Jed.

He is a real talent, and he never gets
much attention.

Well, tonight, we are going to put him
in the spotlight

so that he can sing for you.

His brand new song, Shallow Water.

My little brother, Jed.

Thank you.

reach. I did not come this far to falter

and will not rest until I'm free.

You are the sun.

You are the power.

You are the wind across the sea.

And I will kneel here at your altar and
pray you'll

tarry.

Whose idea was that?

Diana said that you wanted to do it.

I never said that.

Well, not in so many words, but I knew
you did.

You set me up. Well, somebody had to.

I mean, come on, it's time your daddy
heard you sing in front of an audience.

Besides, how mad could he be anyway?

What were you thinking?

I had my reasons, Mama.

Well, they better be good ones because
he is fit to be tied.

Yes, ma 'am.

And you... What?

Daddy's unhappy with me?

Well, there's something new.

Honey, just take a deep breath. I know.

I'm not saying what they did was right,
but you always taught them to think for

themselves, so you can't punish them
when they do.

I'll be on the bus.

Excuse me.

Hi.

I'm wondering if I can get a ride with
you on the bus.

Heard you're going to Chattanooga.

I'm going there myself.

I'm Andrew, by the way.

Sorry, we don't have any empty seats on
this bus.

Okay. I know.

Hey!

Y 'all take it real slow.

Okay?

Never in all my years as head of this
family has my authority been questioned

so cowardly a fashion.

Jedediah, Kay, Winslow, I ought to throw
you off this bus right now.

Don't bother.

I'll do it for you.

Why are you always so stubborn, boy?

Dad, have you ever noticed that Joshua's
always your son?

I'm just boy.

If you get off this bus now, you don't
get back on.

Only room for one prodigal son in this
family, huh?

We have a seat for you now.

Carter, you can't let him go like that.

Daddy, it was not Jed's fault.

I think you need to get off this ride. I
am so tired of everyone telling me what

we should do.

Um, I appreciate the ride and the seat
on the bus very much. If you would like

to stay here a little bit longer, try to
work things out, I'd understand.

Now everything's fine.

Go and take a seat, son.

Thank you.

Hi, Andrew.

Highway

Patrol

says there's a flood on the interstate.

We're going to have to take the back
road instead.

Then we'll drive all night if we have
to.

Get this thing moving, Walter.

That was the last time I thought yet.

And that's usually where you stop with
your story.

Can you go further today?

No. Everything gets so fuzzy after that.

I guess it was such a shock to everybody
to have a family argument like that and

just leave Jed behind.

It would have been especially hard on
you, I suppose, since getting Jed to

was your idea.

Aren't we out of time?

No, Diana, we're not. I think we're out
of time. I really should be going.

I really have to go. Thank you, Diana.

Post -traumatic stress syndrome.

She's in complete denial.

Three years.

I can only imagine what it must have
been like to watch all of those people

and not be able to do anything about it.

She's getting closer, and that scares
her. That's why she brought a friend.

How long have you known Diana?

Not very long.

But you do know that she's under the
impression that you're an angel.

Yes. She still has a very strong faith.

I believe that Dinah does have faith.

But what she doesn't have is the truth.

And that's the problem.

Then let me help you help her to see the
truth.

Well, I think it would be good if she
could find Jed. She always stops her

story at the last time she saw him.

Do you know where he is?

I did a little detective work on the
Internet, and I found Jedediah

K. Winslow in Dalton, Georgia.

How many people with that name could
there be?

I think a wee trip to Georgia would be
lovely.

You must think I'm a crazy old bird the
way I went off today.

I know your family is very important to
you. I never had a family before the

wind blows, Monica.

I ran away when I was 16.

I grew up with an alcoholic daddy who
beat my mother and a mother who'd turn

around and beat me.

So I ran away.

I worked in bars and strip clubs all
over the place.

Finally, instead of serving drinks, I
was drinking them.

I was a mess.

On my way down with no hope and nothing
to show for my life.

The last thing I ever figured on was
that there was a God.

And the Winslows changed that?

Yeah.

One day this guy walks into the dial I
was working at and says to the

Caleb, you might not remember me, but
about ten years ago I walked out on you

with a bar bill due.

Caleb just shrugged. I mean, one drunk
looks like the other after a while.

But then he pulled out his wallet and
pays Caleb double what he owes him.

You could have knocked me over with a
feather.

Then he looked at me with these great,
big, beautiful eyes and asked me

if I wanted to meet his family.

This man was Joshua?

Yeah.

So I went with him to meet his family.

They were singing in this big old tent
back then.

And they were the happiest people I had
ever seen.

I knew right off I wanted what they had.

And what they had was faith in God.

Yeah.

And they shared that faith with me.

Pretty soon, I felt whole for the first
time.

This was the family I'd always wanted.

I mean, I don't even sing.

And they gave me a reason to be there.

To be alive.

And I never looked back.

I have to bring them back together,
Monica.

Are you sure this is the right address?

This is the address she gave me.

This should be interesting.

Excuse me, I wonder if you could help
me. I'm looking for a Jedediah K.

at this address.

Yeah, that's me.

You're Jedediah K. Winslow?

Uh -huh.

Sorry. I must have the wrong Jedediah K.
Winslow.

I'm really sorry.

What are you doing? Get up.

Get up. Put that thing down high. Get
up. Get in there. Put that thing down.

I'm coming.

I'm coming.

You better believe you are, Pie.

You down here playing the guitar?

Get your disrespecting behind into this
church.

You a scandal boy.

And I'm telling you, I'm at the end of
my rope. I am.

What do you mean it's the wrong Jedediah
K. Winslow?

Well... Get in the car. Just get in the
car.

Good morning, everyone.

Good morning.

This is my third year as your pastor,
and I bet y 'all are really tired of

hearing the same sermon over and over
again.

Amen.

So today I thought I'd say a little
something different.

Amen.

When I was growing up, I used to wonder
what it would feel like to stand in this

pulpit like my father did.

and give a rip -roaring amen, hallelujah
sermon.

Yeah, just like he always did.

Amen. Well, I still don't know what that
feels like. And you folks deserve

better. So I'm thinking maybe it's time
y 'all started looking for another

preacher.

I'm not my daddy.

I've tried to be.

I love this church, I love the Lord, and
I love you all.

But I'm just not good at this.

This isn't my calling, and I don't
exactly know where my calling is.

I only know I know how to play a little
guitar.

And I'm praying that the Lord will show
me a way.

I'm really sorry.

I truly am really sorry. And thank you
very much.

What's the matter with you?

Have you lost your mind?

What kind of... Stop it.

No good.

I can't deal with it.

Cockamamie, crackpot, stubborn,
ungrateful. You know I'm running out of

for you.

Why did you do it?

Whatever gave you this idiotic notion?

Hey, you're back.

Yes, I heard some of your sermons.

I'm Monica, and this is my friend, Tess.

Nice to meet you. My name's J .D., and
this is my sister, Cissy.

Cynthia. Nice to meet you.

You know, visitors are always welcome.
I'm just sorry you had to witness my

brother's complete break with reality.

Monica's looking for someone else with
my name.

Somebody else got your name?

Get out of town.

Have you heard of the Winslow family
revival?

Oh, yeah.

Gospel folks.

It was a terrible thing that happened.

Terrible thing.

Not too far from here is where it
happened.

I remember that day. I had a strong
feeling I was thinking I should go over

there and somehow help out.

But I was such a new preacher, I felt I
didn't really have much to offer. What?

God called you to service, and you said
no?

He never listened.

Well, Mr.

Jedediah K. Winslow, God has called you
again.

It's true.

It wasn't an accident that I found you
here today. I can see that now. Your

name, Winslow, is like theirs.

You love music like they did. You love
God like they did.

And you're looking for some answers in
your life, like a lady named Diana

Winslow.

And, well, I'm not exactly sure how yet,
but I do know that if you come to

Nashville with us right now, God is
going to give both Winslow families the

answers that they've been looking for.

Nashville.

Have you lost your mind?

I like Nashville.

What?

I like Nashville.

Are you coming or not?

You know, this is no way to run a
church.

No, this is no way to run a church.

Honestly, this is crazy.

This is just crazy.

I'm not... This is crazy. I'm perfectly
sane.

People coming and driving me crazy.

If we have this reunion, I'm sure your
grandma and grandpa would want to come.

What about Uncle Jed?

Well, that's up to you.

Monica went to look for him, but that
doesn't mean he has to come.

Who are you talking to?

Who's she talking to?

I'm talking to my son.

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