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30. Don't look at me. Look through me.
Now try it again.

Yeah, that's right. That's better.

Did I tell you to put that down?

Up, up, up, up.

When you salute a superior officer, you
don't let go until you're saluted back

with wings.

What is a salute anyway, Tess?

Oh, it's a lot of things.

It's a sign of respect.

It says, I know who you are, and I am a
soldier honoring my leader. It also

says, I'm a leader acknowledging those I
command. It's a military tradition, but

it's also a regulation, so you better
try to get it right.

At ease, Angel Girl.

You got your orders?

Yes, ma 'am.

Take a look over there, Angel Girl.

That's him.

His name is Colonel Walt.

He's the base commander.

What's the matter?

Why won't he salute back at that
soldier?

What did I tell you about salutes?

They're a sign of respect.

It's recognizing people for who they
are.

Colonel Walls has a big problem with
that.

He's forgotten about the tradition and
he only lives for the regulations.

Maybe peace time, but there's a war
going on in that man's heart.

That soldier is very brave to stand up
to him like that.

That's not bravery.

That's anger.

And I've got just the angel for a young,
angry hothead.

Raphael. A young, happy hothead.

Did you tell him about the hair?

Not yet.

When

you

walk down the road.

Heavy burden, heavy load.

I will rise and I will walk with you.

I'll walk with you till the sun don't
even shine.

Walk with you every time I tell you I'll
walk.

Believe me, I'll walk with you.

At least she didn't cut it all off.

Tess had to cut it for this assignment.

Yeah, I know she had to cut it.

She didn't have to enjoy it so much.

You sure you're gonna be okay, Raphael?
I know you have a wee bit of a problem

with, you know... With what?

You got an invisible friend there,
Private?

Being crazy isn't gonna get you out of
the army, you know.

Oh, I don't want out. I just transferred
in.

Where from?

North.

Way up there.

And what army base is more north than
this?

Oh, it's kind of classified.

Yeah. What isn't?

Name's Landau.

Rafael.

Buds call me Chug.

Chicano, huh?

Just like the CO.

Believe me, that ain't gonna get you
anything around here.

You wanna stay out of trouble, you keep
away from that one.

Parade's been bounced off more posts
than you'll ever see.

I think she's better than the rest of
us.

Truth is, he can't handle it.

Get off my bunk, Landau.

Hey, I'm Rafael.

Tomas.

So, I hear you've been around.

Yeah.

And hopefully in a few days this place
will be a memory, too.

Garrison commanders piece of work

At

ease

to assume the parade rest position if he
had wanted you to relax he would have

said as you were What are you doing

He said Eddie.

Welcome to Fort McCracken, soldier.

My name is Colonel Walls, and I'm the
garrison commander.

Oh, hi.

The United States of America is the best
country in

the world.

We have never been invaded because of
the strength of our military.

I know that many of you have had fathers
and uncles who have been in combat.

And every day I do two things.

A, I pray that our country will never
have to fight another day.

B, I prepare men like yourselves for
combat because I know very damn well

that A is just a fantasy, a dream that
will never come true.

Did you write a letter to Army
headquarters?

Yes, sir. Requesting transfer.

Yes, sir.

Request denied. Back in line.

He's a tough customer, isn't he?

Do you need medical assistance,

soldier? No, sir. Thank you, sir. Good.

Then report to KP and you will peel me
500 potatoes and then come to my office.

And if you don't know where my office
is, then you ask your friend Paredes.

He spent plenty of time there.

Do me a favor and eat this.

Is there any news?

No.

Try to eat something.

You need to drink, okay?

Gracias, corazón.

You're welcome.

Can you speak Spanish even at home?

Why don't you speak it anymore?

Because this isn't Mexico.

That doesn't mean you leave your
heritage behind.

Is everything all right at the base?

Fine.

Same attitude problem with private buddy
of this.

Another transfer request?

I try to make him into a good soldier,
but he doesn't want to learn.

His only concern is to keep his Chicano
pride intact.

That can be a strong thing.

Be patient.

I'm tired of being patient.

Come here.

Let's eat.

No.

What's this?

It's four weeks today.

I know.

I pray God will bring him home.

He's a trained soldier. He'll bring
himself home.

Let's eat.

Father Rappel, reporting as ordered,
sir.

How'd you find KP?

Pruney, sir.

Pruney.

What's your first name, soldier?

Raphael, sir.

Your name is Raphael Raphael? Yes, sir.
That is the name my father gave me, sir.

Interesting family.

What color are you, Raphael Raphael?

I guess I would be brown, sir. Wrong.

You were brown.

Now you're army green, just like every
other soldier on this base.

Don't make any mistake thinking you're
going to get a break.

Just because we both happen to be
Latino.

No special treatment.

No special treatment needed, sir.

Fine.

Step over here.

You know what this is?

It's a very old weapon, sir.

It's an 1874 Colt, I believe.

It is.

One must admire something that's made so
well that it stands the test of time.

Something well done is something to be
proud of.

Let me show you something else.

Medal of Honor, sir?

Yes.

I got that for saving the life of six
men in Nam.

I was a scared kid when I went over
there.

I knew nothing, just like you.

Thank you, sir.

But that's what the Army can do for you.

Give you a home.

Give you a future.

And teach you... Would it be all I can
be, sir?

Now listen, this is Wisconsin, and you
stick out like a sore thumb with a name

like Rafael.

You're asking for trouble just like your
friend Paredes.

What would you suggest, sir? Rafael is a
good name, but sometimes you have to do

things you have to do to get along.

I suggest you consider using Ralph.

Ralph, sir.

What?

Well... He is the CEO.

So?

So you're going to change your name to
Ralph and turn your back on your

heritage?

I don't turn my back on anybody.

Where I'm from, color doesn't matter.

This just happens to be the body I'm in.
You're a coward.

Oh, whoa, whoa. Now, don't do that.

What do you see out of this, Landau?
It's all right, Chuck.

I got this.

You know, I'm sick and tired of your
attitude, Paredes.

Where I come from, we take care of
people like you.

Go Jets! Get back! Get back!

Let's go, soldier.

Well, don't this beat all.

All right, let me tell you what
happened. I know what happened. You just

the first angel in the history of the
universe to hit his assignment.

That's what happened.

I'm sorry.

I know you are.

How's your head?

It's fine.

Good.

Because you're going to need it.

You know, I don't get you.

What is your problem?

You want the whole list, Rafael?

You, Landau, the army?

And here's the numero uno.

Colonel Victor Wall.

All right, so he's a hard case. So what?

Why do you let him get to you?

I can't help it. He's my father.

Hello.

I'm Monica, S .J .A.

I don't need a lawyer.

I heard about the trouble you caused.

Maybe you could use one right about now.

Where are the others?

They were sprung an hour ago. Why not
you?

Why don't you ask the garrison
commander?

I intend to.

I can't think why your father would want
to keep them. Shh!

I don't want anyone to know, not so
loud.

But they won't.

You have different last names.

He changed his when he enlisted.

Of course.

Paredes means walls in Spanish.

Yeah.

He said changing his name would make
life easier.

Your 201 says you enlisted two years
ago.

Yet you've spent the last year and a
half trying to get kicked out.

Two arrests, four reprimands.

What seems to be the problem?

I'm trying to help you here. I can't do
it alone.

It also says you have a brother in the
army.

Paul. He's MIA.

What's it like coming from a military
family?

It's great.

If you're the military type.

And if you're not? You enlist anyway.

So where is Paul now?

Well, if I knew that, he wouldn't be
missing.

Now, would he?

Huh? You take a good look at me,
soldier.

And please note that I bear absolutely
no resemblance to your father.

Neither am I the entire United States
Army, past or present, with all the

real and imagined that you feel it has
heaped upon you.

I am one individual.

One.

Perhaps the only individual who is
trying to help you at this moment.

And I deserve your respect.

Paul went to Bosnia six months ago as a
peacekeeper.

Last month, he walked out of the
installation.

And he never came back.

They tell us they haven't found him yet.

After a month?

Details are under investigation.

We both know that's army jargon, but
we're not about to tell you the truth.

This whole thing stinks, if you ask me.

Come.

Colonel Walt, Captain Monica, FJA.

Please be seated, Captain.

I didn't ask for a staff judge advocate,
so how can I help you?

I understand there was an incident in
the barracks with three soldiers under

your command, sir.

That's correct.

They were in violation of Article 1 of
the Uniform Code of...

military justice, and I detained them
under the rules of Court Martial 304,

Article 4.

As a direct threat to the safety of the
community?

That's correct, Captain.

Isn't that a wee bit severe for a common
fistfight, sir?

Privates Rafael and Landau have been
released, and Private Paredes, the

instigator, will spend a week in
confinement thinking about what he's

Everything's under control here,
Captain.

Begging your pardon, sir, you only have
72 hours to justify the order.

Private Paredes is your son, is he not?

That's correct.

So what you're saying, sir, is that he's
grounded?

That'll be all, Captain.

Does he know you're paying?

Oh, I don't tell your father everything.

That's how you've stayed married so
long.

I have to report to my barracks, Mama.

Hey, I made you something.

Something to keep you warm when you're
off duty.

Come to dinner tonight.

I'm not speaking to him anymore.

He needs you.

He doesn't need me.

He only cares about Paul. Paul has
always been the one that made him happy.

You are his son, too, Tomás.

And when are you going to stop acting
like this is all his fault? When he

being a jerk. Hey, what you think of
your father is up to you, but you may

speak of my husband that way.

I'll leave the mess hall.

Well, you'd rather have jello covered
with gravy than my pozole. Fine.

I've said many prayers that this family
will find its way.

Someday, my prayers will be answered.

Hey.

Hey.

I have to know something.

I already told you why I'm changing my
name.

No, I don't care about that.

Truth is, what really bothers me is that
he encouraged you, too.

Like he encouraged my brother, but he
never mentioned it to me.

Well, maybe he wanted somebody to carry
on the family name.

No.

I'm not the one he wants to carry on
anything.

He only tries to change people he cares
about.

What did you want to know?

You like pozole?

You gotta ask?

This was wonderful, Mrs. Wall. Well,
thank you.

I'm glad you decided to come to dinner
tonight.

And that you brought a friend.

I'm bringing a friend for a shield.

I'm looking for a new administrative
assistant.

Be interested?

What is wrong with you?

Why him? Because he'll change his name
for you? Well, should it be you?

You won't even talk to me.

You don't even want to be in the army.

Why do you have me transferred to this
post?

No army talk.

Tonight's almost familia.

Because I wanted to keep an eye on you.

If you're in this man's army, I want to
make sure you don't bring any dishonor

to this family. Do you understand?

You're not going to get transferred out
of here.

I'm not in this family.

I can't change enough to be in this
family.

Maybe Paul could, because Paul could do
anything. Enough!

If you don't like me and you don't like
the army, why did you enlist?

Man, you are blind.

Good evening.

May I speak with Colonel and Mrs. Wall,
please?

Colonel,

what can we do for you?

Good evening. My name is Andrew, and I'm
the casualty assistance officer.

Yes?

Ma 'am, the secretary of the army has
asked me to express to you his deep

that your son Paul was killed in service
to his country.

Why? And the secretary also asked me to
convey to you his deepest sympathy to

you and your family on your tragic loss.

Paul was killed when his unit was
recovering you in helicopter pilots.

And the enemy secured the area, and
that's why this has all taken so long to

verify.

Thank you, Colonel.

Were you there when Paul died?

Yeah.

He was a very brave man.

Mew.

Mew.

Soldiers don't cry. Oh, God.

Don't soldiers have hearts?

You want gold? Son of a... Dismissed!

Colonel Wolfe?

Colonel Wolfe, sir?

Excuse me, I'm sorry to disturb you, but
that call that you placed to Thierry

Abo, I finally got the CO on the line.
It's a bad connection, though.

Put him through.

Yes. Yes, that's better.

Thank you, yes.

This is Colonel Victor Walls. Did you
say Colonel Victor Walls? That's

And I'm calling on some information.

What can I help you with, Colonel? On
the death of Corporal Walls.

Maria, I just got off the phone with
headquarters in Bosnia.

Paul wasn't killed trying to recover the
helicopter.

He was taken prisoner.

He's alive?

No, but he helped the injured pilots
survive and gave cover fire for their

escape.

He helped them all get away.

The survivors told us this story.

Maria, do you know what this means?

Yes, it means my Bob Lowe is dead.

He's a hero.

Our son is a hero.

We should be very proud of him.

I have always been proud of him.

Of both our sons.

He could get a medal.

Could you just not be a soldier for
once?

Be a father today.

Very sorry to hear about your son,
Colonel Walsh.

Under the circumstances, I suggest that
we postpone this meeting and I can come

back another.

No, let's just get over this.

I put this off for too long. Private
Butt -head, this needs to be taught a

lesson. He made one mistake.

He lost control.

Good soldiers don't lose control.

Paul would have never done that.

Your son, Thomas, is not your son, Paul.

He needs you to accept him for who he
is. Please, don't compare him to his

brother. Stick to your duties, Captain.

Speak to me when you have a better
defense prepared.

That'll be all.

Dismissed.

Oh, Colonel.

Mrs. Walsh, this just arrived and I
thought you would want to have it.

It's your son's personal fix.

Thank you.

Again, ma 'am, my condolences.

Dog pants.

Wallet.

Oh, picture of his going away party.

Postcard.

It's addressed to you.

Earbrow.

Welcome to beautiful downtown Sarajevo.

This is the life.

Cold days, colder nights.

Rats the size of a gun.

But the good news is that I'm finally
going to see some action.

Action?

Have to get some soda because tomorrow's
the big day.

Can't wait. Got to make him proud.

He was a peacekeeper.

What else does it say?

Nothing.

What the hell are you doing in this
office?

You're in big trouble, soldier.

What the hell are you doing in my
office? Stop!

Just stop!

That gun isn't loaded.

You should keep bullets in your desk
drawer.

Explain this.

What is it?

It's from Paul.

It's the last thing he ever wrote.

And it ends with, I don't know how the
old man pulled it off.

What does he mean, Colonel?

I don't know.

You're a liar.

You're not gonna shoot me.

No I'm gonna shoot myself

What

are you gonna do with the gun down

anything anything you want

Put the gun down.

Files?

What? Give me the files.

And I'll give you the gun.

Tomas, stop this.

I knew it.

What's in those files is more important
to you than I am.

That's nonsense.

Is it?

What did Paul mean?

I don't know.

You know!

Let's put the gun down. Let go!

Thomas is through, Captain. He's out.
Court -martialed.

I wouldn't do that, Victor.

Who'll address me as Colonel Walls,
Captain?

Where's everyone throwing military
protocol of the wind tonight?

There are many kinds of duty.

Sometimes it is your duty to be a
soldier, Victor.

Sometimes to be a father.

You're way out of line, Captain.

I'm the commanding officer of this base.
You have no right to.

Question the authority of a superior.

Neither do you.

For I am a soldier in God's army.

And there's no authority higher than
his.

I am an angel, Victor.

Sent by God.

What are you doing here?

God always sends us wherever we are
needed.

No, Paul needed an angel.

He did.

He had many angels comforting him and
helping him in the midst of battle.

But it's not his angels that you're
worried about.

It's how he got there in the first
place, isn't it?

Yes.

God is punishing me now.

No.

God loves you.

And he wants to bring you peace.

He knows that you have a war raging
within you, a war that will not end

you tell your family the truth.

I can't.

I can't tell them.

God will stand by you.

I won't understand.

A good soldier is supposed to serve God
and country.

You've done a great job serving your
country, Victor.

When are you going to tart nerve in God?

What happened to you? I had a big fight
with Papa.

You what?

I can't take it anymore.

I just came to say adios. Adios? Where
are you going?

No, Tomás, please.

I just lost one son. I am not going to
lose another.

Where's the gun?

It's in the garbage where it belongs.

What gun?

Victor, for God's sake. It's all right,
Maria.

I'm glad he's here.

There's something that you must both
hear.

No more of your lies!

No, Thomas!

You are going to listen to him. For
once, you are going to be quiet and

Paul was a good soldier. Paul was
perfect in your eyes. Shh.

Paul was not perfect.

And neither am I.

I tried to change Paul.

I pushed too hard and too fast.

I made him feel he needed to go beyond
his ability to please me.

He was not satisfied with this.

Assignment in Bosnia.

He wanted a transfer to a scout unit.

A unit ensuring compliance of the United
Nations Peace Treaty.

What was it, a quartermaster unit?

How did he get into a scout unit?

I called in a favor.

A friend I served with in Nam.

Now a major.

He gave him the job.

You?

You put your son in that position?

At first, I denied his requests.

But he begged me, Maria.

He wanted to go badly.

To make you happy?

No. To serve his country.

Yeah, now he's dead.

Because you put him there.

What kind of a monster are you?

I just wanted him to be. A hero like
you.

I wanted him to be proud of who he is.

Well, you've forgotten who you are,
Colonel Walls.

I know who I am.

Then you've just forgotten that you're
my father, too.

You want to know why I joined the Army?

When I hated so much?

I only joined the Army to get your
attention.

I know I'm not a good soldier.

I'll never be as good as Paul was.

I thought...

You didn't love me.

If I joined the military, you might
respect me.

Would you love me if I died too?

Why couldn't you tell him the one thing
he needed to hear?

Why couldn't you tell him that you love
him?

Rafael? I'm an angel, Tomas.

God sent me here to help you.

What's going on?

It's okay, Chuck.

Go back to sleep.

Okay.

I don't believe in angels.

That's okay.

I believe in you.

Then you're the only one.

Not... True.

God believes in you too.

If you're an angel, tell me the truth.

If Paul was everything my father ever
wanted, then why was I born?

You weren't born to serve your earthly
father, Thomas.

You were born to serve your heavenly
father.

He gave you brains, a heart, talent.

imagination, passion, and emotion.

He gave you everything that you need to
fulfill your own unique purpose in this

world.

But you never asked him what that
purpose is.

Instead, you spent your life trying to
be Victor's idea of the perfect son,

or your own idea of the ultimate Chicano
man.

So now you want to know.

Why you were born?

God created you to be Tomás Emanuel
Paredes.

Nobody else can be that.

Only you.

The trick is, you have to stay alive to
do it.

What am I supposed to do?

I know it's not easy.

But it's simple.

Forgive him.

Forgive your father for pushing Paul too
hard and not telling you why.

Forgive him for being human and wanting
you to benefit from the things that he's

learned.

God loves you, Thomas.

And I'll take that.

I was hoping that Tomas would be here.

So was his mama and papa, baby.

It looks like Victor has lost both his
sons.

He'll be here.

Just gotta have a little faith.

Just a couple more minutes, please.

He's not going to come.

Then you're giving up on Thomas?

A good soldier knows when to withdraw.

Sometimes a good soldier makes a
mistake.

Sometimes a father does, too.

That's why I love you so much.

Because you're a real fighter.

Soldier's life is a simple life.

He has but one duty.

To serve God and country.

Paul Walls was a soldier.

He did his duty, and his country is
grateful.

I've received a telegram from General
Portland, informing me that he's

recommended the Distinguished Service
Cross be given to Corporal Paul Walls.

This medal says more than I or any of
us.

can about the man we are here to honor.

He was a soldier, a patriot and a hero.

But most importantly, he was a son.

I have forgotten many things.

I have forgotten that the Army is not my
family.

My family is my family.

But I promise, I will never again
forget.

Who I am.

I am Colonel Victor Paredes.

And I will never again forget to

express the

love that I feel in my heart.

Te amo, Tomasito.

Te amo.

Detail. Present.

Farm. Farm party.

Fire. Three volleys.

Fire.

On behalf of the grateful nation, we
present to you this flag in appreciation

the loss of your loved one.