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not to sound sexist or anything but uh

you don't usually meet many broads that can keep up

and if they can they usually look like my brother

I'm flattered

you're supposed to flip support group bitch says

we all need a reason to wake up in the morning

and mine's a good fucking hangover

you're up partner

you got that I don't need any help and by the way

the mood

lighting in here has got me feeling pretty sentimental

don't be surprised if I break out with some Ario

Speedwagon before long

how do we do this again

heads you swallow the bullet tails

you live to see another day

you okay to drive that chair

killer right over your cock

ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

tails live another day

so where did you learn about this game

guy I used to know guy I used to know hey

not for nothing but a hepatitis

can we get a rinse glass or something

you're really worried about disease

worried hmm no

I just rather go quick and clean

last thing I want is to be this guy

no offense says the guy

acting out his suicide fantasy with a bottle of whiskey

meaning

meaning you know the consequences liver failure

drunk driving accident it's suicide for chicken shits

you talk final exit to their friends

their shrinks their support groups

don't want it bad enough to drop the toaster

ever take a look at yourself

ever take a look at yourself

ever tell a woman to shut her fucking mouth

when you weren't talking to her

fuck you no

fuck you you made the game sweetie

yet you're still too scared to drink

without that safety net of a 50% chance

that you're gonna do the good

Christian thing and abstain go hug a fucking Bible

like I said fuck you and fuck you too

put a gun in your mouth

and then I'll take you seriously

you know what

you're absolutely right

hey man can we just stop fucking around

yeah

it's like my dad always said

don't go shooting your mouth off in public

choices have LED us here the sooner we all realize that

the sooner we can correct them

it's easy to blame others for our struggles

our parents the way we were raised

we weren't loved enough

our spouses for not understanding

our jobs for not recognizing

God for not listening

but in the end

when they're gone

we're still here

and we can't walk away even if we want to

and sometimes we want to

we all need a reason to wake up to get by

my reasons you guys

knowing I get to see you again next week

knowing you're still fighting

even when the fight is hard

we have some new faces here tonight

if you could give us your names

you don't have to talk if you don't want to

it's alright

just let us know who you are so we can make you welcome

my name is Dean Jensen

hi Dean

hi Dean

I'm a landscaper

I do construction

I used to do construction

I have a disease

I hope you don't mind I ordered the creme brulee

I'm so horny for you right now

well

we are the last people here

give me another glass of wine

and I'll fuck you on the floor

right now actually

I was thinking more like champagne

Dean what is this

this is us

this is you and me against the world

Zoe Elizabeth Clark

my best friend

my everything

will you marry me yes of course

congratulations

we're gonna hold off on that crumb layer

you had this all planned out

didn't you for 2 years Dean

I love you I really love you

I'll always love you I hope so

cause that's a full carrot

what's wrong with your hand you're shaking

just nerves I guess

I've been preoccupied with asking this girl to marry me

you knew I'd say yes

that doesn't make it any less important

fuck

don't worry

there's plenty more where that came from

what's the matter

I thought you guys were the real deal

why would somebody who wanted to kill themselves

so badly they need a group therapy to deal with it

be afraid of a loaded gun

unless you just want the attention

you have no idea who I am

you don't know me and what about you Mister

I don't want to see you coming right

cause I want to further my own personal trauma

by watching a cripple blow his goddamn head off

Touche

so why did you sneak out of the group during the break

why did you leave a group of people

who were trying so hard to live

to come back here

with two people who were trying so hard to die

was it for the encouragement

or for the encouragement

my name is Richie Kessler

my wife calls me Richard

look no offense to any of you

I'm sure that this whole group thing

makes you feel nice and comfy

but I have any options I'm here tonight

because if I didn't find something else to do

I'd probably lose control of myself

and I'd probably kill myself

yeah

cause when I lose it I feel better

even when I feel worse

better

take it easy all right

no I won't take it easy

all right give me another

I put in my time all right

I work weekends

I missed holidays

I pulled my bills out of a vending machine

just so they could pull their numbers

out of the gutter and this is the thanks that I get

you know it was political

it was either gonna be you or Courtney oh

so what am I being punished for huh

fact that I have a penis

or the fact that it isn't brown

hey Richie look

maybe we should so what

let it go pretend like I didn't deserve the title

or the extra 10 grand a year

that could help me pay off my mortgage before I'm 109

or how about the hospital bills from the surgery

that weren't even covered by the company

shitty health benefits Jesus Christ Richie

you're not even 30 yet that's not the point okay

I earned it

I earned the loyalty and I earned the respect

and where is my goddamn drink

I'll come back for the creme brulee alright

look uh

take this OK

that is last call

oh honey um

you're still up we need to talk Richard

what do you want me to say

I don't know Richie

you seem like the kind of guy who has no problem

opening his mouth and letting his asshole fall out

yeah I admit it

I'm afraid to die OK

I'm also afraid to live

and maybe being around people who feel the same way

might help me figure out what I'm afraid of less

what about you

please don't shoot me

I'm not afraid to die

I mean I

please don't shoot me

I'm not a killer

a lot of things but I'm not a killer

are you no

my name is Sunshine Howard

my mother suffered from depression and 8 months in

she kissed my father goodbye

and instead of going to her women's group at the church

on Tuesdays like she always did

she went to Back Alley Butcher

and tried to have me cut out like cancer

and when he slipped with the coat hanger

broomstick handle

or whatever piece of dirty equipment he was using

he dumped her in a cab on the way to the hospital

while she bled to death in the back seat

my father said I was raised in sunlight

I was hope

proof that every child deserved to live

no matter what choice the mother made

but it isn't your decision to make

life begins at conception

Psalm 1:39 oh Lord

you have searched me and known me

my form was not hidden from you

while I was being made in secret

the days that were formed for me

when as yet there were none

but don't you see

God has a plan written in the foundation of the world

no life is an accident it's a miracle

not that it's any of your business

I'm not pregnant nevertheless

you're supporting a federally funded organization

that promotes partial birth abortion

living breathing children of god

harpooned and dragged out of their mother's womb

to be executed for sins that aren't their own

look if you're searching for medicine

to help with feminine impurities

caused by lust I implore you

go to a family doctor and read this

don't advocate

a shameful group that promotes premarital sex

and fails to report statutory rape to the authorities

if you don't get out of my way right now

I'm gonna call the police or I will

sorry about that now you listen up

I told you the next time I saw you here

I'd have you arrested

you could be killing the next Mozart

the next Edison

you could be murdering the man that cures cancer

what kind of doctor does that make you

well what kind of woman does that make you

to tell somebody who's been

gang raped behind a dumpster

or molested by her father

what she can do with her body

on the wicked he shall reign

snares and fire and brimstone at a terrible tempest

this shall be the portion of their cup oh

you sit there on your high horse

dictating how we all should live

facing your principles on an outdated piece of fantasy

that you've decided is fact

and yet you don't know the first thing about life

because you've never really lived it have you

all life is precious

even yours

now a single shot in a five round revolver

is a 20% chance of discharge

that's a 20% chance of dying

or an 80% chance of living

all depends on where you're sitting I guess

well I know where I'm sitting

and I know what I'm facing

and I know I've got nothing to lose

maybe you do

if so

there's the door

otherwise

there's another bottle of whiskey on the sideboard

so

oh mwah

so so what do you think

I think it's a good thing we're renting

cause it's not big enough for a nursery

you wanna make a baby no

I wanna practice making babies

practice makes perfect uh huh

wanna practice now

3 times this morning wasn't practice enough

Dean Jensen

you have a hot piece of ass standing in front of you

who wants to suck you blow you

fuck you till your dick turns blue

and you're complaining I'm not complaining

just sore well

I'll kiss it and make it better

I promise

come on oh I intend to

what's wrong nothing road seems kind of crazy

doesn't it well

it's a good thing we're gonna move before we have kids

what are you doing no

no no

put me down I'm carrying you over the threshold no

it's bad luck we're not married yet

so is living in sin and I don't hear you complaining

oh don't stop

oh oh

oh yes oh yes

oh ah ah yes

ah ah ah ah

all this practice in

our kid better be 10 feet tall and cure cancer

um can you get me a towel

kind of need to

yeah thanks

fuck hahaha

sounds like somebody needs a break

Dean

Dean

are you okay

I thought you tripped over a box or something

are your legs okay

I don't know

are you nervous why

well your blood pressure is a little high for your age

but that could be due to the stress of the move

or your wedding plans what about the rest

don't tell me about that

tell me about the twitching

just twitching I guess like muscle spasms

I mean like when I used to run track in high school

just twitchier like shaking almost

how long has this been going on

well long enough

and gradually

enough that I didn't notice until other people noticed

for me and the lack of coordination

is that recent that one's

all the time I'm afraid I'm gonna fall down the stairs

or drop a glass

and I'm afraid to walk down the aisle

I'd like to run some test

who's first

you made the rules

heads swallow the bullet

tails you live to see another day

ladies first

alright

heads I go first

tails you go first

and then we're on from there

I'll go again no

it's your turn Richard

I don't really feel like talking today

maybe we could just take this as a surprise

you don't feel like talking

well you didn't feel like talking yesterday either

or the day before or the day before that

so why don't you tell us Richard

when do you feel like talking

how about when I feel like it

instead of on scheduled days

you're never home because I'm at work

or out drinking with your slimeball friend

John Tokas is not a slimeball

maybe you don't consider a womanizer

who preys on bored housewives

a slimeball

but considering you're out at night with him

rather than coming home to me

it makes me worried maybe

I don't need to go home

to be reminded of the fact that

the only reason that we have it

are the cars the expensive furniture

the televisions and everything else

is because your parents bought it for us

I'm sorry for you they want us to be comfortable no

what they want to do is

remind me of the fact that they didn't want me

as your husband in the first place

which you only are because you got me pregnant

senior year of college yeah

and you couldn't even do that right

that's it I'm not going back

two months is enough

you've never gone Richard

what's that supposed to mean huh

you've never gone Richard

I've given up my lunch breaks

I've given up my weekends

I've given up every single you know what I meant

maybe you're right

maybe this isn't the kind of help that you need

hey hey Chico

you are not gonna believe this

Jesus don't fucking do that hey

you know they make decaf too

you spaz

you beating off down there

stop it oh

you got a horn stop it

you got the kind of vagina

that's the kind that I like

I'm having a really bad one today John OK

I really don't need to hear it right now

hey man I'm not your mom

just don't let beach catch you alright

Christ sake go put your ass out on the street

you're not exactly the king of subtle

tonight we'll get some drinks alright we're gonna talk

open the chamber the switch is on the side

push it with your thumb with your other hand

push the cylinder towards yourself

now you put the bullet in

spin it peeking

now cock the hammer back

now you put it in your mouth

put in your mouth

what's your section excuse me

your section

books religious studies ah

why

just curious

same shelf different sides

what about you

what about me what

what's your section oh

um art

art history like I said

same shelf different sides

I don't see how they're so different yeah

if god is within us

then all art or music or poetry is his presence

feeding our creative energies

so to study the history of art

is to study a timeline of religious devotion

so you're saying that

god uses me to paint pictures of himself

divinity is the ultimate inspiration

see I think about religion as being more about

strangling creativity it encourages conformity

rather than embracing a numbing of inhibitions

all based on an archaic sense of morality

then you don't know God do you

yes really

I mean do you really know god

I mean not just through books

but really know it

maybe we should just stick to browsing

sure I'm sorry

I mean we really shouldn't be talking it is a library

isn't that the relationship section over by you

is it I hadn't noticed

yeah it's um right in front of you

they have a great book there

it's called the Kamasutra

Great Reference Book for artists

for painting

never seen it really

it's the book you put back backwards

I didn't

I just saw it there I didn't know what it was

and when I did I put it back

the fact that it is in a public library

where children can see it

is sickening yeah sickening

well

nice to talk to you good day

hey I'm

I was just kidding back there

I'm sorry I wasn't trying to embarrass you I'm Leon

Sunny Howard

Sunny your name is sunny

would you like to get a cup of coffee with me

we can argue about religion or

the weather's a bit warm for coffee

and I have somewhere I really should be going

so if you'll excuse me

I'm sorry it was really nice meeting you sunny

and maybe I'll see you around again

like when I return my books

you don't have any books

I'm a fast reader

I should be done these by 4:00 tomorrow

Goodbye Leon

you've done this before

cause you didn't you didn't even flinch

when you put the gun

God damn it will you say something

something

nice street you live on Stephen King

you have pet cemetery out here too

none of the dead cats on my porch

are considered enough to come back to life

and walk away

cats dogs

they get hit thrown right up at

the house found a squirrel the second week I lived here

skull cracked open on the door

left a trail of brains

that slid right down to a furry corpse

on the welcome mat

worse is when some kids pet

although half the time

I wonder if the next time the pet's gonna make it

no problem but the kids

the one I'm gonna find stuck to my lawn

that's not funny I never said it was Russian roulette

that's our lives whether we realize it or not

why are you wasting time with the gun huh

why don't you just roll your ass out

in the middle of that busy road

and see if you reach the other side

because that's Polish roulette

playing with a semi automatic

hundred percent chance of success

it's the odds that keep dying interesting

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Dean

I'm just checking the mail God damn it

you got something from your mom

looks like a card I can't watch you every minute

I can't even do housework without you wandering off

I was just checking the mail

yeah'cause that's what I need right now

for you to get hit by a car

I'm not a child I'm not your mother

I said I want to raise your kids not you

I just wanna do normal things like a normal person

there's nothing normal about our lives anymore

come on t

come on get that cock hard for me

so good for you come on

I'm so wet I just slide in

come on

come on

come on

come on

come on don't you want me

come on Dean

don't you want me

I'm sorry

right now we're looking at any number of possibilities

the problem is narrowing them down

your blood work looks normal for your age and weight

blood pressure is a little high

but that could be due to stress

but any long term illness takes time to isolate

before its symptoms are clear

what I wanna do is get you checked for Ms

just to rule out the possibility

while we try other things

now this isn't a diagnosis

it's very important that you understand that

these symptoms could disappear

as suddenly as they showed up

or

we could find something that the blood work and scans

haven't shown us yet

until then I want you to see a specialist at Hopkins

for a full assessment even then

this could take time to play out

Ms I'm 25 years old

I know Dean

but again we can't be sure

I'm a landscaper

I need my hands

I've been out of work 3 weeks

can't go back to work

without a doctor's written consent

but I can't pay for a doctor if I'm out of work

we're getting married in six months

Tina I fully understand

I'm gonna give you a phone number

for a therapist that works with young couples

who are in situations like this

and I think you'll find

he can help you examine your options

and find a way to a long and happy life

so what's the point of Russian roulette

you can go polish huh

screen doors on a submarine

unless you're still planning to win the miracle lottery

I'd unlucky 20% assholes and motherfuckers

go on assholing and motherfucking every day

day in day out cock in cock out there's your miracle

that's the whole joke thing

maybe

maybe God just picks certain people to be his bitch

just cause

maybe he needs to humiliate you and break you down

just so you keep breathing

but you're still kind of pissed off about it

maybe he likes it when you look stupid

cause it lets everyone else point and laugh

God the sick sadistic fuck that he is

he needs to punish everyone for it

judge not

let's him roll out his latest tsunami

or his newest neediest plague or disease

just to watch you squirm

now I've been looking over your work for the last

six months and I have to say Richard

it's not good

I mean you can see a definite drop off here

you know right around the time that

right around the time I was looked over for promotion

yeah I'd say it was probably around that

Richard

I'm gonna be Frank really I thought you were Glenn

sorry um

you were saying Richard

I think we both know what the problem is

it has nothing

to do with the fact that Courtney was promoted over you

rather with

what I view is some very troubling aspects of your

behavior Glenn

look I've avoided bringing HR in

I could do that you know

should do that

but I'm not not yet

this is strictly off the record

you need to see our counseling services immediately

whatever problems you're having

and we both know you're having them

need to be controlled Glenn

whatever you're thinking I swear to you

less than smelling

get checked into the alcohol program today

I don't have to say anything if you do

and provided there's an effort reflected in your work

otherwise

we're gonna have to pull the plug

yeah Tokas hey

I could use some company

wait stop

what

just

just wait for what your dick to get hard

I've never done this before

yeah I can tell

I'm married so Jesus

I should have just gone with your friend

get out what

fuck you

limp dick asshole

what are you doing

you're looking at me what

hey what what is all this

I thought that we could

you know

I got this

Anna

look

it's been a really tough day and uh

I have an early morning tomorrow

and it's it's not you Anna

Anna

it's not you

Bang Jesus

are you trying to give me a heart attack

doesn't matter you almost just made me shit my pants

did you think of that

what

why are you here

I thought we weren't gonna talk about that

it's just look at me

nobody's to ask with me

or I'm even fuck you too

but you

you're a mystery

the type who says nothing

and thinks it makes her invisible

well

sometimes invisible is good

hi dad

going out sweetie for a little while

come in here let me take a look at you

you're looking dressed up

where are you going

church group lady ladies meeting

well have a good time

is there anything you like

what your menu

you've read it like three times

it's a lot to look at true

are you sure I can't get you anything to drink

I don't drink should I guess that

I'm sorry

I've never done this before

it's fine we can sort you out with something weak

like a Smirnoff ice or something

no I mean this

dinner

the man

you're 25 and you've never been in my circles

it's frowned upon for a girl to date a guy like me

a non Christian

I will tell if you want

try this

just a sip

I don't know if I should tell you what

we'll play a game of Russian roulette

heads swallow the bullet

tails you live to see another day

the whole thing just a sip if you like it

we'll flip again

and see about getting you a whole brick

hats

oh god that's awful

it's a bit of an acquired taste

and how do you acquire it

you flip again

stop frowning causes wrinkles

you can relax

you're beautiful

this is all wrong I should look at her

you're here cause you want to be here

I lied to my father

OK

tell me now

say it again

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I can't

no no no no

no

no

no

no

ah ah

ah ah ah

got a cigarette no

maybe a blindfold what

she means you're stalling

how about

I'm trying to save her the last few minutes I have

without a hole where my calic used to be potentially

unless you're in the 80th percentile

so what if I'm like a 20% huh

then what

are you two gonna keep going or you gonna stop

why would we stop

you're actually telling me

you're gonna sit here in a room with a dead body

I'm sorry potentially

sit here in a room with a dead body

whose childhood

memories are splattered all over the walls

if not your sad little faces

and continue chitty chatting

and attempting the occasional suicide

while I'm slumped over with a spurting stump

where my head used to be

I'd be lying if I said I thought that far ahead well

we're all thinking about it now

aren't we you're stalling

I didn't ask you didn't do it sweetie

say no

what say no no

no do it no

do it no

no

oh my God

oh my God

oh my God

oh my God

oh my God

so buddy this is great to see

please have another

you know you love it when a guy dribbles

guess I don't look so good huh

no man

you don't

that's why nobody's been out to see me

you know this is gotta make you feel embarrassed

you know no one wants you to feel that way man

but lonely that's okay

what's Zoe

how's she holding up she's great

you know she was supposed to get married two months ago

but the whole crippled thing

fuck the dog and all that

not to mention

our currently awkward and unfulfilling sex life

and all the bills piling up

you know

but she has two jobs to take her mind off all that

everything's great

so what is this

what's wrong with you

the doctor said what

how is that even possible

I don't know

you couldn't walk so we got you a cane

and then you couldn't walk with the cane

so we got you a fucking wheelchair

that you sit in all fucking day

that I fucking paid for and he says

there's nothing wrong with you

Jesus Christ I can't do this anymore

I have to work two jobs two jobs to support you

because you have no health insurance

and every time I could talk to my parents

I had to beg you know what that's like

to beg my parents for money to support you

and I have no friends none

because they're so embarrassed to see the way you look

and what has happened to you

and they say there's nothing wrong with you

the neurologist wants us to come in to discuss options

options

options

we have no options

I take it by your attitude

that you don't think therapy is what you need right now

I'm perfectly fine my whole life

no problems

not even a cold

nothing

proposed to Zoe

found us a house

doing well at my job

and then I'm told I have Ms

then I'm told I don't have Ms

and now I'm supposed to talk about it

like it's really gonna change anything

who said you have Ms

well nobody

Doctor Klein mentioned it as a possibility

and at this point not a very likely one

tell me do you really need that chair

or can you walk if you need to

yes

if I need to

what about driving a car if I need to

is this your first visit to a psychiatrist Dean

that's not important

isn't it it isn't

it was teenage shit that's all

it doesn't have anything to do with this

I see

so at what point did you first start to think

there was something seriously wrong with you

when I proposed to Zoe we moved in

all the little ticks and things

turned into this

why are you afraid of moving

walking taking care of yourself

why are you afraid I'm not afraid

there aren't any quick solutions in life

you want something now a surgery

a pill a Deus ex Machina flying down from the ceiling

but the mind's a particularly difficult ball of string

it gets tangled

this isn't in my head no

self diagnosis is a dangerous thing Dean

it's suggestion

maybe your problems medical on some level

or maybe it's not or maybe one problem feeds the other

until they're impossible to separate

mind and body

body and mind so you're saying

I'm like this because

I'm worried about not being able to make my wife happy

I didn't actually say anything like that why did you

have you tried standing up walking

my legs are weak from disuse

in fact I'm willing to bet you don't even try that

you prefer to use a chair or a cane or even to crawl

because you already know you can't do it

so what's the point of making the attempt

the question is

do you sit in that chair

because your legs really don't work

or because you don't want them to work

there needs to be something wrong with me OK

there needs to be

because if there isn't

how am I ever supposed to look my fiance in the eye

again

is that your wife

she was supposed to be

what happened

I got sick

so did I

I got sick too

I can tell great minds think alike

mine's not like yours you don't know what I have

different the same whatever

in my own way I understand

I'm not gonna lie and say that

I was farting out Sunshine and roses but

I loved her in my way and and

I smelled the farts

I waited too long to smell the roses

oh hey

Chico been looking for you man

no time to talk has gotta beat feet

what so no drinks tonight no plans

what are you done with those bar girls

go home I'm gonna tell Anna to put on her best dress

I'm gonna take her out somewhere nice

just the two of us I'm gonna ask her how her day was

I'm even gonna listen and who knows

I might even take her home and fuck her afterward wow

that's different yeah

well maybe I need to be oh hey

beach was looking for you earlier

tell him I'll see him in the morning

hey hey

hey

Richard

what is this where are you going

I'm leaving you I'm leaving you

I just think it'd be best if we just cut our losses

and get on with the rest of our lives no

no just wait

let's just talk this through okay

Richard I don't shh

you do see I know how much you love flowers

and I know I don't get them for you often enough

so I'm gonna start bringing them from now on okay

every day so what do you say we just put the suitcase

away Richard

I can't you can I can't

I'm saying I'm sorry okay

I'm saying I'm gonna be better

I just don't know what else you need to hear me say

but I need to hear you say that

you're gonna put your things away

no you're gonna put your things away

and we're gonna go out

and have a wonderful time together

I said no

where were you before when I begged you to listen to me

to talk to me talk to me

I'm trying to fix things okay

I'm trying to fix things with you

and with work and with everything

so I just need you to help

please let go

you're hurting me please let go

hurting you you're hurting me

I'm trying so hard to deal with so much right now

all I need is a little support from my wife

and now you're trying to leave me

you're leaving me

after you trapped me in this marriage for 7 years

cause

you don't know how to put in a goddamn diaper for him

the baby wasn't my fault Richard

that baby was like our marriage

a mistake that ended up in the toilet

before the honeymoon was even over

oh fuck no no

you wanna go fine go

Anna

baby I'm sorry

no Anna

Anna baby

I said I'm sorry Anna

open the door

I need someone here right now

I'm I'm locked inside of the bathroom

open the door Anna

my husband's trying to break in

hang up the phone Anna

he's gone absolutely crazy

I'm at 7:33 Britain green

they're on their way Richard

you need to get out

I can't take this anymore

all right you know what

I'll leave the house is yours anyways

at least I tried

let's go

I'm not fucking around let's finish this

you had your turn it's my turn now this is not a game

I don't have anyone to go home to

I don't have anywhere to go home to

I can't leave here tonight

you're breaking the rules

go in a circle one at a time

in order what difference does it make

it makes a difference to me

you blow your head off I might not be able to do it

and unlike you I will do it

give me the gun

give me the gun it's my turn

she's right

rules are rules I'm not a pussy

I really will maybe you will and maybe you won't

but not until your turn

now give me the gun

well what do you know

looks like the lady here just saved your life

fuck you very much

you think it's only you who's lost their home

their life

I got sick too

what kind of sick

sick of not being noticed

hey hey

huh

hahaha

I'm dead

I like

hmm

ah

ah

ah ah ah

I love you

I love you too

hey

you didn't wake me up

I was sleeping

it's early

think I'll notice

it's Sunday

daddy I'm sorry

I didn't mean to

where were you staying at a friend's house

where were you I told you I was staying at a friend's

you lie to me you look me in the eyes and you lie to me

just like your mother

you know why your mother tried to kill you sunshine

because you aren't mine

oh yes

your mother made certain mistakes

mine was not finding out until she was gone

and now you like mother like daughter

I see her in your eyes

get off of my property right now please

I don't want a whore living under my roof

one was enough

daddy

daddy I am not your daddy Sunshine

I never was

stop fucking looking at me

I thought you wanted to be noticed

and I thought it was your turn

you keep egging us on how about less talk and more go

lets go

Dean

what are these

what are what these

I found them in your drawer the other day

I was folding your socks

those were from a long time ago

I looked them up online they're for depression were

past tense

250mg four times a day

did the doctor tell you to stop taking these

yeah doctor me

they're making me sick and I'm fine without them

fine like you're fine now

that's totally different is it

where are you going out

I need to get out of here for a while

my doctor's appointment

you can drive yourself

your legs only seem to stop working

when you have somebody to make you dinner

run your errands

I am sick Zoe

whatever they say however they try and blow it off

there is something wrong with me

I know

so how are you

same

worse

where's your fiance she thinks it's all in my head

where'd you get the chair

I need it

Dean

something turned up in your latest blood work

something new

I found it

you're HIV positive

well at this stage

it's treatable

so the first thing I'm gonna do is order some new tests

wait

you're saying this

all of this is AIDS

no the HIV is fairly recent

takes time to show up but

it's safe to say that you contracted this

within the past year

that's impossible

did you sleep with someone who was infected no

Dean

how about your fiance

sit down

we're through talking we're through debating

we're through pontificating

and we're through philosophizing now

sit down or I will shoot you where you stand

I mean it

now I've been very patient

and I understand

introspection amongst the suicidal is normal

but I really think this gun should have gone off by now

don't you

I'm not blaming you

because I'm guilty of the gibber jabber too

now the way I see it

there's one here for each of us

there's a little Dean

a little sunshine

and a little Richie Kessler

and if this is it and I think it is

because 20 times three is 60 fucking percent

then you keep going

okay

okay okay

okay

okay

last one else a rotten egg

what the fuck

you take it and shoot

take it shoot

Richard

Richard

Glen I'm sorry um

I just didn't get any sleep last night

pack your things I want you out of here

pack my things you can't

all I asked was that you go to counseling

yeah I did and I am

that's old I swear to you

I haven't had a drink in two weeks

police are on the way

something about a domestic disturbance

anything left here is going to the garbage

where it belongs you don't beat women Richard

you don't beat women huh

you don't beat women

why am I beating you this man is married

I am not with my wife I am not

my life Richie

my life Richie

calm down

Richie calm down

I'm not a drunk I'm better than all of you

I've given more than all of you

and I've given more than you

don't fucking touch me

oh yeah yeah

don't even bother

alright they're already on their way

tell them where I'll be alright

tell them where they can find the drunk

Mister beach Mister Beach are you okay

hey

can I get another

hey look who decided to show up

so where is everybody I've been waiting

Richie

you gotta get you some help man

I am getting some help yeah

my friend Jack Daniels

here to make the night in jail a little easier

Richie I told him I didn't know where you were

but they're gonna find you man

come on let's go back to my place

my date's gonna be here any second

go back sleep this off in the morning

we'll go down to the station

we'll explain things calmly rationally alright

look look just forget it man alright

oh my God

just last thing I wanna do is fuck up your date alright

what so what is it this time

what kind of lonely unhappy

piece of garbage did you pick up off the street

this time you fucking parasite

excuse me fucking stupid bitch

hey

I don't have long tonight

you're you're on your ass Kessler

open up and take it

the great train of life

that chugga chugga Choo Choo up the poop shoot

I'm over here come and get me you fuckers

hahaha just follow the Choo Choo hahaha

Jesus kill somebody

oh I can really

but Anna said no and that's why she stinks

hahaha Didi Didi POW but I don't care

but I'll be suck my dick

Bos never used 51bce0c785ca2f6808

bullshit I call bullshit

what do you think I tricked you

what am I David fucking Copperfield

you crippled asshole you did something to the gun

you've been dragging this out all night alright

that's me my day job is a gun fucker upper

didn't I mention that give it to me

don't look at me don't look at me

don't look at me

sunny

you gotta stop this

you gotta stop

user

baby look at me

everything's gonna be OK

everything's gonna be fine it's not gonna be OK

it's not gonna be fine it was bad

bad girls get punished

Sonny you're not being punished

we're being blessed

we made this

together you and me

we made this out of love no yes

it's you and me kiddo

you and me against the world

you defiled me

you poisoned me

you made me violate everything I ever believed in

you let me fall into sin and humiliation

I have no friends I have no family

I have nothing but this shame

you took me because you wanted to corrupt me

and you got it

if you loved me you wouldn't make me be a whore for you

will you marry me

fuck you

you have two new messages

first new message

baby can you pick up

alright well

I'm driving I just need to think

you know

you know I've never proposed to anyone before and uh

it didn't exactly go the way I'd always imagined it

nothing with you ever really has

you know what that's okay

cause it doesn't have to be perfect

just has to be real

and we are real

and I can't wait to have this baby with you

I love you so much and second new message hey

it's me again I think the transmission blew

I'm out here in the boonies somewhere

and I really hope you're hearing this

cause I need a tow truck like now

I just went up the road a mile to find a gas station

but there's nothing out here but cows

and every time I call information

the signal drops so um

wait a minute I see a car I'm gonna try and flag

where the fuckin odds huh

hi

all right Pollocks

let's get stupider

Jesus he's gonna kill somebody come on

are we gonna do this or what

Bos never used 51bce0c785ca2f68081bfa7d919

game over what you doing making sure we all win

Bos never used 51bce0c785ca2f68081bfa7d919

no no no it's a sign it's a sign from God

excuse me can I have a minute of your time

are you aware of the atrocities

you'll be supporting by visiting this clinic

do you really feel your biblically allowed

freedom of conscience is best exercised

by bringing another fatherless child here to be killed

I told you the next time I saw you here

I'd have you arrested and you get the fuck out of here

well

I see you

took my comment about not living life to the fullest

please help me has your water broken

I need a stretcher out here

I need you to kill it oh oh sweetie

you're gonna have this baby

and it's not because I said so

it's way too late for that

it's gotta be broken something's jammed

see through you twisted little shit

still a game to you isn't it huh

lure us here broke us down

made us think we were playing with a live gun

with what what is this

a toy gun what are these blanks

it's real it went off before when I dropped it remember

show me the bullet hole

oh my God

the fuck do not move

I need that stretcher somebody help me out here

let me help you

I can take you to a hospital away from these butchers

it's not too late to find forgiveness

our Lord Jesus

died upon the cross

so that we may all have forgiveness

please listen listen to our Lord please

it's not too late God loves you

he loves all of his children

come back you can't drive like that

it's real it went off before when I dropped it remember

show me the ball hole it's real

all of this is

we're being given another chance don't you see

we can make things right

all of us we can make things right

dean shh

don't say a word

I wanna remember this

I wanna remember you there

my best friend

the future mother of my unborn children

with the diseased cock in her cunt

you filthy lying whore

now keep fucking him

it's what you want isn't it

I was never enough

now keep fucking him

keep fucking him or I will fucking kill you

Richard

daddy Sunshine

oh come on

it hurts come here

I got you I got you

come in in shh

oh my God

oh my God

oh my God

oh honey

honey please

oh oh oh

it's okay sweetie

it's okay I got you huh

it's okay don't hate me dad

I don't hate you sweetie I don't hate you

I can't have it but his father's dead and up dirty

Lord Jesus forgive me

forgive me I know I'm a sinner but I've seen the way

where did you get that

where did you get that

keep fucking him or I will fucking kill you

like you mean it

moan

ah ah

tell him you love it like you used to tell me

tell him to fuck your wet pussy

fuck my wet pussy

tell him it feels so good

it feels so good louder it feels so good

hey honey

sorry about the mess

I love you too many

you just stay still huh

it's okay it's okay

daddy's going to take care of you

daddy's going to call an ambulance

he's going to get you help huh

you just shh

no

I don't want it

ah

no no

I don't I don't want it no

I don't I don't want it no

where did you get that my fiance

who he's dead

he was run over in the road and thrown away

like an animal when

when did it happen

you

tell him it feels so good

it feels so good louder

it feels so good motherfucker

so who was it

a college kid

a painter

it's pretty ironic

you look like a Picasso

Sunshine

what are you doing

Sunshine

what did you do what did you do

stay back stay back

stop it stop it

don't hurt him he's sick

I thought you said this asshole was in a wheelchair

look at this shit not even loaded

is this even real or some airsoft bullshit

what is this toy gun what are these things

Anna

I need you I need you to do something for me

I need you to do something and it's really important

okay

okay

let me in sweetie

I can help please honey

you don't have to do this alone honey

please

I you need me

I can help honey please

sometimes let him in let him in

you don't have to do this anymore I promise

I'll never see you again

I will kill you you hypochondriac fuck

funny in here I thought you already had

I'm sorry

I'm so sorry I didn't want this

did you just understand

I need you to understand I'm sorry

I never meant to hurt you

I never meant to hurt anyone

it's like

I had this image of what my life was supposed to be

or what I was supposed to be

I couldn't get there

and it's like the harder I try

the further away I got

does that make any sense yes

honey

is the baby out

is it okay

you can birth to a beautiful life

please don't do anything just please let me in

I'm sorry

I'm sorry I'm so sorry

I didn't want this please Zoe

you always wanted no this

all of this I'm sorry Dean

I'm sorry I didn't leave you sooner

I'm sorry I let you manipulate me as long as you did

I'm sorry I let you exploit me

I'm sorry I let you destroy my credit

taking care of you no

I'm sorry for believing in you when no one else did

not your doctors not your friends

not even your family

your mother told me about the institution

how you tried to kill yourself

how they had to put you away

how long have you not been taking medicine

how long have you been lying to me

to yourself to everyone

where's your chair Dean

where is it where's your ring

I pawned it months ago and you didn't even notice

someone had to pay for the medical bills

I can't go to prison

I know they're coming

aren't they

you called them right

no please no

don't

don't hurt the baby don't do something you will regret

don't please

I can help us get together

fine

stop it stop it did you use a condom

hahaha

yeah

I bet you did

you remember in the days to come

you remember that I loved

you and if you ever get sick and need a wheelchair

you'll know where to find one

cause what goes around comes around

come on

let's go

yeah Zoe

go home time

I miss you

I miss you too

we could get in the car

we could drive

we could drive someplace

far away

someplace you've never been

someplace warm

we could have a baby

hahaha

I do things better

stop it no

stop it I'm going to burn help

no stop

I'm going to burn and help

what

stop it stop it

stop it stop it stop it

Santai stop it

just

just just let me rest first for a minute okay

okay

stop it stop it

stop it

stop it

stop it

stop it stop it

what did you do stay back stay back

I love you

I love you too

stop it stop it

stop it stop it

stop it stop it stop it

I didn't mean to kill him

I swear to God I'd take it back if I could

stop it stop it

stop it

stop it stop it

the hour of judgment is upon you

upon all of us

upon time no sins will be forgotten

wait where were you tonight

before the group before the meeting

where were you where were you

I was

oh Richard no

oh God no Richard

Richard no

please someone help

oh God please no

no no

no Richard

stop please

oh God no

you have judgment

we've done this before

whoa

what was that

like I just totally brain farted

you said something

booze

yeah

yeah in the kitchen

weird huh

seats warm

did you ever

wake up and feel like you were still sleeping

every day

the only clean one I could find

might wanna try doing some dishes sometime

then we'll share

what's the rush we have our whole lives ahead of us

feel I'm lucky

hence I swallowed the bullet

tell us I lived to see another day

bang