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Are you ready for today's first session?

Yes?

Okay, so we will go step by step, and the

idea with today is that we together explore our bodies.

We will begin with me taking off my panties, and then you will too.

From the second you're born, you're nothing.

Worthless. You deserve nothing but punishment for your sins. You don't

happiness.

Filthy.

Sinful.

Nothing.

I saw the priest doing terrible things to some of the boys.

And that just made me run as far as I could.

It can't be what God wanted.

So I looked for proof of his existence.

There's no God.

Only people trying to control us through horrifying stories.

And yet I still feel guilty.

Let me quickly introduce you to your vagina.

So here we've got pubis, the outer lips, large, the inner lips, small,

the urethra, and...

Most importantly, the clitoris.

Come down a bit. We've got the perineum and the anus.

Nice to meet you guys.

Now you can touch them and say their names.

I'm sorry. I can't stop thinking about my father and the priest.

Is there something else you want to share with me?

Like, do you have any sexual experiences?

I tried doing it with a guy from work.

Danny.

It hurt and stung me.

I thought there was nothing compared to what went on in my head.

The poor guy had, of course, no idea.

what I was going through.

I couldn't understand why I was trembling and crying like a little girl.

So I tried doing it with someone who seemed more experienced, a professor.

He just entered me by force, and it hurt so

bad.

But I was too afraid to scream, and he didn't seem interested at all.

He just went on with his business and then left. Let's choose other thoughts.

Who do you want to think about?

About you.

I'm flattered.

But I would rather have you think about someone who's not in this room.

John Snow.

John Snow.

Kit Harington.

Great.

Take my hand.

Lean back.

Now, put your hand back in place.

Now, it's great. You're doing great, Adelaide.

Now you smell your hand.

I know it's strange in the beginning.

It's okay.

So, what do you hope to achieve from our sessions?

I don't want to be alone.

And I understand now that sex is part of life.

But, you know, simply going out on a date is something I can't do.

Do you think men are attracted to you?

Doctor, I don't have that thought.

I want to ask you something very intimate, okay?

Do you sometimes touch yourself?

It's okay, Adeline.

You're safe here.

Listen, you will talk to Dr. Fay about all of this.

I will help you with the practical matters.

And once you feel safe enough to enjoy yourself and to pleasure somebody else,

I suppose we'll want to bring in a man.

How do you feel about that?

Horrified.

But also...

Ready to start fantasizing about a husband, a family, kids.

But, you know, like in the 50s movies where sex isn't even part of the

I mean, you kiss, fade out, fade in, play with the kids in the park. Perfect.

It's so romantic.

It's great.

Really.

Can we stop here for today?

I feel like I want to go home.

Of course.

I understand.

It's all right.

Listen.

I've got some homework for you.

You sit in front of the mirror, just like we did today, without your panties

Look at yourself.

Touch yourself gently.

And then next time we meet, you tell me what you felt.

Okay? You and I will have our talks, and then there's someone I want you to

meet.

A man?

No. I want you to get to know yourself first.

See?

This is Jane.

She's a wonderful surrogate partner.

She's going to take very good care of you.

She's very beautiful.

And so are you.

Hey. Hey.

How are you? I'm good. I'm at work, expecting a patient.

How are you?

Well, listen, Dad kind of freaked out.

about you.

We had a fight and he's coming over to get you.

So I thought I should call you.

Really? He's coming over?

Has he already left?

Well, I don't know, but he said he was planning on driving there today.

I tried to stop him and I told him that I saw a friend's page that you were

working at a very prestigious clinic, but he just smacked me in the face and

told me to shut up.

I'm so sorry, Peter.

I'm sorry my seat is flying your way. Dad, can't you be a little bit proud of

me?

Proud of you?

Of being a fucking hooker?

I don't sleep nights because of you.

Can't you?

Can't you get a normal job?

Something I can boast about to my friends, you know? Oh, my daughter,

high tech. She's a real estate. She's a lawyer.

She's a stewardess. Anything but a fucking hooker who doesn't even dare

it.

Well, I'll tell you what.

It's finished.

We're out of here. Come on. Come on. Get up. We're getting out of here. I'm not

coming with you.

And you don't even have the decency to keep quiet about it, do you?

Oh, everybody knows at home about your friend, Paige.

They're laughing at me.

I will not be laughed at because of you.

So that's what's bugging you. And you don't give a shit about what I do.

You just mind being laughed at.

I'm angry.

And I'm disappointed.

You know what I want to do?

I want to bury myself.

And you with me. Now come on.

Come on with me. Don't fucking touch me.

And the same goes for Peter.

Do you hear me?

You're just like your mother.