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No, you wanted yours over easy again, is
that right?

Why do you even ask anymore? You always
break the oath.

Well, I have a good feeling about this.
Oh, is that what you tell your patients

just before surgery?

Yeah, when I have a real good feeling.

Oh, wait, wait, wait.

If you make it and I don't get a shot of
this, Lisa will never believe me.

What, your girlfriend won't take your
word for it?

Lisa's a smart girl.

All right, Daddy, if you make this, I'll
let you buy me a new car.

Ah, incentive.

All right.

Never gonna work.

Not enough butter in the pan.

Hey!

Yeah,

um, maybe tomorrow, Dad.

All right, son.

Too bad.

You know, Dad, um, I think I'm gonna go
scramble.

Um, it's not that I don't believe in you
or anything.

Hey, listen, my last appointment today
is at 5.

So if you want to come by after school,
about 5 .30 or so? I can't. I've got to

work. You can't put this off, Jason.

Come on. It's too risky for you since
the accident. Look, I know, Dad, but...

buts. All right? Like it or not, you
can't act like a teenager here.

All right. Sorry.

Your eyes are too fragile.

All right. I'll call in, and I'll see if
someone can cover for me.

I'll cover for you. You take my chem
midterm for me.

Uh, sorry, Mom. There's just some things
you don't want to relive.

Great. Wish me luck. All righty. Break a
beaker.

Goodbye, honey.

Now, I'm not kidding about that
appointment, okay? All right.

Okay.

Whoa.

He pulled the pan back too fast.

Why doesn't he just use a spatula like
everybody else? Because human beings

always want a new challenge.

And he chose eggs.

You know, it's hard to explain the
choices human beings make.

That's what's so tricky about this
assignment.

Close scramble, I guess.

It's hard to see what the assignment is
here.

Everybody seems fine.

Oh, but they're not.

One of them has a secret, and it's nasty
and dangerous. Okay.

It's just like a rotten egg sitting in
the refrigerator waiting for somebody to

crack it accidentally and let the ugly
truth run out.

And when that happens, all three of them
are going to have to make some terrible

choices.

Okay.

Let's try this one more time.

When you walk down the road,

heavy burden, heavy load,

I will rise and I... I will walk with
you.

I'll walk with you.

Till the sun don't even shine.

Walk with you.

Every time I tell you, I'll walk with
you.

Walk with you. Believe me, I'll walk
with you.

You know, we've been looking for someone
to work the 3 to 10 shift for weeks.

You get hired the same day I need a
little time off.

Timing is everything.

Right.

Actually, the best part about working
here is when we're not busy, we get to

our own developing.

You know, I love working at this place
because they still do things the old

-fashioned way. You know, not with some
big machinery.

Is that yours?

Yeah, it's my crazy dad.

He's actually a combination of an
ophthalmologist slash fry cook.

You have a really good eye.

Thanks. Not too bad for a guy who almost
went blind, huh?

Really? Yeah.

Detached redness.

I had a soccer accident when I was 12.

That must have been very frightening for
you.

No, not really.

My dad was right there to fix me up.

Of course, he's also been on my back
about watching ever since.

Good. It would be a shame if there were
no more of these lovely pictures in your

future. Yeah, I know.

But I swear, Monica, I mean, sometimes I
feel like the boy in the bubble.

You know, I mean, I want to be a
photojournalist one day.

One of those guys who's out there where
the action is. You know, on the front

lines of whatever's going on, just
clicking away as mayhem explodes around

Sounds like fun.

Yeah.

Yeah, when the pressure's on, that's
when you find out who you really are.

And I can't wait.

You know, if you really mean that, I
have a friend who does some freelance

photography for the Denver paper.

Really? I mean, because that's, you
know, someone I could really learn

from.

Do you think that... I'd be happy to set
it up for you while you're at your

doctor's appointment.

Thanks. Hey, Sherry.

Hi, handsome.

You finally here for your checkup?

Yeah. So that's Gladys, huh?

Yeah, pretty incredible, isn't it?

Every other doctor said she'd never see
you again, but your dad wouldn't give up

on her.

And there she goes, a walking, seeing
miracle.

Hey, Jason.

Come on back.

Link?

Again?

He says it's getting worse.

What does that mean?

Well, for one thing, it means I can't
play baseball.

He always says, if anything were to
happen to you, young man, you could be

permanently blind.

And I told him, Dad, you know, like, the
chances of me getting beamed by a wild

pitcher are like less than 1%. Jason,
he's right.

I mean, even 1 % is way too much. He's
being overprotective because he's my

I mean, what am I supposed to do, just
sit on a rocking chair and do nothing

the rest of my life?

Oh, Lise, this is Monica.

It's her first day. I mean, night.

Hello, Lisa.

Actually, it's Lisa.

Lisa. Well, you know what this means.

Now that Monica's working here.

It means that you're free on Saturday
nights again?

Mm -hmm.

Especially prom night?

Good, because I already ordered your
tuxedo.

Monica, you are my new best friend.

See you later.

See ya.

My girlfriend.

Well, that's certainly someone worth
keeping your eyesight for.

Oh, by the way, I called that friend of
mine, and he said he'd be happy to meet

you tomorrow if you're still interested.

Are you kidding?

I mean, I know I'm not really
experienced yet, but when I look through

just, I see things other photographers
don't.

It's called vision.

Maybe. I don't really think about it,
though. You know, I just, I know when to

shoot and where to point.

You've got good instincts. Now you need
some experience.

Yeah, but you can't get experience until
someone hires you, and you can't get

hired without experience.

I'll tell you what.

I can't offer you, like, a war
correspondent job or anything, but

to tag along with me for a while if you
want.

Yeah, that'd be great.

You know, most of the stuff we do is
sort of like the bugs of the Arboretum

day in the life kind of thing, right?

Doesn't exactly sound like the kind of
action that you're looking for, though.

Well, actually, I already got an idea
for, you know, a day in the life kind of

thing.

I'm listening. Well, my dad, he's an
ophthalmologist. You know, and he does

pretty amazing stuff with people that
are going blind.

And, uh, I mean, so you kind of got
already a vision metaphor type of thing

going on.

I mean, you could follow him around for
a day. You know, take pictures of him

getting up early, going into surgery,
and, you know, helping people get their

sight back and stuff.

I mean, one shot of a person at the
moment they get their sight back, that's

killer picture, right?

Yeah.

Tell you what.

Why don't you shoot it?

Okay? You shoot me ten rolls, and if you
get something decent, then we'll

publish it on Sunday in the Herald.

You're kidding.

No.

Well, yeah, that'd be great.

Good. Thanks.

All right.

Good morning.

Well, hi, Sherry. Don't you look more
dressed up than usual?

Well, I called her last night. I thought
it was only fair.

Hey, listen, one ground rule. Some of my
patients may not want to do this, so no

means no, okay? Yeah, no problem.

That guy over there is waiting for you,
Jason.

Oh, Andrew.

Dad, this is Andrew.

Hi, Dr. Harris.

I've heard some pretty spectacular
things about you.

Well, all true, I'm sure.

First, I want to thank you for the
opportunity you're giving my son.

Well, the way he looks up to you, how
could I not?

These are wonderful teeth.

You really think so? Oh, yeah.

Your father looks like a great guy.

Yeah, he's kind of one of those super
dad types.

You know, you can pretty much tell him
anything in school about it.

I never realized how hard he works.

You know, I mean, he doesn't give up on
anything.

Just like flipping those stupid eggs,
you know?

I mean, he'll probably never get it
right, but he'll never stop trying

But you've certainly captured a day in
the life of... Yeah, but I don't have an

ending, you know?

What I really need...

It's a shot of him locking up the office
at the end of the day.

Yeah. All right, well, um, I bet I can
still catch him. Are you gonna be okay?

Well, babies, the secret's out.

Thank you very much. Have a nice
evening.

Sam Carter.

Did you get the shot you needed?

Uh, no. I was too late.

Do you mind if I start closing up?

Yeah, fine.

Hey, is Jason home yet?

Remember the good old days when you used
to come home and say, hi, beautiful?

What do you mean?

I mean, hello would be nice.

You're right. I'm sorry.

Hello, beautiful.

Oh, no.

He's not home yet.

Oh, good. You're here.

Jason.

Dinner's almost ready.

And I have peach turnovers for dessert.

I thought we'd have a little celebration
tonight in honor of my soon -to -be

-famous men and me acing the chem test.

No, I'm not really hungry, Mom.

Thanks.

Something happen today?

I don't know.

Fine when he left the office this
afternoon.

Maybe he had a fight with Lisa.

I'll go talk to him.

Jacob?

I didn't say you could come in.

I know what you're thinking.

How could you, Dad?

I don't even know what to think.

Except maybe I hate you.

Don't do this, Jason. Do what?

Shut me out.

We can always talk about things.

At least give me a chance to explain.

You know, I mean, this may be hard for
you to imagine at 17, but when a guy

into his 40s, there's a lot of pressure.

Dad, give me a break.

Just let me finish.

You know, we hear about women's problems
all the time, but you never hear about

how a man wakes up one morning and
realizes that half his life is over.

And how utterly frightening that is.

Stick with me here. Come on.

Do you remember last year when I had
that cancer scare?

You remember that? Yeah.

I was terrified, Jason.

You talk about the ultimate midlife
crisis.

All of a sudden I realized that there's
a chance that I could die.

Anyway, I guess I went a little nuts and
I... I wanted to feel...

Young and handsome again, you know. I
wanted somebody or something to...

make me feel like I could live forever.

I should have told your mother how I was
feeling.

Yeah, you're damn right.

But she was going through exams at the
time, remember?

So I decided to keep it to myself.

But I couldn't, and so I let something
happen with Sherry that I never, ever

would have done otherwise.

And I have been trying to end it ever
since, and wondering, you know, what it

would take.

And then you came in today, and I had my
answer. I mean, it has got to end. It's

got to end.

And so it's over.

Just like that?

I'm ashamed.

It kills me that I hurt you, but you
have to believe me, I never loved

It never meant anything, and it never
had anything to do with you or your

mother.

Oh. Well, it's nice to know you weren't
thinking of us at all.

Put the camera down.

Look, Dad, even if those are your
reasons, it's still not an excuse.

And those won't fly with Mom.

All right, listen to me. I made a
mistake. I made a stupid, stupid

it's over.

You go down there and you tell your
mother you're going to destroy her.

You're going to destroy this family. Is
that what you want to do?

No?

I want that film.

I want that picture of Sherry and I.

No.

Dad, what are you doing? Dad, stop.

Give it to me.

Give it to me.

Are you guys coming down or are you just
going to keep male bonding all night?

Yeah, we're coming.

It smells good down there, doesn't it?

So come on.

You see what just happened?

The father's secret just became the
family secret.

That's how something cracked becomes
something broken.

He's good, isn't he?

Yes, yes, he is.

He can make a future out of this.

Hi.

I'm sorry.

No, it's okay. We're just admiring the
work. I think the photos turned out

great.

No, no, no.

These are no good, all right?

I'm sorry if this was a bad idea. Come
on, Jason, hold on.

No, look, you said I had a good eye,
right? Yeah.

Well, how could that be possible if I
can't even see what's going on right in

front of me?

I'm sure you'll find something else to
run.

Jason, I think you're making a mistake.

And what are you going to tell your
father?

Believe me, this won't be a big shock to
my father.

I'll take care of him.

It's just you and me again tonight, kid.
Your dad's going to be late again.

Oh, yeah? Yeah, patient emergency.

Too bad. I made his favorite, too.

Don't you ever get tired of this?

Of what?

Being a doctor's wife?

Being a mother?

Being a college student at 40
-something?

All of it.

No, I don't.

Honey.

What's bothering you?

Nothing.

Stopped by the registrar's office today.

Kicked up your application.

Thanks.

You know, maybe we need to shake up the
routine a little bit around here. Do

something spontaneous and crazy.

How about a picnic?

A picnic?

Yeah. Tonight.

We'll pack up the old tuna casserole and
surprise your dad with a late -night

picnic down at the office. No, no,
that'd be a bad idea. I mean, what if

busy with something?

Then we'll wait.

Mom, I don't know. Okay, you can stay if
you want.

I'm going.

I can't remember the last time I
surprised your father with anything.

I ought to do it more often.

That's the secret to a good marriage.

Keep the romance alive.

Remember that.

Hello?

Anybody home?

Hello, Renee.

Dr. Harris has your picture on the wall
in his office.

I'm Tess's new assistant.

Oh, it's very nice to meet you, Tess.

We'll never say anything about getting a
new assistant. What happened to Sherry?

Sherry moved on.

Moved on, huh?

Oh, well, good for her.

We didn't know how late you guys would
be tonight, so we brought a little

to get you through.

Oh, that's very sweet.

Dr. Harris should be finished soon.

Do you mind if I turn the waiting room
into a picnic area?

Oh. We brought everything except the
ant.

Mr. Daniels, the next time you decide to
use a bug saw, you put on those little

glasses. Believe me, Tiff. I've learned
my lesson.

Bye, Doc.

Surprise.

Hey.

Hey, what's going on here?

A little impromptu picnic.

You're always missing dinner helping
other people. We decided we'd give you a

little treat tonight.

Tuna casserole.

Hello,

Dr. Harris' office.

Oh, yes.

Dr. Harris, it's for you.

It's Sherry.

Yes?

Oh, no, I can't.

No, no, um... Best I could do is Friday
afternoon.

Right. I'm sorry.

She wants her last paycheck.

Tuna casserole.

It's my favorite.

Join us, Ted.

Why didn't you tell us Sherry was
leaving after all this time?

Well, it was kind of sudden.

And then Tess showed up just as I needed
a replacement.

How about that?

Jason, can you give me a hand in the
back room a minute?

I wasn't lying.

It's over with Sherry. Oh, so I guess
everything's fine then.

Jason, come back here.

Oh, by the way, Dad, in the spirit of
honesty, you know that film you

yesterday? Yeah, it was a new role.

I still have the picture of you and
Sherry.

You're lying.

Well, I guess you'll just have to trust
me, Dad.

Look,

I only developed the film, lady, all
right? I didn't take the lousy picture.

Listen, you punk, if that's the way you
treat customers, then I'll take my

business elsewhere. Go ahead.

I don't want to pay for these either.

Fine.

Jason. Look, give the lecture, Monica,
all right? Everyone wants to blame

somebody else for their screw -ups.
Well, they're not going to blame me.

This is not about that customer, is it?

You can talk to me, Jason.

There's nothing to talk about.

Where have you been?

I waited for you after school.

I walk to work.

You could have told me instead of just
leaving me sitting there.

Well, I didn't ask you to wait, did I?
We always leave together.

Well, not always.

Miss Clark says that you still haven't
turned in your application for Colorado

College.

Yeah, I don't think I'm going to.

Um, actually, I'm thinking about
Columbia.

Or NYU, maybe.

We never talked about us going to New
York.

Look, Lisa, um... I'm not really sure.
It should be us.

Did I do something wrong?

No, I just... I just need some time
alone.

All right? And I just don't think this
whole together thing is going to work.

I'm sorry.

You may not want to talk to me, Jason,
but you really need to talk to someone.

I can't talk about it.

Not now, but someday the pain will be so
bad that you'll have to talk to

someone. But by then it'll be too late.
You'll have pushed everyone away.

What?

Well, I promised I wouldn't tell
anybody.

I never said I wouldn't show anyone.

Must be very painful for you to look at
this.

Yeah. It was at first.

But, um... I guess I just got used to
it, you know?

I don't know, I just... I feel like I
was living a whole other life before

No, your father was.

You've been expected to carry around a
secret that's not yours.

But I have to protect my mom, Monica.

And if I hang around Lisa...

Sooner or later, I'm going to get weak
and tell her the truth, and then the

secret's out.

And I will have ruined everything.

Oh, you won't, don't you see? This is
not your fault. This is not your secret.

But you've been twisting your life and
your heart around to accommodate it.

Yes, people will be hurt for a while by
the truth, but they'll be damaged

forever by a lie.

You're late.

Yeah, I had some things to do.

Did you and Lisa go to a movie?

No, um, actually we broke up.

Night.

Oh, dear.

No wonder he's been so upset.

Ah, it's probably no big deal. You know
teenagers.

They'll be back together by third period
tomorrow.

I don't know, Will.

It feels different.

Maybe I'll go talk to him. No, I better
do it I

Got

a call from your school today.

They wondered where you were.

What'd you tell me to make something up?

All right, look How long are you gonna
punish me for this Oh, I'm sorry, Dad. I

didn't realize you're the victim here.

Jason, you can't blow off school.

Right? And Lisa.

Well, sure I can.

You see, Dad, when a guy turns 17, he
goes through a lot of pressure.

You know, no one ever talks about it,
but it's always... Damn it! When are you

going to forget about this?

Believe me, Dad, I wish I could.

You know, but I don't know how, because
every time I look at Mom now, all I see

is what a fool you've made of her.

No, I will never forgive you for that.

I'm sorry. No, no, you stay away from
me.

Right, because I'm gonna graduate in
June and I'm gonna go to college as far

away from you as I can get.

And I'll never have to see you again.

Love, Jason.

Are you all right?

Joyce!

Joyce! It's Jason! Call 911!

Mom?

Mom, I can't see.

All right.

Take your hand away. Let me see your
face.

It's over.

Get away from me.

Oh, God, I can't see. It's all right.
It's all right. I'm right here. I'm

here. Oh, Jason.

You're going to be all right.

No, don't start to get dressed in there.
I'll get my car keys.

I'll call the head of the hospital from
the car.

I want Dr.

Jessup on this as soon as the ambulance
gets there.

Could have killed yourself.

Yeah, never such luck.

You were right, Will.

What?

Light damage to his cornea is in the
impact.

It's more severe because of the scar
tissue from the old injury.

He's going to need a penetrating
carotoplasty, right?

What's that?

Will, it's an operation. I was asking,
Dr. Jessup.

You'll need corneal transplants.

Well, when can you do it?

I know this is a little unusual, but
your dad is actually the most qualified

specialist in the area.

In my opinion, he could do the surgery.

No.

I don't want him operating on me.

Well, you better find someone else to do
it, Sam.

Where are you going?

That is your son in there.

Yeah, I know.

But for some reason, you know, maybe
he's in shock, but he doesn't want me

around.

Stop pretending you don't know what this
is about.

I saw the picture of you and Sherry.

I assume Jason took it.

I don't want to deal with this right
now.

I am thinking about our son.

And he needs the best doctor in town,
and you're it, for better or worse.

He hates me.

Oh, for God's sake, Will.

Stop being such a child.

That's what got us into this mess.

Hi,

honey. It's Mom.

Hi.

I need to talk to you about your dad.

What about him?

I know about Sherry and him.

I don't know much, but I know enough to
understand now what you've been going

through.

And I'm so sorry you've had to deal with
this.

He says he loves you, Mom.

I know he does.

I love him, too.

This is how it's going to work.

I will deal with my husband and my
marriage in my way.

And you deal with your father and yours.

You're not actually going to forgive
him, are you?

That's between your father and me.

You're looking in the wrong direction,
Will.

Yes.

What are you doing here?

I had some work to do.

Oh.

Well, I won't bother you. I just, um...
I didn't know where else to

go, so here I am.

How about that?

As it turns out, you're the work I'm
supposed to do today.

What? I'm an angel.

Sent by God with a message for you.

I probably know what that message is.

Oh, really?

Yeah.

Yeah, yeah.

It goes something like, um... I blessed
you with a great family.

And you screwed it all up.

And now you're going to lose it all.

Well, you got part of it, right?

Yeah.

Which part?

The part about God blessed you with a
great family.

But God doesn't want you to lose it all.

He wants you to fight for it.

He wants you to admit your mistakes and
learn from them.

He wants you to ask for forgiveness.

But more than anything else.

He wants you to know he loves you.

God still loves me after what I did?

Absolutely.

And you know, the things that God is
asking you to do are the

same things your son needs for you to
do.

Well, there isn't anything more I can do
for Jason.

Oh, yes, there is.

Tell him the truth.

No, I did. I told him the truth. He
didn't believe me. You know, I said I

sorry. He didn't accept it.

He doesn't trust me anymore, Tess. And,
you know, frankly, I don't blame him.

Let me ask you something, Will.

When you apologized, did it go something
like, I'm sorry,

but... Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah, I guess it did.

There can be no buts when you ask for
forgiveness, baby.

No conditions.

Do you hear what I'm saying to you?

Good.

So what are you going to do about it?

Who's there?

It's me, Monica.

Oh.

I'm sorry I didn't hear you come in.

How are you doing?

Well, I have a monster hangover, a
father who's a liar and a cheat, and I

be flying for the rest of my life.

How are you?

Hopeful.

Hopeful for what?

I believe you're going to see again.

Well, I said there was a 50 -50 chance,
but...

They want my dad to do the surgery, and
you know I can't let him do that now.

I'm not talking about seeing with your
eyes, Jason.

I'm talking about seeing with your
spirit.

It must be pretty bad if people are
starting to get all religious on me in

hospital.

Look at me.

Oh, I wish I could, Monica.

You can, Jason.

Look at me.

The light of God's love can penetrate
any darkness.

God?

I don't get it.

I am an angel, sent by God to help you
see the truth.

I can see.

Yes. No, I can really see you.

Yes.

Wow.

There's a God.

Oh, yes.

And he loves you very much, Jason.

He wants me to forgive my father,
doesn't he?

Yes.

No.

No way. You tell God to forget it.

Why don't you tell him to forget it?

And ask him to be sure not to judge you
as harshly as you have judged your

father.

What about what my father did?

Doesn't God have anything to say about
that?

Yes. But God will say it to your father.

It is not up to you to punish him.

It is only for you to hear what God is
saying.

He created you.

He knows your heart because he made it.

He can see the anger and the pain and
the betrayal and the fear that's in it.

But he can also see the love that's
still there for your father.

And that's why when he made you, Jason,
he gave you the capacity to forgive.

Not for your father's sake or for your
mother's, but for your own sake.

But I don't want to forgive him.

Not now, maybe.

But someday you will wish that you had.

So, Jason, right now, in this room,
before God, ask him to change your

heart.

If he made it, he can change it.

He can give you a heart like his.

A heart that sees failure and betrayal
and mistakes and yet still loves, still

hopes.

And believe that even if you can't
forgive right now, God will begin to

in you a heart that will learn how.

Because, Jason, if you don't let go of
this bitterness, if you can't forgive

work with your father to rebuild your
trust, you won't just lose your family.

You will lose yourself Okay

Who's there?

It's me.

Well, I, uh... I guess I messed up
pretty good, huh?

Yeah. I'd say it was, uh... pretty good
as far as messes go.

Not as good as getting drunk and
smashing to a pole, but... not too bad

old guy.

I'm such a terrible example. I'm such a
hypocrite.

I preach to you all the time about doing
the right thing, and then I turn around

and... Dad.

You can come closer.

Jason.

I am so sorry.

For what I did to your mom, for what I
did to you.

Can you ever forgive me?

You know, a couple hours ago, I would
have said no.

But let's just say I'm seeing things in
a whole new light.

I do forgive you, Dad.

And I love you.

Honey, it's me.

I have some

pictures I think we ought to talk about.

No, Mom, look, I should have thrown
those away a long time ago. I'm sorry.

Shh, honey, just let me finish.

Now, this first one is, um... Well, it's
pretty scandalous.

It's you, Jason.

Thirteen months old, running around bare
naked with the cowboy hat your dad gave

you for your first birthday.

And this picture, well, this is the
three of

us at Disneyland.

Did you know your dad screamed on Mr.
Toad's Wild Ride?

Oh, well, this is a nice piece of
photography.

This is New Year's Eve, 1986.

And yes, oh, yes, yes, yes. You mean the
jacuzzi fight? I mean the jacuzzi

fight.

Not every family can do that, you know.

No, and it's not going to be easy
putting it all together, but at least

willing to try. Good, because I booked
surgery for 2 .30.

You never had a moment's doubt, did you,
Ted?

No, and I've got an appointment with
Sherry at 3 o 'clock.