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I'll give you that third birthmark right on your ass.

Let's go!

I'll take that hockey mask and shove it right up your butt.

You see him?

No.

Come on, Jacob. It's cool.

Ow!

Oh, you got him.

Come on, come on.

- What the hell is that? - Piss.

Hurry up. Go!

Oh, shit!

It's piss!

You and your ugly-ass brother are so dead.

Anytime you're ready, dickhead.

Stop throwing up!

You're dead!

I'm past the deadline on my thesis, Lee.

I don't have time to debate you. She's your daughter.

Ma! I need help.

You know what, Lee?

Any parent would be parent of the year next to you, selfish prick.

Yeah, well...

You're late.

Yeah, well, I began menstruating this morning,

and I had some difficulty inserting the tampon.

What? It's a natural process.

You know I could conceive and carry and birth a child right now?

Big deal. You won't.

But I could.

Do you think I should have Mom look at it?

Our birthday comes once a year, and you ask for a hockey mask.

You don't even play.

Jason from "Friday the 13th" wears one. He's bad-ass.

I dropped piss on Kenny's head.

What?

Jeff and Kenny were here.

I dropped the piss I've been saving on their heads.

Why were you saving piss?

Just in case. Pretty smart, huh?

No. It's stupid.

'Cause now they're gonna come back here and kick all of our asses.

You're such a butt munch!

You guys!

It's your birthday!

Try to get along.

Malee. Take this up, please.

Cheese.

Okay, you got your small gifts this morning.

Now for the big ones.

Oh, my God!

Yes! This is too cool.

- Do you like it, Jacob? - Thanks.

# Copper head on a sunny pillow #

# Brown eyes open, go straight to the window #

# As she opens her mind #

# Another dream tonight #

# Snow falls hard on a... #

- It's ten acres. - I'm not selling that land.

I'm willing to pay top dollar.

All right, you know what I'm gonna do? I'm gonna write down a number.

Look, our kids play in those woods all the time.

You can't put a price on that.

I believe I can.

# You #

# Are my everything... #

Go, man! Come on!

They're gonna tear down the tree house tonight.

We gotta stop them.

So? It's just a tree house.

You suck.

Leonard, you in?

You don't have to go if you don't want to.

I'll go.

Let him go.

Rudy?

Unless you're coming with me, I don't wanna hear about it.

Jeff and Kenny pick on you all the time, and you don't do shit.

It's my problem.

No, it's my problem, too, because we're brothers.

That's what brothers do.

I don't feel that way.

'Cause you're a pussy.

Rudy?

What?

Maybe we shouldn't talk.

Just listen for 'em.

And don't you fall asleep.

I'm wide awake.

Can you stop walking?

Wait up. I've gotta get my lighter out.

All right, hurry up, man.

Come here.

We're gonna burn it down. Here, come here.

Hell yeah, man.

Let's go.

- Light mine, too. - It's lit!

Move. You go first, you go first.

All right.

Go.

- You suck. - Got it.

What?

- You hear that? - Put it out!

Aw, shit, man! They're in there!

- Where are you going?! - Go! Run!

Get back here!

Leonard! Aah!

Come on, wake up!

Come on!

Come on, you better get... Shit!

Oh, my God.

'Cause you're a pussy.

My baby!

Oh, my God!

Oh, my... my baby!

Jim, I, uh... I've gotta leave.

Again, I'm just...

I'm so, so sorry.

You still interested in buying that land?

We can talk about it later if you'd like.

Build houses, condos, 7-Eleven, I don't care.

I just don't wanna recognize it ever again.

Okay.

This hospital is a nightmare.

- How are you feeling? - My head hurts.

You're lucky you didn't get killed.

I told you I'm sorry.

I've never been so scared in my life.

And... poor Rudy.

Was it a friend or family?

Huh?

The person who died.

Friend.

I'm sorry.

Well, you're... you're gonna like Dr. Chung.

This is only my second session.

She's really good.

I'm not a patient. I'm her daughter.

Oh, yeah!

I can see the resemblance.

You trying to make me sick?

Miss Farland, you can come in now.

Mr. Maitland?

I... I'll be just a second.

You're upset...

...and that's good.

And it's okay to cry, you know?

Ma.

I know it's okay to cry, okay?

I don't need you to tell me it's okay to cry.

If I wanna cry, I'll cry.

Fine.

You've gotta eat something.

Leonard has a condition.

It's called anosmia.

Oh, my God. Is it serious?

No. Anosmia is when a person loses their sense of smell.

It's not uncommon in patients who suffer severe head injuries.

Unfortunately, it's also affecting his ability to taste.

Again, not uncommon.

- I-is it permanent? - That depends upon the patient.

What... what do we do?

He can't eat.

Oh, he can eat. He just can't taste what he's eating.

I... I can't believe this is happening.

Considering what Leonard could have suffered, he's lucky.

And he is severely overweight.

Perhaps a loss of appetite will be a benefit.

It feels gross, this film on my tongue.

Hey.

I don't like apples.

So, you can't taste it, right?

Maybe you'll like the crunch.

Oh, my God.

That guy...

I... I.. like, know him.

He... he's one of my mom's patients.

So?

Should we go over and say hi?

I just wanna get out of here.

You coming, Malee?

Tommy Camacho.

Jacob Carges.

Rudy Carges.

Rudy Carges.

He's not in class anymore.

Now, how do you know?

'Cause he's dead.

It is not funny to joke like that

about a fellow classmate's death, Mr. Carges.

- Are you... - His brother.

Was.

And I'm not kidding. He's dead.

I'm so sorry.

Eight.

Ooh!

The state's requirement for upper body strength is ten chin-ups.

Leonard, you're up.

Come on, son.

Come on, son! Fight it.

Hey. That's enough.

All right, good job.

Who hasn't gone?

Did anyone practice over the summer?

Great. Well, we still have a fall recital coming up.

If anyone would like to perform a solo, the sign-up sheet is on the door.

Class dismissed.

Not you, Leonard.

Center. That's the position you'll be playing in two years.

Football?

- You don't like football? - I love it.

It's just... I'll never make the weight requirement.

Oh, there's no weight requirement in high school, son.

These are your new bibles.

One on nutrition, the other exercise.

Now, you do what they say,

and you can play for me once you come to high school.

Thanks.

Coach, why are you doing this for me?

Because I've never met a child so out of shape in my life.

I'm being stupid?

No, they are wrong. You call them back.

Ashley, I talked to the lawyer. He wouldn't lie.

What's going on?

You know what? This is all your fault.

- Me? - Yes.

Because if you'd done what I said and gone to the trial,

this never would have happened!

We both agreed it would be too painful! We both agreed!

You agreed!

- Mom, what happened? - Tell him.

Tell your son.

The boys who killed Rudy cut a deal.

They got a year in juvenile hall and five years' probation.

One year. That's what his life is wroth.

- Ashley. - One year.

- Just calm down. - How can you be so unaffected by this?

Your son was murdered!

It was an accident.

It was an accident. And those boys were juveniles.

So that makes it okay?

You're dead!

- You don't believe me. - No, they're wrong!

It was an accident.

One. That's what his life is worth. One year.

- Ashley, just... - Your son was murdered!

I can't believe how much you suck.

I want them dead.

I wanna kill them. I could handle a year in prison.

Don't you miss him?

You don't even care!

It's not that we don't care.

It's just...

Life goes on.

It does.

You have to deal with it.

You know 90% of people's problems are due to their inability to get over the past?

How do you know?

Mom tells that to all her patients.

I've eavesdropped on some of her therapy sessions.

That's cool. Can I listen in sometime?

No.

Anyway, she says if a person wants closure,

they gotta deal with their problems head-on.

Go see these guys and tell them how you feel.

Juvy hall's only like 40 minutes from here.

Take a taxi.

# You can't change without someone's shadow #

# 'Cause then it's gone when you still shine #

# You can't change,

# to solve somebody's name... #

# Don't blink,

# until you're made #

I hate you! You know that?!

Hmm?

All this happened 'cause of you.

You deformed retard!

Every night I lie in bed and plan your murder.

I'm shaking.

I'm gonna take a kitchen knife and chop off your fingers.

Then your nose, and then your tongue.

Then I'm gonna take scissors and cut off your ears.

When they find you, it'll be like putting a jigsaw puzzle back together.

You kill me, you come here.

So? What do I have to look forward to?

You destroyed my life!

What happened was an accident!

There are no accidents.

You're gonna pay for what you did.

And it's gonna hurt like hell.

Don't I know you?

You're Dr. Chung's daughter.

Yeah. You remember. Um...

We were never introduced. My name's Malee.

Oh, hey.

Hi.

Gus. Hi.

What are you doing here?

I... I was in the mood for a picnic, um...

And I thought this would be a nice place to have one.

Move that fucking truck!

- Right. - Um...

Would you like to join me? 'Cause there's plenty of food.

Uh, you know what, I don't go for lunch for another ten minutes, so...

I'll wait.

Meet me by that cement mixer when... when you're ready.

So last time I saw you, you were just getting back from a funeral.

How are you doing?

Okay.

Death is, like, so weird, you know?

I mean, it's sad...

...but I also feel like I've been given this sign.

A sign which is telling me life is short, so you gotta do what makes you happy.

You gotta take chances and...

get crazy!

And what are you doing to get crazy?

I... I play the flute.

Well, you know, that's... that's totally nuts.

The flute.

No, not like that.

Just, you know, like every year my school has this recital.

Um, and, you know, every year,

I've been, like...

too chicken to play a solo in front of people.

Um, but I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna do it this year.

You know what, good for you.

That's great. Good for you.

When is it?

Why do you care?

Oh, 'cause I'm gonna come.

What?

- Yeah. - You can't go!

Sure I can.

Nobody goes to these things.

I don't even think my mom's coming.

Well, you're gonna need somebody to root for you, right?

And besides, I love music.

And, you know, I owe you for this terrific lunch, right?

Are we having company?

It is all for you.

Your favorites.

Oh, and I... made everything extra spicy so you can taste it.

Mom, it doesn't matter how spicy the food is.

So you're not gonna even try it?

I'm sure it's delicious.

Forget it.

Don't eat.

You can't just eat apples all the time.

Why not?

It's unhealthy.

# We've gathered the corn and ground it flat #

# Wrestled the meat and trimmed the fat #

# I think it was wheat, and we deserve ten times better than that #

But why now, though? I mean, I...

I haven't fought fires in over three years.

Something stirred your unconscious.

If we can figure out what that was, we can get some answers.

Okay.

All right!

Let's do it!

You said that your nightmares started around the time that you moved here.

Yeah.

Let's explore that.

Why did you move here?

A friend of mine was working construction.

He got a job offer over at the... the Lindsay Acres job,

and, uh, I thought it'd be a good idea to come work with him for a little while.

Are there any recurring elements to your dreams?

Faces?

"Burnin' for You" keeps playing.

Burnin' for you?

Yeah, you know, the Blue Oyster Cult song?

- Dad? - Jacob.

Y... you okay?

Fantastic.

You know...

For the past few weeks, I sat in this house...

I couldn't move.

Everything reminded me of Rudy.

And then from out of nowhere...

...I had a revelation.

I'm alive.

Your mother is alive.

And I became overcome...

...with joy, because I realized how lucky we are to still have you.

Me?

Jacob.

I love you.

I went to work today for the first time in weeks.

I was fearless.

It was as if I'd just gotten out of college.

I went after accounts I'd avoided for years

because I thought they were out of my league.

And I was amazing.

I was magic!

But then when I came home to share the news with your mother,

I found her asleep, and then when I looked at the house,

I realized that her office, for lack of a better word,

was also piled up, so I took to the house.

I have made it my duty to clean this place from top to bottom,

even if it takes me all freakin' night.

Jacob.

- Yeah? - Will you join me?

Join me in this symbolic gesture of cleaning out the old

and bringing in the new.

Do I have to?

No.

#... With a banjo on my #

# Knee #

# Knee #

Thank you.

A wonderfully rousing rendition.

Our next soloist is Malee Chung.

She will play the theme from "Love Story" on the flute.

Thank you, Mr. Farmer.

Um, there's actually been a change.

I'm not gonna play the theme from "Love Story. "

Um, this is a s... s...

What?

I can't hear you!

Anyway, um, this is a song from the Blue Oyster Cult.

One, two, three, four.

# Home in the valley #

# Home in the city #

# Home isn't pretty #

# Ain't no home for me #

# Home in the darkness #

# Home in the highway #

# Home isn't my way #

# Home will never be #

# Burn out the day #

# Burn out the night #

# I can't see no reason to put up a fight #

# I'm living for giving the devil his due #

# And I'm burnin', I'm burnin', I'm burnin' for you #

# I'm burnin', I'm burnin', I'm burnin' for you #

Can I see that?

Malee, you are always surprising me.

That was great.

Malee.

Wow! Wow, wow, wow.

You... you were awesome.

- Really? - Yeah.

Be honest, because I'd rather you told me I suck than lie.

No, no. You were... you were great.

Hi, I'm Leonard Fisher. It's nice to meet you.

- Hey. Gus. - Gus.

Excuse me.

Okay, okay, I'm leaving. Nice to meet you.

We'll see you later.

- Y-you really enjoyed it? - Yeah, yeah.

- It's a good song. - Yeah.

What made you choose that?

My mother. She was humming it all last week, you know,

'cause she's a big B.O.C. fan.

- Right. - Yeah.

- Was she here? - No. No, she's got class.

- Hmm. - Yeah.

Well, she missed out.

You're so sweet.

Malee, I, uh... I had a really good time.

- I... I gotta run, but, uh... - Okay.

But thank you. Really, thanks.

Bye, hon.

# We gathered the corn and ground it flat #

# And wrestled the mean and trimmed the fat #

# I think it was wheat, and we deserve ten times better than that #

# Wired nights, wired nights, wired nights, wired nights #

# Sleepy days, sleepy days, sleepy days, sleepy days... #

Leonard threw our candy down the gutter.

- What?! - What?

- You suck! - Shut up.

Hey. Hayley.

Hey. Why'd you throw their candy away?

It's crap.

I'm gonna ask you this once, and I want a straight answer.

Are you in a cult?

Grace.

This is exactly what happens when kids join cults.

The first thing they change is their diets.

I'm not in a cult.

The issue is that you have stolen

one of the most exciting nights of the year from your sisters.

If anybody had done this to you when you were a kid,

we never would've heard the end of it.

- Exactly. - Now, get upstairs.

Now!

I wish somebody had done it to me.

Maybe then I wouldn't be such a fat pig.

What'd you say to him?

Just stop.

Why are you doing this?

To remind you.

How could we forget?

You've been coming here for months to remind us.

No one's forcing you to talk to me.

Anything to get out of my cell.

Is your cell small?

Yes.

So is a coffin.

Look, I'd do anything to bring him back,

but I can't.

It's not easy being in here.

You saw Jeff.

Oh, what happened to him?

Pissed the wrong guy off.

- Jeff's totally fucked right now. - Good.

Look, don't come back here ever again.

Free country. I'll come if I want.

Don't expect me to show up!

Get off me, man!

I am not taking your Halloween candy.

Come on.

If I wanna keep this firm ass as an adult, I gotta develop good eating habits now.

And this is not good. Not good for me.

All right, maybe just, uh, the spider ring.

Okay.

All right.

So, work is good.

You know what, to be honest with you, I can't wait till this job is finished.

Kind of creepy here, you know.

You know that a... a boy died here?

Right before we started this job?

Rudy. His name was Rudy.

Oh, you knew him?

Yeah. Um, he's one of my best friends.

You remember that funeral I went to?

Yeah. That was him, huh?

Some kids threw a flaming cocktail at him.

Can you imagine killing someone like that?

I mean, how evil can you get?

Gus?

Yes.

You okay?

Yeah.

Jeff Laskey is dead.

What?

He committed suicide in his jail cell last night.

Carol Evey just called to tell me.

Justice is served.

End of story.

What the hell do you want?

I'm sorry about Jeff.

Like you give a shit!

I bet when you heard, you started dancing.

# Pretty thing, I've got you #

# Right where I used to be #

# We ride across this city #

# Starting fires recklessly #

# And everything is closing #

# But tonight,

# we'll stay a while #

Hmm.

Ha!

Uhh!

# Deck the halls with boughs of holly #

# Fa la la la la La la la la #

# 'Tis the season to be jolly #

# Fa la la la la La la la... #

- I was watching that. - Well, finish your homework.

So because you're an atheist, I don't get to celebrate the holidays?

Just because I don't turn our home into a Jesus-themed disco once a year

does not mean I'm an atheist.

All I'm asking for is a tree, Ma. Maybe a stocking.

How does nailing a sock to the wall reconnect you with God?

- I don't know. - Hmm?

Forget it, Ma, okay?

An iPod? Sweet!

Do you like it?

I love it.

You guys went crazy this year.

May I be excused?

No.

- I'm gonna take a shower. - No, we have one more present.

I thought we were gonna wait.

No, do it now! Come on, do it now!

Your father and I have seriously discussed...

...adopting for many years now, so...

we decided to adopt a baby.

Hopefully a boy.

Don't worry. White male infants are the hardest to come by.

"60 Minutes" did a whole story on it.

Any adoption agency worth its salt

has at least a three-year waiting list.

By the time your parents get a kid, you'll be in college.

You think they'll want to start over with that baby shit?

No. It's just... It's like they're trying to replace Rudy.

Doesn't matter, man, 'cause it's not gonna happen.

I'm thirsty.

Can you get us some drinks?

Why me?

'Cause it's the gentlemanly thing to do.

- I'll get drinks. - I'll go with you.

Why are you guys all of a sudden going to get drinks?

Because you've upset me, and I don't wanna talk to you right now.

Fine. I'll get the drinks.

I need you to hide something for me.

What?

- Promise you won't freak? - I won't.

Holy shit!

You said you wouldn't freak!

That's a gun!

Wh-where did you get it?

I can't tell you.

I just need you to hide it for a while.

Why can't you keep it?

My mother's a total snoop.

She goes through my stuff, like, all the time.

Please, Jacob.

Somebody's life might depend on it.

# One, two, three! #

# Whoo! #

# You gotta love everybody #

# Make 'em feel good about themselves #

# You gotta love everybody #

# Make 'em feel good about themselves #

# You got to love everybody tonight, You gotta love... #

Here's the deal.

You know how my company flies me to Florida every year?

Yeah. You and I go every year. It's the guys' week off.

This year I'm taking the girls.

Just the girls.

You're staying home.

Why can't we all go?

I'm not staying here all alone.

Besides, like you said, you've been going for years.

Give your sisters a chance.

Whatever.

I need money.

What for?

New clothes.

- Nothing I have fits anymore. - Your father and I aren't rich.

You can't get a new wardrobe anytime you want.

What am I supposed to do? Go to school naked?

Wear a belt.

I'll... give him some cash. You can get some clothes.

No!

- Grace. - What?!

The X-men one's pretty sweet.

The last batch was awesome.

I gotta go.

Wait. Wait.

Parole board feels I've been a model prisoner.

They're giving me an early release.

- How can they do that? - I don't know.

They just did.

You're pissed, aren't you?

I knew you'd be.

What happened was an accident, Jacob.

So, you're gettin' out.

Gonna head back to school?

Fuck school.

I'm going to New Mexico.

Live with my dad.

Works on a ranch out there.

You can't leave the state. It violates your probation.

My dad won't tell anybody.

No one will even notice I'm out there.

Your mom will.

Jacob, the entire time I've been in here,

you're the only one that came to see me.

She won't care.

#... giving the devil his due #

# And I'm burnin', I'm burnin', I'm burnin' for you #

# I'm burnin', I'm burnin', I'm burnin' for you #

Malee!

Wow. My God!

- You look, uh... - Different?

Beautiful.

You look beautiful.

Well, I bet you are driving the boys at school crazy.

Boys my age are so immature, you know?

I'm more attracted to older gentlemen.

Well, you know, you don't wanna date somebody older than you,

do you?

I mean, an age difference, that can cause problems.

What kind of problems?

Well, I don't... you know, problems.

You know, I think when a couple has an age difference,

they, um... they end up splitting up because they want different things.

You mean sex?

Uh, no. No.

No.

Well, yeah, yeah. Let's say, you know, you're 12, right?

And a boy just a few years older than ya,

well, you know, he'll be more experienced,

and boys... they can be impatient about that sort of thing.

- Are you impatient? - No.

But I was when I was a kid.

Yeah.

Why don't you have a girlfriend?

Well, I did, but that didn't, uh...

That didn't work out so well.

How old was she?

About my age.

See that? Age wasn't an issue, you know?

You still wanted different things.

I don't think it's about age.

I think when two people really connect,

they connect for other reasons.

And since soul mates are eternal...

...they have no age.

Take care of your mom, huh?

Have fun.

Bye.

We're home.

- Hi. - Hi.

He's here. Why don't you come out?

Jacob. This is Keith Gardner,

your new brother.

Keith, our son Jacob.

It's nice to meet you.

Help!

Leonard?

...pour it in slowly. or all of this crust...

Leonard!

...wash away. Just put it in nice and easy.

See, it's kind of thick already.

What's wrong?

It's on top of me! I can't get up!

Mom, there's so much blood!

- Leonard? - I'm bleeding!

Oh, Jesus!

Leonard? Leonard?

Leonard? Leonard, where...

Leonard, where... What are you doing?

What... Are you okay?

Leonard, what... Don't shut the door.

Open the door.

Leonard... Leonard, what are you doing?

Leonard? Leonard, open the door.

You get top bunk.

No offense, but I never thought my future brother would be...

...a brotha.

I never thought my future brother

would have a Kool-Aid stain smeared across his face.

Fuck you! It's a birthmark.

Leonard, what are you doing? Open the door.

That's what this is about?

Food?

I'm trying to save your life, Mom.

I don't need you to save my life.

I need you to open the fucking door!

I'm doing this because I love you.

Because she's getting older and she needs a father.

Call collect.

Ma, is that Dad? Let me talk to him, okay?

That's not good enough. You can't just...

He hung up.

What do you expect, Ma?

All you ever do is yell at him.

Oh, Malee.

You don't know what you're talking about.

If you keep this up...

...I'll leave this place

and go live with him.

Really? I would love to hear his reaction to that proposal.

You're a bitch.

What did you just say?

Come here. No, no!

- Come here, sit down. - Let go of me!

You wanna call him? You wanna go live with him?

Look at me when I'm talking to you!

Here! I'll dial the phone! Okay?

- What is wrong with you? - There is nothing wrong with me!

You wanna go live with him?

Don't you realize that if your father wanted you in his life,

the phone wouldn't be the only means of communication?

I mean, wake up, Malee! He's gone!

I gotta get out of there, man.

I can't live in that house one more day.

I wanna come with you to New Mexico.

No way.

You've never even been out on of the road.

So?

You don't need me to run away from home.

And you wanna go with me, of all people.

That was an accident.

I can be helpful. I can get everything we need ready.

As soon as you're released, we'll go.

Please, Kenny.

If this is what you want...

...all right.

Help!

# You gotta love everybody, make 'em feel... #

Leonard!

Leonard! Open the door now!

Unh!

Leonard!

Let me out of here, God damn it!

Leo...

# Sally could barely rally, she livin' in cardboard alley #

# Convinced she was doin' fine #

Leonard!

Damn it, let me out!

Leonard!

# She was hardly handling and panhandling #

# Off-times she was squeezing out a dime at a time #

# From his limousine he could see beauty underneath the dit #

# And this is what it said on the sign #

# It said you gotta love everybody... #

# Pretty thing, I've got you #

# Right where this trouble lands #

# With reckless burning #

# I think it was wheat, and we deserve ten times better than that #

# Wired nights, wired nights, wired nights, wired nights... #

Oh, my God.

I smell gas.

Leonard.

Leonard!

Don't you smell the gas?!

Leonard!

Leonard! The gas!

The gas is on, Leonard!

Leonard, the gas...

Okay, okay.

Leonard!

Aah!

# Sleepy days... #

Leonard.

# Wired nights #

# Sleepy days #

Leonard. Leonard, wake up.

Leonard.

No!

Please!

Aah!

Please!

What the hell is this?

I made dinner, my love.

Right.

And I have a surprise.

You've been in here before, haven't you?

Oh, Malee.

Malee, you gotta... you gotta put on your clothes.

Don't you like my body?

Now, Malee.

It's okay.

I love you.

Malee. Stop.

# Pretty thing, I've got you #

Touch me.

# Right where I used to be #

# We ride across this city #

# Starting fires recklessly... #

Where are you going?

To call your mother.

But we're soul mates.

I... I don't even... know what to say.

It's alive.

- What happened? - Gas leak.

- My mom, is she... - She'll be fine.

She broke her hip and a few ribs.

We're trying to get your father on the phone right now.

- I have to see her. - Shh.

You need your rest.

Everything is fine now.

Uh, you know, it's...

Before we begin, I want to apologize...

You know what? It's my fault.

Uh, I knew she had a crush on me.

I... I just felt bad for her, you know?

She's a very lonely girl.

If it's any consolation, uh...

the whole thing was kinda therapeutic for me.

Right.

Sorry.

I, uh...

It's okay.

It's your therapy, not mine.

Well, so, how was it therapeutic?

I don't remember the last time I slept so deep and so sound.

Don't remember dreaming.

Nothing.

Why do you think that is?

One of the last fires I ever fought...

was a brownstone.

Whole families wiped out.

During the inspection, I went upstairs.

And I found a little girl.

The whole right side of her face was burned off.

But her eyes were open.

She was still alive.

Uh...

You know that the... the pain must've been...

...excruciating.

You know?

She was... she was begging for me to... to kill her.

And what did you do?

I did what she wanted me to do.

I killed her.

I kept telling myself that that was the right thing to do.

You know, it's... just...

But, uh...

I've never been so sure.

I'm sorry.

Gus, that's devastating.

What does all this have to do with Malee?

When I saw her last night...

...she had the same look on her face as that little girl.

She just wanted me to take her pain away.

Doctor?

I heard it's supposed to rain, so I packed a poncho.

You're acting weird, man. You're not gonna be a chicken.

No.

I'm telling you, man, it's gonna be great.

You ain't gonna be a pussy, right?

No.

Wanna play some catch?

Where the hell did you get that?!

Did I say you could touch this? Did I?!

Okay, everything... and I mean everything... in this house is mine.

You got it?

You are not allowed to touch a thing, including this glove!

What's wrong now?

I was just looking at a picture of you and Rudy when you were born.

God, I miss him.

But you have Keith now.

What the hell does that mean?

You have Keith.

Two boys again. Everything's fine.

We didn't adopt Keith to replace Rudy.

Didn't you?

No. Your father and I discussed adoption for years.

Honey, we... we told you that.

Right.

Maybe if it was me that died, you wouldn't need another kid to get over it.

What are you talking about?

I wouldn't wish that on any of my children.

But one of us died.

And I bet if you could choose which one, you wish it was me.

You know what? I...

I know that you feel we favored Rudy.

You did! Admit it.

I admit that he was easier to raise, but that doesn't we loved him more.

Honey, Jacob, you were born with a different set of challenges.

- My birthmark? - Yes.

And it's not easy being different.

I'm not different!

You always made it seem like there was something wrong!

There's nothing wrong with me!

- I know that... - No, you don't!

It's like you don't know what to do with me.

You never did.

Well, I'm sorry that you feel that way.

You know, you do what you can as a parent

and sometimes you don't always make the right choices,

but you are my son and I love you, and I would do anything for you.

I would fight for you, I would kill for you, I'd die for you!

Rudy used to say the same thing.

And he was right.

And as un-Christian as it sounds, I still want the...

...boy that killed Rudy dead.

And someday, when you grow up,

you'll understand that.

Someday.

A week?

No...

Dad. Dad, I can take a train alone.

I understand.

You, too.

He really hates me.

He doesn't hate you.

I'm just gonna go see him.

That is not a good idea.

He doesn't wanna see me. Fine.

I just want him to look me in the eyes and say it.

- I can handle it, Ma. - You don't know him.

That's the problem.

Aren't you sick of being angry at him all the time?

He hurt me.

But you have to take me to see him.

You have to.

Okay.

You're late.

Put this on.

What the fuck is that?

You didn't bring a disguise?

No one gives a shit what I'm up to.

Where are you going?

The main road's this way.

Yeah, but if we cut through the construction site,

we'll hit the railroad tracks faster.

Good point.

After you.

I'm sorry, Mom.

I just wanted to help you.

I spoke with your father.

He and the girls caught a flight. They should be here by morning.

Did you tell him what happened?

I told him there was a gas leak.

I meant the...

I know what you meant.

I didn't tell him.

I don't think I will.

Are you mad?

You know...

Even if I could manage the food...

...can you really see me running a marathon?

You just have to run to the end of the block.

It's not as hard as you think it is.

Easy for you to say.

No.

It's not.

Okay.

I'll try.

Ow, ow, ow.

Son of a bitch!

I knew you'd chicken out.

Where'd you get that shit?

Is that real?

You killed him.

Come on, man. Stop jo...

# You can't change without someone's shadow #

# 'Cause then it's gone when you still shine #

# You can't change,

# to solve somebody's name #

# Don't blink,

# until you're made #

# The concrete broke your fall #

# To hear you speak of it #

# I'd have done anything #

# I would do anything #

# I feel...

# like a cartoon brick wall #

# To hear you speak of it #

# You've been so sad #

# It makes me worry #

# Why not smile? #

# You've been sad for a while #

# Why not smile? #

# I would do anything #

# To hear you speak of it #

# Why not smile? #

# You've been sad for a while #

# You've been sad for a while #

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