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Hi.

Hi.

Every day with babies, there's something new...

something they've discovered about the world-

a new word...

Something they're scared of...

something that lets you know who they are.

I don't want to miss anything, but I'm missing so much.

What's the hardest part?

The quiet.

They sleep with a sound machine,

and when they're not here, it's so quiet.

Do you feel like you have somebody looking out for you?

No.

But I don't need that.

I bet he's letting them eat all their candy at once.

Hal and I stayed in the same room for a long time,

so be careful.

Where's the sound machine?

You should turn it on.

I don't need to sleep with her sound machine on.

It's yours, too, if you hear it every night.

What the-

Oh! Oh, God.

Plenty more, please, miss.

Do you ever feel like you don't have anyone...

or like no one has you?

Do you not feel like I got you?

I do.

God, freshmen look so fucking young.

Keep it in your pants, bro.

I feel like I spent four years

studying something I fucking hated.

What is Media Arts and Culture?

I should have gone to trade school.

You're literally in the only city in the world

where Media Arts and Culture is actually useful.

- Apply for jobs. - How?

They all want one to three years of experience.

What are the jobs?

One is a research and policy engagement coordinator

at this organisation through the UN.

And then the other is a policy coordinator

at the London School of Economics.

And they're both very competitive, but...

the main thing is that I'd be able to stay

with my mom's family outside London, so...

You've never told me about your mom.

Because I don't know anything about her.

I bet it'd feel really good to get to know her family now.

Mm-hmm.

I'm not actually gonna go.

Why not?

'Cause there's too much going on here.

I haven't even told Hal or Jesse.

And why is that?

Because Hal would murder/suey.

Damn. What a drag.

Why are you trying to get me to go?

It's hurting my feelings.

Why is it hurting your feelings?

Because you're not gonna come with me, are you?

I'd be really sad if you go.

But I don't want to weigh you down

and pile on to other people's feelings.

When you were talking about London,

your eyes really lit up.

No, they didn't.

I'd really miss you, but yes, they did.

I think it's lunchtime.

I just had a Clif Bar. I got an apple, so...

- What, are you dieting? - Fuck off, bro.

Hold still.

Stop telling me to hold still.

- I don't like it. - Whoa, whoa! Hold on!

Somebody's calling you.

Who?

Mom.

Wait, before you answer,

can you just sit down for, like, two seconds?

I'm almost done with my drawing.

Hey.

I think you're-

Mom, I'm actually in the library,

so, like, two seconds, yeah?

Psst!

I can't.

Either way, you'll figure it out.

Let's just, uh-let's just talk about it later.

Okay. Okay.

Were you on the phone that whole time?

Yeah.

Thoughts on my drawing?

You hated it.

- What's up? You want to talk? - Mm-mm.

I just talked for, like, two hours,

so I just want to get back to work.

- Hey. - Hi.

I'm gonna go FaceTime the kids real quick.

I'll be here.

Do you want to come to a dumb birthday party

I'm hosting for my friend tonight?

Yeah.

Do I remember you saying that you sing?

- Eh... - I do remember that.

- I'll be right back. - Okay.

- Snoopy. - Who's talking about flights?

My mom.

Saying they're too expensive right now.

To where?

My granny just died. Her funeral is tomorrow.

Does she live in Vegas too?

Yeah, she's our neighbour.

Was our neighbour.

I'm so sorry.

My parents don't want to pay 'cause...

last-minute flights are so expensive,

and I already paid for Thanksgiving and a bunch of-

Dude, we're driving.

- You don't have a car. - My sister does.

- We're not gonna drive. - Dude, yes, we are.

No!

Okay, I'm gonna order for everyone.

Does everyone trust me to order?

Hard liquor, please.

What's hard liquor?

Okay.

♪ And, oh, it's as if ♪

♪ You know me better than I ever knew myself ♪

♪ I love how you can tell ♪

♪ All the pieces, pieces ♪

♪ Pieces of me ♪

Turn.

- Her name is Harper. - Okay, Harper. Yeah!

- Whoo! - All right!

♪ At first, I was afraid, I was petrified ♪

♪ Kept thinking I could never live ♪

♪ Without you by my side ♪

♪ And then I spent so many nights ♪

♪ Thinking how you did me wrong ♪

♪ And I grew strong ♪

♪ And I learned how to get along ♪

♪ And so you're back from outer space ♪

♪ I just walked in to find you here ♪

♪ With that sad look upon your face ♪

♪ I should have changed that stupid lock ♪

♪ I should have made you leave your key ♪

♪ If I'd have known for just one second ♪

♪ You'd be back to bother me ♪

Homey, hear me out.

I take Harper's car all the time.

She barely uses it.

There is no way you should miss your granny's funeral

when all I want to do is take your ass there

and party with you in Vegas.

And by party with you in Vegas,

I mean attend your granny's funeral and not party at all.

What are you saying to me right now?

I said, why are you doing karaoke without me and Kalen?

It's somebody's birthday who I don't even know.

Does your brother want to come?

He's with his friend.

- Who sucks? - No, he's great.

So then fuck it, we ball.

You guys can only come if you sing.

both: ♪ I really want to be your lover ♪

♪ And I can never make up my mind ♪

Today on our hike...

I felt...

Try really hard to say what you were gonna say.

- I really want to hear it. - I feel so strong with you.

I loved hiking with you.

Would you come to London if you didn't have kids?

Well, it would depend on when.

Breakups are a lot...

A lot of pain...

and time and work.

I don't want you to rush those things.

I feel like you're telling me

you don't want me staying over tonight.

That's not what I'm saying.

I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere.

- I'm just saying you are. - No, I'm not.

- Relax. - I'm not going anywhere.

- Look at me. - I'm not.

Harper, hey, look at me.

It's okay.

You are safe.

All of the feelings are safe.

Harper!

♪ After the first night ♪

♪ That's when I realised the truth ♪

Harper, is this you?

- Is this you? - Is who what?

Oh.

Sing your heart out.

Go, go, go, go.

♪ I cry so much ♪

- That's my sister. - Yeah.

♪ I've run out of tears ♪

No.

I just went. I just sang.

Shut the fuck up.

both: ♪ Look at your picture ♪

♪ Beat my head against the wall ♪

♪ I still feel the fire ♪

I know all of them.

both: ♪ When I think about you, darling ♪

♪ I nearly drink myself sick ♪

♪ 'Cause I can't do without you ♪

♪ I'm like an addict hooked on drugs ♪

♪ I can't do without you ♪

both: ♪ I got to have some more ♪

♪ Some more of your love ♪

both: ♪ Never have I been locked up in misery ♪

♪ I need you, darling ♪

♪ To set me free ♪

♪ Come back, baby ♪

♪ Try me one more time ♪

♪ Oh, darling ♪

♪ I'm about to lose my mind ♪

♪ 'Cause I can't do without you ♪

No, I'm not.

♪ I'm going out of my head ♪

♪ I can't do without you ♪

♪ Without you, I might as well be dead ♪

♪ Do without you ♪

- ♪ Baby, oh, no, no, no ♪ - ♪ Baby, baby, baby ♪

♪ I can't do without you ♪

♪ I'm in misery ♪

♪ I can't do without you ♪

♪ I'm like an addict hooked on drugs ♪

♪ I can't do without you ♪

♪ I love you so much, darling ♪

♪ I can't do without you ♪

♪ I need you so bad right now ♪

♪ I can't live without you ♪

♪ I just got to have your love ♪

♪ I can't do without you ♪

♪ Oh, baby, try me one more time ♪

♪ Do without you ♪

♪ I need you so much ♪

Dude, I'm good.

I just-I got a shirt and shoes.

- I'm set. - My uncle has an extra.

Oh, please, no. Please, no.

My family will have your ass, bro.

Dude!

What, is your uncle 7 feet tall?

This is my brother Mike.

- This is my best friend, Hal. - Nice to meet you.

His girl, Charlene.

I don't care what it was.

You ask her something, and she was there to give it to you.

- That's right. - Mm-hmm.

- She was such a special lady. - Uh-huh.

- So special. - Mm-hmm.

I want you to know this is a going-home celebration!

This is not a funeral.

She told me the night before she passed,

she said, Pastor...

♪ Wasted time ♪

♪ Wasted time, wasted time ♪

Yo.

♪ Yeah ♪

Yo!

What's up?

You dipped.

You mean at the very end?

Your family is going through a lot.

I just felt like a pesky fly all day.

To who?

Nobody was thinking about you

till we had to look for you.

I just didn't want to crowd you guys.

Then go wait in the lobby.

I feel like you don't have me.

Yesterday you were talking

about how you feel like no one has you.

I feel like you don't have me.

I literally just drove six hours

to take you to your granny's funeral.

But I feel like you only give me things

to make sure that I give you what-what you need.

Like, it's not about having my back or anything.

- I do have your back. - No, you don't.

I never know when I'm gonna feel, like, good with you.

You really act like you're my best friend,

but I never know when I'm gonna suddenly feel

like you don't give a shit about me, bro.

You're not, like, a person sometimes.

- Hi. - Hi.

Whose clothes are those?

- They're- - Audrey's?

Why are you wearing Audrey's clothes?

I slept at her house.

What the fuck are you talking about?

Anything-

Harper, I feel like- I feel like I'm dying, okay?

- I feel like-I feel like... - Like what?

- I'm dying. - You said you wanted space.

- God, what is wrong with you? - I went to Hal's.

You didn't-you didn't call me.

- You didn't text me. - Yes, I did.

- No. - I texted you on Saturday.

You said, I love you, and I'm so sorry.

Do you remember that time

I tried to get in the Uber freshman year?

I tried to get away from you,

and you wouldn't let the Uber driver go away.

You stood in front of the car.

I remember.

What happened?

What? What-what happened?

I don't want to try.

Why?

I'm tired.

I think I'm just tired of trying to keep up-

Bullshit.

I don't feel grounded in myself.

- What does that mean? - I don't know.

- I don't feel grounded- - No, I heard you.

- What does it mean? - I don't know.

- I think-I don't feel right. - You said we could try.

You said-you said that we could work on things.

So we're working on things.

Things never- never feel totally right.

Yeah, they do.

I've tried so hard.

Are you in love with Audrey?

Jess.

I love you so much, but I don't want-

You don't love me.

Of course I love you so much.

I'll always love you.

You're the first person that I-

I'm always...

Gonna have that...

19-year-old in me.

I'm-

I'm so grateful.

Hal's ignoring me too.

Well, let's wait till Thanksgiving.

I've talked about it.

Surround him with people that will help him

actualise his potential as fast as possible.

I have no interest in spending the year trying to figure out

if Jeremy Sochan can be my point guard.

Even-even if I have-

you know, they have- they have Jones,

who, every time he comes in, his plus-minus...

It's Hal.

Yeah, bro.

Are you asleep?

Obviously not.

Did I wake you up?

No.

Do you want to watch something

on the couch together?

Has granted Russell Wilson permission

to speak with other teams.

Once they did that...

Okay.

Okay.

I hear you.

Okay.

Hey, are you safe?

Hey, yeah. I'm safe.

Jesse and I broke up tonight.

Sweetheart.

I love you.

I love you too.

Where you gonna sleep?

Jess moved to the couch, so just my bed.

Okay.

So sorry, babe.

Has Hal told you about Audrey,

the girl that I work with?

Mm, what do you mean? No.

We kissed one night...

and I told Jesse, but she wanted to work on it.

I'm really in love with Audrey.

You left Jesse for Audrey?

No.

I hope you didn't lie to her, Harper.

It'll help her to know why.

She deserves that, honey.

The why is that we're not meant to be together.

And it took another person-

she's not just another person.

I know how messed up it sounds.

I know exactly what you're thinking.

What am I thinking?

What the fuck?

- This is the last two. - Thank you.

Thanks.

I think it's mixed.

Stop! Stop! Stop!

What, what, what? What the fuck?

- What are you doing? - Checking our food.

Like, to see how cooked it is?

Yes!

Like, yes.

- What else would I be doing? - I don't know.

You haven't been talking,

and I don't know what's going on inside of your head.

You think I'm trying to kill myself in the oven?

- I didn't know. - You are such an idiot.

- I didn't know. - You think I'm trying

to kill myself in the oven right now?

You love Sylvia Plath.

I'm not trying to kill myself.

Okay.

Stop looking at me.

Okay.

I'm fine.

I know. I'm not worried about you.

Can you get out of here so I can finish?

All right, well, I was thinking I could

sous-chef for you and wear your Crocs.

Okay.

Where are your Crocs?

You scared the fuck out of me.

I feel like a stiff drink is needed with dinner.

- I don't have any wine. - Not even box wine?

No, I just have the tequila Jess got me

for my birthday last year.

Ugh.

She's already, like, processed so much,

or-or she's, like, changed already.

That's really good, you know?

Yeah.

I really see how much you're hurting.

Thanks. Can I have one more?

One more.

I fuck with that garden super heavy.

Audrey and her kids

made that for me.

Oh, Jesse didn't get you a going-away garden?

I've been, like, so closed off to Audrey.

She keeps asking me to hang out,

but I am just saying no because it feels so bad.

- What feels bad? - I don't even know.

I just-like, all I know is, I want to hang out with you.

That makes sense.

I'm glad that Jesse and I broke up.

- I believe you. - I just, like-

I really need her

to know that I love her.

She knows.

Take your shot for her. You didn't take your shot.

Mm.

I miss her smell.

She smelled like tequila?

No.

Sister...

It's okay.

♪ I'm practicing ♪

♪ Did you ever think that you were born for it ♪

♪ Did you ever think that you were born for it ♪

♪ There's a gash under my shirt ♪

Are you too drunk to fall asleep?

No, I'm good.

♪ L-O-N-L-Y type of action ♪

♪ Did you ever think that you were born for it ♪

♪ Did you ever think that you were born for it ♪

Kobe!

♪ Body's on the formula ♪

♪ In my fashion, I go walking down the crease ♪

♪ No one's asking, but ♪

♪ Did you ever think that you were born for it ♪

♪ Did you ever think that you were born for it ♪

♪ Did you ♪

♪ Did you ever think that you were born for it ♪

♪ Did you ♪

♪ Did you ever think that you were born for it ♪

♪ And I cannot feel my brain ♪

♪ Body crashing ♪

♪ God forbid something-thing should happen ♪

♪ But I'm back up in the stars ♪

♪ Where it's smashing ♪

♪ Looking right there where you are ♪

♪ Watch you laughing, thinking ♪

♪ Did you ever think that you were born ♪

Da, da, da-da-da!

- ♪ Born for it ♪ - Are you?

- You are? Oh, my God! - Dude!

♪ Did you ever think that you were born for it ♪

♪ Did you ever think that you were born for it ♪

♪ Born for it ♪

♪ Did you ever think that you were born for it ♪

♪ Did you ♪

Hey.

Could I join you?