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Good morning.

It's cold enough for the winter duvet, isn't it?

You're right, I'll get it out.

Thanks.

FLY ON

Thanks.

-Let's grind it facing the mountains. -For great coffee!

This one?

Yeah.

Having a chef cook for us made it more like a hotel than a campsite.

I wouldn't expect any less.

I can't believe there's air conditioning.

You can't call that a tent.

I've never been to a place like this before.

I haven't been anywhere for a month.

But I could get used to camping.

That's because we're glamping, not camping.

Here.

What's this?

For our hands without the wedding ring.

Does it fit okay? I hope so.

Yeah, it's perfect.

Apparently, our right and left hands aren't necessarily the same size.

It's a perfect fit.

Hold your hand out.

I'm not used to taking photos with my left hand.

Help me.

It's blurred.

It's fine, post it.

No, let's take another one.

Careful.

Make sure it's not blurred.

That'll do.

How can I top this for your birthday?

Shall I take them back?

Don't get your hopes up.

It doesn't have to be special.

You can recycle a present you gave Fuminori.

I just remembered,

he once gave me and his wife exactly the same present.

-How horrible! -Right?

You just said I should do it!

-Shall we go? -Yeah.

Are you okay?

Yeah, fine.

Your phone's ringing.

Is it Yoriko?

No, one of my authors.

Probably asking about his manuscript's corrections.

Shouldn't you answer?

That would be far too Japanese of me.

I'm still on holiday.

Really? I'm impressed.

I'm hungry.

Already?

When do we get back? We should grab some lunch.

What if somebody sees us?

It'll be fine.

Okay, then, let's have lunch.

Thank you for travelling with us today, we have reached the terminus.

No news?

He was picking up Hiromu from his ex, so he probably has his hands full.

Oh, yeah, that ex of his.

She always seems to be busy.

Good thing you don't mind taking care of their son.

It's not like I can refuse.

She's a single mother, it can't be easy.

If I were a single mother...

hypothetically, of course,

I'd want the dad and his family to help out.

When Fuminori isn't available, his mum takes over.

I wouldn't put up with it for long,

if I were you.

I suppose so.

From next week he'll have him on Thursdays.

We should meet then.

-He'll be with Hiromu? -Yeah.

Thursdays?

Sure.

I can arrange my work around that.

Yoriko's working too.

Talk of the devil.

I'll leave you to it, then.

I'm going to get a taxi.

See you Thursday.

Thursday, same place as usual?

Hello.

Oh, right, okay.

Yeah, okay.

No, it's fine, really.

I mean, it's not your fault.

Oh, your mum's there as well?

Yeah, I should be back by then.

You need to talk to me? What about?

Just a sec.

Sorry.

I've got to go.

Yeah, we'll talk later.

Okay, yeah.

Emergency services.

Hello, I need an ambulance.

What's your emergency?

-A man's been run over by a car. - Can you give me the address?

The address...

- Are you okay? -Yes, I'm just...

Hello?

Are you getting any other emergency calls?

Any other calls about a car accident? Right now?

Sorry?

Have you eaten?

No, I haven't.

I cooked some extra in case. You want some?

No, I'm okay.

I lost track of time in a café.

With Eri?

No, she left before me.

Can I throw this away?

Yeah, sorry, that was Hiromu's.

Are there any left?

I'm not sure.

I should go and buy some more.

You know I said we need to talk?

Can we do it after I've eaten? I bought some wine.

Can it wait? I'm sorry.

Hello.

Hello?

Hello.

- Did you get the message? -What message?

About Kimura.

He died. It was a notification about his funeral.

Is that so?

He went camping alone and was on his way home.

I see.

He went camping alone?

Right.

Are you okay?

Yeah, of course. Thanks for letting me know.

Had you seen him recently?

No, not recently, no.

What about our shopping outing?

Up to you, Eri. Maybe after the funeral?

Okay, we'll decide when we're there.

-Yeah, let's do that. - Right.

-Yeah. - And check your messages.

Can we talk now?

Yeah. Why not?

I was thinking of buying a house,

and putting this place up for rent.

Really?

A new idea of yours?

Not new, no.

My company's having a brand renewal.

I could get a company discount.

I'll leave that up to you.

You'll still need to see the house.

Well, let me know when you've scheduled a visit.

Do you want to go away somewhere?

What?

I thought you might like a break.

How do you mean?

We don't have to stay the night.

Maybe even somewhere we've been before.

Do I look that fed up?

No, that's not it.

It's something I want to do.

We can't live with this weight for ever.

I can't, anyway.

You know I'm right.

We're both responsible for this tension between us.

It doesn't help with making a baby.

In fact, it makes it impossible.

-What do you think? -About what?

About the tension, having a baby.

I'm not happy with it either.

You know that now is our last chance.

I'm well aware that I'm the cause of it all.

But I think my mum would look at us differently

if we had a child.

She won't have a key to the house.

Where would she look after Hiromu?

I have a few ideas.

For example?

Instead of us looking after him,

I thought her side of the family could step in more often.

Okay.

Where do you want to go for a break?

I'll sort something out, if you don't have any ideas.

Throw them in the back.

How was it?

Can't you tell?

Why didn't you come?

It's complicated.

Scared of the family?

No, that's not it at all.

I don't know.

I haven't come to terms with his death.

It would be disrespectful.

That's because...

you didn't see him.

It was...

when I saw him in his coffin

that it became real.

-I don't know. -I do.

But...

he didn't strike me as being the camping type.

I certainly wouldn't have expected him to go alone.

Me neither.

Apparently, he got into it recently.

I wouldn't know.

They must have finished all that construction work by now.

Probably. I think I saw something on the news.

What is it?

Some sort of new shopping area, I think.

We should have a look.

Have you talked about having children?

His mum would love it.

But taking care of two kids is a lot of work.

Once Hiromu got to secondary school, the age difference would make it hard.

I doubt it would work out.

I'd prefer a pet. A dog, maybe?

A dog?

I'm not really a dog person.

It doesn't have to be a dog.

Where can I touch you?

I'm off limits.

Your tummy?

I have enough to go around.

I'm off limits! Shall I touch yours?

Go ahead.

There's nothing to grab.

It's just skin.

Stop it!

I've sent you the house's details.

I can meet you at the station.

-The new house. -It's okay, I can manage.

Remember when we used to come here?

It's weird being back.

Standing watching the planes made my legs ache.

Yeah, it's tiring.

Shall we eat somewhere around here tonight?

It's still early. We could go home for dinner.

Don't you want to be here?

If I'd wanted to stay home, I'd have said so.

You seem in a rush to get home.

You're the one who just said you're tired.

I'll get the bill.

Hello, welcome.

-I have a reservation. Kimura. -Mrs Kimura?

Just a moment, please.

Sorry to keep you waiting.

Where do you want to go?

How about Yamanashi?

Yamanashi? Right now? Are you serious?

Sorry.

Just like that?

-What about your son? -I'll see him tonight.

-Can we go to the cemetery? -Why?

-I want to see Kimura. -Oh, right.

His ashes haven't been interred yet.

I'd like to pay my respects, seeing as I didn't go to the funeral.

I think it's time.

Are you hungry?

Nah.

Well, I am, but let's get something when we get there.

-Something to drink, then? -Yeah, okay.

-Coffee, please. -Make that two.

-660 yen, please. -I'll get it.

-No, let me. -No, my husband's paying!

-There you go. -Thank you.

Thank you.

I should have brought some flowers.

Hello.

It's only my wife in there.

Yes, we know.

I couldn't attend the funeral,

so I thought I'd pay my respects.

Were you friends of Naoki?

Yes, I suppose so.

We used to be colleagues.

I see.

Yoriko came by the house yesterday to drop off his ashes.

Right.

I wish I'd spent more time with him.

He must have been in secondary school

the last time we really talked.

To tell the truth,

it's not like I knew him that well.

If we're being completely honest.

Why did you two stop talking?

I think he was in primary school. It's been so long.

We had a dog.

We used to walk him together.

Well, I had to force Naoki sometimes because he didn't want to come.

One day we took the dog out.

I was holding the lead.

And...

the dog suddenly ran into traffic.

He got hit by a car.

The driver didn't stop.

Naoki was screaming at me to call an ambulance.

But you can't call an ambulance

for an injured dog.

There was... so much blood.

There wasn't anything we could do.

There were bones sticking out.

So I picked him up,

and took him home.

And we decided to wait it out, as a family.

But the dog was in a terrible state.

He was struggling to breathe.

Getting run over by that car had made a real mess of him.

I didn't want him to suffer,

but I couldn't club him or anything like that.

So...

I strangled him.

From that day on,

we drifted apart.

By the time...

he was in secondary school, we were hardly talking at all.

Then, later on, we stopped talking altogether.

I thought that we'd be able to make it up some day.

I didn't even go to his wedding.

The truth is, it was me who avoided him.

Once he'd grown up, I didn't know what we could talk about.

Excuse me.

-Hello. - Where are you?

What are you up to?

I met up with Eri.

I wouldn't call it fun, we're visiting a grave.

Oh, why?

What do you mean?

Did it have to be today?

I thought we were going to visit the house.

You said you were free today.

Seriously?

You forgot?

Completely. I'm sorry.

Where are you?

Yamanashi.

Yamanashi? All that way?

We came in Eri's car.

-Are you coming home tonight? -Of course.

Can I speak to Eri?

Why?

Just hand over the phone, please.

What's the matter?

Sorry, can you talk to him?

-What? -Fuminori wants to talk to you.

To me, now?

Why?

I don't know.

Hello.

Yes, it's been a while.

What was he like when he was little?

He was pretty shy.

Even with his friends, he kept pretty much to himself.

I imagined him being more of an extrovert.

I don't know why, but one day

his mother dyed half of his hair blond.

That helped him come out of his shell a little.

I'd have loved to have seen that!

I have his class photos.

-Did the school allow it? -I think so.

Sorry.

He wants to talk to you.

To me?

Yes.

He wants to talk to you.

It's her partner.

To me?

Yes.

I explained the situation,

and he wants to speak to you.

I said I couldn't ask that of someone we've just met, but...

he won't take no for an answer.

Here.

His hair's so short.

We all go in for weird haircuts when we're young.

-It must have been the trend. -Really?

He showed a photo of some celebrity to the hairdresser.

I wonder who.

We're the same generation, we should know.

He got the photo from his mum.

-I'll get the plates. -Thanks.

I've never been, but I'd like to.

I don't know about that.

You should take him.

I'd rather start with real camping.

If we start off by glamping,

he'll never want to get his hands dirty.

I don't think you need to put that much effort into it.

Talking of activities where you need to put in a bit of effort...

we enrolled our son

in a sports club.

But...

I didn't know how hard to push him,

and he quit.

We really should have pushed him some more.

He said the training was too hard,

but it's hard to know what that means.

You can't tell the coach:

"My son doesn't want to be a professional,

so can you go easy on him?"

No, you can't.

I wonder how I'd react if a kid of mine wanted to quit.

Was it the anniversary of his death?

No.

So it didn't have to be today.

No, it didn't.

How could you forget?

I'm sorry.

Whose grave was it?

A friend's.

Oh, well, we can't do anything about it now.

These things happen, it can't be helped.

People forget.

Are you tired? It's quite far.

Yeah, a bit.

Sit down.

I know I'm not alone in this, but...

divorce has crossed my mind.

Still, if we've managed to stay together till now,

it must be because we've found alternatives.

We've managed to come this far

without splitting up.

You must have thought about it too,

so you can tell me if you've had doubts.

It's crossed my mind.

Every married couple has thought about it, at least once.

It does cross your mind, especially when you don't have kids.

But I think that what's important

is how you react to having those thoughts.

So far

we've both chosen to stay together.

Anyway, that's all I had to say.

Sorry I was unpleasant on the phone.

I have to get back to work in ten minutes.

That's okay.

Change of plans. I have to take care of Hiromu tonight.

I'll be home late.

Okay.

What's wrong?

I've been feeling a little feverish.

-Are you okay? -Yes.

I'll cancel the babysitting, then.

Don't do that. Who'll look after him?

It's okay, I'll ask my mum.

You can't ask her to do that.

I won't tell her why.

And I'll try to leave work early.

Welcome.

We're not sure when yet, but we're going to move.

You won't have a spare key this time.

It's not about today.

We just don't feel comfortable with the situation.

No, it's not Watako making me say this.

No, I'm grateful for your help with Hiromu.

That's not the point.

You can look after him somewhere else.

We'll talk about it some other time.

No, it's not because of today.

I've been planning to tell you for a while.

Yeah, but...

it's my fault too.

Okay, we'll discuss it some other time.

Yes, I know you have health issues.

I come and see you a lot,

and I take you to your hospital appointments.

Yeah, we'll talk face to face.

Okay, let's do that.

Take care, bye-bye.

-Did I wake you? -No.

I'm trying to get our key back.

She minds Hiromu, it's a touchy subject.

That's beside the point.

But I doubt she'll be back after that conversation.

I shouldn't have waited.

I've made things awkward.

No, don't worry about it.

I bought some wine from the year we got married.

-But if you're not feeling well... -I feel much better after my nap.

-I'll open it. -A nice find!

There were quite a few from that year.

One more thing.

For you.

Thank you.

I got you something too.

What is it?

-Can I open it? -Yeah.

Can I open mine too?

You'll scratch the floor. Take them off.

Nah, these are high quality shoes!

You want to rent out the flat, don't you?

I'll wear them on my hands.

They suit you.

Do you think so?

Hand moonwalk!

-Very smooth! -Yeah?

My hands are sweaty now.

Let me smell them.

-Ew! -No way.

-It's new-shoe smell. -Put some socks on.

That'll make it worse.

I wear socks, my feet don't smell.

Really?

Ew!

-Well? -I can't reach.

Your hands stink, keep your shoes on.

My head's spinning.

You should have got white.

-They only had red. -A glass of water?

I'm fine. I just need a minute.

I'll put on a show for you.

Well?

Very nice.

What's the matter?

Close your eyes.

-Why? -Just do it.

-What? -Just close your eyes.

-I need the toilet. -I've rinsed my mouth out.

I'm going to wet myself!

Excuse me.

Yes?

I think I might have lost this here.

Let me go and check.

Is this it?

Thank you so much.

Where did I lose it?

Actually, they found that on Naoki.

His wife didn't recognise it, so she brought it over.

I think what you're looking for is a ring identical to that.

I don't plan on doing anything with this information.

It's none of my business.

I'm so sorry.

It's not for me to say anything.

It was between the two of you.

It's not for me to judge,

nor to tell anybody about this.

However, the thing is...

I don't...

I don't know what to do.

When you say "what to do",

how do you mean?

You came all this way to get the ring back.

So it's clear

that it must mean a lot to you.

So for me to pretend not to know about it

would put me in an uncomfortable position with Yoriko.

I don't know

how I feel about that.

Keeping it a secret doesn't seem right.

Don't get me wrong.

It's not like I want to punish you or anything like that.

It's just...

that I don't want...

to carry the burden of this secret all by myself.

-Do you have a reservation? -No. Is that okay?

I'll need to check. Just a moment.

-A room for one? -Yes.

-How many nights? -Just the one.

Have a seat in the waiting room.

We have two vacancies tonight. Follow me, please.

I was worried .

Yeah, I'm really sorry.

I wanted to tell you, but...

Where are you?

I'm in...

Yamanashi.

-Yamanashi? -Yes.

With Eri?

No, she's not here.

Who, then?

I'm on my own.

On your own?

Yes, I'm on my own, I swear.

But are you coming home?

Yes, I'm coming home.

- Okay, then. -I'm sorry.

Thank you for agreeing to see me. Did you find it easily?

Yes.

Did you know he was married?

Yes.

Are you married?

Yes.

-Do you work? -No.

When did it start?

We first met at a get-together of mutual friends.

And then?

And then...

and then...

Yes!

I was having some problems.

When we first met,

he told me you'd been an item for a while before you got married,

even though, along the way,

you'd broken up and got back together again.

When I asked him why he hadn't given up,

he told me that he hung on because of the good times.

I was going through the same sort of thing,

so we got to talking more often.

When was this?

About a year ago.

Right.

So his solo trips over the past year were actually to see you.

Do you have any questions for me?

No.

I see.

We started seeing each other at university.

I was two years his senior,

but he approached me.

He thought we were in the same year.

Even though we broke up

and got back together a few times,

we were together

for fifteen years in all.

People used to say that we were so lucky,

that we had an ideal relationship.

But in reality,

I've come to doubt happily ever afters.

What do you think? Does it sound so ideal to you?

Ideal?

Ideal...

I assumed we'd gone through all those years

without having other sexual partners.

You're supposed to be faithful to your husband, right?

Yes.

I'd have liked to ask him

why he did it.

How about starting with an apology?

I'm sorry.

Why? What for?

Why am I sorry?

Because I left without telling you.

Why is it always Yamanashi?

It's not a conversation if you don't talk.

We need to talk this through, once and for all.

What's in Yamanashi?

Are you...

acting like this because of me?

Do you think we can fix it?

Your silence speaks volumes.

No, it doesn't, I'm just thinking.

It doesn't mean anything.

So I just have to wait? Okay.

I...

I'm waiting.

I'm waiting.

Where's this from?

-Where was that? -Is it from Yamanashi?

-Where was it? -Is it connected to Yamanashi?

You can't blame me

for thinking that you're having an affair,

even though I don't want to believe it.

That's rich, coming from you.

-So you are. -No, I'm not.

Then tell me what's in Yamanashi.

-I'm not cheating on you. -What's in Yamanashi?

-I'm not. -If you won't answer me,

I can't believe you.

It must mean you're cheating on me.

What if I am cheating on you? Then what?

What's that supposed to mean?

You cheated first.

That's not the point here.

You did so while pretending to see your son.

You think that's forgiven?

You've basically confessed.

-I'm not having an affair. -Liar!

-I'm telling the truth! -You're lying...

-You weren't seeing Hiromu! -I was...

-You were seeing her! -I was looking after Hiromu!

That's not true!

I convinced myself you were only going to see your kid.

A child needs his father, so I shut up and put up with it.

But between what you said and what you were doing...

Am I right or not?

That's not what we're talking about here.

You wouldn't react like this if you were faithful.

-I'm not having an affair. -Then, what is this?

It's from someone I love.

What?

He died recently, though.

Died?

That's why I've been going to Yamanashi. It's where the grave is.

He's dead?

-Yes. -You want me to believe that?

I don't care if you believe me or not.

I loved him and he died!

He...

died.

Are you serious?

He's dead.

Don't cry.

So we're talking about your lover?

I need a break.

-What? -I need a break.

Where have you been?

I want a divorce.

Okay.

What did you do with him?

All sorts.

Where did you go?

Restaurants and cafés,

anywhere we could be alone together.

We visited some shrines as well.

We even rented a car now and then to get out of town.

Where did you go?

Hot spas,

the airport...

Doing what?

The same things we used to do.

-What? -Watching the planes, drinking tea.

Right. That used to be fun.

We started off by being lovers as well.

We're better as lovers than we are as partners.

That's probably why you're sleeping with your ex again.

Is he really dead?

I didn't go to his funeral. It didn't feel right.

I saw the accident happen.

I saw that he was in a bad way.

I should have called for an ambulance.

I thought somebody else would.

I hung up on the emergency services.

I can't really remember how I explained it to myself.

But I just ignored it.

Is that why he died?

I don't know.

But if we hadn't been seeing each other,

he might still be alive now.

Right.

What?

Let go.

-Let go. -I don't want a divorce.

Let go of me!

-I don't want a divorce. -Let go of me.

Denial is scary.

I've been there, I know.

I shouldn't have ignored the real issues.

I'll talk to my mum...

about her taking care of Hiromu.

You can always go back to your original family.

Do you want to split up?

No, not really.

But...

I miss Kimura so much.