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Yeah, I'm. I'm here. I'm out front.

Yeah. OK, great.

I'm always late.

Hi. Yeah. Hey. It's

for you. Really. You bought it

for me?I did. But then. So here's the

thing. I didn't realize I would fall in

love with it, and I wasn't sure if you'd

want it. Do you want it?Because that's

totally cool. If you do, I'm just going

to have to come over a lot. It's

just it's so big. I don't know where I'd

put it. That's good. So yeah, he'll hang

with us tonight and then he'll come home

with me. OK. Hi.

HiYou're you're funny.

No. I'm fun. I'm not funny. Funny

means you need attention and it's

embarrassing. I'm fun.

You're fun. Let's go. OK.

Wait, wait, wait, wait

Wow. Isn't that sort of an end of the

date kind of thing?No. Oh,

my God. What's your name?

What's your name?Greg. Yeah, yeah

OK, cool. Cool, Greg.

So what do you want to drink?How much

money do you make?What?

Oh, that's something to be ashamed of. I

just think that whoever. Makes the most

money should pay for these drinks. And,

you know, I don't know what you do. You

don't know what I do. I mean, who's to

say that I don't make more money than

you, despite our, you know, vast age

difference?Yeah.

Wow. What?I'm just. No, noI mean,

it's like, it's a fact that you're double

my age, and I don't think that's

something we should be weird about.

You're 50, right?I am.

And how much money do you make?

Wow. I'm.

I This is an unusual thing

to be asked, but I make under

6 figures, but just by little. Good.

Good for you. So you're going to be

paying for the drinks tonight, OK?Hey,

excuse me. Two whiskeys on the rocks,

please. Oh, you want to pace yourself

tonight?Yes, Darren. Just make it.

He's we're we joke. We're friends. We

joke like that. Yeah, I'm sober. It

sucks. What?

It's no, I just, I don't think my

generation will be sober. We don't crave

excess like you guys. We can control

ourselves. It's OK though. I'll just

have both, I guess.

Yeah, the funniest thing happened to me

on the way here. It was ferrying my

car and there was this.

Isn't it so funny how I can just like,

cut off a conversation for a full minute

and that's like acceptable now because

it's like, it's crazy. I mean,

like, even if I were to like,

remember what we were talking about,

which I don't like, the energy of it

would be gone. So we have to just like

start our conversation over time.

That's not what?No, acceptable. That's

not. What you were doing was not

acceptable. Of course it's acceptable

that you accept it. You sat there and

accepted it. It's acceptable. Like, if

you did not accept it, then you would

have said, put your phone away. And you

did not do that. So, I mean, like, I'm

done with it now. Like, it's OK. I'm done

with it. But, like, you can't be mad at

me for something if you didn't do

anything to stop it. HuhI guess you're

right. Yeah.

You are something else. So what do you

what do you do exactly?

I'm a poet.

And how's that going?Really well,

actually. Did you just fucking laugh at

my trade?Seriously?No, it was a

voluntary. That's not cool. Like, we

don't do that. I'm mad now. Let's go.

I thought it was a joke. Let's go.

So do you only date older guys?Is that?

Yeah, yeah, mostly older. I can't

save them though. And it's like, it's

freeing to know that now. But gay guys

your age are traumatized, you know?Well,

what are you talking about?Well, you

know, all your friends died of AIDS. So

that's like a trauma that doesn't go

away. And like, no matter how hard you

try, it's horrible. Well, I think that's

sort of a generalization, you knowI mean,

it was a very scary time to be alive and

you never knew if your number was going

to be up. It's so crazy to think about.

Like, I definitely would have died. Don't

say that. That's a horrible thing to say.

Don't say that. I'm a poet. I would have

died. Come on. Like, all the cool people

died. But I get it. Like, my best friend

killed himself. It was really sad. And,

you know, like, he was like my brother.

And, like, he might have been gay, but

then he might not have been gay. And

like. It was just never, like, mentioned.

We never talked about it. Wait, that's

not true. We did. We did talk about it

one time, like the day before it

happened. And he said to me, like, what's

it like to be gay?And I was like, well,

it works for me because I'm really

strong. But like, for anyone else, I

would kill myself. Like, totally

jokingly. I said it, of course. But

anyway, like, I got home the next day and

he had, like, he had killed himself. I

know this person. Hi, Vernette.

Vernette. Hi.

How are you?You look amazing. Look at

you. You're giving me like 90s

babysitters, like tendrils. Oh my

God. How did it go?How did it go?Oh my

God. It was so good. I I sold more than I

even have. Oh my God. It means you need

to make more now. And you. Oh

my God. Congrats. Thank you. It was like

surreal. It's actually surreal. I didn't

think that it would happen. Anyway, it

was so good to see you. I want the world

for you. Seriously. You're going to be

fucking huge. It's crazy. It's actually

insane. All right. It was good to see

you. Hi.

You need to be writing. Got a journal.

It saved my life. I love you.

40 percent. 40 percent. Was she talking?

Was she talking with my clothes?So, like,

anyway. What was I saying?Yeah,

so my best friend killed himself. He hung

himself like in my room. It was just like

super traumatizing and it like, really

fucked me up and hardened me. Like to

this day. My point being is that, like,

if I can lose one friend and never

recover, how are you expected to lose

literally all of your friends and like,

be a human being?It's not fair. I mean,

you should be fucked upYou should be like

fucking closed off as shitIt's horrible

what happened to you. And like, you can't

really get rid of trauma unless you go to

therapy for like 10 years. But you know,

gay guys like being therapists more than

they like therapy. So that doesn't work.

Because really, the only way to deal with

trauma is by doing ayahuasca, which I've

done three times. And like, I still

haven't gotten over, like,

losing my friend. I'm

sorry. I'm like, I'm getting a little

pushed. Hey, I don't want it. It's

OK. No, stop. No, it's here. Come here.

It's OK. I'm sorry about your friend.

Thank you. Thanks.

Let's go to the store. Like, OK. OK

Your friend Bernette, she seems really

supportive of you. They. Uh, yeah. I

mean, I sat them down a month ago and I

said you need to try 40% harder and now

they're showing at the hammer, so.

And what was what were they

congratulating you for?Oh, I went viral.

Oh, my God. I love this. Look, I'm

Rihanna. I'm not sure I

get the joke. Oh, it's not a joke. You

drink out of this mug and you literally

are Rihanna. Like, for a moment. Yeah.

And that's a good thing. Oh, yeah. That's

a very good thing. Well, for 40 bucks, it

ought to be. Everything in there is so

overpriced and expensive. Yeah, I

mean, that's like normal pricing. It's

not manufactured. So that makes it art.

What about the prints on the walls?Those

are manufactured and they're not art.

Yeah, I guess so. I guess you're right.

That's OK. That's another thing I like

about myself. I'm not always right. And

that's OK. You know, sometimes I just

speak and I hope my opinion's right.

Let's go. What?Seriously, let's go. Are

you going to pay for that?Run.

Josh. Oh,

thank God.

Yeah, I'm I'm outside of. I don't know

where I'm at. I'm outside of fucking

Little Caesars. I'm trying to find you.

Where are you?Give me a call.

Josh, I guess you went home.

So anyway, it's great to

meet you.

Give me a ring, bitchWhat the

fuckWhy did you

do that?I like scaring people. I hate

being scared, though. Do not. Why did you

steal the fucking mug?Oh, my God. I

don't know. I don't knowWell,

don't ever do that again, OK?Not with me

around. Don't ever fucking do that again.

OK. Geez. Wow. The

headmistress is out tonight. I

like it. All right. Real talk.

I'll tell you why I stole. I'll be honest

with you, but you you can't be mad at me.

OK. Do you like me?

Do I like you?I'm intrigued by

you. OK.

OK, I stole

because you're boring.

You're boring. Like, I know that you

inside are not like a boring person, but

like, you're boring, man. Come

on. Like, look at your face. You're so

sad right now. And like, we're having

such a good night together. Like, come

on, we can have fun.

Here, drink your beer. You're less boring

now, thief.

I'm sober. I can't drink this,

remember?

It's messy, but it's charming.

So this is it. It's

my living room. Did it myself.

What's with the loose?Oh, it's a piece my

friend Ravi made when marriage equality

passed. He made it to symbolize the death

of gay culture. Isn't it amazing?

It's funny. No, it's not.

You like music?

Hey. Let's dance.

Do you have a picture of yourself when

you were my age?

Yeah, actually, someone just tagged me on

Facebook. Show me.

Oh my God. Oh my God.

You are so hot. I mean, like, you're

still hot, but you were also, like, hot

then. I guess you're just like a

hot guy. Always have been, always will

be. Jesus Christ. Oh my God, I

love you.

Really, 'cause I couldn't tell how you

felt about me at all. It was kind of

hard to read. Seriously?Yeah. No, I'm

obsessed with you.

Ah

God damn

It's like troubling how good you are at

that. I want you to fuck me.

OK. Do you have a condom?No.

But I can't fuck you. Sure you can.

No, you can't. OK, so don't fuck

me. But I I want to fuck you. Yeah, so

fuck me. It's OK. I'm on PrEP.

What about STDs?Do you have any?

No. Well, there you go.

Can I trust you?

Oh, my God. Are you serious?

Of course not.

You OK?

What are you doing?I was. I

was planning on killing myself in front

of you. Get down. No.

Yes, get down. This isn't funny. You're

scaring me. I don't think it's funny. I'm

just. I'm here. So it's not funny.

What are you doing?Were you acting crazy?

Like every time you come, do you go

insane?Why are you so scared?I'm not

scared. You are. Is it because you want

to?Is it because you want to be up here?

Oh, my God. Do you want to kill yourself?

That's so sad. No, I don't want

to kill myself because it kind of seems

like you do. Like for me, this is just

fun, you knowIt's just like fun because I

can do this because I'm young and fun and

fucking free. But you are so scared

of even looking at this because you're so

boring. No, you keep saying I am things,

but you don't know anything about me. We

spent the whole night walking and

talking, and you haven't asked me one

thing about myself. You've just been

making these sweeping generalizations

about my general. It's all

bullshitYou don't know anything.

And so maybe I'm a little bit boring, but

I like my life. Then why the fuck are you

on a date with a 24 year old?Honestly,

like, ask yourself that. Like, I know who

you are, obviously. You've fucked all of

my friends and they're all my age. So,

like, don't say that like I'm the crazy

one when you're the one seeking this shit

out. I don't want to be here right now.

Then get the fuck out. Yeah, you're

right. We're not a match. Just get down,

please. No, no, fuck off

All right, take care.

You know what?

You need to call your father.

OK. OKWow.

Really. Really. That's what you're going

to give me. How reductive. I mean, after

everything that I've displayed to you

tonight, you think it all boils down to

daddy issues. My shit goes way deeper.

Greg, you really are like

a fucking idiot. Fine. Good luck.

OK. No, don't. Please. No, no, no, no,

no, no, no, noPlease, please, please just

stay. I just get like this sometimes. But

I I like you and I want you to stay like,

I'll suck your Dick again. Like, please

just just like, stay

because I need you here tonight. It's

just like, I'm insecure. That's

like what it boils down to. See, I'm

self-aware. I'm like, I'm calling myself

insecure. So just like, stay, all right?

I just wait, waitJust like, you just

just tell me I'll be OK. Like,

just just tell me, just tell

me I'm going to grow up and be OK. I

don't know.

I wasn't anything like this when I was

your age.