All language subtitles for touched_by_an_angel_s05e25_hearts

Not yet You never know what's gonna
happen But most humans live

their lives like it never will when the
truth is suddenly the world can change

in the twinkling of an eye

There's a lot of different ways to go
and a lot of lives at stake.

I'm ready.

Well, then you better go, because Andrew
and I still have a lot of work to do

here.

Angela!

Angela. Oh, my God.

When...

down the road heavy burden heavy

load I will rise and I

will walk with you I'll walk with you
till the sun

don't even shine walk with you every
time

I tell you I'll walk with you

Believe me, I'll walk with you.

What do we got?

Class goes four.

Pupils are fixed in mid -range. There's
no motion.

It's my wife.

Her horse.

Blood pressure?

190 over 100.

Pulse is only 50.

What's her blood type?

O positive.

Look, she just hit her head on the rock.
I mean, she's going to be okay, right?

She needs a complete neural assessment.
Let's get her to CT stat.

I'll check her there.

I'll be back as soon as I know what
we're dealing with. Why don't you wait

the waiting room? I'll be back as soon
as I can. Tess, I have a friend at

Portland General, Dr. Sandra Pena. See
if you can get her on the line for me. I

got that.

Do we have a donor?

Could be a woman from a severe head
trauma. No other operant has become

Then we have a candidate for Elena.

Ah, portable.

Yep, looks like a match.

But the family still has to find out.

Mom.

Casey, what are you doing here? I
thought you had a speech club today.

Ah, that's Wednesday.

Oh, baby, I gotta go. Why don't you go
wait for me at the office, okay? It's

very important.

I'll be right there.

Mom, wait.

Is she awake?

No. Mr. McConnell, let's sit down. No,
you tell me now.

So how's my favorite patient doing?

According to this book, not very well.

Well, how about now?

Much better.

You're good.

We got the results of your latest test,
and we're considering intubating you and

putting you on a ventilator. No.

Once you intubate me, you have to do a
transplant or else I'll never come off

the ventilator.

We have to consider it, Elena.

Is there a heart for me?

No, we've got some promising leads.

I'll check on you a little bit later.

If we don't get that heart, we're in
trouble.

And see if you can lift Elena's spirits
back up.

Positive thinking might just keep her
around a little bit longer.

So, have you had many visitors lately?

No.

My foster parents kind of gave up on me,
I think.

They're nice, but it's a long drive for
them, and...

You know, they've got other kids to take
care of.

I think I have a visitor for you.

I'll be right back, okay?

Okay.

I'm right here, sweetheart.

You're gonna be okay.

I know you can hear me.

I don't want you to worry about
anything.

The sun shines back in his stall.

He's okay, too.

You guys will be riding together before
you know it.

I promise.

Elena? This is Casey, Dr. Sandra's
daughter.

Elena's one of your mother's patients.

Hi.

I'm in love with your mother.

What kind of drugs do they have you on?

I'll let you two get acquainted, and
I'll check in on you later.

You like NSYNC?

Oh, yeah. I like them way better than
the Backstreet Boys.

Especially Justin, right?

Oh, he's so fine.

Tell me you're not reading medical
books.

Yeah.

It keeps me busy.

Plus, it gives me stuff to talk about
with your mom.

My mom talks to you about medical stuff?

Yeah. She's pretty amazing.

I think I'm going to be a doctor like
her.

If, you know, you're really lucky to
have her as a mom.

Wow, if you think that, your mom must be
a real case.

I don't know. I never knew her.

Oh, sorry.

It's okay.

So, you want to play cards or something?

Sure.

How about hearts?

Bad.

Very bad.

Are you the specialist?

No. Your wife has already been seen by a
neurosurgeon.

I believe he spoke to you.

But I asked for another one.

Five different doctors have already seen
your wife today, and they all agree.

Then I want more specialists in here.

Money is no object, do you understand
me? But, baby, they will all say the

thing.

I know how much pain you're in, but
unfortunately, at times like these,

plenty of pain to go around.

Donor coordinator.

Yes. I help families explore other
options when it's clear that the patient

will not recover.

No.

There are no options.

Angela is going to live.

I might be getting a new heart.

When?

I don't know, but pretty soon, I guess.

Your mom kind of hinted at it.

But is that weird, though?

Like, thinking about having someone
else's heart in your body?

No.

I mean, the way I figure it, if they
want you to have it in the first place,

they gotta be somebody nice, right?

Besides, it sure beats the alternative.

Casey?

And I wanted to stay away from her.

Why? I have some very good reasons.

You just need to trust me.

Sandra, Elena seemed to really enjoy the
company.

You I'm not very happy with either.

Casey, I don't expect you to understand
me, but I wanted to try.

Just like I tried to understand you.

I'm doing what I need to do to protect
you. From what? From Elena?

But she's great. I mean, I've only known
her an hour, and I feel like we could

be friends forever.

Well, that's not going to happen. Why?

I just got another call from Boise.

The donor family's dead now.

Elena's out of time. She's going to die.

I don't understand how can people be so
selfish.

It's too late for that woman. Her brain
is dead, but part of her can live on.

So why can't the family see that?

Because there is so much pain.

Don't bother explaining feelings to my
mother.

You know, Casey, I'm sure I'm about the
worst mother any teenager could ever

have.

But I've got feelings, too, and I really
appreciate it.

If you respect them.

Now what can I do for you?

You just told me my friend's gonna die.
Don't treat me like a consultation,

okay? I've got no time for this. Casey,
please!

Excuse me?

Where are you going?

To see Elena. She's about to be told the
worst news that she'll ever hear, and

she needs a friend.

Hello. Are you a doctor?

No, no. I'm sort of a crisis counselor.

Well, there's no crisis here.

And I'm not going to let them cut up my
wife. I don't care what you say. That's

not why I'm here.

I'm here to sit with your wife and keep
her company while you go get some rest.

I know what your wife needs.

And I know what you need.

I'm thinking it might do all of you a
world of good if you go back to the

feed the horses and supper and get some
rest.

And you won't leave her side.

Not for a minute.

You're two very different women.

She's not a woman. She's a teenager.

I don't think you'll have much success
explaining the difference to her. She's

at exactly the age when she doesn't want
to know there is a difference.

Well, she's done everything she can to
point out the differences between us.

Well, that's because she's hoping that
you'll prove her wrong.

Hello, Angie.

We go.

I want you to tell me what you want.

I'm tough, Monica.

I had to be.

I fought my way out of the barrio with a
lion -colored sheep.

But her father, he was an Ivy League
dreamer who wrote bad poetry and

useless things.

Do you think she takes after her father?

Definitely she looks like him.

But emotionally...

She's got a little bit of both of us.

His imagination and my ambition.

I just wish she'd stop trying to do
things she's not good at.

She'll never make a good doctor.

I don't really think she's trying to be
a good doctor.

I think she's trying to be a good
daughter.

My mom was pretty mad. She didn't want
me to come back.

Wow.

I always want to be a bad influence.

There.

Wow.

This really rocks.

You want to see something?

Yeah. There's a picture in that drawer
right there.

That's how I used to look.

You still look like this.

No, I don't.

Yes, you do.

You have great hair.

Once, I cut off all my hair and I shaved
my head bald because this girl in my

class lost all of her hair because she
was going through chemo.

And I didn't want her to feel weird.

I don't know.

I'm crazy.

I do impulsive things like that.

The most impulsive thing I ever did was
check out a bunch of medical books at

the library and keep them an extra day.

But that's what's going to make you a
good doctor.

That's why my mom's a really good
doctor.

I mean, she thinks things through again
and again.

And that's why I'm not going to be a
good doctor.

Well, you shouldn't be a doctor anyway.

You should be a writer or an artist or a
dancer.

Yeah, I can do that stuff, but it's not
as important as saving people's lives.

I mean, I figured if I be a doctor, then
my mom would actually take interest in

me. Hey, look, you've got to give your
mom a break.

You're like this...

Wild creature she doesn't know what to
do with.

She's probably the one who thinks that
she's not interesting enough for you.

How can we be almost the same age and
you're so smart?

I'm not smart.

It's just that when you're going to die,
you don't worry about telling people

the truth.

You're not going to die, okay? You're
not.

Trust me, okay?

How's it going, angel boy?

She says yes.

It's in her purse in the kitchen.

In her purse in the kitchen. I got that.

Mr. McConnell.

What are you doing here?

I came to talk to you.

See him?

Oh, he's a beauty.

His name's Sunshine.

It was a present last week for Angela's
birthday.

Fastest horse out here.

Angela loves to go fast.

She's a good rider. She knows what she's
doing.

And like anybody else that's ever
ridden, she's been thrown a few times.

I just... It was an accident. There was
nothing she could have done.

Think that makes me feel any better?

Well, I imagine not, but... May I ask
you a question?

Did you and your wife ever talk about
what you would do if something like this

happened?

No. Nothing like this was ever supposed
to happen.

Did you know that Angela signed a
donor's card?

No, she didn't.

Yes, she did, baby.

In her purse on the kitchen table.

You're guessing.

You couldn't possibly know that.

Well, what's wrong with checking it out
to be sure?

Because the answer would still be the
same.

But what about your wife's wishes?

I hope you'll reconsider, Mr. McConnell.

And I hope you don't...

Think about it too long.

Connell, where's the Idaho?

Your assignment was to watch Casey, not
watch her get on a bus.

She's here to save Elena.

Well, good intentions are not the same
as a good plan.

Now, you get back on the bus.

I'll take care of her from here on.

She's very sensitive, Tess.

Impetuous. A little bit reckless.

But she has a kind heart.

Oh.

I don't know anybody like that.

You're about to get a visitor.

Hello.

Hey. Are you Mr. McConnell?

No, no.

Is that Mrs. McConnell?

Yeah.

Her name's Angela.

Beautiful.

Yeah, she is.

Have you been here all night?

Yes, I just couldn't leave until I could
find the words to tell her.

I still haven't found them.

I've got to go to Casey to get her off
to school.

Casey's not at home.

Where is she?

She went to Boise.

Casey totally rocks.

Good morning, Mr. McConnell.

Ma 'am.

You are wasting your time.

Well, there is very little time left.

There's been a very unusual development
that I'm here to supervise.

But if you would give this young lady a
few minutes of your time, I promise you,

I won't disturb you again.

Her name is Casey, and she's been on a
bus all night long.

Where are you from?

Portland.

Yeah, we've been to Portland.

Angela bought this little wind chime
thing hanging on her back porch.

Thing drives me crazy, but she loves it.

Anyway, Portland's a nice town.

Thanks.

Um...

What's this?

That's my friend.

Her name's Elena.

And she's 16.

I don't understand.

I thought if you would see her, then you
would realize that there's a real

person who needs her heart.

Not just some statistic, and then...
Yeah, well, let me tell you something.

There's a real person up there, too.

A real person who is living and
breathing that I love more than my own

You're talking about my wife.

My best friend.

How old are you?

Fifteen. Fifteen.

Do you know that Angela and I have been
together longer than you've been alive?

And let me tell you something. That
woman is a saint. She teaches adults how

read at the library.

She volunteers at the local shelter. She
makes a difference.

And just what makes you think that your
friend here deserves to live and my wife

doesn't? But your wife isn't alive
anymore.

I mean, she's gone and there are
machines breathing for her.

And I'm sorry, I really am, but I don't
see how two people have to die.

Why can't your wife make a difference?

One last time.

Casey, baby.

Elena is going to die.

Yeah, well, that happens, doesn't it?

Elena said for a person to give another
human being

their heart, that would mean they'd have
to be pretty nice.

And I... It's all your wife up there.

And she looks really nice.

I know Elena will take really good care
of her heart.

I know, and she'll do it for the rest of
her life.

I mean, I would do it if I could, but I
can't.

You have no idea what you're asking me
to do.

You're a high school teenager.

And you come to me asking for my wife's
heart like you were soliciting donations

to buy the band new uniforms.

How dare you?

You get the hell away from me.

Go on, get!

Not one word.

You promised me.

She actually showed me a picture of her
little girlfriend.

Can you believe that?

I can't.

I mean, I just can't.

Well, yes, Dan, you can.

You just won't.

But I'll tell you something.

Angela would.

And how would you know that?

She told me.

I am an angel, Dan.

A real angel.

Sent by God to bring Angela home.

No.

It's true.

Dan, terrible things happen every day.

And wonderful and beautiful and
miraculous things happen every day, too.

I want to tell you something.

God did not.

cause Angela to fall from that horse.

But he did make provision for her to
move from one life into another

and to leave behind the chance at life
to

become one else.

I can't just let her go.

I love her.

God knows how much pain you're in.

pain he's in.

Dan, you married Angela.

God created her.

This is what she wants.

You know how to find that out.

And then it's your decision.

But please, please, don't take too long.

I blew it, didn't I? No, baby, and
neither did Mr. McConnell.

His grief is so complete, he just
doesn't have the strength to do the

thing.

But I want you to do the right thing and
find the strength to forgive him.

I can't. Elena's going to die.

Well, baby, don't let the best in you
die, too.

Now you get on that bus, and if your
mother gives you any trouble, you give

my number.

You hear me?

Come here.

It's going to be all right.

Go ahead, let me have it.

How could you go off into something like
this without a word?

You wouldn't have let me go. That's
absolutely right.

There are procedures.

Regulations to protect people's privacy.

Donor's identity is never, ever
revealed. Do you understand that?

How could you do this?

I was trying to help a friend. Maybe if
you actually had friends, you would

understand. Don't you dare speak to me
that way.

You know what? Just pull over, okay? I'm
going to walk.

I'm not going anywhere.

Monica.

How's Casey?

She's not doing well.

There was significant head trauma from
hitting the side window.

We were fighting.

It was... It's a bit... All my

fault. It was an accident, Sandra.

Yes, my accident, my stupidity.

I know this is a really difficult time
for you now, but there's something that

you need to think about.

If we cannot help, Casey, what do you
want to do?

I don't... No.

No, absolutely not. Sandra, think of
Elena.

No.

You must think I'm the biggest hypocrite
in the world, but I will not transplant

my daughter's heart.

You can't just...

She's my baby.

Uh -oh.

This is not good.

There's something I need to tell you.

There's no heart?

Dr. Sandra would have come and told you
herself.

There was a heart that might have been
available yesterday, but the family has

decided not to give permission.

I thought that Casey talked to them.
There's something else.

Elena, Casey was in an accident.

What?

Is she okay?

We don't know yet.

Well, I want to see her.

You can't.

She's unconscious.

There's some swelling on the brain. Now,
it might go down and she'll be just

fine, but if it doesn't...

We would have to make some decisions.

Wait a minute.

She could die and... And you're thinking
of giving me her heart?

It's too early to say.

Well, I know already.

I don't want Casey's heart. I want
Casey.

Elena, I don't know what's going to
happen.

But I believe that the heart you have
right now, you have used very well.

I thought you could change this.

Thank you.

That's a long night.

Yes.

Elena's holding her own.

It's a miracle.

Yes, it is.

I could do it in both.

Yay, Monica.

It's all my fault.

I couldn't get a new heart for Elena.

I destroyed my... I destroyed my
daughter because I couldn't understand

I'm just a terrible mother.

Would you consider taking Casey and
Elena's lives out of the doctor's hands

putting them in God's?

God's?

Did you just say put them in God's
hands?

Yes.

Is that the best you can do?

No.

Is this better?

What's happening?

I am an angel, Sandra.

Sometimes God sends me with a lot to
say, sometimes with a little.

But it's always true, and it's always
exactly what you need to hear.

An angel?

Yes.

And the truth is, God loves you.

Me?

God loves me.

Even now?

Yes.

And he loves your daughter too.

He made you different for a reason.

Casey's strengths are your weaknesses.

And her weaknesses are your strength.

I love her so much.

I just don't know how to reach her.

The connection between a mother and
daughter.

is one of the great gifts of God.

It's also one of the great mysteries of
life.

In fact, sometimes your daughter doesn't
look like you.

She doesn't think like you.

But she loves like you.

She tried to save a life just like you
did.

She wants so much to be like you.

Fight for her.

Fight for both of you.

Not with what you know, not just with
medicine.

Fight with what you don't know.

You don't know what will happen next,
but God does.

You don't know how to reach her, but God
can.

You don't know how to pray, but God
hears you, Sandra.

Trust him and tell him so.

Believe in Casey and tell her so too.

Hi, baby.

Monica says you can hear me.

She's an angel.

Yeah, I know that if you were awake,
you'd probably think that I was crazy,

it's true.

And she made me realize something.

You're trying to be someone you're not
just to make me happy.

But baby, I don't want you to be just
like me. I want you to be just like you.

Casey.

Mom, I heard you.

I heard you talking to me.

I am so sorry, baby.

I'm so sorry.

I was awake.

I've got to see you. Mom, please.

How are you doing?

I'm so good.

It's all going to be over soon.

I couldn't get you a heart?

I'm sorry.

You probably hate me now.

Are you kidding?

I only knew you for a few days.

But you made me feel like I had a best
friend.

And I never had one before, you know?

Now, somebody finally cares whether I
live or die.

You and your mom.

You guys are the best.

No, Annie, you just gotta hold on.

There's gonna be another heart, I know.

No, there won't.

really great heart, Casey.

So take care of it, okay?

Now please, Lana, just hold on, okay?

Just hold on.

Promise me.

Monica, great news. The family changed
their minds. They're going to have the

heart here in three hours.

Sandra.

Casey, whatever you say.

It's too late.

There's something she wanted you to
know.

She knew she didn't have much time left,
so...

This afternoon she signed a donor card.

She knew she didn't have much left in
her body to give, but she hoped that

someone would be able to use her eyes.

And she hoped that whoever got them saw
as much love as she saw from Casey and

as much caring and commitment as she saw
from Dr. Sandra.

And she asked only one other thing, that
you would remember her.

Somebody else got Angela's heart that
day.

But I wanted to write to you, Mr.
McConnell, because I'm sorry for what I

Because now I know how it feels to lose
someone you love.

It took a lot of courage to make the
decision you made.

Whenever you feel depressed and lonely,
I hope you always remember that your

wife died a hero.

Yours truly, Casey.