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Here, now, today, you remind all of us love works in surprising ways. With

pleasure, I now pronounce you husband and wife.

How do you know the way?

You're the other Ben.

Yeah. The drummer was the one who... Bruce.

So sorry.

My condolences.

It's nice.

Um... Yeah, I don't know too many people. There are a few.

I'm not going to stay very long.

Hey.

Crash, hi.

I'm so glad you came.

Of course.

Congratulations.

I haven't had a moment to... Yeah, I mean, it's a beautiful event.

Do you have a light?

Um... No, you quit.

I thought you were bringing, um... Monica.

No, um, someone came out with them.

Oh. Hey, happy belated birthday.

Yeah, 31.

Thank you.

Okay, so, joke going around the table is that it's a shotgun wedding.

It's not.

Oh, I know. I'm kidding.

But, I mean, I can understand it. It all happened kind of quickly.

Well, we've been together eight months.

Yeah. We were together for three years.

But, you know, aren't you guys buying a house in Jersey?

It's cute.

We move in a few weeks.

I know with us it wasn't exactly like a picket fence thing, but... I don't know.

I know.

It's easy.

Easy? Yeah, it's easy. Everything's easy.

And I'm happy.

I gotta go.

Yeah. I will see you later, okay? Mm -hmm.

Okay.

Hi.

Hi.

I'm just wiped out on this hill. Yeah, yeah. It's steep.

Beautiful ceremony, wasn't it? Really.

Nice day.

Are you waiting for a car?

Yeah, I'm taking a cab to the train station.

Where are you headed?

In Manhattan.

What about you?

Yeah, I have a car coming. Oh, cool.

If you want, you can jump in with me.

Where are you?

Gramercy. Oh, really? Where do you live?

Lower East Side, Northern Street.

Yeah, I mean, not really out of there. That'd be great.

That'd be awesome.

Thank you.

I'm Travis, by the way. Oh, Ellen. Nice to meet you. Nice to meet you.

You can take it.

That's all right. Thanks.

So how do you... Do you know the bride or the groom?

The bride.

You?

My husband is old friends with the groom's parents.

Ah.

And where is he? Is he still dancing?

No.

My husband doesn't dance.

He had to go to Florida because he...

Mom fell.

It's kind of an emergency trip. She needs to be moved into a assisted

Sunglasses.

Couldn't forget them there.

We could turn back and get you.

No, I mean, they're pieces of shit anyway.

I'd like to find them.

When it comes to the age.

I'll be there.

Got him.

Amy and I used to date, actually.

Oh.

Really? Yeah.

We got a band together. We started as songwriting partners and there's another

guy. What kind of music?

He stays up.

Not a whole lot.

Why?

Struggling to find a new sound.

Change it up.

Change it up.

It's hard to change it up sometimes.

You know what?

Up on the far corner here would be great.

This you? Yes. Thank you.

Thank you. You're welcome. Appreciate the ride. I really do.

My pleasure.

Don't love the train, so that's good.

You know what? I'm going to, let me see if I have my card. I gave out so many

cards. Very cool.

What kind, what do you need? Yeah, I have one left.

Do you do yoga?

Yoga? Wow.

Yeah, I have a little studio in Gramercy. Once or twice a couple years

Yeah? You want to try?

It's very good for you. Yeah? Yeah.

All right, maybe I'll give it a shot.

Thank you.

Have a good night.

You too, bye.

Travis.

Hey, Monica.

I tried calling.

You did?

What are you up to?

I had dinner with Julie to pee, so I was just walking home. Oh, cool.

It's okay.

Do you want to come up?

I bought Mega Million.

Oh.

I'll have one.

Where were you tonight?

Oh, I would have rather been here.

Julie's going to Cuba, flying through Mexico.

We should do something.

Go away together.

Do you ever wish I could sing?

Do you ever hear yourself sing?

I'm coming for the beer.

Okay.

Hey, where you going?

I couldn't sleep.

What's the matter?

I didn't want to push, but we knew it was for you and a guest, and I didn't

forget Travis. You keep me separate. You don't introduce me to your friends.

Most of them live...

They live in the suburbs now.

That's not the point.

And I saw you tagged on Facebook.

Hey, it's early.

Great. I'm not sure what you want. Is it tempo?

It's not lighthearted enough.

Pick up that ukulele behind you.

Seriously, man, don't take it so serious.

It's fun, remember?

Oh, yeah, I forgot.

What kind of website is this for again?

Discount travel.

And, hey, give it that airy tone.

Okay, so you want to be able to taste the margaritas and sombreros? Hey, man.

Nice and breezy.

Yeah. Yeah, airy.

That's it.

Feel good?

Yeah, yeah. You like that? Yeah, let it roll. Yeah, you feel like you're in a

hammock right now?

You know, work, work, work.

Yeah.

How's that girl?

Monica.

She's good.

I don't know. I think it's actually phasing out.

Oh, man.

My wife and I were just saying we should invite you two over and make dinner.

Just hard playing with the toddler.

Yeah.

I don't know. I think I need to make some changes.

How so?

I'm thinking, I don't know, maybe it's a, that was it. It was a good run and I

went to Amy's wedding over the weekend.

How was that?

It's a shit show.

You know, if you ever need some extra cash, we're going to use you to wrangle

focus groups, get them to talk.

You're charming, comfortable in front of people.

Thanks. That's not why I called you, though. I know. I know.

I don't know.

My band was my life, and I don't have that anymore. I don't know.

I don't know what I have, really.

The song of yours was on the radio last week.

College radio?

I don't think so.

Can each of you describe your breakfast routine?

I usually run late, so I'll grab a breakfast bar.

I thought you ate cereal in the morning.

On the weekends, mostly.

Can you talk about why?

Well, I take a 805 train into the city, so by the time I've walked the dog and

gotten dressed and everything, I'm running to the train.

I don't know, a cereal bar is the same thing without the milk, right?

Milk actually is not great for my stomach.

And you?

I eat cereal with the milk. I actually love the milk.

And not just any cereal, but the sugary kind especially.

No special K for me.

You eat cereal every morning?

No, I eat it every morning.

My favorite is Cocoa Puffs.

What's the motivation behind it? The motivation behind the cereal?

Exactly.

And on the exhale, push back into downward dog.

Your feet are hip -distance apart. Your fingers are lightly spread, middle

finger facing forward.

Energizing your pose as if someone has a string attached to your hips going up

and back.

Breathe here. And on the third breath, step your left foot forward in between

your hands and come up into warrior one.

Your hips are forward. Your back foot is at a 45 -degree angle.

Find a spot above to focus your concentration.

Keep your concentration and breathe.

So try hard to straighten the back leg if you can. Be patient with yourself.

Drop those hips.

Be compassionate in your practice. Don't worry about what your neighbors are

doing. This is your practice.

Yeah, how's the new play?

It's awesome. It is?

Oh, good for you. I'm so happy for you.

Hey. Thank you. You're welcome. Thanks for coming.

I'm about to lock up when I'll see you outside.

Okay.

So, um, I gotta get out of here. Thank you guys so much for coming.

Congratulations on the new play.

How you doing? Hey, good. How are you? Good.

So glad you finally came.

I know, me too.

I figured we were a little bit of the same person. Yeah, yeah, I think so.

So how you been?

Good, pretty good. How about you?

Good, pretty good.

We got it or no?

I think we got it. We got it.

No, we were just busy, like hectic.

Since when was that, like two or three weeks ago?

Yeah, I don't know exactly.

What have you been up to?

I hate the gaffling. I'm going to go on the outside of it.

It's like my thing.

That class was kind of exactly what I needed.

Oh, good.

You should come back. Yoga will open you up emotionally and physically.

How about financially or romantically?

I don't know, maybe.

You could try. I appreciate that. No promises.

No, you have a good body for yoga. You're, like, strong. You have a good

Oh, thank you.

My parents are both, like, stocky.

Oh, really?

Stocky?

Okay.

Stocky stock.

Is your place the whole thing?

Oh, no, just the bottom two floors.

The wall?

Yeah.

Take care. Yep.

Maybe we should just be really friendly.

I don't know, probably.

Maybe it was kind of cold.

Maybe you're just not used to... No, it's not that, man. I just... Never

It's fine.

Okay. Hey, guys.

All right, today's one is on teeth whitening. These questions are easy to

deeper. Ask why.

Peel away the onion.

Last page of the list of demos. If you have any friends, let me know.

Looks great.

Thanks.

You can just come in here. Would you like some water?

Sure. Tea?

I was actually going to make tea. Okay.

Can I put my things down?

Sure.

Hi, I am... Oh, sorry, I have one last thing. You don't have to look in the

camera. You can just talk to me.

Oh.

Hi, I'm Ellen Hansen, and I'm 44 years old, and I own a yoga studio

in Gramercy.

Hobbies, I like to jog in Central Park when I can.

I like to read fiction.

I just finished a visit from the Goon Squad.

With my yoga studio, we do community outreach. We teach yoga in the local

schools. Which is a lot of fun.

And I like to go to the movies.

I like to travel.

Is that it?

Okay.

How do you feel when you have bad or less than optimal breath?

Why?

And how do you know?

Your husband at work?

No, he's still alive.

He doesn't really go into an office anymore. He's a real estate developer.

Does he take yoga?

You got a great laugh.

Do you have kids?

No.

Do you?

None that I'm aware of.

Ha.

So, here it is.

All right.

This is where I brush my teeth.

So I'm just brushing my teeth. Just brushing your teeth.

It's kind of weird.

Here it is.

How does it make you feel?

Can I spit it first?

Yeah, of course. Okay.

How does it feel?

Refreshing, I guess.

I like how smooth my teeth feel afterwards.

More? This is oddly intimate.

Yeah, tell me more.

It makes me feel clean, like the guck of the day

is gone, like I'm resetting.

But like I said, I'm obsessed if I brush my teeth in the morning, at lunch, in

the afternoon, and when I go to bed.

Great. Let me see what else. Give me a second.

I'm going to go out.

So, honey, are you still down there?

Yeah, for a while.

Nothing.

We're gonna have to have a break.

And guess what?

We're on the list.

Really? Yeah.

The adoption age is a good call. Anytime tomorrow, next week, in a year. Who

knows? That is great news.

It's got so big. Look at you.

Ryan, you want a cookie?

Look at my bit. It's all broken in. Let me see.

Wow. You must be a really good athlete.

Ryan, can you be a big boy and put your BJs on?

Hey, buddy.

What are you doing?

Hi.

Consistently amazed at how many idiots there are in this world.

I'm stuck in this case.

Can you put Ryan to bed, please?

Good night, Ryan.

Good night.

You're texting on that thing.

Nobody.

Really?

Is that risotto?

Yes, it is risotto.

I love risotto. I know you do.

That's why I made it. Thank you. You're welcome.

Om Shanti.

Sometime. When we do yoga, emotions buried deep inside come up to the

These emotions take more energy to suppress than to address and can keep us

being our true selves.

The beauty of practice is changing that.

Have a good evening.

Namaste.

Hey.

I don't know.

I was just going to get tickets to that.

Yeah, you still want to see a movie?

Do you?

You got a drink, bird?

Thank you.

Okay.

This evening, I'm going to jump off a bridge.

I'm going to go home.

No.

I can't go to my place.

I wasn't asking.

I'll lean to the edge just for one minute.

Looks like Audrey Hepburn, it does.

Shut up.

We can watch TV.

I don't want to do anything.

We'll leave.

Want to order a room, sir?

before.

Hello?

Yeah, everything in the room is fine. Thank you.

Actually, can I order some room service?

Burger.

A salad?

A salad.

Yeah, no, a salad. Sorry, a salad.

Hello?

Don't forget it.

Ready?

Wow. Surprise.

Surprise are actually pretty good.

I love it.

open right oh in and out this is not working

My tongue is too big for my mouth.

I can make it really wide to look.

You're fun.

You got a great spirit.

I did.

Your marriage?

My marriage saved me, actually.

How's that?

You know, I came to New York to dance.

When I was 18.

And I started dancing professionally.

And then a year or so into it, I injured my knee.

It was never the same.

I couldn't get back to soloist.

And I met Henry right around that time.

He sort of rescued me.

I've never been with a man in his 30s.

What do you mean?

I sort of skipped that stage.

My husband's 63.

Oh?

He was in his 40s when we met.

I didn't know that.

Sort of looked like he was my sugar daddy, but it wasn't like that.

Ellen?

Honey?

Hey, I thought you'd get back tomorrow.

You are here. Yeah.

How are you? I'm good. I was just up on the computer.

You all right?

Yeah.

How's the flight?

Oh, you know, bumpy.

Want a glass of wine?

Yeah, that would be great.

Okay.

Take this up.

Okay.

Put on a couple pounds.

I'm too tired to unpack.

It's not healthy at your age.

Florida's depressing.

Never really thought before how big your penis is.

You're very fixated on my body tonight.

It's true.

I haven't seen it in a while.

You could have come, you know. At least visited.

Give me a kiss.

What are you reading?

Franklin Roosevelt biography.

Too tired to unpack. How do you have the energy?

And yet I do.

What was that for?

For bringing me to some random hotel in Brooklyn to go.

Now when you text me, you always write toy.

Are you saying you're my boy toy?

Not that much older than you, you know?

No.

I'm thinking of you.

I wonder sometimes

what could have been

between us?

No.

If I hadn't made different choices.

I wish I was kidnapped.

What?

I wish my music in my 20s took me and

carried me away.

But it's been a struggle.

You want to be a rock star?

No.

You want to be a rock star?

Yes.

I wish I was kidnapped by pop culture.

Is that what's really the most important?

No.

My crooked toes would have ruined my dancing.

I used to straighten them out when I watched TV.

Are you comfortable?

Sometimes I feel like I was born in the wrong era.

I was born 2 ,000 years ago. I could have been a sacred whore.

A whore? No, a sacred whore. It's different.

Huh? Uh -huh. Their sole purpose in life was to

wait outside the village and greet the returning warriors from battle.

Calm them down before turning them to their families.

Goddesses?

Yeah.

Actually.

By your where?

You know,

I may be cheating on my husband, and that makes me an awful person, but...

I go walk the streets.

Good. I thought that's where you were that night. Very funny.

You know,

when I first met Henry, he was just recently divorced.

And I don't think I was ever left with him.

But I went to him.

He was hurting.

Kids.

I don't think we wanted them

a friend.

And Henry, he didn't want them anyhow.

Like, when we met he didn't.

What am I doing wrong?

You're not focused.

Let's go again.

Remember, lead the distance, right?

Great.

That was great. That was an excellent refund.

Let's go again.

Considering the fact that you're left -handed and you're taking this up

I think you're doing great.

Fucking tennis elbow.

You'll be out there again.

Wait till you get to be my age, everything starts hurting.

This chicken's actually good.

The truth is, I forget.

Inside my head, I'm still 35 years old.

I see what my mother's going through, and I realize... When Ellen's only the

I am now, she's going to be pushing me around in a wheelchair in some old -age

home. And wiping your ass.

No, they got nurses for that, which is the good part.

It's the elephant in the room, though.

So I heard you're on a list.

Well, she can make a great mother.

They look at me, and there are younger couples.

I don't know what I was thinking. I freaked out on you. That's what

Well, I mean, you're right. I should have invited you.

No, but you've got to understand.

I keep hearing my dad in my head.

Marry a lawyer? Exactly.

Those are nice earrings.

Thanks. I stole them.

What? I borrowed them.

I'm house -sitting.

Yeah, and I went to the wife's jewelry box. Oh, great.

One of the reasons why I freaked out on you was because my lease was up and I

was hoping you were going to ask me to move in.

Well, I mean, that would have been for the wrong reason. I mean, I'm glad you

didn't, so I went on Craigslist.

And I came across this couple who were looking for someone to apartment fit, so

I told them I live five blocks away and they're paying me to just come by, water

plants, just keep an eye on it. Nice.

Do you want to see the place?

Now? Yeah.

Yeah. Okay.

Are you sure? Yeah, let's do it.

Okay.

Yeah, that husband was transferred to Hong Kong from here.

Shit, this person is sick.

What did he do again?

Merging markets and finance. What else?

Oh, yeah. Oh, his wife and I really hit it off. They totally trust me.

With their jewelry?

And their cat. Max is around here somewhere.

Are you seeing someone else?

No. Why?

I don't know. You seem very Travis.

Don't you love to live like this?

And look what they left me.

Sick.

The husband makes thousands of dollars every hour.

And then just kicks back right here.

Money is so tied to everything.

Yeah, I, um... I try not to think about it.

The next time you're on tour, I'll be your road manager.

Yeah. I, uh... Yeah, I mean, I don't know when that'll be.

If ever.

That'll pass.

I don't know. It's starting to feel more like a... like a bad habit these days.

Like a hindrance more than anything else, really.

Oh, shit.

No, no, don't do it. You have bare feet. I have to clean it up. No, no. Just

leave it. I got it.

No, stop. All right, okay.

Okay, let go.

Travis.

Stop fighting.

I should punch you.

You are.

I picked these flowers from my mother's grave.

Oh.

Because I wanted to explore what I could do there.

I believe that death is a very important part of artwork.

Oh, okay.

You know, I actually find the act of giving a flower to someone as a romantic

gesture to be incredibly vulgar and thoughtless, which is why I want you to

at dying flowers, the death.

Of the flower.

No,

totally. That's deep, man.

Hey.

Hey.

What are you doing here?

I just need a friend to show. Well, a friend of a friend.

Which one?

Remembrances? Yeah.

It's got the flowers on the side.

Yeah, there it is.

Oh, this is my husband, Henry.

Hi. Nice to meet you.

Pauline, Steve.

Oh, Jason, Karen.

How do you two know each other?

He takes class in the studio occasionally.

Yeah, sometimes when I'm not lazy.

You look familiar.

Really? Yeah.

Was he at our Christmas thing last Christmas?

No, I don't think so. No? No, I don't think so.

You guys should check out the show.

Well, we're just about to go out and get some sushi, but hey, do you want to

join us?

I'd appreciate it, but actually we're meeting friends for drinks.

Oh, wow.

Don't let us stop you.

Isn't that all right? Bye. Cool. Nice to meet you. See you.

See you.

He's nicer than I imagined.

What did you imagine?

An angry old man. Grumpy.

Why would I?

Why would I be with an angry old man?

I don't know. Here's my way of the job.

You know.

I thought that's why.

I was with you?

No.

Then why?

You know, it's not because of him.

Not really.

You sure?

All this stored up energy to love someone in addition to him.

I think without kids, this is...

You know, it's not like I can

be sleeping with two men at the same time.

Does that make you happy?

I can't be jealous of your husband.

He'd be really fucked up.

But if you had someone else...

We should go away for a weekend.

Wouldn't it be nice to, I don't know, sit freely in a cafe, go for a walk

without looking over our shoulder?

We should get out and go to, like, Philly or Chicago for a weekend.

You ready to go?

And from plank pose, we bring the left foot forward, bending the knee, settling

down to prepare for pigeon pose.

Inhale, elongate the spine. Exhale, fall forward, relaxing the back, letting the

stretch be, letting go of all expectations.

Hey.

Hey. Hi.

So where are we going?

To the surprise.

Thanks.

Did you make reservations?

You need the bathroom?

Yes, I'm going to take a quick shower. Okay.

You're not going to tell me? No, that's why they call it a surprise, because you

don't know.

Look at these guys.

That place looks cool.

I wanted to tell you, I have a workshop this weekend.

Well, when?

This weekend.

Yeah? One of my teachers was supposed to lead a class up to the Catskills, but

her sister just had a baby early. Well, my fencing tournament is on Saturday.

Oh.

It's all right. There'll be others.

You know, I think we're a little early. Why don't we, uh... How is this place?

No, we're... Just for a place to eat, though. This looks nice. Sorry.

Now I'd like to bring to the stage a dear friend, a great humanitarian, and a

lovely human being. Please welcome Peekaboo Point!

Woo!

This place got a great ride. At times, I thought it'd be fun to try something

different.

Peek -a -boo, boy!

That was not planned.

Oh, you want

another drink?

You don't want to adopt.

What? We're out.

Yeah,

I do.

I do.

And he said, because I'm trying to examine you.

That's the kind of day I had, you know?

Check it out. You're going to love this next act. Let me introduce now to the

stage the great performer and a real knockout, the absolutely incomparable

Camelician.

Okay, so we're going to take the serial non -rejector insight, and we're going

to cut that so that it goes over to the other platform from the serial rejector.

Just keep it simple, right?

All right, cool. For the presentation, we need to start off with the single

then the housewife, then we go baby, boomer, and grandmother.

I'll be right back. Where are you going? Give me a minute.

Hello.

I thought about coming up with the other kidnapping game with a fake gun and a

wig on.

And why didn't you?

I didn't want to make a thing.

Did you ride barefoot?

I had an idea.

We're going away.

We got it all figured out.

All I can do is get in the car. I'll be back tomorrow.

Give me one minute.

A minute?

One minute. Hurry.

Could you cover this solo?

Um, yeah.

Thank you. Thank you.

Where are you going? Okay.

Remember that girl?

Are you serious?

I will work late Monday. I will. I promise. I love you. Thank you. Thank

All right. So, the moment of truth. Are we going south or are we going north?

Oh, my God.

Um... North?

I drove from New York to L .A. by myself.

Wow.

That's aggressive.

Thank you.

Hello?

They know we're coming?

Uh -huh.

Hello?

I'm gonna step out.

Okay.

Hello? Hi.

Welcome. Hi.

Did you get my note?

No, I... Rose?

Ellen. Hi. Good to meet you.

How are you?

I left a note. I had to go to the market and get a few things. Oh, that's okay.

I'm glad you got here a little earlier than I expected. We made really good

time. All right, so it's a quiet weekend, so I thought I'd offer you the

Suite. It's bigger, more comfortable.

All right. Yeah? All right. Here, let me get that for you.

Died?

Yeah, the drummer was my college buddy, Chris.

How'd he die?

Alcohol poisoning.

The other guys brought him back to the apartment after a party and just left

in his room.

Amy and I got back home later.

Went to sleep. Didn't even know he was in the apartment.

Next morning I checked on him to get breakfast and...

I found him dead there.

That's awful.

Yeah.

Why?

It's awful.

I'm still not sure if he was dead by the time I got to the apartment or not.

That weighs on you.

Yeah, all the time.

Plus... You know, I went to the funeral and his father blew up at me saying it

was my fault. You know, we let him get reckless, looked the other way, which

wasn't true, you know.

But I was cut out of it.

I had no idea what happened.

Have you tried to make your peace with it?

At least we would have moved out, but it's rent -stabilized, so... Yeah, but

moving out is not making peace.

You have your scarf in the room?

Really the same.

What do you mean?

How's that?

What was that?

I've always been honest with you.

I love you.

I love you too.

Thank you.

Hi, you're up early this morning.

Yeah. It's usually beautiful this time of day.

There's a woodpecker on the property this morning.

I heard.

You don't have cell reception here?

Yeah, it's intermittent at best. I'm going to go try another spot.

Thanks.

Travis. Travis.

Hey.

Hey. Let's get up.

I need to go home.

Already? Yeah, so, um...

Want me to drive?

I am fine.

I am fine.

Ellen, just pull over here, okay?

What did I do?

slip in on this?

You know we're not married, right?

Do you understand that? Yeah, I know. We're not married.

I thought you weren't happy with him. I never said that.

I never said that. Okay, relax, please.

Fuck, I'm gonna throw up.

Ellen.

Does anybody know about it?

Not really.

What's not really?

I mentioned to a friend on the phone he lives in Chicago.

Anybody else?

A friend, that's it.

Who? My friend Jason.

I work with him.

He's in New York? Yes, I was with him when I ran into you and Henry at the

gallery opening.

And he knew about us?

No. I don't understand. You just said that you told him about us. I did.

I don't understand. What are you not telling me? Nothing.

Why would you tell anyone?

met at a wedding. There's got to be someone that knows both of us. Ellen,

isn't anyone that we both know. How do you know?

Ellen.

What is this guy doing? Go.

Ellen, I mentioned it to him afterwards. What happened?

Drive. Pull over.

Where? Over the side of the road. It's on the grass.

You okay?

I'm fine. Did you hit your head? I'm fine.

What happened? Shit.

I thought you left him all weekend.

Oh, it was just an overnight class.

You all right?

Yeah, where's Henry?

He finished.

Oh, he's over there.

Hello.

So, how'd it go?

Good. Yeah?

Came in fourth.

That's great.

Well, there were only four of my age in bracket.

Oh.

Oh. Not so bad.

I think it's a good sport for you.

Yeah, it's a good place to put my aggression.

Hey.

Oh, I got a call this afternoon.

From who?

Ulster County Police.

I confirmed for them.

Confirmed what?

That I was your husband.

Oh. It was just a tail light.

They gave me the passenger's name as well.

I can stay home, you know. No,

I'm fine, really.

I don't want to stop you from celebrating.

But I'm proud of you.

See ya.

Have fun.

You okay?

I'll have to take a bath.

I don't need toiletries anymore.

I love you.

I'm gonna keep your distance for a little while, okay?

I wasn't... Just... try it.

Thanks.

And it's really the secret, you know.

You're not defending yourself, you're just waiting for the opponent to strike

first.

What are we talking about here?

Offense is the best defense, you know, like life.

Ready to order?

Did you drink?

A few.

I can smell it.

I thought you were asleep.

I was.

Couldn't find your painkillers.

Are you going to tell me what happened?

I don't feel well.

Is that why you came back early?

I was on my way home when it happened.

Don't worry, it's minor.

I'm not going to cover this. Can you stop moving around?

Is there really a yoga retreat?

What time is it?

I checked the studio website. The retreat wasn't listed.

It should have been.

You have no respect for me.

It's disgusting.

I'm still in this marriage. Where are you?

Right here, Henry. No, where? I said where. Where were you? I don't know what

you're talking about. Just say it.

What do you want me to say?

This is bullshit.

I mean, after all the back and forth and the tests and the whole adoption

process, you're going to throw it all away now?

It's real, Henry.

You don't want a child. You don't. So stop okaying me.

That's the lie.

It's bullshit.

That is just like you.

Just like me what?

What the heck does that mean? What the fuck does that mean?

Haven't I given you the space you always ask for? When did I ask for space?

It was obvious.

And then... Henry, we are just going through a thing.

Oh, yes, that is. Henry. A thing. A thing. I am in pain.

It's embarrassing.

If there's one thing in life I hate more than anything, it's being embarrassed

in front of my friends, and that's exactly what you're doing. You don't

understand anything here. This is not about you.

Oh.

I'm leaving.

I am not dealing with

this nonsense.

You have nowhere to go.

This is absurd.

Glass of wine.

It's probably working.

Water?

Scott?

Is this what you hoped for?

Let me get you a glass of water, okay?

Come on, let's go over there.

Speak to me, please.

I'd be giving up so much for you.

No, you wouldn't be giving it up.

You sure?

Yes, I promise.

She's a swamp beach from New Hampshire.

She'll kill your kids and make love to that hamster. She's a swamp beach from

New Hampshire.

She's a swamp beach.

Thank you so much. We're about to start. Helen, can I talk to you?

Yeah, just when I finish with the students. We should talk.

Let people get through, please, Travis. Helen, listen.

What you said before, it's not giving up.

It's gaining.

You know this. I have a meditation starting in a minute. I need to go in

and get ready. Come in.

Listen to me.

Who cares?

When did you find out?

Before the car, I had a feeling, but not until today that I know who.

We need a new sofa.

I'm not blaming you.

I wish you would.

Why?

That's it?

I'm not sure.

It's like you're okaying me, which is insulting.

Or you're continuing to avoid... I'm sick of being the emotional one.

You're the one walking away.

I need air.

I'm too old for this, that's all.

Too old for what?

For us?

No, for shit.

Henry, we missed our opportunity.

And this is not what I want my life to be like.

I feel like I woke up in a nightmare.

Nothing about our life is a nightmare, except... Is it over?

Look, it's up to you.

I wish it wasn't.

Just one thing that I know, that I think I know.

Whenever you decide to stop getting in bed with him... I did. Whenever you

choose, whether it's now or later, whatever problems you had before with me

with yourself are still going to be there. Don't lecture me from the sofa. I

wanted to be a mother and you let my eggs dry up.

After two miscarriages, Ellen... Fuck you! Two miscarriages. You and I both

we couldn't handle that.

Again? Let me say my piece. I am not listening.

You've always been an independent woman.

That's what I loved about you. That's what I love about you.

You're here.

You're on your own. You don't need a crutch. I do, though, asshole.

That was a compliment.

I can't do this.

Reality here.

Don't stay with me just because you want to pick up a kid.

I'm an ultimatum.

If you take it that way... How am I supposed to take it?

Christ, you're the quitter.

Fuck.

Fuck. Ellen.

Stop being so stoic. It's bullshit. It's all bullshit.

It's not bullshit. You put this weight on me, Henry.

You know?

And now I'm supposed to prove something to you? You know what?

Maybe a part of me did this for us.

I didn't expect to fall into it as much as I did, but you know what? Nothing

scares you. What? Nothing scares you. I'm terrified.

Of what? Of what? Of losing you, obviously.

Of change.

Of overcompensating and pushing you away.

Starting over.

With you or without you.

But you're right.

I dare you.

Push me forward or push me away, either way.

It's your move, Ellen.

Hey. Hey.

Beer's in the cooler?

You remember Beth and Drew? Yes, hey.

Bye. See you guys.

They just spent a year in San Fran.

You do physics, right? Like, you're a mad scientist?

Nanotechnology.

Jason, can you do me a favor and run to the store? I forgot. The brownies need

yogurt. But I got magnolia, and the burgers are on. I can do it. It's not a

problem. You know where the store is?

I'll go.

Travis, come with me.

Doctor, you know how to flip a burger?

Sure.

You still doing that?

You know, I thought I lost her, but she just texted me.

Travis. Never really had her in the first place.

You don't get it, man.

All right. You need anything?

I'll be right out.

She sent you?

Let's sit.

Doesn't take a genius to figure out her cell phone.

When I was your age, we didn't have all this email and text, so I hope you don't

mind if I'm more comfortable talking face to face.

You had your dick in my wife.

I wouldn't put it that way.

How would you put it?

What did she tell you? I mean, we spoke a lot about you. You know nothing about

me. I know the best part of you.

I'll give you that.

I guess I already did.

Look, I wasn't going to play mind games with myself wondering who you were. That

would have just been worse. But you don't know, Ellen.

You think you do, but you don't know what makes her tick.

Her mood on an uneventful night.

Why she's up on some random Tuesday at midnight cleaning the corners of the

bathroom. Or what she smells like when she comes in from walking around the

city. No.

How she tucks her foot under my leg in bed.

Looking to find calm, to fall asleep. Or how she wishes you were someone else.

The good stuff.

The real stuff.

Takes time.

You're not married?

No.

So meddling with my wife... It isn't like that. It wasn't.

It wasn't like that.

Okay.

I worked too hard and sacrificed too much dealing with the bullshit in this

city, just making money and putting it away for now.

I'm not going to let you or any other young shithead come along and ruin what

time I have left to enjoy my life. Do you understand?

I thought maybe a...

kiss or something, and then she'd get prudish and regretful and come back. But

this fucking hurt.

And you didn't give a thought to who... When you have a wife, you'll understand.

She needed me.

How?

It was mutual, I guess.

How?

Indescribable. Completely clear.

Open.

Easy.

I didn't think Megan... Don't call her.

I love her with every cell in my body.

And I'm not going to let her just drift away. Do you understand?

If you have to take yoga, go fucking stretch with somebody else.

Some perverted karmic thing. Maybe I deserve this.

Hey, you got my message?

You up for taking a drive?

Where to?

Exotic Forest House.

Far from your arms, it's taken me.

Through cities far, they've carried me.

And on the sound of a heart barely holding on,

you breathe my lungs.

You keep me strong.

Smell the city's hell Climb the iron barriers

I traded clouds for dreams Lost a year at

sea And on the sound of a man Barely holding

on You breathe my lungs You

keep me strong

We're going down.

Nowhere I've been.

And in this hollow sound, it's so hard to live.

And through these roads,

I move to you. He'll

dragon's cloak they drag for you.

And on the sound of a heart stretched far

Thank you.

This next song is called Crooked Toes.

enough to wonder why I was.

You look good.

Can I come up?

Oh, I am alone. My husband's not going to jump out from the car.

I don't really remember it from the last time.

It was not myself.

Pretty tiny, but... It's you.

Shocked that I'm here?

Um... Confused.

Yeah.

It's been confusing.

I just shouldn't even... I couldn't not...

It's been on my mind the last couple months.

A lot.

It's a real mix of emotions for me. Only you know. Only

we know what that was.

It's pretty spectacular.

I hold it.

And I want you to know that. I cherish it.

I needed some time to myself.

Does that make any sense?

He told my husband that it was indescribable.

Did I?

Yep.

That stuck with him.

I can't say my love for my husband is indescribable.

But what I do have with him is not in the least bit indifferent.

It was for a while.

But you and I have changed everything.

And I may never have this connection.

I won't lose what I have with him because I just hope you understand that

there's still a lot there.

Some of them I'm rediscovering.

I know I can't take you away from him and I'm not the devil.

But, um... I really hope to.

I don't know if I'll ever find you again.

You will.

In another woman.

Sorry, I have a friend coming over.

Why didn't you say anything?

I forgot when I saw you.

We're working on some things. I'm heading out of town in a few weeks.

Oh, I'm actually going away. Henry and I are going away too.

We're rehearsing. I'm doing it.

Playing a couple of small venues.

That's great.

Yeah.

I love myself out.

Hey, Ellen.

Thank you for saying goodbye.

You know me.

Your blue eyes show as we walk through. I've seen my love. I've seen all we

can do.

On your breath I found the sky. I see you clear. I know

just why I'm coming down for you.

But the sky was bright.

we knew the score.

Yeah, I know what I've been waiting for.

While you smile at the ground past your crooked toes.

Your perfect smile, it cuts like glass on every mile your hand I

clasp.

All the way till we shine through, yeah, I know this story, I can

see you.

For the light was bright when we knew.

gore yeah I know what I've been waiting for while you smile at the ground

at your crooked

Ticket lines, my baby's hand,

wrapped up in mine, on the

ocean blue, under hopeless sky,

you can count on us, you can

count on us.