All language subtitles for i_am_s02e03_i_am_maria

Definitely leave the light lying out,
especially in a day or minute.

Well, a bit later. Keep you warm in a
minute.

Yeah.

Anything going on over the weekend?

Um, no, not much, yeah.

Just going out to a... hopefully to a
jazz spot.

Oh, nice. Yeah, I've got a few friends
going together.

Oh, that'd be great.

Always. Yeah, no, we've got a quiet
weekend.

Yeah? Yeah.

You watching anything special at the
moment?

Um, not really, no.

Okay, have a good weekend.

Yeah, yeah.

See you later. I'm going to head off.
See you on Monday.

You had enough?

Huh? You had enough?

Well, yeah, you know, it's the weekend.

Just give me a second.

Okay.

I don't think so. I mean, he's probably
going to cook something, you know.

He likes doing a bit of fiddling.

What's your special milk?

Spaghetti. He likes a kind of spaghetti
with a sort of, you know...

Carbonara or Bolognese, something like
that.

What about you? What are you going to be
getting up to? I was just saying I have

a few friends getting together.

Going out for a music gig.

Oh, that's good.

No, I know I need it. What kind of
music?

A bit of jazz. Oh, lovely. God, I
haven't listened to jazz for ages. Do

anything? No.

Do you?

Saxophone. How did you know?

I mean, I've had, like, three lessons.

Have you?

Really? Yeah, it's not like I can...
There'll be no tunes coming out.

Just a load of noise.

Well, you might have to get yourself a
gig, and then I'll come and watch you.

Well, if you're coming, then I'll
definitely get one organised for you.

Oh, thanks, everybody, for all of this.

Really nice of you. Really lovely. Thank
you.

Oh, good.

Yeah, have a good evening.

Thanks. Thank you.

Come on, John, John.

John?

Oh! Hooray!

Oh,

no, please, not the song again.

Come on.

Wait, wait, wait.

I'm looking forward to this today. Oh,
darling.

Oh, darling.

Cheers. Cheers.

Thank you.

Can we skip that bit?

It's your birthday. Of course we can't
skip that bit.

Right,

do you want to eat?

Yeah? Okay, well, get in on.

Who am I?

Okay.

Cheers.

To... To you.

To... Miracle Maria.

Maria the Miracle.

That won't be long.

I don't know.

Really? Really?

Come on.

No.

Just bring the nut a little bit.

Come on.

No.

Not now.

Maria, not now.

Really?

All right, come on.

No, come on. No, come on. Maria!

Maria!

I didn't mean not at all.

It doesn't matter. It's fine. Not now.

I'm not OK.

A spaghetti by the nose is fine.

I don't understand where that comes
from.

Oh, please, John, enough.

Just leave it.

What do you mean, where does it come
from? What kind of a stupid question is

that? Where does that feeling come from?
We've been perfectly all right up till

now. Yes, we have. We've been fine.
We've had a nice... Don't worry, I

the boat again. We've made love. We've
made it beautiful. It doesn't matter.

It's romantic and lovely. John, please.

No. It doesn't make it... It

didn't seem like the Maria I

know. Okay.

It seemed like a different Maria.

Didn't? Oh, right. Was it a different
Maria? No, it wasn't. It's this Maria.

This is Maria.

This is Maria. This is Maria who wants
to go like that sometimes.

Who wants to take my clothes off in the
kitchen. Who wants to have sex with my

husband. That isn't planned.

Well, I didn't... Is that so much to
ask? I gave you exactly what you didn't

want. Oh, you're talking rubbish. I just
wanted to have sex. I'm perfectly

capable of romantic sex. Yes,
lovemaking. Just not in the kitchen.

You just wanted a fuck.

And what's wrong with that?

It's got to be all, you know, glowy,
beautiful music. It can be beautiful

It can be candlelit. It can be romantic
on your birthday.

Yes, and? But I don't want a dirty fuck.

Right, fine.

I'm not a dirty fucker.

Thank you.

Is there any hummus?

Just keep digging, you'll see something.

Ah. Oh, yeah.

I

fancied a little

dip.

I can do it.

It's not about opening the hummus.

Put it down.

Oh, I thought you were helping me to
open the hummus.

What I was trying to say through the
door when you were in

the bath is that I really love you.

I just want you to know that and just
always hang on to that.

I love you too.

I really do love you, too.

Are we okay?

Yeah, we're good.

Yeah? Are we going to have a nice
afternoon?

Of course we are.

Do you want me to open the hummus? No,
you don't.

I've been opening hummus by myself for
years.

Let me do the others.

I absolutely can't open the hummus. Yes,
you can. Come on. No, I've done it.

I've done it now.

Take a knife to it if you can't. That's
what I do.

Anyway, I've got...

I've got things to do that involve flour
and things.

We'll enter Bake Off.

No, no, no. We've done this.

We did birthday yesterday.

The children haven't done it. They don't
need cake. They're not six and eight.

I'm just saying, we're going to have a
late lunch. We're going to have nice

wine. We're going to have the kids here.

We're going to celebrate the birthday,
I'll open my presents. We don't need a

cake.

I'll just have candles on top that I've
got to blow out and be embarrassed

again, all over again, after work.

We don't need a cake. I'm just trying to
celebrate you.

You don't need to do anything to try and
celebrate me.

Whatever I do just turns to dust.

No, it doesn't.

Come and eat hummus with me and drink
your wine.

You don't have to do anything else to
make me happy.

I'm perfectly happy.

Ah!

Good.

Yay!

The cavalry have arrived!

Come in!

Happy birthday!

Hello, darling.

How you doing? Come in.

to see you. You must be David.

It's so nice to meet you.

Thank you, thank you. I never have to
hear that song again. Speech, speech,

speech, speech, speech!

Oh, God, they sung it at work yesterday.
I just wanted the ground to open up and

disappear. And then I got back yesterday
and then Dad started singing it to me.

Why didn't her husband sing to his
wife's shock? He did get me a really

painting. Isn't that nice?

Yeah, that's nice.

So, how's things going?

How long have you two been seeing each
other?

About five, five -ish months.

Oh, wow.

That's a fair old while, isn't it?

And how long have we been together?

Oh, God, nothing.

So let's go there.

How long have you been now? Oh, my God.
Well, 13.

I don't mind saying 31 years. Oh, thank
you. You're doing well already.

So which bit of Ireland are you from?

I'm from Dublin.

Right. Yeah. I was born and raised in
Dublin.

Yeah. But I have family in Canada. I
have family... Oh. Yeah, over in

Oh, wow.

Yeah. My dad actually lives over there
now. My mum is in Ireland. Are they not

together anymore?

No, they're not. They were together
for...

20 years or so. Where do you think
you'll settle?

Where do you feel like home is?

I don't know.

I'm just curious.

Where are you going to put it?

Come on, you've got to make a decision.

Where will you hang your hat? He doesn't
know.

He can hang his hat wherever he wants.

He might hang it here for a bit and then
there for a bit.

What inside is your home? That's what
I'm saying. What spiritually is your

Yes, it is a big question.

It is an important question, isn't it? I
guess.

Do you have any? Some people don't know
and might never find where they're going

to hang their hats. And that's the great
thing about their lives. They'll just

be roaming around and they're not
looking for a place to hang their hat.

they're very happy not hanging their
hat. If you remember this time, wherever

hang my hats, my home.

You can roam.

You've got your whole life ahead of you.
You can roam... What?

You've got your whole life ahead of you.
You roam as much as you wish.

Sooner or later, you'll... It's a real
theme for this weekend,

isn't it? What? Who calmed down?

Goodness me.

Well, I mean, honestly, it's...

Sorry, the last 24 hours have been like
this.

We're at loggerheads about where we
should be, where we want to be, where we

want to go, what we want to do, what
kind of adventure we want, what

kind of fantasy. What are you on about?

I'd just like to say, in a very calm and
collected way, that nobody's at

loggerheads at all.

Well, I'm not.

I've just been saying, you know.

Come on, maybe we could do something and
travel or we look at

what we've got so that we are not
just... Yeah, yeah.

...stayed. But anyway.

Anyway, look, tuck in and get yourself
some food. There's plenty of food.

I'll use a fork. Oh, thank you.

France or Italy?

Ooh. I don't know, whatever you think.

I'm not a... connoisseur of animal
works. I'll leave them with you. You can

decide which European country you can
travel to. Thank you.

So we've, I don't know what, we've found
a place.

Oh, stop.

Stop. Hot news.

Hot news. Breaking news. No, no, no.
It's not hot news.

It's not hot news. Just Philippa and I
have found a place.

Oh, wow.

Nothing's happened yet. But I didn't
know you were going from that kind of,

know, we'll live here for a bit, maybe.
It's about the right time.

We've been together five years.

How old are you now, 27, 28?

And what does that mean?

It's a good time to start thinking about
those things. It's a good time to stop

living, is it? No. It's a good time to
say, OK, let's stop now.

Did we stop living when we were 27?

Well, there's that debate. We lived in
a...

It's a chapter, isn't it? You turn the
page and you move into the next chapter.

Yeah, but you need to think about the
next. Thank you. Yes, that's my failure.

I know. I'm just saying, you know, don't
rush. How much is the deposit?

No, don't ask that.

Why not?

I don't want to tell you.

They're looking for like a 15 % deposit
or something.

Okay. Are you all right with that? Yeah,
yeah, we're good. You got that?

Yeah, we're good for it.

You've always been good with money,
haven't you?

Planting it away.

Planting it away. I'm not sure about
that.

Spend it.

Spend it. Go wild and spend it.

Get your place.

Thanks for that reckless advice, Mum.
I'll bear that in mind.

You can always rely on me to be
reckless.

Cheers. Cheers.

To the birthday girl. To your... To
mortgages.

Yeah, to mortgages for your home. To
your home and to Philippa.

Thank you. Good for you.

It feels like the right thing to be
doing. Good.

As long as it's the right thing for you,
that's important.

That's good. That's really good. It's
lovely, isn't it?

Is she pregnant?

Better not be. Is she?

She is? No, she's not. But you're
thinking not pregnant. Better fucking

because I can't wait to be an auntie.
That's what I call an adventure anyway.

That's very exciting news.

Congratulations. Good luck.

Good luck. Perhaps it all goes well for
you.

How are you guys? What's going on?

Well,

we might go to Canada for a bit, see how
we like it. Oh, God, that's amazing.

Yeah, yeah, and you know David got
family out there from like it's got

there Yeah, I'd love to introduce it all
my cousins. My cool cousins out in

Toronto. And just see what it brings.

Yeah, I can like a gorgeous lake with
mountains.

Girls going to Canada!

You're excited then, that's good.

When are you guys thinking of going?

We're thinking even getting a little
cheeky bus. Yeah, maybe going around.

do you mean a bus?

Like maybe rent out a bus and kind of
just go along the parks. Oh, that's so

good. That's so good.

I was telling Dad yesterday about this
woman that I used to know who, long

short, every year.

What?

The woman who went through America in a
burger van.

Is that the one? No, it wasn't a burger
van. Why are you so judgmental about

that? I'm not. I've just heard this
story many times. Sorry, you carry on.

There was this woman. I didn't know her
very well. Friend of a friend.

Every year. She was married, happily
married, happy, had kids.

Everything was great. It wasn't because
she was trying to rock the home boat or

anything like that.

Every year, she took herself off.

She flew to New York. She hired a big
motorhome.

And she drove across America. On her
own. To L .A. On her own. Through the

desert. That's fucking cool.

Look, I'll just keep... I'm just going
to take five down.

I'll just... Sorry, go on. What I was
saying was...

That I just started to feel that you
want every day to be, not your birthday,

for Christ's sake, but every day should
be something, you know, you should feel

that you're having your best life.

That's it. That's what I'm meaning to
say. You should feel that you're having

your best life or your best possible
life, whatever that means to you. You,

fabulous.

off to you thinking of going to Canada
for a bit maybe it'll work out maybe it

won't but you're open amazing you you're
having the best the life that you want

you know you've made a choice that's
very no but you know what I'm saying and

I respect that I respect that no I'm
joking your choices are different

and I'm just saying that

There's such a lot.

There's nothing wrong with this. There's
so much a lot I haven't done.

I'm just scared, I think.

I'm coming in.

There's absolutely... There's absolutely
nothing to be scared of.

Are you OK, Mum?

Yeah, I'm good.

I'm good, actually.

I really am good.

That seems a bit... No, no, no.

I wish I could go to Canada.

You should go to Canada. I know, you
see, that's my point.

is my point exactly I don't feel
remotely old you

know I really don't I mean god forbid
there might come a day when I am

incapacitated when I my who knows what
knees hips but

at the moment I feel absolutely alive
and

capable and fit

I feel fit.

I feel... I

feel...

Sorry.

What's wrong?

Nothing.

It's just nice to say it to somebody who
listens.

full of potential.

I don't want to think any aspect of my
life is

over.

It's not.

I know. I know.

I really know that.

I know it isn't.

And I'm not going to let it be.

I'm not going to.

Let it be over.

As I've got a lot to give.

Are you off?

Yeah, I'm off.

How are you?

Hi, darling.

Thank you.

Lovely to meet you.

Lovely, lovely to meet you.

Really lovely.

Yeah, delighted.

How are you, darling?

Thank you.

Bye, drive carefully.

Take care. Oh yeah, don't forget that.

Happy birthday, Mum. Thank you.

Bye -bye.

He's really lovely, isn't he?

Well done, Alice.

This is great.

Well, I might be waving her off to
Canada for a while.

Good on her.

That's all I can say.

Yes? No?

Hello?

Suddenly you've got nothing to say.

That's kind of weird.

Had a lot to say earlier, that's for
sure.

Well, actually, let me rephrase that. A
lot to criticise earlier.

As in me.

What are we doing with this? Chuck it?

Just leave it. I'll do it.

I said leave it, I'll do it. I'm just
putting it down.

Yeah, just put it down and then I'll put
some music on and have myself a jolly

old time and deal with it all.

Actually, how fucking dare you do that
in front of my children?

How dare you patronise me? Leave my
cards alone.

I'm just going to put them on the...
Well, I'll do it.

Looking at what's been written, it's
been written for me.

Can I have nothing that's mine? Me, me,
me.

Aye, aye, aye. Yes, because it's my
birthday.

Not that you'd know that with you.

Criticise, criticise, criticise.
Everything I said today has picked me up

Everything I've done in the last 24
hours is for your birthday. Thank God

and David have got some kind of
understanding of what it was I was

say. Don't call me stupid in front of my
children. No way.

That's not happening. It's called you
stupid.

Whereas you, everything I said was, you
know, oh, well, look, she wants to do

this. And what's she saying? Like, I
mean, really?

It's like I'm not allowed to say
anything. You want me to put on a

jacket in the morning?

It's unbelievable.

Leave me alone for a bit. Just leave me
alone.

Fine.

Just burn it off, all right? Just burn
it off.

Fucking pissed off with not being
listened to.

Just drink. Just have a drink, Maria.

Just have a drink.

Have a drink.

I really hate it. I know you hate it.
Yeah, good.

Oh, good. Good that I hate it. Is that
your intention? Is that what you're

trying to do? If you actually stopped
and analysed what's happened and what

reaction has been, I think you might
realise that it's not stupid.

All that's happened, listen to me, all
that's happened in the last 24 hours is

that I've said, God forbid me, I've said
a few things.

about not being blinkered, about seizing
the day, about having freedom to do

anything that we want to do. That is all
I've said. And you've taken such great

umbrage to it, which is one thing. I'm
trying to understand it. Oh, really? I

not understand it. Well, then why don't
you ever say to me, why don't you say to

me in a calm, quiet way?

Please tell me what you mean, Maria.

Please tell me what you're feeling.

You always fight me whenever I try
and... No, I don't fight you. I'm

you now. Every time I try to speak to
you, you fight me. I'm fighting you now

because of the way you behave today.

I was not allowed to say things to my
children. I was not allowed to share my

feelings with them.

You said plenty to them. And why
shouldn't I?

Why shouldn't I?

At my cost.

Why? It's me saying that I might want to
have some freedom and have an adventure

at your cost.

Why is it?

Because every time I challenge it, you
take the piss out of me. It was you who

was taking the piss out of me.

I started to tell them the story about
my friend and you said, oh, here we go.

Here's this story about this woman who's
it.

One crush.

Everything I said, one crush.

And I'm not.

to be crushed by you or anybody!

I'm going to apologise because I don't
see why I should have to.

I don't want to shout.

I don't like shouting, but...

I would

like it if you could understand that...

What we did when we were young.

We got this home and we had the children
and we absolutely did it.

But there was so much that I didn't do.

Things I really achingly wanted to do
and just

couldn't do them.

And now...

We don't have those responsibilities.

And I'm not in my late 20s or early 30s,
but I am absolutely

in my prime.

My prime.

And I'm not going to waste it.

I'm going to do this with or without
you.

Sorry, John.

Please.

Nice room, very bachelory. You know,

the big TV and the big sofa and that's
kind of

all you need.

All you need indeed.

Why are you here?

Why am I here?

Well, because there's this thing that
passes between...

two people and I think it's passing
between us.

And I'm not going to pretend it's not
happening.

And I want it.

Hey.

Hey.

Maria.

Wasn't sure if you were coming back.