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Doorbell. I tried

to

call you.

Ringers on.

Mike? Who is it?

Heather.

Faith.

What's going on? Is it Mike?

Your father had a heart attack.

I thought your boyfriend was going to find something out.

Throw his weight around.

Don't take this out on Ryan. He's trying to get an update for you.

Sorry.

I know I can be a little short.

Mm -hmm. I remember.

Tonight you get a free pass.

Sorry, I had to get it from the machine.

Thanks. And there was no cream.

No, it was hot. It was fine.

Watch it.

How is he?

Stable. Uh -huh, stable.

That's good, right?

We just read the echocardiogram.

Large segment of his myocardium won't contract.

What's that mean in English?

It means there's irreversible damage to your father's heart.

And at his age...

Transplant. Any invasive surgery would kill him.

I'm sorry, Mike.

You're going to do this every time one of the kids has a birthday?

Definitely.

There are 39 kids in after -school care.

That's a lot of cakes.

Well, I love to bake, and I have... Such a good helper.

I'll leave this to a pro.

Frosting's my specialty.

More.

Smooth. You almost got some on the cake.

Good neck.

Don't worry. It'll help me here.

I guess I better go clean up.

Is Grandpa okay?

Yeah, well, we're not really sure yet, Mikey.

How's Grandpa?

Ornery is over.

You take him everywhere?

Keep it up, Michael.

Hey, Grandpa.

Mikey, grab the bag. The back, please.

I want to push the wheelchair.

Mikey, Ryan asked you to help him with the bags. Why can't I take the

wheelchair? Mikey.

I want to take...

Just

take it inside.

All right, come on.

I got to go home and get some clothes. I'll be back.

Told you to call your uncles. They'll take care of me.

We made a schedule. We're all taking shifts.

You got my pills?

Yeah. Right there.

Come on, Mr. O'Shaughnessy.

We'll hook up your oxygen for you.

You sure you want to stick around for this?

Come on, Faith.

Until I finish beating up on Mike, I'll show you a few tricks.

Mike's not doing so bad.

Compared to what?

You know why you can't beat me?

I don't have a pool table to practice on all day, every day.

No, you play one shot at a time. You don't plan ahead.

See where I left the cue ball?

Dad's a hustler, Mike.

Yeah, I always wanted a pool table when I was a kid. Now he gets one. Pool?

You needed that like a hole in the head. You could have taught me. You were

good. What?

So you could hang around a pool hall, hustling? What about you?

Stopping at Grady's every night, drinking, shooting eight ball?

Letting off steam after work. I was always caught.

Maybe your dad ought to lie down. It's been a long day. I'm not the one that

screwed up my life. Lost my family. At least when I came home, I was sober. I

spent time with my son.

I'm going to bed.

No climbing stairs.

Doctor's orders.

We got you set up in here. We made up the bed.

No TV.

No cable. I'll run a wire. I'll hook it up.

Can't even get a decent game of pool around here.

I'll do it.

Guys have done enough damage for one night.

Father Griff.

Father.

Father.

These were on the floor.

What time is it?

Almost eight.

You're going to be late for mass.

We better get a move on.

All this is from a collection plate?

Someone from the Archdiocese is going to pick it up this morning.

I was recounting it. I guess I fell asleep.

Let's go. Let's go. Come on. Let's go.

Need some help? Only if you know how to run cable wire.

Mike was supposed to fix this, but he ran out before it was done.

He's trying really hard to get along with you.

You should give him a break.

Just like your father.

Always ready with an opinion.

It's just hard to see you guys go at each other, especially now.

After my wife died, my hair went gray in a month.

Mike didn't visit me very much.

He never went to visit her grave with me.

Wouldn't even let Mikey stay overnight.

Like I wasn't capable of taking care of my own grandson.

Now Mike's in trouble, I'm supposed to reach out. That's what fathers do for

sons.

He shamed me.

He shamed himself.

But he's making up for it.

He helps people. He's still under indictment.

He might go to jail.

I don't see anyone handing him back his gun and badge.

How would your father feel if his only son turned criminal?

Bad. But he'd stand by him.

His love wasn't conditional.

Mr. Olshansky, you're dying.

Time to make peace.

Oh, excuse me. I was looking for Father Grislock.

I'm sorry. He's not here.

You mean he's not going to stay five o 'clock mass?

No.

I'm Father Frank. I'll be taking over Father Grislock's duties at St.

The bishop has suspended him.

The archdiocese picked up the collection money yesterday.

Their count didn't match our bookkeeper's by almost $2 ,000.

Don't you always do a recount?

This time I just find the receipt.

The bishop is convinced I stole it.

Why would he think that?

Because I got drunk and passed out with the money spread all over and I can't

remember anything.

Bishop and I aren't bosom buddies to begin with.

Thinks I'm too permissive and that I drink too much.

Maybe the bishop has a point.

I don't need a lecture.

You put yourself in compromising positions, Grizz.

With the money, with the bishop, with me.

You? Like the other day in the kitchen.

What almost happened between us.

That was...

You pushed it. Now, wait a minute.

It's just as much my fault as yours. I'm not even saying you did anything wrong,

at least not consciously.

What are you saying?

I'm wondering why you live your life on the brink, drinking while you're

counting money.

Are you trying to get yourself defrocked? Now, find whoever took the

This'll go away.

Until something else comes along, and you create another crisis.

We gonna play or what?

I've been practicing and I whooped your butt today.

Yeah, I found something for you.

Coached your team to a championship.

Your old man did a good thing once upon a time.

And you got the big hit that won the game.

Only ribby I had in the series.

Yeah, you couldn't hit your weight.

But I batted you leadoff all season.

Parents accused me of favoring you. I said you'd come through in a clutch.

And I was right.

You making a point here?

We used to be on the same side of the fence.

Really? When was that?

When were you on my side of the fence?

When I get in trouble, you shut me out completely.

Water under the bridge.

It wasn't water under the bridge yesterday.

Let me figure what the hell. What the hell?

That's some apology.

Who's apologizing? I'm reminiscing. Take it any way you want.

This does not make up.

For what you put me through.

Making me feel like I'm nothing.

Well, if you feel that way, it's because you've got a guilty conscience. I lost

my job. I lost my home. I lost my family.

I needed you to be there for me.

Mom would have been there.

To hold your hand?

To show that she loved me anyway.

When did you ever show me that?

That trophy.

Oh, to hell with you.

Damn. True.

Sorry, I'm just... This whole thing with my father giving me that trophy.

I thought that's what you wanted for him to retell.

Well, I guess I wasn't expecting him to actually do it.

I told him he should make peace with you.

I told you to talk to him.

Why'd you do that?

I was trying to... Help.

Stay out of this.

I thought I was in this. Don't make a fight out of it.

I'm not. You are.

You're mad.

Not at you. At him.

Why?

Well, what's the difference?

It's important.

If you don't want to talk about it, it must mean something.

I got a bastard for a father.

Your dad's a cranky old man. He's not a monster.

You don't know what the hell you're talking about.

You shut him out, didn't you? Is that what he told you, that I shut him out?

Yeah. He said after your mother died, you wouldn't even let Mikey stay with

That's right. Not for five minutes, not for five seconds, because he's a drunk.

And when he drinks, he gets mean, really mean. You understand?

He hit you.

Hit me?

How about beating me up?

When I smoked whiskey on him, I'd hide.

I'd lock myself in a closet.

But he always found me.

Yesterday when I was in the closet, he walked in.

I was 10 again.

Him standing over me.

Eyes like rocks.

And those fists, they looked so big.

I gotta go see Grizz.

He's got a problem.

Do you want to talk some more?

Maybe we talked enough.

I'll have Washington run some background checks on people at the church.

I'll talk to the altar boys, see if they know anything.

Do you have any idea who might have taken it?

Money was all over the desk. Anyone could have picked it up.

And you were drunk?

Yeah, I was drunk.

For crying out loud, Grizz.

You were gambling lately?

What's your problem?

You didn't answer the question. Neither did you. Well, I'm not the one asking

for help. I don't owe anybody money, okay?

They suspended you. How come you're still here?

They don't kick you to the street. My duties are restricted.

How can you be so dumb?

Couldn't you just try playing between the white lines for once?

And you'd know all about that, wouldn't you?

Hello.

They're right there.

That's the second fight he's gotten into this week.

According to his principal, Mikey's becoming a problem.

Talking back to his teachers, acting up in class.

Well, he's having a tough time. Our divorce and all.

Yeah, but we've been apart for months. He never acted up like this before.

I think this is about Ryan.

Walter, maybe you should call her with him.

If it's upsetting our son.

Come here.

Mikey's been giving Ryan attitude lately because he sees you giving him

attitude.

What am I supposed to do about it?

You could tell him it's okay to like the man or at least decide for himself.

I'll think about it.

Michael, you're jealous because Ryan gets floor seats to the Sixers. Kids are

impressionable.

All their money, it's not the real world. All you're doing is making Mikey

bad.

If he likes Ryan, he feels disloyal to you. You see him getting attached and

don't like it. What happens if he gets close to Ambrose and you two split up?

Now, is that fair to Mikey? What makes you think we're going to split up? Oh,

come on, Heather.

That's how most of these things end.

You really think this is going to last?

You know what? If it does, Mikey needs to feel good about it.

Don't be so damn selfish.

Father Grizz wouldn't rip off the church.

That's what I'm trying to clear up.

You see anybody else at the directory while you were there?

You know, I only wanted weekday masses.

Nobody goes.

The place is usually pretty empty.

No, wait up, man. I'll be there in a sec.

You did get a phone call.

Father Grizz? When?

While we were putting on our vestments.

You know who it was from?

No, I do need a few bucks for the snack bar.

What?

I'd like to help Father Grizz and all with the snack bar.

No cost.

Are you shaking me down?

Father Griggs, can you call the guy on the phone, Marty?

They're supposed to meet up.

Thanks.

Oh, Shansky.

Long time.

Here to lay a bet?

I don't make enough these days to piss it away on long shots.

Yeah, well, that's true. I have my customers. That doesn't stop them.

No, I'm here about Grizz. I heard you called him the other day.

Yeah, he owed me a grand.

March Madness.

Man shouldn't bet college ball.

He pay up?

For once, no drama.

Paid me in full.

On time, even.

Money looked like it came from the bank.

Crisp bills.

No, it looked like it had gone through the rent cycle.

It's crumpled up 10, 20s, 5s, but hell, I'll take it as long as it's green.

Now, hold on.

I got some action here. I'll see you.

Yeah, it's Marty. Go ahead.

Hey, what's going on?

Hello? Chris.

Yeah? You're gambling.

You said you weren't. I said I didn't owe anyone money.

I'll be with you in a minute, Julie.

Tony and I each wrote something.

Grace, you there?

Yeah. Why did you tell me that you were gambling again?

Sin of omission.

Where'd the money come from? I gotta go. We'll talk later.

Could you read them, Father? Make sure they sound okay?

Julie, I have some bad news.

I can't perform the wedding ceremony.

But we arranged the date so that you'd be here.

I know, but something's come up. Another priest is going to marry you.

Pastor Frank?

You've known me since First Communion.

Julie, it's... I'd do it if I could. If there was any way, I would.

Then why can't you?

I've been suspended.

Suspended?

Grinder?

Dad.

We need to talk. If we talk anymore, we'll kill each other.

When I was a kid, you'd come home drunk.

Yeah, we never shot Poole. Sad story. You hit me.

Dad, you hit me.

And you hit Mom.

It happened all the time. That's a load of bull. I gotta pee.

Just lie still and hold it.

Yesterday when we fought about the trophy... It bit my face.

Listen.

I remembered one time.

I was about ten.

And you came home drunk again.

But this one time, Mom, she locked the door.

I'm getting up.

When she finally let you in, you went nuts.

You wound up throwing her down.

She hit her head on the edge of the coffee table.

And then he came after me.

I was 10.

Dad. 10.

The next day, he came downstairs.

And he ate your oatmeal.

And you went to work like nothing happened.

You remember?

No. I think you do.

Or maybe you don't.

Maybe all those things, they're all the same to you.

The whiskey's not there.

Poured it down the drain.

I got another bottle. I got lots of them. Talk to me.

Just talk to me.

He needs last rites. The bishop said I couldn't perform the sacrament. You

listened to him before.

Maybe not, but this is different. Chris, my dad does not have a lot of time.

Mike, let someone else do them. He's not asking for someone else. He's asking

for you.

Your father needs a priest.

Right now, I don't feel like one. Well, right now, this whole thing, it's about

your guilt.

No, it's about my own doubts.

Doubts, my ass.

You stole the collection money.

I leave my father. I come over here to help you out of the jam, and you're

to me.

Get out.

I talked to Marty.

He told me that you paid him a grant.

And crumpled bills.

Like you'd get out of a collection.

That was my money. From where?

From selling my mother's plate, the gold one. Well, that is a bunch of crap.

You would never sell it. You see it anywhere, you dumb son of a bitch? Mike.

I saw him leaving with a plate.

When he told me what was going on, I offered to pay the debt.

Grizz wouldn't let me.

Satisfying?

I'm going to wait outside.

You're not there in ten minutes.

I leave.

Chris is weak.

You don't want to talk to me?

You can make a confession with Chris.

I got nothing to confess.

Don't you at least want to square with God?

You're the guilty one.

Why don't you confess?

That's right.

You're pleading not guilty.

I forgot.

You can stay. Oh, thanks.

Nice kid I got, huh, Father?

In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. I hate him.

He's dying.

Sooner the better.

Maybe that trophy is as much as he can do.

Now you have to do your part.

And that would be what exactly?

Forgive him and then forgive yourself for hating him.

With Washington.

Interviewing a witness?

Believe it or not, his schedule doesn't revolve around your needs.

I'll have to talk to him about that.

You got the background reports on the Alper boys' families?

You better hope Washington never retires.

Had to be Anki's father's an ex -con.

On a parole.

Armed robbery.

Can you get a search warrant?

Well, Shansky, the church hasn't even reported the theft.

Even if they had, there's not probable cause.

I don't need probable cause.

I'm talking to me. Hey.

If you hadn't noticed, he was also charged with two separate assaults. Did

tell you anything?

Man's got a temper.

Some money we're missing from the church.

You're an ex -con. You look really good for it.

I don't know anything about no missing money. You were at the church the day

money went missing. I want to see my kids serve mass.

I got something that says that you ducked out in harmony. What?

You went to the rectory, took some money off the table, got back in time to get

communion.

Screw you.

You know what? I told the cops that story.

You're going back to jail.

You won't see little Andy for a long time. Let me tell you something about

kid.

He's a real hustler. He hit me up for money for information.

He thinks after you.

I'm pushing charges.

On your record, you go back to jail.

I'm offering to drop the charges if Bianchi lets the cops search his house.

Mike, they found part of the missing money in my file drawer. I must have

knocked it in there by accident.

I'm on indefinite leave.

Well, we can prove that Bianchi took it.

They'll reinstate you. And if they don't? They will.

People come and give.

You don't need this.

Yeah, I do.

Maybe if my life was different, I would. No, no, no, no.

That's not how it works.

You quit drinking, then your life is different.

One needs to change. It's not on the outside.

It's in here.

Thanks.

Can I have my drink back?

I'm your friend.

You got a problem?

Talk to me.

That's the trouble, Mike.

Dad, I got some cake for you.

Faith made it.

Pretty great baker. Not a good mom, maybe.

Yeah. Yeah,

what's up?

Well, you're right. The guy gave his permission to search his house.

He found the money.

Guy claims he had no idea it was here.

Doug Grizz is out of the woods.

Yeah, well, not till we get a statement, okay?

All right. Then I'll hold off on the ticker tape parade.

Thanks.

Couple. Let's go.

Thanks for bringing them. Oh, sure.

Wanted to give them a chance to say goodbye.

Ryan and I were planning to go away together next weekend.

But I know it's a bad time. We can certainly change. No, no, no.

No.

We don't know what's going to happen with this. You can't stop your life.

Where are you going?

Driving to Boston.

That's where his family's from.

Could Mikey stay with you?

If everything's okay. Yeah, sure.

Going to Milford.

It's been our first Thanksgiving there.

In that little hotel.

Remember?

Remember the two old ladies who ran the place? Bea and Bethel.

Got a little drunker with every course. By the time we got to the pumpkin pie,

they could barely walk.

Definitely nipping the cook in sherry.

You like the card?

I had to read it to him.

Yeah, he's pretty sick, Mike.

Are you sad?

Yeah.

I am.

You got something on your mind?

Mr. Bianchi didn't take that money from the church.

It was Andy.

How do you know?

Jimmy saw Andy take the money.

He told me yesterday when we were serving that.

I can't believe you bought it back.

I wanted to see it back on its stand.

Probably won't be here.

I'm thinking of quitting.

Chris.

You can't quit.

I'm sure they'll find out who took the money.

They already have.

Mike called earlier. One of the altar boys confessed.

Sad, really.

For him, yes.

But, Grizz, for you... It doesn't change anything.

You can go back to being a priest.

The bishop didn't stand by me when I needed him most. Why am I here?

Because you belong here.

Do I?

Beth, I know that God brought us back together again for a reason. To help

children. Not to seduce you out of the priesthood.

I can't deny what I feel.

I have feelings too, Grizz. It doesn't mean we should act on them. I'm not

saying we should.

But you made me feel things that I hadn't felt for a long time.

That doesn't mean you should leave the church.

That's my decision, isn't it?

The church needs people like you, Grizz.

The bishop doesn't think so. The bishop isn't the church.

I still haven't found a reason to stay.

Then look harder.

What?

What did you say?

I love you.

Now the floodgates cannot hold all my sorrow,

all my rage.

A teardrop falls on every page.

Meet me on the other side.

It was never my intention to harm you or your kin.

Are you so scared to look within?

The ghosts are crawling on our skin. We may race and we may

run. We'll not undo what has been.

Meet me on the other side.

I'll see you on the other side.

Can you teach me how to play pool?

Sure.

Can't be here, though. Uncle Paul's taking the table to his house.

It's Mom and Ryan.

Dr. Ambrose.

Ryan seems like a nice guy.

I kind of like him.

You?

I guess.

I'll see you next week.

Your mom will be gone.

I know a place that has some great pool tables.

What? Michael, what is it?

I love you, Dad.

I love you, too.