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Shante, you haven't breathed
since we got here.

Whatever it is,
we can handle together. Let's go.

- Did you already shower? I did.
- No.

I'm putting this right back on.

Hmm.

Oh my gosh.

- Are you talking about me?
- No.

How far
are you actually willing to go?

I guess we just start slow, huh?

That's really up to y'all.

I like to watch before I indulge.

Yo, it's daylight.

- No, it's not.
- I swear to God.

The birds are chirping.

Last night was a good night.

I didn't think I'd wake up
with any regret or anything, and I don't.

I think I'm still respecting Shante
at the end of the day.

I think women respect honesty
and being true to yourself.

I think a lot of women would rather…

you know, have someone
just be real and talk to them,

and if they're gonna step out
or whatever, let 'em know.

I don't know really
what I even wanna say, Mark.

It does kinda
make me feel a little dumb, slightly.

Just because I've been so confident
that he's being faithful to me,

and to say
that he doesn't have any regret is sad.

It's hurtful. It's disrespectful.

I don't know.

He's basically saying
that I should be okay with it

because I know
he likes that type of stuff.

Does it make a difference
if it is completely disconnected

from emotion and love?

So I'm a little confused
on how that is not emotionally tied

because he knows
that I'm going to see this.

And I get
that this experience is to pull that out,

but I don't think that in the real world
he would've ever did this to me.

I wanna check in with your heart,
not your head right now.

Yeah, uh, my heart is hurt, obviously.

But that doesn't deserve my tears
right now, if I'm being fully honest.

I'll have time
to mourn it and be sad about it,

but those girls and him right now,
that… that's not deserving of it.

I'm gonna respect that.
It's foreign to me.

- Mm-hmm.
- You process emotion differently.

I do hear you.

Again, this is your head talking
less… less than your heart.

Okay. We made it through another one
together, and you're all in one piece.

When you get back, there will be a change.

The haven is gone.

As you think about
everything you've seen so far,

I'd like you to consider
what you would say to your partner

if you could say something.

Because each of you will soon have
a chance to record

a 30-second video message.

You can ask questions. You can reassure.

You can vent.

You think about all the possibilities
and use it for your best good.

If you don't want to send a message,
you don't have to. The choice is yours.

I also wanna let you know
that I'm giving them the same option,

so there's a possibility
that you're gonna receive a message

and you may not receive a message.

I wish you the best. I'll see you soon.

- Thank you.
- Thanks.

- Thank you, Mark.
- Good night.

♪ …I've been looking for? ♪

♪ Oh, it's been a while ♪

♪ Since I'm almost home ♪

♪ Oh, I'm hiding in this town… ♪

I just am hurt,
so I'm gonna have to process all of that.

I don't know how I'm supposed to continue
to just wonder every friend that he has,

if he's having threesomes with them.

♪ Since I'm almost home ♪

♪ Oh, I'm hiding in this town ♪

♪ In the water and stones… ♪

- Hi, guys.
- Hello.

- Ladies.
- Hello, hello.

Hi. Hmm.

Hello.

- Do you feel stable? Come here.
- Thank you.

- How was it?
- It was okay.

- Oh, well, it was okay for me.
- Mm-hmm.

- And there she was.
- Hi.

- My angel.
- No, not the best.

Not a great night.

- Yeah. How was it?
- Hi.

Oh, he showed his ass. That's fine.

- Wanna talk about it? Wanna talk about it?
- Um… Yeah. Yeah, we can all talk.

I'd love to hear. You were talking?

Yeah, I'll jump right in
because I think hers is a little expected.

Mine is not expected.

- Shante's was bad.
- Mm.

Like, where on the scale? Like…

Brion was in the bathroom with two girls,
and I'm pretty sure they had a threesome.

And then they come out,
and they're, like, looking around.

He's in a towel, and he's like, "Oh,
the birds are chirping. It's morning."

"I didn't think
we all were up till the morning."

I think she's in denial.

When he opened the door,
he had a towel on and no shirt,

and she was naked.

Her whole backside.

Oh my God.

If it was me, I would be in tears,

but she held herself so well,
so you're like, "Why aren't you reacting?"

She's like, "Well, he wouldn't
normally do this if we weren't here."

But we are here, and he did it.

Having a naked girl in your bathroom
is cheating.

If he can do this in front of cameras,
what's he gonna do behind closed doors?

He had no regret for it.

Like, as if that shit's supposed
to just, like, slide off my shoulder,

and I'm supposed to be okay with it.

Like you didn't just,
like, do that in front of the world.

I guess I'm curious to see if he still has
the idea of us being together forever.

I don't know what his thought process was
with any of this,

or if there was a thought process.

It makes no sense to me at all.
Like, why would you do that?

Multiple guys over the past few days
have said, "If we had girlfriends,

we would hope they talk about us
the way you talk about your boyfriend."

And then for me to come back home and say,
"Oh, just kidding. He did this."

- Yeah.
- Yeah.

So… Yeah.

It should just be point-blank, period.

Like, this man disrespected you.
Throw him out the window.

And it's like, when I genuinely say
I don't recognize the guy in that video,

I just don't,

and I… I think that's kind of
what I have to simmer on for a little bit.

The loving, nurturing side of me is like,
"I hate that for him."

Mm.

That's real love,
and that's why you hate it for him.

Yeah, so…

- ♪ All that I want ♪

♪ You're all that I want… ♪

Hey!

Welcome back!

- What up? Hey, hey.
- Hi.

- Hey. Good to see you.
- You too.

- Yeah.
- Hey. Good to see you.

It's shot o'clock!

You look so good.

- Thank you. So do you.
- Thank you.

Yeah!

Ashley was the one.

- Do you think she had sex in there?
- Yeah.

She, like, was all smiley,
lovey-dovey with him,

and I think
I'm gonna just cut it off for good.

I think that's what I need to do. So…

I support you.

Thank you. I appreciate you.

However you need.

Thank you.

The rest of my time here,

I just wanna focus on getting
what I think I need in a relationship

and the love that I deserve.

And I need
to completely disconnect from Ashley

without worrying
about what she's thinking.

- I already decided what I'm doing.
- Really?

I'm sending Ashley
a video tomorrow cutting it off.

Oh, wait. Are you sending a video?

Oh, I'm sending one.
I gotta explain the threesome.

- Did you hear me?
- Oh man!

- Did you hear me?
- Yes, I love to hear that.

- Okay.
- Stand on that.

I am.

- And have fun tonight.
- Okay.

-
- ♪ Let it all fall down ♪

♪ Let it all fall down ♪

♪ Let it all fall… ♪

It was a clip of Grant going into the tent

with the same girl
that he went into the shower with,

and then the next clip
is him in a confessional saying

how he wants things to work between us,
and he could see himself marrying me.

No way!

Oh wait, I forgot to tell you guys.

We have the option to send a video.

- Oh. You gonna do it?
- Damn.

I just… I don't have anything to say.

I think he'll send you one though.

- I don't know.
- I don't know.

That's why I'm saying,
like, after the… I don't know.

It sounds like he will if he's saying,
"I can see myself marrying you."

- I think he'll send one.
- He'll see me with Danny.

Well, he still might send you one.

He's gonna say,
"I can fuck a girl in the shower,

but if Ashley kisses someone,
that's where I draw the line."

Oh.

So do you think
anyone's gonna send a message?

I'm curious if Shante will send a video.

I wanna make sure you're okay.

Because you held yourself so well,
but I know deep down, it hurts.

Yeah.

It's totally up to you, but I don't
even know how to go about your video.

Like, do you question it?

I don't think it's good
to act like everything's fine.

I guess, like,
I could sit here and think,

"Oh, he didn't do it. He just watched."

I don't want that light on him.
That looks so bad.

- He is not a bad person.
- I know.

I love him so much,
and I just, like…

wanted him to be, like, my husband,
father of my children, all the things, so…

It just sucks because…

…I don't wanna, like, sit here
and wait for him to do more stupid shit

if there's no remorse.

I don't even wanna
fucking write in my journal anymore.

Because I was writing to him.

I'm here
with his fucking necklace on,

with his fucking earrings on,
looking stupid.

It's valid to feel stupid,
but I promise you, from the outside,

you look like a strong girl
that was loyal to your man.

Yeah.
We literally talk about how, like…

…proud our kids
were gonna be because of us.

How can I show
my children that?

We'll see. I don't know.

Hurts.

Definitely hurts. Um…
Hurts for a lot of reasons.

It hurts 'cause, like,
I didn't wanna be disrespected like this.

It hurts because,
at the end of the day, I do love him.

I'm not gonna sit here
and talk shit about him

because that's not who I am,

and I think I'm a good woman.

I don't think I deserve
to be disrespected in any type of way.

♪ All your fault burns in my chest ♪

♪ I hope you crawl ♪

♪ Back to me ♪

♪ Crawl… ♪

I guess I'm gonna journal.

Oh, I'll journal with you.

- Do you have an extra pen for me?
- Here.

I'm thinking of…

Of what?

- What?
- Thinking of a love letter.

- A love letter?
- Yeah.

Say "Although
I got my chest licked all over…"

No. "Although I had a threesome…"

You're kidding, right?
What day is it today?

No, I swear I did.

- Here?
- In the shower.

With who?

Uh, Courtney and Alex.

So, you think
your girlfriend's gonna allow that?

It's up to her.
I can't control what she does.

I know in my heart of hearts
I'm glad it happened.

I thought since I was so used to that,
and Shante wasn't bringing that,

I thought that's why
we weren't getting along sexually.

I thought that's why we had problems.

Nope.

I'm just using it as an excuse

because I don't wanna take blame myself
for just being a bad boyfriend.

- Yeah.
- So I'm just saying she's not enough…

sexually, when she really is.

But what I did realize today is,
here's the problem. Here's the problem.

So, Shante, like, if I really try
to, like, go hard, it hurts her. Right?

I feel like, for me, this conversation is
way above my pay grade.

No, it's not. Just listen, bro.

- No, I feel like it is.
- Listen. Listen.

- Okay.
- You're a woman. Just listen.

- Okay. I just--
- You can't be like, "I'm here."

And then not let people talk to you,
right? That's what you're here for.

Okay, I hear you but I feel like
maybe we should have this conversation

in a different setting.

Why?

Just the way
that it can be perceived, I guess.

You're too worried about all this shit.
I can't be real with you.

I'm not here to hide details.

I'm trying to be open and honest

so you can help me
work through some shit.

Just go to bed.

- I mean, I'm willing to listen.
- No, Amiah. No.

- No. No. No. Amiah.
- But I just don't wanna-- I feel uncomfy.

- Don't take all this, "I'm here to--"
- I just feel like--

"I'm here to be this,
and I'm here to be that."

I know. I just feel like--

And then someone just tries to be--
And you're worried about perception?

I stand on what I believe in.
I stand on my boundaries.

I'm not gonna let someone come in

and tell me that I have to sit through
a very uncomfortable situation

because he wants to say that to me,

and I would not consider that
to be a friend

because he did not care
about my comfortability,

and that's not cute,

and it's not
something I wanna be a part of.

- Okay, then go to bed.
- Okay, good night.

All right, bro. Jesus.

People are so fucking weird.

Sorry?

- I said people are weird.
- Whatever, Brion.

Oh my God.
I'm dealing with five-year-olds.

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

- ♪ Oh ♪
- ♪ Oh ♪

♪ In the heat of the battle
Yeah, you know I'm not giving up… ♪

Everything's kinda up in the air
with me and Shante, and, uh, it's tough.

I wish I could tell her
that, you know, I'm not going anywhere,

and I'm more committed to her now
than I was before we came here.

And I guess Mark, last night,
gave us the opportunity to do that.

If I want to,
I can send a 30-second clip to Shante.

But I don't know if me doing that
is gonna be beneficial

based on what she saw last night.

Am I too far gone?

Who knows.

♪ It's too late to love me
It's too late to love me ♪

♪ It's too late to love me now… ♪

- Is Shante open to exploring romantic…?
I'm not talking.

No, she's just gonna
spend the rest of the time grieving.

That's what I was saying. "Thank God
Grant did this in the beginning."

- Yeah, right?
- I'd have been stressing the entire time.

- No you can do whatever your heart wants.
- I want.

But then, like, I feel so sad for him.

Yeah. No, you can't--

Not in a
"I'd ever be with him" way, but just like…

Yeah, you invested
years of your life for this guy.

It sucks.

I'm not sure what I would say
in a video message to Grant.

I don't wanna sit here
and, like, roast him anymore.

I've gone through the anger stage.

It's just weird to think we came here
in high hopes that he would prove himself,

and he didn't,

so it just, like, has me thinking.

I'm just in a weird spot.

What's going on?

I feel like A, I don't exist,
like, in Tyler's mind at all.

It makes me feel like the relationship
that we've worked so hard to build,

even if it's…

Like, shit. Like, it's just not real.

Like, nothing was real.

Yeah.

And I think
it'll be fine if I don't get a video.

- But it still doesn't make me feel good.
- Yeah.

And then it'll probably
make me emotional if I do get a video.

- So, it's like…
- Either way.

I'm taking Ls either way.

You can speak up to me.
I'm here. I'll listen.

No, I know, but the last thing
I wanna do is build our relationship

on the basis of me complaining
about a stupid-ass situation.

True. You know, I am your friend
at the base of it, at the bottom line.

And then, you know,

if things come about
after that, all right, you know, but…

Yeah.

I definitely feel like the video messaging
situation that we have here

is the reason
why I'm kinda having a hard time.

What is he gonna say?

"Yeah, I chose Kay over you.
Have a good life."

It just makes me feel like

all of this work that we've been doing
over the past few years

is just all for nothing,

and he's able to just pick up
and move to the next person.

There we go.

You are hot.

I know.

The sun is really hot today though.

So it seems like
we're feeling better now a little bit?

- Yeah, much.
- A little bit.

You didn't sleep that much either,
so how are you feeling?

Honestly, I feel more awake
than I did yesterday.

Remember how tired I was yesterday?

You were questionable yesterday afternoon.

Yeah.

At the bonfire last night,

you know, for the first time,
I saw Tay happy and kinda being herself,

which was refreshing but also kinda scary.

I'm just kinda ruminating
on how I can be honest with myself

and honest with Tay.

Thinking if I should send a clip
or if I should not send a clip

and what I would say or wouldn't say.

I'm expecting
a huge, huge gesture for our final date.

Will you talk about
that final gesture when I ask you out?

- Yeah.
- Okay, I better get working on that then.

What's up, family?

- What's up?
- Mr. Mark.

How's it going?
Ya, everything good?

Yes, sir, as always.
What's crackin', Mark?

It's like
my anxiety level immediately raises.

Hey, I'm gonna grab the ladies
for a few minutes if that's okay.

- Join me? We're gonna go this way.
- Here we go.

Oh gosh.

How you doin'?

Shit.

Today we have some business
to take care of.

Oh boy.

As we get deeper into this journey,
your connections matter more.

And for you to focus means that you need
to narrow down who you're connecting with.

Oh boy.

So I'm gonna ask you guys
to think about not who you wanna send home

but who you really want to keep.

Each of you think of two guys
that matter to you

and then the four
that have completed their use for you,

we'll let them go home.

- Make sense?
- Yeah.

Let's get the guys. Bring 'em down here.

Gentlemen, thank you.
We'll have you come right over here.

Why do they look
so much more attractive now?

Okay. Thanks, guys.

As we go further
into this experience here on the island,

connections matter.

Ultimately, we're gonna end up with eight
of you gentlemen being asked to stay

and four of you, we'll say goodbye.

And that's their choice.

Okay?

We'll start with Alexa.

My first pick is Max.

He is my bestie.

- Okay. Congratulations.
- Thank you, sir.

I feel like
Max is a good person to help me.

He has kept my mind stable.

When I want it to keep running, he says,

"Alexa, let's take a few steps back
and remember why you're here."

Tayler.

- I would like to keep Mr. Ya.
- Hey.

I think he has
a really charismatic attitude.

He is just a bright light
in this house and super fun to be around.

Okay. Shante.

I'm gonna pick Hashim.

What is it about Hashim
that made you wanna keep him?

Um, Hashim and I have become
pretty good friends so far.

He brings a really good energy
to our house.

All right. Miss Ashley.

This one's a little obvious,
but we'll keep Danny.

Okay.

He's just so kind. Everything's light,
and I'm just really comfortable with him.

Uh, we're gonna go back to you, Alexa.

My second pick is Gio.

Happy.

At first, Gio scared me
'cause he reminded me so much of Lino.

Thank you.

But I found comfort and safety
in our friendship. I love him to death.

Love you too.

Let's get another pick.
Who do you wanna keep, Tay?

I think I'm going to pick Case.

The conversations that we've had
are super intellectual

and about the bigger picture,
the journey of life,

and I think that that's really special.

It's not surface-level,
and I just appreciate him.

Great.

Shante.

I'm going with Dan.

He's just been a gem to all of us.

- Love you.
- We love you.

- All right, Ashley, your pick.
- Logan.

Okay.

A little nervous for a second there.

Thanks for the last pick.
I like the last pick.

If I could just put Logan
and Danny together and just make one,

I think that would work perfectly for me.

Gentlemen, let me take a moment
to thank you

for all that you've contributed
while you've been here.

You've come to the end of your journey.
Travel home safely and all the best.

And then there were eight.

All right, ladies,
two more big decisions to make.

Today is date selection time.

Once again, take the person you're feeling
the strongest connection with

or the person who's helping you
through this journey the most.

And then tomorrow,

you'll have the opportunity
to send a video message

to the person
you came to this island with.

Now let's talk about tonight.

I kinda think
y'all should get out of the house.

We outside?

Outside, the whole group heading
somewhere to have a little…

…fun.

- Finally!
- Hell yeah.

All right, I'm out. Have a great time,
and I'll see you guys soon.

Thank you, Mark.

- We outside, ladies.
- Woo!

Group hug! Group hug. Group hug.

My boys!

Can we have a group hug?

♪ Pick up from where we left off ♪

♪ Yeah, you take me higher
Than I've ever been… ♪

- Oh shoot.
- Oh.

- Kay.
- Marky Mark.

Hi, guys.

I need to talk to my guys
for just a few minutes,

and then I'll call you back out.

Good luck.

- Decisions.
- We'll see you soon.

So we got some business to do today.

It's time to narrow the focus.

I'm gonna ask
you guys each to think of two names,

two of the women
that you'd like to keep in the house.

We'll invite those to stay,

and ones who aren't invited,
we'll… we'll send 'em home.

- Got it?
- Got it.

All right. Let's bring 'em in.

Right now I've asked the guys to continue

to focus their attention
on people they're really connecting with.

So, at this point, we're gonna find out

which ones of you
have completed your journey

and are gonna get to go home.

So, Tyler, tell us who the first person is
you'd like to keep here in the house.

It might be a surprise to hear this

but Kay.

- Shocker.
- What? Are you serious?

This is such a shock.

Honestly, it's the strongest connection
I've made here,

and Kay inspires me,
and, you know, she's just a lovely girl.

To keep it short.

All right. Um, Brion, who would you like
to keep here in the house?

Uh, Angel.

What's it about Angel?
Why'd you want her here?

On the date,
she asked some challenging questions

which I liked.

All right, Grant.

I have to pick Natalie.

Can you tell me briefly why Natalie?

The most bubbliest, adorable girl
that I've met in a really long time.

I mean, incredible.

You're a pleasure.

All right, Lino, who'd you like to ask
to stay here house a little longer?

So, I'm gonna go with Nikki.

- Aw.
- Nikki has a great spirit.

She's always bright-smiled,

and she's never said anything
that's not positive.

- True.
- Aw.

So we'll go back to Tyler.

I would like to keep Mel.

Mel!

- All right, Brion.
- Um…

My archnemesis, Amiah.

Her hips don't lie.

Okay.

No?

Me and Amiah have a great,
healthy loving-hating relationship.

Um, but she challenges me.

Keep the good vibes, so…

- Well, congratulations.
- Thank you.

- All right. Grant.
- I'm gonna choose Alex.

- Tell me why, Grant.
- I think that she has a lot of fun.

We always have good banter. She brings
a lot of good energy to the house.

Okay. One more name.

- Lino.
- Olivia S.

Okay. And why Olivia S?

All of the guys, myself included, believe
that she's always here for a good time,

and she's a great sport.

She beats us at all our games, so…

All right. Gentlemen, thank you.

The eight of you,
thank you for being the support they need.

That's why you're still here.

And to the four of you,

your contribution to the house,
to their experience is not insignificant.

It was important. Travel safe. All right.

- Thank you.
- Love you.

- Bye, you guys.
- Bye, girls.

- Bye.
- Bye.

I did not see
this elimination coming whatsoever.

I'm genuinely shocked.

I really thought
that me and Brion had something going,

but it's… I mean,
it's clear now that I guess we didn't.

Yeah, Courtney's cool.
I love Court, but… I'm good.

And I'm glad
I can go back now and be like,

"Shante, you don't gotta worry
about that."

Coming up soon, gentlemen, another date.

You need to think about
who you'd like to invite on those dates.

Make sure you ask her out,
and if she says yes, then you got a date.

Okay? And tomorrow,
before your dates are video messages,

so think about what, if anything,
you'd like to say to your girlfriends.

And let's talk about tonight.

I think now might be a good time
to have a break, get out of the villa.

- Okay!
- Ooh!

You guys can let down your hair
and enjoy the night.

Take a little of the pressure off.
Have fun. I'll see y'all later. Bye.

- ♪ We're gonna live it up tonight ♪

♪ Everything's all right ♪

♪ Can't fight the way I'm feeling…♪

Let's do it!

Yeah!

Where are we going?

This way to the bar?

Sadly, we had to let
four ladies go tonight.

- And out of, uh…
- Solidarity.

- Yeah, honestly.
- And respect.

- We're wearing black.
- Out of memory, you know?

- Final 12.
- Yes.

Final 12!

Let's go. Cheers.

So, we're gonna take
the best of the best, all that remain,

and have some fun tonight and celebrate,
um, pretty much the final stretch.

Yeah, we're gonna get lit.

You honestly are my favorite in the house.

Really?

Like, for my journey,
you're a big part of it, you know?

Like, I feel like
you really do have a purpose here.

- Yeah. Yeah.
- And you're needed here for me.

I feel like
you still haven't understood the fact

that I don't feel you respect me.

I cannot even try to be friends with you
if I don't feel like you respect me.

- I do respect you.
- But I don't see it.

How do I show you?

By being respectful
and not calling me "weird."

- You're not weird. Are we okay?
- So we're cool?

- Are we okay?
- Yes!

So, would you go
on a date with me tomorrow?

Yeah. I'd love to.

- You'd love to?
- Yeah.

♪ Can you catch my drift? ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Can you catch my drift?… ♪

- I'm excited to hang out with you again.
- I am too.

I've learned…

so much through you and your confidence

in your relationship with Lino.

Aw.

- I think the world of you. I really do.
- Max, stop!

I'm gonna cry.

You gotta just stop
doubting yourself with things.

- Because you have no reason to.
- Yeah.

I mean, your relationship,
how you handle things,

you're just an overall great person.

Thank you.

Because you're my best friend here,
I wanted to ask

if you'd go on a date with me.

- Are you serious?
- Serious.

- Yeah!
- Okay, we're gonna go.

- We're gonna go. We're gonna go. Cheers.
- We're gonna-- Cheers.

- I love you, Max.
- I love this.

- I love you.
- I'm grateful for this friendship.

Love you.

- My bestie.
- Aw.

- ♪ Tonight, tonight, tonight ♪

♪ In the right place
At the right time… ♪

Cheers.

Cheers.

So, obviously, after today,
some decisions were made.

- Do you wanna go on the next date with me?
- Date number two?

- Number two.
Yeah.

-

I think both Alex and I are flirty people.

This whole journey is
about exploring connections,

and I feel the most comfortable with her.

The least amount of expectations.
There's just an attraction there.

For me, I gotta test myself.

- Again?
- Always.

- Stop dipping the straw in it like that.
- Why? You don't like it?

I mean, I like it, but…
there's some intent behind that.

I don't think so.

No?

All right, someone needs to put me to bed
before I make bad decisions.

You feel me? You feel me?

I don't know if this is intentional
or if it's who you already were,

but my love language is acts of service,

and I feel like that is the number one way
I feel like you show me, like… affection.

- I hate that word.
- No, it is… I mean, it is affection.

That, like, means so much to me.
You don't even understand.

From what I'm used to
over the past two years,

you know, I do wanna be honest with you,

and I do feel like you, personally,
to me, are a risk worth taking,

you know, and that does
make me feel vulnerable. You know?

- I wanna be honest with you about that.
- Me too.

I'm hoping
that you'll take another risk with me

and go on a date with me tomorrow.

- Hmm…
- Just say yes, please.

- Yeah, of course.
- Thank you.

I can't wait.

It's gonna be fun.

I feel like I'm leaning
more into a potential relationship,

and I am considering
asking Kay to leave the island with me,

which is wild to say out loud,

but life is about being vulnerable,
you know, and taking risks.

I mean,
cheers to risks worth taking.

I love that.

Uh-oh.

Trouble.

Uh, give me one more.

- ♪ Falling for you ♪

♪ Floating in your eyes… ♪

You seem like
you're a lot more relieved now.

I'm intrigued, obviously,
but also, I'm a little nervous.

- Nervous? Why?
- I don't know. You make me nervous.

A, I haven't dated in forever,

so I feel like
building a romantic connection is scary.

- In general.
- True.

The physical affection scares me too

because I'm not gonna sit here
being a hypocrite.

Like, Tyler's over there
doing whatever he's doing,

and I am not that type of person,

but it's like
I'm showing so much restraint too,

and I know I don't have to.

Being around you,
it's hard for me not to want to…

- To what?
- Be affectionate.

- You can be as affectionate as you want.
- No. No. No.

- What? Huh?
- I can't. I can't.

Why can't you?

I don't know.
I don't want any more hurt.

I don't wanna, like, open myself up
and be vulnerable, I guess, in that way,

and I think that's
what I'm working through in real time.

With me
just getting out of a relationship,

I'm not gonna
just dive right in headfirst.

I don't think
that that would be fair to Yamen,

but there's definitely
some romantic vibes,

and I just want
to continue deepening our connection.

I really do enjoy
spending time with you.

Like, you being here

really does amplify my experience, 100%.

I just love your energy.
I love being around you.

I feel like
you're teaching me so much about myself.

And I wanna continue moving forward,

and I wanted to know

if you wanted to go on
another date with me.

I would love to.

- Yeah. Yeah, of course.
- Good.

It's nice to, uh…
to get some, um, reassurance.

You know, I'm like,
"Okay, what's going on here?"

"I'm not tripping.
There's something cooking here."

- A hundred percent. What?
- That makes me happy.

♪ If we're gonna fly ♪

♪ We gotta learn to fall… ♪

So we have another date coming up.

- I would love to take you on the date.
- Really?

- Would you like to go on a date with me?
- I would love to.

- Yeah?
- Mm-hmm.

Can I have a kiss now?

Mm?

- Let's talk about your boyfriend.
- I don't have a boyfriend.

I traded one piece of shit
for, like, 200 pounds of gold.

Gold.

It was a joke at first.
Like, "Oh, my two boyfriends."

Like, "They're my… They're besties."

- But, like, you actually are.
- Yeah.

- And now it's like, "What have I done?"
- Yeah.

You're gonna have to pick somebody
at the end of it, you know?

- Right. Right, right, right.
- Mmm.

Like, I love both of you.
Not in, like, that way, but like…

- Okay.
- Oh, okay.

Thank you so much
for getting me through this.

I don't know.

You guys have both done so much
for me to get to the point I'm at. Like…

I've been through some shit here.

And I'm just, like,
very happy that I have two good men

to show me, like, what I deserve.

Thank you. It means a lot.

The real reason,
you know, like, this is all okay

is because we're here
to make you feel better,

and that's all we want.

Endgame is for you to be happy.

And, like, I appreciate that,
but that's also, like, concerning.

Like, is that… Like, what do you want?

Oh.

- Yeah, Danny, what do you want?
- I want you. That's what I want.

Okay, Danny.

Okay.

- ♪ This is what I'm waiting for ♪

- ♪ This is what I'm waiting for ♪
- ♪ Waiting for… ♪

Last night was a lot of fun,

but this morning, I'm feeling anxious.

Um, I think the message that I'll receive
will answer a lot of questions

on how she's feeling.

I know I fucked up,
but, you know, how will she take it?

Um, is it too little, too late?

We'll see about this video
and, uh, see where it goes from here.

♪ Words ♪

♪ You don't know how much they can hurt ♪

♪ I skinned up my hands
Digging through all your dirt ♪

♪ You tell me
That you're not gonna break my heart… ♪

If Grant was smart,
he wouldn't send me a video

because there's nothing to say.

Our typical pattern would be
I watch him fuck up time and time again,

but he always tries to come back.

What's different this time is,
like, obviously I'm trying to move on,

so… I don't know.

- Ashley.

I feel heartbroken

by the way that you've talked about me
and the way that you've treated me.

I've only focused on your feelings
and have neglected my own

because I felt responsible
for breaking you.

And, as a man, I felt like
it was my responsibility to fix it.

I'm a good man.

I'm a good father,

and I deserve
to be loved the way that I need.

But I forgive you,

and finally, I forgive myself.

Whether or not
we make it out of here together or not,

I just want us to be happy.

I love you, Ashley.

I do.

♪ I don't wanna get lost one more time… ♪

I do feel bad for the way
I've been talking about him.

That was my stage of anger.

I'm not saying
it was the best way to do it,

but it's not a comparable thing

to say that I talked some shit,
but you can cheat on me.

I love him too,
but I'm not in love with him,

and I can't keep tolerating
this behavior in my life.

So, like, going forward,

I'm just gonna enjoy
my time here and figure out what I want.

♪ And my heart is stuck in the middle ♪

♪ I'm so wrapped up in the middle… ♪

I am feeling scared and anxious
because I don't know what I'm gonna see.

I've been trying to grow here.

This isn't easy.

I have this girl I've been fighting for
for a year and a half,

and I'm learning
that she might not be the one,

so… what are we fighting for?

I don't know.

♪ And my heart says
This is a losing game ♪

♪ It only ends one way… ♪

It hurt. It sucked.

But I think Ashley is hurt,

and she doesn't really know
how to navigate those feelings,

and I can't give her anything more.

She's choosing
to not let go of the resentment.

She's choosing not to move forward,

so the silence
speaks louder than words here.

There it is.

♪ I can't say I really knew what to do ♪

♪ But I can't pull myself through ♪

♪ The fights, the tears, the pain ♪

♪ This is a losing game… ♪

♪ Don't make me wait ♪

♪ Don't make me wait all night… ♪

It's been a long journey.

It's been up and down,
but I miss Alexa so much,

and I think seeing Alexa is
definitely gonna help me get past

these last lingering doubts I have.

Lino, first off,
I love you and miss you so much.

Amid all of the other boys being disloyal,

you have been the trustworthy man
that I've been preaching about,

and I'm grateful to call you mine
in front of the entire world.

I hope you're gaining
the clarity you need over there,

but, selfishly, I hope
that clarity does lead back to me.

I trust you,
and you've always been my first choice,

but I still don't know
if you can fully trust me.

I hope to see some growth from both of us
at the end of this journey,

and I love you so, so much.

I'm always looking to challenge myself,

whether it be my mind,
my body, my relationship,

but when temptation is
actually in front of you,

the thought of sacrificing my relationship

or sacrificing my love…

… for Alexa…

…would be the worst decision I ever make.

I truly love Alexa.

I just don't know
why I haven't been secure

in feeling committed
to her and willing to…

…propose to her.

♪ You are my one… ♪

I think Lino
sent me a message because despite all of

whatever's going on over there,

I know Lino loves me before any of this.

I just wanna see his voice
and hear him, like, talk to me,

not to another girl.

Alexa, I love you and miss you
more and more every day.

This journey has been
an emotional rollercoaster.

I hope that you can see
the growth that I've taken,

and I hope
that you're making meaningful connections,

but please remember there's only one me,

and I've come to realize
there's only one Alexa.

-
- I love you so much.

I love you, Lino.

I miss you so much.

♪ I already have it all ♪

♪ I already have it all… ♪

Just seeing him
and hearing his voice

and him reassuring me

was everything that I needed.

- ♪ I already have it all… ♪

I feel

like a weight lifted off
my shoulders, to be honest.

I love you too, Lino.

There's only one you.

These are happy tears.

These aren't sad tears.
These are very, very happy tears.

♪ At the crossroads
Where the dust meets the gravel ♪

♪ I'm searching for a sign ♪

♪ Tryin' to find a place all mine ♪

♪ Every step I take… ♪

Hmm.

I mean, silence speaks.

I feel like I just got clowned.

And, you know, I think
she said a lot by not sending the video.

Is this some sick joke?

The last thing I wanted is to watch
a video and get even more confused,

but I can't get confused by that message
or the lack of the message.

It was empty.

- No video?
- No video.

I mean, silence speaks loud.

- How was it?
- You okay?

- Yeah, are you?
- No, like, kinda what I was expecting.

♪ If I got down, on my knees ♪

♪ I can't see
No reason you'd call me, baby… ♪

I did not send Tyler a video
because I have nothing nice to say.

Tyler made a choice.

He keeps making choices,
and those choices do not involve me,

and so I am just kinda left
to go through this however I can.

♪ 'Cause I am war, and you are peace ♪

♪ That's you say
So I'll be that way now, baby… ♪

Hey, Tay.

Um, I'm sure you already know this,
but I love you, and I miss you.

Honestly, this process has been

a lot different
than I thought it was gonna be,

um, and I do really need you to know

that, no matter what,
I want the best for you,

and I do love you.

I mean, just seeing him is just hard,

you know?

In that video message,

there was no acknowledgement
or respect that the line was crossed.

I feel like if he took responsibility

and was able to look in the mirror
and acknowledge that,

it… it would've felt differently

because at least I would've seen growth
in the maturity aspect of things,

but I don't see that.

I just wish he wouldn't have sent a video.

Oh. You all right?

Yeah,
I don't wanna talk about it.

Mm-hmm. You don't have to.

I'm trying
to keep it together so much.

Mm-hmm.

♪ So where does that leave us? ♪

♪ Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm… ♪

I definitely want
a message from Brion.

I think I need
some clarity to fully, like,

assess how I feel with the situation.

Hey, babe.

I love you, and I miss you,

and I can't wait
to be the man that you dream of having.

I've learned to find myself
and open myself.

I'm ready to love you deeply,
emotionally, and passionately.

The boundary I crossed

is not what I needed in my life,
and I'll never let you feel insufficient.

I love you.

I guess it's, like, good to hear
that he has remorse for what he did.

It sounded very, like, apologetic.

I just wish everything he said was
how he acted this entire time, I guess.

Now I'm curious how he's handling
the rest of this experience,

so I guess time will tell
of how he's going to act.

I'm feeling anxious.

I hope she's receptive
to everything that I've got to say

and she understands it.

But it'll just be nice to hear her voice,
see where her head's at.

Brion, uh, coming into this experience,

you provided me with so much assurance
we were gonna come out of this unscathed,

and every chance
that I've gotten, I've lifted you up.

But hearing you speak doesn't sound like

the Brion that I know,

and, um, not only
have your actions hurt me,

you expressing
that you don't have any regret

genuinely crushed me.

Watching you
blatantly disrespect our boundaries,

uh, leaves me wondering

if you really were considering
how I was gonna feel at the end of it.

Um, so I'm hoping
that when we get a chance to speak again,

there will bring more clarity
to, um, both of us.

♪ How did we get here, my love? ♪

♪ What path did we take? ♪

I'm, um…

I feel humbled

and a sense of…

This is, like, my first time crying here.

♪ Is it something I did or I said ♪

♪ That made your heart break? ♪

♪ So I say ooh ♪

♪ Maybe I turned back around to you ♪

♪ Maybe I'll turn around ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Is it too late to come back to you ♪

♪ If we wander too far now?… ♪