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No dad, don't you worry.
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Honestly, I've got it. No you sit down.
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Cheeky, git.
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Take us in, it’s gonna start getting dark.
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There you go old man.
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Oi, dinner.
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My dad, by Charlie Winter.
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How old was I when I wrote this?
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Eight..
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What you doing?
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My dad by Charlie Winter.
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My dad is a fisherman.
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He goes out to sea
and then comes back again.
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His boat is big, old and red.
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But on my birthday we’re painting it
any colour I want, that's what he said.
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When he takes me out,
we have so much fun, but
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he only takes me out when it's not stormy
and there is sun, when he is fishing,
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he sings but doesn't know, it's a slow
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and sad song, full of woe.
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So that's my dad, and his name is John,
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he gets up early and not home
till the sun is gone.
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But when I'm older, that's
what I want to be,
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with him together, out on the sea.
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That is terrible.
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Yeah, well, I love it.
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So make sure you put it back up.
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We never did paint the boat.
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No, that must have been my ninth,
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That must have been what, for my ninth,
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tenth birthday?
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I said for your 10th birthday.
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We could paint the boat
whatever colour you wanted.
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We, we even went and got the paints and everything remember?
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Yeah, I think I do.
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We went to Breens garden center, made a day of it.
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We did, well remembered.
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Also, when he is fishing,
he sings but doesn't know.
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It's a slow and sad song full of woe.
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What sort of eight year old knows
what the word woe means?
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That was your mum.
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She hated that song.
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Especially when I sang it.
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Did she?
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Speaking of your mum.
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When are you going to go see her?
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I’ll go see her soon, I’ll told you.
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Just with work and everything.
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No don’t you be using work as an excuse cus it’s me that’ll get it in the neck for that.
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Shouldn’t work me so hard then.
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When's the last time you saw her?
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It’s not me she wants to see is it.
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We didn't catch much this week.
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No
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Or last week.
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Or last week.
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Why aren’t you looking at me?c
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Are we alright?
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I mean, money wise.
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Look, what’s brought this on?
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I see how much money's coming in working at the market.
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I know what a good week is, I know what a bad week is.
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We've had some bad weeks.
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Yes it's been slow,
but we're used to that this time of year.
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I was going to say,
I don't mind taking a pay cut.
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Charlie, we’re fine.
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All I'm saying is I'm eighteen now.
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You can tell me this stuff.
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You're eighteen are you?
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you a big boy now?
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You’re not eighteen for two days.
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Till then you’re still my little, baby boy.
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Fuck sake, dad.
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Oi, fucking swear at me.
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Remember market’s miles away tomorrow.
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So up early.
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Sorry for swearing.
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Yeah,
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yeah.
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I forget how easily offended
old men get.
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Get to
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Night old man.
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No, twist round.
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Just grab that end.
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Like I haven’t done this before, huh?
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Yeah but you always do it wrong don’t you.
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Ease over.
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What’s happened here?
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Was that you?
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It was like that this morning.
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It was already like that, I didn’t do that.
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That's fine
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Dad you need a new box.
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It’s falling apart.
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It does the job.
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No it doesn't, look.
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It’s older than me dad.
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that is older than me
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that's falling apart.
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Look they're all in there.
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Won’t be long.
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Nige.
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How many?
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Eight crab, twelve lobster.
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When I said I could take a handful
of what you didn't sell,
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I meant, five, ten.
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not twenty, thirty.
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Every week mate.
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Took your time.
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He was playing hard ball.
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Dad.
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Can I drive us home.
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Really?
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Not a fucking chance.
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Yeah hilarious.
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Oh dear.
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fuck, Mary, it's me.
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Mary it’s me.
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How are you?
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Good.
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Look I’m sorry for calling.
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I’ve been.
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I wasn’t sure if you...
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So, it’s Charlies birthday tomorrow
and I was thinking that
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after I finished the boat, going to the pub
and buying him his first pint.
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I was wondering
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if you maybe want to be there.
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Obviously it'd be great to see you.
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But I totally understand
if you you didn't
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Yeah well I’ll leave it with you.
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You can let me know.
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All right?
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Okay. All right. I'll.
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I'll speak to you later. Bye.
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Jez money's on the counter.
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Dad you done?
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Yeah cheers.
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Leave em, I’ll do em.
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You alright?
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yeah.
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You just offered to do the dishes.
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Something's wrong.
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It's your birthday tomorrow.
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Thought I'd be nice.
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Yeah, what d’you get me?
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Doing the dishes aren’t I..
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You dickhead.
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Oi, what about told you about
swearing at me.
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To not fucking do it.
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Exactly.
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Night.
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Night.
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You coming to work today or...
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Hysterical.
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Hey.
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I was in the shed last night, tidying up a few things
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and I found this.
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This is the knife when you were six
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and you carved into the side
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of the stern of my boat just down there.
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Daddys boat
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I remember, it’s still there.
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After I caught you, I took it away from you
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for about six months.
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You didn't shut up about this knife.
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It even got you in trouble at school.
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One Christmas.
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You wrote a letter to santa asking him for a knife.
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That was an interesting phonecall with your teacher.
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Well after that your mum suggested well
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told me
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to put this in the shed so you can find it
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and I did, I just forgot about it.
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And I saw it there last night
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and I thought
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Happy birthday.
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You got my eighteenth birthday present
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from the shed
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I love it, thanks.
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Right
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What say we eat
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And we call it a day.
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Sounds good.
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You know what else sounds good
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Pub.
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There’s Ron.
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Go and grab a seat, I’ll get us some drinks.
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Hello, stranger.
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I almost forgot what you look like.
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And, handsome as ever.
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You look like you need a drink.
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Yeah I do, make it two though.
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Two, double parking not like you.
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Charlie's eighteenth today.
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Marge, add one more to those please.
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I wasn't sure you'd make it
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Not seen you in a while.
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Today was always going to happen.
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I wasn't sure if you were gonna be here.
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Well one, I practically live here.
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He's not wrong.
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And two....
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Oi.
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and two
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I wouldn't miss Charlies
birthday for the world mate.
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Especially his eigteenth.
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You speak to Mary.
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Yeah well, I spoke to her,
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you know.
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Oh I'll get these.
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No, no I’ll get em.
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No.
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At least let me get Charlies.
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John.
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please
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let me buy my godson his first pint.
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Sure, thanks.
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Now.
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I'm not sure if the others
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have remembered
that it's Charlies birthday.
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Well they haven’t said anything, but I wasn't sure
whether or not he wanted to keep it quiet.
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No, no it's fine he won't mind.
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You sure?
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As long as you don't start singing
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Ron
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Oi oi.
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Here he fucking is.
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All right, all right.
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Let’s have it then.
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Here, how’s it you got less hair this
time than the last time I saw you.
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And you had fuck all then.
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Oh, Tucks.
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See you got back in.
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Didn't see your boat.
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Got in about an hour ago.
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Hang on.
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There it is.
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It's behind your ears.
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Fucking hysterical as always mate.
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Eh
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That’s from Ron.
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Ron.
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Ron thanks.
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Ron, thanks.
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My absolute pleasure.
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Fellas, fellas everyone got a drink.
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Urm.
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A very special day today
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Now he’s kept quiet so I'm not sure what he wants
everyone to know but
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today's our Charlie's eighteenth birthday.
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Now I know I've not done a lot right in my life, but...
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A lot of mistakes.
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But 18 years ago.
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John asked me to be Charlie's godfather.
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No matter what happens,
I'll always be there.
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John,
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thank you for inviting me
to be part of your family.
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It is, and it will always be my biggest
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and my proudest responsibility,
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although it's probably not the best night
to be talking about responsibility
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as we’re all about to get absolutely fucking hammered.
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But first.
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But first
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he's going to sing, isn't he?
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Told him not to.
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But first,
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please join me
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for Charlie
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Charlie
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Sunset and Evening Star
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and one clear call for me
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and may there be no moaning of the bar
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when I put out to see
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when I put out to sea.
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When I put out to sea.
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And may there be no moaning of the bar
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00:25:07,760 --> 00:25:12,680
when I put out to sea.
279
00:25:12,680 --> 00:25:16,760
Twilight and evening bell
280
00:25:16,760 --> 00:25:20,400
And after that the dark
281
00:25:21,240 --> 00:25:25,480
And may there be no sadness of farewell
282
00:25:27,120 --> 00:25:29,280
when I embark
283
00:25:31,560 --> 00:25:35,400
when I embark
284
00:25:36,320 --> 00:25:40,160
when I embark
285
00:25:40,640 --> 00:25:46,160
And may there be no sadness of farewell
286
00:25:46,760 --> 00:25:50,880
When I embark.
287
00:25:52,880 --> 00:25:55,960
Now let’s get fucking pissed, yes please Margaret
288
00:25:55,960 --> 00:25:59,120
Come on Margaret, you slag.
289
00:26:01,080 --> 00:26:02,320
Shit you’re heavy.
290
00:26:02,480 --> 00:26:06,400
What d’you mean, I'm carrying you?
291
00:26:06,400 --> 00:26:07,920
Oh, yeah.
292
00:26:19,800 --> 00:26:25,040
Do you know the muffin man, the muffin man,
the muffin man.
293
00:26:25,040 --> 00:26:26,880
what you singing that for?
294
00:26:26,880 --> 00:26:30,040
That was your favorite song as a kid.
295
00:26:30,040 --> 00:26:31,120
No it wasn’t.
296
00:26:31,680 --> 00:26:33,400
Well what was it then.
297
00:26:37,600 --> 00:26:39,440
What do we do with the drunken sailor.
298
00:26:39,800 --> 00:26:41,440
What do we do with the drunken sailor.
299
00:26:41,800 --> 00:26:43,440
What do we do with the drunken sailor.
300
00:26:43,800 --> 00:26:45,760
Early in the morning.
301
00:26:45,760 --> 00:26:47,400
Way hay and up she rises.
302
00:26:47,600 --> 00:26:49,320
Way hay and up she rises.
303
00:26:49,480 --> 00:26:51,040
Way hay and up she rises.
304
00:26:51,040 --> 00:26:53,560
Early in the morning.
305
00:26:57,720 --> 00:27:02,080
Oh I should definitely not have done that.
306
00:27:05,040 --> 00:27:07,200
get me to the stairs.
307
00:27:21,360 --> 00:27:23,160
How you feeling?
308
00:27:23,880 --> 00:27:25,400
Rooms spinning
309
00:27:26,360 --> 00:27:29,640
Well don’t close your eyes it’ll just make it worse.
310
00:27:31,840 --> 00:27:34,040
Hey.
311
00:27:34,520 --> 00:27:36,080
Happy birthday.
312
00:27:39,960 --> 00:27:43,320
Oi, you alright?
313
00:27:43,320 --> 00:27:45,240
Yeah.
314
00:27:48,720 --> 00:27:51,640
Let me get you some water.
315
00:28:12,000 --> 00:28:14,480
You said mum was coming?
316
00:28:17,680 --> 00:28:19,760
Well I called her.
317
00:28:20,280 --> 00:28:23,040
Told her we were gonna be there.
318
00:28:23,040 --> 00:28:26,720
But don’t think I told her what
time we were gonna be there.
319
00:28:26,880 --> 00:28:29,920
Should’ve called her today before we went out.
320
00:28:31,040 --> 00:28:33,480
She doesn't want to see me does she.
321
00:28:36,160 --> 00:28:38,040
What do you mean?
322
00:28:39,920 --> 00:28:42,480
I haven’t seen her in ages.
323
00:28:44,400 --> 00:28:48,920
Does she resent me or something for living with you
324
00:28:51,080 --> 00:28:54,240
Anytime we plan to do something.
325
00:28:54,240 --> 00:28:55,120
Something happens.
326
00:28:55,120 --> 00:28:58,680
It's just.
327
00:29:02,000 --> 00:29:04,160
Just feels like she’s forgotten me.
328
00:29:04,160 --> 00:29:07,560
What are you talking about.
329
00:29:07,560 --> 00:29:09,280
Oi.
330
00:29:09,280 --> 00:29:10,360
Hey.
331
00:29:12,000 --> 00:29:14,640
Your mum loves you.
332
00:29:16,360 --> 00:29:19,680
It's me.
333
00:29:20,920 --> 00:29:24,200
She wasn't there tonight because of me.
334
00:29:27,720 --> 00:29:29,880
Your mum has not been in that pub
335
00:29:30,440 --> 00:29:32,920
for a very long time.
336
00:29:34,560 --> 00:29:37,960
We used to go there all the time.
337
00:29:40,200 --> 00:29:42,520
We had our first date in there.
338
00:29:44,880 --> 00:29:48,200
She's not gonna want to go back
in there I shouldn't have asked it was
339
00:29:49,480 --> 00:29:51,880
stupid.
340
00:29:56,160 --> 00:29:58,560
Can I ask you something
341
00:29:59,360 --> 00:30:01,680
and I want the truth
342
00:30:04,080 --> 00:30:05,560
What happened
343
00:30:06,240 --> 00:30:07,680
Between you and mum.
344
00:30:12,240 --> 00:30:14,680
Literally feels like one day she
just left
345
00:30:14,960 --> 00:30:17,720
just took off.
346
00:30:18,680 --> 00:30:19,960
it's just
347
00:30:20,960 --> 00:30:22,680
it’s been years.
348
00:30:23,120 --> 00:30:26,760
I don't even know how long
you never talk about.
349
00:30:28,560 --> 00:30:29,320
She moved out.
350
00:30:29,320 --> 00:30:31,560
Didn't take a single thing with her.
351
00:30:31,560 --> 00:30:32,720
All her stuffs still here.
352
00:30:32,720 --> 00:30:34,760
That's not normal Dad
353
00:30:35,160 --> 00:30:36,840
I can count on one hand
the amount of times
354
00:30:36,840 --> 00:30:39,080
She’s been back here.
355
00:30:40,680 --> 00:30:43,520
So I'm just asking
356
00:30:45,720 --> 00:30:47,840
what happened.
357
00:31:01,520 --> 00:31:04,560
I don't know what you want me to say.
358
00:31:06,360 --> 00:31:07,760
Your mum and I
359
00:31:09,000 --> 00:31:10,480
years ago, just
360
00:31:12,720 --> 00:31:18,000
drifted apart, it happens.
361
00:31:19,280 --> 00:31:21,160
Dad, please.
362
00:31:21,760 --> 00:31:22,680
It was years ago.
363
00:31:22,680 --> 00:31:23,800
You were young.
364
00:31:23,800 --> 00:31:26,880
You would have remembered
it completely different
365
00:31:27,080 --> 00:31:29,280
Look, yes.
366
00:31:30,240 --> 00:31:31,800
I loved your, Mum.
367
00:31:32,880 --> 00:31:34,760
I still love your mum.
368
00:31:34,760 --> 00:31:37,840
I always will.
369
00:31:39,720 --> 00:31:44,240
What we went through.
370
00:31:45,120 --> 00:31:48,160
Couldn’t get it back.
371
00:31:49,920 --> 00:31:54,040
You just said that it felt like
she just decided to leave.
372
00:31:56,840 --> 00:31:58,040
No
373
00:31:58,680 --> 00:31:59,640
we have problems
374
00:31:59,640 --> 00:32:02,360
and we tried to fix them for two years.
375
00:32:02,360 --> 00:32:03,480
Two years
376
00:32:03,480 --> 00:32:06,040
We tried.
377
00:32:07,920 --> 00:32:09,800
but we couldn’t
378
00:32:12,560 --> 00:32:15,800
just too much.
379
00:32:15,800 --> 00:32:16,560
What was too much?
380
00:32:16,560 --> 00:32:17,160
It's just.
381
00:32:17,160 --> 00:32:20,040
Everything was too much.
382
00:32:20,760 --> 00:32:22,120
The tension,
383
00:32:22,120 --> 00:32:24,760
and strain on the relationship was
384
00:32:24,960 --> 00:32:27,920
just building up.
385
00:32:27,920 --> 00:32:28,600
It wasn't healthy.
386
00:32:28,600 --> 00:32:32,240
We had to be honest.
387
00:32:36,320 --> 00:32:40,680
So she moved out.
388
00:32:40,680 --> 00:32:43,920
She couldn't stay here.
389
00:32:43,920 --> 00:32:48,840
Too many memories.
390
00:32:51,880 --> 00:32:53,200
Why now?
391
00:32:54,360 --> 00:32:57,200
Why you asking about this now?
392
00:32:57,200 --> 00:33:02,320
I don't know dad maybe because I'm drunk
from drinking eight pints of what tasted like piss.
393
00:33:03,320 --> 00:33:05,160
I'm sorry if that sounds ungrateful.
394
00:33:05,160 --> 00:33:06,320
But what
395
00:33:10,480 --> 00:33:11,560
It’s stupid.
396
00:33:11,560 --> 00:33:14,520
No, what is it?
397
00:33:17,160 --> 00:33:18,000
Not once tonight.
398
00:33:18,000 --> 00:33:20,040
Did you ask me
if I actually liked what I was drinking?
399
00:33:20,360 --> 00:33:22,240
I know it's silly,
but you never ask me what I want.
400
00:33:23,320 --> 00:33:25,320
Well if you didn’t like it you should have said something.
401
00:33:25,320 --> 00:33:27,600
It’s not just the drink, it’s everything.
402
00:33:27,600 --> 00:33:29,600
It's here. It's work.
403
00:33:29,600 --> 00:33:30,960
I feel like it's the only place I go.
404
00:33:30,960 --> 00:33:31,560
I just.
405
00:33:31,840 --> 00:33:35,040
I feel trapped.
406
00:33:36,480 --> 00:33:38,520
Not once have you ever asked me
what I want in life.
407
00:33:38,880 --> 00:33:39,640
Have you?
408
00:33:40,560 --> 00:33:43,400
What do I want to do?
409
00:33:44,080 --> 00:33:46,680
You just assume
that I'm going to be with you here.
410
00:33:46,720 --> 00:33:48,960
And that's it.
411
00:33:50,400 --> 00:33:52,400
What do you mean?
412
00:33:54,080 --> 00:33:56,760
What are you going to do
if I'm not hear anymore?
413
00:33:59,200 --> 00:34:00,880
What you want dad?
414
00:34:01,560 --> 00:34:03,640
We can't do this forever.
415
00:34:03,880 --> 00:34:04,920
We’re struggling as it is
416
00:34:04,920 --> 00:34:06,080
You’re gonna have to let me go at some point.
417
00:34:06,080 --> 00:34:08,960
No, where's this come from?
418
00:34:08,960 --> 00:34:11,320
Yeah, you're right.
419
00:34:11,320 --> 00:34:13,640
Everyday is the same.
420
00:34:13,640 --> 00:34:15,440
I get to go fishing with my son.
421
00:34:15,440 --> 00:34:17,920
And it is fucking paradise.
422
00:34:17,920 --> 00:34:19,400
It's everything I want.
423
00:34:19,400 --> 00:34:20,720
There you go. Everything you want.
424
00:34:23,040 --> 00:34:25,000
So what do you want?
425
00:34:30,960 --> 00:34:32,960
You need to tell me or I
426
00:34:32,960 --> 00:34:35,520
I can't do anything about it.
427
00:34:35,520 --> 00:34:39,120
You're right. We, we have our up and down days.
428
00:34:39,120 --> 00:34:44,080
But you know what gets me
through those down days? You.
429
00:34:45,240 --> 00:34:48,440
The fact is, every day
I get to go to sea with my son,
430
00:34:48,440 --> 00:34:52,600
and that is everything.
431
00:34:54,960 --> 00:34:58,440
But what I'm hearing is that you don’t feel the same.
432
00:34:59,400 --> 00:35:01,240
What about the poem?
433
00:35:02,760 --> 00:35:03,400
every morning.
434
00:35:03,400 --> 00:35:05,080
I read that before I go to work.
435
00:35:05,080 --> 00:35:10,880
I know every verse, every line,
every word,
436
00:35:10,880 --> 00:35:13,200
and that final verse
437
00:35:15,040 --> 00:35:16,680
But when I'm older.
438
00:35:16,880 --> 00:35:19,040
That's why I want to be
439
00:35:19,520 --> 00:35:20,640
with him
440
00:35:21,520 --> 00:35:23,840
together.
441
00:35:23,840 --> 00:35:26,240
Out on the sea.
442
00:35:27,520 --> 00:35:30,520
We’re doing it.
443
00:35:31,240 --> 00:35:35,880
Dad, I wrote that when I was eight years old.
444
00:35:39,200 --> 00:35:44,640
So what are you saying?
445
00:35:44,640 --> 00:35:47,160
Dad, I love what we do,
446
00:35:48,120 --> 00:35:50,480
I love fishing
and I love doing it with you.
447
00:35:50,480 --> 00:35:51,480
But.
448
00:36:01,520 --> 00:36:04,440
I need to go to bed.
449
00:36:04,440 --> 00:36:08,360
Charlie.
450
00:38:03,960 --> 00:38:06,480
Thought I’d come down and give it a once over.
451
00:38:07,080 --> 00:38:09,840
Don't you dare.
452
00:38:12,120 --> 00:38:14,640
You did go absolutely mental though.
453
00:38:15,080 --> 00:38:17,080
I did.
454
00:38:19,080 --> 00:38:21,200
How’s your head?
455
00:38:21,600 --> 00:38:23,640
Yeah, fine.
456
00:38:24,720 --> 00:38:26,920
There was a time
I was going to rename her Daddy's boat.
457
00:38:26,920 --> 00:38:28,960
But your mum wouldn’t
458
00:38:32,840 --> 00:38:35,960
say daddy’s boat didn't really sit
well with her
459
00:38:41,080 --> 00:38:43,320
I am sorry about last night.
460
00:38:43,320 --> 00:38:49,680
No don’t, you made a lot of sense.
461
00:38:55,200 --> 00:38:59,800
So going out without me.
462
00:38:59,800 --> 00:39:03,000
Just gonna go out and check a couple of pots, nothing much.
463
00:39:04,440 --> 00:39:06,120
Thought you might be feeling rough.
464
00:39:06,120 --> 00:39:10,680
Thought I’d let you sleep it off.
465
00:39:10,680 --> 00:39:12,880
But now you’re here, do you actually want to do some work?
466
00:39:12,880 --> 00:39:14,200
Oh, here we go.
467
00:39:14,200 --> 00:39:16,360
Slave driving already?
468
00:39:16,360 --> 00:39:20,120
Seriously though, go and unhook the winch.
469
00:40:10,760 --> 00:40:13,680
I’ll go set up the winch.
470
00:40:23,600 --> 00:40:24,360
John?
471
00:40:30,080 --> 00:40:35,480
Mary.
472
00:40:35,480 --> 00:40:36,240
She's looking good.
473
00:40:37,560 --> 00:40:41,440
Yeah, she still floats.
474
00:40:45,840 --> 00:40:49,400
I'm sorry I didn't come last night.
475
00:40:51,360 --> 00:40:53,520
Yeah, it was good.
476
00:40:55,080 --> 00:40:58,360
The fellas were all there.
477
00:40:58,360 --> 00:41:04,040
you know, it was good.
478
00:41:04,040 --> 00:41:09,800
That's actually why I want you
to come down and see you. Wanted to talk.
479
00:41:09,800 --> 00:41:13,120
I bumped into Ron earlier, and
480
00:41:13,120 --> 00:41:15,920
he said he hadn't seen you in a while and
481
00:41:15,920 --> 00:41:18,120
you weren't quite yourself.
482
00:41:18,120 --> 00:41:21,600
A bit strange.
483
00:41:21,600 --> 00:41:24,000
Yeah, well,
we haven't seen each other in a while.
484
00:41:24,680 --> 00:41:26,120
It was a bit strange
485
00:41:26,600 --> 00:41:27,960
or distant.
486
00:41:27,960 --> 00:41:30,560
Withdrawn, he said.
487
00:41:30,560 --> 00:41:35,520
You kept going off and talking to Charlie.
488
00:41:35,520 --> 00:41:37,640
Well,
I've noticed it myself for a while now.
489
00:41:39,000 --> 00:41:42,240
But I didn’t think it was...
490
00:41:46,280 --> 00:41:46,760
I never thought
491
00:41:46,760 --> 00:41:51,680
I'd be having this conversation
with you again.
492
00:41:53,840 --> 00:41:56,880
You were always the strong one.
493
00:41:56,880 --> 00:41:58,640
What we went through,
494
00:41:59,400 --> 00:42:04,840
you were the one that got me through it.
495
00:42:04,840 --> 00:42:12,560
It's been nearly eight years.
496
00:42:12,560 --> 00:42:18,320
John, I'm
so sorry to ask you this but, Charlie.
497
00:42:19,480 --> 00:42:21,080
What happened to him?
498
00:42:24,760 --> 00:42:28,480
John?
499
00:42:28,480 --> 00:42:31,600
Where's Charlie?
500
00:42:43,680 --> 00:42:46,640
He’s right there, Mary.
501
00:42:46,640 --> 00:42:51,680
He’s by the boat.
502
00:42:53,280 --> 00:42:54,720
No, John.
503
00:42:56,880 --> 00:42:58,480
I can see him, Mary.
504
00:42:59,200 --> 00:43:03,000
He’s right there.
505
00:43:03,000 --> 00:43:05,160
He’s beautiful.
506
00:43:05,280 --> 00:43:05,520
No, John.
507
00:43:07,680 --> 00:43:09,920
Our son Charlie
508
00:43:11,080 --> 00:43:13,440
died.
509
00:43:13,440 --> 00:43:16,080
Charlie died almost
510
00:43:16,080 --> 00:43:20,080
eight years ago.
511
00:43:20,080 --> 00:43:20,800
Mary,
512
00:43:21,480 --> 00:43:32,720
please.
513
00:43:32,720 --> 00:43:33,800
He's gone.
514
00:43:35,720 --> 00:43:35,960
He's gone.
515
00:43:43,280 --> 00:43:45,120
He never left for me, Mary.
516
00:43:48,800 --> 00:43:49,920
I never let him.
517
00:43:52,040 --> 00:43:54,320
He’s always been here.
518
00:43:57,800 --> 00:43:58,280
Yeah,
519
00:43:59,680 --> 00:44:01,640
how do you do it?
520
00:44:03,360 --> 00:44:04,640
I haven't.
521
00:44:06,080 --> 00:44:09,480
I've learned to live with it.
522
00:44:09,480 --> 00:44:15,840
Bu, there will always be a huge hole
that can't be filled.
523
00:44:15,840 --> 00:44:17,960
And that's the tough part.
524
00:44:18,720 --> 00:44:21,200
It's realizing that
525
00:44:21,200 --> 00:44:25,600
and understanding it.
526
00:44:26,360 --> 00:44:29,520
I'm so sorry.
527
00:44:32,720 --> 00:44:36,720
Let me help you.
528
00:44:36,720 --> 00:44:39,640
You still trust me?
529
00:44:39,640 --> 00:44:42,760
Of course.
530
00:44:42,760 --> 00:44:43,760
Always.
531
00:44:48,080 --> 00:44:49,280
Next week,
532
00:44:50,280 --> 00:44:51,760
I'm taking you to the same place
533
00:44:51,760 --> 00:44:54,640
that I went to for three years.
534
00:44:54,640 --> 00:44:55,320
It's a meeting
535
00:44:55,320 --> 00:44:58,920
with a group of people that have all been
through something similar to us.
536
00:45:00,240 --> 00:45:01,920
But you have to talk like we're doing now, okay?
537
00:45:01,920 --> 00:45:03,680
Mary.
538
00:45:03,680 --> 00:45:05,840
Oh no, promise me John.
539
00:45:05,840 --> 00:45:08,200
Please.
540
00:45:08,200 --> 00:45:11,240
You deserve this closure.
541
00:45:11,360 --> 00:45:15,000
We deserve this closure.
542
00:45:15,000 --> 00:45:21,280
And so does Charlie.
543
00:45:26,040 --> 00:45:28,960
I’ll be right there with you.
544
00:46:32,880 --> 00:46:35,680
So next I'd like to welcome a new face.
545
00:46:35,680 --> 00:46:38,120
This is John.
546
00:46:38,400 --> 00:46:39,600
See you don't have to.
547
00:46:39,600 --> 00:46:42,280
John, but if you want to,
you could stand up and come and tell us
548
00:46:42,280 --> 00:46:46,680
a little bit about yourself, that’ll be good.
549
00:46:51,560 --> 00:46:55,760
Uhh hi, urm
550
00:46:56,680 --> 00:46:57,720
my name's John.
551
00:46:57,720 --> 00:47:01,200
This is my first time here.
552
00:47:03,040 --> 00:47:04,520
My wife,
553
00:47:04,960 --> 00:47:08,720
Ex-wife sorry, recommended that I come.
554
00:47:10,160 --> 00:47:11,920
Yeah, it was a
555
00:47:13,440 --> 00:47:16,840
It was really tough coming through those doors.
556
00:47:17,280 --> 00:47:19,560
She actually had to push me in the end.
557
00:47:23,480 --> 00:47:26,560
I don't really know what to expect.
558
00:47:27,280 --> 00:47:30,400
I don’t really know what you want me to say?
559
00:47:31,800 --> 00:47:34,240
So what others have found helpful in past is
560
00:47:34,240 --> 00:47:37,160
That I’ve asked them questions
to kind of start them off.
561
00:47:37,160 --> 00:47:40,480
And then we can maybe get to understand
you and your story a bit better.
562
00:47:42,480 --> 00:47:46,360
Yeah, sure, sure.
563
00:47:46,360 --> 00:47:48,920
So I'll start by saying that
564
00:47:48,920 --> 00:47:51,640
everyone's here because we all experience
something that no parent
565
00:47:51,640 --> 00:47:57,480
should experience, a loss of a child.
566
00:47:57,480 --> 00:48:00,360
It's a cliche and I hate saying it, but
567
00:48:01,200 --> 00:48:03,240
this is a safe space,
568
00:48:03,240 --> 00:48:06,080
a place for you to share,
but only what you're comfortable sharing.
569
00:48:07,280 --> 00:48:09,600
Feel free to stop
and sit down at any time.
570
00:48:10,480 --> 00:48:14,200
Okay, thanks.
571
00:48:14,200 --> 00:48:17,320
So what was the name of your child?
572
00:48:18,320 --> 00:48:21,080
Uh. Sorry.
573
00:48:21,320 --> 00:48:23,600
I know it must be strange.
574
00:48:25,000 --> 00:48:28,120
It's fine.
575
00:48:28,120 --> 00:48:30,960
Charlie.
576
00:48:30,960 --> 00:48:32,760
Charlie,
577
00:48:32,760 --> 00:48:36,080
it's a lovely name.
578
00:48:36,080 --> 00:48:39,800
And how long ago did you lose Charlie?
579
00:48:42,400 --> 00:48:45,840
Eight years.
580
00:48:45,840 --> 00:48:48,480
It’s almost eight years. Eight years.
581
00:48:48,480 --> 00:48:51,480
Next month, December.
582
00:48:52,160 --> 00:48:56,880
And what age were they
when they passed away?
583
00:48:56,880 --> 00:49:00,960
Ten, ten years old.
584
00:49:02,280 --> 00:49:07,040
He was eighteen last week.
585
00:49:07,040 --> 00:49:10,240
And John, if you're comfortable,
586
00:49:10,880 --> 00:49:13,600
could you tell us what happened,
587
00:49:13,600 --> 00:49:14,960
how Charlie passed away?
588
00:49:14,960 --> 00:49:16,560
I don't know if I
589
00:49:19,840 --> 00:49:22,200
just have only
590
00:49:22,600 --> 00:49:23,920
Talked about it.
591
00:49:24,280 --> 00:49:26,280
What one person? Mary
592
00:49:28,080 --> 00:49:30,640
And that was five, six years ago.
593
00:49:31,000 --> 00:49:33,960
John that's completely understandable.
594
00:49:33,960 --> 00:49:36,280
Most people don't manage to discuss
and explain
595
00:49:36,280 --> 00:49:39,600
their experience in the first session.
596
00:49:39,880 --> 00:49:40,600
The main thing
597
00:49:40,600 --> 00:49:43,960
I want you to take from today is that
598
00:49:44,840 --> 00:49:47,200
I know you might feel alone in this.
599
00:49:48,600 --> 00:49:49,440
You feel
600
00:49:50,120 --> 00:49:52,600
distant and separated from the world,
601
00:49:53,080 --> 00:49:54,360
but you're not
602
00:49:55,280 --> 00:49:58,560
you're not alone.
603
00:49:58,560 --> 00:50:00,840
Everyone in this room has their own story,
604
00:50:02,280 --> 00:50:05,040
their own traumatic experience
605
00:50:05,040 --> 00:50:07,920
that they've been through.
606
00:50:07,920 --> 00:50:11,440
And I'm not going to sit here
and say that we understand how you feel,
607
00:50:12,280 --> 00:50:14,080
because we don't
608
00:50:14,840 --> 00:50:17,520
none of us do.
609
00:50:17,520 --> 00:50:21,120
Everyone is different
and we all experience
610
00:50:21,120 --> 00:50:25,560
and deal with grief in our own unique way.
611
00:50:25,560 --> 00:50:27,920
No one will ever understand
you or how you feel
612
00:50:29,640 --> 00:50:32,920
But you you can help us try and understand,
613
00:50:34,640 --> 00:50:38,360
but only if and when you're ready.
614
00:50:50,320 --> 00:50:55,240
I still love my wife.
615
00:50:55,240 --> 00:50:57,000
I haven't stopped loving her.
616
00:50:57,000 --> 00:51:00,600
I always will.
617
00:51:03,600 --> 00:51:06,360
But it's not the same.
618
00:51:07,560 --> 00:51:09,240
How can it be after that?
619
00:51:10,680 --> 00:51:12,280
even the little things
620
00:51:13,240 --> 00:51:15,360
waking up in the morning,
going downstairs,
621
00:51:15,360 --> 00:51:17,080
making a cup of tea
622
00:51:18,000 --> 00:51:20,040
just wasn't the same as our little boy.
623
00:51:20,040 --> 00:51:23,480
Wasn't there any more.
624
00:51:26,600 --> 00:51:28,680
It’s not the fault of either person.
625
00:51:30,080 --> 00:51:32,480
How can two people go through so much
626
00:51:33,000 --> 00:51:36,560
create the most beautiful thing in the world,
627
00:51:36,560 --> 00:51:39,520
Make memories that will last a lifetime
and then
628
00:51:40,640 --> 00:51:43,000
Like that
629
00:51:43,000 --> 00:51:45,040
Gone
630
00:51:46,600 --> 00:51:48,960
But they haven't really gone have they.
631
00:51:50,880 --> 00:51:53,880
That love
632
00:51:53,880 --> 00:51:57,760
that turns into pain.
633
00:51:57,760 --> 00:52:01,080
Those memories that would last a lifetime
634
00:52:01,760 --> 00:52:06,720
Apart of you wishes, they didn't even exist.
635
00:52:06,720 --> 00:52:09,080
Because when you think about them,
636
00:52:09,480 --> 00:52:12,960
It makes you realise what isn't there anymore.
637
00:52:12,960 --> 00:52:16,960
And what isn’t there anymore
was the most beautiful thing in the world?
638
00:52:16,960 --> 00:52:21,880
Our son Charlie.
639
00:52:21,880 --> 00:52:24,720
How can two people go through that
640
00:52:24,720 --> 00:52:28,040
and live normally?
641
00:52:30,000 --> 00:52:32,960
Our son Charlie
642
00:52:32,960 --> 00:52:36,200
passed away eight years ago at sea.
643
00:52:40,320 --> 00:52:42,960
I'm a fisherman.
644
00:52:42,960 --> 00:52:46,320
We have our boat.
645
00:52:46,320 --> 00:52:48,880
I didn't take him out much
646
00:52:48,880 --> 00:52:51,960
But one weekend I did take him out
647
00:52:51,960 --> 00:52:54,000
was a normal day, I never took him out
648
00:52:54,000 --> 00:52:57,360
when the weather was bad, it wasn't bad.
649
00:52:58,320 --> 00:53:01,280
I just.
650
00:53:03,960 --> 00:53:07,160
It was my fault.
651
00:53:07,560 --> 00:53:10,560
It was my fault.
652
00:53:13,440 --> 00:53:16,880
The worst thing somebody can say to me
653
00:53:16,880 --> 00:53:21,840
is, it wasn't your fault.
654
00:53:21,840 --> 00:53:27,000
It was an accident.
655
00:53:27,000 --> 00:53:31,200
It was my fault.
656
00:53:33,680 --> 00:53:36,560
We were out fishing.
657
00:53:36,560 --> 00:53:40,080
Nothing dangerous.
658
00:53:40,080 --> 00:53:43,200
And he got his line stuck.
659
00:53:47,920 --> 00:53:51,040
Dad, my rods stuck
660
00:53:51,120 --> 00:53:53,760
What?
661
00:53:53,760 --> 00:53:55,640
Dad
662
00:53:55,640 --> 00:53:58,760
Charlie don’t cast off yet.
663
00:54:02,880 --> 00:54:05,280
He didn't respond.
664
00:54:05,280 --> 00:54:08,800
I didn't hear anything.
665
00:54:08,800 --> 00:54:11,160
So I went out on deck
666
00:54:14,040 --> 00:54:18,120
Charlie, Charlie,
667
00:54:20,200 --> 00:54:21,560
Charlie
668
00:54:22,280 --> 00:54:23,640
Charlie
669
00:54:25,000 --> 00:54:26,360
Charlie
670
00:54:31,600 --> 00:54:34,000
May day, may day, this is the Hutchison
671
00:54:34,000 --> 00:54:36,200
I need immediate coastguard response
672
00:54:36,200 --> 00:54:38,600
Child over board, I repeat child over board
673
00:54:39,880 --> 00:54:41,160
May day, may day, this is the Hutchison
674
00:54:41,160 --> 00:54:45,360
May day received, this is coastguard what is your location?
675
00:54:46,800 --> 00:54:55,000
49.600 North, 59.23 West. Hurry.
676
00:54:56,880 --> 00:54:59,560
He was gone.
677
00:55:01,280 --> 00:55:05,920
So when people say to me,
it wasn't your fault,
678
00:55:05,920 --> 00:55:11,200
I don't know what the fuck they're talking about.
679
00:55:13,840 --> 00:55:17,880
and he was never found.
680
00:55:19,440 --> 00:55:23,560
We couldn't even say goodbye to him properly.
681
00:55:25,360 --> 00:55:27,040
And I have taken that from you.
682
00:55:27,040 --> 00:55:28,200
Mary, I'm sorry.
683
00:55:28,200 --> 00:55:33,200
I am so sorry.
684
00:55:33,200 --> 00:55:40,040
And now all we have to remember him
by is a fucking bench.
685
00:55:44,400 --> 00:55:48,040
So I remembered in my own way.
686
00:55:53,200 --> 00:55:56,400
For the past eight years,
Charlie has stayed
687
00:55:56,400 --> 00:55:59,120
with me.
688
00:55:59,120 --> 00:56:02,480
He's been by my side throughout
689
00:56:03,720 --> 00:56:07,920
since he was ten.
690
00:56:07,920 --> 00:56:10,840
He's been with me the entire time
691
00:56:11,120 --> 00:56:12,360
I've lived with him.
692
00:56:13,440 --> 00:56:14,760
Talk to him,
693
00:56:15,280 --> 00:56:17,240
played with him, woke him up.
694
00:56:17,240 --> 00:56:20,120
Taught him,
695
00:56:20,120 --> 00:56:25,920
argued with him, it became real,
696
00:56:25,920 --> 00:56:30,200
It was real.
697
00:56:30,200 --> 00:56:35,040
It’s been eight years it's been my way of coping.
698
00:56:36,840 --> 00:56:39,800
And now he's eighteen.
699
00:56:40,760 --> 00:56:43,560
Last week we argued
700
00:56:44,640 --> 00:56:46,840
he was trying to tell me
701
00:56:46,840 --> 00:56:49,600
That I couldn't keep him there forever.
702
00:56:49,600 --> 00:56:54,960
I didn't know what he meant at the time.
703
00:56:54,960 --> 00:56:58,200
Now I do.
704
00:56:59,640 --> 00:57:05,000
I promise to let you go.
705
00:57:20,760 --> 00:57:23,040
It's a poem
706
00:57:24,640 --> 00:57:27,160
Charlie wrote tit when he was eight.
707
00:57:27,280 --> 00:57:30,880
It's about me.
708
00:57:30,880 --> 00:57:37,560
It’s called ‘My Dad’, he wrote it for school.
709
00:57:38,400 --> 00:57:42,000
I have it up on my wall next to the front door.
710
00:57:42,000 --> 00:57:46,680
I read it every morning
before I go to work.
711
00:57:48,920 --> 00:57:52,640
You know what
712
00:57:52,640 --> 00:57:57,240
I think he’d really appreciate it
if I read it to you all right now.
713
00:58:01,360 --> 00:58:03,560
Is that all right?
714
00:58:03,560 --> 00:58:09,440
Of course.
715
00:58:14,280 --> 00:58:16,360
My Dad by Charlie Winter.
716
00:58:17,560 --> 00:58:19,680
I have to say it like that.
717
00:58:19,680 --> 00:58:22,320
Whenever Charlie read it,
he always said the full title
718
00:58:22,320 --> 00:58:24,520
and his name
719
00:58:29,520 --> 00:58:30,600
My Dad
720
00:58:31,040 --> 00:58:35,160
by Charlie Winter.
721
00:58:35,160 --> 00:58:38,000
My dad's a fisherman.
722
00:58:38,000 --> 00:58:39,800
He goes out to sea
723
00:58:39,800 --> 00:58:43,960
and then comes back again.
724
00:58:43,960 --> 00:58:46,560
His boat is big, old and red,
725
00:58:47,520 --> 00:58:49,080
but on my birthday
726
00:58:49,080 --> 00:58:51,360
we're painting it any colour I want.
727
00:58:51,360 --> 00:58:54,120
That's what he said
728
00:58:55,560 --> 00:58:57,400
when he takes me out.
729
00:58:58,040 --> 00:59:01,320
We have so much fun.
730
00:59:01,320 --> 00:59:03,960
But he only takes me out when it's not stormy
731
00:59:04,680 --> 00:59:08,600
and there is sun
732
00:59:08,600 --> 00:59:11,160
When he is fishing, he sings but
733
00:59:11,160 --> 00:59:13,680
doesn't know.
734
00:59:13,680 --> 00:59:16,440
It's a slow and sad song.
735
00:59:16,440 --> 00:59:20,600
Full of woe.
736
00:59:20,600 --> 00:59:22,760
He talks about the sea
737
00:59:23,040 --> 00:59:24,720
and calls it her,
738
00:59:25,320 --> 00:59:27,000
but mum says that's fine
739
00:59:27,000 --> 00:59:32,120
so it doesn't cause a stir.
740
00:59:32,120 --> 00:59:33,840
So that's my dad.
741
00:59:34,520 --> 00:59:36,200
And his name is John.
742
00:59:37,120 --> 00:59:38,920
He gets up early
743
00:59:39,080 --> 00:59:44,320
and not home, till the sun has gone
744
00:59:44,320 --> 00:59:49,800
But when I'm older.
745
00:59:53,160 --> 00:59:58,640
But when I'm older, that's what I want to be.
746
00:59:59,600 --> 01:00:01,440
With him.
747
01:00:01,440 --> 01:00:03,920
Together.
748
01:00:03,920 --> 01:00:08,640
Out on the sea.
749
01:00:14,480 --> 01:00:18,000
What colour did he choose?
750
01:00:18,960 --> 01:00:20,560
sorry in the
751
01:00:20,880 --> 01:00:22,720
in the poem Charlie said
he was going to paint the boat
752
01:00:22,720 --> 01:00:24,400
any colour he wanted.
753
01:00:25,440 --> 01:00:29,440
What colour did he choose?
754
01:04:10,920 --> 01:04:15,760
Blue.
755
01:04:15,760 --> 01:04:19,360
He chose Blue.
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