All language subtitles for Greys Anatomy S21E18 - How Do I Live

When training
for a marathon,

a runner's body composition
physiologically changes.

Guess the wedding
wasn't a cash bar.

Where's Adams?

I really screwed up.

Hey.

You two aren't exclusive,
are you?

-Nope.
-Okay, great.

Listen, last night was fun.

I put my number in your phone
in case you ever wanna
have more, uh, fun.

Breakfast. All right.

Way to close out
your intern year.

I think I'm gonna throw up.

With consistent exercise,

the heart improves
its efficiency to send oxygen
to the muscles.

-That was your floor.
-I don't care.

Oh, we need
a honeymoon.

-I'm thinking beach.
-Beach. Yeah.

Have a good day.

Muscles adapt
to storing and using energy,

while bone density increases
to make bones stronger.

Oh. Um, I-I'm-I'm so sorry.
I should've knocked.

No. I should have
locked the door.

Uh...

Um, did-did you sleep in here?

I was up late. I was working
on Nora Young's case.

-Mm-hmm.
-Yeah.

- Uh, Millin.
- Oh, yeah.

-Maybe don't come out
right after me.
-Yeah.

-Somebody might
Get the wrong idea.
-Yeah, yeah.

On average, the process
take around 20 weeks

of mental
and physical dedication,

stamina,
and complete exhaustion

to compete in a race
that's over in a day.

After I tell you
what happened to me,

you're gonna have to tell me
what's going on there.

O-Out of my way,
people. Move.

Goodness! Okay.

All right, you are all
one shift away

from completing
your intern year.

Tomorrow,
you will be second-years.

You will wear coats
with your names on it. Stop.

And you will help me teach
a new group of liabilities.

When are
the new interns arriving?

They will be here
onboarding all day.

In the meantime,
I have a gift for you.

Everyone gets
to scrub in today.

Yeah. So, Adams,
you're with Beltran.

Kwan, Ndugu.
Griffith, Shepherd.

Millin, Altman.

And, Collins, Webber.

-I got your page. What's up?
-That's--

Okay, so Altman's office
will be reaching out

to set up a meeting
for the end of the day.

She will not be recommending
to permanently bring you
on board.

-I do not know
the details. But--
-Where do you need me today?

I just wanted you
to hear it from me.

Miranda, if this is
my last day, I wanna work.

Uh, there's an MVC patient
from last night in the ICU,
Carter Samuels.

He is status post ex lap
with a shattered liver.

Keep an eye on him.

You got it.

Mmm.

Dylan Gatlin,
nine years old.

Day five post-op from resection
of a cavernous angioma
of the brain stem.

Diagnosed with
locked-in syndrome following
complications of surgery.

Repeat MRI shows no change
of the small hematoma--

We get it. Nothing's changed.

The swelling hasn't
gone down at all?

Unfortunately, the bleeding has
not reabsorbed like we hoped.

So, what now?

I know this is difficult
to hear,

but we'd still like to wait.

- No.
- Jenna.

No, more waiting.

- Mrs. Gatlin.
- Do you have kids?

-No.
-I have a son.

Imagine him
trapped like this.

He can't tell you
he's cold or hungry.
He can't walk, he can't move.

There must be something
you can do.

Please.

Dr. Shepherd,
Ms. Alvarado's surgery
will be in OR 2.

I have to go, but I will
come back and check on her
as soon as I can.

Dr. Morrisey to the OR.
Dr. Nicolas Morrisey to the OR.

I saw Boston on the schedule
for later this month.
Important business?

Very. Harriet's dance recital.

Oh, wow. Okay.

Meredith?
What... I thought
you were coming tomorrow.

You still planning to meet
the new class? I already
told them you were coming.

I am, but I have a meeting
with Catherine.

My Alzheimer's research
with female mice

is yielding significant
preliminary results.

Oh, congratulations.

Whatever.
Can we just get to it?

Get to what?

I'm selling my hospital shares.

Are you cutting ties
with Grey-Sloan?

Not at all.
I'm pursuing my research.

But I can't bankrupt my family
while doing it.

Amelia and I would apply
for federal funding,

but our research
is focused on women.

And we all know
how that would go.

You grew up here.
I mean, th-this hospital
is part of who you are.

Part of who I was.

We will build you a new aorta
out of a synthetic graph

that connects
the ascending aortic arch
to your abdominal aorta.

And this would
eliminate blood flow
in the infected area.

And once the graft is in place,

we'll staple off the old graft
and remove it.

Why not try
what you did before?

What was it, a kind of bypass?

-I told you, Mom. It doesn't--
-I don't love you
being a guinea pig.

The last time that we tried to
do a bypass, her heart stopped.

We were essentially
bypassing an artery

the diameter of a golf ball
with something
the width of a straw.

At this point,
any extra anatomical bypass
could do more harm than good

because she's hypercoagulable.

-What does that mean?
-Her blood's
more likely to clot

because of the sepsis.

Owen, is this true?

I've known you for years.
Don't sugarcoat it.

I'm afraid so.
We were lucky to get her back.

Are you sure you wanna do this?

They don't even know
if this will work.
And if it doesn't...

I think
it's my only chance.

Do I have time to see my kids?

Teddy, hey, hey, are you sure
this is a good idea?

Stapling the largest artery
in the human body

goes against everything that
I know about heart surgery.

A stapler doesn't even exist
for this type of thing.

So no, I am not sure
that it's a good idea,

but it's the only one
that I have.

So, why not wait a beat?
Look at other case studies.

Who are you concerned
about, Owen?

Me or Nora?

You came up with
this procedure ten hours ago
on a cocktail napkin.

I saw you last night with Nora.

Was there a trauma

or did you just lie so that
you could spend quality time
with your girlfriend?

My gir...

Teddy, she is dying,
and she has no one.

Seems like she has you.

Are you in love with her?

Teddy, I told you.

I told you, sleeping with her
meant nothing.

I'm not talking
about that night.
I am talking about right now.

-Are you in love with her?
-Teddy, I am married to you.

That's not what I asked.
I have to go prep.

They're bringing
Ms. Alvarado up.

-Are you okay?
-Absolutely.

I'm prepped on
the patient's aneurysm.

I've studied her scans,
memorized the steps.

That's not what I'm asking.

I always know when something
is off with Lucas.

-I know that relationships
at work are--
-I'm good.

Dr. Shepherd, I'm focused.
I'm clearheaded.

-I would never
put Ms. Alvarado in danger.
-Stop talking.

-Jenna, what are you doing?
-This tank is full
of acetylene.

One exploded at
my husband's work site,

and it took down
half the building.

Okay, why don't
we take it outside--

You're gonna put your phone
on the counter.

And then you're gonna
operate on Dylan,
and you're gonna fix her.

And if you don't...
If you don't save her,

I'm taking everyone down
with me.

Dr. Lux to Radiology.
Dr. Beverly Lux to Radiology.

Hey, have you seen Dr. Beltran?

-I don't know.
Try the peds floor.
-Well, she's not there,

and she's not responding
to my pages.

Hey, have you seen Dr. Beltran?

I need you
to bring Dylan Gatlin up

to the corridor
outside of OR 2.

I'll pick her up from there.

- Wait, why?
- I'm gonna operate.

But the hematoma's stable.

Don't argue.
Just do it. Now.

- Where's Griffith?
- Hello?

All right, well, I gotta
run a patient up to the OR.

If you see Dr. Beltran,
can you please tell her
to answer my page?

Nope.

He's bleeding
from the wound vac, by the way.

Page Dr. Bailey and book an OR.

I love you, and I'm gonna
see you when I wake up, okay?
All of you.

We love you too, Mom.
It's gonna be fine.

- Yeah.
- Come on, kids.

Okay, give me a hug.

- Let's go.
- Okay.

All right, I'm-I'm gonna be
out very soon.

-I don't wanna go.
-It's okay. It's okay, honey,
I'll be out.

I'll be out very soon, okay?

Okay, go with Nana.
I'll be out soon, okay?

Bye. It's okay.

-Mom, Mom, wait, I wanted to--
-I'll see you
after your surgery.

Okay.

I can't do this.

Yes, you can.

What if that was the last time
I see my kids?

- Hey.
- Hi.

Let's tell transport it's time.

-I'll see you in there.
-Okay.

Hey.

Hi.

Owen, when I told you
I loved you last night,

I thought I was dying.

And I know that
I still could die.

But if Teddy's plan works,
then I want you to know

that if you're not there
when I wake up, I understand.

And if it doesn't work--

-Nora--
-Just please watch over my mom.

My ex will take care
of the kids, but my mom
doesn't have anyone, so--

-I will, okay?
-Okay. Okay.

-All right.
-Mm-hmm.

Nora, you are going to make it
to the other side.

-Okay.
-Okay?

-Yeah. Okay?
-Yeah.

-You're good?
-Yeah. Yeah.

Lucas, you were supposed
to leave her outside and go.

Thank you.
We've got it from here.

Did you see
something new on Dylan's scans?

I don't know
where Dr. Griffith is,

but Ms. Alvarado's
husband's pissed.

What the hell is happening?

Dr. Shepherd is gonna
save my daughter,
right, Dr. Griffith?

- Hey, let her go.
- Stop.

Jenna, the first time
we operated on Dylan,

I had an entire team for
neuro monitoring and imaging
that helped guide me.

Going back into
her brain without that
is extremely dangerous.

Let us go, and we will talk
about her options.

No one's leaving.

Not until you fix my daughter.

All right, let's transfer her
to the table.

You have a presurgery ritual?

Does scrubbing count?

Yeah, if it gets you
in the zone, sure.

We are about to
attempt a Hail Mary.

I'm not sure what kind
of mindset I should be in.

There's only one, right?
Go big or go home.

We hold people's lives
in our hands every day.
We can do this.

You okay?

Let's go.

Cotton line.

-She can't feel it.
-I know.

Okay,
we need to retrace our steps
and find the bleed.

Lucas.

We need to call for help.

Acetylene's highly flammable.

What if she sets
that thing off?

Keep your voice down.

I cannot do this
without your help.

- Can you do this?
- Yes.

We'll go slowly.

We will look for the gel foams
that we placed earlier.

Those will be our markers.

Can you talk?

Well, I have a consult
for a physician who works here.

It's not personal.
It's just business.

Oh, you wanna talk business?
Okay.

Your move to Boston
cost this hospital thousands
of research dollars

in potential surgeries.

Who knows how many
top-tier interns decided
to look elsewhere?

Like it or not,
people come to Grey-Sloan
because of Meredith Grey.

So, should we just forget
about the millions of people

who are suffering
from the disease
that I'm trying to end?

I am not saying that
your work isn't invaluable.

This hospital shouldn't
be one of its costs.

Dr. Webber, I think there's
a hostage situation in OR 2.

A hostage situation?

It looked like
the patient's mom was holding
an explosive to Griffith.

And Shepherd and Adams
are operating.

You call 911.
We're gonna have to evacuate
this whole OR floor.

- 911.
- -Yes, I'm at Grey-Sloan Hospital...

Hey...
Oh, how's Carter doing?

His bleeding picked up.

He's responsive to
blood products but he gets
tachy between units.

So he needs a takedown washout
and re-exploration.

Mm-hmm, can I scrub in?
I'd like to see him through.

Of course.

Whoa, you need to take
your patient back.

-This floor is locked down.
-I just booked an OR.

There is a potential
hostage situation in progress.
The police are on their way.

We're trying to evacuate
this floor and divert
all traumas ASAP.

Anything that is emergent
needs to go to the ICU.

Okay, I'll get the word out
to our residents.

- Okay, thank you.
- That's it?

We just let him bleed out
in the ICU?

No, we'll bridge
with blood and FFP.

What if he gets acidotic?

B... Look, when the ORs reopen,
he'll be first in line.

Hey, I thought you had
an arthroscopy.

Got moved.

Apparently, they're evacuating
the OR floor.

Hospital-wide page
just went out.

Do we know why?

Probably nothing.

Last time, the suspicious
package turned out to be
a nurse's lunch box.

They're gonna page me
when things resume?
Probably an hour.

Interesting,
because I just have to round
before my C-section at 4:30.

-So we have time.
-We have time.

Who the hell is this woman?

How did she get on my OR floor
with a gas cylinder?

She's the mother
of a nine-year-old patient

that Dr. Shepherd and I have
been treating.

Until we can confirm
what that mother actually has,

we're evacuating floors
above and below.

And we're turning off
the ventilation system
as a precaution

since we're working with
an unknown gas.

I want a direct line
to that OR.

I need to know
if my doctors are okay.

Meredith,
you don't have to stay.

That's my family in there.

Ignore it. Keep going.

There's a lot of swelling
from the first procedure.

I don't know where I am.
Suction.

Is that
the superior colliculi?

Derek always said
if you're lost,
find the normal anatomy.

A touchstone.
I need a North Star.

There's
the facial nerve fibers.

The floor
of the fourth ventricle.

I cannot continue to work

in your daughter's brain
while that phone is ringing.

- What do you want?
- Hello, Mrs. Gatlin,
this is Dr. Webber.

I need you to tell me
if my doctors are okay.

They're in the middle
of surgery.

Are they okay?

We're okay.

Good.
Can you tell us the substance that you have with you?

It's acetylene from
my husband's truck.

If anyone comes in here,
I'm gonna light it up.

Look, Mrs. Gatlin,
I know you're worried
about your daughter,

but I need to send a team
in there to take that tank.

- They can continue to work.
- There.

I see the pathway back
to where the angioma was.

I know where I am. Irrigation.

Mrs. Gatlin.

Unplug it. Now.

Go back to where you were.
No more calls.

We need to talk
to that husband.

If it is truly acetylene,
SWAT needs to get in here. Now.

-Hold on. Wait a second.
-Let's go.

That mother's not
in a rational state.

If you send officers in there
right now, it's over.

Amelia has already
started the surgery,

so the safest thing
for us to do right now
is to let her finish.

Is now a good time to mention

that she is operating without
a neuro monitoring team
or any imaging?

It's Amelia. She can do it.
What is the case?

Fully dissected
around the supraceliac aorta.

Kwan, what's next?

Vessel loop for control.

Good. Vessel loop.

Didn't you see the page?
You were supposed to
have evacuated.

We are mid procedure.

-Damage control and close. Now.
-Well, do we know
what's going on?

There's a disgruntled
family member

with some kind of explosive
in the OR next to this one.

You all need to leave.

We have already
isolated the ascending
and supraceliac aorta.

Her pressures aren't good.
If we close now, Nora is dead.

You should go.

-Teddy, you can't stay.
-Owen, please. Go.

Um, if anyone else wants to leave, they should go.
No judgment.

- I'm staying.
- Me too.

A hundred cc's in five minutes.

His bleeding's doubled
in the last hour.

Where the hell
is that ABG I ordered?

Sorry, it just came in.

Lactate's higher,
hemoglobin's down.
He's getting acidotic, damn it.

We have to reopen his ex lap.

Give me a gown and gloves,
a surgical tray, and a Bovie.

No, you need
to call an attending.

There's no time.
Not if we don't get
this bleeding under control.

All right, let's move.

Floor sex is not comfortable
when you're pregnant
with twins.

-Sorry, the um...
-Mm-hmm.

...the OB supply closet
is not the ideal place
for a honeymoon.

Was someone here before us?

- It's for
the ultrasound machine.

-Oh, my God.
-Do you hear that though?

What? You getting a text?

No, it's the waves crashing
on the shore outside
of our beachfront hotel room.

Mmm.

I can hear it. And the seagulls
flying overhead.

-Palm leaves flapping
in the trade winds.
-Mmm.

No bleeding
in the upper quadrant.

How's everything going in here?

Ben Warren, tell me
you are not operating on a man

-in the middle
of the intensive care unit.
-I-I can't do that.

He started deteriorating
and I can't get him to the OR,

so I brought the OR to him.

You do not cut a patient open
outside of the OR

unless he's about to die.

What are they gonna do,
fire me?

Well, they're not afraid
to fire me.
They've done it before.

Which is why I left you out of it.
Vistaseal.

You're gonna need help
with that liver.
Just give me a damn gown.

Your parents must be
so proud of you.

When Dylan was five,
she wanted to be a doctor.

There you are.

What do you mean?
What's happening?

I've reached the hematoma.

Yeah, it's pretty big.

- I'm aware.
- Talk so I can hear you.

Preparing to suction.

Here we go, Dylan.

Has anybody heard from Hunt?

No.

This looks impossible
to access.

Shepherd'll make it
through this. She has before.

She has a stake
in this hospital.
She's here every day.

You really want to do this now?

I've cleared all the ORs
except for one.

Teddy won't leave.
Ndugu, Kwan and Millin
are with her.

-Then send the police in.
-Thank you.

Well, hold on. What happened
to giving Amelia time?

This mother doesn't
wanna hurt anyone.
She wants to save her kid.

Her daughter has very
little chance of survival,

and everyone else
up there does.

You just said
Amelia can do this.

Dr. Grey, Dylan's morning labs
just came in.

- All right, Millin.
Suction.
- Mm-hmm.

The anastomoses are complete.

Excellent job. All that's left
to do is staple the aorta.

And we don't need you for that.
Time to go.

You want me to leave?

- What about Kwan?
- What about Kwan?

He's leaving too.

We are your attendings,
and we're responsible for you.

We put you in enough
danger today, so get out.

Let's go. Now.

All right.
Moment of truth.
You ready to staple?

No.

Why did I think
that this could work?

This isn't the time
for second-guessing.

The moment that
we staple her aorta,

the pressure from her heart
could blow the staple line,
and she'll die.

We always knew
this was a possibility.
But if we do nothing, she dies.

This floor could blow up,
and we all die.

But if the surgery goes wrong,
it'll be my hands
that kill her.

All right.
You got it. Almost there.

She keeps oozing.

Dr. Shepherd, her labs just
came back from this morning.

Damn it, we need FFP.

- We don't have it.
- What are you talking about?

Dylan has started bleeding.

We can help her, but we need
to give her blood products.

You must have done something.
You made her bleed again?

We always knew this
was a risk if I went back in.

You fix her.

I want to save your daughter.

I have never wanted
to do anything
but save your daughter!

I should've never let you
operate on her the first time!

She'd be fine! She'd be awake!
She'd be happy!

She'd be quizzing me
on the names of trees.

She can still do that.
- She won't stop oozing.

She's nine, and I took
that from her! You fix her!

Jenna,
not everything can be fixed!

You did nothing wrong.
All you did is love
your daughter.

No one could have
predicted this,

but we can still fight
for her, if you--

- Lucas, no!
- Don't come any closer!

Stop! Stop!

Are you a cop?

No, I'm a surgeon.
I'm here to help.

Dylan's coagulopathic,
which means her blood
can't clot well.

We can treat it. This is FFP.
It's fresh frozen plasma.

It's got proteins
with clotting factors.

If we don't give it to her,
she will continue to bleed,

and we will not
be able to close.

I'm a mother too.

I actually had my son
in this very OR.

I know we-we would do anything
for our kids.

We feel our kids' pain as
deeply as they do, if not more.

And we live to protect them.

Give her the FFP right now.

Okay, go ahead.

Dylan was
a breach, baby.

For the last eight weeks
of my pregnancy, her head
was shoved up under my ribs.

Even after she was born,
she would climb up on my chest

and nuzzle her head in there.

It made her feel safe.

Even at nine, she does it.

She trusts me. She trusted me
to keep her safe, and I didn't.

What did I do to her?

Come on.
Come on, come on, come on.

Is your surgery back on?

Not yet. Think that's weird?

Uh, maybe your patient bailed.

He's 82 and pretty psyched
to get back to
his ballroom dance class. So...

Ms. Simril hasn't paged me
for any more ice.
So, there's that.

The second we open this door,
honeymoon's over.

I think we just proved
the honeymoon
is wherever we are.

Okay.

Wait.

Okay. Leave that there.

Hey. What-What's happening?

Uh. There's a hostage situation
on the OR floor.

Yeah, the ICU's packed,
so we're moving
overflow patients to OB.

What rock did you
crawl out from?

If you want me to try
to do this by myself, I will,

but this is a two-person job,
and the OR floor
is locked down.

Neither one of us should.
It's too risky.
We need more time.

All right, let's just slow down
a second and-and take a breath.

Okay, what if
we slow Nora down?

If we lower her blood pressure
and fibrillate the heart
before we staple.

Yeah, yeah. The staples have
a better chance of holding

while the blood is diverted
to the new aorta.

- All right, let's finish what we started.
- -Yeah.

All right. Ready when you are.

Induce V-fib.

Okay,
her pressure is coming down.

This'll give us
the best chance.

All right, clamps off.
All right, GIA stapler.

Let's go, let's go.

-Ready?
-I'm ready.

Come on.

Oh, my God.

Is it working?

Let's just
give it some time.

Come on, Dylan.
Come on, you can do this.

Come on.

- The bleeding's coming from the-- -Mesentery.
- I see it.

Hemostat. And I also need a--

- 0 silk on a passer.
- Exactly.

- And then you can--
- Mayo scissors.

All right,
let's get her pressure back up.

Let's pace her again.

Come on, come on, come on.

She's not capturing.
Paddles.

- Come on, Nora.
- All right.

Charge to 20. Clear.

Nora, give us a rhythm.

My God.

Here we go. Yep, yep.

The staple line is holding.

We did it.

We actually did it.

Let's close
and get the hell out of here.

Irrigation.

Did it stop...

Don't talk.
She is no longer bleeding.

Is it over?

It's over.

It's empty.

It's always been empty.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

Oh, God!

Are you okay?

I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

-We should talk.
-I don't wanna
be apart, Simone.

All I want is to be with you.

That whole time in the OR,

all I could think about is
what I would do if something
were to happen to you.

I'm okay.

If we can make it through that,

the rest...
...we'll figure it out.
The rest, it doesn't matter.

You did it.
You and Altman, you did it.

I want back on your service.
I need to be back
on your service.

Look, I told you that
I need to make sure

the other interns are
hitting their case numbers.

Well, Kwan's already hit his,
and he's still on your service.

I mean, do you think
I'm not good enough
or something?

No.

I mean, 'cause you can tell me.
In fact, I would rather
you tell me.

Well, you are
a very competent surgeon.

Well, do you find me
annoying then?

-No.
-What is it?

Just tell me what it is,
and I will fix it.

You can't fix it, all right?
Just please let it go.

No, no, I'm not going to let it
go until you tell me the truth.

Okay.

We were spending
a lot of time together and I...

Lines were getting blurry.

Right? Did you not feel that?

The lines might have
been blurry for you,
but they were very clear to me.

Well, I just did what I felt
was right given the situation.

Denying the opportunities
to learn was the right thing
to do?

I'm not the only
cardio surgeon.

No, you're not.

But you are the best one.

Oh, look, you can see
the Northern Cross
really well tonight.

You know, some cultures say
it represents the connection
between heaven and earth.

Thanks to you,
that patient will stay firmly
on the earth side tonight.

I should've
stood up for you more
and protected you--

No, Miranda,
if I was gonna get my job back,
I needed to do it on my own.

But, Miranda, I... Hey.

I have no regrets.

I stand by my choices
to save lives. Every time.

You will find
another program

somewhere better for you.

Go. Go. I'll be okay.

That's right. You will.

I love you.

How's Amelia?

Very rattled, but okay.

Are you
going home like this?

The ORs are starting up again.

Your arthroscopy patient?

He says the Foxtrot waits
for no man. Do you mind?

Yes, but I understand.

- Ow.
- Oh. You okay?

It's just a kick.
Maybe the girls
are trying the Foxtrot.

Did you say girls?

Did I?

We're having girls?

-Did you forget to tell me?
-I was busy on the beach.

I didn't even know
there was a hostage situation.

Okay, go.

Jenna's in custody.

Paramedics are taking
her vitals and then Seattle PD
will book her.

Dylan's INR looks good.

Oh, yeah. The poor girl's
gonna wake up, and she won't
have her mom here.

When you moved
to Boston for Zola,

I thought just maybe once
she graduated from high school,
you... you'd come back.

Well, we're a few years away
from that still.

Look, the point is that I just
thought that when I'd retire,

Bailey and you
would be at the helm.

I'm gonna call your bluff
on that because you've been
threatening to retire

since Bailey and I
were residents.

That's fair.
You need to do
what's right for you,

but just know that
you and your work
will always have a home here.

Dr. Grey, your paperwork
is ready for signature.

You know, I've been thinking.

It's been a while since
I've spent any time in OR 2.

I mean, today doesn't count.
But I just...

I don't see the inside
of the operating rooms
much anymore.

Are you hinting
you want your old job back?

No, I just... I don't know.

Maybe... Maybe you could
give me lab space in Boston,

and I could spend
my summer here
and work as a general surgeon.

Well, we already have
a chief of general.

Well, that's great
'cause I don't want that.

I just wanna operate
and my kids could come here

and spend their summers
with their family
and their friends.

And of course,
I-I would be available
for consults during the year.

-Uh.
-It's a deal.

If it's okay with you.

Deal.

So much for a celebratory
last day.

I don't know.
It almost went out with a bang.

Fine, too soon.

Yeah.

Oh.

You know you want to.

Okay, fine.

Feel different now?

I do feel better.

You talk to Adams?

None of your business.

You'll each be assigned
individual lockers.

Oh, my God.

Well, think of it this way,
at least you already know
I'm good, right?

I'll be seeing you.

Yep, it's definitely
your business.

Dr. Foster to Neurology.

Dr. Elizabeth Foster
to Neurology.

She's still intubated,

but her pressor requirements
are coming down.

I need to go check in
with Webber, but you can
go in and sit with her.

I am here to see you.

Teddy.

You changed
what was possible today.
You changed medicine.

And yet, I still lose.

I do.

I do have feelings for her,
but I do not want
to be with her.

When she leaves here,
I will never
speak to her again.

I only wanna be with you.
I am in love with you.

You are the mother
of our children,
and you're my best friend.

From the moment,
the moment I met you,

you made my world feel whole.

I changed my career,

I moved continents
because being without you
felt impossible,

but sometimes, what we think
is impossible is just...

It's just failure
of imagination.

There is no invisible force
keeping us together.

It was a choice.

Picking you every time.

And I'm not sure
I wanna make that choice again.

You're giving up on us?

I'm choosing me.

When people cross
a finish line or complete
an impossible task,

they often report
feeling empty.

Dylan's stable,
but we'll know a lot more
when she wakes up.

I'm sorry.

I can't tell you how sorry
I am for what my wife
put you through.

I should've, uh...

I should've been there.
I was at a work site.

-I got here
as fast as possible.
-It's not your fault.

Yeah, ever since the diagnosis,
things have been rough. But no.

Jenna knows how flammable
those cylinders are, so...

Thank God the tank was empty.

Why do you think it was empty?

Well, she told us it was.
Well, she didn't mean
to hurt anyone.

I don't have any empty tanks
in my truck.

But the police
said it was empty
when they checked.

Did Jenna ever open the valve?
Is anybody still up there?

Find Webber.

Anticipation and motivation
become replaced

with apathy and disappointment.

Um, excuse me, can I scrub in
on your interception today?

Bailey, that okay with you?

Uh. She's all yours.

-Have you seen Altman?
-Not for hours.

Science will
tell you it's due to a drop
in dopamine levels.

Cautery, please.

But personally,
I think it's 'cause we're
suddenly faced with the fear

of not knowing what's next.

Oh, my God!

- Oh, my God!
- Out of the way.

Oh, my God!

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