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The initial scans

show a five-centimetre
left sphenoid meningioma

compressing on
your optic chiasm,

which would explain
your vision loss.

Meaning...

A tumour that grows in the outer
three membranes of the brain.

I have a brain tumour?

I'm afraid so.

Cancer?

90% of meningiomas are benign,

so there's no reason to
think that it's malignant.

But how could I have
something that big

in my head and not know?

They're slow growing.

They can go undetected for years

before they start
causing symptoms.

We're still waiting
on the detailed scans

to get a complete picture
of what's going on.

So, what now?

There's a neurosurgeon

over at Halifax General
who can do the surgery

in the next few days,
if you agree to it.

That soon?

Well, if they can
alleviate the pressure

on your optic nerves quickly,

there's a good chance they
can fully restore your vision.

And what if I don't
want to have surgery?

Then, I'm afraid your vision
loss will be permanent.

♪ Is this as good
as it's gonna get? ♪

♪ I've given all I can give ♪

♪ But the rivers still
get wider, wider ♪

♪ We've been here all along ♪

♪ Through the
valleys, we carry on ♪

♪ The journey takes
us higher, higher ♪

♪ This could be your home,
if we try to build it ♪

♪ This could be your life
that's one in a million ♪

♪ All the hard times,
yeah, they were worth it ♪

♪ Time and time and time again ♪

♪ Time and time and time again ♪

So, they can remove it?

Yeah, they should be able to.

And then, she'll be okay?

If they can completely
resect the tumour, then...

it shouldn't go back.

I still can't believe none
of us noticed anything.

Can we go see her?

She could use the emotional
support. I just...

I wouldn't stay too long. We
don't want to overwhelm her.

Okay.

So, the surgeon they found,

he knows what he's doing?

He comes highly recommended.

Because we need to make
sure Edna's gonna be okay.

I'm gonna do everything I can
to make sure that happens.

Thank you, Maggie.

Of course.

Here you go.

Thank you.

Thanks for coming.

I can't believe it.

Edna seemed perfectly fine
the last time I saw her.

I know.

I can't imagine what Frank must
be going through right now.

Well, at least Maggie's there.

How is she holding up?

It's hard to tell.
She's in doctor mode.

Don't let her fool you.

Edna's always been like
a second mother to her,

so I know she's got
to be struggling.

Yeah, that's why I want to
get over to the hospital

to be with her.

Go. Yeah. I'll take
care of things.

Are you sure?

Look, I can wait for Lola
and Jacob to get here.

No, I'll be fine. Just
go. Be with Maggie.

Thanks, Syd.

You really can't...
see us at all?

I can... make out some
shapes, but that's about it.

I'm here for you, Auntie,
whatever you need.

Oh, and Frank's garden's
gonna need tending, too.

That's not important right now.

I can't
have it dying

just because you're
in here with me.

I know how much it means to you.

Don't worry. We've
got it handled.

And what about your research?

And Lola's internship?

We're trading off with Cal
and Sidney at the store.

So, you don't have
to worry about it.

The only thing you need to focus
on right now is getting better.

We should let you get some rest.

It's gonna be okay, Edna.

I'm a little tired.

Why don't you go find Sully and
get yourself something to eat?

I'm good.

There's no point sitting
here watching me sleep.

Awas. Go on.

Okay, but I won't be long.

I love you, Frank.

I love you, too.

Forget about that one.

Rafe, got a second?

Sure, Chief.

I heard Edna's in the hospital.

I wanted to say I'm sorry.
I know she's a close friend.

Yeah, she and Frank
are like family.

You let me know if there's
anything I can do, okay?

Yeah, I will.

Yeah.

Actually, Chief, um...

if you got a second, I was
hoping to get some advice.

Sure. What about?

Relationships.

Not sure if I'm the guy to
be giving advice about that,

but, uh, I'll try.

Sydney and I were
talking the other day,

and the topic of
marriage came up.

She wants you to propose.

Actually, the opposite.

She told me she doesn't
believe in marriage.

Oh.

Yeah, I was surprised too.

And you're not on
board with that?

I mean, I've always pictured
myself fairly traditional -

white picket fence, two kids.

I really want to
get married someday.

And you're worried,
if you tell her that,

she's not gonna
understand how you feel.

Look, I want her to be happy.

But I also feel like I
should be happy, too.

It's better to rip
the Band-Aid off now

and be really honest
with each other,

than wake up in a few years and
realize you're both unhappy.

Yeah, I guess you're right.

Good luck, man.

-Hey.
-Hey.

How's Edna doing?

She's scared.

Why don't you go home, take
a little time for yourself?

-I'll stay with Frank a minute.
-No, I can't.

I have to talk with Dr. Rabney

and make sure everything gets
organized for Edna's surgery.

-It can wait.
-No, it can't.

There's a lot that
needs to get done.

I need to go through all
her tests again and...

All right, just come
sit for a minute.

Take a seat.

Here.

-Thank you.
-Drink.

I know you want to help out,

but you're not going to
be any good to anyone

if you burn yourself out.

Maggie, Edna's detail
scans are back.

I think you're going to
gonna wanna have a look.

You know...

I can still remember...

how it felt the first
time I saw Edna.

I went back to that diner

every day for a week until I
got the nerve to say hello.

And I don't think that we've
spent a day apart since then.

Edna's not gonna let some tumour
get the best of her. Nope.

I don't know... what I
would do without her.

Nothing's gonna happen, Frank.
Maggie will make sure of that.

I'm gonna...

head back up, so that I'm there
for her when she wakes up.

Yeah, sure.

You really should have
a look at the MRI.

Oh, no.

I can't believe I
didn't see that before.

What's wrong?

The margins on the
initial CT weren't clear.

Edna's tumour is compressing

and narrowing her
carotid artery.

I'm sorry, Maggie.

So, what does that mean?

Surgery's going to be
a lot more complicated

than we first thought.

You sure
you want to do this?

It'll be easier on
Edna coming for me.

Well, I'll be right
here, if you need me.

Magpie.

How are you feeling?

Just trying to wrap my
head around the fact

that I have a brain tumour.

So, the scans came back.

What's up?

I'm afraid I have
some more bad news.

What is that?

It turns out that the tumour
is attached to the main artery

that supplies blood to the
left side of your brain.

What are you saying, Maggie?

I'm not trying to scare you,

but you need to be
aware of the risks.

There is a chance

that you could... suffer a...

a life-altering stroke
during the procedure.

Life-altering how?

Worst case,

you could lose your ability
to think and communicate.

Then, I wouldn't be me anymore.

I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry.

-Maggie...
-I-I can't.

It's a medium action rod
with an 8-bolt bearing reel.

It casts like a bullet and
it's pretty strong, too.

Let me know once you've
decided if it's what you want.

-Thank you.
-Yeah.

Is this, uh... is this
where we need to register?

Yep.

Mr. and Mrs. Hardy checking in.

Sounds like you're talking about
your mother when you say that.

You'll
get used to it.

I wanted to take a hyphenate,

but my husband said
it wasn't a good idea.

Well, that's because
I don't think

'Hardy-Harr' would be the best
name for our kids, do you?

I guess not.

I see you two booked
the honeymoon cabin.

How about I walk you over?

Thank you.

I'm gonna stop by the
garden on the way back,

see if it needs any watering.

Okay.

All right, if
you'll follow me...

Those two were a bit much.

What? I thought they were cute.

Did you see the way she
was hanging off of him?

Like he was the centre
of her whole universe?

Well, they did just get married.

But she didn't have
to take his last name.

He could have taken hers.

I guess.

Like, I just don't think

it's right for a man to expect
you to change who you are.

Are you okay?

Uh, yeah, I...

Yeah, I guess I just have
a lot on my mind right now.

Uh, listen, I still
need to figure out

the colour scheme
for the restaurant.

Is it okay if I, uh,
head back to the lodge?

Yeah, of course.

Hey. Talk to me.

I'm right here, all right?

You don't have to hide
your feelings from me.

I don't have time
for feelings, Cal.

I'm worried about you, Maggie.

Well, don't be.

This is what I'm
trained for, remember?

Yes. But Enda's not
just any patient.

I know that.

But I'm the only
neurosurgeon here.

I have to be there for her.

Maggie, wait!

Dad, everything okay?

Just wanted to check in,

let you know your mother
and I are heading back home.

Already?

Thought we'd spend a little time
with Sedona and the grandkids.

Are you sure everything's okay?

I'm fine. Just a little tired.

So, how are you
and Maggie doing?

Uh...

Actually, we moved in together.

That's wonderful news, Cal.

I'm happy for you.

But to be honest, I... I'm
a little worried about her.

Why's that?

I guess... I guess
I'm starting to think

I'm holding her back
from her career.

Did Maggie tell you that?

-No.
-Well,

don't you think you should
talk to her about it?

Still trying to figure
out a way to do that.

Nothing good comes from
sitting on how you feel, Cal,

you know that.

Yeah, I guess you're right.

So, talk to her.

I will. Thanks, Dad.

-Okay, son.
-All right, travel safe.

-Bye.
-Bye.

They'll get the tumour out,
you'll get your sight back,

and this will be all behind us.

What if I wake up and
I don't know who I am?

Or worse, I wake up and I
don't remember who you are?

Well, I'll just keep
reminding you until you do.

I'm serious.

So, am I, Edna.

I love you no matter what.

I'm here for you, and we'll
get through this together.

But what sort of a life
would that be for you?

Let's just stay focused
on the positive.

One foot in front of the other.

Okay?

Here, try these.

Mm.

You're killing me.

-Huh?
-Oh, that's good.

You have to keep
that on the menu.

Everyone loves a warm beignet.

Ah, yes, good. Thanks
for helping me.

I promise, once the
restaurant's all up and running,

I will take you
out on a real date.

No, I love hanging
out with you here.

-Yeah?
-It's comfortable.

I like hanging out with you too.

It's very different than
how things were with my ex.

Oh.

You never really
talk about him much.

I thought, after the divorce,

that things would finally
be better between us,

but I guess that was
wishful thinking.

Hmm. How did you guys meet?

At a party.

It was the perfect combination -

good looking and
emotionally unavailable.

-Ha.
-I think I just

got addicted to the roller
coaster ride of it all.

What changed?

Me.

Yeah. After years of therapy,

I... figured out I'd rather
be in a healthy relationship.

Listen.

There was something I was
hoping to talk to you about.

Okay.

You know, I think you're
an amazing person, right?

Right.

But...

No.

No buts.

I was just thinking

we could take this
relationship to the next level.

Are you asking me to go
steady with you, Rob Shandon?

You know what? I think I am.

So, what do you say?

I thought you'd never ask.

Frank.

Maybe I'd have noticed earlier,

might have pushed her
to see a doctor sooner.

No. Hey, there is no way
you could have known.

Hey, these things just
happen. We can't control them.

Why don't we go back inside?

I can walk you and Edna
through the entire procedure.

I can answer all
of your questions.

I can't...

lose her, Maggie.

I'm sure she's just scared.

Why don't you give me a minute,

and I'll try and talk to
her, see what I can do.

There's no point.

Well, it'll help, I promise.

No, it won't.

Edna's decided not
to have the surgery.

What?

I know it's
a lot to take in,

and I know how frightening
all of this is, Edna,

but you should know the
procedure isn't painful,

and you will be home
after a few days.

It's not the surgery I'm
worried about, Maggie.

It's Frank.

I wouldn't be recommending this

if the benefits didn't
outweigh the risks.

I know that,

but I also know Frank,

and he's not strong enough

to handle it if
something goes wrong.

You said I've had
this tumour for years.

Why not just leave it alone?

Because it's too big.

The symptoms are only
gonna get a lot worse.

That won't be for
a while yet, right?

You need the surgery, Edna.

It is the best
chance that you have.

I don't know.

Just watered the garden.

It's looking good.

And I...

thought these might
help cheer you up.

That's very sweet of you, Jacob.

Where'd Sydney go?

She said she had to do
something at the lodge.

I'm just glad it
isn't busy today.

Why don't I stick around
and give you a hand?

Thanks.

I really appreciate that.

So, have you always
had a green thumb?

My koohkom taught me
a lot about plants.

Koohkom?

Grandmother.

-Oh.
-You know,

you should trim the ends and
put some sugar in the water.

It'll help them last longer.

Here.

I didn't know that.

Actually, I've never been
very good with plants.

I had a cactus once,

and I drowned it.

I'll teach you
everything I know,

so that doesn't happen again.

The cactuses of the world
will appreciate that.

Hey,
sorry to bother you.

-Is everything okay?
-It turns out

we've got a bit of
an ant situation.

-Um...
-I'll be right over.

Thank you.

Be right back.

Don't worry. It's
gonna be okay, Frank.

Maggie's gonna talk
some sense into her.

You know how
stubborn Edna can be.

I think she just
needs a little time.

I mean, she just
got the diagnosis.

Oh, there's Maggie now.

-Any luck?
-I tried my best,

but she said her mind's made up.

I thought I'd be able
to get through to her.

I'm so sorry, Frank.

Thanks for trying.

This is ridiculous. She
has to have that surgery.

We can't schedule it
without her content.

So, what now?

We just need to come up
with a different approach.

Hey.

What are you doing here?

I asked Cooper for
the afternoon off.

I thought you might
need the company.

That's really nice of you, but
you didn't have to do that.

I wanted to. So,
what's all this?

I'm just trying to figure out

what the inside of this
place is going to look like.

I'm having trouble
making up my mind.

Okay.

Maybe I can help.

Okay. Uh, well,

Rob's leaning towards a
more conventional look,

but I was thinking...

something contemporary
would be fun.

So, what's the problem?

I guess I'm just worried
about making a mistake.

Well, you're gonna have
to make up your mind

sooner or later, Syd.

Yeah, I know.

Hey, Edna.

Cal?

I just wanted to come say hi

and... see how you're doing.

As well as could be expected.

Yeah.

Do you remember when I
first came to the Crossing?

Of course.

I'd just left New
York, and, uh...

...I'd left my entire
life behind me -

my job, everything.

And I was really struggling.

I was...

I was looking for a
place to call home.

And you welcomed
me with open arms.

I could tell you
needed a friend.

I remember you, uh...

You even offered me odd
jobs just to keep me busy.

I'm not sure...

I'd still be here today...

if it wasn't for you.

Well, I am glad you are.

I just want you to know how
much you mean to me, Edna.

You know, Sully's
out there, waiting.

He's has something he
wants to tell you, too.

I'll send him in.

Brought you some
chocolates from the gift store.

Hmm?

I know what you're doing.

Well, I'm not sure what
you're talking about, Edna.

I'm not changing my mind, Sully.

We all just want to remind you
of how much we love you, Edna,

that's all.

You know, I've been
thinking a lot...

about when you first moved
to the Crossing with Frank.

You've always been like family,

supported me through
all my ups and downs.

Then, when I thought I'd
reached the end of my rope...

...there you were,

waiting on the other
end to help pull me up.

So, I know what it's
like to be afraid.

And I'm here for you,

no matter what you decide.

I really appreciate that, Sully.

I talked to Dr. Rabney,
told her how you feel.

Thank you.

Look, I know that you said
you've made up your mind.

And as a doctor, I can...

respect that decision.

But I love you, Edna.

The
Crossing needs you.

And I need you.

-Maggie...
-You once told me...

some risks are worth taking.

This surgery will give
you and Frank the chance

to have a long and
happy life together.

Isn't that worth fighting for?

I trust you, Maggie,

and I know you're

an excellent doctor.

So, if you really think I
should have this surgery...

...then I will agree to it.

You will?

Thank God.

On one condition.

What's that?

You have to be the one to do it.

I'm worried, Cal.

What if Dr. Rabney can't
give me the paperwork?

Well, we'll just have to
wait and see what she says.

I can't let Edna down.

That must be her.

Dr. Rabney.

Hi, Maggie. Good news.

I pulled a few strings
and it looks like

I'll be able to get
you that expedited

temporary license after all.

That's great.

We'll be transferring Edna to
Halifax General for the surgery.

So, I guess we'll see
you in a few days.

I really can't thank you enough.

I'm just happy I
was able to help.

So...

looks like you're
heading back to the OR.

Am I making a mistake, Cal?

What do you mean?

I haven't...

I haven't performed
surgery in a while.

What about Jackson?

That was a much
simpler procedure.

This one will require...
a lot more skill

and a surgeon who can
make quick decisions

under extreme pressure.

To be honest, I'm not sure
I'm that person anymore.

Maybe you could call
another neurosurgeon,

see what they have to say.

Yeah, maybe.

Sully, there you are.

I've been trying to
reach you all day.

Where would you want to go
first, if you had to pick one -

Kilkenny, Dublin,

or Galway?

Um...

I meant to call you.

Edna's in the hospital.
She has a brain tumour.

Oh, no.

Is she gonna be okay?

Not sure yet.

Well, will you please let
her know I'm thinking of her?

I will, but... I'm
afraid this means

I won't be able to go
to Ireland with you.

Oh.

I'm sorry, Helen.

I... I was looking
forward to it, too.

That's all right.
No, I understand.

You should be with... Edna.

It's important.

Yeah.

I hope this trip is
everything you want it to be.

Thank you, Sully.

Thanks for dinner.

-It was great.
-I'm glad you liked it.

It's nice to be able to
cook for someone again.

Eating alone is no fun.

No.

They look so happy
together here.

They really do.

You think Edna's
surgery will go okay?

Edna's going to
be in great hands.

I hope so

'cause I'm worried about Frank.

I know how much he loves her.

Why don't we go on a walk?

Try to take our minds
off things for a bit.

Yeah. I'd like that.

Okay. Let me go grab my coat.

Hi Jacob. It's Dr. Granovsky.

I spoke to the Dean
and, unfortunately,

the department isn't willing
to grant your request

to finish your
master's remotely.

So, you'll need to complete
your studies in Alberta.

-Call me back. Bye.
-Did you say something?

No. I was listening
to a message.

You ready to go?

Yeah.

Hello.

It's me.

Maggie. I'm glad you called.

I hated how we ended
things the other day.

Yeah, your call took me
a little by surprise.

I shouldn't have called
you on your mother's phone.

That wasn't fair of me.

Listen, I really
need your advice.

Sure. What's going on?

It's Edna.

We found a lesion on her brain,

and, um, I wanted to
get your opinion on it.

What kind of lesion?

It's a five-centimetre

left sphenoid wing meningioma.

It's encasing her optic
nerves and carotid.

Any cognitive impairment?

Just headaches and vision loss.

Um, she's scheduled for surgery

at Halifax General
in a few days.

Which procedure?

Craniotomy.

Sounds about right. What
do you need my advice on?

She won't agree to the
surgery unless I do it.

Oh. You want some help
with a temporary license?

No, the hospital's already
taking care of that.

Then, what is it?

Should I be doing this?

What do you mean?

What if I'm too close to Edna

to be able to make
the right decisions?

You know what you're
doing, Maggie.

I've been out of the
O.R. for a while now.

You're the best
neurosurgeon I know.

If anybody can help
Edna, it's you.

Okay? Just...

remember to trust
your instincts.

Okay? You'll be great.
I'm here if you need me.

Thanks, Walter.

I'll check in with you later.

♪ There's a light ahead ♪

You nervous?

Uh... a little, yeah.

Can't stop thinking about
how it's gonna be Edna

lying on that table.

I get it, but don't
focus on that, all right?

It's gonna be fine.

Just... settle
yourself and breathe.

Yeah.

♪ There's a day coming ♪

And don't forget to change the
daily specials on the board

or it'll confuse the customers.

I know, Edna.

And the Hardys, did they
get checked in okay?

It's their honeymoon. I want
everything to be perfect.

They're all good, Auntie.
We're taking care of them.

I love you both.

I love you, Edna.

We'll be back after
your surgery, okay?

♪ Bleed me white ♪

♪ Find it harder
than it's been ♪

♪ This time ♪

♪ To freedom I run ♪

Big day today.

Yep.

You know it's gonna
be okay, right?

Maggie's gonna take care of you.

Promise me you'll
watch over Frank, if...

I need to know he's
gonna be okay, Sully.

I don't want him to be alone.

He won't be.

I'll make sure that
doesn't happen.

♪ Drain what little
hope you can ♪

♪ You can try ♪

I don't think I
ever thanked you.

For what?

For giving Frank and me a place
to call home all these years.

Wouldn't be much of a home
for me without you in it

and your family, Edna.

I'll see you soon.

-Oh, and Sully.
-Yeah?

No more sticky notes, okay?

No more sticky notes, Edna.

♪ Find it harder
than its been ♪

♪ This time ♪

They said they'd be by to
pick you up in a minute.

♪ This time ♪

The surgery's gonna be
over before you know it.

I'm looking forward to seeing
your smiling face again.

Nothing's gonna happen, Edna.

But if it does...

It won't.

If it does...

I left an advance directive
I need you to follow.

Edna, please.

I know you don't wanna
talk about this, Frank,

and God, neither do I.

But if something goes wrong,

I don't wanna spend the rest of
my life hooked up to a machine.

That's no way to live.

So, promise me...

...that you'll do what I need
you to do if the time comes.

I will.

And I want you to take
that Alaskan cruise.

Go see the Northern
Lights for me.

And I will be there, with our
ancestors, waiting for you.

We'll go see the
Northern Lights together.

Sorry to interrupt.

They're ready for
you, Mrs. Cranebear.

You've given me a
wonderful life, Frank.

Kisâkihitin.

Kisâkihitin.

Kisâkihitin.

♪ They say everything ♪

♪ Happens for a reason ♪

♪ But I can't seem
to find a way ♪

♪ To settle and believe it ♪

♪ Some things will level you ♪

♪ With no lesson to be learned ♪

♪ Some fires start
from nothing ♪

♪ And through the trees ♪

♪ They burn ♪

♪ But I'm cracking
under heavy weight ♪

I'm gonna place the oxygen
mask over your face now, okay?

Okay.

♪ Some things just
don't make sense ♪

♪ You can't explain
it all away ♪

Gonna start the
anaesthetic drip.

♪ And will never be okay ♪

Okay, prep the
patient for surgery.

♪ I'm asking why,
a reason why ♪

♪ Tell me why ♪

♪ Tell me why... ♪

♪ I will try not to cry ♪

♪ Tell me why, tell me why ♪

♪ Asking why ♪

♪ A reason why ♪

♪ Tell me why, tell me why ♪

♪ I will try not to cry ♪

♪ Tell me why, tell me why ♪

You can do this.

♪ Feel the breaking ♪

♪ Pulling me under ♪

♪ Caught up ♪

♪ In a waiting game ♪

♪ But I'm still holding on ♪

♪ Show me a way out ♪

♪ A way home ♪

♪ Away from the pain ♪

♪ Searching for light ♪

♪ Through the darkness ♪

Scalpel and sponge, please.

♪ All this time ♪

Making the first incision.

♪ Morning comes ♪

Appreciate
the update, Cal.

Thanks.

♪ They come and they fade ♪

♪ Catching breaths ♪

♪ In between the waves ♪

They've taken her into surgery.

It's gonna be okay.

Jefferson forceps and
monopolar cautery, please.

Elevating the scalp flap.

♪ Sometimes, it hurts ♪

-Thank you.
-♪ Before it gets better ♪

Opening the dura.

Can I get the navigation
probe, please?

♪ So let it hurt ♪

♪ Everything's changing ♪

♪ I shed my skin ♪

Opening the sylvian fissure,
exposing the distal artery.

Starting to debulk the tumour.

♪ I am so lost here ♪

♪ All crashing down ♪

I've identified the optic nerve

and proximal carotid artery.

Ultrasonic aspirator, please.

Taking the tumour from
around the optic nerve.

Carotid's free.

-Nice work, Dr. Sullivan.
-Congratulations.

Blood pressure's falling.

She's crashing!

She's haemorrhaging. I
need emergency suction.

-She's tachycardic.
-I need more suction.

There's too much
blood. I can't see.

I need blood and fluid now.

Dr. Sullivan, what do you need?

Um...

Dr. Sullivan!

Dr. Sullivan!

♪ Caught in the flame ♪

♪ I'm in the fire ♪

♪ I'm in the flame ♪

♪ I can't climb higher ♪

♪ Can't get away ♪

♪ There's no escape ♪