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Hey, guys, I think we should take a paternity test.

Part of the paternity test is to analyze my blood

to identify the fetal DNA.

And there was none.

I'm not pregnant. And I never was.

- I was really hoping that... - That it was yours?

Yeah. Me too. It gave me hope...

that maybe, if we were raising a kid together,

y-you'd give our relationship a shot.

My dear Avery, loss is a long and painful and lonely journey.

But it has this amazing ability

to also galvanize you into the present

and make you see more and feel more and love more.

Mnh. Strong.

I'm making up for lost time.

And before you say anything,

I finished my post-op antibiotics.

I'm feeling fine. This is my first drink.

Okay, so it's like my third drink, but...

...the guests are gone.

I love the quiet.

And there's nobody but the crew this week.

Meaning you want to be alone?

Well, nobody comes into the great room after dinner service,

and you came here looking for me, so...

Yes, I did. Because, you know...

I'm used to being the guy with the answers.

It's kind of my job, right?

To have the answers or find the answers.

But I'll be honest with you.

I am really struggling with this.

Well, I'm not sure that I can tell you anything.

Yeah, well, you know, we moved fast.

Right?

Dancing, bed, threesome, family.

It's a lot. It was a lot.

And at the end of it all...

...I really like you, Avery.

I really like you, too.

How well do we really know each other?

You know? We haven't spent the kind of time that you do before...

Thinking about starting a family together.

Yeah.

I never planned on having a child...

or these feelings...

or a threesome.

But I know one thing for certain.

I am leaving for medical school in a month.

Yeah.

I've been wondering if this is the right place for me.

You know, if maybe I should go someplace else

to seek joy at all costs.

I'm gonna go home over the break,

spend a little time with my family.

See if I can't find some answers.

Hope you find them.

So do I.

That was amazing. Ohh...

No, but wait!

There's more.

Oh!

Okay.

We have... short-rib empanadas,

mini crab cakes, and a slice of prime rib.

Protein. For stamina.

I-I'm sorry. Have I been falling short?

- Not at all. - I hope not.

There's also mini churros, a triple chocolate brownie,

and a slice of tres leches cake... for energy.

Honestly, who knew that dating a food professional

had so many added benefits?

Well, there's also oysters, figs, and chili peppers...

- also known as aphrodisiacs... - Aphrodisiacs. Hm.

...just in case, for later.

Right. Well, actually, I'm sor...

I think I'm ready to go now.

Let's go again.

Don't you have to be up early?

Uh, yes. Yes, I do.

So I hope that you brought something

that helps induce sleep later.

Hm. I'm full of good ideas.

Hm...

Well, Max, this is our little break before the quiet run

and the Alaska segments.

We'll head north, pick up a new bunch of crew,

drill, and test readiness.

Then, of course, we get to enjoy some days

out on the open sea without having passengers to serve.

Actually, Captain, I was hoping to take this time

- to go home for a few days. - Love it.

I like it when my crew gets to recharge

and see their people. Do it, but just...

- Avery can be in charge. - I can be in charge.

Why not me? Why do you think I can't be in charge?

Because Avery's a nurse practitioner, Tristan.

The three of you are like

a pack of Jack Russell Terriers,

barking and sniping at each other.

I need two medics on board. Figure it out.

- Aye aye, Captain. - Aye, Captain.

Alright! Hello. Thank you.

You said you were gonna be done with that by lunch!

You get 20 bucks. I like that.

It's looking unstable up there.

Hey! Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa!

Oh, God!

Get her on the monitor. Start a line.

Yep. On it.

One. Two. Three.

Damn it!

Rosie, what's your pain level, one to ten?

Ten!

It feels like it's gonna explode!

Vitals up.

- Can you feel this? - Mnh-mnh.

Alright. Numbness. Internal pressure.

Extreme pain. No cap refill.

I think this is pointing us toward compartment syndrome.

Compartment syndrome? That's a bit extreme, though.

It could just be severe swelling from a fracture.

I need you to get me an X-ray and prep her for a fasciotomy.

Alright, Rosie, you might feel a couple of pokes

while I check the pressure in your foot.

What's compartment syndrome?

It's a very serious condition.

Usually the result of a crush injury...

...a severe sprain...

or a broken bone.

It's when pressure builds up inside a muscle group.

If the pressure isn't relieved, then it can effectively

kill the appendage.

I'm gonna need to make a couple of incisions

to open up the area and relieve the pressure.

- It's a very simple surgery. - No surgery! Hold on! Hold on!

No, no, we don't even know

if this compartment thing is what it is, right?

- Well, we don't... - Yes or no?

We don't know for sure.

Wait!

Avery, I love ya, but...

Surgery? No. Not without Big Daddy Max here.

I understand your concerns, but I have performed

hundred of procedures just like this one,

and I can assure you that a fasciotomy

is the most effective treatment for acute compartment syndrome.

Listen, it sounds like you read a lot of books,

but, bro, this is my foot!

And if you've never done it, mnh-mnh.

Look, Ros, if you decline

medical intervention on this ship, then we can

medicate for the pain and wait till you get to port.

We can monitor any changes and report anything.

It is an option.

Well, then, yeah, I'm with Tristy.

Despite "Tristy," Rosie,

if this is what I think it is, it is critical that we act now.

- You could lose your foot. - Not without a doctor here.

Morphine. Lots of it. Port. Hospital. Final answer.

We need to be a united front.

I know I'm not some suave, handsome male doctor.

I don't think it's about you being a woman.

I think it's that you haven't done the procedure before

and that compartment syndrome

is an incredibly hard thing to diagnose.

The pressure was over 60

in two of the compartments of the foot.

That is a pretty good indicator, Tristan.

Avery, our job is to give the patients information.

That is not the whole job. Patients are not qualified

to make their own diagnosis or treatment plan.

You gave her all the info.

She wants to wait for a hospital.

It's not just informing. It's also persuading.

It's knowing what's best for your patient

and laying it all out.

I remember the first week that you came to work on this ship.

You led us, a bunch of the crew, on a hike in Puerto Del Sol,

which you clearly didn't know, either,

because we were totally lost.

And you kept making up these bonkers stories

about the history of the area

and something about... alien agriculturalists

and maize.

- Yeah. The Skywalkers. - Ah.

Famous for their aquifer irrigation systems.

Oh, right.

And I thought...

"Ohh.

This girl is so weird.

And thank God for bringing her to us."

I see what you're trying to do. It's not gonna work.

Rosie...

it could be a very, very long time

until you're able to work in the engine room again,

let alone lead a hike.

Probably a year or so before you're fully adjusted.

And I know I speak for myself and the entire crew

when I say that is absolutely not an option.

I can't lose you, girl.

You can't lose your... your damn foot.

Let me help you.

If not for yourself, do it for me.

For us.

Yeah. Okay.

That was good.

When we talk to our patients, we tend to focus on

how the decision will impact only them,

but human nature means we have more compassion and empathy

for the people around us than we do for ourselves.

We have to paint the whole picture.

Well, it's a good thing you did...

for Rosie does have compartment syndrome.

If we waited any longer, she would have lost her foot.

You were right.

Oh. I'm sorry. I can't hear you.

- What... What did you say? - Oh, I said you were right.

- Oh. - But I can retract that.

Mhm. That is gonna leave a wicked scar.

She's gonna love it.

- Ah! - Mer!

It's so good to see you.

Hey, girls! Guess who's here!

- Uncle Maxy! - Hey! Olive and Sofa-Loaf!

Oh, my goodness! It's so good to see you!

Hello. Who is this man who looks just like my husband

but tan and handsome with a much better haircut?

All true. Hi, Danielle. Can I crash your party?

Come on, girls. Leave your uncle alone.

Hey, girls. Very important question.

Are you driving yet?

- No. - No.

No? Tattoos?

- No! - No!

No?! What about piercings?

No. Mom won't let us pierce ears till we're 12.

This girl we know has three, plus a belly piercing.

- It's just holes, okay? - Nice one, Max.

Not two steps in the door, and you've already

kicked the lid off of Pandora's box.

Come on. Come. Eat.

Rust spores. A fruit fly.

- Spirogyra. And Volvox. - Insane.

And you let her play with this?

No bacteria at the table.

And, Soph. Game. Basket.

You too, Merrill. Phone.

Why can't the stuff ever hit the fan after lunch?

I swear they know the second that I sit down.

Yeah. Sounds like my job.

- How is the insurance trade? - Rain and shine.

Biggest problem is all the big national firms

buying up the small mom-and-pops statewide.

- You want that? - Yeah.

- Mammal kidney. - What?

Olive. What did I just say?

You know, Max, I looked up that boat you're on.

It looks like heaven.

Remember Char and Barb? They went on one of those

fancy island cruises last year.

Oh, my gosh. We never heard the end of it.

Milo said they had a machine

you can get ice cream any time you want.

And you could put anything on it,

like Oreos, sprinkles, gummy bears,

and it's all for free.

Well, it's not for free, hon.

It's included. That's different.

Char said she got to swim with a dolphin.

Is that for real?

Yeah, there are a couple of ports that do that excursion.

You know, we were thinking about saving up for it,

but the kids are already signed up for summer camp.

It was just a bit too much, you know?

Please. Be my guests on the Odyssey.

Oh. I wasn't looking for a handout, little bro.

- "Little bro." - "By one minute!

He came out earlier by one minute!"

And I have never heard the end of it.

And you never will.

I have a whole family access plan. Honestly.

If you can get yourself to a port, I'll take care of the rest.

- Really? - Yeah.

- Please, Daddy?! - Please, Daddy?!

- Please! Please! - Please! Please!

I'm sure you're already booked up for spring break, right?

I will book you the suite

closest to the ice-cream machine.

Yay!

Holding onto the throne, I see.

Dad would be proud.

Was thinking about donating it.

Danielle wants it out of here, says it's got some kind of funk.

Wants to sell the house, too.

Really?

It was tough on her at the end, you know?

Dad got real short-tempered with her and the girls, so...

Yeah, it was tough, but I miss him.

Me too.

Old school.

What are you doing here, Max?

Two-day visit. It's not Christmas or Easter.

There's an opening at Stubbing-Lang.

Chief of Internal Medicine.

I think it might be time for me to stop running.

I've been running for a very, very long time.

Unlike me, who has stayed in exactly the same spot.

How did we end up going in such different directions?

When we were kids, we were exactly alike.

Yeah, of course, we were, Max, until you got sick.

You think that's what changed? Getting mono at 17?

Well, yeah, it was that and the complications afterwards.

The kidney thing. Anemia.

I mean, you were on your back for months.

You missed a lot, Max.

Girls. School.

Entire season of baseball.

Once you got out of that bed, you just started running,

and you never stopped.

It was like you thought if you stop running,

you were gonna get sick again.

I think you got it in your head that if you had a home

it was going to destroy you.

Thanks, Mer.

Five years of therapy in 30 seconds.

Max, I know you better than you know yourself.

You said you're interviewing at Stubbing-Lang?

You know who the president of that hospital is?

Rodney Prescott. Remember him? "Hot Roddy"?

Used to... smash the beer cans on his head?

Remember that guy?

Oh, my God. What a world.

I said, "And what service is Champers providing?

'Emotional support' doesn't cut it no more.

It's got to be a trained service animal,

and I got to see some paperwork."

Check-ins on the tablet.

I'm here for a meeting with Rodney Prescott

about the open Internal Medicine position.

You sure picked a day for it. What's the name?

Max Bankman.

I'll let him know you're here.

Hope you brought a book. We've been here for two hours.

This is insane.

Go, Broncos. How we doing this year?

We're alright.

Bunch of guys graduated last year, so...

lots of new talent.

But we have heart.

Most important organ in the body.

You play Westfield yet?

No. This week.

It's his first time starting.

He's been training his butt off all season

and then, four days before the cross-town game, gets the flu.

Oh, baby. Your hands are like ice.

- What position do you play? - Running back.

Wow. Take a lot of hits out there.

Yeah, it's basically the job description.

Excuse me for one sec.

Ma'am? Ma'am, this patient sitting right behind me.

He needs to be admitted right away.

Patients experiencing flu-like symptoms

will be seen in the order they were checked in.

He doesn't have the flu. He most likely has a pulmonary contusion.

- He can't breathe. - Sir, we have a process.

- Please take a seat. - It's not "sir." It's "Doctor."

He's going into respiratory failure.

We need to get him on O2 now!

We don't need to do anything because you are not authorized

to provide medical services at this hospital.

Now, what you need to do is go sit down, please.

Ohh! Help! Help! Please!

Nurse, call a code! Bring me some oxygen now!

Hey, bud. Come on.

Okay. Just breathe for me, okay?

Just keep breathing. You're gonna be fine.

Sir, the situation is under control!

- Please remain in the lobby! - Why don't you

remain in the lobby where you can do less harm?

- I beg your pardon! - He got us help!

He's not going anywhere!

Watch your feet. Watch your feet.

Somebody will be with you in a moment.

Okay. Topher, you're gonna be alright.

I know you can't talk right now. Can you click that pen for me?

Excellent. I'm gonna examine your ribs.

If you feel pain, just click it for me.

Alright? Here we go.

What's going on?

- Your son has broken ribs. - My God.

I knew those boys were tackling each other too hard.

It's possible that one of those ribs has punctured the lungs.

That's why he's having such a hard time breathing.

Sorry for the wait. It's a... busy day.

Okay. Topher, is it?

Started feeling a little funky yesterday. Thinking it's the flu?

No, we thought it was the flu, but it's not.

- It's something else. - He has a pulmonary contusion.

Multiple rib fractures resulting in flail chest.

I know. It's real easy to diagnose ourselves

these days on the Internet, but don't you worry.

I'll get to the bottom of it, okay?

I'm just gonna start a line, and then I'm gonna put in

an order for a quick COVID test.

Nurse, he does not have COVID.

I'm a doctor. I just examined him.

We need to get him in to a chest X-ray,

check for pneumothorax so we can rule out pleural effusion.

Okay, but you're not a doctor here,

and his chart is telling me he's displaying symptoms of COVID-19.

The chart is incorrect. This patient is in critical condition.

- We need to act right now! - Hey! Max!

- Is that you? - Rodney. Hey. Thank God.

- Better not for right now. - Hey, how did you get

better-looking since high school?

This kid's in critical condition.

I was in the lobby with him when he collapsed.

We need to get him in to a chest X-ray right now.

He's got multiple rib fractures.

Absent lung sounds on the left side.

- Possible tension pneumo. - Okay, Becca.

Let's get him on a chest X-ray stat

and give him 4 milligrams of morphine.

You're gonna be okay, kid. Alright? You're gonna be good.

I was hoping this would be more of a sit down interview.

Yeah, you and me both.

I was looking forward to a cold beer,

a good catch-up, and a nice long lunch.

Yeah. Long lunch. I almost remember what that is.

- Hey. How's Mik? Pre-med? - Uh, no.

Uh, in Oregon, spending 80K

to learn how to make wooden canoes.

- Help! - What's going on?! Help him!

Tension pneumo. Collapsed lung on the left side.

We need to get a chest tube into him right now

- to relieve the tension. - Okay, Becca.

Page the pediatric attending to come take a quick look.

Rodney, Rodney. We don't have time for that.

Oh, it's just... it's just protocol. It's a sign-off.

He's going into respiratory right now. We need to act!

Hey, hey! Max! Max! Hang on!

Nurse, I need a scalpel, hemostats.

He's not picking up. I'll have him paged.

If we wait any longer, we could lose him.

Max, I am authorizing this under Good Samaritan law

and our hospital's emergency protocols.

Topher. We're right here with you.

This is gonna help you breathe easier, I promise.

14-gauge needle. Decompressing first.

Topher, you're gonna feel some pressure. Stay with me.

There you go.

Prepare for incision.

Cutting through. Ribs are tight. We need to be precise.

Tube.

Now, this is gonna feel a little strange.

Twisting. Almost done. You're doing great.

Tube's in. Let's get suction.

Ready?

Okay. And... breathe.

You know, I was surprised to get your call, Max.

Thrilled for sure, but surprised.

I mean, last I heard, you were some big-shot East Coast doctor.

Now working on a cruise boat.

That must be nice.

They call it a ship, actually.

Oh, right. A ship.

I don't know how they do things on your ship,

but, uh, here we have protocols.

Yeah. Clearly. Lots of them.

Which only seem to dramatically slow down the treatment process.

Well, they also keep people safe.

Really? Which people, Roddy?

'Cause when I look around, I see a hospital

in need of radical changes and some serious training.

I haven't been home for about 40 hours.

You saved that kid's life, Max.

I need more good doctors.

Good leaders, too. Right?

It's not paradise, but it's...

These people deserve...

you know, better.

Look, you'd be making a difference.

And I would be proud to have you here

to make all the changes you want.

It's been fun, right? You're having fun?

Yeah. Lots. Are you?

Yeah. Yeah. Lots.

Mm. Good.

I'm glad.

I know this started as a ship fling for both of us.

Especially you, since you were all hung up on...

I know things were complicated with Avery,

- but now... - Now... Now they're not.

So please just let me speak before I lose my nerve.

Sorry.

You've changed a lot since we first met.

Between cutting back on drinking and getting over Avery,

you've... you've really grown.

Thank you.

And I was thinking, with all of these changes,

that maybe this could change.

Become something more serious. Make a commitment.

What do you think?

Latest beach read?

"10 Women Medical Pioneers."

Only you.

The first female doctor applied to 10 medical schools

and was rejected by all of them,

and she was only admitted to one

after they polled the male students

who accepted her because they thought it was a prank.

That was 1849.

Well, around the same time, the head of the Navy

said the Navy could only be 5% Black.

Black men?

Black men. Yes.

Do you ever feel like maybe they don't take you as seriously?

I used to, but now... they kind of have to.

But you're the head bitch in charge this week.

How's that going?

Hm. About like that moment Cap had a heart thing

and I had to be in charge of the whole ship?

- About like that. - Yeah?

I make it a point not to fraternize on this ship.

Goes along with working twice as hard, keeping up appearances,

et cetera, et cetera.

I only made an exception once.

Because I couldn't resist the smartest woman I ever met...

the most determined one...

and... also the hottest.

That was a long time ago.

Girl, if I would've known you was gonna be a doctor,

I would have married you.

Don't let anyone tell you what you can and can't do.

Go to med school.

- Hey, Munroe. - Yeah.

How's that shark bite treating ya?

Fine.

Hm. You aren't putting any weight on that leg.

Been doing a lot of treadmill lately.

It's part of my recovery program.

Maybe I overdid it. I'm sure it's nothing.

Okay. But do you mind if we do a little workup?

Not at all.

Lead the way.

Alright. Your blood-test results

show elevated eosinophil levels.

- Is that good or bad? - Neither.

It just means your body is having

an immune response to something.

Have you been experiencing any nausea, diarrhea?

You're not gonna shock me.

Believe me. I've heard and seen it all.

Come on. Spill. What's up?

Things have been, uh, let's say...

loose for a few weeks now.

Uh-oh. You, uh... got your bad-news face on.

Not at all, but I do want to do

a CT scan and an X-ray just to be on the safe side.

Now, that is a bad-news face.

What are they? Those... white spots.

They are micro encysted larvae

embedded in your striated muscle tissue.

Spencer, listen. You have a very serious parasitic infection.

I think it's Trichinella spiralis.

Trichinosis.

Larvae. Like... worms?

Well, yes.

The larvae you ingested went through the enteric phase.

They mate in your small intestine

and then go systemic into the bloodstream,

into the striated muscle tissue, as you can see here and here.

Ugh. I'm gonna be sick.

We need to treat this aggressively

so that it doesn't reach your brain or your heart muscle.

Hey. We caught this.

You're gonna be okay. I promise.

How did I even... How did I get it?

Trichinella spiralis is often acquired

by eating undercooked pork.

Can you think of anywhere

you might have eaten questionable pork?

I don't... I hardly ever eat off the ship.

Port Chiapas, Mexico, a few weeks ago?

We were out late. We stopped at a roadside spot.

We had tacos.

Pastor tacos.

"We"? Who were you with?

Uh, Tristan. I was with Tristan.

We don't need to do anything because you are not authorized

to provide medical services at this hospital.

He has a pulmonary contusion.

Multiple rib fractures resulting in flail chest.

It's real easy to diagnose ourselves these days on the Internet.

I'm a doctor. I just examined him.

Okay, but you're not a doctor here.

You saved that kid's life, Max.

I need more good doctors. Good leaders, too.

He's conscious. Breath is rapid and irregular.

He aspirated a lot of water.

- Could be ARDS. - Definitely ARDS.

She's in v-fib. Get the probe out now.

COVID antibodies in her blood work.

- BP is dropping. 93 over 54. - Fluids are going.

Let's get her on corticosteroids.

Pulse weak.

Becoming some kind of team, huh?

Thanks, Chris.

Calcified cysts all over. It's trichinosis.

What I'm saying is you were with him,

you had the same meal, and I need to find a treatment

that makes the most sense for both of you.

Let's just leave me out of it, please.

Just because you're okay now

doesn't mean you're in the clear.

I'm putting both of you on corticosteroids and albendazole.

I will wait. I'm not exhibiting any signs.

Plus, albendazole is a very nasty drug

with some rather horrible side effects...

like bleeding gums and hair loss.

Of the two, I can guess which is scarier to you.

This can't be about your hair.

Max will be back soon, so let's just, please,

with all possible respect, wait for him.

- Really? - Mm-hmm.

No!

My circus, my pony, or whatever the saying is.

Both of you could have little buggers growing in your brain right now!

And if I start exhibiting little buggers in my brain,

you'll be the first to know.

You two realize I'm right here.

Sorry. You need to go back to bed.

Come on, big guy.

You may have several embedded on the nerve tissue

on your spinal cord, which could explain your heavy legs.

Your scans don't show any larvae on the brain

or the myocardium yet, but it may be too soon to tell.

Are these, like, what, tumors?

- No. - No. No.

Tumors are uncontrolled cell growth.

This is far easier to deal with.

But, Munroe, we just got to port,

and it's my recommendation

that we get you off ship and into a hospital

where you can be properly monitored.

Wait. Why... Why can't I just stay in my cabin?

Why do I have to go to a hospital?

Because if they have made it to your brain,

you're at risk of seizure and stroke.

After that comes coma, meningitis,

and eventually death. Question, have either of you

been barefoot in Mexico in the last six weeks?

- Yeah. - On the beach. Why?

Are you sure it's trichinosis?

- What if it's strongyloidiasis? - It's not strongyloidiasis.

- What's strongyloidiasis? - Strongyloidiasis

are a nasty little parasite that make their way up

through cuts in your feet and make condos in your brain.

I think we should put you both on ivermectin. Let's do that.

Max, may I have a word?

Bad pastor tacos two to three weeks ago.

Fits the timeline for encysted larvae.

It's T. spiralis.

Strongyloides have a longer life cycle.

And, either way, ivermectin is broad spectrum.

It can be used to treat most worm infections

- regardless of species. - Let's lie down.

Are you going over my head?

Because ivermectin is no longer considered the gold standard

and is proven to be less effective against T. spiralis.

Ivermectin also can't cross the blood brain barrier,

so if there are any parasites on the brain tissue

or the central nervous system, ivermectin won't work.

Good point. What do you recommend?

Albendazole. Combined with prednisone.

Guys! Guys! He's seizing!

Get him on his side! And start blow by.

I'll push diazepam.

Alright. The seizure definitely supports your diagnosis.

And it's clearly made it to his nervous system.

You're still in charge here.

What are you waiting for? Start barking out orders.

We need to get a CT scan and an X-ray for Tristan,

as well as an EKG to monitor cardiac involvement.

Start both of them on 400 milligrams

of albendazole... twice daily...

and a taper dose of prednisone.

- Yes, ma'am. - Guys, guys.

- I-I really don't want help. - There, there.

We're doing wonderful things with toupées these days.

And plugs.

Too soon.

You'll be on these for a month.

- Thanks. - Yeah.

- Hey, Aves... - Yeah.

Vivian and I, well, we've been having... fun...

and she suggested that we get more serious.

Ah, she said something about being impressed with

how I stopped drinking and...

She's right. It's really great.

- Thank you. - Mm-hmm.

Um, and how I've gotten over you.

And...

Well, the second that she said that, I, uh...

I...

I told her that it wasn't true.

I'm not over you, Avery.

And I don't want to get over you.

Look, I understand that these are my feelings,

and I don't need you to respond...

in kind or even respond at all.

But I just want to be clear.

You know, I think it seems you think my feelings for you

are childish and unserious...

which makes sense.

I've been childish and unserious.

But if somebody felt for me the way that I feel for you,

I-I'd want to know.

Especially if that person knew me the way that I know you.

My feelings for you are very real,

and they're very serious.

I thought best to say all this before my hair fell out.

So... you are welcome.

Strong.

How are you doing?

Oh, you know. Just... a lot going on.

I owe you an apology.

Mm. Go on.

Well, you know that little control freak in my brain

is a devil, and...

when I walked into the world of brain worms,

the card catalog in my head just went a little berserk,

and I forgot that there is a world

in which you are just as good at this as I am.

Maybe even better.

In this case, much better.

Max, I know what I'm doing.

I know.

I know. You're ten times the medic I ever was.

And I'm sorry I doubted you.

I had a job interview when I went home.

So this is... goodbye?

I just... You know, I needed to see if I belong there.

And...

There is a lot for me. You know, my brother's there.

My nieces.

A hospital that desperately needs somebody

who knows what they're doing and who cares.

But, you know, I spent a lot of my life running up mountains,

hiking in the jungle, sailing away at sea.

And I never really found the one true thing

that gave it all meaning and purpose.

Until I met you.

You are that one true thing, Avery.

So that's why I came back.