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Happy birthday.

-I heard a noise. -Yeah, I guess

I was just talking to myself.

Okay. Was it just me or did anybody else

dream a tad more vividly last night?

Whatever is in these, Dee, keep 'em coming.

-I'm not gonna make it. -You're not gonna make it where?

To the end of the week.

-The end of the year. -Don't you look at me like--

don't stare at me like I'm a fucking psycho.

We are on the precipice of something great.

Stay with me. Stay together.

Mom! Mom!

He's here, isn't he?

It's you.

You're the key.

Money makes the world Go around

The world go around The world go around

Money makes the world Go around

It makes the world go round

A mark, a yen, A buck, or a pound

A mark, a yen, A buck, or a pound

Is all that makes the world Go around

That clinking Clanking sound

That makes the world Go 'round

Who are you? What did you--

Money, money, money Money, money, money

Money, money, money, Money, money

Can you believe you gave me

a hundred and twenty-eight thousand dollars?

I bet you feel dumb.

Shit.

Son of a--

Money, money, money

Ari was never my son.

He's my cousin's son.

If you happen to be rich If you find you've been left

By your lover Though you moan

And you groan quite a lot You can take it on the chin

Call a cab And begin to recover

On your 14-karat yacht

You're a small man, Paul Drabble.

Money, money, money Money, money, money

Money, money--

Faggot.

-What did you call me? -He said faggot.

Faggot, faggot!

Faggot, faggot!

Faggot, faggot!

Faggot, faggot!

Faggot, faggot!

Faggot, faggot, faggot!

What are you doing here?

I hate bullies.

How do you know what I was dreaming?

I use a little auditory subliminal stimuli.

I put in a chemical catalyst, and...

I can see your past trauma with bullies.

What exactly are you giving me?

What I'm giving you is a story.

This is going to be yours.

It's not connected to the internet,

but the camera is working just fine.

So I want you to document all of the events

that you see today. I want you to record them,

to write them down. I want you to do it all.

Why? What's about to happen?

Well for starters...

You are about to happen.

Your whole life has been about tearing down.

You target the bullies.

Destroy them.

The question is...

have you ever nurtured anything?

-No. -No.

Have you ever been a vehicle for growth?

No.

I am gonna offer you the chance to build something.

Something extraordinary.

So...

you came here to boost your career.

Instead you get a legacy, you get the chance

to be the one who told the world.

Wait. So, what do you mean, she controlled your dream?

I've heard of it being done with hypnosis.

She does it with drugs and audio.

Like brain entrainment.

So she knew you'd be having a butt baby?

I'm sorry. Was I talking to you?

No, but you were talking loud enough

that I could overhear your conversation.

And by the way, it's my baby too, Lars.

I know my rights.

Okay. Let's not be the Bickersons today.

We had this lovely party last night.

We-- We all sang and danced.

Hi, good morning. Good morning.

-So, what'd I miss? -Oh, apparently

Masha's been manipulating Lars's dreams

with mind control or something.

-Drugs and entrainment. -Whatever.

She's controlling our dreams now?

-That explains a lot. -Why, what happened?

Hello, everybody.

How are you all doing this morning?

Not-- not great. I-- I'm not sure what you're doing,

dosage-wise, but I had some kind of hallucination

or dream last night where Paul Drabble

was like the size of a, you know,

like a garden gnome.

I know it's maybe offensive to talk about someone's size,

but he's an offensive, tiny little man.

-So he-- it's fine. -What was he doing?

He was singing a song from Cabaret.

Willkommen, bienvenue--

No, not that one. The--

Maybe this time I'll be lucky

-Maybe this time, maybe-- -No.

I don't even know that one. The-- it was--

-Money, money, money... -Yes, "Money". "Money".

He was singing, "Money, money, money,"

across the floor, by my bed, and then...

inside my toilet.

And I mean, I did not come here

to have a Lilliputian-sized internet hustler

sing show tunes to me from the toilet.

-That must've been terrifying. -Well, it wasn't a good show.

Yeah.

How did the dream end?

I-- I flushed him down the toilet.

If I had told you from the start

that you will gonna flush Paul Drabble

down the toilet, what would have you done?

I would have paid you double.

We are all experiencing new things here.

Zoe. Zoe beautifully expressed

her sense of family to you last night.

Ben, Jessica rediscovering each other.

Tony. How about you?

What were you feeling? It looked like tenderness.

You are okay being a little vulnerable?

Yeah. I'm okay with it.

So we're making progress here.

And now we are gonna build on that progress.

We have a slightly higher dose.

I mean, you don't have to take it,

it is up to you, but if you do,

there's a couple more rules,

no climbing, no going near water.

We will also employ the buddy system.

So the Marconis, Ben and Jessica,

Carmel, Lars, and Tony, Frances.

-Love it. -It's your choice,

but it is safe.

Sounds safe to me.

-Cheers? -L'chaim.

Hey, buddy.

Here's to my new run.

Down it.

Et tu, Brute?

Then fall Napoleon.

It's gonna be a glorious day.

Yay.

Masha?

Can I see you in private?

My concern is about how this psychedelic

might affect or react, you know, with other medications.

I'm on a few psychotropics.

I was afraid

I might not be accepted here if you knew.

-So I didn't-- -Yes.

You're on psychotropics, we know this.

We did your blood work. It's all right. You're fine.

-Nothing to worry about. -Okay.

Well, good. Thank you so much.

But I am gonna need to tell you something...

so we can move forward to the next step.

Okay.

I know...

I know why you came here.

-I'm sorry? -It wasn't a coincidence.

You came to a retreat, this retreat, because...

I had an affair with your husband.

-Oh my God, am I in trouble? -No.

-I'm in trouble. -No. Of course,

you're not in trouble.

I mean, unless you're trying to kill me.

-What? -Are you?

Somebody is sending me nasty threats.

Somebody wants to scare me.

Really? Not-- no, it's not me.

I-- I came here to know you.

To see what he saw, to--

to see the what and the why.

The why...

Finish that.

Well, it's just that you--

You were the catalyst for it all. You-- You...

opened his mind to the idea that there were beautiful girls

out there to be had...

including the pretty little bimbo he's with now.

Did you know we were in love, Masha?

Masha, he was crazy about me.

We were-- we were in love.

So you came here to confront me?

I came to study you.

To study you, in the hopes of-- of...

of becoming you.

And then he-- he might want me back.

-I'm sorry. -No. I should apologize to you.

I was a different person then, Carmel.

May I ask what was he to you?

You're not gonna like this answer

but he was nothing. He was a placeholder.

I was consumed with work.

I had affairs with married men

who wouldn't get attached and that was it.

I would never ever hurt you now.

So if you knew my story, why did you accept me?

I want you to heal.

I want you to get all of this hatred out of your heart.

I wanna say I'm sorry to you.

Yeah. Come, come.

That's all right.

Oh, lapochka.

You can trust me.

You're safe with me.

I would never hurt you. You take the medicine.

-I trust you. -Just trust me.

Okay.

Twist to the right...

Now towards the sun, and you come down gently.

Just hip level. Gently come up, keep breathing.

-Are you okay? -Wobbly.

We have that in common.

Masha, why are you pushing this protocol so fast?

-Because the time is now. -Is it now or never?

What are we, out of money?

We're not out of money.

Well, I know that this lawsuit was a big-- pretty big drain.

We're not out of money.

I saw you last night, eating sugar.

The cake?

That was you?

It was actually kind of sweet.

You actually--

You actually seemed kind of mortal.

Like the rest of us.

Giving into temptation.

I was trying to connect to the little girl within me.

-Did you? -Not yet.

Tony.

Tony.

Your buddy.

-Oh, Leon. -Dad?

Oh. It just erupted out of me, huh?

It's normal, it's-- that's a great thing.

-That's not normal. -Wow. Okay.

Mount St. Napoleon onwards.

-Are you sure you're okay? -Oh, perfect. Better than ever.

Wow. Maybe a little water. Yeah.

You're a pretty little thing.

Hey. What are you doing?

Gallivanting off like that without your buddy?

Sorry.

-How's your head? -I don't know.

It's kind of-- it feels like a puffy cloud,

little bit, you know,

like a cumulus cloud, pretty with a chance of rain.

Anyway, you shouldn't really go off like that

and stuff, you know.

Oh, right. Because of the buddy system.

-Yeah. -We're buddies.

Right? You and me?

Yeah.

Oh, my God, he's going in.

-What? -What?

-What'd you say? -I didn't say anything.

You did, you just said, "Oh my God. He's going in."

-Did I say that out loud? -Yeah.

I thought it.

I didn't think I said it out loud.

These-- these mushrooms are like a doozy--

What does that even mean though?

"Oh my God. He's going in." What does that mean?

You had a--

a look on your face like you were gonna kiss me. So...

Were you thinking that?

Yeah, I mean, I was thinking it.

And?

And I remembered that everything I ever touch I hurt.

Especially the people I love.

I don't wanna do that to you, Frances. I don't wanna hurt you.

-Is that why you didn't kiss me? -That and it would involve leaning

and I don't think I could do that right now.

I'm pretty dizzy. I'm afraid I'm gonna fall.

I'll catch you. God, I've written this scene

like a million times, I'm sure Paul would say like

it's a very gimmicky scene, but--

Just forget about Paul for a second.

-Yup. -Okay.

Full disclosure, I'm a terrible kisser.

So when it is awful--

Just lay it on me.

I'm not gonna make the first move.

No, I'm gonna make the move.

-Are you? -Yeah. Come and see.

It's kind of funny you're this big football, you know, guy.

I mean-- it's like cute--

You weren't kidding. That was terrible.

Thanks.

If that was terrible, I can't even imagine

-what a good one is like. -Oh my God, I'm going in.

What are you doing?

You said you were gonna catch me.

I can't catch you, I have no upper body strength.

How you doing? You feeling okay?

I feel nothing. I can't feel my legs.

Sweetheart.

Are you okay?

Yeah, I barely feel anything.

Well, it hits people at different times.

I'm absolutely bonkers.

It's just really just a matter of perspective.

It's just a trick of the mind

because everything you think you are is a story

you tell yourself about yourself, right?

-The vomit was real. -Yeah, it was.

I'm gonna go for a walk.

I think we should stick together.

I got high once at a Fleetwood Mac concert

and I went wandering and I got lost for hours.

I'm gonna be okay.

Zoe.

Oh, boy. Look at that.

Oh, wow.

Can I ask you something?

Yeah.

You ever think about not going on?

What do you mean?

What do you mean, what I mean?

What I said, do you ever think about not going on?

Jesus, that's... a bit of a buzzkill.

I've thought about it a lot, of late.

Before I came here.

Just everything, you know,

my career ending, my marriage...

my girls.

It's kind of felt like the-- the bottom-bottom.

And Lars said that thing about her picking us.

And Masha made that comment about desperate people that--

I mean, Frances, she picked nine people

who needed to be in a place

where they would try anything she wanted.

I mean, every one of us drank the Kool-Aid this morning.

Every one of us.

Except this morning, I didn't drink out of despair.

I drank out of hope.

Because of what she's already given me.

Because of what you've given me, Frances.

When I woke up this morning,

this morning, you know what I thought about?

Painting my house.

Maybe getting a dog.

Definitely taking you out to dinner.

That was...

If I ever do write romance again,

I'm gonna steal that.

So you're basically stalking her?

Well, in a way. I don't know, studying her.

I mean, I just-- I came with a lot of hate.

Like she was the reason that I lost my family

or at least the precipitating factor which...

you know, it's probably isn't true.

I mean, in many ways, it's actually...

-just the opposite. -What do you mean?

I just feel like in many ways

she's given us family.

You know, you saw the way we all were last night, dinner.

We danced.

Listen...

full disclosure 'cause you're my buddy, right?

Okay.

I just-- I-- I'm just--

I'm a little freaked out that Frances hallucinated her ex.

'Cause should that happen to me, I mean, that...

I think that wouldn't be pretty. I attacked my ex with a fork.

What if suddenly, I mean, I don't know,

you should look like him to me?

I-- I don't think that would happen.

Okay.

But what about you? I mean...

you just broke up with your partner, right?

I mean, do you ever get any visions of him, this Ray guy?

No.

Wow, you are...

lucky, I guess.

Maybe.

Maybe not.

I knocked your camera over.

That's all right, we're done.

How do I look? Look at the tape.

-Beautiful. -Yeah?

-Let me see. -Like a young Gloria Gaynor.

-Gee. -You like that?

Yeah.

We're good. We're good.

You look cute.

Ew, what is--

What is that?

Oh my God.

What?

Oh my--

What? What is that?

What? Jessica--

-My nose! My nose is gone! -What is wrong with you?

My nose!

-Your nose is literally-- -Look at me!

-I'm looking at you don't-- -Look at me!

Goddamn it. Your nose is on your face, okay?

-My nose. My nose. -Look, look in the mirror.

You see that? You see your nose? Relax.

You're gonna pass out. Your nose is on your face.

You see that? You see it?

It's here. It's on your face.

-It's okay. -Of course, it was.

Nobody's just gonna steal your nose.

And it's back, okay?

Somebody took it, they still be gone.

But it's here, right?

-Now breathe. -Do you have it?

It's on your face. You have it. We have it.

-We good? -We're good. Okay.

Okay.

Hey. Is there something wrong?

-I heard screams. -Oh, perfect.

Hey, did you give us mushrooms?

You was only supposed to give us E.

Yes, you specifically asked for it.

Well, not to make my nose fall off of my face.

You have your nose.

You're fine, look.

-Told you that. -You're fine.

I told her it was still on her face.

Hey, where she come from?

I don't know.

Hey.

Hey!

What are you doing?

What am I doing?

Yeah. Spinning around like that.

What are you doing?

I thought I saw something.

What?

I'm not really sure.

What do you think you saw?

I don't know.

What? What's going on? Huh?

-Did you see Zach? -What?

Oh, my God. Did you? Honey?

Did you see him? Here?

You saw him here, right? Yeah? Zach, Zach.

Zachary, Zachary, Zachary.

Zach.

Zachary?

I see him! I see him! He's right there.

I see--

he's right--

I did. He was there...

I saw him.

I saw him. I did. I saw him.

Oh, Zach, Zach?

Hey, Mom. What is with the shrooms?

I guess the zero tolerance policy is out the window or--

I mean, you should've told me, I might've stuck around.

I missed you so much.

Oh, my God. Oh, I--

look at your face.

Oh, come here.

Look at you. Honey.

Honey?

-What? -I think she's with him.

My boy. Oh, hello, my boy.

I wanna believe this is real.

Oh, please, let this be real.

I know.

I love you.

I want you to tell me why.

You know why, Mom.

Oh, no, I don't. How could I?

How could you?

It's kind of your job, don't you think?

My job?

I don't know what you mean.

Your asthma?

You hung yourself.

The medication.

No, I-- honey, I'm not following.

I don't understand.

It was all listed.

The side effects, you read the pamphlet.

Side effects: blurry vision, shortness of breath,

blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, nausea, blah, blah, blah, blah.

Suicidal ideation.

Ding, ding, ding, winner.

What do you mean suicidal ideation?

Mom, come on.

You underlined it.

Right there.

I didn't--

What are you talking about?

I-- No.

Oh, no! No, I-- No, I didn't know! No!

No! No, no! No! No!

-Mom? -No! No! No!

-Mom. -No, no!

Honey, Heather calm down.

No!

You wanna get up? Come on, let's get you up.

Let's get you up.

-Dad? -Yeah?

It's gonna be okay. She's gonna be okay.

Oh, yeah. It's gonna be fine, sweetheart.

Heather? If you can follow the light

with your eyes.

All right, let's...

Where... Where has he gone?

-It's okay. -Where is my son?

-Where's my-- -It's okay.

Where's my...

-It's okay. -No.

No.

It's all okay.

Heather? It's gonna be okay. Just a pinch, okay? Okay.

-It's all right. -Look at me.

Look at me. It's fine.

All right.

All right.

Napoleon, Zoe, come.

She had another panic attack,

but she has had a sedative and she's resting.

She'll be out for a couple of hours.

-She's okay, though? -She's gonna be fine.

Absolutely fine. Delilah, can you go check

on the others for me?

Yeah.

Masha?

I think we're a little out of our depths here.

Please Dee, please do this, yes, thank you.

Hey.

She was seeing Zach.

Yeah. Yeah, we all did.

You all saw him?

-Zoe, you-- -Yeah.

Saw stuff I really wish I hadn't.

-And you saw him as well? -Yeah. He's a--

he was, kind of, flickering in and out, all static-y.

Heather's the one who saw him the most,

it was like they were together having a conversation.

What was the conversation about?

We heard her say asthma

and then something about his medication.

Suicidal ideation. She said suicidal ideation.

Zach had just started a new asthma medication.

Perhaps that was one of the side effects,

I don't know. I-- I never read the pamphlet, but...

she would have.

Dad?

I am sorry for this.

But this needed to happen.

She had to have this memory come back.

It...

This feels so good.

I'm usually a beach guy.

It's Ray that loves the pool.

Is anybody else still wearing their shoes?

I still have my shoes on.

-She said no water. -No, no, no.

The water is so nice, you'll love it.

No. This is dangerous. She said no water.

She was very specific.

It feels overwhelming, dangerous.

Fuck.

No, it's-- it's amazing in here.

You'll love-- you love the water.

I can't get out of this throne.

Where's Zoe? She'd love this.

-Fuck. -Hey, come on in.

Come on in, it's so nice.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah. Oh, you're right.

-It feels amazing. -See?

Water.

Who knew?

-Okay. Everybody, out of the pool. -Fuck! I told you!

It's okay.

Are you all staying hydrated?

-Yes. -No, no, no.

Not-- Not that water, Ben.

That's filled with magnesium, potassium, and Himalayan salt.

We're all together. The Marconis should be here.

-Oh yeah. -Yeah, right?

Yas. We must summon them.

Can you summon them for us, please?

Not just now. Heather's... Heather's having a rest.

What sort of rest?

Okay. Please, let's get you all up to your rooms, okay?

-That's right. -Is-- Is Heather okay, first?

She's fine. She's with Yao and Masha.

Okay.

Everybody out.

Hey.

I'm sorry, just don't-- don't--

don't touch me, I just-- I don't like that.

It's okay, Carmel.

Come on.

Let me take you to your room.

Come on. It's okay.

Everybody out!

Hey!

What did you say to Mom?

Have you ever known me to lie?

Just answer my question, shithead. What did you say to her?

I can only tell people what they already know.

Like, I can tell you, you hurt, that you'll be okay.

Zach?

She's awake now.

You can talk to her.

Frankly, I don't really know what I would say.

You know...

couples rarely survive these things.

These kind of tragedies.

People's lives go on, but...

not together.

I've read everything there is to read on the matter.

The little bud of malignancy...

is blame.

When a child dies...

and there's blame to be had...

that's why I thought when, uh...

When I thought it was me...

When I'd overslept

and I thought maybe I could've made a difference.

I was so afraid...

that Heather would blame me and leave me.

And I was convinced of it because if the shoe

were on the other foot, I'd probably leave her.

Who wouldn't?

Well, you know what, now the shoe's on the other foot.

She scours the label of every food product

before she puts a morsel in her mouth.

God forbid she come in contact with a bit of sugar or gluten.

Either she read about the side effects

in that pamphlet or she didn't.

But either way...

I'm a pretty forgiving man. I've...

I've had to learn to be, but...

Yeah. I don't think I can forgive that.

She's the love of your life.

It doesn't matter.

It's not enough.

What do you want, Napoleon?

What do you want...

most?

I just want my son back.

Suppose I can arrange that.

I'm not saying I can bring him back for real,

but I am saying that reality is a perspective.

"Reality is a perspective."

What does that even mean?

I killed my son.

Oh, Heather. Heather...

I killed him.

And I am talking

about bringing him back for you.

It's a fucking hallucination.

Psychedelics can be used to achieve an alternate reality.

The science is here.

And in that alternate reality, Zachary can exist

because what happened today was incredible.

All three of you saw Zachary.

It's called shared psychosis hallucination.

It's very rare. It's very powerful.

There's usually a dominant player, a primary inducer.

And there was, it was Zoe.

I don't know what you're saying.

If you let me guide you, help you...

you can see Zachary

and you can interact with him, talk to him, you can.

Via psychedelics?

-Yes. -Right. Yeah.

I'm sorry. That just sounds like madness.

But it's not madness.

It's dangerous if it's not managed correctly,

but it is not madness.

This is why we're here.

This is why you chose us.

Because I wanna help you.

I don't want you to have this pain.

Think of all the people that are living

with this unbearable grief and pain.

Think of it.

If this works...

imagine what we can offer them.

Because what we can do is we can offer them

the chance to relieve past trauma.

We can offer them the chance to come to terms with it,

to share those terms.

With the object of their grief.

Like Zachary for you.

No. I go back to madness.

Heather.

I know pain.

I know it.

And I also know healing.

Put yourself in my hands and under my care, my control.

I will try to give you your son back.

Wow. You found my spot.

Guess that makes two of us that had a wildly original idea.

Yeah.

Wow.

A crazy day, huh?

Definitely strange.

Yeah.

How you doing?

You know.

I actually do.

I think-- I think we're a little alike.

Yeah.

Like when you had your vision of your-- your mini-man.

Like Masha said,

the heart hurts, but our heads,

you know, getting...

played for fools.

It-- It-- It's not so much

that-- that they stopped feeling...

for us or-- or that they never felt that much

to begin with.

It is how they made us feel...

about ourselves.

Do you notice that...

the other people are starting to feel better,

you know, in their own way.

I mean, I think I'm even somewhat improving,

although incrementally.

I just-- I just worry that

it seems like you may be getting worse.

She is gonna try again with the Marconis.

How do you know?

I overheard them talking about it.

Heather just had a fully psychotic episode.

They-- They are in no position to make that kind of decision.

Set aside the legal exposure, you saw what happened last time.

It won't work.

It might. It almost did last time.

But it didn't.

The Connollys are still stalking Masha.

They're still threatening her.

We don't know that it's them.

Then who is threatening her?

It is a huge risk.

It's the risk that we take.

Look, I believe in what we're building here.

And you did once too, all right?

The protocol got you well, it'll be the same for the Marconis.

This is not mindfulness or yoga or--

or even micro dosing.

I don't care.

I don't wanna be complicit in this.

I don't want you to be complicit in this.

We need to get out of here.