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(typewriter clacking)

(calm music)

- No, put that one down. It's gross.

It's where boys pee.

Should we say something?

- Great power of love, and happiness, and health,

we turn this wretched and disgusting form

of self destruction over to you forever.

Deliver us from the obsession to poison ourselves.

And deliver us into your pure breath of life forever.

Amen.

- May you remove these roadblocks from my life

so that I may reach the stars.

(calm music)

(toilet flushing)

Wow.

I really want a cigarette now.

- Yeah.

- [Danielle] Do you really spend 5000 a year on smoking?

- [Julius] Probably more.

- Well, from now on that money should go towards something

small and shiny in a tiny little velvet box.

(engine cranks)

(upbeat music)

I can't wait to get out this fucking city.

Nature's care, that what we need.

- Just wish it was Tahiti.

- [Danielle] Yeah, me too.

- [Julius] Next trip. I promise.

- [Danielle] We really need to support each other, okay.

I don't want to be the only

nonsmoker when we get back to LA.

- [Julius] You won't.

This isn't my idea of some desert bang bang.

I made a decision to quit, and I really mean it this time.

- [Danielle] I can do it if you can.

- [Julius] It's just us against them.

♪ Five gears in reverse ♪

♪ Girls looking for the big lift ♪

♪ Somebody send out for the night nurse ♪

♪ Please don't stick me on the late shift ♪

♪ If you don't know by now ♪

♪ Nobody's gonna tell you ♪

♪ If you don't know by now ♪

♪ The shock will probably kill you ♪

♪ But if your patience is exhausted ♪

♪ And you still cannot decide ♪

♪ You're sitting in the garage contemplating suicide ♪

♪ And you have no motivation ♪

♪ You can't even catch your breath ♪

♪ All of this acceleration is driving you to death ♪

♪ Five gears in reverse ♪

♪ You think I don't know what I'm doing ♪

♪ Another fashionable first ♪

♪ Like walking down the road to ruin ♪

♪ But if you're safe and sound ♪

- [Julius] You hear that?

- [Danielle] I thought nobody was supposed to be here.

- [Julius] Not supposed to be here.

- [Danielle] Are you sure that this is the right place?

- [Julius] I don't know.

- [Danielle] What do you mean you don't know?

- [Julius] I followed Bob's directions.

- [Danielle] Ah, Julius.

- [Radio Preacher] The love of God,

our faith in God lies in our heart, not in our minds.

The Bible says. - I'm gonna call Bob.

- [Radio Preacher] The heart is deceitful in all things.

- Well? - And desperately wicked.

- No answer. Shit. - Who can know?

- [Radio Preacher] God does not care

how you dress up in that suit.

- I'm gonna get my knife.

- [Danielle] Jules, please be careful.

- [Radio Preacher] God lives inside you.

- [Julius] Hello?

- [Radio Preacher] Seize the deep down desperate perversity.

- [Julius] Bob?

- [Radio Preacher] The sin in every man's heart.

He sees how you really are. Matthew 15:8.

- [Julius] Anybody here?

- [Radio Preacher] His people draweth nigh unto to me

with their mouth, and honoreth me with their lips.

- [Julius] Hello?

- [Radio Preacher] But their heart is far from me.

Your calamity will come suddenly.

(radio clicks off)

- Dani. It's all right.

- What a dump.

What movie is that from?

That is Liz Taylor in "Virginia Wolf"

quoting Bette Davis in "Beyond the Forest",

which was directed by King Vidor after he made

one of my favorite films, "The Fountainhead".

- Come here.

Thank you for doing this with me.

- Thank me? Thank you.

Sweetheart, this is beautiful.

I love it.

(grandfather clock gong ringing)

- I'm ready to take you.

- Oh, Pepe Le Pew.

I really don't want that right now.

- Fine, neither do I.

(clock ticking)

- Stop staring at me.

(clock continues ticking)

What?

- Nothing.

I love you.

- You love me because you need me.

- No, I need you because I love you.

(clock continues ticking)

- I'm hungry.

- Well, if I were a bird I'd fly off

and gather you up some worms.

- What would you feed me if I were a cat?

- Well first, I murderize you a mouse,

and drop it at your feet.

Then I'd serve it up with a side of lizard legs,

and fur balls that I'd lick from your hairy tail.

- What else would you lick?

(clock continues ticking) (eclectic music)

- Date, Monday, March 15th.

Time, 9:30 AM.

Place, Joshua Tree, Bob's house.

Reason, morning coffee and newspaper, morning routine.

Level of need, one through five, five being the highest.

Six.

Oh, my friends are in here.

And here is your brother, Mr. Coffee.

(dramatic music)

Fuck, fuck.

Jesus.

Bitch!

(calm music)

- [Announcer] Step outside to a full

refreshing flavor you can trust 20 times a pack.

Start your day with confidence,

and make the difference where it counts.

Rich, bold, and designed for that certain pleasure.

Confidence, be that. Confidence, be that.

Be that, confidence.

- [Danielle] Are you okay?

Are you okay?

- Yeah.

Yeah, no I'm fine.

- You're not freaking out yet?

- No.

- [Announcer] When it's time to smoke,

fill your lungs with confidence.

(TV chattering in the background)

- We should talk about the plan.

- What plan?

- You know, how we're gonna get through this?

- We already talked about that.

We're gonna do it through

the love and supportive of each other.

- But I did buy all these tools,

and I think we should decide how best to use them.

- Okay, well you can do whatever you want.

I've done this before, all right. I know what works for me.

- Will you listen to yourself? You've done this before.

- Yeah. Yes. - Yeah.

- [Danielle] But I wasn't ready, like I am now.

- Just humor me, all right.

- [Danielle] Okay, I'll humor you.

- I got everything right here.

First off, I've got nicotine gum. And they got a new flavor.

- You mean one that doesn't taste like licking an ashtray?

- No, they fixed that. A lot of R and D went into that.

- What in the world are you holding?

- It's a inhaler, nicotine inhaler.

It delivers the nicotine orally.

(coughing)

- Is this smoking too?

- Millions of people have used these tools to quit smoking.

Trust me.

- I know. But you know what? I'm not millions of people.

I am Danielle Thomas, and I do not smoke.

- Look at this. This is a big rubber band.

(rubber band snaps)

While you're thinking about smoking,

you'll connect the snapping to the smoking.

You won't want to smoke.

I've got lip balm.

I've got lots of lollipops here.

A self-affirmation CD.

Last but not least, the journal record keeper,

widely recognized as the most effective way

to identify the addiction as it happens.

- Well, how does that work?

- All right, well let me read you an entry.

Date, Monday, March 15th.

Time, 9:30 AM.

Place, Joshua Tree, California, Bob's house.

Reason, morning coffee.

- You smoked?

You smoked?

- I journaled it, though.

- You - But I journaled it.

- Wait, hold on. You smoked?

Are you? You're kidding me. - I had one.

- But then I did my due diligence.

I put it in the journal record keeper.

- Oh my God.

I don't even know how to take that.

God, you're. - It's not a big deal.

- It's not a big deal? - It's not that big a deal.

I mean, we have to just. - We quit.

- [Julius] The system.

- You're so weak.

It has been 14 hours since we stopped,

and you've been sleeping for 10 of them.

What is your problem?

We said we were gonna do this together.

- We are doing this together. - We were supposed to.

We are not doing this together, okay. No!

- You're doing it your way, and I'm doing it my way.

And we're gonna work this whole thing out.

- You're not doing it at all.

That little fucking toilet prayer,

preacher thing was just fucking a lie.

- No it wasn't, all right. I was waiting-

- To lie to me. That's what you were waiting for.

- [Julius] No it's not.

You won't talk to me, won't let me finish.

- No, no no. Just do this. Do this your own way, dude.

You're a coward for not saying anything before last night.

It is complete and total bullshit.

This is just another example of

your lame passive aggressive bullshit.

- Oh well, it's also an example of your self-righteous

delusion that you think you can make

behavior go away by just wishing it away.

You can't wish yourself into something new.

- I can do whatever I want, actually.

- You gotta have a plan of action!

Not just some romantic notion

of what you want without ever working towards it!

- Fine!

We'll see who quits and who doesn't.

- [Announcer] Confidence, be that.

- [Julius] It's just harder for me, babe.

You know how my brain works.

- [Danielle] Well Jules, you really just need to stop.

trying to be so controlling all the time.

You just need to act with your heart instead of your head.

- This is the trail.

- No, this is the trail.

- Babe, it's the trail.

- See what I mean? This is the trail.

- No, it isn't.

- Yes, it is.

- No, that's not the trail.

- Yes, it is.

God, this is so beautiful.

You can see forever from here.

The fear is just killing me.

I feel like life is just passing me by,

and I'm just too afraid to reach out and grab it.

I made myself a prisoner.

I dunno. Maybe I'm just supposed to make babies.

Maybe that's my purpose in life,

make babies.

- [Julius] You just need to get out in the world, babe.

And do something good for yourself.

Help people, be a part of something.

- Did you know that octopuses die after mating?

- I feel that way with you, baby.

- [Danielle] They also have three hearts.

(wind blowing) (contemplative music)

- Oh, fuck. No.

- [Danielle] What?

- Oh, shit.

- What?

- I think we're stuck up here.

There's no way fucking way down.

- What? What are you talking about?

- The way we came up, we can't get down.

Shit, you gotta be kidding me.

- Oh my God, we're gonna.

I told you that I would die young.

- [Julius Voiceover] I knew I shouldn't

have listened to you.

"Go off the trail", she said.

I'm stuck up onside a cliff!

- Shit.

- [Danielle Voiceover] All you care about is yourself.

Fuck you!

- Hello!

(crows cawing)

Anybody?

(wind blowing)

(Danielle crying)

(dramatic music)

(coyotes barking)

(flies buzzing)

(Danielle crying)

- What are you doing?

- It's for emergency.

- For what?

- Emergencies, this is an emergent-

- [Danielle] No.

- You know, these are extenuating circumstances.

- I'm sorry.

(Danielle crying)

- I'll find a way off this fucking mountain.

- Julius, what are you doing?

Be careful.

- Love you.

- I love you.

(Julius screaming)

- Babe.

- You did it.

Oh my God, I can't believe you actually made it.

That's amazing.

Just wait there for a minute, honey.

I'm gonna go around the other side,

and help you down from there, okay.

- Please hurry.

- I will, all right. I'll be right there. Don't worry.

(clock ticking)

- [Danielle Voiceover] Death is so quiet.

(clock continues clicking)

- [Julius Voiceover] The oxygen in our blood.

- [Danielle Voiceover] I'm the world's largest ladybug.

- [Julius Voiceover] Maybe I'm not yet who's in here.

(birds cawing)

(panting)

- Did you cum in me?

- I might have.

- Why?

- You said you wanted to have babies.

- Yeah, but not now.

- It was an accident.

(upbeat music)

- [Julius Voiceover] The luxury escorted

tour of Holland begins in the tulip filled.

- Danielle, can we turn the music down please?

Turn the TV off, hon?

- [TV Announcer] When my friend and I

were stranded by the side of the road-

- [Julius Voiceover] Imagine the vision of

tulip filled countryside as little clogged ones.

- [TV Announcer] And as a member, you can take advantage of-

- [Julius Voiceover] Precious windmills, puffy tulips,

smoking eating cheese, and shag tobacco.

- Danielle!

(Danielle grunts)

(radio and television overlapping)

- Can we please turn the TV off?

- I'm watching it.

- No, you're painting. How can you do both?

- It helps me.

- Are you painting commercials?

Sweety, you got the music on, you got the TV on.

I really need to finish these fucking

travel brochures before we get back.

- Yeah, whatever.

- What do you mean, whatever?

Can we turn off the TV, for me please?

- You can do whatever you want.

I'm sorry, but I am a little irritable myself.

- You kidding me?

- In case you've forgotten, it's been 24 hours for me.

That's for me, not for you.

But no, go ahead. Turn off the TV.

Have it your way.

(TV clicks off) (radio continues blaring)

Where are you going? - To get a drink!

- [Danielle] I thought we had a deal.

You don't drink, I don't take drugs.

- [Julius] Changed my mind!

- Julius get back here!

(engine cranks and revs up)

- Jesus Christ.

Dani, this is completely unacceptable.

This is totally fucked up.

- Okay, okay, okay.

- This is like shit that a two year old child would do.

What the fuck, seriously?

- Okay. Well then, here.

There's the money for the t-shirt and the towel.

- Is there any chance I could bum a-

- No.

- Okay.

- I don't smoke.

(coughing)

- Trying to quit myself.

- See this?

Kind of hard to get a good suck off of these lips.

Don't you think?

- I guess so.

- My old man died from the damn things. 55, emphysema.

- I'm sorry.

- Well, don't be.

Anyone that smokes must accept the consequences.

You think I miss him?

You're damn right. I do.

I miss him every day.

There were times when his pain got so bad.

You've never seen anyone in such pain.

I sat by his bed for seven months.

By the end, he couldn't speak or breathe.

That fucking disease had taken over all of his body.

You know, before he got sick,

I used to judge him for every little thing that bothered me.

Now those are the things that I miss the most.

(coyotes barking)

(car alarm blaring) (coyotes continue barking)

(calm piano music)

- Say, where is everyone tonight?

- Still want that cancer stick, huh?

There out back.

(singing in foreign language)

No alcohol outside.

- Thanks.

(continues singing in foreign language)

- Probably fucking donkeys are living around there,

and they're pissing around on the river bank,

and it's soaking into the water table,

and we're fucking drinking that shit.

(both laughing)

- Hey guys.

Any chance I could bum one of those cigarettes off you?

- You're a joker smoker, huh?

(both laughing)

- I'd pay you.

- Two bucks. (laughing)

- My old lady, she cleaned me out, you know.

- Well, at least you got an old lady that can clean you out.

(both laughing)

- Say, you got a picture of her?

- A picture of her?

Yeah.

Yeah, I got a picture of my old lady.

That's my, hey.

- Whoa. Oh, baby.

- Baby. Goddamn, won't you go for that?

- I tell you what.

Bring me this little girl, I'll give you a whole pack.

- Well then, you'll bathe her and bring her to me.

(both laughing)

- Hey, look. Just give me the photo back. I'll split man.

Forget about the cigarette. It's okay.

Just give it back, and.

- So it's gonna be like that, huh?

- What's the matter?

We ain't good enough to smoke with?

- If I had a cigarette, that wouldn't be a problem.

- Okay.

(laughing)

Where's my two bucks? (laughing)

- [Julius] This not my way! This is not my way!

I told you how I had to do it!

I told you, you had to stop!

I told you I had the tools!

- Hey, hey hey. Take it easy.

- [Julius] I told you we needed those tools!

- Take it easy, man.

- What the fuck was that?

(both laughing)

Whoo!

- Whoa.

- [Julius Voiceover] Date, Monday, March 15th.

Time, 11:16 PM.

Place, redneck bar from hell.

Reason, I'm a piece of shit.

Level of need, zero.

(singing in foreign language)

Hi.

I'm sorry.

(coyotes barking)

(birds singing)

- [Inspirational CD] Cigarettes are the same

as running the old age home for the janitor,

or the convenience of the administrative staff.

It is something that is running your life,

that is outside of you.

- [Julius] Hello, Red.

- [Inspirational CD] That makes you a prisoner to it.

Try to imagine yourself being in prison.

- You are a strange creature.

- [Inspirational CD] Having shackle on your legs.

- [Julius] There's no need to run.

- [Inspirational CD] And being confined continuously,

and told every day what time you have to do something,

how you're going to do it, what color it's going to be,

what flavor it's going to be.

All being decided by something outside of you.

That heard, I have go get. (static blaring)

And all of those things, when you give them up,

when you leave that prison and you walk out.

- Hello, proud bird.

Which parts do I know upon you are mutations?

- [Inspirational CD] So you, who wants to leave that prison,

and have control of your own life.

The rewards? Of course, a longer life.

Of course, a better feeling about yourself.

Of course, a more exciting feeling about the power of you

as a perfect creation, in charge of yourself.

And in every aspect of the study of humanity,

when people are given control of their life,

they are more fulfilled.

- You.

- [Inspirational CD] More productive, more creative-

- [Julius] Oh, I knew I'd find you.

It is your duty to transport me to my ultimate destination.

- [Inspirational CD] That's all you'll get.

It's an awful lot.

- At which point, I will return you to your rightful owner.

- [Inspirational CD] Being an inner directed person,

is really what I'm talking about,

rather than being an ex-smoker or nonsmoker.

Control's from within, not from without.

Enlightenment, transformation, spirituality.

- Jules?

Jules?

Julius?

Julius?

Jules, where are you?

I don't know where you are.

I just woke up and you're nowhere to be found so.

Call me, call me, call me, call me, call me.

You don't leave the people you love. You don't do that.

So call me, please. Call me.

You can't just leave me.

You don't abandon people.

You don't abandon the people you love. You don't do that.

You don't do that.

- [Julius Voiceover] My darling,

we have been together a long time.

You helped me when I was afraid.

When I was down you brought me up.

And when I was happy you made it even better.

You've always been there for me, always.

I can't remember

what my life was like before you came along.

I suspect it wasn't much of a life at all.

You've always inspired my work,

and filled my days with indescribable pleasure.

This might strike you as a bit abrupt,

and for that I'm sorry.

But I can't keep going on like this.

This relationship is killing me.

I never thought I could make this decision, but I have.

I must stop being selfish.

Somehow, I feel much lighter for it.

I hope that you understand no matter what,

I will forever love you.

Yours always, Julius.

(kettle screaming)

(contemplative music)

♪ Broken whispers and screams ♪

♪ Walking backwards again ♪

♪ Still pushing beyond ♪

(dramatic music)

♪ So it goes ♪

♪ Like a stone on high ♪

(knocking on door)

- Oh, hi.

Hi. Is Bob here?

- Where's Bob? - Where's Bob?

- [Danielle] Excuse me. Who are you?

- Nice kimono.

- Yeah, I'm Dennis. - I'm Benji.

We're here to camp. Is that cool?

- [Danielle] Bob's not home.

- Bob didn't tell you?

- [Danielle] No, Bob didn't.

- You're Bob's girlfriend?

- No.

- [Benji] So, you have a boyfriend?

- [Danielle] Yes.

- Oh, can't wait to meet him.

We're gonna camp out.

(speaking in foreign language)

She doesn't speak Spanish, bro.

(both laughing)

Cool, join us. He's a really good cook.

- I, I. We'll see.

- Okay, cool. I do like your clothes.

- Nice shoes there.

- I actually.

I've seen you in a pair of those before, remember?

Bob's got cool friends. Bob!

- Bob! Bob! - Bob! Bob!

- [Inspirational CD] The higher places, self-actualization,

the highest places you can get to as a human being

all revolve around the same theme,

endlessly around the same theme.

Control's from within, inner direction.

I make the choices. I run my life. I'm in charge of me.

You go to an old age home,

and we've found simple little studies.

We look at these old people

we think are towards the end of their life.

And we watch how we treat them.

And we feed them at a certain time,

and we tell them what they're gonna eat.

And we arrange the furniture in their room in a certain way.

(engine revving) (horn honking)

(contemplative music)

- You a burner?

- That just depends on what you mean.

- Wacky tobacky, kind skunk, the home of doma.

- Sometimes. - Yeah!

- I smoke a lot, and then I stop.

I'm supposedly on restriction right now.

- Somebody else around here is a fucking burner.

Some dumbass lit a fire in the pool.

- I quit smoking cigarettes yesterday.

The pot, it helps me.

- Helps me too.

My ex tried quitting.

Acupressure, it really helped.

Yeah.

- Yeah, I got my own methods.

I once quit for a whole five months.

- Five months, huh?

Wow.

So what happened?

- I don't know.

I got boring, I guess.

- Well, don't be boring.

- Don't be boring? - Relax.

- Are you like a masseuse or something?

- You could say I've had some expression sessions, yeah.

- You're pretty good with your hands, that's for sure.

What does that do?

- [Benji] It's 'cause it's snow white.

- [Danielle] It's snow what?

You're silly.

- [Benji] Sorry.

- You're so silly.

I mean you love to get laid.

I can tell, you have a small arc.

- Honey, I'm home.

- Hey, man. - Don't get up.

- My boyfriend. - Oh, hey dude. Julius, right?

Hey man, Benji.

This is my bro, Dennis the Menace.

You know Danielle, right?

You want some food? On little bro.

(grunting)

Whoa.

- Cool down.

(erratic music)

- You cool? You cool?

At ease, man. At ease.

(erratic music continues)

♪ You get down all alone again ♪

♪ Just to let them know you're still alive ♪

(coughing)

♪ To break the freedom down ♪

(grunting)

- [Benji] Wow, representing. Look at that.

- [Dennis] That guy was in his underpants.

- [Benji] He was, wasn't he?

- I want to go home.

- Okay fine.

Just leave then, run away.

Do what you always do.

- I'm running away?

Well, looks like you're keeping

pretty good company without me.

- You're lucky that I'm even talking to you.

- Well, I don't want to take any precious time

away from you and Charlie Fucking Manson out there.

So go ahead.

Go, get out. Get on with it.

- If I wanted to be with somebody else, I wouldn't be

in this miserable place with you to begin with.

I am so tired of your self pity.

- Self pity?

I come home and you're practically blowing some other guy?

And I'm a cry baby?

- That guy happens to be here with his lover.

Okay, they're gay. They're gay.

Stop acting like such a victim.

You were gone all day.

All day I didn't know where you were.

I couldn't get ahold of you.

And then you just saunter in at five o'clock

feeling all sorry for yourself.

And you decide to play the martyr.

That is just so predictable.

- Want to talk about how you're predictable?

Talk about how you're predictable, how about this?

What the fuck are you doing taking Vicodin?

- You have your tools, and I have mine.

What the fuck are you doing going through my things?

- This is the love and the support

that you were talking about?

You've got the nerve to call me a coward.

- Okay, fine. Fine, everything is my fault.

There, I take all responsibility.

Did that make you feel better?

Does that make you feel better you poor, poor baby?

Do you want me to pat you on the back,

bake you a little cookie?

You feel better now?

- I've been battered.

I've been beaten and run down, and I saw

the ghost of James Dean.

About anything would make me feel better.

(somber music)

- It wasn't supposed to happen like this.

- [Julius] No?

- No.

(somber music continues)

- Now, why are you all dressed up?

- Why am I all dressed up?

Because I was waiting for you.

Didn't you get my messages?

- Messages.

(phone pieces falling to the floor)

Had a little accident.

- Okay.

- Do you want to get a drink?

- Not really.

- Me neither.

- You want to smoke?

- Yeah.

- Me too.

♪ And then we're making all the progress in the world ♪

♪ We're not a hack ♪

♪ Just kind of being it all ♪

♪ Hang dear like Simon ♪

♪ And it's all on me now have it all ♪

(scatting)

- Go home, go anywhere.

- [Danielle] Don't drink that, Jules.

It's only gonna make it worse for you.

(indistinct singing continues)

- I can't fucking take this!

- Fuck, man. Knock it off.

You're acting like a fucking baby.

I mean honestly.

Complaining about it, and making a temper tantrum

doesn't make it any easier, it doesn't help at all.

And I'm going through the exact same thing that you are,

and you don't see me whining and crying about it.

Get over yourself.

(scatting continues)

- Yeah, wow.

- [Dennis] Hey, you guys want to join us for

a soy protein shake, and a bong?

- No thanks.

We're actually gonna go out and explore a little bit.

- That's cool. That's cool.

Hey man, I just wanted to apologize

for the quick shower yesterday, man.

I just, I hope everything's copacetic, you know.

- I think your car is cool.

(suspenseful music)

- Hey, if you guys want to join us for dinner tonight

we're gonna be having a little curry tofu stir fry,

with a little burdock root and some saffron oil.

- That sounds delicious.

(mimics sizzling)

- Watch out for those scorpions.

- They might get you.

- They bite.

- They're gonna get you.

Make sure to hydrate.

♪ I got a pole so far up my ass ♪

♪ I am an ass ♪

♪ I gotta a pole so far up my ass ♪

♪ I can't even dance or eat grass ♪

♪ Got no class got no class ♪

♪ Got a pole up my ass ♪

- You know, I don't understand why it is

that you have to be such a jerk sometimes.

- I just choose not to hang out with those hesher hippies.

- You act like such a child.

- Can I help you?

- Oh, go ahead.

Have one, Dani. It'll make you feel better.

- But then I, I lose my days and I have to start all over.

- Excuse me?

- Oh, I.

I just quit.

- Oh, that's too bad. Seems like you want one.

- Never so much on my life.

(upbeat music)

I can't.

(upbeat music)

(erratic music)

♪ I just stand still and turn to you ♪

♪ And everything looks too heavy yeah ♪

♪ Well that means that you've been still ♪

- I love brownies.

They kill me.

They're so rich.

I love stuff that's rich.

- Yeah, me too.

- Julius Terrelle?

- [Danielle] That's my boyfriend, right out there.

- Rainbow?

- [Danielle] It's his car.

- Did he paint it like that?

Or are those all separate pieces?

- He bought it like that. It was cheaper.

(soft rock music from radio)

Soda?

So let me guess. You're back to being sick again.

(soft rock continues)

You want to know what your problem is?

You really need to lighten up.

(tires squealing)

The brakes are working.

(upbeat music)

♪ You know I'm gonna love you have no fear ♪

♪ Just hold me dear ♪

♪ I place no one above you- ♪

- [Danielle] Julius!

(tires squealing)

♪ When the chilly hand of loneliness reaches- ♪

- That was not my fault.

- You did it on purpose. I know you did.

(rabbit crying)

Oh my God.

It's still moving.

No no, no no.

(Danielle crying)

- Oh! Mother fucker, it bit me!

(Danielle crying)

- No, no. No no, no no.

(grunting) (rabbit squeals)

(Danielle crying)

You can't just leave him here like this.

We can't just do that.

(dramatic music)

Lord,

please take the soul of this innocent creature

to live in your love and your light forever.

And,

please find it in your heart to

forgive Julius of this crime.

I'm sure Lord that

you will find a way for him to repay you for this murder.

God works fast.

(contemplative music)

(flies buzzing)

What are you doing?

- [Julius] I'm taking in the waters.

- [Danielle] Yeah and hepatitis too.

- Don't be ridiculous.

- It smells awful like (coughing) sewage or something.

- That's just the sulfur, hun.

It's really warm. Come on, get in, get in.

- You really have lost it, haven't you?

I wouldn't get in there if you paid me to.

- It's nature's cure.

That's what it is.

- No.

This is nature's way of telling you to stay away.

That's what this is.

- You know, I feel.

I feel my pores opening up already, I do.

I will tell you there is absolutely

no difference between this,

and what those rich ladies spread all over their fat asses.

Are you an expert on spas?

- No, actually I am.

You know, when I lived in Italy,

I would spend weeks at Montecatini with Amideo.

- [Julius] There you go with the boyfriend.

- We had this amazing little bungalow all to ourselves.

And every single day I would get

aroma therapy, and mud baths, and massages.

And when I was with Robert in Kyoto.

- Kyoto? - Yeah, Kyoto.

There was this like ryokan that we had.

And there were servants waiting on me hand and foot.

- You were expensive back then too, weren't you?

- Take that back.

- I'm sorry, I'm just sick of hearing

about every guy you've ever slept with.

- I'm sick of hearing about how you're going to make it.

You sit around telling me how great everything is gonna be.

And here you are sitting in

a fucking toilet, telling me to jump on in.

I have an idea of how I want to live my life.

And this is not it.

- It's never gonna be good enough, huh? Huh?

Never gonna be good enough.

I get no thanks, no appreciation.

- Okay, fine. Yeah.

Thank you so much, Julius.

Thank you for sharing your one bedroom estate

in North Hollywood with me.

- I do so much shit that you don't even know about.

I do stuff I don't even tell you about.

There were times that I had to pawn

my fucking computer to pay your cell phone bill.

- You know, I never asked you to do anything for me.

I never ever ever asked you

to pay my phone bill and whatever.

- You didn't, and you didn't have to.

I did it because I love you.

I did it because I care about you,

because I want you to be happy.

- Okay, well then don't sit here and throw it in my face.

I'm not a whore.

Either give unconditionally, or don't give it all.

That kind of kindness is just so fucking oppressive.

I can't stand it.

- That's nice that my love is oppressive.

That's very sweet.

- Do you see what I mean?

You walk around like you're so perfect.

I don't know how anyone

could ever live up to your expectations.

- You want to talk about expectations.

- There's never going to be a house, obviously.

There's never going to be a ring.

And there is certainly, certainly never going to be a child.

You can't cut it.

- I can't cut it?

Who hasn't worked in over a year?

All you do is lie around all day.

- You call what you do work?

You're just a hack chasing one shitty job after another.

I don't even know why you bother

calling yourself a screenwriter.

Where's that big movie that you've been

threatening the world with for all these years?

- At least I have something that I'm dedicated to.

At least I have a dream.

At least I have a fucking path in life

that I've had since I was a kid.

You spend a few years selling your pretty ass,

and you think that the world owes you something?

You think that that's like a real job that people do?

Well it's not.

Real people have to work for a living.

And it's not pretty, and it's not glamorous.

And there aren't Roberto's or spas,

or Montecatini at the end of the day!

- I'm not a fucking trophy.

- I never said you were a whore.

I never said you were a trophy.

I've supported you.

I've been supportive.

I'm tried to be here for you every step of the way,

while you figure your shit out.

I can't seem to make you happy. You want to know why?

I can't make you happy because you don't like yourself,

and you have no idea what will make you happy.

- Stop fucking analyzing me.

I can't stand being held up to your impossible standards

of who it is that I'm supposed to be, because I'm just me.

You don't accept me for who I am.

- What's to accept?

You rebel, and rebel, and rebel against me,

like I'm your fucking father.

I can't go back in time and tell you

things that you should have heard from him.

(Danielle laughing)

(gasps)

Hey, hey!

Hey, don't that. That's my.

It's all gonna smell like shit. Thanks, Dani.

- [Danielle] Ow, Julius! Ow, ow.

Ow, ow. Ow.

(Danielle crying)

- What happened?

- I don't know, I don't know.

Something bit me. - What happened?

- I don't know, something bit me.

I think there's like a wasp nest. Do you see something?

- Yeah, it's just.

- Ow, it really hurts. - It's just a little red.

Hold on, baby. Just hold on. I'm gonna fix it right up.

(Danielle whining)

- [Julius] Here we go. Be right there, just hold on.

Here, honey.

It's okay, honey. It's all right, here.

Let me just.

- No. No. - Let me clean it.

- Let me just.

- No, you threw mud on me. Leave me alone.

I don't want you touching me. I just want to go home.

I want to just go home.

Oh, God. What's that awful smell?

- [Julius] Probably just the town shit I was soaking in.

Benji bit by a tarantula. Good riddance.

(calm music)

♪ Have you seen the way ♪

♪ That she looks at you ♪

♪ Do you know what it means ♪

♪ Like a tidal wave ♪

♪ Crashing over you ♪

♪ But you can't tell me what it means ♪

- I look like one of those forest animals.

- [Julius] Best beaver I ever seen.

- Chipmunk.

- I wasn't talking about your face.

I got you something.

- A joint?

- [Julius] To cure your cramps.

Wow.

Thank you.

You really love me, huh?

- Oh yeah.

I'm sorry I said those things earlier.

I didn't mean them.

- You were just trying to be hurtful, weren't you?

- Yeah.

- Hey.

Come here.

I think that you are a brilliant, brilliant writer.

And I know that you're going to succeed.

So just be that.

- Well, if we can quit smoking, we can do anything.

- Yeah.

We made it.

- [Julius] Day four, and all is well.

(gasping)

- A mouse.

(Julius laughing)

(birds singing)

I feel much better today.

- Yeah.

Me too.

Except getting a rash from all that raw sewage.

- My swelling has gone down.

- Is it me, or does it smell better, the air?

Hey.

You know why you're perfect for me?

- Why?

- Because only a weirdo like you

could love a weirdo like me.

- Do you remember when you said that thing

about making myself happy?

- Yeah.

- Well.

I've been thinking a lot about that and,

I realized that I basically just define myself

by the two of us together, you know, not by who I am.

And that's why I've decided that when we

get back to LA, I should move out.

(dramatic music)

- [Julius Voiceover] I'm moving out.

I should move out.

When we get back to LA I should move out.

I'm moving out.

I'm just so tired.

It's just gotten way too easy, too safe.

It's just so convenient.

I have no motivation for anything, anymore.

I don't like this life I'm living.

It's just like you said, there's no excuse for-

- I have to figure out how to put myself first.

- [Danielle Voiceover] I can just stay with Melanie

until I figure things out.

I love you.

- You know what, I actually really think

that this would be good for the both of us.

- Don't tell me what's good for me.

Is that I done want you to go.

- It's not your decision to make.

And I'm unhappy all of the time.

I'm sad. Can't you see that?

- I've noticed a lot of things about myself,

and what I need to change.

- This has nothing to do with you.

I love you the way you are. I don't want you to change.

I like everything about you.

- [Julius] We're a team. We quit smoking together.

- No, we quit for ourselves.

Remember?

(tense music)

If you really love me, you'll want me to do this.

You'll want this for me.

- So I was thinking maybe we could take a look at some,

some class schedules.

Maybe find a course we could take together?

- Sure.

- Like art history, or Italian cinema.

Exotic animal care.

- I don't know.

The idea of going back to school was great and all,

but I was kind of thinking maybe I could

do something a little bit more practical.

You know, something I could actually make money at.

- I was just reading this article

where they did a study on the longevity of relationships.

You know what they found out?

- What?

- That the couples that stayed together

the longest have one thing in common,

and that's that the man always lets the woman be right.

They say, if we all just agreed

that all men are five years old, and all women are insane,

well everything would be just fine.

(siren blaring)

- You know what?

I'm hungry.

- Okay.

(ukulele music)

Hi.

- Can I help you find something?

- That one, how much?

- Oh, just let me double check here.

320 dollars.

- I don't, I don't have that kind of money right now.

Do you have anything cheaper?

- How much do you have to spend?

(ukulele music continues)

- All I've got is the emergency 100.

(ukulele music continues)

I bought this with

the money I made from the only script that I ever sold.

I did pay 1500 for it.

- Well, most I could give you for this would be

220.

- It's a deal.

- [Pawn Broker] Would you like me to wrap this?

- [Julius] I'll just take it the way it is.

- [Pawn Broker] I get very busy here.

- I understand, yeah.

I thank you for this. Enjoy my watch.

(wind blowing)

- [Danielle] Where have you been?

- Get out?

- What? Why?

Why, what's going on?

What's up?

- Danielle Thomas, I love you.

- What are you?

- Will you marry me?

- Oh my God.

Oh my God.

(somber music)

I can't believe this is actually happening right now.

Oh my God.

(hopeful music)

Are you serious?

- I have never been so sure of anything in my life.

- I mean.

What do you expect me?

This is really the sweetest thing, I mean.

The most amazing thing that you've ever done for me, but.

I mean I can't give you an answer right now, I can't.

I can't actually give you an answer at this moment.

- You don't have to.

Just,

just know that I love you forever.

(calm music)

♪ Are you hearing me ♪

♪ Not what I'm saying ♪

♪ So beautiful this light ♪

♪ I shouldn't fear ♪

♪ Keeping locked away ♪

♪ Is best while I'm dreaming ♪

♪ Why you understand ♪

♪ This never happened ♪

(fast paced music)

♪ Here for you ♪

♪ For you and for me we need to move ♪

♪ Here for you ♪

♪ For you and for me we need to move ♪

(fast paced music continues)

♪ Oh I oh I oh I oh I oh I'm here for you ♪

♪ Oh I oh I oh I oh I oh I'm here for you ♪

♪ Oh I oh I oh I oh I oh I'm here for you ♪

♪ Oh I oh I oh I oh I oh I'm here for you ♪

♪ Here for you ♪

♪ For you and for me we need to move ♪

♪ Here for you ♪

♪ For you and for me we need to move ♪

♪ Oh I oh I oh I oh I oh I'm here for you ♪