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You'll never forget the boy who makes your first Mix Tape

##

I'm Daniel O'Toole

Alison Connor

I didn't know you lived around here

So you haven't met her Mum or Dad?

Ah!

- Did she told you anything about them? where do they live?

- Mum!

- This is my brother, Peter. - Heard about you.

- I'm walking you home

- I'm not some weak silly lass who can't make her way home, Dan.

- Alison!

- You're Dan O'toole, inspired me to get into the industry.

I'd saved an article for you, mate. Total blast from the past,

You wouldn't believe it

Guys all raise your glass, to the Author of "Tell the Story"...

... Of little Allie

Hey, you know what?

What if I stayed in New York, and you joined me?

I just really think we should spend more time together

What the hell is going on with you, Stella?

She's pregnant.

I'm keeping it. That's final.

##

[record scratching]

["Hit The North (Part 1)" by The Fall playing]

# Hit the North #

# Hit the North #

# Hit the North My cat says... #

# Hit the North #

# Hit the North #

# Hit the North #

# Ninety-five percent of hayseeds (Hit the North) #

# Are corn-pones, guaranteed (Hit the North) #

# Computers and fashion hotels #

# Cops can't catch criminals #

# But what the heck, they're not too bad, they talk to God #

# Hit the North #

# Hit the North #

# Hit the North #

# Manacled to the city #

# Manacled to the city (Hit the North) #

[mobile phone chiming]

# All estate all estate agents alive #

# Yell down nights in hysterical breath #

- You like this one, though. - Yes, I do like this one.

- I know it more than you do. - You should buy it.

# So pretty #

# Those big big big wide streets #

[music fades]

So, what is this?

[Stella] Hey, you reckon this is worth something?

Ah, let me see.

Made in Taiwan.

[young Alison VO] Dear Sheila. Thanks for your postcard.

I wish we could share some of that sunshine over here.

I'm, I'm still seeing Dan. It's going pretty well.

Who knows. Maybe we could visit one day.

[Stella] I really like it here.

It's peaceful.

[Sheila] Yeah, the offer's there.

If you want to stay on, put your feet up.

We'll get you back to the city for the birth.

Well, unless you want to do it natural.

And you also don't need to think about that yet, darling.

- Honestly, Sheila. - What?

Anyway, look, once it's done, it's done,

and then you've got a beautiful baby

and you can trust me, you'll forget all about the pushing,

the pain, the tears, the tearing.

'Cause that little mite will fill your heart.

Um, yeah, I'm going to go

before you start talking about placenta rituals.

Well eat it, obviously.

Shag in haste, repent at leisure.

Oh my God.

["That's When I Think Of You" by 1927 playing]

# When I'm lost in a strange place #

# Scared and alone #

# When I'm wishing for home #

[song playing through headphones]

# That's when I think of you #

I'm a bloke and all, but his voice...

- Is everything! - Hey?

So America - what States would you visit?

I'd plan it so it'd hit all the major music venues

when the big names are playing.

I've a list.

First Ave, The Roxy, Palladium.

Got loads of smaller ones and all.

- Sounds cool. - I know, right?

I've been saving all my birthday and Christmas card

and part-time job money for two years.

You're impressive Dan O'Toole

Do you know that?

["That's When I Think Of You" continues]

# When I'm lonely for loving So far from home #

# When it feels like I'm in the Twilight Zone #

# And I just can't make it through #

[volume increases]

# That's when I think of you #

# It's all that I can do #

# I'd go mad if it wasn't for you #

- Yeah. - Mm...

[Stella] Wow! Your publishers?

Me! For my girls.

- Ah... - I missed you.

Ah, I've only been gone a few days.

Huh, I still missed ya.

Whatever you need, Stella.

Okay? If you want to keep this baby, then we'll help.

I can drop down my hours at the hospital

and if, as I hope you do, decide to go to uni,

then me and your Mum will help out with that too.

Thanks, Dad.

Now, I am cooking us a lovely dinner

and Thea's going to Skype.

[Stella] I'm going to shower.

I need to be awake when Thea starts talking about

the inner workings of the human eardrum.

Hey, don't be unkind.

- Hey. - Hey.

# Hey there you with the sad face #

Oh, boy...

# Come up to my place... #

What's the matter?

Why are you making that face?

- Oh stop. - No, it's fine.

I don't know what you're talking about?

You look like someone that wants to live it up with me.

You want to live it up!

- You're embarrassing. - Yeah, I am embarrassing.

I'm mental as anything.

[gentle music]

[emotive string music]

["Love My Way" by The Psychedelic Furs playing]

[mobile phone chiming]

# There's an army on the dance floor #

# It's a fashion with a gun my love #

# In a room without a door A kiss is not enough in #

# Love my way It's a new road #

# I follow where my mind goes #

# They'd put us on a railroad #

# They'd dearly make us pay #

# For laughing in their faces and making it our way #

# There's emptiness behind their eyes #

# There's dust in all their hearts... #

[Dan] Look, I'm not saying I believe your wife over you.

I'm just saying that, yeah, I believe your wife over you.

Thanks for the unwavering support.

Leanne is just a good friend.

The 24-year-old girl at work who's just a good friend.

Jesus wept, Duncan.

Anyway, I thought you weren't getting back

about the book idea 'cause -

'cause you're up to your neck in it.

Not literally up to your neck in it.

What, you still up for that?

I thought you'd put it aside for a while.

No. Why would you say that?

Kat mentioned that you two are off travelling,

like you weren't interested.

- She what? - What?

I must have heard it wrong.

Alright, you still up for this run, or what?

[Duncan] I agree, let's go to the pub.

[Duncan] Come on. Chop chop.

[door opening and closing]

- [Dan] Katja?! - In here.

Look, did you tell Duncan

that I wasn't going to go ahead with the book idea...

What?

- Ah, I bought that... - Hmm...

It's not for you. It's, it's really good.

I planned just to read one page, but it's bloody addictive.

Oh, what's wrong?

Ah nothing. Sorry, nothing.

It's gone. It's gone out of me head.

Thank fuck for that.

You looked like you were about to have a go at me.

You know what your Mum is like?

She can smell an argument three counties away.

Mm, I chopped the vege by the way. You want to check the beef?

Yeah. Yeah. Can, can do.

[Katja] Yeah, but it was in the oven.

So apparently it's not there anymore, obviously.

[Bill] Well, it was good though.

[Marian] I think you should go, Dan.

You know if you do, you should go to Las Vegas.

I've always fancied Las Vegas.

Yeah, I was thinking more the East coast.

You know, like New England, Washington.

That would be really interesting.

[Bill] That'd be nice as well, actually.

I'd love to see the bright lights, Bill.

- Ooh, my dodgy hip. - Ooh.

- [Bill] A slot machine. - Ooh.

- A bucket of coins. - [Marian] A full bucket.

And you by me side.

[kissing]

[Bill] I mean, I couldn't think of a better way

to spend me days.

Now, am I allowed another beer?

[Marian] Sneaky bugger. Go on, you can have one.

- [Bill] Thanks ma'am. - And they say romance is dead.

[Dan] Sounds like paradise, that does.

[Marian] Oh, you're undercooked this beef, Daniel.

Oh, mine's still red in the middle, love.

It's meant to be red in the middle like that, Mum.

[Marian] Still alive, hey love.

[whispering] Just put it back in the oven.

- [Marian] Would you mind? - [Katja] No, of course not.

Well, I never - Alison!

Alison Connor?

[Marian] There's a ghost.

You know the author?

- Of course... - [Dan] No, not, not really.

Yeah, we went to the same school together.

I thought I'd get the book. See what all the fuss were about.

Right, Mum, shall I get that beef back...

[Marian] Give it a good blast, son.

There we go.

[Katja] I just started reading it. It's really good.

Yeah.

[Bill] She were always very smart.

[pensive music]

[birds calling]

Chuffing hell, this will be my third detention this month.

I never got detention 'til I met you.

Stop delaying us in mornings with all this kissing then.

What kissing?

Enough of that, now.

We'll miss the proper bus and I've got English second period.

Fleming already hates me.

He don't. He couldn't. You're a brilliant writer.

One day you can dedicate one of your novels to him.

Ah, you can't make a living off writing, right?

I'm going to play guitar.

One of them bands I'm going to see will hire me.

You understand poetry, you're going to write.

[dog barking]

[Bill] Hello love. He still at footy.

I know, I wondered if you needed any help with your birds?

Really?

Bugger me, I was just about to feed 'em actually.

Nice and tight around her wings, now.

Has the missing one come back yet?

- Not yet. - Aren't you worried she's hurt?

She'll be back.

You've got the knack, Alison, I'll leave you to put her in,

and I'll stick the kettle on.

Would you like a cup of tea?

[Marian] Is she staying here for dinner then?

[Bill] Yeah well there's nothing wrong with that, is there?

[Marian] She's round here more than her own house.

[Bill] She's a good girl. No trouble.

[Marian] I'm just saying

if I'm going to be feeding an extra mouth every dinner...

You make enough to feed an army anyways.

[Marian] I'm allowed to be concerned, Bill.

He's young. It's not like when we were courting.

You met your sweetheart at 16 and that were that.

[Bill] So what would you prefer?

Your son to be out sowing his wild oats?

Don't be crass. I just think he should be having fun.

What's that girl that got him paper round? Mandy summat?

- [Bill] Oh God... - She's besotted with him.

[Marian] Oh, mind that plug. It's still acting up.

[gentle music]

Hey, what's up?

I want to finish. I want to get this done.

You'll have that finished before I've even read mine.

What's wrong?

Why didn't you tell me Mandy got you your paper round?

Why does it matter?

Thought you didn't like her?

I don't like, or not like her.

I feel completely ambivalent about Mandy Smith.

But I needed that job. You know that I'm saving.

Alison, what's going on?

Nothing. I just want to go home.

Bloody hell. She, she got me a job. Who cares?

I care.

You didn't tell me 'cause you know I don't like her.

Really? I didn't tell you summat.

What does that mean?

Means, I don't even know where you live.

I've never been in your house.

I met your brother once by accident.

I've never met your parents.

Listen. Come here. What's really going on?

- I just want to go home. - Don't go like this.

Alison, will you stop!

- You can't run off every time. - Let me go!

- Al, if you leave now... - What?

You'll dump me?

Fine.

[pigeons cooing]

- Careful son. - Sorry.

Summat on your mind?

Nah...

[pigeons cooing]

Isn't she lovely? Me first Cumulet.

- Your Mum thinks I'm obsessed. - She's right.

Hard not to be, with summat so beautiful.

[Duncan] It's the proper deal, mate.

[Dan] I dunno, I can't get my head around that.

[Dan] Thank you.

What? 75K!

Upfront, and 25 on signing, 25 on acceptance,

25 for paperback.

Look, I know this isn't about money for you,

but that is not a bad payday.

You know, you get to write your legacy book

and earn a few bob.

Well, they really think it's that good an idea?

[Duncan scoffing]

My boss spoke to our US branch.

Jack Leonard was huge there.

Between us, mate, the advance is cheap,

but this book will sell,

and you'll learn plenty from royalties afterwards.

They think it is a brilliant idea.

Right...

Oh, come on, mate. I kind of thought you'd be a bit more excited.

You're one who's making it happen.

No, no, no. I am, I am, I am, I am.

It's just, I don't know man...

Me and Katja are just in a bit of a weird space right now.

Go on.

Well it's just, you know, she's always had this thing

where she just, you know,

makes these little pops about me being a creative,

like she thinks it's not as important as her job

or something.

Yeah, now she's got us flitting off to America

to reclaim our youth.

Oh, don't sound like

she's factoring in what you want into decisions there.

I don't know, I don't know.

Oh, she has been,

she has been pretty supportive over the years.

Yeah, while still making little digs about you not earning well,

and now it's your chance to make some money,

to do what you want.

I mean, is there any chance we could push it a bit?

Push it six months, maybe.

I told you what my industry is like, mate!

Just because they think summat's worth pursuing now,

it don't mean they will in six months.

Are you really willing to pass this up? You'd be mental!

[sighing]

[quiet moaning]

- I love you. - I love you.

You're mine.

What?

You're mine.

[loud groaning]

[Micheal] Ahh...

[Michael breathing heavily]

- Are you okay? - Yeah.

[gentle music]

[birds calling]

- Hi. - Hi.

- Ah... - Sorry.

You don't have to say that.

I do.

You were right. I, I don't talk much, but...

I've been so miserable since we fought.

I'm not asking you to get back with me,

but I, I do want to explain.

There's nobody at home. You want to come in?

Thanks.

["Lovesong" by The Cure playing]

We don't, we don't have a lot of money around ours.

My dad's not in picture.

I'm not richer. You think it'd hold that against you?

No, I don't. I just...

..find it hard to...

Um...

Embarrassed?

You have nothing to be embarrassed about.

I don't care if you live in a tent.

I don't care if your family's hard as nails.

The only thing I care about, is you.

# You make me feel like I am whole again #

Do ya?

Still?

I'm just angry 'cause you wouldn't talk to me.

# You make me feel like I am whole again #

Does that mean we're, back on?

Of course we're back on.

# Whenever I'm alone with you #

# You make me feel like I am young again #

# Whenever I'm alone with you #

# You make me feel like I am fun again #

# However far away I will always love you #

# However long I stay I will always... #

You okay? I can stop if you want me to.

I don't want you to.

I'm happy.

# I will always love you #

["Lovesong" by The Cure continues]

# Whenever I'm alone with you #

# You make me feel like I am free again #

# Whenever I'm alone with you #

# You make me feel like I am clean again #

# However far away I will always love you #

# However long I stay I will always love you #

# Whatever words I say I will always love you #

# I will always love you #

[Katja] Dan!?

Okay!

[Katja] Dan!?

[Dan] Yeah. Yep, yep, yep, I'm here.

You alright?

[Katja] I should never have opened this thing.

Push that bit forward. Push it forward. You got it?

Okay, can you get it there?

- Yeah. Yeah. - Thanks.

- Okay. - Yes, thanks.

You know, I went for a drink with Duncan, earlier.

I said I went for a drink with Duncan.

Yes. Yes, I heard you.

It's just he saying he thinks

they might be up for paying some serious money for a commission.

Hmm... Great.

'Great'. Is that it?

Well, it's certainly something to look forward to

in the new year, isn't it?

Katja, they want it now.

I can't ask them to wait and hope that they'll still want it.

Okay, I knew you'd do this.

Do what?

I'll just go to the conference and come straight home.

Oh for God's sake.

Does it matter if we do this trip now,

or we do it next year?

Yes! It actually matters to me.

Oh, fucking brilliant.

[Katja] You know, when you were a kid,

you were dreaming of travelling all the time

and now you hardly even leave this fucking city.

[door slamming]

[phone chiming]

[gentle music]

[Michael in distance] Look, these days,

it's a very simple procedure.

[Michael] You know, your mum will take you.

[Stella] I'd like Mum to take me.

[Michael] Your mum, okay.

[Michael] Well, maybe we'll both go, just to be safe.

[Stella] Like I'm fine with everything, just...

[Michael] I think you're making the right decision. I do.

- I'm very proud of you. - I know, I know.

[Stella] But I think it's...

[Stella] I've thought about it a lot.

[Michael] Again, only if you're sure. I don't want to force you.

Force her to do what?

I've made up my mind.

Mum, I want to have a termination.

Okay.

Um...

Did you want to talk about it?

Best decision all 'round, I think.

I actually think those few days you gave her

really helped, darling.

I've already spoken to the clinic

and she's got all the information.

Ah, she knows it's the right choice.

Well, if you feel good about it, Stel.

Yeah...

It is the right choice, Mum.

Whatever you want is the right choice.

I know what he's trying to do.

All this stuff about 'we'll step in'.

You would be the one making the sacrifice, not him.

He's saying the words, but when it comes down to it,

he'll say he's needed in the hospital.

And then he's going to ask you

if you really need to be going off on book tours.

Oh darling, don't do this for me.

We can make it work.

I'm not, I'm doing it for me.

Oh, sweetheart.

[front door opening]

Evening, love.

Erm, hi...

Tea's on.

I've been telling your brother. I'm a new woman.

No drinking, no smoking, and especially no bloody men.

That's good, Mum.

Well, maybe fags.

I'm not sure I can pack them in.

I know, you've heard it all before,

but me and Baxter are done.

That don't matter, Mum.

Yeah. This... This matters.

[Catherine] Oh! I've got a surprise.

[Catherine squealing excitedly]

[Peter] What? Where'd you get it?

It fell off of a lorry and into Sally Pickering's hands.

[all chuckling]

I knew you'd like it.

You can play that bloody tape you're always blasting on it.

[radio static]

[rock music playing]

I love this one.

Hmm...

You're not going to leave me up here on me own?

No chance.

We used to dance to this when we was kids.

Come on.

[Peter] Come on. Up you get.

# 'Cause something happens when I get next to you #

# There's a fire burning Burning me inside #

# And my heart is yearning... #

You still writing to Sheila from next door?

Yeah.

She always asks after ya.

She were a nice woman.

I still can't believe she moved all the way over there.

You, you know you can talk to me, don't ya?

I know.

I've been a bit...

..busy lately.

Sorry, love.

It's fine. Really. I'm, I'm good.

I know you are.

You're a good girl.

Getting on okay at school?

Any boyfriends?

Of course you have.

- I bet they're lining up. - No...

[both chuckling]

But there's one.

I can see it in you.

Alright, love.

[chuckling]

- Are you sore? - No.

How are you feeling?

Okay, I think.

I'm worried that I feel okay. Does that make sense?

- It's normal. - Did you ever have to do this?

No.

- You were more sensible? - No...

No, I was just, I was just lucky.

[mobile phone buzzing]

- Who's that? - It's Rory.

Yeah, take it. I'll give you some privacy.

Hi. Yeah, I'm okay.

Yeah, it was fine. It was...

Yeah...

Hey...

Okay, what is your favourite Bowie song?

Bowie song? Ooh...

'Modern Love'.

No way. No way. 'Space Oddity' buries that.

I'm telling you, 'Modern Love' and 'Let's Dance'.

It's up there but it's not my favourite.

What's yours then?

'Letter to Hermionie', obviously.

Very few people would say that.

Are you alright?

That thing we were talking about -

like you getting to know my family a bit more,

and I was thinking maybe you, me and Peter

could go to a gig sometime or summat?

Yeah.

Does he know his music?

Not as much as you, but then nobody does.

Hey, kettle and pot.

He'd like to spend more time with ya,

and you and Peter would really get on.

He's smart and he's funny and yeah, he's, he's brilliant.

I'd love that.

So, ah...

When can we next, um, you know?

When's the next time you have the house to yourself?

I think a directive went out. They're always in these days

Guess you'll have to find somewhere else then.

[both laughing]

["Life As We Know It" by Aldous Finch playing]

Don't tell me she's back on.

Sorry.

What's wrong? What's happened?

- It's nothing. - Peter?

Peter.

It's nothing.

Just...

Lost me job.

They fired ya?

Yeah.

For what?

- Here, talk to me. - Go away!

What's wrong with ya? What happened?

Just go.

[pensive music]

[machinery whirring]

You're Peter's sister, aren't ya?

What's so funny?

Where'd he run off to, anyway?

Is 'Frankie Goes To Hollywood' shooting a new video?

Not sure I want to be around that.

It's contagious you know, that shit they get.

Robbie?

Al...

You didn't know?

He's me mate. I'm not happy about this, but...

He should have been more careful.

Who did this?

- Took the pics? - Stuck them up?

- It don't matter... - Who did it?

Alright...

[machinery whirring]

It were you, won't it?

Me what?

You stuck those photos up?

No, I have better things to do with me time.

So why don't you run along home.

To your knob-jockey brother and your slut of a mother.

It's 'cause she dumped you, isn't it?

You took it out on him.

You couldn't take her telling you to fuck off,

'cause she saw you're a waste of space.

[Robbie] Baxter! Leave it.

Why don't you head home, Alison?

[gentle music]

You should have told me.

I don't care.

I love you.

No matter...

You do know people use their phone

to tell the time these days, don't you?

That's the problem. Something's broke, you get a new one.

You replace it with summat some poor kid

has the mine lithium for.

Oh, still beating the union drum.

Don't use that word like it's a curse.

I'm the choir Dad. I am the choir, you know that.

Anyway, how you feeling?

You nervous about your hip operation?

Just a little repair job.

Unless your mum reckons I should be thrown in the bin

and replaced with a smarter model.

Yeah well, you know she does.

- How's your Katja getting on? - [Dan sighing]

Marriage takes a bit of work, son.

Yeah...

How do you fix something when you don't know what's broken?

You read that book yet?

- What, Alison's? - Hmm.

Not really.

You know, I er, I found her on, on Facebook.

- Ahh... - Yeah.

- How is she? - Yeah, good.

I mean I think, you know, we, we're just chitchatting.

Oh, for Christ sake, Dan, ask her what bloody happened.

It's decades ago. You don't have to dance around it.

We're all getting older. A girl disappeared overnight.

Don't you want to know what happened?

[scoffing] I don't know. It's a bit much, isn't it?

But obviously, yes!

I do have a load of questions,

but you know, I just feel a bit weird, you know,

having that conversation on the internet.

- There were issues there. - Yeah...

Yeah...

Not that she'd ever tell me about it.

Maybe you didn't ask her the right questions.

What was it you said?

How can you fix something when you don't know what's broken?

Bugger!

Some things just can't be fixed.

Right you, make us a brew.

Alright. Alright.

And have a think about how you can sort things with that girl.

There's nothing more important.

[Dan] I guess so...

All right, ladies.

[pigeons cooing]

[kettle boiling]

[Bill] I am telling you,

she used to hang her teabags on the washing line

to get another few cups out of them during the week.

My mother-in-law was tighter than a camel's arse...

- [electical crackle] - Ooh...

Bugger!

- It's the aliens. - No, it's the bloody plug.

- Where's your fuse box? - It's out in the hallway.

My girlfriend - the spark.

Aren't you independent.

I'll go get myself another plug.

I have something to play ya.

- Yeah? - Yeah.

There you go.

[music playing softly through headphones]

- I love this! - No listen, it's the original.

# I've got to run away #

# I've got to get away #

It's brilliant, isn't it? More raw.

Couldn't wait for you to listen to it.

[turns off tape]

Anything I hear now it's like...

I haven't properly played until you've listened to it.

I'll make you a new tape on weekend.

Oh, did you talk to Peter about the gig?

I cued and got the last three tickets

to 'The Jesus and Mary Chain'.

Not yet. He, he's busy. I will.

You'll definitely be there, won't you?

Of course.

- Have a good flight. - Yeah...

- Have a good one. - Thanks.

Dan I'm, I'm sorry I should have been a bit more, you know...

Your book.

It's bloody good...

I should've said that from the start.

It's fine.

Listen, thank you and I mean that.

But we'll do your trip next year. Yeah, I promise.

Hmm, we'll see.

I love you.

You too.

Bye.

[Catherine laughing]

[Baxter] Get off me, get off me. [Catherine laughing]

Oh there she is.

[music stops]

Where's Peter?

- Hey, we were listening to that. - Where's Peter?

He's feeling sorry for himself, isn't he?

I told him I'm not having that living under my roof.

'That'! He's your son!

- And he's... - Martin!

Is twice the man your brother of father will ever be.

- He's here, isn't he? - Is that the criteria?

Don't you speak to me like that Miss 'High n Mighty'.

Not when you're knocking about with a fella yourself.

[Baxter] Oh leave it, Catherine.

At least it's fellas she's seeing.

You wouldn't want two of them in the house.

All's I'm saying is she better not come in here

with one in her belly.

I'm not rearing another one. Do you hear me?

You keep your knickers on.

[Michael] Hi.

Oh, another one of them going?

You still angry with me?

It was Stella's idea, you know that?

Was it?

Of course it was. All I did was talk about options.

No you didn't.

I feel like Thai for dinner. You good with that?

[gentle music]

[Duncan on phone] Hey, it's a done deal.

Publishers love it, mate.

Dan? Hey Dan, are you there?

Dan, are you off spending your money in your head?

Yeah, ah six months in New Zealand. Bloody hell.

[Duncan] Oh, come on. What did you think?

What, you'd do a few calls with him on the phone

and have a book?

Yeah, obviously I, I didn't think.

Yeah, that's, that's the problem.

[Duncan] But listen, your Kat is gagging to go travelling,

ain't she?

Well, here's your chance, mate.

Hey, listen, I, I, I've got to run.

I'll talk to you later, yeah?

Yeah, okay mate. Yeah, I'll talk to you later.

[gentle music]

Marg, have you seen Peter?

I haven't, no.

He's not walked past your window or anything?

- I haven't seen him for days. - Okay, thank you.

[crowd chattering]

[emotive string music]

Peter...

Peter!

[Peter groaning]

[Alison] Help! Help!

Somebody, help!

Help! Help!

[dogs barking] [distant chattering]

[Alison] Can somebody help!

Ah, International Airport, please.

[driver] Oh, where you heading?

Sydney.

["The Deepest Sighs, the Frankest Shadows"

[by Gang of Youths playing]

# There's a sky full of lights And none of them stars #

# But each white silvery flicker's #

# A faithful reminder to us #

# Of a weight that's in youth That makes a dick of us all #

# If it happened today then it's probably happened before #

# In a crowd unfamiliar I just wanna touch a familiar face #

# And make friends at the parties I've feared #

# The likes of an age #

# To be wanted with truth And make formidable love #

# See light in myself #

# That I see inside everyone else I know #

# It's not a lacking of spine Nor of physical pulse #

# It's just a feeling of distance #

# Akin to a feeling of loss... #