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You OK in there?

Sure. I'm waiting for Dr Dumauskas.

He might be sleeping. He's on the night shift tonight.

That's OK, I can wait. Don't worry.

Is there anything I can do for you?

I'm fine, really, I'll just wait here.

Thanks.

SUMMER SURVIVORS

How are you? Can we talk now?

- Hey, Inga. - Indre.

She spent the whole night waiting for me.

I'm uh... busy.

That's okay, I can wait.

- OK... - Hi.

We're here about our daughter. Austeja Bylaite.

Could you wait outside? I'm busy right now.

We want the release papers.

But you're not our patients.

What do you mean?

Well, if she wants to, she'll tell me and we can talk about her release.

We, her parents, are telling you now.

There's no point in keeping her here.

Do you know how old she is?

Twenty five.

If she was sixteen then I'd ask for your opinion.

Don't you get it? She's better off at home, with her parents,

than staying in this madhouse?

With you?

No, I don't get it.

- Is he having a laugh at us? - Yes, duh.

Inga?

I know that.

I'm getting a trainee in a month. But you can work with me until then.

Really?

You'll help me with the patients. This is Paulius.

No.

I mean, you got me wrong. I wanna work the biofeedback machine.

Not with patients. I mean, I'm here for the research.

Make it a month, then we'll see.

But you'll help me with my research, won't you?

Tomorrow at 9.

How do you like your roommate?

Fine.

How did you sleep?

Fine.

How's your meds?

Any side effects?

I mean, hands shaking, headaches, nausea? Anything like that?

- Juste? - No.

Do you have any questions regarding the meds?

No.

Still want to go home?

Juste, we must work together for you to get better faster.

What are you thinking about?

I'm not sick.

You attempted a suicide.

Didn't you, Juste?

That doesn't mean I'm sick.

Why are you so afraid of being sick?

I'm not.

But you don't like me saying you're sick.

'Cause I'm not.

You gotta do something. Come on, sweetie.

How 'bout a gym membership or something?

Could go there with mom.

Or a solarium?

This is all literally because of the lack of sun.

It's driving everyone crazy. Not just you.

You could try some pills.

Like vitamins or...

supplements...

Look, talk to that doctor about releasing you.

I do think you'd be better at home.

What do you think?

I'll see what I can do.

He started jogging.

Didn't leave his room for two months and now he jogs.

- He can't speak? - He can speak alright, but decided not to.

Why?

What's wrong with him?

Manic depression.

Bipolar...

Shouldn't we say 'bipolar'?

That's what it's called now, no?

Tell him that, he'll be fine right away.

We need to monitor him.

I think he's having an episode change.

He's invincible at Backgammon when that happens.

He's obviously better now.

He was less touchy during the visit.

But when I asked him yesterday to show if he'd swallowed the meds, he refused.

Should've called the on-duty doctor.

Look, I think we all understand we can't keep a person

- until he gets 100% well. - Did I say anything about a 100%?

I've had him for years. Can't let him go now.

He's having an episode change.

That means we can't do anything.

Take the blood tests for lithium concentration tomorrow.

Are we done?

What's it all about?

Paulius, we can no longer keep him here.

So, if we're done, here are the Sports Fest agendas.

I'd like you to encourage everyone to participate in it.

Can you display more of them at the reception?

Got a light?

Hey!

Wanna join the Sports Fest?

Mantas can't shoot.

Who, me? What about this, huh?

What's this?

Nothing but net!

What the hell...

We're only scoring on half of our attempts.

Two in a row? Two in a row?

I'm all set, thanks.

Why don't you share it with someone?

Here, I'll eat it.

Kinda feel like eating today.

You know, I mean...

It's not like I'm gonna be a model.

Any changes in treatment as we discharge Paulius?

- No, I'm leaving it as it is. - OK.

Everything's all set with Palanga?

What about Palanga?

Algis is sending Paulius to a doctor in Palanga.

- I've arranged for his transfer. - He is registered there.

How will you transfer him?

Well, we'll take the hospital car and transfer him.

Wait, since when are we delivering patients home?

Don't start, Rita.

- Who's gonna drive him? - Do you drive?

- Indre? - What?

- Do you drive? - Yeah, so?

- All set then. - What do you mean?

You'll take Paulius with Juste and drive them to Palanga.

- Juste? - Yes. I'm sending her for a consultation.

The new suicidal girl?

What, Vilnius doctors aren't good enough for you?

- That's not the point. - What is?

Indre will drive them, I'm not asking for any favours.

- Why me? - Because you can drive.

- What about the hospital drivers? - They can't, they're busy for the fest.

No way they're driving to Palanga.

But I don't have a car.

You had blocked mine.

- It was my boyfriend's car. - Borrow it.

- We broke up. - Take the hospital car.

- I only drive automatic. - You'll have automatic.

- No, it'll be needed for the fest. - No, it won't.

I just need the drivers, not the car.

I can't go alone with them.

Of course, you can't.

Why don't you request for accompanying nurse?

Sure, and wait a year for the answer?

Sorry, I forgot the rules were different for you.

Is Danguole working on the fest?

No.

What am I to say to them?

Did they come across like chatty to you?

But why send Juste to Palanga?

- Indre, it's not about Palanga. - Then what?

Just do as I say.

We have to get through to her.

- Do you understand? - No.

Are you sure you have a Psychology BA?

When I'm back, I'll work with biofeedback.

You will train me and I won't deal with patients anymore.

Any other requests?

Good morning!

Morning.

I'm Indre.

I'll be your companion.

OK, Indre.

You OK?

Got any sleep?

No.

Paulius?

I hate to release you.

I have no choice.

You know?

Your blood tests came through.

Lithium concentration.

Come on, Paulius...

No one's gonna take those meds for you.

Does your mania feel good? Do you miss it?

I've been treating you for five years. How many times have you been in here?

I know, you felt a little better and stopped taking lithium.

Makes sense.

Hypomania is cool, as does mania.

You take a loan, throw up a concert, then roam the streets with the cars.

It's fun.

The mania will pass and what comes next?

What?

VILNIUS PSYCHIATRIC CLINIC

- When will you be back? - Tonight.

Then bring me back the keys.

That's it then. Call me if anything.

Great. Thank you.

Safe journey.

Good morning.

Ready?

Thanks.

Hey, could we hop over at my brother's?

What?

Why did you start talking?

- I just did. - Why now?

Don't know. So can we hop over at my brother's?

I'll get the keys to the Palanga flat, to grab some clothes for the hospital.

- What should I do? - Well, we could drive over.

No, I mean, about Paulius.

- How are you feeling? - Fine.

Hang on.

Paulius, tell me how you feel.

Kidding. I'm fine, I feel really good. It's all good.

- Really good? - Yes.

- How good? - I mean, I'm fine.

- Too good? - No, just good, not too good.

I feel good.

Why are you laughing?

- I'm not. - Why are you laughing?

Give me a sec.

Which one?

Look, we're not going for long. Just take your keys and that's it.

We?

I can't let you go alone, can I?

I'm not your prisoner, am I?

I can't let you go alone. I can't.

I'll just go see my brother and come back. That's it.

No, I'm coming along.

But I'll just take the keys.

We're going together or not going at all.

Fuck...

OK, so who are we, then?

What do you mean?

We can't just tell my brother I'm on my way to the looney bin and you're my psychiatrist.

- Psychologist. - Psychologist.

- Your brother doesn't know? - No, he doesn't.

- So where have you been all this time? - Working in Spain.

You're not very tanned.

OK.

You're my co-worker, we met in Spain

and now you're giving me a lift to Palanga.

Excuse me, I was wondering if I could use his brother's bathroom, since we're here?

OK, alright.

You're Indre's mother.

You two are going to the sea and giving me a lift.

What about Juste?

- Is she coming too? - I'm not leaving her alone.

- Can I please stay here? - No. If Danguole's coming, you're coming.

- She won't have time to kill herself. - Paulius!

You'll be my girlfriend, you her cousin, you're Indre's mother.

And we're off to a wedding, your cousin's wedding.

Shouldn't my cousin be her brother or something?

No.

Fuck, I still look like shit.

What do you care what your brother's gonna think?

Make sure he doesn't see your wrists, OK?

Shall we?

Didn't you want to use the bathroom?

- It's that way on the left. - Thank you.

So, what's in Palanga?

- Wedding. - Oh yeah?

- Whose? - Our cousin's.

- So you're sisters or cousins? - Cousins.

Shouldn't that be brother to one of you and cousin to the other?

No.

Do you also play?

Yep.

What instrument?

Oboe.

Cool.

Is that a turtle?

So what's up, guys? Why you so sullen? What's going on?

We need to go now, don't we, Paulius? Get the keys.

What? You just got here. Stay a bit longer.

Sorry, bro, we're in a bit of a rush.

Come on, you just got here. Stay a little longer.

They're in a hurry, Lauris. I'll see you later, OK?

No, you'll go away again. Stay with me, huh?

You didn't even ask where mom is.

- Where's mom? - Fuck knows.

Where's mom?

In Norway with Rimas.

Since when? Didn't they break up?

- And got back together. - When?

When you were in hospital, that's when.

What's the matter? I know where you've been, mom told me.

When did they let you go?

Give me the key, we gotta go.

Hi.

Just give me the key.

I'm trying to.

- C'mon, don't fuck around. - Take it easy.

Paulius!

The fuck are you doing!

- Look, I'll do the Boston Crab on you. - You're a fucking crab!

- Stop it, Paulius, let's go! - OK, I'm coming.

- I'm Julija. - Juste.

Sorry, bro.

It's all good. Don't be mad.

- Did you like it? - What?

- Being my girlfriend. - Pretending I was your girlfriend.

Well?

No.

Are you mad at your brother?

Why?

For knowing you were in hospital and not coming to see you.

Is this your first time?

- Your first therapy? - I'm not on therapy.

- Is it your first time in a hospital? - Yes.

He's not bad.

Your brother?

Everyone just gets sick of it at some point.

You can be ill for six months and no one's gonna have a problem.

A year - tough but understandable.

And then at some point everyone just gets sick of it.

'Cause you're supposed to get it together and be normal

- and if you don't it's your own fault. - Let's not talk while eating.

I mean, you're getting upset.

I'm not upset, I'm just saying like it is.

A girlfriend may understand and comfort when you're depressed.

She might lie by your side, stroke your head and say,

"It's OK, I know it's not your fault, it's the illness."

But what if you get manic? No one will pat you and say,

"It's not your fault you slept with ten girls in a week, it's just the illness"

It's not like I expect a medal or something,

but one could at least admit that ten girls in a week is quite an achievement.

Takes a lot of energy!

Paulius, tell this to your doctor in Palanga.

OK.

I can't tell it to you?

VILNIUS PSYCHIATRIC CLINIC

- Look, they're coming after you. - Stop it...

- Here, I'll get it. - Thanks.

Lukas.

- What?! - It says 'Lukas'.

Give me that.

Go to the restroom, if you need. We won't be stopping later on.

I'm staying here.

Was that your guy?

Your ex?

What's going on?

Indre spoke to someone and now she's pissed.

Are you two fighting?

- Tell me about it. - I can't discuss these things with you.

Why not?

Yeah, why not?

Because I work in the hospital and you are patients, OK?

Well I find it hard not to talk when we're in the same car.

And talking about the weather feels awkward when we all know what we're here for. No?

That girl at your brother's, Julija...

How do you know her name?

She introduced herself.

- What did she tell you? - Nothing, just her name.

- Did you get angry when you saw her? - No, I didn't.

Was there something between you and her?

Even though she was with your brother?

She was not with my brother.

What do you mean?

Oh...

- It's Dr Dumauskas. - Could you answer it?

- Yes? - Indre?

- How's it going? - Fine, I've got you on the speaker.

- Everyone can hear you. - So what?

Nothing, just sayin'...

Where are you now?

Uhm, still quite a way to go.

And what about Danguole?

Shit!

Seriously, where's Danguole?

Sorry, we got disconnected. Danguole? Danguole is fine...

Is she? 'Cause she called me and said she couldn't find you.

- Indre? - Sure, I mean, we haven't forgotten her.

The car started making strange noises, so we had to go and have it looked at.

Why didn't you take Danguole with you?

Well, she got held up in a toilet. I don't know.

What are you talking about?

- I told you you need to be in Palanga by 4PM. - Sure, we'll make it.

We'll pick up Danguole on our way from the car shop.

She needs to leave for the conference. How much longer will you be there?

- Don't know, problems with the engine. - What problems?

I don't know, I mean, they're looking at it now.

Indre, you're being silly.

You don't believe me?

Good day.

Could you open the car and stand next to it?

- Huh? - Like, the hood.

I just need a picture.

What picture?

How should I put it...

- Picture of the car? - No, picture of you.

Like, standing by the car, looking into it. That's all.

I can give you ten euros.

Fifteen?

OK, twenty, that's all I have in cash.

Would've said yes to ten.

- This doesn't look realistic to me. - What?

I don't know.

Maybe 'cause his hands are clean?

That's right!

Yeah, it'll do.

- What's this? Can I have a look? - Oh, it's nothing.

No, don't!

Is this a joke?

Did you guys skip the looney bin?

Is there a search on you or something?

She's our doctor's assistant.

Look, if you're not in a hurry...

Could I have a word with you?

- With me? - Yes.

- Uhm, sure. - It won't take long.

Why did you say I played music?

- All of my girlfriends were into music. - Why?

I don't know. It just happens when you work a lot.

- So you're also a musician? - Yep.

What do you play?

Violin.

You look like a thug to me.

Seriously.

Thanks.

And what do you do?

I was a translator from Finnish and English.

Cool!

Can you say something in Finnish?

Can you play a violin?

Got a boyfriend?

No.

So I do have a chance.

No, I'm not a musician.

I really appreciate it.

And if have any problems with the car, you're always welcome.

Thank you so much.

Get well soon.

- Who is it? - Mother.

Answer it.

Yeah?

Tell her we love her!

Are we going to pick up Danguole?

No, doctor said to go to Palanga first.

So who's picking her up?

We are, on our way back.

So she's gonna wait all this time?

It's not that far, Paulius.

Did you see anything?

Where?

When you tried to kill yourself.

Was it like they say or nothing at all?

When I woke up, I saw a catheter in my vein and bandage.

Then I fell asleep.

And while you were sleeping?

- Seems to me, nothing happened at all. - Why?

At least you get to keep the scar.

At least.

- Wanna hear a joke? - Sure.

A sunny spring afternoon.

A bird flies and meets a butterfly.

It asks the butterfly, "Hey, what are you up to?"

Butterfly says, "I'm going to kill myself."

The bird's, like,

"What? But the sun's about to go down. You'll die soon anyway."

Butterfly goes,

"Yeah, I know. But I'm depressed."

That's the end.

Oh how I love you How I love you!

Love even pales against this feeling

Like an echo of a distant thunder...

Oh how I love you How I love you!

Love even pales against this feeling

Like an echo of a distant thunder...

The burning fire of longing...

What's your research about?

Indre?

You said you're here for a research. What's it about?

It doesn't matter.

I believe it does, since you're on a trip with two nutcases.

One nutcase.

I want to work with a biofeedback machine.

What's that?

Is that the thing that hisses if you're not calm?

Yeah, to put it simply.

That stuff was so easy to me. I tried it once.

They told me, "now focus onto yourself, stay calm."

I was like, guys, I'm depressed! Believe me, I'm fucking calm.

After that they never sent me there again.

So what do you wanna do with it?

I just wanna work with people who have attempted suicide.

Regularly monitor their activity, make calculations

and quantify the likelihood of a repeated suicide.

Is it possible to quantify when someone want to kill himself?

Look, let's just forget about it.

How did you come up with this idea?

How did you come up with not speaking?

Just for a sham. So how did you come up with your idea?

- I just did. - 'I just did.'

Maybe some people can't lead normal lives

not knowing when someone close to them will decide to do it again.

- Maybe they're not the only ones afraid? - Meaning?

Maybe the one who tried it is also scared?

Perhaps, but his close ones don't know what he feels and is going to do.

Maybe he doesn't know it himself?

- What? - What he feels.

Like, what do you feel now?

- I don't know, lots of things. - Like what?

I wanna go to the restroom.

- What else? - Look, what does it matter?

It matters 'cause you're saying a person does know what he feels.

Well yeah, but I'm not thinking about it right now.

And what did you feel when your boyfriend called you?

He's not my boyfriend.

OK, what did you feel when not-your-boyfriend called you?

I don't know!

You know what I'm thinking?

How does Danguole feel?

What's up?

Nothing.

- What are you laughing at? - No reason.

Why don't you do smiling exercises too?

What?

Like Austeja from my ward does,

something like this.

She says it might help.

- Maybe it might. - Bullshit.

What if they told you that doing the Chicken Dance every ten minutes

gives you a 100, no, 10 percent chance that you'll get better.

Wouldn't you try it?

Wanna know why I laughed?

No, I don't know, that's why I'm asking.

To see if you like me.

'Cause it's been proven that if someone reacts to somebody laughing

it means they care about the person who laughs.

So there, you care about me.

Is that right, Indre?

- What is? - What he said.

How should I know?

You're the psychologist here.

But I'm not familiar with all the research in the world.

It makes sense, though?

- Well yeah, it does. - Indre...

I don't see what's so funny here.

It's funny 'cause you're getting pissed.

OK, let's say I do like you. What's your goal then?

- My goal? - Would you wanna sleep with me?

Of course I would.

- While you're on Venlafaxine? - What?

I saw you take Venlafaxine, just like me.

So what?

Don't you think it wouldn't work?

Never mind.

Can we use your restroom?

- Are you buying anything? - Do we have to?

No.

Then not.

You go, I'll clean this up and get some water.

Thank you.

Paulius is gone.

- What? - He's not in the car.

Paulius, what are you doing? Get in.

I'm OK, thanks. I'm going back.

- Paulius, get in the car. - I feel good, no need for hospital.

Paulius, please.

Paulius, you must listen to me.

Paulius!

Yes?

Where are you? The doctor's waiting.

We're almost there.

You better hurry. She's leaving for a conference in some hotel.

Yes, I know, I'm sorry.

Paulius!

What are you doing? We need to go.

I really grateful to you and doc, but there's one thing you don't understand.

Can we please talk about it in the car?

What happens in between?

Please, Paulius, let's just go and then talk.

One episode will end, another will, and this - will this end?

It's gonna be OK. Please, we really must go.

So go! Go!

Thanks for your help.

- Paulius! - What?

No one even asked me if I wanna go there or not.

I don't know what to say to you.

What if I'm not sick?

What if I'm just a really bad person?

What's the matter?

Something's wrong... Something's wrong...

Come to the car.

Give me your hand.

I've never cried. I don't know if I can stop.

It's gonna pass.

It's gonna pass.

It's gonna pass.

Good evening. Sure, great.

No, we're not coming back.

It's OK.

We were sort of late but that's OK, she'll see us tomorrow.

No, I didn't think about it.

Don't worry, we'll find a place to say.

We can stay at my place.

We'll stay at Paulius'.

I know, I said I'm sorry.

OK, so I can...

He hates me.

Dumauskas?

He likes you.

Said you were weird when we played Backgammon.

- Weird? - Yeah.

That doesn't sound too good.

The guy's been working as a psychiatrist for thirty years.

He meant it as a compliment.

So we're staying here?

Yes, we'll see the doctor tomorrow and head back to Vilnius.

Weren't we supposed to pick up Danguole on our way back?

Shit...

Fuck!

- Don't you feel a little sorry for them? - Why?

They're never gonna be as happy as we are.

Seriously. You think I'm talking rubbish?

We're gonna get well eventually.

Good evening, ready to order?

Paulius?

- Hi! - Hi!

- Oh my god! - How are you?

Good, I barely recognized you.

- Gained a bit of weight, haven't I? - Oh stop it!

What are you doing here?

We're on vacation.

Oh cool.

I met Jonas from your class the other day, remember him?

He told me all kinds of nonsense.

Said you were in a looney bin.

He's such a gossiper, hasn't changed a bit.

- But hey, good to see you alive and well. - Yep. Me too, me too.

- Are you staying here for a bit? - Yeah, I am.

- We should get together some time. - Sure, yeah, of course.

So I'll... write my number on the check or something?

- Don't forget to draw a little heart. - And spray with perfume.

Most definitely.

Can we order already?

Sure, whatcha having?

I'm still thinking.

- Greek salad for me. - We don't have any.

Kharcho?

- OK, full portion or half? - Full.

Excuse me?

Could you play this song from the beginning?

I'd like to sing it with you.

I'll sing again

Even though my voice has hone hoarse

I'll sing again

Even if I'm mute

I'll sing again

Hoping that my songs

Will reach you

Through the world's noise.

A single drop of dew on my lips

That's all I need

My songs have turned into whispers

A single drop of dew on my lips

That's all I need

My songs have turned into whispers

I'll sing again

I'll sing again

How 'bout a swim?

C'mon!

Don't go too far!

Juste and I are going to talk now.

You go to room 318 for registration.

OK, Paulius?

- You have your belongings? - Yeah, in the car.

Well, go ahead.

I'm listening.

A hug?

See ya.

- Hello? - Paulius, how are you?

Missed your call.

Yeah, I called you.

Just wanted to know how you've been.

I'm OK. And you? How's Palanga ? All good?

Sure, I'm good.

Nice weather in Palanga. How is it over there?

Me too, it's super hot. The weather's just amazing, How's the apartment? All in places?

- Yeah, it's all the same. - Cool.

- Nothing's changed. - Great.

If you're staying there, I could come and see you next weekend.

- Yeah, sure. - Awesome, I'll see you there

- Keep in touch. - We could go for a beer.

- Take care. - Perfect, see you!