All language subtitles for touched_by_an_angel_s04e06_the_pact

Another mosquito.

You know, I thought that camping was
supposed to be fun.

It is. Take it over New York right now.

Yeah.

Are you headed to New York, then?

Yeah, tough case.

Got a depressed securities executive. He
wants to quit his job and run a little

coffee wagon in Central Park.

Coffee?

Primo Colombian.

I love New York.

Energy, the excitement.

I've had some fascinating assignments
there. It's okay.

Personally, I'm kind of tired of the
city life for a while.

Wouldn't it be lovely if we could...
Switch assignments?

That would kill us.

Hey, an angel's an angel.

What's the difference?

You know, that's true. And she was
saying to me just the other day that I

show more initiative in certain
situations.

Her name's Max.

Made a bundle in the stock market,
didn't make him happy.

I get it. Full bank account, empty soul.

You know, maybe I could... Come on,
angel boy!

Come on!

Right up your alley.

Go on.

I'll take care of Tess.

Come on, angel boy. We don't want to
miss the bus. I'm coming.

Tess, can an angel get a hernia? Oh,
come on. Here they come now.

Where's Monica?

Raphael, what are you doing here?

Hold it, hold it.

Hey, baby.

Hey, baby!

What do you boys' buses get here? Boys'
buses?

What in the world is Monica?

You know something you're not telling
me.

Uh, well, it's like this.

I've kind of been the inner city angel
recently, right? And Monica missed New

York? No. The coffee guy in Central
Park, right?

Didn't think it mattered.

Does it?

Oh, no.

It doesn't matter.

It's just that the almighty God of the
universe, he had a plan.

A little life or death situation in
order to alter the course of human

And he expected it to be carried out,
that's all.

Where did you get this?

When you walk down the road, heavy

burden, heavy load, I will rise

and I will walk with you.

I'll walk with you till the sun don't
even shine.

Walk with you every time.

I tell you, I'll walk with you.

Walk with you.

Believe me, I'll walk with you.

Well, this just beats all.

Well, when I heard camp, I thought it
was girls and boys camp.

No, you're typical, you know, camp.

There's nothing typical about this
place, Raphael. Can we do this without

Monica? No, I'm going to get her sent
back down here. And I go to New York.

you stay right here. I got plans for
you.

Nikki, bring over the newbies.

Newbies carry our bags.

I said newbies carry our bags.

Carry your own bag.

Well, when you've been coming here for
five years, then you can call the shots.

You should carry the stupid bag.

It might start trouble.

I'm a freaky -haired person.

Watch your sense of weather.

Oh, baby, like, two o 'clock.

I think better.

Yeah, right.

Seth, when are we going to tell Raphael?

When the right time comes.

Come on, ladies, no dawdling now. Come
on.

All right, listen up.

See the towels on your bunk?

Fork them over. Newbies drip dry.

And you guys make our beds every morning
and clean the bathroom.

Those are stupid rules.

Are you going to be a problem?

Because problems have a way of solving
themselves in really ugly ways.

You know what? Who cares? Let them hog
the room.

Just remember, this half is a newbie
-free zone. And if we catch any of you

here, you'll pay. Oh, like I'm afraid of
you?

Do I hear backtalk?

Nikki, tell us what happens to newbies
who backtalk.

Now here's your clipboard and your
schedule.

You got swimming at noon, archery at
two, and at four o 'clock there's a camp

meeting. And remember, this case is all
about being positive.

Lord knows I'm doing my best.

I just want to say I'm really sorry
about this.

Raphael, God can make anything work.

And I have a feeling that he is going to
take your terribly stupid...

idiotic, irresponsible error in judgment
and turn it into something beautiful.

Have I made myself clear?

Yes, ma 'am. There's something else you
need to know.

Those losers have a serious problem.

Use this often.

You totally destroyed this. Oh, my gosh.
I'm so sorry.

I thought the deluxe thrift shop model
came in the pre -trash look.

I have an idea.

Let's see how well the Italian leather
flies. You better not!

Give it to me!

Hi.

Please, please tell me that you are our
camp counselor.

Your counselor's on her way. Her name is
Monica.

But for now, you got me.

We can live with that.

What's your name?

Um, Melanie.

Hi, Melanie. I'm Rafael.

Uh... Okay, so which one of you is
Nikki?

Nikki is in the house.

Okay, you must be Erin, huh? In her
dreams.

I'm Kim.

Hi, I'm... I'm Abby Fontaine.

Is there any chance of changing rooms?

No, nobody's going to be changing rooms.

We want to make this a summer that you
will remember for the rest of your

You worry about the summer part.

We'll worry about the rest of our lives.

Uh, you must be Aaron.

All right, Nikki, good job.

How was I? Other than great? Oh, other
than great. You were, uh, excellent.

Yeah. You're welcome.

I bet Andrew can save my life any day.

It's true, huh?

I didn't notice.

Yeah, right.

Hi.

Who are you and where's your suit?

I'm Erin and I don't swim.

You don't or you can't?

Look, I'm really going to get in there
with all those people and splash around

like a loser.

Oh, okay.

So what if I could arrange a private
lesson?

Would you try it?

Maybe.

Maybe is better than no.

Hey, I'm going to need a volunteer.

Bernie, how about you?

Me?

I never volunteer either. Come on up
here. Those non -volunteers can hang

Now, CPR is a very valuable skill.

What could be more important than the
ability to save somebody's life?

That's a beautiful bracelet.

My grandfather made it for me.

In Mexico?

In Mexico, yes.

Habla espanol?

I don't speak Spanish.

Well, that's too bad.

Such a beautiful language.

I wouldn't know.

Well, maybe I can help you find out.

Hi, my name is Tess. For those of you
who I haven't met, I am the activities

director here at the camp.

We've got a talent show lined up, and
we're going to sing, and we're going to

dance, and we're going to have plenty of
fun.

I want to see how much spirit we have in
the camp this year.

So when I say, have you got the spirit,
I want to hear from you, okay?

Have you got the spirit?

What are you looking for?

Nobody.

Nobody. I thought his name was Andrew.

Shut up.

Now, I want to see how you use that
spirit.

to sing the camp song.

If you don't know it, don't worry about
it. It's very simple. Just listen.

You'll get it.

If you're happy at Camp Sunlight, clap
your hands.

If you're happy at Camp Sunlight, clap
your hands.

If you're happy and you know it and
you're not afraid to show it, if you're

happy at Camp Sunlight, clap your hands.

If you're happy at Camp Sunlight, stomp
your feet.

If you're happy at Camp Sunlight, stomp
your feet.

Hey, you made it.

Look, I'm really sorry about all this.

How am I to tell?

Well, I wouldn't be asking for vacation
time.

There's your group.

Thank you.

Another year of that stupid song.

Yeah, I leave now or I fall asleep.

Let's go.

Hi there, I'm Monica. I'm your new
counselor.

Yeah, well, thanks for dropping in,
Monica, but we're going to the face.

The face?

Whose face?

It's not a face.

It's a rock shaped like a face.

Yeah, we go there to hang out and paint
names on it.

Names of the girls who were here last
summer but didn't make it back this

summer. That sounds nice.

Yeah, real nice.

Girls, wait. If something is bothering
you, you know, we could talk about it.

Listen, Monica, we've had bleeding heart
counselors like you before.

You all think you know what's bothering
us, but you don't.

See what I mean?

Tough crowd.

Hostile. Negative, too. I thought that
being at camp was supposed to be a

positive experience.

Well, that's exactly right, baby.

That's the name of the game around here,
positive.

Just like all these girls are positive.

They're HIV positive.

I thought they were just ordinary kids.

They are ordinary kids.

They have AIDS.

Well, not all of them.

Some of them just have the virus.

And then some of them, a few of them,
have been showing symptoms of AIDS.

And then some of them, well, the friends
they had last year didn't make it back.

It's no wonder Aaron is so angry.

Well, they're all angry and frightened.

And confused.

It's hard enough to be a teenager
without all this.

I had no idea about any of this.

I'm sorry. You should be.

And here's the thing that you need to
know most.

It doesn't matter that they're HIV
positive up here.

I should think that it matters very
much?

No, no, no.

No, no, I get it.

This is the one place where they can be
just like everybody else.

Nobody stares at them.

Nobody's afraid of them. Why aren't
there more angels at this camp? I mean,

shouldn't there be one in every room?
There will be an angel in and out of the

lives of every girl in this camp.

But the girls in the Aspen room need
angels now.

Because hope is dying in there.

And when you're hopeless, you're capable
of doing anything.

Come on, Raphael, I got work for you.

Okay, so some of you will be taking
medication twice a day and some three

but I guess you already knew that, huh?

Rafael is working down at the infirmary
now and he wanted you to know that he'll

still be available to you for anything
at all, even, you know, if it's just a

cut or a bruise.

Monica, have you ever been a camp
counselor before?

No, but I have worked with a lot of
young people.

Yeah, but did they ever die?

Yes. Some dead.

Last but not least.

There we go.

I'm going to return these to the
infirmary, and when I get back, it's

lights out.

Okay?

Hey. Hi.

I missed you at the pool.

Well, I wasn't in the mood to drown
today.

I'm not going to let anything happen to
you.

You're too late. I'm already dying, and
there's nothing anybody can do about it.

Tell me something, Aaron.

What do you think about dying?

What?

Well... No one's really come right out
and asked me that before.

People like to pretend it's not really
going to happen.

I'm not like most people.

I've been watching you.

Do I know you from somewhere?

Um...

Well, I do a lot of work at St.
Sebastian's Hospital.

I've been in St.

Sebastian's. I knew I knew you.

And now we're here together at camp.

Wouldn't that be cool if it's like God's
way of telling you something?

You know, Erin, I don't know what God's
plan is.

But I do know this.

I know that you are a very beautiful
young woman with a lot of life to live.

And I don't think you should spend so
much time worrying about death.

There is so much research now. There's
so much hope.

And look how long you've lived already.

Yeah, but even that's really scary now.

Why? I knew this one girl.

And one day, She was painting some dead
girl's name on the face.

And then two weeks later, her own name
was up there.

Well, it usually doesn't happen that
quickly.

But it can.

And I'm so afraid that... I've never
really told anyone

before that.

So tell me.

I'm afraid that... One night...

I'll be lying all alone in some hospital
somewhere.

And my mom will have gone home.

And the nurses will be down the hall
drinking their coffee or whatever.

And just like that, I'll die.

All alone.

You will not be alone.

Okay, roll call.

Amy Fields, Tracy Burke, Lisa
Wittenauer, Susie Miller.

Why don't you put your name on the face
now?

Everyone on there is dead, Aaron.

It just totally creeps me out to see
your name on it.

But I'm not afraid of dying anymore.

What are you talking about?

You'll find out.

Melanie!

Hey.

Where are you going in such a hurry?

Um, I'm meeting Abby at the bar.

Okay.

Right after I put some ointment on that.
Alright?

I bet you can.

I wish someone would touch me without
those stupid gloves on.

I know.

Everybody's worried about your health.

And not about your heart.

It's hard to think like that.

That hurts.

I thought you didn't speak Spanish.

I guess I remember a little.

It's been a long time.

My mama, she spoke Spanish.

Not anymore?

She didn't know she was infected, and we
were both infected.

She died when I was five, and after
that, there was no more Spanish.

You must miss her very much.

She succinct me.

It was a Spanish lullaby.

There were words in it like, uh, niña
linda.

Pretty baby.

I can't remember the song.

I can't remember her.

I just remember feeling safe.

I know some Spanish songs.

How about this? Was it a C?

How about a D?

I don't know.

It's hard.

Sounds nice, but it's not the song.

Just soak up the living, huh?

I can't do this. That's because you just
did it. Keep that up.

Come on, Melanie.

Come on, Melanie.

Take it easy. Keep your eye on the ball.

Come on.

Yeah, I'm going to make it out fast so
we can get out of here.

Erin, this game isn't over until it's
over.

Monica, we're down 12 to nothing in the
last inning. This game is over.

Oh, that's okay, Melanie. Don't worry
about it. Come on, Melanie. It only

one to hit it.

Whatever.

You know, whether you win or lose, this
game is not important.

But you learn to work together and
support each other through difficult

That's what matters.

Ah,

that's okay.

All right, good try, Melanie.

Sorry. Don't worry about it.

Good try.

Come on, Kim, you can do it. Come on.

Let's just lie here so insane.

Like a nap would have really saved Kim's
life.

Nobody said she was dead.

Make a mental note.

If you're coming back, they don't strip
the bed.

Hey, great news.

The hospital telephoned and Kim seems to
be holding her own.

I, um, I thought maybe we could start
planning the talent show.

You know, there's a strong possibility
Kim could be back in time to see it.

Yeah, and if we clap really hard, maybe
Tinkerbell will come back to life.

I used to sing.

Maybe we could do a song for the show.

That's great.

You know, perhaps we could put new words
to an old tune.

Do you all know she'll be coming round
the mountain? It's a really rousing

melody. Oh, I could make costumes.

I don't do blimp wear.

But I do sing a little.

Hey, now you're talking.

She'll be singing stupid camp songs when
she dies. Erin, please.

Everyone in this room is going to die at
some time or other.

I don't know when, I don't know how, but
I know that you owe it to yourself to

at least enjoy the time you've been
given.

I want to help you, but it's up to you
whether you let me do that.

If you need more feathers or beads, just
holler out.

And if you need a swift kick in the
behind, I can supply that also.

Abby, you got a phone call.

Okay.

I know, but just because Kim got sick
doesn't mean I have to come home.

I'm fine here.

God, Mom!

You can't just lock me in my room until
the day I die.

But I'm not dead yet.

And I'm not taking chances. I'm having
fun.

Mom.

Do you know what that means?

Do you know what that means?

That means that we've got a whole day
and a half to have fun.

Come on, we're going to make us fun.
Don't cry, my darling. We're going to

us something pretty.

Some of these songs have me and Yolanda
in it, but the other words aren't

familiar.

It's pointless.

My song died with my mom.

Melon. The words will come when you need
them most.

Everybody says stuff like that.

Things will work out, Melanie. Things
will be okay, Melanie.

I thought you were different.

I am.

People say things will be okay, but I
know that they will.

See, Melanie, if you can find something
as impossible to find as this forgotten

song, maybe you can find all the other
things in your life that you thought

missing, too.

Once you've seen one miracle, you would
be amazed at all of the others that you

start seeing.

Stupid song. It doesn't matter, just
like everything else.

I give up.

Oh.

So, uh, this is what you wanted to show
me?

Well, it wasn't easy, but you are always
saying close your eyes and jump in.

I don't know what to say. I'm, um,
I'm...

I'm very flattered.

But... But what?

You don't like me?

Aaron, I do like you. You know I like
you, but you know you... You don't,

You don't understand.

Oh, I understand.

No one wants to love someone who's just
gonna die.

That is not true.

You are a very, very special girl with a
lot of love to give to somebody.

But not you, right?

There is someone out there for you.

And you'll meet him one day.

I don't have a lot of days left.

Please wait.

He's history.

Well, you needed a haircut anyway.

Do you want some help?

I guess we should paint Kim's name on
there.

I bet Kim never thought that this summer
would be our last.

I hate not knowing.

Yeah, me too.

We could know.

What are you talking about?

When we're gonna die.

We could know.

We could not.

We could too.

We could pick the time.

Pick the day.

No surprises.

Go out on our own terms.

You mean kill ourselves?

I mean we make a pact.

Take charge of our lives.

When?

Here at camp.

What are we waiting for?

We're just going to go home tomorrow and
watch everyone watch you waiting to get

sick.

Are you crazy?

Think about it, Nick.

The only time we're ever really alive
anymore is here at camp.

There's going to be a cure soon.

That's what they told Lisa Whitman.

And Tracy.

And Amy.

And Devin. And all the rest.

What if they do figure out a way to keep
us alive a little longer?

What are we staying alive a little
longer for?

I am so sick of all the looks and stares
and the people that can't breathe

around me or shake my hand, let alone
hug me or kiss me.

And the only people that really want to
hug me are usually crying when they do.

I can't even dream of having a
boyfriend.

I don't know about you, but... It kills
me.

It kills me.

At least this way, I go my way.

Looking pretty good.

Feeling pretty good.

Where I want to be.

And I don't have to go alone.

And neither do any of you.

So who's with me?

You know, we'll talk about irony. We
could actually kill ourselves with the

stupid pills that are supposed to keep
us alive.

Sort of.

How?

We can do it. We just combine the right
medications and we make a killer

cocktail.

I mean, I've already downloaded the
recipe into my journal.

You've been holding out on us. No.

I've tried to do it a thousand times,
but I just kind of chickened out, you

know?

Yeah, well, who wants to die alone?

None of us.

That's the whole point.

No, I think now, with you guys, I might
actually be able to do it.

Melanie, have you decided yet?

I'm still thinking.

It's not an easy decision.

Yeah, well, what's easier, living like
this?

It's not about easy or hard. It's about
what's right.

I want to do the right thing.

What you want is a miracle, and they
don't happen anymore.

Go ahead and wait for one if you want.
Just don't rat us out.

You know, if I'm going to do this, I
have stuff I've got to do first.

Oh, I'm going to wear my white linen
dress and my white platform sandals.

You know, we can leave a note or a
letter, something totally memorable.

Okay, now, we have access to all the
pills for the cocktail, but first we've

to get by Raphael.

That won't be a problem.

Melanie, isn't your rash bothering you
again?

Not really.

Oh, I think it is.

Hey. Um, I think my rash is coming back.

All right, let's try some more ointment.

Come on into the examining room, and
we'll take a look.

It'll take about two weeks to clear it
up, all right?

All right, so I'll see you

in the morning.

I'm sorry about what I said to you about
the song.

I was wondering, did you happen to find
it?

Not yet.

Still looking.

Someday.

Sure.

What? You look good.

You always said I was a...

Freaky -haired geek with no style.

Yeah, well, I'm sorry I said all that
stuff.

You look beautiful.

We all look beautiful.

Okay, okay.

Oh, God.

I really don't want to do this.

Don't lose hope, my friend.

We brought a miracle.

It's a little one, but it might be
enough.

Don't you hear it?

What are you doing?

Baby will always be taken care of by its
mom.

I never thought I'd hear it again.

It's a miracle.

I can't do this.

Fine.

She's out. Any other chickens here?

Now we have to hurry before she rats on
us all.

Where's that light coming from?

It's from heaven.

I'm an angel.

Sent by God to be with you at this
moment.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

So God really is up there?

God is here, and he loves you, and he
wants you to live.

But only you have the power to make that
choice.

Your life is a gift from God, but he
can't live it for you.

But you don't know what it's like,
Monica.

No one lets us have a life.

All we are is a disease.

And we're tired of it. But you made a
pact to be together, and God wants you

keep it.

Our pact was to die.

God has a plan for your life.

There is a reason for you to be living.

And if you take your own life too soon,
then you'll never know. You'll never

find out what that reason is.

Each one of you has a reason to be
living.

Living with, not dying from, AIDS.

But what if I'm more scared of living
than I am of dying?

No, Erin.

Every single human being wakes up every
single morning not knowing whether

they're going to live or die that day.

But I do.

And today is not your day.

Why doesn't he just make us better?

Yeah, why can't that be the plan? I know
this is hard for you to understand.

Many people don't like to hear it, and
most people can't accept it, but I want

you to try, just for a moment, please.

God is able to heal everything and
everyone.

He made your bodies, and he can heal
your bodies from disease.

But your bodies were created to be the
temples of something much more precious

than physical life.

Your spirit.

The true you, the souls of Nicky and
Abby and Aaron. That's where the real

is to be found, and that's what God
wants to heal today.

He's so sorry and so sad that this
terrible disease may take you from the

one day.

But nothing, nothing will ever take you
from God.

On this side you have death.

And on this side you have life.

And God wants you to choose life, Aaron.

Nikki, that's okay. Not just die alone.

No.

It doesn't matter for me, Aaron.

I already have lymphoma.

I'm not going to be here next summer.

Nikki, why didn't you tell me?

Because you need another sad goodbye.

Aaron, you've been a leader in death.

Now be a leader in life.

Nikki, you can't die now.

None of us can.

Because someday there's going to be a
cure.

And we'll all be here when they do find
one.

You can fight lymphoma.

It'll be rough, but I'll help you.

But you've got to try.

Because you're my best friend.

I don't know if we'll ever see another
angel here on Earth.

But at least we know that they'll be
there.

When God says it's time to go.

An

angel?

Yep.

So... Has God mad at me?

No.

God loves you.

I almost did it.

Then I heard the word.

Why did I remember the word?

Your mother wanted you to hear them
again.

She did?

Your mother's love is always with you.

You just have to let yourself feel it.
It hurts.

Too much.

It hurts more to forget.

Yeah, and I heard there was a pretty big
one out there on the face tonight, too.

Oh, yeah, I mean the big light show,
special effects.

Well, tonight's been full of surprises,
and I've got one of my own.

Look at this.

If nobody says anything, I'm going to
start to cry.

Come here.

What if Kim came back?

And we were gone.

Then I guess we made the right choice.

I guess we did.

She lives!

It's totally me!

Why did Melanie want to do this outside?

So God could have the best seat in the
house.

And that he has, baby.

song that my mother used to sing to me
when I was scared.

It was her song of hope.