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Kerissa Fare
had the perfect look
for Playboy in the 2000s.

Quintessential girl next door,
and that's what they loved.

But she was definitely
out of her element.

She seemed
like the type of woman

who could be
easily influenced by others.

She's about to launch
this huge career

and now all of a sudden,
you have homicide detectives
trying to talk to you.

Nobody knew a thing.

She just disappeared.

This was definitely
the most complicated
case that I've ever covered.

If you can see
the hair on my arms
are standing up right now.

Things just keep getting
more and more outlandish.

It was just
"What the hell is going on?"

Five people had been
murdered and butchered.

And police
had arrested the lead suspect,

who is, by all accounts,
a mystery man.

But then he decided that
he wanted to sell his story.

And so he started
writing letters from jail,

and he targeted Playboy.

Because his ex-girlfriend,

Keri,
was in that month's issue.

So naturally,
authorities very much
wanted to track her down.

We're trying to identify
the entire picture

as to what all took place.

And if Keri
was involved with him

in an intimate relationship,
we definitely thought

she had some information
or was potentially involved.

Ultimately
they locate her

and she's in Las Vegas
on a promotional event.

Because Keri, it turns out,
is now Kerissa Fare,

the Playboy magazine's
September Playmate
of the Month.

Kerissa Fare
and I came to LA
around the same time.

She was a Playmate
before I came to Playboy,

but only slightly.

It was the year 2000,

Playboy was really
at the top of its game...

Every young woman
wanted to be in Playboy,

and it just seemed like

a really magical place
to start your career.

I'm Irina Voronina,
Miss January 2001.

Kerissa was
one of the first Playmates

I ever met in Los Angeles.

She was
a typical California girl.

She enjoyed the beach,

she enjoyed the outdoors.

And she was always smiling.

We got Kerissa Fare...

Kerissa was
one of the contestants

on Win Ben Stein's Money

and watching
the footage of her

I can just see that she's,

like, Playboy's
ideal Playmate.

What month are you?

I'm Miss September 2000.

I was
Miss April 2001.

I remember
when I first met Kerissa,

I really thought she had,
like, a Nicole Kidman vibe.

Because she had
this beautiful, sort of,
like, strawberry blond hair

and she had very fair skin

and a naturally
beautiful face

and she was tall.

She was a little bit shy,
but super, super sweet.

I found out she is actually

from Southern California,
Riverside,

and she grew up
in a one parent household

and basically, kind of,
raised herself,

and I think when you grow up
really fast like that,

you do wanna
live a large life.

The early 2000's was a really
special time for Playboy.

The brand was very mainstream.

Now, we're here
at the Playboy Mansion.

We'd seen
all these stars from the '90s,

like, Jenny McCarthy,
Pamela Anderson

and Carmen Electra
come from the magazine

and go on
to these exciting careers.

Kerissa wanted
to model and act.

She was definitely
embracing opportunities.

In what city
is the Pentagon located?

-Washington DC.
-Washington DC?

No.

But I feel like she was
definitely out of her element.

Kerissa Fare
was not her real name.

I remember calling her Keri.

Her boyfriend sent
in her pictures to Playboy

because she didn't really

believe in herself
all that much.

And nobody really knew
about the relationship

but he believed in her.

Kerissa was chosen
to be a Playmate,

and in May of 2000
she shared with me
that she'd got her months,

which will be
September of 2000,

and she was super excited.

It was
a very competitive time

because there was
a very special search

for a Millennium Playmate.

So it must have
felt a little bit like
winning the lottery.

Kerissa's
Centerfold shoot

had something
in the bedroom set up.

Like she was
in her beautiful apartment

with some tasteful lingerie
and satin sheets.

It was very sexy.

Looking
at Kerissa's pictorial,

she is just very much

the quintessential
girl next door.

She's really beautiful,

she's got a great body,

she's very voluptuous,
a really pretty face.

She looks shy
but inviting at the same time.

I think Kerissa was very happy
with her Centerfold

and the Playboy shoot
in general.

And she was very grateful
to be there.

The 2000 Playmates,

they got to do
so much cool stuff.

They got to do

Betsey Johnson's fashion show.

They got a layout
in W Magazine.

When I saw the layout
of all the Playmates in W,

I was like "These are the most
beautiful girls in the world."

And Kerissa was one of them.

For a new girl coming
into Playboy at the time,

there's an endless potential
for opportunity.

I spent the entire
summer of 2000

out in Los Angeles

hanging out
in Hef's inner circle.

One day you're gonna go
and you know, meet Madonna

or you're gonna have tea
at Rod Stewart's house.

Which those things
actually did happen.

But I don't have
any pictures with Kerissa.

She was
one of the young ladies

that passed through
for a very, very brief time.

She didn't hang around
the Playboy Mansion that much,

which was very strange

because I was staying

at the mansion
during my shoots

and I was invited out
with Mister Haffner
practically every night.

But Kerissa had a place
of her own in Los Angeles.

She was driving a modest car,
like a Honda Civic,

which is not
very likely for a girl

who's a Playboy Playmate.

So I knew she didn't have
anyone paying her bills.

It was actually
very refreshing

because she was different.

I feel like
she was, kind of,

somebody who showed up,

did what she had to do.

Everybody really liked her.

She was easy
to get along with,

but people felt
like she had secrets

and you know things
she didn't wanna talk about.

A lot of Playmates, you know,

we had horrible childhood
and abusive relationships,

but she didn't
wanna talk about it

or share certain things.

She seemed
like the type of woman

who could be
easily influenced by others

and fallen into a situation

where someone
was taking advantage of her.

Keri was described
as kind of an enigma.

She was introverted.

But when your issue
of Playboy comes out,

all of a sudden you're
the center of attention.

You do
your Centerfold tour,

which is where you go around

to different cities and people
are bringing magazines to you,

and they just want you
to autograph it.

This was her time
to milk it and enjoy it

to be the center of attention,
to be the beautiful self.

And guess what?

Police showed up.

She's about to launch
this huge career

and now all of a sudden
you have homicide detectives

trying to talk to you
about multiple murders.

I think that
that would frighten anyone.

And then she just disappeared.

I was like, whatever happened
to that Nicole Kidman

looking Centerfold
named Kerissa Fare?

Where did she go?

Nobody knew a thing.

I'm Keri Mendoza,
Playboy Centerfold
Miss September 2000.

It's hard for me to believe
what I lived through.

And I want to tell my story.

Playboy was
my only ray of hope

that gave me strength.

I had run away,
I changed my name.

So when the detectives
came to Vegas to interview me,

I was very scared.

And that
really changed everything.

I grew up like a very tomboy.

With just my dad
and my brother.

My mom left when I was one.

So all I do is focus on school
to get out of the house

'cause I wanted
to be on my own.

I even graduated early
in high school.

And then I had met somebody
and we moved in together.

But it was
an abusive relationship.

If you didn't have
a happy upbringing,

you'd just end up dating,
you know, the first guy

who tells you
that you're pretty.

I think a lot of Playmates

come from history
of abusive relationships.

I had to get away
from him.

But every time
I tried to leave, he found me.

He would stop me.

He found out where I worked

and he popped
the tires of my car.

My dad's like,
"You need to disappear."

So I literally
packed up all my stuff

and went to San Francisco.

I didn't know anybody
in San Francisco.

I just needed
to move far away.

I was 21.

And that's when
I started working
at a cocktail lounge.

And that's where I met Taylor.

Taylor Helzer is
about six years older than her

and charming
and very successful.

And drew
the eye of, of everybody

when he walked into a room.

He was a stockbroker
for Dean Winter,

and he would come in there

in a suit and tie
and have shots

and was just this very
vibrant, outgoing person.

One time he actually
left his credit card

and said that was my tip.

He wanted me
to buy something nice

so he could
take me out dancing,

and I was,
you know, flattered.

But I said I would love
to go out with you

but I'm not gonna
use your credit card.

And he took me out dancing.

Taylor was different because
he was...

How can I say this?

Like, he wasn't about
having sex with me.

It was about
getting to know me.

And he just always was happy.

And I wasn't used
to being around people
who were always happy.

I didn't grow up in a house
where we said I love you

and we were affectionate
and he was very affectionate.

And it was different for me.

Kind of, like, showing me
a different way of life.

Taylor was raised
in an observant Mormon family.

He was the oldest of three.

Glen Taylor Helzer,
from the beginning,

he went by his middle name.

He was the family's
shining star,

he was very much looked up
to within his local church

because he was so successful
at evangelizing.

But he was very, very unhappy.

And eventually he leaves.

He moves in with his
little brother, Justin,

and eventually, Keri.

And starts living
the kind of life

that he believes
he should be able to live.

He wanted
to try doing things in life,

like go to clubs,
and that was forbidden

and things I had
never done before, either.

He experimented with drugs
and I experimented with him.

My first time
I ever did drugs, he said,

"Here's aspirin
for your headache."

And it was ecstasy.

I didn't have a headache,

and I didn't know that
I was even taking Ecstasy.

I didn't have
the opportunity to say no,
I didn't wanna take a drug.

But because of the the way
that ecstasy affected me.

I got over it quickly
'cause it was amazing.

They couldn't get enough.

As their relationship
progresses,

Taylor starts to have plans.

He was starting
to act different.

He was trying to scam his job

so he didn't have to
go to work any more

and he could
just collect disability.

And he's conjuring up
all these weird schemes

and things
that he wants to do.

And so he was going down

a different path
that I was not...

That wasn't me.

He quits his stockbroker job,
and it is this turn

that really starts
to have an effect

on their relationship
and on Keri.

Because one of Taylor's
moneymaking schemes

was to and try and pitch
Keri for Playboy.

He wanted them to do some,
like, escort service.

He thought if I was gonna
get into Playboy,

I could talk
the girls into it.

Taylor's plan might sound
crazy to an outsider,

but believe it or not,

there were, you know,
high class escort agencies

who did use girlfriends
of Hef's or Playmates.

So it's not inconceivable.

It had already been a year
that we had been together,

I didn't have stability
until I met Taylor.

So I was, pretty much,
did whatever Taylor would say.

So I paid
to get my boobs done

and I sent pictures in.

I took them in my front yard.

Taylor took 'em,
and I still had scars
when I sent my pictures in.

I did not think I was gonna
get into Playboy.

But after I had
my surgery done,
it changed me.

I was starting to feel
more independent,

like, maybe I wanted to
venture out without Taylor,

and my relationship
with Taylor

was rocky at this time.

He was starting
to get controlling,

he was taking
crazy medications
like Klonopin

and mixing them with alcohol
and was acting weird.

I was like, I really
don't know this person

because he has
changed so much.

I think the shift was gradual.

Instead of evangelizing
for the church,

Taylor started saying that

he's the one who should be

in charge
of the Mormon church.

That the current
church leadership

and church elders
were not good enough.

Slowly coming to the belief
that this was his path

and things just keep getting
more and more outlandish.

Taylor
was not Taylor anymore.

He was talking about religion.

He was talking about
that he was a prophet of God

and that
he wanted to extort money

from clients,
from Dean Witter.

And that this is
what God wants him to do.

And I did not like the things
he was talking about.

I did not like
the disability thing.

I did not want to be
consumed by drugs 24-7.

Now we were also
selling drugs.

I was seeing darkness in him,

and it wasn't a healthy
relationship anymore.

It was scary.

And I wanted out,

but I felt like
I have nowhere to go.

Being in abusive relationships

can do a number
on your self-esteem.

But Playboy
could definitely be a way out.

When I opened up my PO box

and saw
the letter from Playboy,

I thought maybe it was a
"Thanks for your submission,

but we're not interested."

But it was
the complete opposite.

It was, "We would love to
have you do some test shots."

They wanted to see more of me,
and I was excited.

Because I wanted to move on
without Taylor.

But I didn't feel
he was gonna let me go.

And I got really depressed,

and he saw that and said,
"I know what you're doing.

I know you don't wanna
be here, so just go."

And I literally, like,

grabbed my cat
and whatever I could
put in my car and I left.

Like, I was gone,
like, in 20 min.

She was away from Taylor,

and that was absolutely
not in Taylor's plan.

I was really excited

to get down
to Southern California

to do these
test shots for Playboy.

So I rented a place,

I had a roommate,
and I worked for a nightclub.

I was a server there,
and I felt free of Taylor.

I felt free of the chaos.

And when they
took my pictures, they said

"This very rarely happens
but you're in the magazine.

This is gonna be
your Centerfold.

Like, you're gonna
be Miss September."

Keri had
the perfect look

for a Playmate in the 2000s.

She didn't wear
a lot of makeup,

very fresh faced, kind of,
like, a blank canvas.

And that's what they loved.

Doing Playboy was huge because
they were the first people

to ever put makeup on me.

Even the pictures
I sent into the mail,

I wasn't even
wearing any makeup.

So when they
turned me around in the chair,

I was like, "Who is that?"

I felt like
I was playing a role.

Kerissa Fare
was my character for Playboy.

It's somewhat
common for women

to want to use
a different name

when they pose for Playboy.

You're, kind of,
getting this new image,

and you can use that
to start a new life.

It was definitely more
than what I expected.

I did not know that there was
a contract for two years

or how much more
exposure you can get.

Hef knew who I was,
and I was shocked.

He was the first one
to show me my magazine

when it was all finished
and it was so exciting.

He took me to his office
and showed me the magazine,

and I was like, "Oh, my God,
this is really happening!"

And then one day Taylor
shows up at my job unexpected

and scared the crap out of me.

When you become
a Playboy Playmate,

some ex-boyfriends
come out of the woodwork.

I've seen it so much.

And, quite honestly,
I was not aware about

the awful relationship
she was in.

I think he was hoping
she would come back

and he could start
his crazy business plan.

I felt very scared
because I was basically
rebelling in his eyes.

I did not know why he came,
but I felt like I needed

to do whatever he wanted
because I wanted him to leave.

So he gave me ecstasy
and we went to the beach

and that's pretty much
all I really remember.

There's really
no getting around

how charming Taylor was
and how manipulative.

And how good
at being manipulative he was.

I told Hef
and Hef was worried about me.

So he said,
"I'm gonna make sure
that you're not gonna be

in one place
for more than two days."

I was all over
doing promotions.

I went to Chicago,
I was in Texas,

I was in
all parts of California.

I lived
out of a bag for weeks.

I went to different places
every two days.

There wasn't really
any protocol

for Playmates
who might be having

a problem with a stalker

or with a significant other
or an ex.

But Hef promised to keep her
as busy as possible

so she wasn't
in the same place all the time

I think
the Dorothy Stratten tragedy

definitely played
a role in Hef

wanting to help out
the Playmates that he could,

if they felt like
they were in danger.

Because it was such a tragedy
that was not forgotten.

And I think the fact that
Keri's issue release party

was in Vegas
really speaks to that

because usually
a Playmate's issue release
would be in their hometown,

because that
would get a lot of publicity.

Hometown girl poses nude,

so that's almost
always what it was.

And there was a little bit

but she was from Riverside,
not Las Vegas.

I went to Vegas, and that's
when I turned on the news.

Selina Bishop
was one of those folks
you just couldn't miss.

And I see
that Taylor's on the news.

They were calling him
by his first name,

Glen Helzer,

and asking the public
if they had any information.

Locals recently
began seeing her

with Glen Helzer,
her boyfriend,

who is now a suspect.

I'm over here just in shock.

I did not know
what had happened

but I knew he was capable
of doing almost anything.

I was a reporter
for the Contra Costa Times.

We covered
the entire East Bay.

We became aware--

In the early morning hours
of August third,

a terrified homeowner
calls 911,

um, gets a hold
of the Marin County
Sheriff's office,

and says
there have been shots fired.

"I have a studio apartment
in my basement that I rent out

and I think that
it happened down there."

I was advised that
there was a homicide

and was asked
to respond to the scene.

We actually found
that there was two people

that appeared to be deceased.

A Jennifer Villarin
and a James Gamble,

as well as nine millimeter
bullet casings.

It turns out
the woman who actually
lives in the apartment

is a 22-year-old
named Selina Bishop.

She's not there,
but the two victims inside

appear to be Selina's mother
and the mother's companion.

So we needed
to try and locate Selina.

Right off the bat,

the Marin sheriff's detectives
were extremely worried

about Selina Bishop.

It was just a fluke

that it was Jenny
and Jim there that night.

So they were not sure

if Selina had been
the actual intended target,

and that concern only grew

over the course
of the weekend.

The next significant piece
of the investigation

is that Selina
doesn't show up for work

that following Monday.

Selina worked
at the Two Bird Cafe.

Everyone said, "Oh, well,
right now she's camping

in Yosemite
with her boyfriend,

who she's been dating
since May,

and no one really knows
much about him."

What they know is that
the mysterious boyfriend

lives with his brother,
Justin.

And incredibly co-workers
find her pager.

And when the police
are going through the pager,

they find the name
Justin Helzer.

From there what we did is,
we obtained some photographs

from the Department
of Motor Vehicles

of Justin and his brother,

who we identified
as Glen Taylor Helzer.

And we took those photographs

and we showed them
to a few people.

And they recognized
Selina's boyfriend

as being Glen Taylor Helzer,
also known as Taylor.

So the cops decide
they're going to go over

to Taylor and Justin's house

and pick up
the investigation there.

They go inside the house
and they find Taylor

and his brother, Justin,

and they find
a third person, a woman.

Her name is Dawn,
and she's a roommate.

And something's up.

Much like, if you could see
the hair on my arms
are standing up right now,

at that time,
we're fairly certain

that something horrific
had taken place at the house.

They're finding
news clippings about
Selina's disappearance.

They find drugs.

During that search I noticed
some financial documents

that were not related

to either Dawn,
Justin or Taylor.

And as I'm looking at them,
I literally said,

"Who are Ivan
and Annette Stineman,

and why did they have
this paperwork?"

And there was a Concord
Police Department officer,

standing at the doorway

and his head literally
swung to the, to the side

and looked at me and said
that they were in the process

of working
a missing persons case

related to an Ivan
and Annette Stineman.

The fact that
the Stinemans are missing

and that this paperwork
is showing up

in a location for a suspect

in an entirely
different murder case

is gonna get
everybody's attention.

You just can't stop thinking

what, what,
what could be next.

And then I was told
that a bag was located

on the Mokelumne River

that contained body parts

that were
ultimately identified

as belonging to Ivan
and Annette Stineman,

and Selina Bishop.

At this point,
the Helzers and Dawn
get arrested.

They can hook 'em up
for the drugs,

so they do that right away.

Once the three of them
were arrested, no one talked.

As Marin
and Concord investigators

dig into this case,

one more name
that kept coming up

was Keri Furman.

And she was that month's
Playboy Centerfold.

We had learned
by talking to people

that Keri had dated Taylor up
until about February of 2000,

just a couple of months
of when this took place.

So we attempted
to make contact with Keri.

Kerissa was in Vegas
promoting her issue,

and I can't even imagine
what it's like

to find out
that your ex-boyfriend

could be a serial killer,

while you're
trying to celebrate

your biggest moment in life.

When the police came,

I felt like
they were looking at me,

like, I had some involvement
or I helped 'em in some way.

When we're looking
at investigations like this,

everybody is a possible person

involved
with the investigation,

and my impression was that
she was a scared young woman,

and potentially she was
involved in some fashion.

We just didn't know
to what extent.

It's hard to be
so closely connected

with something as tragic
as what happened.

Taylor was arrested,
and within days detectives
came to Vegas to interview me.

I can't even really remember
the whole interview

'cause it was so traumatic.

We made a deal
with the district attorney

that anything that
we had found out

would not be used against her.

So at that point
we really went into detail

and she started to open up.

They wanted
a profile of Taylor

and how he went
from a stockbroker

to the things he did.

I block a lot of things out.

So I can't even tell you.

All I know is the way that
Taylor got me to do things,

I knew how persuasive he was,
and that scared me.

So as we started
to learn that Taylor

had this grandiose idea
of essentially taking over

the Mormon church
for lack of better terms,

he thought that
he was a prophet of God

and his intent
was to bring everybody
into his belief system.

Taylor starts talking
about how he's gonna bring

peace and love to the world

through all of these
completely bonkers ideas.

Importing women from Brazil

to become
high-end prostitutes,

starting a drug ring.

All sorts of things
to make money.

People would describe Taylor

as sort of,
like, a cult leader,

the way he would try
to control people,

and it was all incredibly,
incredibly toxic.

Keri's relationship
with Taylor

resulted in her helping him

in some of his
moneymaking schemes.

Among those was an incident

where she was
with him in Mexico

when they purchased Rohypnol,
date rape drug.

I really was,
kind of, just going along
with what he was saying

but not realizing
why he wanted it.

We started to think
this is why she was concerned

is because she had provided

some money to him
to purchase drugs.

But in talking with Keri
over multiple different times,

she was was not aware
of the violent side of Taylor

because she chose to depart.

Taylor never
talked about murder.

For him to be able to snap
and choose to do that...

I don't know who that is.

And I don't know
if somebody who can feel

that they're
a prophet could do that.

This was definitely
the most complicated case

that I've ever covered.

As far as Taylor went

and why these
five people were killed

was actually not something
that was answered

until several years later,

when Dawn Godman
decided to cooperate.

After Keri made the choice

to branch away
in February of 2000,

that's when Dawn Godman
was brought in.

Taylor saw me as being
this lost, innocent girl

that he could brainwash

and mold
into whatever he wanted.

But I left and I wasn't there
when Dawn came into the group,

but I had met Dawn
through Justin first.

She had a son and Taylor
paid a lot of attention to her

and I think
that's what she liked.

I feel that Justin
was definitely forced
to do the things that he did.

Taylor considered
himself a prophet,

and his brother and Dawn,
he considered disciples.

Taylor's plans involve a lot
of things that he has to do,

including murder,

but he's doing it,
in his mind,

at the direction of God,

and that's how he justifies

doing all of the crazy things
he does.

He dubbed the three of them
"Children of Thunder."

And that comes from
the biblical Sons of Thunder,

which was what Jesus called

the inner core
of his apostles.

And the plan
that Taylor called
Transform America

was going to bring
in Christ's second coming.

In order, to put it into play

he needed money.

And none of his schemes
were successful.

So that was when he thought

of his old job
as a stockbroker,

and he targets the Stinemans
and their retirement savings.

So they prepared everything
that they would need.

And we know all this
because Dawn kept
all the receipts.

And one of the final pieces
of the plan

was finding someone
to help launder the money.

So he actively
went looking at raves
for a naive young woman

who he could charm

into doing
what he needed done.

And that May
he met Selina Bishop.

Everything was about money.

They went to the Stinemans

who they'd kidnap
to obtain their funds.

Taylor abducts
the Stinemans at gunpoint.

They get fed Rohypnol,

and under
the influence of Rohypnol,

the Stinemans
are forced to write two checks

for $100,000 to Selina Bishop.

After the checks were written,
Mr. Stineman was murdered

by having his head bashed
into the tile floor.

And Mrs. Stineman
had her throat slit.

And then the two brothers
and Dawn thanked God

for the sacrifice
the Stinemans made.

At that time,
Taylor picks up Selina

for what is going to be
their final date,

unbeknownst to her.

He was using Selina
to open an account

so that it wasn't linked
to Taylor Helzer.

Selina
didn't realize that
the relationship was fake

from start to finish.

Where he kills her
and dismembers her

along with the Stinemans.

And then
they had to find a way
to eliminate Selina's mother,

who had met him.

And so they went to Woodacre
and murdered her

and unfortunately,

her boyfriend
happened to be there.

Taylor tells people

that his goal
is to save humanity.

Then how that involves
a bunch of dead bodies

is unexplainable.

Keri was never connected
to any of the crimes.

There was a thought
that maybe the Rohypnol

that was purchased
utilizing Keri's funds

may have been used

with Ivan
and Annette Stineman.

But we weren't able
to identify that.

She didn't know
that he had started
to execute his plan.

He had talked to me
about things,

but not about the things
that actually went down.

It was more about things
that he wanted to do.

Impact America and,
like, embezzle money.

But I did not know
it was gonna happen that way.

I think I came
very close to being killed.

I'd heard a little bit
about Keri's association

with what happened.

And it's just
such a crazy story.

And it just seems
like such a godsend

that she got chosen
for the magazine when she did.

It got her away from Taylor

and ultimately
might have saved her life.

All three of them
were ultimately charged
with five counts of murder.

Dawn pled guilty,

so there was no trial
and she received
a 38-year sentence

because she testified
against Taylor and Justin
in their respective trials.

I went to in court.

That was difficult.

Taylor's right there
looking at me

as I'm on the stand
and I was in tears.

Justin and Taylor
both ended up getting
the death penalty.

I was happy that Taylor
got the death penalty.

I'm very proud
of Kerissa,

that she was able to

separate herself from him
and start a new life.

And Playboy
played a part in that.

I feel like Playboy
saved me a lot,

but I also feel like Taylor
stole that from me.

Because while Playboy
wanted me to be out there

in the open
and promote myself,

all this is going on.

All I wanted to do was hide.

And while under contract,
I met a guy

and fell in love
and got pregnant.

And I chose that over Playboy,

and that was the end
of my contract.

For Keri,
being so closely connected

with such a horrible tragedy

must feel like a giant weight
on your shoulders.

But for her,
she didn't do anything wrong.

She got out of there
just in time.

She's a survivor
of this whole thing.

And I still get fan mail
every now and then.

People want me
to sign pictures.

One of my quotes
was "Never be afraid
of your dreams."

And for a short period of time

my dream was to feel pretty

and be accepted
into Playboy, and I did.

The Playboy Club was full
of powerful men,

but bunnies were not allowed
to date customers.

Yet, it doesn't take long for

this relationship
to really solidify.

But, just like the bunnies
maintain an air of mystery

sometimes that went for
the clientele as well.

And jealousy and betrayal can
make us act irrational.