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- ♪ Take me to nirvana ♪

♪ A place with no more drama… ♪

Wait, Brion just watched his video.

- Yeah. That was nerve-racking, though.
- Yeah.

She's obviously hurt,

but I think she wants to know
the reasoning why behind everything.

♪ I wanna go further ♪

♪ Deeper than the surface… ♪

I've been thinking about
me and Brion's interaction

the last couple days.

Jesus Christ.

I feel like he doesn't take responsibility
for anything that he does.

- Can I talk to you?
- Of course.

Because right now it's all
about him, him, him, him, him.

I kinda, like,
thought about it and our date situation.

I feel like I don't agree with
a lot of things that you've done, which,

you know, it's your journey…

Mm.

…and I feel like,
for me, for example,

you said you didn't cheat on her,
but you did.

- You doing that--
- Well, here.

Yeah, exactly, and you've been telling me
that you've been together this whole time,

so that would be you cheating on her.

The thing is, you gotta separate
the real world from what's going on here.

- You know?
- Yeah.

So you're basically, like, picking
and choosing when you wanna be single.

I'm a big girl's girl.
You know what I mean?

So I feel like it's hard for me
to, like, want to spend that time with you

when I know this certain information
if that makes sense.

- Yeah, that's no problem.
- Yeah, so… yeah.

So I'm just… I'm gonna decline the date.

Yeah, that's fine.

This morning's been all about the video.
That's really where my focus is.

Like, "Where's Shante's head at?"

That's why all this extra shit,
I'm just like, "I don't care."

If I gotta go alone, I gotta go alone.
Like, I'm good with that.

- ♪ Got me bound no doubt, baby ♪

♪ Ups and downs
And all year round I'll be ♪

♪ The man you want me to be ♪

♪ Can your eyes get lost in time? ♪

♪ Can you love… ♪

♪ I'm feeling so alive ♪

♪ With your lips touching mine… ♪

I got some flowers for you here.

- Oh my gosh! Those are so pretty.
- Yeah, let me go grab them.

- What? Oh my gosh.
- MM-hmm.

- I wrote you a little letter too.
- This is so sweet.

Let me put this… left side
because you're dating me, right?

- We'll put that in after.
- Okay.

"So, I wanted to write this letter to you
so that we could have a moment,

and I wanna start this moment

by telling you how beautiful,
sweet, and amazing I think you are."

"I can't tell you how much I appreciate
your patience and respect for me

as I've navigated
this crazy, crazy experience."

"The connection I feel with you
is very real."

"You've shown me
the kind of love I really do yearn for."

"I'm excited to continue
to learn more about you

and really see where this thing goes."

"PS, you're not a second option."

- From me.
- Oh my gosh, Grant.

Now we're about to get in the water
and have some fun.

- That's so sweet. Thank you.
- You're welcome.

I really appreciate this.

I'm learning that Grant
just has a really good heart.

I think it's just nice for him to realize

that someone appreciates
the things about him

that Ashley maybe didn't appreciate.

I don't want to, like, get my hopes up
that it's completely done for them,

but I really like what we're building.

All right,
so if I came to visit you in Arizona…

Uh-huh.

…what's the first thing
you'd take me to go do?

First, I'd want you to meet my friends.

- Okay.
- They're really important.

All right, so we meet up
with your friends and then what?

Yeah, my friends are
scarier than, like, my dad.

- Your friends are scarier?
- Yeah.

What, they would…
they would interrogate me?

They're like…
Meeting my dad is really chill.

Meeting my friends is scary.
They have stronger opinions.

I've gotten myself into trouble
in the past by not asking questions,

so I wanna know, you know,

is Natalie thinking about life
after the island?

Is she thinking about,
you know, what it'd be like to visit me?

Does she wanna meet my daughter?
Is she open to it?

I'm not expecting anything.

I just want to
kinda get those things floating around

and see how both of us feel about it.

I definitely can't, like, help but wonder
how much I'll see you after the island.

- Well, isn't that up to us?
- Yeah.

♪ Chills running down my belly ♪

♪ Statics come into my head ♪

♪ Gimme that electric body… ♪

- Pottery.
- Who was talking about this?

- We're making some pottery.
- Okay.

Hell yeah.

- This is gonna get messy.
- This is gonna get real messy, real fast.

I haven't done this
since middle school.

First step is to get it wet.

Good job.

It's going down.

- Go. Go.
- I need more water.

- It's getting there. It's getting there.
- This is not it.

Harder.

- No, it's not on. Stop.
- Okay, you see--

It's because it's not on.

Yeah, because you were too low with it.

All right. All right.

I love my sweet little Danny.

Like, it's so fun with him, and it's easy.

I don't know
what will come of the entire situation,

but right now, I'm just enjoying my time
and taking it day by day with him,

and we'll see where that goes.

- I'm gonna fuck this.
- Get your hands there.

- Okay.
- This way.

Try to go slower.

I can do this. Oh, it's… it's shaping.

- Yep, take that out.
- Oh.

Scoop it out.

All right. Good.

Here.

Oh, come on.

All right

Every date that we've done,
I've seen more parts of Ashley open up.

I've seen more emotional connections,
more physical connections.

I feel like it's fun,
you know, to get a little dirty.

Doing something different,
something unique,

you get to build
that connection even more.

- ♪ Stay ♪

♪ Hold on… ♪

There is, like,
definitely sparks there with Danny,

and I feel happy when I'm around him,
and that's all I'm looking for right now.

I've obviously taken you
on several dates now,

so I'm very into you.

- I'm just glad that you're here.
- Me too.

- So thank you.
- Thank you.

♪ This is where we belong… ♪

- ♪ Who, who are we? ♪

♪ Come on, let me know ♪

♪ Who do you see? ♪

♪ Come on, let me know… ♪

- How you doing? Um…
- Good. How about you?

All right. Let me do a guava and a mango.

One of the biggest things
I've learned about me is

I don't like being alone.

Like, I just feel like
half of my heart was in that iPad.

Um, I guess that's why I'm so cold
to other people here.

They're not Shante, so…

I'm gonna be on the straight and narrow
the rest of the way through like I've been

because all that's on my mind right now is
what I can do to be a good man to her,

and I got a lot of explaining to do,
so I'll do the best I can.

♪ Feelin' every, every step ♪

♪ Yeah, I'm taking deep breaths ♪

♪ Lovin' my reset… ♪

- Look at this.
- Oh my gosh.

I'm back-to-back, huh?

- Two-and-oh.
- W.

I started off 0-for-2 though.

- Oh-for… Uh…
- I'm holding that against you, yeah.

Yeah, yeah. You didn't even
give me your bracelet to begin with.

Thought I was just trying
to be your friend, which is crazy.

Big homie vibes.

I feel like I never gave
"He's just trying to be my friend" energy.

I'll let you go first.
Oh my goodness gracious.

- You good?
- Yeah.

- I'm built for this, baby.
- Okay.

With Yamen, it's not forced.

It easily aligns,

and that's something
that I really want right now.

Oh my God.

- Look how beautiful this is.
- Oh shit.

- This is amazing.
- It's not a bad vibe right here, huh?

This is… And it's natural.
The fact the Earth did this all by itself.

Yeah, I'm gonna have to get in.

So with everything
that Tayler's been going through

and, you know, me entering the picture,

at first, she seemed very closed off,

but just spending more time with her,
she's fun, she's outgoing.

It seems like
she's becoming more of herself.

This new Tayler
that I'm just now getting to experience,

it's making your boy feel
nice and fuzzy on the inside.

Come on.

It's just water.

Freezing cold water.

Oh, it's okay.

Just dunk. Just dunk
to the shoulders. To the shoulders.

Come on. Come on. Come on.

There we go. There we go.

Oh my gosh.

I've really been trying to respect
the boundaries that Tyler and I set,

even if he wanted to cross that boundary.

Because I still wanna hold myself
to this standard,

but I'm not disrespecting my relationship.

There is no relationship
to respect anymore.

I deserve happiness,
whatever that may look like.

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ It's always been you ♪

♪ You're my breakthrough ♪

♪ You're my breakthrough ♪

♪ You're my breakthrough… ♪

What do we got going on here?

"This detoxifying mud mask
draws out tension and toxins

as it rejuvenates your body

with organic vitamins
and minerals from the sea."

"It will allow
the desire and the needs of the heart

to move into the mind where they can be
expressed and fulfilled."

Are you trying to say something?

"Mix the powder with warm water."

"Glide the mud over your body
to emerge feeling refreshed and renewed."

- All right, so--
- We need that.

Honestly,
a little bit.

One, two.

My goal is really to get clarity
on how Kay and I need to move forward

in the… the final few days

because after the weeks
we've spent together,

we're both, you know,
feeling something here.

♪ I feel good, babe… ♪

I want you to lay down.

Yes, ma'am. Oh.

♪ Feel good, feel good ♪

♪ Feel good… ♪

This is an image I never thought I'd see.

I just wanna look at the horizon

and just kinda see, you know,
how this might work in the future

because more than anything,

I want and need
to make sure I do it right this time.

Not moving too fast. Not moving too slow.

Just flowing.

Now that's nice, actually.
Now we're talking.

- ♪ You know me… ♪
- Mmm.

♪ Keep me caged in… ♪

So with everything
you have going on now…

- Yeah.
- …and now me being in the picture…

- Just…
- Yeah.

- What does that look like going forward?
- Um…

It gives me something to look forward to,
honestly, something exciting

because I feel that this
whole experience coming to this island,

I got exactly
what I came here to get plus some.

- A little extra something.
- Yeah. A little extra.

A little uh-huh.

So, yeah, I'm happy.

- Hmm.
- At peace.

- That's a good word.
- Yeah.

- Okay, we like peace. Hmm.
- Yeah.

- Hmm. Mm-hmm.
- Here, should we be…?

That's not cute.

♪ It's been a longtime coming ♪

♪ Trying to give myself love, yeah ♪

♪ 'Cause I feel sexy today… ♪

Whoa.

All right. Anything you wanna let go of
as we wash this off?

I think the first thing I wanna wash off
and kind of get rid of is, honestly, the…

just the heaviness and all the stress
that's come from my previous relationship.

It's kinda what I wanna
finally get off my chest.

Out with the old
and possibly in with the new, so…

I love that.

One thing I've learned about Tyler,
and one thing I've really appreciated is

how secure he makes me feel.

-
Um…

I'm, like, getting emotional.
I don't know why.

I just feel like
in my last relationship,

I definitely…

…um, let my guard down a lot,

and I felt really, really safe
and secure with him, and…

…that rug just kinda
got pulled out from under me.

I feel like I've taken things really slow
with Tyler for that reason

even though I'm never questioning
where I stand with him, and…

…that's something I feel like
I really, really appreciate, so yeah.

♪ Wouldn't trade it for another ride ♪

♪ And right now I know it ♪

♪ I trust where I'm going ♪

♪ A filter make that grass look greener ♪

♪ I trust where I'm going ♪

♪ Oh yeah… ♪

- Hello.
- Hello, hello.

Welcome to the hot shop.

Today, we're gonna be making
this cool glass flower.

Ooh!

- Take some time. Pick out your colors…
- Okay.

…and then lay out a pattern
of different colored frits

for the top of the flower.

- Okay. Thank you.
- Thank you. I appreciate you.

- Let's see.
- Okay.

- I'm a little overwhelmed with colors now.
- I already know.

This is fun, and I appreciate
you asking me on this second date again.

I knew you'd be, like, fun

and not bring any pressure
to my situation that's already…

Exactly.

…overwhelming right now.

I know right now
you're still processing it, but…

you have a lot of great qualities,

and you're obviously a great girlfriend.

You deserve that exact same thing
from your partner.

- Yeah.
- Whoever that is.

If someone's not gonna give that to you,
it's just like…

- It's hard for us to support that, and…
- I know.

There's something good out there for you.
There's not many girls like you.

Thank you.

Yeah, there's definitely…
definitely good to come in your life.

- Thank you.
- Of course.

- It ain't easy being Shan-teezy. Come on.
- It ain't easy.

It ain't easy, y'all.

I know Gio has my best interests at heart.

It's, of course, like,
advice and things that I need to hear.

Um, but again, it's, like,
all decisions I have to make for myself.

- Take it back.
- Spin it. Spin it.

- Turn, turn, turning.
- Okay.

I don't know, like,
what Brion could even tell me

for us to keep moving past it.

I just feel so conflicted

of what I'm hearing,
what I'm seeing, what's going on,

and it's just constantly
running through my brain.

And roll,
then you're controlling that stem.

You hold on too. Perfect.

♪ We're gonna glow it up ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ We're gonna glow it up… ♪

- All right.
- Ripping it.

- ♪ We're gonna glow it up… ♪

- You did it.
- Yay!

In the beginning, Alex and I were
always intrigued with each other.

Definitely attracted to each other,

but after receiving
the video message this morning from Alexa,

it kinda knocked off all this doubt.

You're killing it.

I feel pure happiness and joy,

and moving forward, I have a big decision.

It's gonna determine
whether I'm gonna be with someone

for the rest of my life,
and it's… it's a crazy thought.

Good job.

- Hi.
- Hello. Welcome.

Can I offer you sage?

- Sure.
- Absolutely.

- Is that cool? Back-to-back.
- Yeah. Okay.

- Excellent, and what's your name?
- Alexa.

Alexa, sister, I offer you sage.

- Thank you.
- Mm-hmm.

- And brother, what is your name?
- Uh, Max.

Max, welcome.

I chose Max
because I've had a lot of doubts

and he's helped reassure me.

These are your seats.

I need to be more gentle
with myself and open up my heart more

and trust that what the heart wants
it'll… it'll get if you follow it.

So, right now,
we're in a very receptive pose.

This is a supportive circle

where we can really honor
what's ready to come forward.

What do you want to bring out right now?

I came here with…

…the intention

of making my relationship
with my boyfriend stronger.

I wanted him to get some clarity

and figure out if it was me
that he really wanted forever.

Mm.

But it's almost,
in a way, given me clarity that…

that I want him just as much, if not more.

And so my intention has kinda shifted
to wanting our relationship to work

to wanting me
to discover more about myself.

I finally feel like I'm doing just that,

and I'm learning to be
a more confident, strong woman

that I never thought I was.

Through this journey…

…I've met four incredible,
beautiful, emotionally-intelligent women…

…and obviously, one in particular, Alexa,

that I've developed
a lifelong friendship with.

I'm just forever grateful for her
and just value our friendship so much.

Good hug. I appreciate you.

Always.

- ♪ Best believe it ♪
- ♪ Best believe it ♪

- ♪ Yeah ♪
- ♪ Yeah, baby ♪

♪ I'll show you how it's done
You best believe it… ♪

- I'm starving, bro.
- Literally same.

- ♪ Best believe it ♪
- ♪ Best believe it… ♪

- There we go.
- Uh-huh.

- Did you kiss on your date?
- Yes.

I fucking knew it.

- God.
- Yeah, same though.

I mean, it was so beautiful.
Like, we were literally…

The water was so cold.

I had to, like,
low-key straddle him like a koala bear.

He just looked at me, and I was like…

- Okay, fine. Do it.
- Yeah.

- How was it? Was it a kiss or a make out?
- No, it was a make out.

Like, it was low-key really fucking good.
He kissed exactly like I kiss.

Like, soft, subtle, bite the lip.
It wasn't, like, full tongue.

You know how you kiss some people,
and you're like, "Bro, where'd you learn?"

Yeah.

Pretty fun, though?

- Uh-huh.
- Did you guys kiss?

Decent amount. Decent amount.

- Ah, dirty. Hell yeah.
- A decent amount.

Do you think you'd hook up with him?

- Yeah?
- Yeah, probably.

We were underwater
and some booty grabbing was happening.

Oh okay!

So, that was nice. I was like, "Oh!"

Okay. How… What about you?

Um…

At first, we were sitting
next to each other,

and then he got behind me,
and we were, like, hands on the pottery.

Like, I kept turning.
He totally could've at least cheek-kissed.

- Yeah.
- He just, like, wasn't doing it.

- And then, finally, we, like, kissed.
- Yeah.

It was a bit awkward 'cause there was clay
all over our face, but it was, like, cute.

- Mmm.
- It was cute.

Like, looking at 'em talk.

- Them? Yeah.
- They're both a lot of hand movements.

Like…

- And he's a really good guy.
- I know.

- Tayler and Ashley need to… Uh-huh.
- Tayler and Ashley…

Need to be fucking happy too

because they're over there
making themselves happy.

- ♪ Baby, I don't want to be impatient ♪

♪ Give it time… ♪

- I love laying on you.
- Shut up.

Ah!

They're really, like, in love.
Look at this.

This.

- I think you just make me feel safe.
- Good.

I'm very interested to see how this ends.

Me too. Very interested.

To see if they, like,
leave the island together,

or what is it? Like, is it real?

I'm gonna miss this little island.
Hanging out with you all the time.

I know.

♪ Don't know what's happening
But I like it, I like it ♪

♪ Butterfly-fly-flies ain't going away… ♪

I think ever since we started having
sleepovers at night and stuff,

it's definitely become
a lot more like, "Wait a minute."

I can definitely see a potential future
with him outside of here.

- That's not something I've considered.
- ♪ You're now making me plead ♪

♪ Makin' me forget how to breathe ♪

♪ When I'm with you… ♪

What are you thinking about now?

I can't say.

- You can't even say?
- I'm thinking not-good things.

- Well, good things.
- Mmm.

I haven't even thought about
the idea of falling in love with Tyler.

Um, but that's why they say "falling."
You don't know when it happens.

♪ Is it more than lust?
Is this something I can trust? ♪

♪ Never ever felt this kind of rush ♪

♪ All while longing for your touch… ♪

Oh, Kay.

The thought of falling in love again
is just, you know, terrifying.

I do feel like with Kay,
I'm definitely at the precipice right now,

but, uh, I have made wrong decisions
by just being too comfortable

and seeking comfort.

That's what got me
into trouble with Tayler,

and I won't make
that same mistake with Kay.

We're doing this whole thing wrong.

We don't have to resist each other.

♪ I was doing just fine ♪

♪ Then you went and changed my mind… ♪

Am I sleeping in here tonight?

If you're okay with just sleeping.

That's what I was planning on doing.

Like, seriously, though.

Yeah.

Like, after all the dates
that we've gone through,

it feels really good that she asked me
for this sleepover tonight.

And being here alone with her
just really opens up so many more doors.

I…

- Kind of a red flag…
- Oh no.

- I sleepwalk.
- No!

No! No, you don't.

It truly gives you a sense
of what life could be after.

We'll see where it goes,

and we'll see how it ends up
at the final bonfire.

♪ All of a sudden I can't speak ♪

♪ I lost control of my body ♪

♪ When did this room become empty? ♪

♪ So what if it's just hormones… ♪

There's a new man in my bed.

What's happening?

I feel like
I can't stop, like, kissing you.

♪ Oh no, what do you know ♪

♪ Falling in love, and I can't go slow ♪

♪ Okay, here we go ♪

- ♪ Here we go ♪
- ♪ Yeah, here we go ♪

♪ I've been through
All the crushing times ♪

♪ I'll make it there in record time ♪

- ♪ Oh, here we go… ♪

Okay. We're good. We're good.

I think this is getting deflated
because my ass is literally on the floor.

Mark!

Just in the neighborhood.
Thought I'd drop by.

Ladies, just five minutes.
We'll sit right over here.

Guys, you can chill.
It's not deep. We'll be quick.

Okay.

Oh boy, guys.

I wanna just drop by
and tell you that tonight…

bonfire.

- Great. Excited.
- Okay?

This is the last time you'll see clips
before meeting up with your boyfriends

at the final bonfire.

So hopefully, it'll give you
any remaining insight you need

to determine the ultimate decision
you came to this island to make.

- I'll see you tonight.
- Okay.

- See you later.
- Bye, Mark.

- Bye, guys.
- Bye, Mark.

I'm so tired of these fucking bonfires.

- Fuck.
- No. Another one?

- Jeez Louise.
- We can do this.

♪ On a beautiful day… ♪

Tay hasn't had a consistent connection
from what I've seen,

but I have a couple ideas
of what I might see tonight.

Just have to kinda take it on the chin
and… and just kinda go from there.

♪ And truth is hard to find… ♪

I don't know
what I could possibly see from Shante.

I don't expect her to react
and do something because of what I did,

but if she does, it's valid.

I'm the one that crossed the boundary.
I'm the one that broke the line.

Whatever I see, I deserve.

♪ Shape your life in the darkest nights… ♪

At the end of the day, like, I need
to make the best decision for myself.

A lot of different thoughts
are going through my brain now.

There is grace, forgiveness,
understanding, anger,

and I'm thinking,
"He did that. Why would he do that?"

Like, "Cut him off."

And it's just so many different emotions
that are piling on top of each other.

I legitimately feel like

I have no more tears to shed
over this guy.

It's still a fresh wound

because I've not been able
to get the closure.

Like, "Hey, we're single."

But I expect to see
Tyler riding into the sunset with Kay.

♪ I'll be rooting ♪

♪ To know the truth ♪

♪ Like a sunset on a beautiful day… ♪

Good to see all four of you.

You know the drill here.
It's time to look at some clips.

Now remember,
this is the last time you'll see clips

before meeting up with your boyfriends
at the final bonfire.

- We're gonna start with you, Shante.
- Okay.

- Okay?
- Mm-hmm.

I kinda, like, thought about it
and, like, our date situation.

I feel like I don't agree with
a lot of things that you've done,

which, you know, it's your journey…

Mm.

…and just I feel like,
for me, like, for example,

you said you didn't cheat on her,
but you did.

Wow.

Well, here.

Yeah, exactly, and you've been telling me
you've been together this whole time,

so that would be you cheating on her.

The thing is,
you gotta separate, like, the real world

from what's going on here. You know?

Yeah. So you're basically, like, picking
and choosing when you wanna be single.

I'm a big girl's girl.
You know what I mean?

And it's hard for me
to want to spend that time with you

when I, like,
know this certain information

if that makes sense.

- Yeah, that's no problem.
- Yeah, so… yeah.

So I'm just… I'm gonna decline the date.

I feel like
he just doesn't take responsibility

for anything that he does.

Right now it's all
about him, him, him, him, him.

Good for her.

- It's getting me happy.
- That was really good.

Hm. What did you like that you heard?

I'm glad she stood up for herself,
and she didn't wanna be put in a position

where she felt like
she was gonna feel uncomfortable

or anything like that,
so I'm proud of her for doing that.

How does that feel
that that's your boyfriend?

It sucks.

Remind me what the rules were
that you guys said when you came here.

No kissing
or any sexual boundaries crossed,

and that obviously happened,
and someone is calling him out on it.

So now that it has happened,

I, like, don't even know
how to mourn it or figure it out.

- Okay.
- Because this experience is just hard.

Uh, one of the things
I really admire in you

is your grace and your poise.

- Mm-hmm.
- This strength that I see…

Will this same strength
be there when he's here

to stand your ground
like she stood her ground?

He's gonna… He's gonna see
some strength from me

'cause it's gonna be
a rough conversation with him.

He's gonna have to face the truth
of what he's done, how he's acted.

Okay.

Ashley.

- Hi.
- Let's watch, and let's talk about it.

- Oh my gosh.
- I wrote you a letter too.

This is so sweet.

"I wanna start
this moment by telling you

how beautiful, sweet,
and amazing I think you are."

Oh my God.

"I can't tell you how much I appreciate
your patience and respect for me

as I've navigated
this crazy, crazy experience."

"You've shown me
the kind of love I really do yearn for."

"I'm excited
to continue to learn more about you

and really see where this thing goes."

Oh my gosh, Grant.

- That's so sweet. Thank you.
- You're welcome.

- I really appreciate this.
- Mm-hmm.

This is so cute.

Um…

I think he jumps from girl to girl

without acknowledging
what he's leaving behind.

- Did you get a message from him?
- Yeah.

Can you share with me
the gist of it?

Honestly, the message felt like
a waste of time.

He took no responsibility for his actions.

And the whole objective
of us coming here was for him to prove

that he wouldn't cheat on me, and he did.

So, to send me a message

and tell me that it's heartbreaking
to hear how I talk about him

is crazy to me.

But what I'm concerned about,
Ashley, is this definition

of what a healthy love relationship is.

And I'm concerned
that you don't necessarily have

a good image of it.

What's your definition of love for you?

I love you.

I'm not trying to upset you.

- I'm trying to free you.
- I know.

Look, okay? Here's the thing.

I'm gonna say to you from here.

You are tough,
and you're protecting yourself.

And you should because you've been hurt,
and there is a level that you deserve.

And this right now,
what you're feeling and not saying,

this lets you know you want it.

Okay?

I'm proud of you.

- We good?
- Mm-hmm.

Alexa, you ready?

Mm-hmm. Yeah.

Let's take a look.

For me, I gotta test myself.

- Again?
- Always.

- Stop dipping the straw in it like that.
- Why? You don't like it?

I mean, I like it, but…
there's some intent behind that.

I don't think so.

Someone needs to put me to bed
before I make bad decisions.

He came here to test himself
and to know if he wants to be with me,

and I'm… I'm really, really hoping
that when we come back together,

we can realize that.

And sure, there's
that little seed of doubt.

Like, "What happened on their date?
Did he make bad decisions?"

But I'm just trying to remind myself

of the words
that he told me in my video message.

Which were?

"There's only one Lino,
and there's only one Alexa."

That's very romantic.

I wanna see that from him.

I wanna see
the actions outside of this from him.

So let's say that things work out for you.

The final bonfire goes
the way you hope it does.

I don't think you're the same girl
that was in the relationship beforehand,

and I'm hoping
he's not the same guy that was.

Do you have the tools now

to arrest it there
and have a different way of communicating?

A lot of our disagreements
or issues that we've been having

stem from things that I needed
to work on by myself as well.

I've had this guilt
looming over me for so long,

and I bring that into my relationship.

- It predates Lino. Yeah, a little bit.
- Yeah.

The guilt from before Lino
and the guilt at the beginning of Lino.

Maybe it's not an "us" problem.
It's an individual problem.

Um, I think that's
some really incredible work you've done.

Thank you.

Okay, we're gonna move on.

Tayler, here we go.

All right. Anything you wanna
let go of as we wash this off?

I have a few things I wanna let go of.

I think the first thing I wanna wash off
and kinda get rid of is just the heaviness

and all the stress
that's come from my previous relationship.

And that way, uh, out with the old
and possibly in with the new, so…

I love that.

Oh, Kay.

The thought of falling in love again

is just, you know, terrifying.

And I do feel like with Kay,
I'm definitely at the precipice right now.

I'm happy for him.
That's all I have to say.

- I mean, he's falling in love.
- Cool. Now tell me what you really feel.

I feel empty. Like, I…
I literally have, like, no emotion.

I just feel like I've gained a lot more.

I initially came into this experience
thinking that this was for Tyler,

and I really see, in the end,

it was kinda for me all along

to learn more about myself,
to get outside of my comfort zone.

So I feel like I'm really proud of myself,
and I couldn't have done it

without the support
of these beautiful ladies.

Do you feel that when you leave

that you're gonna be leaving the island
in a, um, better place or worse place

at the end of the day?

A better place, for sure.

- Then that's a win.
- Mm-hmm.

Okay. Our time is coming to an end.

The next time you're here,

it will be you
and the guy you came to this island with.

You're gonna make
your final decision.

Whether you're gonna
leave the island together as you came,

leave the island with somebody else,
or leave alone.

Now, let's talk about
what happens between now and then.

You're also gonna have a chance
to have one final intimate overnight date

with the gentleman
that you select from your villa

that you wanna spend time with.

The one person that you really,
through all of this process,

feel the most connected to.

Those who aren't selected go home.

Since there's no more bonfire,

what happens on your final date
is your truth.

It won't be shown to anybody else.

And the next time we're here,

you'll be reunited with the person
you came to the island with,

and then make decisions
about what your future will be. Okay?

Mm-hmm.

- All right. That's all. Good night.
- Thanks, Mark.

Obviously, more is happening
in his experience

that I'm not even aware of
for people to feel disrespected.

I shouldn't have to put up with that,
so do I just bounce, or do I stick it out?

I don't know what's going on,
and this final bonfire, talking to him,

I… I don't know
if I'm gonna get an honest answer.

♪ Why is blame always shifting ♪

♪ And nobody owning their part?… ♪

I hate that my head
just keeps spiraling

and thinking he, like,
isn't ready to commit to me.

♪ Is there really freedom
If you stay blind from the start?… ♪

When I see Tyler,
it's going to make me emotional.

It is hard to look someone in the face
that you've loved for two and a half years

that… that has chosen
to walk away from you,

but I think I have to find a way
to fall out of love with him

and back in love with myself.

♪ I hold back all of the reasons ♪

♪ That I can't say what I'm feeling… ♪

I thought he genuinely cared for me
and, like, saw a future with me.

Like, I'm sad because this is
how he lives his life. Like…

That's the type of man he is.

And, like,
I don't even think he sees it.

Like, I was like, "It's just sad."

I hope he recognizes it
because he's left so much, like, disaster

in his relationships.

I thought he could change.
I thought he could be better.

He's just not.

♪ Find a way to the light
When we're fighting ♪

♪ The darkness inside ♪

♪ Oh, I'm tired ♪

♪ Of drawing these lines ♪

♪ That I never wanted ♪

♪ But you make it hard to believe… ♪

What's up, fellas?

- What's up?
- What's going on, Mark?

All right, guys. Welcome.
This will be the final time

you'll see clips of what's been happening
on the other side of the island.

Next time you come here in a few days,
it'll be to meet up with your girlfriends

and personally share
how this experience has been for you

and to make the biggest decision
in your relationship.

Yeah.

Grant, my man.

- You ready? Let's take a look.
- Yeah. I'm ready.

I've obviously
taken you on several dates now,

so, I'm very into you.

I'm just glad that you're here.

- Me too. Thank you.
- So, thank you.

- I'm good, Mark. Thank you.
- It's okay, man.

That was terrible
to watch… …obviously,

uh, but she's moved on as have I.

She made it clear that she moved on
when she didn't send me a message,

and it's just a relief that this is over.

Now that you've seen her
having a connection,

you feel a sense of sadness and relief.

Why do you feel relief?

Don't be the good guy on paper.
Be the honest guy right now.

I feel relief because I've known
that I didn't completely want it,

that I was forcing it because I thought
it was the right thing to do,

and it was wrong.

And I should've cut it off
a long time ago.

How does that feel
coming out of your mouth?

I've known it.
It just hasn't come out.

Wanna talk about why it hasn't come out?

To get really honest with it.

I think everyone
in my family has stayed together.

My parents are still together.
My aunt and uncle are still together.

And I felt that it was… I was trying
to prove something to the rest of them

that I could make it work no matter what.

Trying to make it work
and not admitting that it's not working.

"If it falls apart,

it's her fault for not forgiving you"

is what's come out of your mouth.

Yeah.

We tend…

We, as humans,
tend to just point a finger,

but ownership of your part of it

is a really great start
to practice with anyone.

Yeah.

And then, you at least part being thankful
for what you taught each other.

I can appreciate that.

Let's talk about the connections
you made while you've been here

and how it's played out for you,
if there's been something to gain or not.

What have you learned about yourself
through Natalie?

I guess I've learned that, uh…

…I'm easily blinded
by rose-colored glasses.

Okay.

That's called looking at the truth
instead of pretending everything's cool.

It's painful as hell,
and… and I don't know how it ends up

because life is messy,
but I… I appreciate that.

- Thanks.
- Yeah.

Lino.

Let's take a look.

I came here with the intention

of making my relationship
with my boyfriend stronger.

I wanted him to get some clarity

and figure out if it was me
that he really wanted forever.

Mm.

But it's almost,
in a way, given me clarity that…

that I want him just as much, if not more.

And so my intention has kinda shifted
to wanting our relationship to work

to wanting me
to discover more about myself.

I finally feel like I'm doing just that,

and I'm learning to be
a more confident, strong woman

that I never thought I was.

I'm grateful that she's been discovering
those things about her

that she obviously was lacking.

I'm glad that she feels empowered
and confident in herself,

and… …I'm glad
that she has a support system there.

You expressed in your video message to her

obviously something
that made her feel pretty okay.

Yeah, I… I was giving her
reassurance that there was only one me

and that I've come to realize
there's only one Alexa.

Let's talk about your relationship before

and, if you guys decide to stay together,
what it might look like beyond this.

Yeah.

And I'm just remembering
what the original complaints were.

What would you say
is the thing you learned?

Coming in here, obviously,

some of that resentment and trust issues
came from a place inside of me.

That feeling of inadequacy,
second choice, holding those resentments,

holding anything above her is something
that I needed to abolish from…

…myself in order to move on
and truly commit myself.

And I was given,
quote, unquote, "a hall pass,"

but having the power
and the ability to use it or not use it

actually made me so proud of myself.

And I put myself in a situation
where I want to be tempted

and I want to decide whether
I truly want to take this hall pass, or…

if I don't, I also am happy with that,

and I came to those conclusions
and got those answers.

Okay.

Tyler, you ready?

- Tea time.
- All right, let's take a look.

With everything
you have going on now…

Yeah.

…and now me being in the picture,

what does that look like?

It gives me something to look forward to,
honestly, something exciting

because I feel that this whole experience

coming to this island, I got
exactly what I came here to get plus some.

Yeah, I'm happy.

You know, I feel like we have both gotten
a lot of answers that we were looking for

because it was very difficult for us,
you know, leading up to this process

and trying to make it work,

especially me getting out of a marriage
and, you know, losing someone

which I didn't want to happen.

We definitely got together
at probably an inappropriate time.

- I was not the man I needed to be.
- Okay, I'll buy that.

I thought I could be
very vulnerable with her

and work with her through that,

but there was
a lot of difficulties that showed up.

So, coming here,
we were definitely looking for answers

if this is something
that we need to keep fighting for

or, you know,
something that we need to give up.

I don't know
what her perspective is on that,

but, um, just a lot
going through my mind, so…

Let's give you some grace.

You got in a relationship young.

You, by your own words,
have not had a lot of experience

as it comes to relationships.

That relationship took its course
into a painful place.

Mm-hmm.

Not a lot of grass grew under your feet
before a new relationship formed…

No grass.

…with someone you felt
a deep connection with.

You guys obviously have
a lot of fire, you and Tayler.

You know, that stuff was there,

so there was enough reason
for you to keep trying to make that work.

Of course.

But the lesson here is
forget why you said you came here.

What does your heart
now tell you the reason is

why you and Tayler are here?

Well, after seeing that clip,

you know, her reason
might be, you know, to find a connection

that's really fitting
for her journey in life,

and I feel like
I haven't really fit that mold.

And that's kinda
what I'm battling with right now.

The good news is
life continues after you leave here.

- Thank God.
- So we'll keep figuring shit out.

- Yeah.
- Okay?

And tell me what you're discovering
with your connection with Kay.

The connection with Kay is… is exciting.

You know, it's like
that honeymoon stage feeling, you know,

which is awesome,

but I'm not wanting a situation
that's really overlapping here,

and so I'm just wondering how I need
to make decisions and make moves

and to protect myself
and also to protect these two individuals.

When you get honest
and say stuff to Tayler

and without pointing fingers or accusing,

take responsibility of it
to then say, "This is what I've learned."

It's a respectful thing to do.

That's what we learn to do as real men,
is that we treat women with respect.

We navigate the river
a little bit better that way.

- You know what I mean?
- Yeah. Love it.

Brion, your turn, okay?

- Sounds good.
- Let's go.

I love him so much, and I just, like…

wanted him to be, like, my husband,
father of my children, all the things, so…

I'm definitely blindsided.

I don't wanna, like, sit here
and wait for him to do more stupid shit

if there's no remorse.

I don't even wanna
fucking write in my journal anymore

because I was writing to him.

I'm over here
with his fucking necklace on,

with his fucking earrings on,
looking stupid.

We literally talk about how, like…
…proud our kids were gonna be

because of us.

I was like,
"How can I show my children that?"

Yeah, it definitely…

I think that's two weeks back-to-back

where it really shows
what I've done to hurt her.

Um…

You know, I want to be
a husband that she can be proud of.

How I started, it was a lot of,

"Shante doesn't do this.
Shante doesn't do that."

"Shante could do more of this."

And on this journey,
I've realized Brion has been the issue,

and Brion has been the problem,

and Brion has a lot of shit
he has to work on.

Taking ownership of… of your actions

and validating what she says
is a really strong place to be.

I… I admire that.

How do you feel about her feeling
that you haven't shown remorse?

- What would you say to that?
- Um…

It sucks that it had to be
me going through it

and touching, you know, the fire

to realize I don't want that in my life.

I've replayed that last week's bonfire
in my head a thousand times.

I've never seen her like that.

What do you think about
the fact that you've never…

you've seen this girl,
who's your partner, that way?

I haven't given her a safety outlet
to be that open and that emotional.

When you think back on it,
it's like that's a terrible way to be.

And why is it a terrible way?
Why is that response a terrible way to be?

- It's showing her feelings aren't valid.
- What do you think that's about?

Well, I think for me,
I mean, just the way I was raised.

Like, my parents were on drugs. Um…

I was taken out of my home
at two years old.

Grandparents couldn't take care of me.
Grandma left. Abused in the foster system.

Tough childhood growing up,
being a Black guy in a white family.

Left my house at 17 years old.

Lived with my best friend.
Went to college by myself.

And it's tough driving yourself to college
with all your shit packed, you know?

Um, and all those things,
they made me who I am today,

to be an independent young man,
to be strong.

You know, that all shapes you
at the end of the day.

There is a world of information
that you just shared.

What I'm gonna say to you is
there's no way for you to know

if you've had no model of it.

And from childhood,

you've had people leave you,
disappoint you, show bad behavior,

not support you all this time.

How would you know how to respect

if no one has modeled for you or shown you

or told you
that you matter and you're safe?

Because the only person
you can count on is who?

- Is myself.
- There you go.

And how do you have a relationship
if that's the only way you know how to be?

- You can't.
- You can't.

- What are you feeling right now?
- A weird feeling of relief.

I don't know. It's just…
It's… It's a… It's a weird feeling.

You're good, bro.

It's a weird feeling. I don't know
how to express it right now, but…

- I guess I gotta talk to a lot of people.
- Or just one person.

Yeah.

Also, listen to this.

She doesn't feel safe
to let that emotion show in front of you.

Right.

I'm gonna suggest there's a part of you
that you just showed me

that she hasn't seen either.

Yeah.

And what makes a woman love her man
and think he's the greatest thing

more than him breaking down in her arms?

That's called intimacy.

You're just tapping into
this emotional thing you show no one,

and I'm suggesting to you

that's the first thing to show
to the person you want to show it to.

- Are you okay?
- Mm-hmm.

- Yeah.
- Okay.

Let's talk about
what's going on from here going forward.

The next time we're here,

you'll be reunited with
the person you came to the island with.

You'll make your final decision
about how you want to leave the island.

You can leave together,
alone, or with someone else.

- Okay?
- Mm-hmm.

In the meantime, it's time to select
your final overnight dates.

I suggest you pick the one
that you have the deepest connection with.

The one that's helped you the most
and can help you the most.

Those who are not selected
to go on a date go home. Okay?

That's all I have. Good night, gentlemen.

Enjoy your time back at the villa.
I'll see you soon.

- That's great. Thank you.
- Thank you, Mark. Appreciate it.

- Group hug.
- Group hug? All right.

We need a group hug here first.

- Bye, guys.
- See ya, guys.

- I'm down low.
- Love you guys.

- ♪ You've been out too many times before ♪

♪ You deserve better… ♪

Just, like, reflecting right now
just on my other relationships.

You know, I hurt some people.

So, all that, um…

You know, being rude to Shante.

She wanted me to be a husband,

and hopefully,
I can still make that happen,

but I gotta do better for sure.

♪ Let me be the one to treat you right ♪

♪ I wanna make you smile… ♪

When I see Ashley in person, I know
we're gonna have to have this conversation

and, you know, make my apology,

but it doesn't feel good to know

that she's finding a safe place
in someone else that's not me.

Nothing feels good about it.

Seeing that clip of Tay,
you know, I… I was jealous.

This is not what I was expecting.

I just really underestimated

the amount of change
that could happen here.

And then now, at this final bonfire,

I hope I'm surprised,

but if I'm surprised,
then I'm like, "Well, fuck." You know?

So what am I gonna do then?

♪ I wanna be your hero
Your hero, your hero… ♪

After tonight,

I truly feel like these decisions
that I'm having to make and live with

are all becoming real now,
and I have decided to…

…pop the question.

♪ I wanna be your hero
Your hero, your hero… ♪

I'm choosing her.

♪ I wanna be your hero
Your hero, your hero… ♪

And I know that when I come to her
in the end, we will choose each other.

♪ Your hero, your hero, your hero… ♪

Woo-hoo!

It is time for the final date.

Yeah!

Oh my gosh, the view is so pretty.

I think I will be tempted
by Danny tonight.

It's all becoming so real now.

You came with a question,
"Should we be together…"

I'm sorry.

"…or is there
somebody better for me?"

No, that's okay.

So now you get to answer it.

- Hi.
- Can I have a hug?

No?

Do you wanna leave together?
Do you wanna leave alone?

Or have you connected with somebody new?

Can I have a second?

Absolutely.

♪ Now I wanna run away… ♪

I don't know
what to do anymore.

♪ 'Cause it's tearing us apart… ♪

♪ I'm living life for me, yeah ♪

♪ You're with me or against me, yeah ♪

♪ You give no benefit ♪

♪ And, and I'm so done with it ♪

♪ You cause my mind a risk ♪

♪ And act so damn innocent ♪

♪ You think advice is a gift ♪

♪ 'Cus, 'cus I'm so done with it, yeah… ♪