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[911 operator] 911, what's your emergency?

[man] Yeah, um, could you please send someone to 452 Meredith Lane?

We have, um, some, some bodies here.

Do you need medical?

Um, no, no, ma'am.

All right, so the parties are deceased?

- Yes. - Are you safe?

Yeah, we're the neighbors.

We, we heard some shots and came over and...

Is there anyone else in the house?

Just a little girl. She's upstairs with my wife.

Okay, someone will be there right away.

Thank you.

[multiple voices cheering and advising]

- That's it. - That's it.

[coach] Nice, girls, nice.

[Miranda Ruth] I don't know, I just feel like when

these so-called skeptics of any and all...

religious faiths, spirituality, metaphysics...

whatever you wanna call it,

are tempted to shut the idea out completely...

I think that it's important that the question be asked, what is the difference

between the material that they talk about and study and meditate upon,

and the spirit which we talk about

and study and meditate upon.

Is there actually a difference? Or is it really just...

a different way of thinking or of seeing?

And I'm not so sure that there is a difference.

Anyway, these are just... they are some of the ideas

that I hope come across in the novel.

All right, I'm, I'm out of words. [chuckles]

[interviewer] I'm sure that's not true.

But that does bring us to a close.

So I wanna thank you all for being here

and a very special thanks to Miranda Ruth for making time for us.

You're welcome.

[quiet chattering]

[cellphone vibrating]

I need to take this. Excuse me.

[Jason Loughlin] I just think getting away would be good for her,

good for both of us, actually.

We've been going at each other a lot lately.

And she's interested in Chicago for college, so yeah.

Well... I'm not sure how exciting I'd be but of course I'd love to have her.

- Um, how long? - I don't know. Couple of weeks?

That would be fine. Um... When were you thinking?

As soon as possible.

Okay, yeah, um, yeah, we can make that work, sure.

[female] ...opportunity for some literary contest...

- Family. - Everything okay?

Yes.

[jazz music playing in background]

[upbeat music playing]

♪ I aim to please But I don't know how to get there ♪

♪ So I guess it's how I end up here ♪

♪ Pumping poison through my veins ♪

♪ I aim to leave Find a way out of my own hell ♪

♪ I push and pull and then I tell myself to remember the names ♪

♪ Of the people you met in December ♪

♪ It's surreal, it's true It's hard to remember ♪

[birds chirping]

[Cyd Loughlin] Thank you. Yeah.

[Miranda chuckles]

[Miranda] Oh, my God!

- You grew up. Hey. - [Cyd chuckles]

Hi.

Oh, welcome, sweetheart.

- Thanks. - Um-hmm, come on then.

- How was your flight? - A little bumpy.

- Yeah? Oh, can I get that? - Oh, no, no, no, thanks, I got it.

You were little when you were last here.

You probably don't remember this place.

I do... now.

I live upstairs. So why don't you come on in, we'll get you settled.

- And here it is. - Oh.

Small but it's cozy.

The light is brilliant in the morning.

And a chair in the corner makes for a really nice reading nook.

Oh, I don't really read.

Well, there're some real gems on the bookshelf if you decide to give it a go.

Do you have WiFi?

I do. Uh, RalphWaldo is the name of it.

- Okay. - And the password is...

all caps... Hawthorne with an e...

eighteen fifty.

And that's the year that The Scarlet Letter was... you don't care.

Got it. Thank you.

That's the year The Scarlet Letter was published?

Yeah, yeah.

- Cool. [chuckles] - Are you hungry?

Uh, yeah. A little.

Um... well, just get settled

and whenever you're ready come down and we eat.

Thanks.

This was your mom's room, by the way.

Hey, I'm just about ready.

Um, you can go take a peek out back if you like,

I think that's where we're gonna eat lunch.

Do you eat potato salad? Oh, shit!

- What? - Are you vegetarian?

- I'm sorry. I have... - No, no, no, no... [laughs]

- You're not? - No, I'm kidding. [laughs]

You're so bad.

Your dad told me that you were thinking about coming up here for college?

- That's exciting. - Yeah, maybe.

Um... it depends on where I can get a scholarship.

Well, your mom went to DePaul, of course, and that's a good one... and, um...

UFC, University of Chicago, that's where I teach occasionally.

Although, they're a little nuts there so... [Cyd chuckles]

...might want to avoid that one.

[laughs] Okay. Will do.

What about you? Um, how's... books, how's books and stuff?

Books and stuff are good. [chuckles]

I've been doing I feel a lot of press

for this new thing, uh, this novel...

- Hmm, what's it called? - In the Dawn.

- What's it about? - Oh, really?

Well, it's about... [sighs]

It's about this woman named Jacqueline,

and on her 50th birthday, she...

- You sure you want to hear this? - Sure.

Um, what else are we gonna talk about? [both chuckle]

Good point. Um...

So on her 50th birthday,

she starts to become extra sensitive to the sun,

um, it starts to affect her... her relationships,

her friendships, her work...

Uh... well, I'm not sure how much

you really want me to tell you...

- but... - You can tell me all of it.

That's no fun.

Well... isn't that, like,

what you're supposed to do with stories?

Well... yeah, but I mean when you...

worked for two years on the heart of it... [chuckles]

Okay, but I'm not gonna read it.

Fair enough.

Um... well, come to find out she's been doing a lot of...

research on, uh, on this condition called photo phobia...

Is that real?

It is, but in my version it's a little heightened.

Um, anyway, so she...

she's doing this research and then she realizes

that it dates back centuries in her own family and, uh...

it's original name, Aether Evaisthis'a,

actually comes from a Greek god.

- So, she... - Oh, you write fantasy?

No, no, I don't write fantasy. A lot of my work has some...

some metaphysical themes and some spiritual themes

but it's realism.

- Um... it's true... - Sounds like fantasy. [chuckles]

No, no, it's not. It's...

Um, so... she, uh,

decides to go Greece to get to the bottom of this...

and then when she gets there, she gets into this...

[sighs deeply]

[Jason Loughlin] Be good to see where your mom came from, huh?

[light flute music playing]

[rhythmic tapping on door]

- Hey. - [Anthony James] Hey, doll!

We could have rescheduled. I didn't mean to mess up time with your niece.

Oh, no, no. She's running some...

We may never see her again.

I haven't seen her since she was...

She must have been eight, that's right after the funeral.

I heard she was there when it happened.

Yes, fast asleep but... yeah, she was in the house.

Jesus!

- She plays soccer. - [Anthony chuckles]

Whatever will you talk about?

Ha, I... That's the thing, I'm scared.

And she seems funny, she's smart but...

I don't know, hopefully she likes me.

Rest assured.

So, okay. Where did we... Where did we leave off?

Uh, part two, chapter one but we can

backtrack if you've got any structural...

How is our timing? When are you showing this...

I told them late summer.

- Oh! - Yeah.

Well, then, it'll be fine 'cause I really think

the second half, it's just more about what can come out...

- Rather than any drastic... - Right, any drastic changes.

Uh... but I will say if we can back it up...

I thought we might want to zero in...

If we can back it up to the end of part one...

um... I just think it's sort of...

No, it's these two opposing problems that are dividing the book

a third of the way in. Um...

the inner part one's characterization, they're beautiful...

They really are, but I mentioned that last week

I just think that the information is just being

kind of clunkily laid out.

Right, which I personally disagree with.

Right, but that's why you have come to your

brilliant writer friend Miranda.

- For her ideas. - I have indeed.

- Just so we're clear. - And we are.

Um...

So you're starting with this beautiful study momentum

at the top of part two with DeAndre and the trail of the journalist.

This is the smoothest most energized passage in this book.

And then you do earn in chapter 12,

this breathing space, this nice patient

lull that relaxes and speaks to us.

But once the journalist, I don't know what his name is...

- Earnest. - Once he throws himself off the bridge,

leaving DeAndre alone, I think

that's when the book is telling you, you need to move.

Just move, move, move.

So the philosophical tangents in parts two and part three,

they probably just need to go. That's my biggest...

I know, I ca... I can't believe that I'm saying that.

Who are you and what have you done with Miranda?

Right?

[bell jingles]

- [Cyd] Hi! - [male] Hi.

- Uh, I think I'm lost. - Where're you trying to be?

- Raven something... - Ravenswood?

Yes, but there's something else.

[Katie Sauter] Gardens.

Uh, yeah, yeah, that's it.

East of the bridge. You're actually in the right road.

Just head straight west a few blocks.

It should start to look familiar.

Okay, thanks. Thanks.

I didn't say the ending

wasn't justified. I just said it doesn't currently work.

Because of the tangents?

Possibly but it's also possible that it doesn't work despite the tangents.

Good lord. [Anthony laughs]

I... Hey!

Hey, sorry. I can go back outside.

No, no, no, no, no. We were just having a discourse.

Uh, Cyd, this is my friend Anthony.

- Hi. - Hiya, Cyd.

Anthony is an old writer friend of mine.

"Old writer friend," how flattering.

Old Pulitzer Prize nominated writer friend of mine, how's that?

Anthony is a well-respected journalist,

writer of non-fiction and now he's writing a novel,

That's what we were discussing.

Now he has to go talk about the election on television.

- Cool! - I'd rather be doing anything else.

Um, I'm gonna go take a shower. I smell bad.

Okay, there are towels right outside the door on the shelf.

- Nice to meet you, Cyd. - Yeah, nice to meet you too.

- See you Friday? - Uh?

Oh! The soiree?

I haven't even told you about that yet. All in good time. Yeah.

I'm out. Thanks for this.

It's really good, Anthony.

Anyway, my thoughts are my thoughts. It's your book.

I know. [laughs]

- How's Brandon? - Oh, he's fine. He's fine.

He's with his mom this week.

Take him to his first Cub's game for his 15th birthday

- but he doesn't know it yet. - Aw! He'll love that.

I think so.

- See you Friday. - Bye.

Wow.

So what's the deal with your friend?

The deal?

Uh, well...

Anthony and I went to the University of Chicago years ago

when we were grad students. Then we became fast friends.

So, no romance?

What? Oh, my God! No, no.

Why, why do you ask?

Just curious. He seemed nice.

He is and a brilliant mind.

He's handsome.

He is. You should see his son.

This beautiful boy. He's gonna...

swoop up all the ladies...

[chuckles] one day or the man or both.

Anyway, he's married, um, technically.

What about you? Do you have a boyfriend?

- Yeah, kinda. - Kinda?

Mmm, wonderful.

Anything else I can get you ladies?

No! I think this is fine.

- Thank you, Sarah. - My pleasure, Ms. Ruth. Enjoy.

Thanks.

She's wonderful. She's so sweet.

- [exhales] So much food. - I know.

Are you sure you don't want something other than just water?

- Oh, yeah. I'm fine, thanks. - Good for you.

So did you come here a lot growing up?

Oh, yeah. We came at least once a week.

Your mom and I would get pretty sick of it.

- But, uh... now I love it. - Cool.

- So, uh... so the boy? - What? Oh.

Yeah, I don't know. I mean, we've been hanging out for a while.

- His name's Josh. - Josh.

He's fun.

- Is he cute? - Yeah, he's pretty hot.

He's a good time.

Well, that's great. That's...

I'm so sorry to interrupt. Oh, I see you just got your food.

Would you mind signing this book?

I ran all the way home to get it.

- Oh! - We love you.

- Oh, sure. What's your name? - Jennifer.

Do you live in the neighborhood?

Yeah, this is one of our favorite places.

I don't want to take much of your time but I just want you to know

how much I admire your work.

Oh, thank you. That means so much to me. Thank you.

- Here you go. - Thank you.

- Have a great night. - You, too. Thank you so much.

- That's never not weird. - It's pretty cool.

[Irish folk music playing]

So I finished two-thirds of the essay.

I finished... uh, for some of them,

I mean, I just revised because they were in magazines or whatever.

But, to be honest... I already miss fiction.

It's just... It's so different.

You know? On the one hand, you're just...

trying to lay out the material as elegantly as possible

but then, on the other hand, you're actually making...

the thing and I... I suppose that's not actually accurate but I just...

Cyd?

Cyd!

Hey. I found one of your books.

[chuckles] Which one?

Valley of Their Shadows!

Borrow it.

- Good night, Cyd. - Night.

- I'm really glad you're here. - Yeah, me too.

- I'm not boring you, am I? - No, no. It's fun.

- Okay, good night. - Night.

Helen...

Cassandra...

Margaret...

Alice...

Cyd...

Miranda...

- Hey. - Hi, love.

There's some juice and some muffins downstairs

if you want and some coffee too.

Thanks. Uh, I was actually gonna lay out in the backyard if that's okay.

Um... Yeah. Absolutely.

Cool. Could you put some sunscreen on me?

- Sure, of course. - Thanks.

- Did you sleep well? - Yeah, that bed's super comfy.

It is, isn't it? That was mine, growing up.

- Really? - Uh-huh.

Your mom's wasn't quite as comfy but...

she... wanted to take it with her anyway.

Think it ended up in your old house.

So is this where you write all your books?

It is. Yeah.

Okay. I think I got ya. Is that good?

- Yeah. Thanks. - Yeah.

Do you ever wish you moved away? Like... tried other cities?

No.

Thanks.

♪ We'll meet again We'll meet again ♪

♪ We'll meet again, again ♪

♪ Again ♪

♪ We'll meet again We'll meet again ♪

♪ We'll meet again, again ♪

♪ Again ♪

♪ We'll meet again We'll meet again ♪

♪ We'll meet... ♪

[chuckles]

Once upon a time... [chuckles]

[birds chirping]

You don't have to stop listening. I was, um,

just getting some fresh air. You mind?

No. you want to lay out with me?

Oh, no. Thank you. I, uh, I don't even think I own a bathing suit.

- For real? - Yeah, I don't...

Yeah. No.

I read some of your stories.

- You did? - The short ones.

Oh, God. That was forever ago.

- What'd you think? - I liked them.

- They didn't seem that old. - Oh, good. That's the idea.

All the characters kinda seem stuck in their own head.

Well, that's part of the interior nature of the form but I can...

And they're either single, or divorced, or drifting away...

Well, Tess's happily married.

- And Joan is dating... - I mean most of them.

Hah.

You write a lot about religion. Like, religious people.

Yeah, yeah, I guess I do.

Like, there's that one woman who's a nun or whatever and then...

there's the one about the preacher's wife

- and then... - Don't forget the witch.

Yeah, yeah, I was gonna say the one about the witch.

Clair's an athlete.

- I didn't get to Clair. - Yeah, she's a tennis player.

And Dose is a scientist.

Does the, um...

Does the religious thing seem like a hindrance to you?

I mean, I don't know if you and your dad...

We don't go to church.

No, but it didn't bother me. I think it's interesting that there are such people.

- Religious people? - Yeah.

Yeah. There are a lot of them.

- Are you? - I am. Yeah.

- We weren't growing up. - Like what kind?

Um... Well, I go to the Lutheran church over in Andersonville.

So you really believe in like a heaven and hell and all that?

You know, I don't know. I...

I believe in grace. I believe in... some sort of a...

a complete meaning somewhere.

I don't really know anything else.

So what's the difference then between you and like an agnostic?

I just think I...

I just believe so very strongly in a great unknown somewhere.

And to deny the...

Yeah, like a great unknown or whatever but...

You really think we're gonna see my mom again?

You really, really think that?

She didn't believe that... Did she?

[soft rock music playing]

- [Katie] Hey. - Hi.

- You new to town? - Hmm? Oh, yeah.

No, um... I'm visiting my aunt.

- Where from? - South Carolina.

Where's your accent?

I don't have one. Um, my dad is from New York

and I was born in Maryland and we moved around a little...

I can hear it in there a little bit.

No, you can't.

I can. I totally can.

But I'm not gonna fight with you.

- I'm Katie. - Cyd.

Cool. Thank you.

Hey, I get off in about ten minutes if you wanna...

I don't know, go for a walk or something?

Okay.

- Hey. - Oh, hey.

Hi.

- Okay. Nice to see you again. - You too.

So what have you been doing with yourself?

Um, I've just been chilling at my aunt's house.

Uh, trying to explore a little bit, go for a run.

- Your aunt cool? - Yeah.

She is. She is a writer.

- What's her name? - Miranda Ruth.

- [chuckles] No way! - You've heard of her?

Yeah, she is a big deal.

Oh, weird, cool, cool.

Yeah, um... She lives in the same house she grew up in,

which is kinda strange.

- It's a nice house though. - Yeah?

So you have your own apartment, that's pretty sweet.

Yeah, right when I hit 18, I was out. [chuckles]

- I live with my brother. - Cool.

- So, South Carolina, huh? - Uh-huh.

- You shell shocked? - What? Come on, that's pretty lame.

Okay, you're right. It is. Sorry.

Um, my dad got a job there once my mom died, so...

Sorry. How old were you?

- Like, eight. - What does your dad do?

I don't really know. Financial stuff.

- You get along? - Um, no, not really.

It's part of the reason why I want to get away, honestly.

He is, like, always home and he's super depressed so...

I hear that.

- I thought you were working. - [Jimmy] They sent me home.

- [Tab] What's up, Katie? - Is that Tab?

What's going on? It's like a Thursday.

- Hanging out. - Hi, no!

- Put me down. No! - Dude, put my sister down.

- What's up? - Hey.

Um... This is Cyd. She's visiting from South Carolina.

South Carolina? Isn't that... It's...

I'm just gonna go change. We might go up to the roof. My room is back here.

- Nice pants, Kate. - Fuck off!

You can sit on the bed if you want.

Sorry, I don't have like... a chair.

Sorry about these guys. They're pretty lame.

- That's okay. - Don't look.

- Huh? Oh. - Just kidding.

You can look if you want to.

[birds chirping]

[wind rustling through the trees]

- Whoa! - Yup.

This is nice.

[Male] Cut!

- Are they making a movie? - I guess so.

So are you in college?

Or is that coffee shop thing that you want to do?

[chuckles] Hell, no. That is not what I want to do.

I'm not in college yet. I'm taking a break to figure shit out.

So what do you want to do?

I don't have a fucking clue.

I wanna not rush things.

That's what I want to do.

So what about you? What's your deal?

Um... I play soccer...

I hang out with my friends. That's about it.

- You play soccer? - Yeah.

That's fucking hot.

[male] Hey!

Oh, we'll get out of your way.

[male] Oh, no, no, uh...

This is gonna seem really weird but we actually need

a boy and a girl slow dancing in the background.

Would you guys be willing to do that for us?

- Actually... - No, wait.

- Uh, yeah. What do you want us to do? - Oh, wow. Thank you.

So, yeah, if you can get yourselves at the center of the roof.

Yeah, that's perfect.

And now, I'm gonna shout action, when I do, just be in love.

You got it.

Action!

So we did. We danced.

And they never knew that the he was a she?

No, I guess not.

Well, maybe she is a he.

Yeah, maybe so.

- Guess what I did today? - Um... Wrote an essay.

- Shut up, no. I laid out. - [Cyd laughs]

Oh, my God! You did!

I did! I, I did also write an essay actually but I laid out.

You did have a swimsuit. You knew you did.

I didn't. I had no idea.

I didn't even remember, I had to dig it out. It was, it was purple.

And it fit! And that is a real deal miracle, Miss Atheist.

It is impossible that it fit.

- I want to see it. - Um, I'll show you tomorrow.

We can get a little tan before the soiree.

Oh, God, I have to remember to call the caterer tomorrow morning.

Yeah, so wait. What is this thing?

Oh, right. Uh, so second Fridays of every month I have a soiree.

Academics, writers, church friends, normal people and we...

we eat, we get drunk, we read, we, we tell stories.

Hmm. I didn't bring anything to wear to something like that.

Well, that's okay. It's totally casual. Um...

I, I could take you shopping...

tomorrow if you want, we could get something cool.

Nah, that's okay, thanks. I'll go to the thrift store, ask Katie or something.

- Can she come? - Uh...

- Sure. - Cool.

[sighs in content]

Ugh... I hate my feet.

Oh, you have nice feet. Oh, God, look at mine.

Let me see. Yeah, but yours are prettier.

- Oh, yeah. You're right, they are. - [Cyd laughs]

Whatever.

[classical music playing]

So what time does this thing start tonight?

Um... People usually start showing up around six,

doesn't really get going until about seven.

- Will Anthony be there? - Always.

[idyllic sounds of breeze blowing and birds chirping]

Do you ever have sex?

What?

- Do you ever have sex? - Oh, I'm sorry is that...

No, no, no, no it's okay. It's... Wow.

Um, sure, sure I do.

- Really? - Yeah.

When? With who?

- I have... I've had sex. - Yeah, I know. We've established that.

I'm just trying to think.

- Aunt Miranda? - What, I'm trying to think!

It's been forever, hasn't it?

Uh... Well, there was this...

Uh, well, there was a guy at, um... at a hotel...

- Uh-huh. - ...at a lit convention.

In 1992.

- No! Sorry. Sorry. - Ow! [Cyd laughs]

Yeah, but, uh... No, it's, it's... It's been about five years.

- What? - Yeah. Shit.

I was 11.

Damn it!

God!

Well, I did... I had...

I had a very... I had a very long time boyfriend,

so I wanna... I wanna put that out there but...

It didn't work out.

That was that. And there have been some other...

There've been some other chaps here and there but otherwise...

So, you have no interest in doing it again?

Do what?

I don't know, like, date.

No. Not really.

Um, sex?

I don't know. Um...

I, I... I really haven't thought about it... to be honest.

[chuckles]

- Can I tell you a secret? - Yes, you may.

I... kinda wanna have sex with Katie.

- What, is that weird? - Not at all.

How do I do it?

How do you... do... Uh, don't ask me. You have to google that.

Okay. Will do.

Yeah, your, your mom had a, a little fling with a girl once.

- Really, she did? - Yeah.

It was lovely.

[creaking sound]

[Ridley] Oh.

Oh, God. Oh, my God. Hi!

Hey, Ridley, I... I'm sorry. I... I totally forgot that you were coming.

Do you want me to not...

No, no, no, no, you can do your thing. Um, this is Cyd.

She's gonna be staying a couple of weeks with me.

- Hey, Cyd. - Hey.

This is Ridley.

He's the son of some very dear friends of ours round the corner.

So, and he sometimes comes to second Fridays.

Are you coming tonight?

- Sure am. - Good.

Whose stuff is this?

- Fucking Tab moved in. - Why?

- He lost his apartment I guess. - Thanks.

Honestly, I don't have much.

Except for this one dress I used to wear to church. You want to wear that?

No offense, it's a little...

- Yup, thought so. - Sorry.

Um... dressywise I don't really have anything else.

Except the tux I wore to prom. Do you want to wear that?

- You ready? - Yeah.

[Katie chuckles] Oh, my God!

Hey, little lady, what's your name?

Are you sure you don't want to come to the party?

No, I'm good.

Can I call you later?

Please, please, pretty please.

- Ooh... - [Anthony] Hello! Hello!

Oh, thank you so much for bringing all that.

Yeah, no problem. You look very nice.

Oh! Thank you. It's, um... It's just this little... Thank you.

- Is there more outside? - Yeah. Lots.

- Did you get some sun? - What?

Um... uh, yeah, I, I, I, I laid out with...

with Cyd in the grass and I, I got some... I got some sun.

Hmm.

- Some music? - Uh, yes, yes, yes, yes.

[jazz music plays faintly]

Where's Cyd?

She went to see a friend about an outfit.

- A friend already? - Uh-huh.

A friend friend?

[Anthony chuckles]

[Miranda] Oh, wonderful and how long were you there?

[female guest] I had a week...

Relaxing. Such a great time of the year...

[Miranda] You can go to Princeton.

[male] Absolutely, yes.

I mean, I think that's wonderful. We have these

East Coast connections...

- Hi. - Hi.

- Is this okay? - It's perfect.

It's amazing...

- Welcome. - Thanks.

Come on, let me introduce you to everyone.

- Oh, and this is my niece. This is Cyd. - Hi.

Cyd, this is Ms. Evergreen, Anthony's mom.

Hi, pleased to meet you.

- Welcome. - Thank you.

- My friend Thompson. - How're you doing? Good to meet you.

- He is also at the university with us. - Okay.

- I'm Jack. - Jack, pardon me.

- Hi. - Of course, and this is his wife.

- Hi, Cyd. - Hi.

And of course, you remember Ridley from our...

- Yeah. - Yeah.

- Nice tux. - [laughs] Thanks.

Okay.

♪ These days been house ridden ♪

♪ Couch sitting in a cold... ♪

♪ Mind ♪

♪ Long silence of the dim type ♪

♪ An old man breathing... ♪

I have an idea.

♪ In the room next to mine ♪

Need a little bit of color. I don't want people to think you're the caterer.

I love it.

♪ I spoke it with fever ♪

Thank you.

♪ Put my foot down... ♪

- You like it? - [elderly guest] I like it all. Charming.

- Thank you! - Have you ever been in Chicago before?

No, it's my first time.

Oh, then we'll have to go to that city. It's a beautiful city.

♪ ...Drowning in shame ♪

♪ The truth of the matter ♪

♪ Is from the shadows It was staring me in the face ♪

♪ Would have lost myself In the desert ♪

♪ Of the hearts that life tarnishing, Debased ♪

We were rivals. She was a prosecutor. I was a DA.

That's so cool.

Oh, we should also add that I was married.

Yes, so, in any case

we knew we had to wait until one of us retired

so we could successfully make a go at it.

- [guest] You worked on the same case? - Cases.

That's incredible.

So you were both married to men?

Um, yes. I was a widow when we met, I was a widow early on.

Bettie was married, got divorced later. That's where he came from.

So you liked it and you didn't?

What, being married to men?

Are you asking if we like dick?

[all choking with laughter]

Um...

I did. She didn't.

I do.

Dick is not terrible, is it?

It's not terrible, it is like the opposite of terrible.

So what are you into, hon?

Oh, um... I...

like... everything.

[Evergreen James] ...and he goes outside to go on his little date to the dance

and in two seconds, he comes back in and he's like,

"Mama, her parents left. We need a ride."

[Anthony] Right. I don't think that's exactly what happened

but whatever.

Oh, shut up. I drove you on all your dates.

Yes, you did and I love you, Mama. Thank you.

I can drive you two, if you wanna go somewhere.

Wow.

Where's J? Thought he was coming home.

- He got himself a date. - Really?

Uh-hmm.

- Some girl at work. - Weird.

We were supposed to hang out.

How are you?

- Fine. How are you? - I'm good.

I'm sorry for making fun of you in front of your friend the other day,

when I like picked you up and spun you around.

- So what are you up to tonight? - Don't know.

Let me know if you wanna hang out.

Uh... okay.

[people speaking on television]

[female guest] This is a story

about a woman who burnt her own house down.

- Not true. Okay. - No, sir. [laughs] This is very true.

- Okay, okay. - This is very, very true. 1968.

- Cincinnati, Ohio... - Mmm, no, no, no cellphones.

- Oh, sorry. - [crowd murmurs]

Sweet... sweet Cincinnati.

Dolores... mother of four, worked for the Ohio insurance company.

Husband left her for another woman.

Left her alone in that house with four children.

Three boys, one girl.

One day, someone knocks on her door.

She opens it to find a very nice seeming young man standing there.

He is new to town. Works for the paper. Looking to rent a place.

Money is tight for them, see?

So she moves into her daughter's bedroom,

gives the nice young man the nice room

just till he gets off the ground here.

Good Christian man. Not a concern in the world.

Couple of days later, she catches word a woman in Columbus was murdered.

- [all] Ooh. - By a devil worshiper.

[all] Woo!

- And he got away. - [elderly female] Woo! Oh, dear.

Oh, don't worry. I don't think it's true.

What... did you say?

[all laughing]

I said, "Yeah, you know, I think I read about that somewhere."

Damn right.

Is she okay?

Yeah, she's, uh, just pregnant so she's really sensitive.

- Whoa! Hey! Congratulations! - [female] Congratulations!

No! No...

- I didn't. It just came out. - Bravo.

Congratulations.

- Should we tell them what it's gonna be? - No! Zip it!

"There's a certain slant of light,

winter afternoons, that oppresses,

like the heft of cathedral tunes...

Heavenly hurt, it gives us.

We can find no scar, but internal difference,

where the meanings are.

None may teach it, any.

'Tis the seal despair,

an imperial affliction sent us of the Air...

When it comes, the landscape listens... Shadows hold their breath

When it goes, ‘tis like the distance on the look of death.

- Emily Dickinson. - Yeah.

I have... a memory, an impression when I read this poem.

Did you ever get the feeling when you were a child

the end of August when the first little chill comes in the evening,

- and you're thinking, "School starts"? - [all laugh]

End of summer blues.

"Behind what we think of as the Russian menace

lies what we do not wish to face when they regard a negro.

Reality, the fact that life is tragic.

Life is tragic simply because the earth turns

and the sun inexorably rises and sets,

and one day, for each of us,

the sun will go down for the last, last time.

Perhaps the whole root of our trouble, the human trouble,

is that we will sacrifice all the beauty of our lives,

will imprison ourselves in totems,

taboos, crosses,

blood sacrifices, steeples, mosques, races,

armies, flags, nations

in order to deny the fact of death.

The only fact we have.

It seems to me that one ought to rejoice in the fact of death,

ought to decide indeed to earn one's death

by confronting with passion the conundrum of life..."

"We sat looking off across the country watching the sun go down.

The curly grass about us was on fire now,

the bark of the oaks turned red as copper,

there was a shimmer of gold on the brown river,

out in the stream, the sandbars glittered like glass

and the light trembled in the willow thickets

as if little flames were leaping among them.

The breeze sank into stillness..."

"His soul swims slowly as he heard the snow falling faintly through the universe,

and faintly falling like the descent of their last end

upon all the living and the dead."

James Joyce, The Dead.

[female guest] Hmm. Thank you.

- [Tab] Hey - What the fuck, man?

I was wondering if you wanted to sit on the bed with me.

It's not that, it's a couch. Get the fuck out of my room.

- Couch, yeah. - No, get the fuck out of here.

- Come sit on the couch... - Tab!

Get out of my room!

I thought I'd share a little bit of nature from Ralph Waldo Emerson

on this lovely summer evening.

"To speak truly, few adult persons can see nature

At least they have a very superficial seeing.

The sun illuminates only the eye of the man,

but shines into the eye and the heart of the child.

The lover of nature is he whose inward and outward senses

are still truly adjusted to each other;

who has retained the spirit of infancy even into the era of manhood.”

His intercourse with heaven and earth, becomes part of his daily food.

Crossing a bare common, in snow puddles, at twilight, under a clouded sky,

without having in my thoughts any occurrence of a special good fortune,

I have enjoyed a perfect exhilaration.

I am glad to the brink of fear.

In the woods too, a man casts off his years,

and at what period

soever of life,

is always a child.

In the woods, is perpetual youth."

[mouths inaudibly]

You lost.

It's not about blinking.

- It's about smiling. No smiles. - Okay, okay, okay, I'll do it again.

That... That might've been a tie.

- So glad you could come. - Oh, thank you for having us.

- Wonderful meeting you. - And you as well, thank you.

And congratulations, I hope you can come back next month.

- Absolutely. Bye. - We'll see you there.

- Where's Ridley? - I think he and the girl are somewhere.

- Oh, good God! - Well, it happens.

You know, I... I'll go get them.

I'm sorry, um...

- I... - [Miranda knocking] Cyd?

Yeah?

- Is Ridley in there? - Yeah.

Ridley, your mothers are looking for you.

Okay.

[footsteps on wooden staircase]

[door latch clicks open]

- Hi. - Hey!

- Where'd you disappear to? - I was upstairs.

I think Aunt Miranda is mad at me.

She'll get over it.

She was telling me about your son.

Yeah, he's something else.

She also said you were technically married.

Oh, you just got the whole rundown, didn't you? [chuckles]

Uh, true. Um, separated.

We're through the thick of it though.

You're getting back together?

No, no, no, no, I mean, um,

like through the initial burst of it all.

Yeah, we're moving forward

and Brandon's been a real saint about it.

So... maybe once the dust settles you could...

I mean... would you ever consider dating Miranda?

Anthony, did you want to take home those cream cheese things...

- Yeah. - ...for you and Brandon.

Yeah, let me come in and grab those.

All right.

[yawning] And that is Second Friday.

Pretty crazy.

- Did you have fun? - Yeah.

Everyone was super nice.

Can I help you clean up?

Um, sure, if we can just get everything in...

this general vicinity.

We can deal with it tomorrow. I'm pretty exhausted.

Yeah, me too. I'll check the back porch.

It was cool to hear everybody read and swap all the stories.

- And you like that? - Yeah.

I liked that one, uh, story that that one woman told...

- Um, Cornelia. - Yeah, was it true?

Probably not.

I liked yours.

- My what? - That thing you read.

Oh, the part you heard? Well, there was more.

Yeah, I'm sorry. I...

It's fine...

It is... No, it's okay... It...

No, I don't wanna be that relative that's...

It's... It's really more about the smoke.

I just, I don't like it in the house, and I, it's not...

I'm sorry.

It's okay, really, it's...

- It's fine. - Okay.

Do you want anything else before I put this food away?

No, thanks. I'm good.

- Um, I'm gonna call Katie. - Okay.

Oh, I might... have half a piece more of Anna May's cake.

You sure you don't want some cake?

No, thanks.

You know, maybe if you had sex once in a while,

you wouldn't want to eat all the time.

I'm really sorry. That came out super nasty.

Let me just say something real quick.

- I really am sorry. - No, no, no, no.

That's okay but I need you to listen to me, okay?

Yeah, I wish that I could...

I could share with you the utter joy it brings me

to spend three hours on a Saturday afternoon reading

Emerson or Melville or Virginia Woolf...

or discussing T. S. Elliot or James Baldwin

with a dear friend until dawn.

The fulfillment that I get from going to church,

from reading theology, from reading science, from praying...

but I can't... because I am me

and you are you.

I can't relate to you the total fulfillment

that I get from these things. It's impossible.

I know...

And I understand, you're finding your own joy.

You're engaging your own stuff, that's great.

That's how it should be and it's a beautiful thing.

But hear me.

It is not a handicap...

to have one thing but not another.

To be one way and not another.

We are different shapes and ways and our happiness is unique.

There are no rules of balance.

- I'm sorry... - Don't be sorry.

But I got a quarter of a century on you, Cyd.

So, let's just... enjoy ourselves.

Okay? Let's just thank...

respect each other's selves.

Hey, stop talking.

I guess I just feel like...

Are we done in here? 'Cause I really need to be done in here.

Did you get all the bottles?

- Yeah, everything's cleared. - Okay, thank you for helping.

- I'm gonna go upstairs. - Okay.

Miranda!

You don't have to come. I'll just call you when I get out.

No, I'm coming.

Uh, she wanted me to text her, not to buzz her.

Okay.

[knocking]

Oh, hi, sweetheart. Are you okay?

I'm sorry. I didn't mean...

Let us in.

Are you okay?

Um... He finally passed out.

- What happened to his nose? - I punched him.

I'm sorry to make you come over. I feel so stupid.

Don't be silly. Are you okay?

- Yeah. - Katie?

Are you okay?

- Yeah. - Did he hurt you?

I... tried to go out and he wouldn't let me leave.

He was acting really weird.

I don't want him to wake up.

You can probably go, it's fine.

No, you should go get your things. You're gonna come with us.

[Tab gasps]

What the fuck?

Cyd...

Cyd...

[Cyd sobs]

Cyd! Cyd!

- I'm Miranda. - Katie.

- Cool room. - Thanks. It was my mom's.

Read it. Read it.

Read it.

- Read it. - Wait. Really?

Yeah, why?

I don't know, I guess... you don't really seem like a reader.

Fuck you, what does a reader even seem like?

- Yeah. - Oh, my God.

Holy shit, your aunt wrote this? I read this in middle school.

What?

Wait a minute. I know that book.

Wait, Aunt Miranda wrote that?

Uh, yeah.

Is that the one about the baby born in a castle...

The hotel that used to be a castle, yeah.

And her parents treat her like a princess and she

starts to develop powers...

Yeah, and she thinks she's magic and you don't know if it's real or not.

Kind of bad ass.

- What? - My name.

- That would be correct. - Wait a minute, let me see that.

[crickets chirping]

[door creaking]

- Hi. - Is she okay?

Yeah. She'll be okay.

- You okay? - Yeah. I'm fine.

Okay. Good.

I found this.

[chuckles] Well...

My mom used to read this to me, didn't she?

She did.

You were way too young for it.

You fell asleep every time.

Well, she did it anyway though. She did it for herself.

She loved that book.

You named her after me?

Check the date.

It's the other way around.

[Cyd sighs deeply]

- When do you go back? - Thursday.

What will I do without you?

Probably what you did last week before you knew me.

What will we do until then?

Whatever we want.

♪ Summer sun is shining through ♪

♪ And I'm no longer waitin' for you ♪

♪ Maybe when the time is right ♪

♪ And I'm done ♪

♪ Come revel in my mind ♪

♪ Ready to go out and have fun ♪

♪ Tonight I'm gonna be who I want ♪

♪ Sun is always shining on me ♪

♪ And I am Trying something here... ♪

...if you're doing something...

...I feel like it's kind of like...

- [talking indistinctly] - Versatile...

Oh, sure. Um, hey.

One of you is free to use my shower if you'd like to.

Yeah, I'm just gonna do some emails. Oh, hey, I'm, uh...

I'm giving this talk in a Q&A downtown if you'd like to come with...

Who're you talking to?

[both giggling]

- Oh, I got burned, didn't I? - Let me see.

Oh, shit. Yes, you did.

- Okay. Okay. - Did I?

- No, you're good. - Good.

Wait...

I'm a little gross.

No.

- [birds chirping] - [sounds of girls moaning]

So... I had a brother.

Devin.

He was like 12 years older than me.

He had a lot of mental problems

or whatever and just a lot of issues.

And he and my mom and my dad used to get...

into these really big fights.

They thought about sending him away to military school or whatever but...

they never did.

Anyway...

One weekend when I was really little and my dad was away...

and after I'd gone to bed...

my brother and my mom got into this really big fight and...

um...

He shot her.

Oh, my God!

And then himself.

Somehow I slept through the whole thing.

And the neighbors found them before I could so I was...

protected.

Anyway, that's the story.

[assistant] Feel free to relax in here until we're ready for you.

We'll probably hold the house for about five or ten minutes

just so we can fill up. So you have plenty of time.

You can help yourself to some snacks

and if have any questions, I'll be right up the hall.

Thank you, honey.

This is interesting.

- Do you want some? - Hell, yeah.

Trail mix, Aunt Miranda, you're so big time.

I'm not that big.

Well, maybe, just a little.

[cellphone buzzing]

Hello? What?

Okay? Are you sure?

It's okay.

Uh, well, I'll come home soon.

[moderator] Why don't we start with a simple question.

Are there any simple questions? I don't think those exist.

Where do your ideas come from?

You would think that I would have a quick

straightforward answer to that by now,

but I don't.

You know, I'm tempted to give the standard... answer that they...

They come from everywhere. They come from different places...

A feeling of relative...

a place, other works of art, a concern...

What kind of concern would give way to an idea for a book?

A concern of the spirit, I guess.

A kind of unrest.

But I suppose if I'm being completely honest...

uh, I can't say that in their essence

that they come from outside at all.

They come from me.

They are... me.

Each one of them... sort of... me...

Reformed.

And I was working at the library when I discovered your book of short stories.

The title of which just fell out of my head, I'm sorry.

- The Valley of Their Shadows. - That's the one, thank you.

There were some about those women that... gave me strength.

How thoughtful, how engaged with the bigger picture or something...

going through life with such patience...

and curiosity...

despite seemingly relentless hardship...

It reminded me of the women in my life... who I love... a lot.

My grandmother recently...

I don't have a question apparently,

uh, I guess I just wanted to thank you...

for honoring them.

Well, thank you. That... that means a lot.

Anyone else? We have time for one more.

[Cyd giggling] Thank you.

- Hi! Wow! - Hello, young lady.

That's my aunt. My aunt Miranda.

Um, anyway, I...

I wanted to ask you what your greatest pleasure in life is.

Like... joy?

Cake.

[peppy rock music playing]

There they are.

- Welcome, ladies! - Thank you.

- Hi. - [laughs] Hey, how're you?

- Good, how are you? - Hey, Cyd.

- Hi. - Cyd, of course you know,

- and her friend Katie. - Hey, how're you, Katie.

Uh, well, uh, help yourselves, we got food...

drinks, we got good people, good weather... Hey, Brandon!

- What? - Who you calling what?

Come over here, this is Miranda's niece, Cyd, that's her friend, Katie.

- Hi, sweetheart. How's your summer going? - Good.

He's 14. He's 14. He's 14.

[neighbor] Hey, you guys, let me take your picture.

Yeah, yeah, sure. Come on.

Let's all squeeze in tight here.

Cheese!

- Got it. - Thank you. Hey, let's get a bite.

Look, I got hamburger, I got chicken,

I got Polish sausage, got chicken bots...

Hey, how's the grub?

Burger overcooked... Oh, you got the hotdog.

Well, hotdog is excellent, I can't really speak for the burger.

Yeah, I can. They're overcooked.

- Um, fuck it. - Fuck it.

You were right, by the way, the other day.

About what?

Um, part two and three...

read back through it, what you said kinda clicked.

Oh, good.

Well, as long as it's for the book and not for me.

Oh, you know I do it all for you, don't you?

Hey, I gotta go pick up my brother from work. Watch Priscilla for me?

Yeah, sure. Isa, do you know Miranda?

I think we may have met once or twice at a UFC thing.

- But hi, nice to meet you. I'm Isabelle. - Miranda, nice to meet you.

I'm actually a fan, love the new one.

Oh, thank you so much.

Definitely, thank you.

- Don't let 'em get into too much trouble. - Define trouble?

Oh, shut up.

She's lovely.

She lives around the corner. That's her little girl.

Divorced?

Yeah.

So is there... any potential there?

We'll see.

Hey, no, no, no, no. That's not for playing with. Hey!

Maybe you should visit me sometime.

- Seriously? - Yeah, why not?

What would your dad think?

Who cares?

Columbia, South Carolina. What's it like?

It's fine. Come and see.

[Brandon] Hey! Are y'all girlfriends?

Maybe so.

Cool.

Yeah, they are!

[sounds of waves crashing, seagulls calling]

[phone ringing]

[people chatting]

[cellphone rings]

Hello?

- Cyd? - Yeah, who's this?

It's Miranda.

- Oh, hey, you're calling me! - [Miranda laughs]

I am.

I just, I wanted to, uh, to check in and see how you were.

I'm at the beach with my toes in the sand.

Oh, that sounds nice.

[coach] Okay, girls, let's go.

Oh, am I calling you at a, at a bad time?

Um... No, it's okay, I've soccer practice. Uh, it's about to start.

Oh, okay, uh, all right, well, you go and play your heart out

and I just, I just called to say hello.

- Yeah, thanks for calling. - Of course.

I miss you... I love you.

I love you too.

Okay, well, have, have a great practice.

I'll talk to you later.

Okay, that sounds good. All right, bye-bye.

- Bye. - [coach] Let's go, let's go!

♪ I've taken to lying my head Below my heart ♪

♪ And using my hands to cover My open mouth ♪

♪ 'Cause I could feel My front porch ♪

♪ And I could sense red blood Moving Around ♪

♪ There was a subtlety In the calm ♪

♪ You came suddenly And then you were gone ♪

Subtitles by explosiveskull

♪ When was it that made you Forget to brace your fall? ♪

♪ Was it the third disappearance Toward the beaten wall ♪

♪ Now with you Up in the pine ♪

♪ I can see your life Unfolding itself ♪

♪ What is the nature That is hindering my love ♪

♪ There is some dirt and there Is digging to be done ♪