All language subtitles for The.Ring.Thing.2017.HDRip.XViD-ETRG

Mom, what is happening
with the piles?

Don't be criticizing
my piles, OK?

You should have seen
it a few days ago.

OK, I won't criticize
your piles.

This is good, these
are good piles.

OK.

- Is it all gonna fit?
- Yes.

I've thrown away a lot of stuff.

OK.

So what am I supposed
to do with this?

That's all your crap.

If you want it, take
it, and if not,

we're throwing it away.

OK.

All my crap, understood.

That's pure me crap.

Sarah tantrum face. You
still make that face.

Oh, you were really a fat baby.

Look at that. Look
at all those chins.

What's this?

That's John's wedding ring.

I don't know what
that's doing in there.

You can throw that away.

- Ahoy.
- What?

Matey.

- Oh, hi.
- Hey.

- How are you?
- I'm happy to see you.

How are you?

Happy to see you.

- How was your day?
- It was good.

- There was a lot of dust.
- Look at you, animal.

Look at how much sand
you just brought on.

Sorry, just want to make a
castle later, you know?

- Dust, lots of dust.
- Lots of dust.

Lots of boxes.

- Lots of treasures.
- Ooh.

But, ooh, Susan's gonna give
us her cuisine art thing.

- Cuisinart?
- Yes.

She says hi. And she's giving
us stuff for the kitchen, so...

- OK, cool.
- You know I don't

- go in there.
- Cuisine art.

That makes more
sense, you asshole.

Oh, you keep me young.

- Would you like wine?
- Yes, please.

Hey, hey, lookie, lookie.

Cool, right?

What do you think?

I mean it's my dad's
ring, so, it's...

I mean, I found it today.

And it's kind of weird and cool.

Mm-hmm.

- What is happening right now?
- What's happening right now?

Oh, did you just think that
I was proposing to you?

- Shut the front door.
- No.

- Sarah Watson.
- Kristen.

What? What just went
through your head?

Do you know who I am?

I don't know, Sarah, we're
at a beautiful beach.

- Uh-huh.
- I brought wine.

We've got cheese.

- You did this to me.
- And you pulled it out.

It was a set up.

- I'm sorry.
- You're right, I framed you.

I'm so sorry, come here.

-No. -Come here,
little pookie monster.

What's a pookie monster?

You, you are a pookie monster.

Hey.

- I'm the worst.
- Yes.

But this has already
been established.

I hate you and I love you.

I love you and I love you.

Cool.

You think the water's cold?

Yep.

Do you want to walk
in it, anyway?

Sure.

What do you think?

How did you make that happen,

and when did you
make that happen?

Alchemy.

Ah, I didn't know you
were practicing.

- Wanna try it?
- Mm-hmm.

- Mm-hmm. Yeah.
- It's good?

- Oh, my.
- Oh, my goodness.

Happy anniversary, my
two favorite people.

You shouldn't have.

Thank you, that's beautiful.

Well, do you want to
blow out the three

and I'll hit the zero?

- Sure.
- All right, you ready?

- Sounds like a plan.
- One, two, three.

- Well done. I remember.
- You remember.

- Look at that.
- Wow.

- Yes, yes, yes, yes.
- Ruining my cake.

Hold it? We're going
to take a picture.

- Oh, with the three.
- Yeah.

Yeah, there you go. Happy
three years to you.

Go. One, two, three.

- I think it's bursting.
- Did you get it?

- I think so. One more because...
- It happens.

- So work. How's it going?
- It's work.

That doesn't sound good.
- I mean...

We got people coming and going

and it's a lot of
extra stress for me,

- but it's OK.
- I know, but everything

that's worthwhile, work
while you're stressed,

- you know?
- It takes a little...

- monkeying.
- I know.

- It's fine.
- I wish you sounded happier.

I should get a knife and
cut this sucker up.

Are you the same...

Are you the same person I
was talking to before?

OK, well, can I please
be connected with them?

Ahh...

An individual plan?

No, I'm a freelance worker.

I've been on the phone
for like an hour,

do I really have to go
through this again?

I can call back tomorrow,

but I'm supposed to go
to the doctor tomorrow.

No, I'm not going to pay out
of pocket, that's ridiculous.

- What is this?
- It is risotto.

- Smells so good.
- Want some?

Mm-hmm.

- Mm. Mm-hmm.
- Good?

- It needs something.
- I don't know.

- Tastes good to me.
- Lemon zest.

Yeah.

Oh, I have a meeting at
eight tomorrow morning.

- Can you move the car?
- Uh... Yep.

Not gonna go to the
doctor, so, that's cool.

- Sarah.
- Kristen.

-You need to go to the doctor.
-I don't have health insurance.

- There's no point.
- There's a point,

and it's keeping you healthy.

- It just makes me...
- I know, I know, I know.

But I'll pay it.

- Please just go.
- We could do

so many other things
with that money.

It's not urgent, so I'm
just gonna sort it out

- and then...
- Yeah, but it'll get urgent.

It's god damn health
insurance, man.

You should just be on
mine and make it easy.

If we could be
domestic partners,

then you could
probably get on it.

Oh. Yeah.

- Yeah. How do we do that?
- I don't know.

It may be more complicated
than that, I don't know.

- Let me talk to HR.
- OK.

- But.
- Yeah, and you know,

I could look into that
tomorrow, too, if you wanted.

Oh, my God, that
would be amazing.

That would be. We
need you covered.

Thanks for joining us here at
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And join us next week,

when we take a
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We're going fishing, before
we make fried fish tacos.

So grab your flippers,
let's reel in that catch,

- and happy haunting, spirits.
- And cut.

Very nice, everyone.

- OK.
- Good luck with your...

- Kristen.
- Yeah.

- Stepping out.
- So, remember Julie

I used to work with?

- Uh, yeah, crazy Julie?
- Crazy Julie.

She called me last night.

She heard about the
new EP we have.

- Uh-huh.
- She worked with him

about six months
ago at Food Park.

Apparently, he's a sports guy.
Never worked with food.

He came in, fired everybody.

-Went in a completely new direction.
-Apparently, he's a real ass.

He's gonna be no different than the
last guy we had six months ago

and the guy before
that, it's fine, OK?

It was so simple when it was
just you and me, you know?

Well, it's their call.

It's a little extra stress, but
we'll get by, don't worry.

- OK.
- I'm listening.

I loved it. We are almost
out of here, baby.

- Let's go.
- Somehow we dropped

a frame at like minute
three, but we just fix that,

- then we're good.
- OK.

Oh, OK, OK.

They didn't care about
the music in the end?

- No they really liked it.
- Really?

- Yeah, they were laughing.
- Yes, yes.

- OK. Can I export?
- Yep.

Sweet. A few minutes.

Not bad, Miss Sarah.

- Dream team.
- Doing good, Gary.

Mm-hmm. You went
to P Town, right?

- How was it?
- Magical.

- And then I fucked it up.
- What do you mean?

- As per usual.
- Oh, God, what'd you do?

-What did you do? -I found my
dad's wedding ring at my mom's.

-Uh-huh. -And I took it,
and I put it in my pocket.

And then I walked to the
beach, where Kristen was

with a bottle of
champagne at sunset,

it was beautiful, and
I pulled the ring

- out of my pocket...
- What?

And handed it to her
without saying anything.

What? Yes, yes, you're
getting married!

No, no, no, no,
that's not the...

I just wasn't thinking about it,

but she totally took... she
did just what you did.

- And, now it's awkward.
- So you're not getting married?

- No.
- OK, good,

because I thought you said you
never wanted to get married.

- I think I did say that.
- I was just trying

to seem excited, but I'm
actually really not.

Don't do it. Don't do it.

- Gary.
- Otherwise you're gonna

have to deal with the bullshit

I'm going through right now.

- Yeah, what's happening?
- Do you want to see it?

It's real, it's like
actually official.

I hired a lawyer and I think
I finally am getting...

- getting through this.
- Oh, my God, Gary.

- I know.
- Let me see.

This, my friend, is how you get
divorced in New York City.

Doesn't it only take one piece
of paper to get married?

Yeah, right? This is my
confession of the day.

I found on YouTube, this
web series that's like

- how to get divorced.
- Whoa.

I know, I know.

I thought about making my own,

with gay marriage
comes gay divorce.

Yes, you should totally do that.

Like one episode, I would
get my tattoo removed.

-Uh-huh. -Which is like
actually a really good idea.

And then you could bring me
in as like a special guest

to talk about how not to get
married in the first place.

Because you're so good at it.

Like, here's a ring,
let's not get married.

Want like whiskey on the rocks.

- Two of them.
- First round's on me, OK?

Sure.

You've arrived just in time.

- Have I?
- Mm-hmm.

What's my prize?

- Tart.
- Mm...

Mm, mm-hmm.

- You OK?
- Mm-hmm.

Stupidly didn't
sleep last night.

- Yeah, I could tell.
- I'm sorry.

I'm wondering if maybe we
should talk about P Town.

Yeah, OK.

Let's talk about it.

It was part of the reason I
wasn't sleeping last night.

[KristeOh, God.

- OK.
- I don't know.

- I just want to talk about it.
- Yeah, let's do it.

What do you want to say?

Do you know who I am?

- No, who are you?
- Hi, my name is Sarah Watson.

- It's lovely to meet you.
- Lovely to meet you, too.

Since we just met, I don't think
this proposal is a good idea.

I was ready to say yes.
- Yeah, you were.

I was.

Are you?

I don't know.

I want to be with you forever.

Yeah, I want to be
with you forever.

Great.

- That makes me happy.
- Me, too.

Uh, it just...

My family kind of fucked me up
on the whole marriage thing.

It just feels like
a whole big thing

that I don't really understand.

OK.

- I have a twig in my mouth.
- A twig?

Mm-hmm.

- Da-dum.
- Oh, that's garnish, Sarah.

- That was rosemary garnish.
- Sorry.

- Um...
- What am I gonna do with you?

Shouldn't marry it.

- That's your reasoning?
- I don't know.

I was talking to Gary today.

- Ooh...
- Yeah, and...

You know... he's
going through...

- a rough patch, obviously.
- Yeah.

Um...

But we thought, maybe,

maybe we should do a
doc or something.

I mean about marriage,
not just...

- Divorce.
- Yeah.

I mean, it's topical right now.

Mm-hmm, that's true.

I think you should do it. I think
you should talk to people.

-Uh-huh. -And then I think
you should figure out

why it is that you
have so much confusion

around this specific topic.

You make it sound really easy.

Well... From my point
of view, it is.

But I know that it's more
complicated than that.

- Do it.
- Yeah?

Yeah.

I'll think about it.

I think it was also...

- Could you repeat that?
- OK, sorry.

What was my question again?

Did you think that marriage
was something, something...

Oh, yes. I always thought
I would get married.

- Um, I think it was just...
- What is this for?

You know, we were
talking about marriage

and exploring all that,

so the opportunity presented
itself and I seized.

All of our friends that pretty
much marriage was what...

OK.

So?

It's not what we talked about.

What did we talk about?

I thought we were talking
about gay marriage.

These are, like, the straightest
people I've ever seen.

Nothing against that,
of course, but...

Right, right, right.

I thought we talked
about, you know,

embracing our community
and discovering, like,

- how people are dealing with...
- Yeah, yeah, I guess I think...

this marriage epidemic.

- Epidemic?
- It's sickly.

Yeah, I guess, I thought
that was a part of it,

but I was thinking
broader, but...

You're totally right, it's
better if it's more specific.

If I were you, I would
dedicate some time to this.

Would you do it with me?

Um...

Well, maybe it'll help.

Yeah.

I was kind of thinking...

along the same lines.

For both of us.

That's a serious camera.

Give it to me, I'll
set it on the table.

-Good point, I should probably...
-Put it on silent.

Actually, turn it off.

So, this can go in your pocket

or wherever is
comfortable for you.

What are we signing away to now?

Our permission to
photograph your...

- Likeness.
- Faces.

OK.

All right. Say, we're ready
when you are, Sarah.

OK, cool.

Um, so, thank you guys.

- Of course.
- Thank you. Yeah.

A couple things.

If you could use my
question in your answer,

in the event that, you know,
my voice is not in the film.

So if I say, "Erin, what
color is your shirt?"

You can say, "My shirt
is blue and white."

Instead of just,
"Blue and white."

- Got it.
- That's a hard one to remember.

I'll remind you.

If you forget, I might
ask you to say it again

with a question, so I'll just say,
"Could you rephrase that for me?"

Sure.

And, yeah, this will
be fun, I hope.

But... if anything, like, starts
to make you uncomfortable,

you're totally allowed to say, "I
don't want to talk about that."

If we start to make
you uncomfortable

just let us know,
then we'll tone back.

Hello.

Hello.

- What you got there?
- Fruits of my labor.

You labored so hard
for those fruits.

Yeah, tell me about it.

Hey...

Just new EP.

I just don't know what's gonna happen...
to the show.

- Stressful.
- Mm-hmm.

Chug the wine. Put
on the clothes.

Shut up, come here.

It's going to be OK.

That is warm.

- Ooh. Sounds expensive.
- Oh, it was.

- Yeah?
- OK, open it.

Just what I've always wanted.

- I know you like ties.
- Come here. Yes I do.

You can't borrow it
for at least a week.

- OK.
- OK.

I won't touch it.
Except right now.

As I take it off of you.

♪ What the fuck is lady like?
Lady like ♪

♪ Do what the... just like you ♪

♪ On my knees ♪

♪ Or on all fours ♪

♪ From underneath ♪

♪ Hear me roar ♪

♪ What the fuck is lady like? ♪

I think this one got bigger.

No.

Yes.

You should get it looked at.

I can't.

You can.

An envelope?

- Mm-hmm.
- Circle and ticket inside.

Of sorts.

Cool.

- Uh...
- This is...

What?

This is big, OK?

I just need you to
acknowledge this is a thing.

I know. I know it's a thing.

It's also, literally,
saving my life.

Agreed.

So?

Round two, hot
domestic partner sex?

I don't... would you
have been ready

to get married at that point?

I don't know that I was
ready to get married

when you proposed,
so no, I was not.

I was not ready to get
married at the point

when we did the
domestic partnership.

So, I mean, I think
the, for me, at least,

maybe from your perspective,
the advantage of not having

had the legal rights to do this,

allowed me to sort of
dip my toe in the water

and say, "OK, the water's not
so bad," with each step.

Domestic partnership, to
me, just always seemed

so clinical a term, you know?

That, it's not exactly
a loving word.

If you weren't a gay couple, you
could get a domestic partnership.

You could be married or have
a domestic partnership.

You had choices. We
didn't have any choices.

We fought for any inkling of
recognition and protection.

And so, when they say, "Here's
your domestic partnership.

It's the same as marriage,
don't you want this?"

It's an insult. It's almost
like a business transaction,

whereas marriage has
such a resonance of love

and event that brings people
together to celebrate.

I don't feel any
pressure to get married.

Like at all, I don't think.

- Do you?
- No, I don't really feel any...

Yeah, I don't feel any pressure to
get married now that it's legal.

But I know for some people it really...
it's really important to them, and...

We're also just
not that old yet.

- It's true.
- It's true.

No one's asking us yet.

I feel like the
pressure will mount

the longer we're together
and the older we get.

If I knew a couple
in their early 30s

who had been together
for like 12 years,

I mean, I'd ask,
like, "What's up?"

I just wanted to
introduce myself

and talk a little bit about
my role here on the show.

Thus far, I've been with the
show about five, six years.

- Five years, right?
- Yep.

Um... and in that time,
we have really worked

at identifying who
our consumer is.

And trying to steer our show,

design our show for
that consumer.

Well, it looks like the first two
years you guys did really well.

-Yep. -There's been a
steady decline since then.

Yeah, well, there's been a little
bit of saturation in the market,

but we have a lot of really interesting
things coming up on the schedule.

- A lot of new ideas that...
- Listen, Kristen, um...

- I have a budget to meet.
- Sure.

I have deadlines.

I think that the
best thing to do

- is to clean house, start over.
- Sure.

Pick up the pieces,
you know what I mean?

Yeah, of course, I... we've
had new teams in the past

and... usually it causes a
little bit of a hiccup...

Well, hopefully this
is the last time.

-Sure. -I'm sure you're a
great producer, Kristen,

and we've really had
a great run here,

but I think I have
to let you go.

Oh.

OK. Is Nina aware that
this is happening?

I mean.... I've been with
the show since it started.

No, I think that you
could tell her.

Um... if that's difficult, maybe
have her schedule a meeting with me.

[maLiving a life of joy

doesn't mean that there aren't
horribly depressing days.

And so, we try to sit down
and talk out the sadness.

The communication is key

because it helps you get
back out of the sadness

and back into the joy.

- Does that make sense?
- It makes sense.

- OK.
- And breakfast.

- Breakfast.
- -We always have breakfast together.

That's just part of the joy.

So I get up, once we're
done cuddling, I get up,

- and I make breakfast.
- And then good luck.

And the dance breaks. The dance
breaks are very important.

- Mandatory dance breaks.
- Yes, regular.

So the secret to being together

successfully for 30 years is:
communication, cuddling,

breakfast, and dancing.

And the other secret to being
together for 30 years,

I mean, I attribute it to the
fact that Steven won't leave.

You wrote that a few days ago.

I love them.

Thirty years together, and
the biggest fights we've had

are based on who's going to
get the bigger piece of cake.

Because we always,
literally, over breakfast,

he will portion out the food and I will
give him the plate with more food on it.

And he says, "No, no,
no, that's for you.

You take the one
with more food."

And I think that's one of the
reasons we have succeeded.

Because our instinct is
always going outward.

Are you leaving?

Um... yeah.

I'm gonna go.

I don't... I don't
feel that well.

Uh...

I don't think I can listen to

another Prince Charming
tell his Prince Charming

- how much he loves him.
- OK.

Um...

Have you even once considered

talking to... someone
who's divorced?

Mm-hmm.

Have you set up an interview?

No.

OK.

I just let you out.

So I wrote a piece for
Cosmo about my divorce,

and it came on the heels
of some other media

about my divorce and the media
was a little hyperbolic,

it was like, "I was one
of the first gay people

to get divorced in New York."

I don't know if that's true.

It might, I mean, I guess,
probably, first-ish, but,

um, so tCosmo piece came
on the heels of a lot

of other media, and I felt like,

as I felt in a lot of other
situations in my life,

like I was alone.

I knew the article should
be about the facts,

what happened, and then
how I dealt with it,

because I didn't
deal with it well,

because I did have
another suicidal crisis,

and I did live 10 blocks away from
the George Washington Bridge,

and I did have to work
through all of that,

and work through the feelings
of getting a divorce,

and then the logistics
of getting a divorce,

and knowing that the legal
system might not have been

prepared to deal with
gay divorces yet.

I kind of hate when people say like
divorce turns your world upside down.

I think that's very vague. It's more
like it puts the world in a blender.

Because nothing, it's like,
nothing that you used to

think makes sense
makes sense anymore,

and that's not to me upside
down, that's more like

everything changes,
everything changes.

Like, you're breaking up,
it sucks for both people,

there just happens to be a
legal document around it.

And I think when you
commit to somebody,

like in front of your
peers and like there is

an embarrassing part of
it, where it's like,

what's so wrong with me that
I can't, like, accept her

and love her for
exactly who she is?

Like, what's wrong with, that's
more than self-preservation,

like, what kept me in
our relationship was,

"What's wrong with me that
I can't love this woman

for exactly who she is?"

Would you get married again?

I don't know if I would
get married again.

- Yeah.
- Why not?

Um...

Are you excited to
be a free woman?

You know you can do
whatever you want.

It's going to be fine, you know.

- Mm-hmm.
- Mm-hmm.

- It will be.
- Yeah. Yep.

Opportunities, right?

It's totally gonna be fine.

Sorry.

A little scary.

This will be fine, too.

- Promise.
- OK.

When was the last time
I cooked for you?

-I don't know. -If you could

do anything, what would it be?

Not have this
conversation right now.

Okie dokie.

Fuck, are you
fucking kidding me?

Sarah!

Sarah!

Sarah...

- Sarah! Wake up!
- What?

There's gas everywhere.
Get outside.

Come here. Get
outside right now.

Quickly. God, what the fuck?

The fucking alarm, what
is wrong with you?

You leave the fucking
oven on all night?

The pilot went out. We
could have fucking died!

What is wrong with you?!

Always. Always, it's me.

I always have to fucking
be the one to pick us up

and keep us from fucking dying!

Are you kidding me?

We're OK.

No one died.

Thank you for waking up and
saving us, but it's fine.

Hey.

We're not OK.

I lost my job today, Sarah.

- I know.
- My job.

But you're gonna
get another one.

Not another.

It's not that easy, you don't
understand how big this is.

How much our livelihood
depends on this.

How much of me depends on that.

- OK.
- I can't.

OK.

- I need you to meet me.
- I'm right here.

You've just got to
tell me what to do.

Because you're right, I don't
know all the stuff that you do.

- But I can't help...
- I just need a partner.

I want to do that for you,
I want to be your partner.

I can take more work.
I can do that.

You've been holding us up,
but I can go out there

and I can take more jobs,
it's not a big deal.

I'm drowning.

- I'm drowning.
- I'm not gonna let you drown.

I'm not gonna let that happen.

- We can figure this out.
- It just is.

[mal think of being
married as, it's a verb.

It's not... it's
not an adjective.

It's something that you
continually do every day.

You wake up, hopefully,
next to the person

that you're married to,
roll over, and say,

"Do I want to do
this again today?"

And hopefully the answer is yes.

And if it's not yes, then
you say to the person,

"Hey, I'm having these doubts."

Can I just see that
transition again?

OK.

I know I've asked, like,
six times, but...

I'd like to believe
that as an officiant

who's planning a wedding
ceremony with a couple,

I bring the fear.

I like to inject a little
bit of uncertainty

into the room because
I think the 12 weeks

leading up to a wedding
as being the time where

they can be tested by the
people in their lives,

and especially somebody that
they probably don't know

very well, like me, kind
of just asking, like,

"Why do you want to do this?"
Every time they see me.

My main fear in same
gender marriage

is that in a way, we are sort
of whitewashing who we are

because a lot of our
weddings look a lot like

the weddings that
people are used to,

and I kind of want to
turn during a wedding

and be like, "Oh, and also, we
fuck each other in the ass."

You know?

Hey, everybody.

Uh, thank you so
much for being here.

Especially late notice.

This is awesome, super
helpful for us.

We were up all night. And
this is totally rough.

But we want to get your thoughts

and see if our
ideas are working.

So Gary's gonna pass
out a questionnaire.

If you could fill
that out after.

And I tucked in my shirt,
so this is serious.

And I think we're good.

Let's do this.

- Baby, could you get the lights?
- Mm-hmm.

So I guess my thoughts about
marriage from when I was younger

were shaped by growing up in
a family where the marriage

wasn't really that
successful, in general.

My parents separated when I was
one or two, and that's my...

[man Mine was seven, so we
both had divorced families.

Yeah, I think, I mean, yeah, what
does that say to a young person?

It was twofold. One, coming
from a home where the marriage

wasn't necessarily a shining
example, a perfect definition

of marriage, it was more the
working definition of marriage

and the obligation of
marriage and kids,

on top of knowing that I was
gay, I never thought about it.

It was just something I always was
resolved that would never happen.

Yeah, I don't know
where it came from.

I don't know where
the ideas came from,

but for me it was always...

I wasn't like other girls

in the sense that I
wasn't dreaming up

what my wedding would look
like when I was little,

but as I started to get older,
I very much had that idea

of I want one person. I
want a lifetime partner.

I want that... I want
that Notebook shit.

- Can I cuss?
- Yes.

If you're a bird, I'm a bird.
That's what I wanted.

Let's just say, marriage is
queer, in and of itself.

Why would we commit ourselves
to being monogamous

or truly committed,
emotionally, to another person?

And I think once we
sort of say, like,

"This whole thing is sort of
queer and weird to begin with,"

then I think it opens up
tons of windows and doors

to lots of possibilities for
what a marriage can be.

I think vows are really fucked
up because they're really rigid,

and it's like a promise to
someone that you're gonna be

the same way and do the same
thing for, for forever.

Contractually obligating
yourself in a relationship,

meaning like the legal definition of
marriage is basically a contract, right?

And then when you want to get a
divorce, it's breaking a contract.

Um... that's really expensive.

Prohibitively expensive to,
perhaps, low income people.

A lot of people spend a
lot of time, perhaps,

in relationships that
aren't right for them

because they're married and
can't afford a divorce.

I think that's a huge
conversation to have

because the reality is that 50
percent of people don't make it.

Fifty percent of
couples don't make it.

It's just one of those things

that we don't want to believe

can happen to us.

This always happens.
It's the middle.

It's messy.

Every time, you push through it,
and you have something incredible.

Just push through it, OK?

I just want to figure
it out by now.

No shortcuts.

You can do it.

I have faith in you.

You have Ibuprofen?

This is a sty.

I thought you were
gonna turn this in.

Can you do it tomorrow, because
I need coverage by the first.

I don't think I can.

What?

Sarah, I love you.

I really love you.

And I want to take care of you.

And I want you to be
healthy and happy.

So?

I want this to be bigger than a
doctor's appointment and, I...

This is bigger than a
doctor's appointment.

- Is it?
- Yes.

Really, because it looks like
you're avoiding something.

Domestic partnership is
the easy way out, Sarah.

This is just so that I can
have health insurance.

This has nothing to do with
this other conversation.

It does, OK, it does.

It has everything to do with it.

If that happens, I'm never
gonna get anything else.

I am trying, OK?

I am spending all of my time
trying to figure this out.

You sent me on this journey
and I'm trying to go on it,

but I don't get where
the pressure is.

I want you to want to
go on this journey.

I do, I'm doing it.

I am literally putting it up

in the middle of our living
room and working on it.

I stayed up all night
last night working on it

and I don't understand
what you want from me.

That is abstract.

- This is us.
- This is real.

These are real people.

And marriage is fucked up

and complicated and
messy and gross

and this is what it is. If you
don't like the look of that,

then I don't know what to do.

You see what you want to see.

I just want to be with
you and not feel like

you're basing this
relationship on whether or not

I'm going to give you a ring.

You mean so much more
to me than that.

I'm not holding you hostage.

From a psychological
perspective,

why does getting married
feel like something

we should be striving for?

Well, first of all,

I don't think everybody
strives for marriage,

but there are people who
love to put on a big show.

Marriage ceremonies, big parties, are
announcements to the wider world,

to the wider community, to
both sides of the family,

that something is
taking place and that

two people are being joined
in a very public way.

For some gay people,
this is a very big deal

because it used to be that those
relationships were secret.

Nobody knew about
those relationships.

So, for some people, being
able to be openly gay,

have a big wedding,
is very important.

- But again, not everybody.
- Do you think that

long-term relationships are
inherently problematic?

Hm.

- I'm sorry.
- It's OK.

- Is that every long-term
relationship is a successful

series of divorces
and remarriages.

So that the couple,
who they are,

many years into the
relationship, are not the same

as they were when they
first started out.

And unless they can
negotiate those separations

and realignments of the relationship,
the relationships don't work.

Life became very rote, you know,

like coming home, watching TV.

Even the same thing for dinner
kind of night after night,

you know, so that there's
no seeing each other anew,

you know, or planning things.

It was just, I would say,
taking each other for granted

-was the best way... -It's
like frustrated by patterns.

I think, like, you
know, I think people

get into patterns, and
I don't like patterns,

but I think sometimes it's like,

you're not only frustrated
with your relationship,

but you're frustrated
with yourself.

I was stagnant in my life.

I wasn't happy with anything
what I was doing, you know.

It was very hard to find work.

So I think that a lot
of times, just life is

leading the relationship,
like things in life

start to just weigh
on the relationship.

Kind of got into like
a boring kind of,

we were like, wow,
this is like not good.

You working from home all week?

Mm-hmm.

- You have any interviews today?
- Tomorrow.

If you're in a long-term
relationship,

you're going to see the
person, warts and all.

You're going to see their good sides and
you're going to see their bad sides.

At beginning, everybody's showing
each other their good sides,

but when you start
moving in together,

when you're together
for a long time,

you see things you don't like.

And learning to live with
parts of the other person

that you don't like is a
challenge in every relationship.

Sarah.

Those little things that you,

maybe they're quirks
or they're things,

I would say this; when you're
in love with somebody,

you love their faults.

And when you're falling
out of love with somebody

or you're not into them,

it literally is the
opposite feeling.

Those faults are magnified
and you're like...

Hey.

Hey.

Why are you here again?

Why are you here?

I have to go to work.

I have to go to bed.

OK.

- I love you.
- I love you.

When do they take
out the stitches?

That was like two weeks ago.

Well, they left one behind.

We have to get this out,
otherwise it's not gonna heal.

All right, let me
get my tweezers.

All right, here we go.

Ow, fuck.

This one's my favorite.

- Yeah?
- Mm-hmm.

You think they're gonna
take that one away, too?

No.

- It's safe.
- Really?

How do you know?

- I'll keep an eye on it.
- OK.

Ooh, ow. Mm-mm.

- No?
- Mm-mm.

It's gotta come out.

I think, if you just leave it,

isn't it just gonna
do its thing and...

No, it's not healing
because it's in there,

so either I'm gonna take it out,
or a doctor's gonna take it out.

- But it's gotta come out.
- We wouldn't be

in this situation if I
just had health insurance.

Oh, you want to have
that conversation?

- Do you?
- I'm tugging.

- Ow.
- Sarah, it's been a month,

where are you, what's going
on in that head of yours?

Uh... I don't.

-Oh my God. -You got it all

since our last conversation?

- I don't know, Kristen...
- Just give me something

to go on because
otherwise I'm gonna...

- Ow, fuck.
- Sarah, you cannot wiggle...

-Jesus Christ. - while I'm
pulling something out of you.

- It hurts.
- I know it does.

Please just grit your teeth.

[Saral don't know where I
am in relation to you.

I don't want to get married!

Got it.

We just weren't that couple.

Nobody suspected us ever
of getting divorced.

Like everybody looked at us and
said, "Oh, you're perfect."

And... but they didn't
really know, you know,

no one ever knows what
happens behind closed doors

and nothing terrible,
nothing bad happened,

we just were slowly
drifting apart.

I thought, "Oh, I could
never get divorced."

I genuinely thought we
would never get divorced.

Didn't even cross my...
I thought,

because both of our parents
were divorced, so I thought,

"Oh, we broke the spell."

We were married longer than
both of our parents were.

So I thought we broke the spell.

I thought we broke the curse

and clearly we didn't, so...

I don't understand
what these words mean.

- What is PNL management?
- Things I did.

- Just...
- OK.

Is the layout OK?

- Yeah.
- OK.

I mean, it's impressive, I just...
don't recognize you.

What?

Yeah, I mean, it's like.

Do you want to keep
doing this stuff?

It's what pays the bills, baby.

- Looks good.
- OK, sending it.

You came from The Spoon.

Mm-hmm.

Now you're at the rival.

Yeah, well.

I was wiThe Spoon for
quite a long time,

I was with them for
almost six years.

- And...
- So why did you leave?

What are you looking for?

I was looking to go
in another direction.

Hmm. Like what?
What do you want?

What would you love to
bring to this show?

Your show seems so
steady and so, um...

I've been loving
your content lately.

Oh, great, great.
What do you love?

- Um...
- What would you like to add?

- What do you think we need?
- Well, I think...

If I could create your dream
job, what would it be?

Um...

Stream of consciousness,
I'll take anything.

I've never been asked that in
an interview before, so...

Impress me, why do I
want to hire you?

It's an interview,
it's an interview.

I...

- Well...
- What do you want?

I had to deal with my ego
in a new way in your 30s.

You have like a... in your 30s
you have a self-perception.

I had a self-perception
that I was very diplomatic,

that I was very even keeled
that I knew how to communicate.

And then this
transition came upon me

where I felt like my
identity was gutted.

It really bares you
out on the table.

And I could feel the
film of it like on me,

like, "Oh, you're not
being yourself."

And it was really strange to feel
that way for a number of months.

[SaraWhat was it that allowed
you to come out of that?

[womal think what allowed
me to come out of that

sort of hardened period was just an
acceptance that things take time.

A sort of, like, lesson
of trusting the process.

That processes are
actually slow.

Confronting my own impatience
was really important.

And actually just being OK
with things as they are

and not having to push
for a certain outcome,

not having to aggressively be proactive
about something and stimulated.

Mimi?

- Ah! Hey.
- Hey.

- Ah!
- How are you?

- I'm good.
- It's so good to see you.

It's good to see you, too.

- How you been?
- I'm good. I need you.

- Come, come, come.
- OK, where are we going?

- Yes, take a look.
- Whoa.

- Take a look. Look at the sign.
- Do these open?

- Yes, it opens up.
- Cool.

- Can you imagine? It's gonna be great.
- That's awesome.

- See?
- Oh, my God.

- See this? Welcome to 348 Quiet.
- This is amazing.

- Yes, you like?
- Yes.

OK, so the dining
room is over there.

- The bar is right there.
- Look at all this brick,

- these rafters.
- I know. I'm going rustic.

- So that was the show kitchen.
- Yeah.

- This is the real kitchen.
- Oh, yeah.

Where the ugly stuff happens.

Yeah, I figure about four
people can fit back here.

This oven was a bitch
to get in here.

It's giant and pretty well worn.

- Yes, it's yours.
- But they did it and it's mine.

- Can I see your menu?
- What menu?

You don't have one yet?

You're not impressed.

Not that I'm not impressed,
there's a lot here.

OK, what do you like?

- Oh, God...
- OK... No, no, no, no.

I, OK... I've never started
a restaurant before.

But...

- Right.
- There's an arugula salad

at every motherfucking
restaurant on the street.

- Yeah, OK.
- You need two?

- No... all right.
- No, no you don't.

When you go to a restaurant,
what do you want to eat?

- Comfort food.
- Comfort food?

- Yeah.
- OK, what does that mean?

- You know, lasagna.
- OK.

When do you open?

Next week.

Oh, I don't like it when
you look at me like that.

- Next week, Mimi?
- Yes, yes, yes...

Come on.

- I know, it's bad.
- Time's a wasting.

All right, let's... we're gonna
do some menu tests right now.

- OK.
- We have a whole kitchen.

- Right... Right now?
- Right this very instant.

- Really?
- Yep.

- Tell me what to do.
- All right, really?

We're gonna... OK. All right.

All right, uh...
Let's make pasta.

- Pasta.
- Pasta, yeah.

- All right, OK.
- Tell me what to do, chef.

It's your kitchen.

So, we're gonna need flour.

- Mm-hmm.
- Eggs, and some salt.

-Where can I find... -The salt
is over there in the corner.

Let's get some cheese.

-OK, I like this, I like this.
-Let's raise the stakes a little.

I'm gonna call in
some taste testers.

- Help us make some decisions.
- I like.

To me, it was always very
strange that the right to marry

trumped the urgency
of something, like,

anti-discrimination
bills, you know?

It's still legal to deny
a trans person housing.

It's still legal to fire
someone for being trans.

It's still illegal in some states
for LGBT parents to adopt.

It's so strange to me that
there wasn't more urgency

in taking care of those things
before we were, like...

Yeah, yeah.

I'm sorry I'm late.

- That's OK.
- It's not my fault.

- It's cool.
- Yeah. Thank you.

- What's going on?
- Um, new interview.

- With the marriage counselor.
- Yeah, it was so good.

- Really?
- Yeah, he was so interesting.

He's kind of, well, you'll see.

- OK.
- Yeah.

I want to watch and
then talk about it, OK?

[ma... series of divorces
and remarriages.

- Good lighting.
- Thank you.

Crisis when there is a
breakdown in communication.

If one of the members
of the couples is...

been thinking about
getting married,

and the other one has never been
thinking about getting married,

but it's been a private
internal conversation,

it would be a surprise to the other
person and the person who...

Goddamn it.

- I have to, this is Mark.
- OK.

Hi, Mark, thank you
for calling me back.

Yes.

-May have the expectation
of the other person.

All right, OK, so we did

variations on mac and cheese.

-Yum. -So, on our way down,

we have a take on queso.

So it's like nacho queso, almost,
but applied to mac and cheese.

Over here, we have a butternut
squash mac and cheese.

- Smells amazing.
- Fried sage and thyme.

And down here we have horse
radish, cheddar, with bacon,

so it's like a Pennsylvania
Dutch exploration.

Don't mind us as we stare
at you while you eat.

Mimi's really looking for this,
like, comfort food vibe,

something that makes you
feel warm, you know?

Come home after a long day,
what do you want to eat?

Only one can go on
the menu, all right?

So which one is
it that you like?

The sage, like, blows
me out of the water.

- Really?
- -I'm a sucker for butternut squash.

- Really?
- Soft in the middle.

It's like the perfect
combination of textures.

You guys. You guys.

This one right here, she
made this, her idea.

- Thank you so much.
- We have a dish.

They're applauding you.

I'm not bothered by
the applause for her,

I'm not, I'm not, this is good.

All right.

-The more you say it,
the more I believe you.

Kristen's mac and cheese
on the menu, all right?

All right, let's not get
too crazy, guys, OK.

I like this direction.
Thank you.

Mm-hmm. OK. Bye.

You ready?

Let's get this done.

Why did you turn it off?

I think I'm good.

You're good, we just got here.

I thought we were working
on the counselor.

Yeah, I did it, I think.

- Without me?
- You were busy.

You're going through
a lot right now.

- Say it.
- And I get that.

What am I going through?

- You're getting divorced.
- Thank you.

I think that's the first time
you've actually said that.

That's it, right? You don't need
anything else from me today?

I think you should go home
and take care of your stuff.

You're being a shitty friend.

It's like you don't want to
know what I feel anymore.

I...

am losing...

the closest thing I've had to me

and... I don't know
what's gonna happen.

I'm really sorry.

But I just feel like every
time you come in here,

I'm picking at a wound
if I'm bringing it up.

You know, I don't want to
make it worse, I don't...

I don't know what to do.

Why don't you
fucking embrace it?

- Like this?
- Yes.

[GarYou're gonna hate me,
but I think, more and more,

this is becoming about you.

And I think....

Sarah's buying tickets.

She doesn't know I have the camera
out, but... Oh yeah, here she comes.

Hey, lady. I got it out, I figured
we could just start here.

All righty, then.

- You got tickets?
- I do.

Cool, where are we going?

We're gonna go upstate
to see my mom.

- Nice.
- Yeah.

Uh, why are we going
to see my mom?

Well, she's probably gonna feed us.
Which is great.

But we're also gonna ask her
some uncomfortable questions

about her marriage
and her divorce.

Yeah, let's start with asking you
some uncomfortable questions.

Oh, great.

Why am I so afraid of marriage?

Is it because my parents
got divorced? Maybe.

Am I afraid of ending up like them?
Probably.

So we're gonna go
talk to my mom,

see if maybe she
has some answers.

-Mm-hmm. -Maybe I'll
learn something or not.

You could always just give her
back the ring and be done with it.

Maybe, no, seriously, maybe
it's like got bad juju on it

and we should just
toss it back to her.

-The basement. -Got to put a
ring on that finger, huh?

I don't know.

Well, you've been in
love for a while, right?

- Would you say you're in love?
- Yes, of course, I'm in love.

Will you say that again?

I am in love with
Kristen Jennings.

Yes, that's how I
want to hear it.

And she wants me to marry her.

- Hm...
- So...

- So?
- I have to figure it out.

- Hi there.
- Hi.

What's going on?

I want to be a chef.

- OK.
- Um, so...

The other night
at Mimi's, um, I,

when we were working,
got into a rhythm

and then the next day I
talked to her about it

and I was like, felt like
I made some big choices

and I was able to
keep up, you know?

She was saying that, you know,

it's her restaurant, she
can do what she wants,

but she can make room
for me on the line,

and, you know, just
because I'm really green

and she could get my
skills up to snuff,

and I know how to
do basic stuff.

I... my bouschenel is
better than hers, trust me.

But, you know,
like get me there,

and then there'd be
room for me to move up

and she said I could
possibly start on Wednesday.

- Next Wednesday.
- Next Wednesday.

I was scared to tell you.

- Why?
- I don't know.

It was just a lot, I needed
it to be like tied up.

- OK.
- Before I did.

You know I don't need things
to be tied up, right?

I know.

- But...
- This is what you want to do?

- Feedback.
- This is what you want to do?

- I mean, yeah.
- Yeah?

I... it's been a rough month.

- And...
- It's OK.

It's not.

But... I was really happy.

And I felt like I was
making something.

I was working towards
something that I cared about.

It was one night and
I was already was...

- I really want to try.
- Yeah.

[maTo a certain degree,
it's about growth,

it's about understanding
that each of you will grow

on your own paths,

and if you allow yourselves
to grow on your own paths,

you can grow together.

It's not about making sure

you grow at the same level
or speed that I do.

Um, and I think that's a big part of
what has kept us in our relationship,

is we're different people
than we were 15 years ago.

I want to go back, quickly,

to your ideas of marriage
when you were growing up.

When I was a kid,

I never imagined myself
being married, actually.

I had lots of fantasies about
the careers that I would have.

And never imagined
myself with a family.

So what changed for you?

I met John.

We were in love.

It was fast and furious
and consuming.

You know, I got pregnant, and
we were really caught up

in the magic of what
we could be together.

- Yes, more please.
- No, it's too big.

- I want to see it.
- They ordered the whole,

they ordered the wrong size.

- What?
- Like...

Let me see.

Why are you making that face?

I can't do this,
what am I doing?

Yes, you can. Come here.

It's not so bad.

- It's a little silly.
- Yeah, you think?

But no one is gonna care once
you're lighting things on fire.

You know that I'll be
committed for arson.

You know what I mean.

So, I know that you got
married for love and passion

and all those reasons, but
I never saw any of that.

All I remember, really, was
fighting and then distance.

What were the fights about?

The fights were about him

not doing what I thought
we'd agreed on.

-The deal that we had made, um...
-What was the deal?

He was gonna pursue music.

He wanted to be a
musician and I was gonna

support the family
so he could do that.

And I would come home and he
hadn't really done anything.

And maybe he was working
it on his own time,

but I think that kind
of uncovered for us

some aspects in one another
that we didn't know

and we started to grow apart.

You're being very diplomatic.

Um... what do you
want me to say,

that we, like, we
hated each other

and wanted to hurt each
other, it wasn't like that.

You can talk about it
in retrospect, sure,

there's distance, but at the
time, what did it feel like?

It felt like all of a sudden I
didn't fully know this person

and realized that possibly

he wasn't my partner for life.

I had great respect
for him in many ways,

but the more I knew of
him, the less I could

see myself with him
for my whole life.

- Do you regret marrying John?
- Absolutely not.

It was a step in my life that
contributes to who I am.

And what I know about myself.

And I don't think I would have learned
some of those things any other way.

He was who he was.

And I reacted to that

in good ways and in bad ways, and
that's part of the fabric of who I am.

And those years are
important to me.

You've always talked about John
as the guy that walked away.

Did you... how could
you reconcile that?

He...

I see him as having
walked away from you...

more than me.

He and I decided that we
couldn't stay married,

that it wasn't right
for either of us.

I never told him to
disappear from our lives.

And I don't forgive him

for disappearing from your life.

I was hurt for you about that.

I want your stomachs
tight, engaged.

Chest up, grab that red
knob and turn it up.

Make it a little bit harder for
you, a little bit more fun.

So the supplier just had,
like, a crazy cherry crop,

I guess, but sent us so many
extra cherries last week,

and so we started
pickling them all.

And we did kimchi sour cherries.

- What?
- Right?

It sounds insane,
but it was so good.

And Damon like tossed them into
the ferro salad yesterday.

Oh, my God, it has
to go on the menu.

Christina lost her
mind about it.

I really want to meet
all these people.

Yeah, Damon, I don't know,
he has really good ideas.

I'm into it. You should come.

It's been crazy since the review, but
we can always make room for you, girl.

- Oh, thanks.
- You got it.

I'm gonna go buy more
classes, because we're out.

OK, thanks. Is it possible
to not do a nine AM package?

Um... I think the
next one is at 12,

which is too late
for you, right?

Nine AM so early.

I know, but then we can go have
breakfast and see each other.

- See each other, huh?
- Mm-hmm.

- OK.
- I'll be back.

Hold on just a second.
All right. Rolling.

Talk to me, girl.

Where are you going?

Uh, we're going to
my dad's house.

Your dad's house, huh?

When was the last time
you saw your dad?

Mm, like, 10 years ago.

Damn. That's a long time.

Jesus Christ, Gary, do we
have to do this right now?

Just get this shit out of my....

We're going the right road.

Calm the fuck down.

- Are you nervous?
- Maybe.

I need my soup, Jared,
where's my soup?

- Yes, chef.
- Two, two soups.

Two soups. Should I
start in on the salmon?

No, no, no, then we
need three asparagus,

one suanee... two
for suanee, please.

- Got it.
- I need that pan

screened and hot before
you put it in, OK?

-Gotcha. -We're gonna finish
with the green garlic.

- Green garlic today.
- It's crazy out there.

- Yes it is, chef.
- How's it going?

Going great, thank you.

- Wonderful.
- How's the soup?

Soup's great, would
you like a taste?

- Yes.
- Great, behind you.

Behind.

Behind. Here.

OK. A little cinnamon,
a little nutmeg.

- Cinnamon. Nutmeg, yes, chef.
- Behind.

Behind Toss that for me, please.

- Gotcha, chef.
- And then Jared,

I need a burger, rare,
kortato, please.

- Got it. No queso.
- No queso. No queso.

He lives here alone?

Mm-hmm.

- Here we are.
- Here we are.

- Um...
- Shall we go?

Is it OK if I go first?

Oh, you don't want me
to come in right now?

I want you, I need you
there, but not right now.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, take your time

- and I'll just chill here.
- OK.

Oh, my God, she's a wreck.

This is Sarah meeting her dad
for the first time in 10 years,

and she looks like she's
gonna shit her pants.

He's home, OK, here we go.

Damn, Daddy, you're tall.

What's wrong?

Oh, no.

All right. This
is gonna be good.

Oh. Oh, God.

This is cool. So...

We'll bring in
equipment and set up.

- Shouldn't take very long.
- OK, OK, good.

OK.

- Good.
- OK.

Oh, God, what's wrong, Sarah?

Oh, my God, fuck.

I'm glad it's so
easy to make, too.

Sixty covers in two hours,

is that some sort
of record for you?

For me?

Yes, but, you know what,
we got through it.

Yeah, thanks for leading
me through the weeds.

Any time, baby.

And the special, it's damn good.

You liked it? I think
hazelnuts and capers,

they have to be together.

- There's something about it...
- Right?

Hey, I'm gonna grab a smoke.
- Yeah. I'll meet you out there.

How you doing, chef?

- Hey, Jared.
- Hi, chef.

- Hello.
- How are you?

- I'm good.
- Yeah?

- Nice job tonight.
- Thank you.

- Very good.
- Appreciate it.

I'm proud of you, look at you.

-Thank you. -Look at you,

you're, like, bad ass sous chef

-in three months. -Bad ass?
All right, I'll take it.

Yeah, yes, I'm
really proud of you.

- Thank you.
- Thank you.

Couldn't have done
it without you.

I thought about a
vacation last night.

- I said...
- You earned one.

If I go on vacation,
I would trust you.

To just run the place.

- Thank you, chef.
- If I go on vacation.

If you go on... and
that's a big if, but...

- Yeah, yeah.
- Thank you.

But thank you. You're
doing awesome.

- Appreciate it.
- You're great, you're awesome.

Superstar!

All right, so I'm just gonna clip
this to your shirt, if that's OK.

- OK.
- You comfortable?

Yeah, yeah.

It's OK.

Um, so I'll just ask questions,

but if you could use the
question in your answer,

so if I'm like, "John,
what color is your shirt?"

- You say, "My shirt is gray."
- My shirt is...

- Rather than just, gray.
- Gray.

- OK.
- OK, you good?

Cool.

- Do I look at you?
- You look at me, yeah.

- OK.
- Um, so, hi.

- Hi.
- John, um...

Why did you decide
to get married?

I decided to get married
because we fell in love.

OK. And how long
were you married?

- Three years.
- What happened?

Uh, well, what happened
was we, you know,

sort of grew apart a little bit.

What were you learning
about each other

that made you grow apart?

Well, the big thing was
my interest in music

kind of increased and I
wanted to, you know,

really do that for my
career and that was hard.

Did music make you happy?

Yeah, it really did.

And I was a little
obsessed with it.

And I wasn't, you know,
to be fair to her,

I wasn't when we first, you
know, knew each other.

It was, it just became
a stronger drive.

Do you feel like your
interest in music

and your obsession,
as you called it,

-did that draw you away from her?
-Yeah.

Could you use the
question for me?

Yeah, my obsession with music
drew me away from her.

I wouldn't call it an obsession,

I think she called
it one, but I mean,

looking back, you know,
it was just driving me

and I think if she had
been supportive of it,

it would have been different.

Fuck.

- Sorry, sorry.
- It's OK.

- Hi.
- Hi.

How was your day?

Good, long. How was your day?

Which one?

You smell like cigarettes.

That's all in your imagination.

Just don't stay up too late, OK?

I have to go to class.

Okie dokie.

Fight for it! Fight for it!
Fight for it!

Seven.

Six.

Five.

So...

You got... You got divorced.

You both agreed on it.

Was it hard for you to leave?

No.

It was oddly not.

I think we were
both, you know...

- What wasn't hard?
- To leave.

It wasn't that hard to leave

because I think we
were both like...

And then I know I felt a
release and a relief.

Was it hard to leave your kid?

Yeah.

Could you repeat that for me?

Yeah, it was hard to leave you.

What was hard about it?

Um...

This feels awkward.

- You OK?
- Yeah.

- Can we keep going?
- Yeah.

- Are you sure?
- Yeah, yeah.

- No, I'm fine.
- OK.

Sorry this is intense.

It's OK. It's OK, it's my fault.

Sarah, can you check his mic,

- I'm getting a rustle.
- Yeah.

Just put this down a little bit.

I just want you to
know that you were...

Yeah...

- It's OK.
- No, it was just hard to...

to leave because
of you and so...

I think that should
be good, yeah.

- It sounds better.
- Are you OK?

- Yeah.
- Keep going?

- Yeah, yeah.
- OK.

- Uh, it sounds good, Gary?
- Yeah, perfect.

OK, so you... you got
to know each other

and that meant that...

you weren't necessarily
right for one another.

What kind of things did
you learn about yourself,

or did you learn about her, that
made the relationship break apart?

- Beat my high score.
- You did?

- Yes.
- I'm so proud.

And... they were doing
two-for-one special,

so I got us ten more classes.

- Oh, no.
- Oh, no?

- Hey, Sarah.
- Yes.

- I can't do a nine AM class.
- What?

- Why?
- I get home too late.

I'm home at like 4:30

and I don't fall
asleep 'til five.

I can't wake up
at eight to spin.

But you don't like any
of the other classes.

Does Raven teach any other time?

Mm-mm.

Only like weekdays in
the middle of the day.

I liked having a thing with you.

Sorry, girl.

So no more?

Hi.

- Would you take this?
- Mm-hmm.

Thank you.

Why are you doing this?

- What the documentary?
- Yeah.

Um...

- Remember that?
- Yes, oh, my God.

- Where'd you find this?
- Mom's house.

So, that brought up this whole
marriage thing with Kristen.

Yeah...

She really wants to get married.

And how do you feel?

I really want her to be happy.

And I love her so much.

But...

I don't know, what if...?

What if I screw it up?

I think it's really
good that we came here.

Waiting for Sarah to
finish talking with John.

I think we got what we needed.

We'll see if she's happy but...

I'm gonna ask her...

if she's found...

a conclusion. Oh.

I'm really glad I got married.

- Really?
- Yes.

We were very much in love,
and things changed later,

but for, you know, it was good...
while it lasted, as they say.

You came.

- Would you do it again?
- Yes.

- Can I keep it?
- Yes.

Thank you.

I should probably go help Gary.

OK.

- It was nice to see you.
- Good to see you, too.

- I'll see ya?
- Yeah. Yeah.

OK.

- Bye.
- Bye.

- Hello? Hey.
- Hey.

Hey, the investors came through.

I got the money. I'm
opening in Seattle.

-That's awesome, that's great, congrats.
-Yes! Yes!

OK, all right, so. I need
you to go to Seattle.

- To do what?
- It's yours.

The menu. The hiring.

I want you to be the head chef.

- What?
- OK, listen.

I know it's big, all right?

But I was thinking about
this, you understand me,

you get what I'm trying
to do, I need you to go.

Oh, my God, I thought
you were joking.

No, no, I'm not gonna
joke about that.

Mimi, I don't know
how to do that.

I know you can do this.

-Oh, my God. -It's farm to

table, you pick up the menu...

It would be my restaurant.

I would have, it's like tiny,

it's like 15 seats,

but I would design my own menu

and there's actually a budget.

I could have a wine cellar

and I could train
all my own staff

- and pick everything and...
- OK, wait, wait, wait.

Could you just... Go
back a little bit.

Mimi's opening
another restaurant?

Yeah, it was sort
of up in the air,

we didn't know if funding
would come through,

but she got it, and
it's in Seattle.

They really want her to
expand to the west coast,

and... but she has
to be here, so...

- In Seattle.
- In Seattle.

I mean...

Want to... Want to come
on an adventure with me?

Coffee, fog, grunge.

-You're like there already. -I mean,
I want to talk with you about it,

but, yes, it's
like fucking huge.

Yeah, um...

I think I'm so proud of you.

You're amazing.

You're... on your way. Um...

Why do you seem so sad?

Because I don't remember
the last time, like,

had a real conversation
about anything.

What, what, what's happening?

I mean...

You are doing all of
these amazing things

and you're happy and
that makes me happy.

But I don't really know what
our relationship is anymore

because I never see you.

I know.

I think this could be an
opportunity for us to

make space for each other.

I could actually
delegate a little.

You know, Mimi's home by 11
every night, by the way.

I don't feel like I'm a part of
this new person that you are,

and maybe that's
just what it is,

- but...
- You're my partner.

How?

What?

- Got ya a present.
- My God, you're a lunatic.

Get in here.

- You're the best.
- You deserve it.

Let's do this.

Yeah.

- So?
- So.

How do you feel?

That's it, right?

- Got a lot.
- Yeah.

- You're gonna have to edit it.
- I can do my job.

-Mm. I know. -So you're
done asking questions?

I'm never gonna ask another
question in my life.

Good. Because I have
a question for you.

Just one, you promised, so...

You ready?

Sarah...

I would like to know...

and please answer in
full sentence so we know

what the question was.

Now that you have finished your
investigation on marriage,

what are you gonna do?

I would do it.

If I felt like we were OK.

So, I'm just saying I want
to fix us before I say yes.

I want to work through
this with you.

But I also was just given
this incredible opportunity

that I want to chase,

and you've always chased
things, and I've never...

I've been chained to a desk
my whole fucking life.

I've just been doing
things I had to do.

- I know, but...
- I feel like it's my turn.

This isn't gonna work if
one of us isn't happy.

If one of us is just
following the other around,

that's not what a
marriage is about,

so we have to fix what
we're doing here together

before we make a big
decision like this.

You're right.

I feel like...

I've been the unhappy
one for a while.

And that wasn't fair.

But just because
you were unhappy,

doesn't mean that
now I should...

No.

No, you're right, but...

I worked through it, for us.

I want to work
through this for us.

Here first.

I don't know what
you want from me.

I feel like I'm finally happy.

So maybe your happiness just
doesn't include me, you know?

Your self was more important
than your marriage.

Yes.

And I think that there
is someone out there

I can really fully be myself
with and be married to.

I'm not choosing to
never be married.

Im choosing to be myself,

fully, for the first
time, maybe ever.

- OK.
- OK.

I'll be back.

- Oh my God.
- What, what?

- Sarah!
- Here, I'll take your picture.

Come here.

- Come here, my little star.
- One, two.

Oh, you look good. Three.

Don't sound so surprised.

- Get in here.
- One, two, three.

I came to a point where there
were plenty of reasons to stay,

and there were plenty
of reasons to leave.

And I couldn't figure
it out in my mind.

If I leave, wow, you know, I
may leave my heart behind.

I thought it could go
either way, you know,

I could sort of continue
my life without her,

wherever that will lead,

or do I want to be with
that again or not?

Can I let go of that or
is there more there?

Sarah, come on, they're
waiting for you.

- Oh, yes.
- We have a screening.

Goddamn it, Gary.

- That's the greatest love.
- Yeah.

I love you enough to have you
go wherever you need to go.

- Hi, chef.
- Hey.

I need an answer.

You need it now?

Are you going to Seattle?

I thought about it.

My answer...

is...

My main fear about
same gender marriage

and all of the progress
that we've made

is that we think that it's over.

That we think that LGBTQ
equality has been won

and that A, everybody is
happy that we got this,

and B, that there aren't
more battles to be fought.

And so, while we are
baking wedding cakes

and planning weddings and
kind of getting ready

to meet the person
that we're gonna spend

the rest of our lives with, and
have it celebrated by society,

we're ignoring tons of people

who actually are
fighting for their lives

instead of trying to figure out

how they're gonna
plan their wedding.

And I think we have to hold both
of those things in tension.