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How did you get this number, Simon?

That's not a very warm welcome.

You'll have to do better than that.

Your dad gave me your number.

Yeah.

He's been very forthcoming, which is more than I can say for you.

You've been a spoiled little brat

living it up on Madison Avenue in Toronto.

What's wrong?

What do you want?

Well, I talked to Natalie

and she said you have some photos that belong to me.

I don't have anything of yours. I left everything behind.

You lying bitch!

Stay away from me.

I don't want to talk to you and I want you to stop calling my dad!

What your dad would think

if he saw a video of you...

on your knees...

with my dick in your mouth?

Who is this?

Simon. Who the fuck is this?

Julianne's boyfriend.

Jules doesn't have a boyfriend, asshole.

- Put her back on the phone. - Listen, motherfucker,

you're lucky we aren't in the same room

or you'd end up in surgery

trying to have your head reattached to your body.

You have no idea who you're dealing with.

Do you know who my father is?

If I find out that you've contacted Julianne again,

I'm going to come after you,

and not even your father, whoever he is,

will be able to make you sentient again.

Sweetheart...

are you all right?

He says I have something of his, but I don't.

He won't stop until he gets what he wants.

I won't let him hurt you.

He has videos of me doing things with him

and he's gonna show my dad.

I didn't make any videos with him.

Oh, God.

What if he filmed me without me knowing?

We can talk to my lawyer.

You can file a complaint and get a restraining order.

His dad's a senator.

He has connections. He could do so much damage.

Don't let the glasses and bow tie fool you.

I won't let him hurt you.

I'll move heaven and earth to protect you.

I promise you that.

You need to tell me everything you know about Simon.

Why do you want to know about Simon?

He called Julianne on Saturday,

and she went to pieces.

Shit. Is she okay?

She was very upset. But she won't tell me much.

You were with her when he called?

We were discussing Thanksgiving plans

when that motherfucker interrupted us.

A bit angry there. Why do you care?

Because that bastard sweet talked her father

into divulging her unlisted cell number

so that he could harass her.

Shit.

I'd like to know who I'm dealing with.

Well, I don't know everything.

I pieced together information from a conversation I had

with Natalie, Julia's old roommate.

Simon was an arrogant jerk who just liked having her on his arm.

It's obvious he crushed her spirit.

I think we can imagine the rest.

- Bastard. - Julia's biggest problem is him.

If you want to help her,

make her life easier, not harder.

And I hope you stop intimidating her with your pretentious bullshit.

She had enough of that with him.

Actually, we're getting along quite well.

You can't fool me. Julia told me that she had a date on Saturday night,

and coincidentally, you're with her when he calls.

So tell me, Gabriel, were you with her after or before the date?

And how was it?

See you at Thanksgiving, Rachel.

The house is sold?

Richard decided to move to Philadelphia

to be closer to Rachel and Scott.

That's so sad.

I love this house.

We all do,

but with Grace gone, it's too painful for him.

For all of you.

Don't dismiss your own grief.

You loved Grace, too.

I need to get this out of my system.

I'm going to have to go cold turkey for three days.

Hi, Dad! I can't wait to see you.

Mm-hm.

That's okay.

Okay, well, I'll see you then.

Everything okay?

Dad's not coming over tonight.

He's having dinner with Deb,

and said I should come over tomorrow.

Looks like I'm spending the night here.

And he said to stay away from you.

Can I ask how Tom reacted

when you told him about Simon?

He said he wouldn't give out my number.

And?

Simon has him fooled,

just like Simon fools everyone.

Dad thought it was just a misunderstanding.

Why in God's name would he think that?

You're his daughter, for Christ's sake.

Why didn't you tell him?

Because I didn't want him to know.

He wouldn't believe me anyway.

Some day you're going to have to tell somebody

everything that happened with Simon.

And I'd like that person to be me.

- We're here! - Hi!

Julia!

Hi, Scott.

- Hi. - Richard.

I'm so sorry I missed Grace's funeral.

- That's all right. - Hi!

I'll make flirtinis.

Gabriel, there is beer in the fridge.

I hear grad school's going very well.

It is. I'm learning a lot

and living in Toronto has brought

some wonderful things into my life.

- Hey, Aaron. - Good to see you.

It smells great in here.

And you're in Gabriel's class?

Can you understand a word he says

or do you need a translator?

It's actually my favorite class.

Professor Emerson's course is the best at the university.

He gave a lecture in October that was jam packed.

Professor Emerson?

That must be quite the turn on.

Do you have all your women call you that too?

I mean, it must be really hot in the bedroom.

- Scott. Behave. - What? It's a joke.

Then make it funny and not some

passive aggressive bullshit.

Sorry, Dad.

What's the big deal? We all know Gabe's a player.

I'm going to unpack.

Julianne, I can show you to the guest room.

What? Why does everything have to revolve around him?

He's not the only one in this family.

It's a good thing our relationship is secret.

Your reputation would be tarnished by association.

I don't feel tarnished.

Oh, Gabriel.

I can't. I'm sorry.

I know you're upset, but I can't comfort you now.

Not like this.

I shouldn't have charged at you like that.

I'm sorry.

It's okay.

I just feel better when I touch you.

Forgive me.

There's nothing to forgive.

I feel better in your arms, too.

After everyone is asleep,

I'd like to take you for a walk.

Last time I was here I got lost.

Promise you won't leave me.

Never.

I'm not going to leave you.

You don't understand how important you are to me.

I cannot imagine what it would be like to lose you.

Do you know who bought the Clark house?

Yes. I did.

What?

I couldn't stand the idea of someone else owning the orchard

and... and possibly destroying it.

Of never being able to come back here.

That is such a generous thing to do for Richard.

Richard and Grace have given me more than I can ever repay.

Are you warm enough?

You're generating quite a bit of heat, so yes.

Why isn't your last name Clark?

Emerson was my mother's name.

I thought if I changed it, I would be disowning her.

And I'm not a Clark.

Not really.

I've had a crush on you since I was 17.

Did your crush have anything to do with

the photo of me on the rowing team?

You know about that photo?

Don't be embarrassed.

I had a crush from the moment I saw that photo.

I was surprised you noticed me the night we met,

and that you wanted me to come with you.

I remember thinking you were beautiful.

Your hair.

Your face.

Your mouth.

Sonnets could be written about your mouth.

I ached to kiss it from the moment I saw it.

Are you all right, love?

More than all right.

You're very...

intense.

If you think that my actions are intense,

then it's a good thing that you don't know

what I'm thinking at this moment.

Tell me.

I want to make love to you...

because I care about you.

I want to worship your naked body with my own,

and learn all your secrets.

I want to please you...

not for minutes,

but for hours and even days.

I want to see you arch your back in ecstasy...

and I want to look into your eyes

when I make you come.

When you look at me like that

I feel like I'm going to spontaneously combust.

I want you to be my first.

I'm yours...

if you'll have me.

I want nothing more.

But not here.

It's too cold.

I burn for you...

but it's more than just a physical hunger.

I... I crave you.

All of you.

I'd like to take you to Florence.

What?

I've been invited to give a lecture

at the Uffizi Gallery in December,

and since the semester will be over,

I thought you could be my guest.

That is if, um...

I don't want to presume...

Yes! With all my heart.

I can think of no one I'd rather visit Florence with.

I didn't want to rush you.

Are you sure you want me to be your first?

It's always been you.

You are the man I've been waiting for.

That should make you happy.

I need to tell you something that might change your mind.

I can't have children.

Oh, um...

that's not what I expected you to say.

Lots of couples have fertility issues.

I had a vasectomy six years ago.

Oh...

Someone like me shouldn't reproduce.

I'm an addict and...

my father wasn't a good man.

I decided there would be no children for me.

Ever.

Trust me, it's for the best.

Except now you should probably choose someone else to wait for.

I'm so sorry.

I understand.

But I still want you.

It's always been you, Gabriel.

Are you sure?

I understand that there might come a time

when we need to revisit this conversation,

but I'll accept what you're saying for now.

It's been too long since I dropped you off.

I miss you. How's it going?

Great. I Miss you too.

I'm making Grace's Chicken Kiev

and a pie for Dad.

He's watching football.

Hope you're having a great day.

I'll call you in a few. Your Julia. XO

There's a fire over at the bowling alley,

the guys are already there.

- They think it might be arson. - Oh, no.

I don't know when I'm gonna be back.

I'm sorry I ruined your dinner.

I was really looking forward to it.

My Julianne.

We're watching football, too.

You don't know what it means to me

to hear you say that you're mine.

Looking forward to your call.

I'm yours. Gabriel.

Back already? Pie's almost done.

So glad to hear that, Jules.

Oh!

Please, let me go.

Is that any way to greet me? Huh? After all this time?

I have a boyfriend. Let me go.

I thought having a boyfriend would loosen you up.

Well, at least I know I'm not missing anything,

although it is insulting

that you would give it away to him and not to me.

Please don't, they were Grace's.

I want my pictures.

I told you, I don't have them.

I don't want to play this game with you.

Natalie says you have them.

She's lying!

Why don't we check your laptop. Huh? Is it down here?

I don't have your photos.

I don't think I care anymore.

Now I'm interested in something else.

Get back here, bitch!

Looks like Tom's Thanksgiving just got interesting.

What?

News alert says it's a five-alarm at the bowling alley.

Come here.

Bitch!

Julia!

Gabriel?

Gabriel!

Get up.

Touch Julianne again,

threaten her or even think about her,

I'll kill you.

- My father will... - I don't give a fuck who your father is!

If a photograph or a video of someone

who even looks like Julianne ends up on the internet,

I'll come after you.

Gabriel!

Julianne.

Hi Julia. I'm Dr. Ling.

Your X-rays confirm your ankle isn't broken.

Do you mind if I examine your neck?

If you two would please leave us.

I'm not leaving her side.

It's okay.

I could perform a more thorough exam if required.

I'm okay.

Gabriel got to me before anything else happened.

He's my avenging angel.

Will it leave a scar?

Yes. A small one.

Over time, it should fade.

You were supposed to protect her,

and you've done a lousy fucking job.

That's enough. Both of you.

The police said that you attacked Simon.

- You're a drug addict! - Test me!

Gentlemen, this is a hospital.

My son rescued Julia.

I've never been prouder of him.

I'm gonna go find my daughter.

Uh...

- So... - Julianne?

Sorry, I didn't...

Come to bed.

I had a nightmare.

You're safe here.

He can't hurt you again.

Kiss me.

I thought after what happened...

Kiss me.

We can't. Not like this.

Is that because I'm a frigid bitch?

No. Don't quote that bastard again.

Don't leave.

I finally get the courage to throw myself at you

and you reject me?

I'm not rejecting you.

I'm not rejecting you, Julianne.

I want you.

You're beautiful,

sexy, lovely, smart.

I want you forever,

not just for tonight.

I love you.

If I have a soul, it's yours.

I love you too.

Our time is coming.

Do you really want our first time to be tonight?

I can't sleep without you next to me.

Sleeping without you

is like enduring an endless night without stars.

You're safe in my arms.

Always.

I met Simon in college.

He was funny and nice.

Our first Christmas he bought me a Vespa.

Julia red, he called it.

My love for Italian things came from you,

but I'd given up hope of ever seeing you again,

so I tried to move on.

When we became official, things changed.

He said I was frigid because I wouldn't sleep with him.

The more he pushed the more I...

tried to compensate in other ways.

He would pressure me and he was possessive.

Did he hit you before?

He shoved me a couple of times,

but the emotional abuse was worse.

One night, I came home to my dorm

and found him...

fucking my roommate, Natalie,

in my bed.

They just laughed at me.

Natalie even asked me to join them.

Ended it right away.

Told my dad that I couldn't live with Natalie anymore,

and he moved me into a studio.

It created a bit of a problem because he was, well...

is dating her mom, Deb.

And your dad still sees them?

He didn't want to choose sides.

How very noble of him.

You're the first person I've told all of this to.

And now you know all my secrets.

Thank you for lending me the scarf.

Keep it.

Grace would have wanted you to have it.

So, Gabriel's your boyfriend?

He's more than that.

He's my soul mate.

You deserve to be happy.

I invited your dad over.

You can't get in between Julia and Tom.

He's her father.

He hasn't been much of a father.

If he cared about her at all, he would have protected her.

Parents make mistakes.

Sometimes, it's easier to place your head in the sand

than to admit that your child is troubled,

and that it's your fault.

I know this from personal experience.

Hey.

How are things with your dad?

We both cried. It was a mess.

There were things I needed to say

and he listened for the first time.

When all of that was out of the way,

we talked about you.

Did you tell him how I feel about you?

Yes, but I left out the part about

you wanting to make love to me in Florence.

I don't want you to have to look at my scar.

You don't need to hide from me.

Do you like Caravaggio's painting

"The Incredulity of St. Thomas"?

Yes, very much.

If you want to wait until your scar disappears,

you'll wait forever.

Scars never disappear.

Caravaggio's painting made that point clear.

Scars might heal and we might forget them,

but they're permanent.

Not even Jesus lost his scars.

I hope you'll forgive me

for the scars I've given you.

You were forgiven a long time ago.

What is M-A-I-A?

Maia. It's... It's a name.

Did you love her?

Of course I loved her.

Were you together long?

It wasn't like that.

Glad the semester is finally over?

More than you know.

Watch it!

What crawled up her butt?

Maybe she finally realized

that Emerson will never pass her dissertation proposal,

so she's contemplating a career change.

By the way, I like your scarf.

A gift from the boyfriend?

Gabriel?

Is something wrong?

No. Can I get you something to drink?

Wine. Thank you.

Tell me what's wrong.

Nothing's wrong.

Gabriel, don't lie to me.

You're obviously upset. Please.

I have some unpleasant things to tell you.

And I know that when I'm finished...

I'll lose you.

Gabriel, please.

I am a murderer.

I took an innocent life.

Her name was Maia.

She was my daughter.

Paulina and I were friends at Oxford

and again at Harvard during...

a very dark time of my life.

I wasn't sleeping much,

I had my dissertation which was proving difficult.

I started doing cocaine to stay awake.

Paulina was a graduate student,

attractive,

constantly around.

A nice girl used to getting what she wanted.

And she wanted me.

One night she suggested we do coke together.

I should have said no, but...

We started sleeping together and...

she told me she loved me.

I... I told her I don't do monogamy.

So she wasn't your girlfriend?

No. But she acted as if she was.

To me, she was just a convenient lay.

I only cared about my drugs and my damned dissertation.

When she told me she was pregnant...

I accused her of trying to entrap me.

I told her to get rid of it.

I gave her money and...

I kicked her out.

One day, I came home,

there was a sonogram taped to my fridge.

With a note.

"This is your daughter...

Maia."

I could see the outline of her little nose...

tiny arms...

little feet.

She was beautiful.

My little girl.

After that, I told Paulina I'd help.

So she moved in, but I was broke.

All my money went to drugs.

I tried to quit.

I couldn't.

One night, after a bender,

I came home and I passed out on the sofa.

The morning after, I woke up and...

hungover I...

I found her lying in a pool of blood in the bathroom.

I thought Paulina was dead.

But it was our baby.

If I wasn't strung out, I could have saved Maia.

A completely preventable death.

I might as well have killed her with my own hands.

Paulina sunk into a deep depression

and tried to kill herself.

And I knew I was the problem so...

I decided to get her help.

And then kill myself.

The night you came home.

The night in the orchard.

Where is she now?

She's in Boston.

In and out of rehab.

Do you love her?

No.

I feel something but...

I could never abandon her.

I am the cause of her problems

and her inability to have a child.

Is that why you decided not to have children?

An eye for an eye.

So you see, Julianne,

I am one of the damned.

You are not one of the damned.

It was a tragic accident.

Listen to me.

It's not your fault.

You wanted your baby.

You made some mistakes, you did terrible things,

and you've spent years trying to make up for it.

But you are not a murderer.

I can never atone for what I did.

You've already done that.

Don't you think saving someone else's child

would pay for your sin?

Or at least be some sort of restitution?

Don't you see?

You've done that.

I'm that child.

Simon would have killed me.

You saved Tom's daughter when you saved my life.

I believe your little girl

is singing with the blessed in Paradise with Grace.

They would want you to find love and forgiveness.

How can you be sure?

Canto 32 of Dante's "Paradiso"

describes the special place God has for children.

Of such are the kingdom of Heaven.

And in Paradise, there is only love and forgiveness.

No hate.

No malice.

Only peace.

We both have scars.

But I am your atonement.

I found my hope when I found you.

Buongiorno.

- Buongiorno. - Grazie.

The room is beautiful.

Thank you.

All for you, love. All for you.

I'm only gonna say this once, Julianne.

There's no need to rush.

We can take our time

and just relax tonight.

Grazie.

It's so beautiful here.

Thank you.

Wait until tomorrow night.

There's a formal banquet at the gallery after my lecture.

I don't have anything to wear to a formal banquet.

Then I'll take you shopping.

I insist.

I need you there by my side.

I... I hate being alone at social gatherings.

Won't it be awkward? I'm just a grad student.

Half the people there were grad students once.

Besides, I want to...

show off my beloved.

We've waited long enough.

You do know all the best spots,

don't you?

Grazie.

To Florence.

To love.

It is not a ring.

So you can breathe.

Open it.

They belonged to Grace.

Before you refuse,

let me tell you that Richard gave them to me.

He gave them to Grace

when he first told her that he loved her.

You are the only woman I ever loved.

They're lovely.

These diamonds represent my heart.

It belongs to you now.

The diamonds and...

my heart.

Always.

Thank you.

- Bye. - Grazie.

- Thank you. - Arrivederci!

Come. Come with me.

Signore!

Signore! Signore!

Make me yours.

Are you sure?

With all my heart.

Then we have to get off this bridge.

Gabriel.

I want everything to be perfect.

Foreplay is essential.

Tonight is about your pleasure.

I want to explore all your senses...

Sound...

taste...

sight...

touch.

I want to take my time arousing and exciting you.

But most of all I want to...

I want teach your body

to recognize the man who worships you,

just by my touch.

There is no one else.

I'm yours, Gabriel.

Dance with me.

I remember that night,

our first dance,

so clearly.

Your violet dress.

Your hair curled up around your face.

I've never seen anything so beautiful.

You were a vision,

and I was a brute.

How could you ever forgive me?

You're giving me the fairytale I never thought I'd have.

Please don't spoil it.

It seems that you're making me nervous,

and I'm rambling because of it.

Nervous? What for?

I've never made love before.

Then I'm glad I'm your first.

I could leave them on.

Perhaps another time.

Let me.

Stunning.

May I?

You are a goddess.

When I'm an old man,

can't remember anything else,

I will remember this moment.

The first time my eyes beheld an angel in the flesh.

I will never see anything this side of heaven

more beautiful than you.

These are lovely.

Just feel.

Hmm.

What's wrong?

No one has ever...

Sweetheart...

Thank you.

- Did that please you? - Mm-hm.

It would be better if you're on top.

But I thought me underneath you...

Not for your first time.

Trust me, darling.

All I ever wanted was for someone to love me.

You have that now.

I want something from you.

Sweetheart.

I want you... on top of me.

I'm nervous I won't be able to...

I'm glad I'm your first.

I want you to be my last.

Are you all right?

Yes.

I'll give you anything.

My body, my soul.

Take them. Take anything.

Are you all right?

Yes.

I love you. I love you. I love you.

Gabriel.

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

Are you all right?

Yes.

I want to make you happy forever.

Was it okay for you?

Like nothing I have experienced before.

You were perfect.

And for you?

It was even better than I imagined.

When can we do that again?

Tomorrow.

After all that we've shared, just...

Just rest in my arms and know that I love you.

My Dante.

La gloriosa donna della mia mente.

You kept your relationship secret.

So now you look guilty.

Gabriel, what happened?

You don't get to make decisions for me!

Read my sixth letter.

Not even hell could keep me away from you.

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