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June14th, 1936

I'm in a terrible situation

I'll do all I can to make my husband happy,

and stay by his side until he is cured

But he won't even touch me

And my body starts to betray me

Should desire guide my life?

I had such high moral principles

l have to finally be honest with myself

and understand if I've stood by them

Everything started on my eighteenth birthday, at University

My cousin Alice prepared a surprise for me

Happy birthday to you... Thank you

Eighteen! Can you believe it! My baby cousin!

A baby! Not anymore! She's a woman!

But I don't feel any different Today feels just the same as yesterday!

Yes but seventeen is the last door to childhood, eighteen is the door of delight

And now, she's ready to experience all of life's pleasures!

Tssk. Justine! Always on fire!

You don't dare putting to practice what you are dreaming about ever night

Hey, it's my cousin's birthday, and I think her present is arriving

What is it? Come on! Tell me!

Look, there they are!

Who is it?

Oh, come on, you didn't dare!

Anna, we only invited them for your birthday

And after all, you haven't dream about them for two weeks

Alexander is so gorgeous!

Oh, I prefer Oscar He's got really sexy eyes!

Oh what about Alexander!

How could you resist that firm bottom!

Where did you see his firm bottom?

Well, I haven't seen it yet, but I will before tonight

I felt Oscar stood apart from the rest

I went with him leaving my friends to their games

I'm glad you came here with me

Do you think they did it?

I don't know

I don't understand these silly games

So, you wouldn't do something like that

Certainly not Shall we go for a walk?

Yes

And they did it

Justine rigged a bet with Alexander,

who of course fell for it completely

God, he's a dish!

Yes, he'll do

Sex and romance were my friends' only preoccupations at the time

Anna doesn't know what she's missing

But I must admit I wasn't much different

And neither was Oscar

But Anna, what's the harm in a kiss?

It's not that. It's what it leads to

Men are just like children,

you give them one sweet and they want the whole shop

They have to have it all

Not all, just a taste of things to come

I left on summer break the next day,

without having seen Oscar again

But I remembered my first sexual encounter with guilt

We had been thought that we had to remain chaste

I didn't realize that l was in love

l was ashamed of having myself be carried away with the strength of my pleasure

A feeling of fear and disgust grew in me over this summer,

towards Oscar and towards men in general

Did you have a good holiday? Yes, it was OK

Well what did you get up to?

I went down to Brighton To see my dad

I went to the beach Not very much really

You did anything special? Nothing fun?

Well we went for a few drives...

I don't love him anymore

| just want to be free! He is too emotional for me

He's always there!

He was so cute you wouldn't believe it You know French boys...

Although, I prefer ltalians

You prefer ltalians? Yes I also like ltalians

I promise you, I went to a party every day!

My God!

Students! Please be quiet!

Silence I said!

So, are you happy to see me?

Of course I am happy to see you

I thought about you for the whole summer

I thought about you sometimes too

Did you get my letters?

Yes, of course I got your letters

Did you like them?

Yes, I liked them Look, let's talk about something else

You don't look very happy

You don't look particularly relaxed either

And why you're being so cold with me?

lam sorry. Let's not fight

lam really glad to be back here with all of you

With all of you? What do you mean with all of you!

Well, with all of you, you know, with all of you, my friends

With all of you my friends! Like I am just one of the crowd!

Like I am nothing special to you

I mean all that time we spent together, does that not mean anything to you!

Oscar, leave me alone!

Anna! What's wrong!

Miss McConnell! Where do you think you are going?

I wandered alone for hours,

l was confused by so many conflicting emotions

I could not admit to myself that I might be in love with Oscar

Turn around

Miss McConnell! Late again!

lam sorry Madam

Go to the bar!

Now, let's take the next exercise

Bend back

Arms above the head

Stretch to the toe

Straighten up. Bend back

Arms above the head

Stretch to the toe

Up. And lean back

Arms above the head

Stretch to the toe

Up. And lean back

Pssst! What happened? Nothing!

Arms above the head Alright girls, you may go

Cheer up Anna

l have learned something terribly exciting from my grandmother

Really?

Hmm. And you won't believe it

What?

Do tell us!

A virile man gives off a certain scent

lt oozes from all over his body

Ooh! If he doesn't wash!

We didn't need your grandmother to tell us that!

Non no! That's not what I meant!

There's something invisible

A magic scent

Something that draws you to a sensual man

So you instinctively know when he wants you

Ah, that's what puts you in charge!

How?

Well, when you know he wants you,

you can play with him like he's just a puppet on a string

You better stop playing with puppets and go for the real thing! Shut up!

Oh, she's been in a romantic mood ever since her birthday

What's wrong Anna, don't you like men?

Maybe not! Let's go

Oh you two little bitches!

I felt sad and desperate

I found comfort in Terenzia's arms

Weeks passed and I held good

But when I saw Oscar with another Girl,

my confidence vanished,

and I realised that I loved him

He was bold and ambitious

Any means would be good to get him back

Anna!

Oh! Just a minute! lam coming!

l have to admit that | used Cynthia

Was I really conscious of it at the time?

In any case I liked her

and I did enjoy those moments we spent together

I told Alice how crazy I was about Oscar

and she reminded me of my vow to remain a virgin until my wedding day

In the meantime, the trick had worked

Oscar had taken the bait and was following me again

I heard a noise! Who's there?

Oh, it's Oscar!

Are you sure? I want to see him

Look, you go ahead, I will catch up with you later

Anna!

Anna!

Anna!

Feel how my heart is beating!

So it's true that love makes the heart beat faster

ldiot!

Anna, why do you hate me?

I don't hate you you

lam sorry I said that

l was upset. I felt insecure

This modern twaddle about the independence of women and all these ridiculous ideas

It's just a fashion! It has no future

Anna, the point is you don't trust me

I don't trust men

You don't know men yet!

Anna, I love you

I would do anything for you

Anything?

Yes! Anything! You just have to ask

Well Oscar. l, l have never seen a man's... you know

I want to see!

Wait! So come on, show me!

Strange! Gross and attractive at the same time!

No, not here, not now!

l was still hesitating

I wanted to be sure about Oscar's intentions

The thought of him caused me many sleepless nights

We were all going crazy

The shower rooms sparked off many passions

What are you doing?

I missed you this summer

But that was just a game So we will play again

But it's a stupid game if there's no boys around

Who needs a man?

| feel as if your eyes were burning through to my very soul

That's what all the boys say

And the girls lower their panties!

If only you were a man!

Justine, you excite me! Oh kiss my breast

Like that? Yes!

Oscar loved me. I loved him

He had asked me to marry him and I had said yes

He had warned me that he had to first leave for the colonies

on a journey of aid and discovery

I had accepted without hesitation

What the hell do you think you're doing you stupid old fool!

Some people call me a stupid old fool,

but some people call me...

Daddy! Uncle!

Come here my darlings

Oh, lam so sorry Sir

My father had sensed that something was cooking

and one day paid us a surprise visit and he said

can I ask you one teasy question before we indulge in hm intercourse!

He said, can I ask you, do you smoke after intercourse?

And you know what she said?

You know? I never looked! Ah Ah! Ah Ah!

Oh, you don't get it

Oh well Did you like it my darling?

Oh, I loved it! Well, what I understood

Oh well Shall we have another one?

Daddy, I thought you brought that case back from France to give to the ambassador

So my young chap to satisfy my daughter

She's a Mcconnell Lady!

Sir, this is enough! I protest!

Such impetuousness! England is saved!

Sit down young man, sit down

So my young fellow, lam proud of you

You must excuse me Sir, I must go to my class

At last you have opened your mouth! Please, please please, sit down, sit down

You will learn more with me than all the rubbish they teach you here

I'll tell you another story my indian beauty

Daddy not again!

Alright, but before I go it is my duty to warn your friend

Young man, I heard you were a humanist on his way to save the world

You are brave enough to fight the typhus,

the malaria, and the African warriors

But there is something worse!

What then? The African brothels!

Sir this is not a subject to joke about!

Yes, you've got a point

You are certainly going to need some courage

and I hope you come back to my daughter's side soon

Can we go for a ride in your car?

Oh! With you, all the way to Venice!

llove him!

Now, let me tell you another story:

There was this Parisian gentleman, and he was in this brothel...

So, burn the candle at both ends, and make the most of your youth

Anna, this young fellow is a gentleman You have my blessing

Now be good girls

As if we would!

What are these?

They are my boarding papers They arrived this morning

l have been waiting so long for this, I can't miss this opportunity

Tomorrow I'll be on the boat

Tomorrow! So soon!

I'm afraid so Anna

Let me look at you

I want to remember you like this tonight

I want to remember you like this always

Don't say that You're frightening me

I need something to remember you by

You have my photograph

Your Photograph! A photograph is just an image,

I want to take a part of you with me

A photograph does not capture your warmth and your passion

What else can I give you?

Something special. Your love

Oscar, you know I love you

Anna, you know I want to marry you when I come back

I want to be your first man

I know but...

I'm not sure I'm ready l'm frightened

Soaml

Who knows where I'll be tomorrow?

But I don't want to force you

God bless you. I've got to go

Oscar!

Come to me! Make love to me

l was the happiest woman on earth

My dream had come true

l was going to wait as long as necessary for Oscar

Whatever the temptations might be

Elisabeth! Yes!

Don't drink too much Oh no!

Can you believe she's still a virgin?

At her age? I can't believe that!

She is!

Look, Alice has found a new flirt

Now it's this maniac

What is she doing with him? I going to talk to her

Oh, here's Winston, he looks like a bellboy

Good evening Alice Hello Winston

How are you? Very well thank you

James, this is my good friend Winston

Good evening Sir How do you do

See you later Good luck

We had organised a party in honor of my friend Winston

He was off to the military academy

Jeffrey arrived

Everybody said he was strange

He was a rich heir who had refused a marriage arranged by his family

People held it against him

However, I quite liked him

Good evening Anna Good evening Jeffrey

May I say you are looking splendid

I would like you to meet Mary

How do you do? It's a pleasure

Good evening

Hello Winston Hello Jeffrey

Of course Justine had jumped on the occasion

to organize one of her silly sex games

The winner would have the privilege to kiss the innocent Winston goodbye

lt fell on Elisabeth, the shyest and most innocent of us all,

or so we thought

He's all yours now

Here, let me help you

Girls, girls!

Justine, what are you doing!

What a beauty Go on! Go ahead

I can't!

Here, let me show you

What are you? What are you doing?

Justine!

Let me do it!

Oh! Stop! Ah! Yeah! Oh! Oh!

You obviously don't need me around anymore. Have fun!

Oh, Elisabeth! Oh! Yeah! Oh!

Oh my love, this is such a dream!

At that time, my friends had gradually given up their resolutions,

and thrown themselves wholeheartedly into a world of debauchery

Life had become one big orgy

in which I didn't want to participate

I held back,

strengthened by the thought that Oscar would return to me

Even Alice had finally succumbed to her desires

Come, let's make love again!

It was so good and you drive me so crazy!

Again? Yes

What if somebody come?

Nobody's going to come Anna's gone horseback riding

On the one hand I was happy to see Alice so fulfilled

On the other I felt jealous

Jealous because finding her like this reminded me how much I missed Oscar

But I was ready to wait

Until the day I received this letter from him:

My love,

My life is here,

I can't see myself living in England anymore,

and this is not the place, or the time, to raise a family,

I won't come back Do not wait for me

Oscar

Oscar's letter had devastated me

I wandered for endless months

where my only distraction was Jeffrey's relentless courting

Here's a charming surprise Anna

Hello Jeffrey. Why insist?

I thought I had given you my answer

You know that I love you, that's all

How could I accept to marry you? I still love Oscar

I understand But maybe one day...

Until then, be happy

Jeffrey wait! Talk to me for a bit

lam flattered But why do you want to marry me?

I told you Anna

I refused a marriage arranged by my family

because I am waiting for the woman of my life

And that woman is you, I know it

Of course, you think you love this Oscar

But he's gone and you can't live alone

I want your happiness

In time, you'll learn to love me

If he ever comes back, I'd even accept to let you leave!

You're crazy Jeffrey! But I think I like that

Let's get married, Anna As soon as possible

We'd be so happy together

I did not understand Jeffrey very well

but his bold and picturesque character seduced me

Unhappy best describes my feelings

I beg your pardon?

He's happy you're getting married,

and she's pretty enough but...

Hmm... Victoria

Do you think she's ready for our lifestyle Jeffrey?

Being a Lloyd-Hillia holds a lot of responsibility

There are modern times father

She's beautiful, she's educated she...

Oh anyway, you spoiled the evening!

Marriage is bigger commitment than a four course meal and a glass of wine, Jeffrey

But I love her!

Love! Love is a firefly Jeffrey

lt sparks brightly and then dies It's not enough

A marriage need firmer foundations than

a fleeting fancy!

Shut up Mary! What do you know about love!

Can't you stop her father?

Jeffrey, you are of an age to be married

but Mary is right,

and she speaks for the good name of our family

I really don't care what either of you think!

l have grown out of this narrow mindedness and snobbery!

lt disgusts me!

This is intolerable

We shall marry!

With or without your blessing!

We got married quickly

and he looked like he wouldn't betray his word

Congratulations Sir Your ladyship

Thank you. Anna, this is Claire

Are you happy? Blissfully

You make me so very happy my love

I hope I'll always make you happy

First, let me look at you

I want to feast on your beauty

I want to kiss you with my eyes

I want to explore you with my mind

I want to see what no man has seen before

l was happy at least I felt I was

Jeffrey was a passion lover & a good husband

I believed I loved him

Until Oscar came back to England one fateful day

Winston, please make sure you deliver this letter to Anna personally

Oscar, you know she's married

I know, I don't care

Now I know I can't live without her

Very well I will see you next week

Thank you Take care

Bye Bye bye

ls her ladyship here?

No, lam waiting for her myself though

Will she be long? I don't know

And what's your name? Winston

Winston? l'm Liz Hello

In the army? Are you an officer? Yes

So there mustn't be many girls in the army

Not many, no Not many

An officer!

Oh! Liz, what are you doing?

Winston, I can see you met Liz!

Oscar was begging for forgiveness & asked me to reture to him

But Winston was so embarrassed

that he forgot to tell me about the letter and left

Anna? Yes

l have decided to go away and... travel for some time

Jeffrey, how can you leave like...

Don't ask questions

I must travel and meditate

l have to be alone

When are you going?

I'm leaving tomorrow

Let's enjoy our last moments together

Thank you my love

lfelt something was going wrong

This was reminiscent of my last heartbreak

Jeffrey made love to me all night

You had the audacity to write a letter to my wife

Oh, so it's you

I thought it might be you Come in

What do you want?

I want to see if you deserve to live

I want to see what you look like when I kill you

Anna doesn't love you She never will

lam going to take her back you know. Sorry Sir

Everybody knows you are deranged

You make me laugh!

You haven't got the guts!

Go on! Do it!

Jeffrey Lloyd Hillia please

Oh! Severe Casualty first At the end of the corridor

Both men had survived

The bullet has only brushed Jeffrey's head

Physically, there was by all account nothing wrong with him

Be he had been affected mentally

He found himself unable to move the lower half of his body

The doctor didn't know what to think

He advised me to lavish all my care and attention on my husband

Jeffrey's convalescence dragged on for months

Milady, are you feeling well?

You should take care of yourself

You look so pale

You are right Claire lam not well

I miss Jeffrey

Well, you must still take care of yourself

To look beautiful and ready for him when he comes back

Have some fruit

Please Milady

Oh Jeffrey!

Ah, ah! Not bad for a beginner hey Anna?

You're so brave! How can you be so brave?

You were the most handsome of them all Jeffrey, and you still are

And you're mine

Half yours

lam only half a man, and you'll soon tire of me

I won't tire ever of you Jeffrey

We took a vow

ln sickness and in health For better and for worse

Jeffrey's condition was improving fast

but he kept the wheelchair, wallowing in his state

He seemed to have regained a taste for life,

but his cheerfulness masked a profound bitterness

At the same time, I had been told of the circumstances of his so called accident

his senseless attack on Oscar,

intended as a proof for love

Oscar had been unfairly forced into exile, under suspicion by the police

My respect for my husband was gradually slipping away

Well Anna, you ride that animal as if it were a man, not a horse

Would that I could find a proper man Jeffrey!

lam sorry I said that

lam sorry Please forgive me

We could have been happy

But we are happy We are happy

Who is it?

Stop that Arthur, lam a church going girl!

Me too Lizzie! Have you seen the Bishop lately?

What's going on?

Sshh! They're kissing

Go back and look

He's kissing her here and here and here!

Really? Go back and see

Kiss me!

Liz! Liz!

I'm here Sir!

Did you want something?

I need someone to take me back to the house,

and also someone to take my wife's horse back to the stable

Yes Sir

I still think of Oscar

but Jeffrey is my husband and my friend

I'll do everything I can to help him recover

l have every intention to live my life to the full

lam going to shake my husband from his apathy

and make myself free once again

lam yours, all yours

Don't do this Anna!

l was on fire last night

You can't light a fire without a spark

Are you afraid you'll burn yourself if you touch me?

I don't want to arouse you,

and then not be able to satisfy you

But you arouse my desire!

I want to feel you inside me again!

lam sorry I said that

But I heard you

I would have heard you even if I were deaf

Like I would see you even if I were blind

Don't speak, touch me

No. This only frustrates the both of us, Anna

You don't want to touch me

Of course I do

But that's all I can ever do is touch

"LA PHILOSOPHIE DANS LE BOUNDOIR" by the marquis de Sade

Maybe you should read it!

My father read it He found it mediocre and insignificant

You can still thank you father for giving me that book

Come in

May |? l have prepared your bath Madame

Excuse me Go

No Edwige. Not now

Whatever you say Ma'am

Anna! Anna! l have lost you

I know I have lost you

Jeffrey?

I saw you, and her

I love you Jeffrey

l have lost you

If you don't believe in my love, kill me

lam only yours Jeffrey

lam not betraying you, lam betraying myself

We'll be happy. I swear

Then go back there

Anything for you

Claire Yes Madame

Have you seen Edwige?

No I did not But, may I be of any help?

Yes, you might be Can you undress for me Claire?

Of course Madame

It's already getting better Jeffrey

Don't ask me how, but I know it is