All language subtitles for Sullivans.Crossing.S03E04.480p.x264-mSD.Eng

Marissa: He needs to know the truth.

What's going on?

The cancer...

it's spread to my pancreas.

It's terminal.

So, what do we do now?

Maggie: Radiation, possibly chemotherapy.

No, I won't be doing any of that.

Dad, what are you talking about?

I'm not going to spend the little time that I have left

in a hospital, being poked and prodded by doctors.

Hey, hey, hey, let me help.

Jed: Let's go.

So, you're not getting any treatment?

Jed: We all got to go some time, son.

The only difference with me is I get to choose when

and I get to choose how.

Mom...

are you okay with this?

It's not my decision to make, Cal.

Marissa, I'm tired.

- I need to go to bed. - Okay.

Can we talk about this, please?

Let's just enjoy the time we have together

and not ruin this visit

by talking about things that we can't change.

Yeah.

I'm so sorry, Cal.

I can't believe they kept this from me.

What's this?

For me?

Picked them on the way over.

Thought it might help brighten this place up.

Are you feeling okay, Sully?

Yeah, great. Why?

You've just never brought me flowers before.

Well, there's a first time for everything.

You hear from Maggie yet?

Just to let me know they arrived safely.

I hope everything's going okay.

Yeah, me too.

Frank in the garden?

No, he's home with Jacob. He'll be in later.

Well, I'm gonna head over to Helen's

and finish up those repairs.

Thought she might like some coffee.

Are you sure you're feeling all right?

What? A person can't bring someone coffee

without getting the third degree?

What's so funny?

Nothing.

Okay.

Hey. Sorry. I didn't mean to wake you.

Oh, that's okay.

You get any sleep last night?

I just can't stop thinking about my dad.

Yeah.

Maybe if I'd have come home sooner...

You're here now.

Yeah. Just need some fresh air, so...

I'm sorry, Cal. I...

I wish there was something I could do.

I know.

Oh.

Hi there.

I didn't expect to see you today.

Thought I'd finish those repairs you wanted.

Figured I'd save you a trip to the Outpost?

Oh... Well, that's very nice of you.

Thanks.

Can I come in?

Yes, of course.

You have no idea how much I appreciate this.

I was on a roll last night.

Stayed up pretty late working.

Sully: Huh.

So, I guess you got over your writer's block.

Yes.

Our trip to the boardwalk really inspired me.

Ah. I'm glad.

Well, I'll try and stay out of your hair

and, uh, you know, I'll be as quiet as a mouse.

You won't even know I'm here.

Okay?

Okay.

Squeaky door, huh?

Which door is it?

Back door.

You weren't kidding when you said it was squeaky.

Helen: Heh.

Hey, you know, I finally got a chance

to finish reading your book.

Really?

I'm glad to hear that. And?

Uh... And I really liked it.

I'm dying to know if these two get together.

Well, I guess

you're just going to have to wait for me to finish the book.

Right.

Does this mean...

you've changed your mind about romance?

Um, I need to get back to fixing this thing.

Here you go.

- Hey. - Edna: Jacob, good morning.

Jacob: Hey.

Good morning.

I thought Jacob by to grab some breakfast

before he gets to work.

Oh, that's a good idea.

What can I get you?

I'd love some scrambled eggs and bacon, if it's no trouble.

Coming right up.

Jacob: Thanks.

So, do you have a nice time in Lunenburg with Lola?

- We did. - Edna: Wonderful.

Is she coming in today?

I'm not sure. Why?

I thought she might want to come help me

collect some lichen samples.

Well, if you're looking for company,

no one knows their way around these woods better than Frank.

Jacob doesn't want me slowing him down.

Actually, it'd be nice

to have an extra pair of hands, if you're offering.

We haven't had a lot of time to talk since I got here.

Frank: Okay.

I'll go change my shoes.

Here, sit.

I am really glad you're here.

Me too.

Good morning.

Morning.

Cal not up yet?

He went for a walk. He just needed a little space.

I guess he's still upset.

Do you think Jed's making the right decision?

Not accepting treatment?

It could buy him some time.

But to be honest,

I don't know how much.

I didn't believe the doctors at first when they told us.

Ted seemed fine.

Well, pancreatic cancer is easy to miss.

There aren't a lot of symptoms.

I'm worried about Cal.

Yeah, me too.

This is going to be hard on him.

He's... been angry with his father for so long.

What did he tell you about Jed?

Just that life with him was difficult.

He could be unpredictable.

Managing Jed's condition with four kids was hard.

I relied on Cal for help.

He grew up fast,

carried more on his shoulders than any child should have to.

I don't think he ever

forgave Jed for not being the father he needed.

What about the others?

Well, it was different for them.

I mean, they had Cal to lean on.

He was there for them.

I don't want you thinking it was all bad.

Oh.

We had plenty of good days together, too. I...

I just wish Cal could remember that.

Hey. You ready?

Made an appointment with another realtor.

We've already looked at everything available.

What are you doing?

Looking to see if anybody's hiring a chef.

That seems to be a dead end, too.

I think I'm gonna have to move somewhere with more options.

Like, leave Timberland?

But you can't just move.

This is your home. Your friends are here.

What other choice do I have?

Jed: Why do you mean I don't care about my own kids?

Marissa: No, of course not. I just think...

Jed: I know what's best for this family, Marissa.

Marissa: We can't keep doing this!

The kids need stability!

I want us to have a proper home.

Maggie: Hey.

Chopped enough firewood for a month.

Blowing off some steam.

Maggie: I can see that.

Maybe talking would help.

Honestly, I don't really know what I'm feeling right now.

Why don't we get out of here?

Get a little distance from all this.

Where do you want to go?

I think I know a place

that might help give you a little perspective.

217 I appreciate this, Maggie, I do,

but I really don't know if I'm up for a balloon ride right now.

Trust me. I've been once and it is-- it's amazing.

There's something comforting

about looking at the world from way up there.

- Hi. - Hi.

- Do you have a booking? - Yeah, I called ahead.

Maggie Sullivan.

I've got you here. You're with me.

Come on. It will get you out of your head.

Cooper: Nice work today, everyone.

How's that schedule coming along, Rafe?

Uh, left it on your desk.

How about those incident reports?

I figured I'd get to them tomorrow.

Rules say they need to be submitted within 24 hours, Rafe.

Yeah, we always get them done by the end of the week.

You know, I'm getting the impression

that Connie let a lot of things slide around here.

That's not true.

Well, in any case,

I'm running things now, and I want them done by the book.

That means I expect those reports

on my desk before you go today.

Copy that.

How about this one?

That is Parmelia sulcata -

cracked shield lichen.

Lives on deciduous trees.

It's a lot more sturdy than some of the other species out here.

How long have you been interested in this stuff?

My koohkom practiced traditional medicine.

She actually used it to treat my diabetes.

Why Nova Scotia?

To be honest,

I was hoping I'd get to know you and Edna a little better.

We didn't really get to spend a lot of time together

when you came to the res.

And I'm sorry about that.

I'm just glad you and my father were able to work things out.

Me too.

They actually wanted me to let you know

that they'd love to see you again.

Let them know I'd like that too.

You ever think about moving back?

It's crossed my mind from time to time.

Just know you're always welcome whenever you're ready.

Ekosani. Thank you.

- Ah. - Sully: Smells good.

Ah!

I'm not done with those yet.

I'm hungry from having to finish all those repairs

I'm doing at Helen's.

Are they finished?

No. I'm going to head back over there tomorrow.

Sure is taking a long time.

Well, it takes as long as it takes.

Morning, Edna, Sully.

- Hey, Sydney. - Hey.

Thought I'd stop by and see if you needed a hand with anything.

Perfect timing.

These need frosting.

Sure.

Sully: I was sorry to hear that Rob lost his new diner space.

Yeah. We've been trying to find another location, but no luck.

I'm starting to get a little worried.

Why?

Because Rob's talking about moving.

Moving? Where?

Somewhere he can find work as a chef.

No, no, no, we can't let that happen.

There's got to be something we can do.

I'm not sure there's anything to do unless you happens to know of

a location we haven't looked at yet.

I think I might have an idea.

So peaceful.

It's like we're disconnected

from everything that's going on down there.

You know, seeing the world from way up here

helps remind me that I'm not the only one in the world

with problems.

I know things between you and your father

haven't been good for a long time.

But I think, if you want to, you could fix it.

I don't think that's possible.

Well, whatever you decide, I just...

I want you to know that I'll be here to help you get through it.

That means a lot.

Thank you for doing this for me.

Well, my great-great-grandfather

built this place as a social hall.

Used to hold Scottish Ceilidhs here.

All right.

It's been sitting empty for years.

Always meant to fix it up one day,

put it to-- put it to good use,

but I just never got around to it.

Sydney: This place is huge.

Sully: So, what do you think?

Hmm?

This place is incredible.

I can't accept this, Sully.

Why not?

I still owe you the money you gave me and Sarah

when we opened the diner.

That was a gift. All right?

You'd be doing me a big favour by taking it off my hands.

How so?

Well...

All right, Glenn bought some land next to the Crossing.

Tell me you're joking.

He's developing a fancy resort on it.

Oh.

So, we're going to need all the help we can get.

Having a restaurant with a talented chef on location

is going to draw a lot of people to us.

It'll need a little TLC, but it really is perfect, Rob.

So, we got a deal?

Sully, we got a deal.

- All right.

All right, huh?

Marissa: Cal, can we talk?

Why don't I go wash up and check on Jed?

You should have told me, Mom.

I wanted to.

Your father made me promise not to say anything. I'm sorry.

I thought maybe things had changed.

Clearly, they haven't.

You're always letting him tell you what to do

and putting him first.

Is that really how you felt?

We were just kids.

We needed you too.

But what about us?

I wanted you to have a father in your life, Cal,

even if that meant having one that wasn't perfect.

He loved you.

Did you really want me to turn my back on him

when he needed us?

I know I wasn't there for you the way I should have been,

and I will never be able to forgive myself for that,

but I...

I did everything I could.

And I wish your father hadn't been sick,

and I wish things could have been different for all of us.

Cal: I'm sorry.

I never thought about how hard it was for you too.

The person it's hardest on is your father.

Remember that.

383 How are you feeling?

A bit better.

Glad to hear it.

Come sit with me.

I'm really happy that I got a chance to meet you, Maggie.

Me too.

Marissa and I,

we worry about Cal.

Losing Lynne,

that was hard for him.

We weren't sure...

if he'd be able to find his way back from that.

But now, he's got you.

And I'm grateful.

And I can leave this world knowing he's going to be okay.

It really broke my heart,

you know, when he moved away.

And I never understood...

why he did that...

until now.

It just tears me up knowing that I'm the reason

that he's going to carry around

all that anger for the rest of his life.

I always hoped,

one day, we'd get a chance to...

just talk things out...

...and he would forgive me.

But I don't think that's going to happen now.

Maybe it's not too late.

No, I think Cal's made it pretty clear how he feels.

I'm a little tired.

I think I'm going to go lay down.

No way!

What is it?

It's boreal felt. It's a rare species of lichen.

I can't believe this.

Frank: Something wrong?

Jacob: You see this black spot here? I think it might be dying.

Why is that?

This particular lichen

is sensitive to environmental toxins.

Environmental toxins, huh?

Follow me.

The kind you get from nearby construction?

Hey. Things go okay with your mother?

Yeah.

Had a good chat, cleared the air.

I'm glad.

Yeah.

What about Jed? You gonna talk to him too?

I can't. Nah.

You know, I don't wanna say anything else I'll regret.

He really wants to make things right with you, Cal.

I think it's a little late for that, don't you, Maggie?

This is your chance. All right?

To tell him how you feel and to hear what he has to say.

Look, if you can't do it for yourself,

can you maybe do it for him?

Now, he's finally decided to take his medication,

now he wants to talk?

What about all those years ago when I needed him?

I know.

I get it.

I do. That's how I felt about Sully

until I heard his side of the story.

Don't you think you at least owe it to him

to just let him explain?

I don't think I can.

Why not?

I can't say goodbye.

I did it with Lynne,

and, uh...

...it was the hardest thing...

I've ever had to do.

I don't think I can do that again.

I know this isn't easy, Cal.

I'm just worried that, if you don't do this,

that you're gonna regret it.

465 Can I sit with him for a little bit?

That'd be nice.

Remember, he loves you.

- Hey. Can't sleep? - Young Cal: I heard a noise.

I think it was a monster.

You think it was a monster?

Oh, no.

Okay. Those monsters...

Any monster comes near you,

they're going to have to go through me first.

So, I'm going to roar those monsters away.

How about I give you a piggyback ride back to bed?

Hop on, California.

Giddy up! Here we go!

Can you howl?

Throw those monsters away!

You're back. How'd it go?

We found some rare lichen, but it looks like something's

killing it off.

Really?

And Jacob thinks

that it might be coming from the new development.

You mean Glenn's construction site?

Frank: That's the one.

Wow.

That might be what we need to shut him down.

You can't go around accusing people without evidence.

We have evidence.

Edna: What's that?

A sample of the dying lichen. I'll get it tested,

see if there's any signs of toxic chemicals.

How long will that take?

Probably a few weeks.

If he's using something toxic, we have to shut him down now.

Let's go talk to somebody

at the Nova Scotia Environmental Agency.

Maybe we should think about this first.

Come on. Let's show them what you've got.

Thank you for being here for Cal.

I can see how much it means to him.

I understand what it's like to be estranged from your father.

I didn't see mine for a very long time.

You understand how he feels.

I do.

But I also know what it feels like

to finally let go of all that hurt

you carry around inside you,

and I want Cal to be able to do that.

I can tell you love my son very much.

I do.

When I first met Jed, I was hitchhiking across Colorado.

Jed picked me up.

Yeah, things were good at the beginning.

But then, he started developing symptoms

and complaining that world had lost its colour.

Eventually, things got worse.

Doctors prescribed pills,

but Jed didn't like the way they made him feel,

so he decided to manage his condition through diet,

meditation,

and that worked...

a lot of the time.

I know my husband isn't perfect,

but he always tried to be the best dad he could be,

despite his condition.

I can't imagine how difficult that must have been for you.

It is surprising what you learn to live with

when you love someone.

I spent my entire life taking care of Jed.

He's been my world,

my everything.

I don't know what I'm going to do when he's...

You are always welcome to stay with us at the Crossing.

Thank you, Maggie.

I appreciate that.

Cooper: I want things to run smoothly around here too.

I know I need to make a change.

So, we understand each other then.

Yes.

But if it's all right, I'd like this to stay between us.

I don't want the other firefighters

catching wind of it.

Danny: No problem.

How long have you been sitting there?

Not long.

I was just...

remembering when we all used to sleep

in that old tiny tent together.

You were afraid of the dark.

Wouldn't go to bed until I checked for monsters.

You said you'd protect me.

I tried.

But you didn't take the pills.

We needed you,

I needed you,

and you weren't there for us.

The medication, it was so strong back then.

It had a lot of side effects.

It just left me feeling numb,

just disconnected from the world

and from you kids.

How could I be a good father, if I was on them?

I spent my childhood walking on eggshells, Dad.

I know, I know. I'm sorry, Cal.

I wish things could have been different.

I thought I made the right choice,

that what I was doing

was best for my family.

Maybe I was wrong.

Maybe you would have been better off without me.

I don't know.

You know...

...I don't think I've ever understood,

till right now,

that the monster you were always so afraid of...

...was me.

I guess I wasn't the only one running from monsters,

was I, Dad?

It's a hard thing to live your whole life

being just so scared of losing yourself.

But you end up driving the people let you love away.

Oh, Dad...

I'm so...

so sorry.

I didn't understand.

Yeah.

600 What smells so good?

Your father's favourite.

Roast beef and mashed potatoes.

How'd it go with Jed?

You were right.

I needed to hear them out.

Just wish I would've done that years ago.

Thank you for pushing me.

Yeah.

Just happy I could help.

Hi. I'll finish setting the table.

Mom...

Yes?

I shouldn't have judged you.

I am just so happy that you finally had a chance

to talk things through with your father.

Me too.

I love you, Mama.

I love you too, California.

You're back.

That went well.

What happened at the NSEA?

They took one look at Jacob's rare lichen

and they were all over it.

They're going to send the inspector

to pay Glenn a visit first thing in the morning.

Frank and I can't wait to see the look on his face.

You two are going?

Wouldn't miss it for the world.

I think poking a hornet's nest is a mistake.

Ah, you worry too much.

I hope you're right.

Sorry, I was too hungry to wait.

But there's a bowl for you in the oven.

It should still be warm.

Well, I'm glad you're home. I've got some good news.

Oh, yeah?

Yeah.

Turns out there's an old lodge that's just been sitting empty

at the Crossing for years. And guess what?

What?

Sully just offered it to Rob to use as his restaurant.

Did you even hear what I said?

Yeah. Sully gave Rob his old lodge.

You don't seem that excited.

I got a lot on my mind.

Cooper still giving you a hard time?

Yeah.

Look, I'm-- I'm sorry, Rafe.

I didn't mean to get you into trouble.

It is what it is, Sydney.

I'm just going to have to deal with it.

Here we go.

Mmm...

This looks delicious.

Marissa: Your favourite.

Jed: Okay.

I want to tell you how grateful I am you're here

and how happy it makes me that you found each other.

Because I know it's a really hard thing to come by.

You know, I've always lived my life on my own terms,

and I intend to continue doing that with the time I have left.

Okay.

Your mother and I, we talked it over,

and we would like to take one last adventure together.

We're gonna drive the old bus to the Grand Canyon.

That's a great idea, Dad.

Okay.

674

I took a look around.

Nothing appears to be out of the ordinary here.

Glad to hear.

You had me a little worried there.

My father's a contractor, does a lot of business

with the government, and he would kill me

if I did anything to damage his reputation.

I apologise for the inconvenience,

but certainly appreciate your cooperation.

- Anytime. - Thank you. Thanks.

You crossed the line this time, Sully.

If I were you...

I'd watch my back from now on.

Is that a threat?

No, that's not a threat.

It's a promise.

Have a great day.

I think that's everything. Just the food.

You sure you don't want me to come with?

You got your own life to worry about.

Now, Cal, don't worry,

I will take very good care of your father.

You'll keep in touch? Let us know how he's doing?

- Of course. - Okay.

Just remember how much I love you, Cal.

I love you too, Mama.

Okay.

I said I was going to come get you.

I told you, I told you, I don't want you fussing over me.

Why don't I help you in the kitchen with that cooler?

I'd appreciate that.

I just want to tell you how proud I am

of the man that you have become.

Thanks, Dad.

Maggie, she's a smart woman with a good heart.

I hope you hang on to her.

I'm planning on it.

I'm just really glad that we had this time together.

Me too.

Cal... let's just say

I know I wasn't the easiest person to live with,

but I just hope that, one day,

you'll be able to look back and just...

just remember the good times, you know?

Maybe... Maybe share some stories

about your old man with your kids, yeah?

You can count on that.

Make sure you live your life to the fullest,

because you only get one shot.

If you do things right, it's a hell of a ride.

We had some fun times in this old thing, didn't we?

Sure did.

I love you, Dad.

I love you too, Son.

I love you too.

Okay, we'd better get going; got a lot of driving.

This is just a little something.

And, uh, why not open it after we're gone?

Okay.

Give you a minute?

Thanks.