Afrikaans
Akan
Albanian
Amharic
Armenian
Azerbaijani
Basque
Belarusian
Bemba
Bengali
Bihari
Bosnian
Breton
Bulgarian
Cambodian
Catalan
Cebuano
Cherokee
Chichewa
Chinese (Simplified)
Chinese (Traditional)
Corsican
Croatian
Czech
Danish
Dutch
English
Esperanto
Estonian
Ewe
Faroese
Filipino
Finnish
French
Frisian
Ga
Galician
Georgian
German
Greek
Guarani
Gujarati
Haitian Creole
Hausa
Hawaiian
Hebrew
Hindi
Hmong
Hungarian
Icelandic
Igbo
Indonesian
Interlingua
Irish
Italian
Japanese
Javanese
Kannada
Kazakh
Kinyarwanda
Kirundi
Kongo
Korean
Krio (Sierra Leone)
Kurdish
Kurdish (Soranรฎ)
Kyrgyz
Laothian
Latin
Latvian
Lingala
Lithuanian
Lozi
Luganda
Luo
Luxembourgish
Macedonian
Malagasy
Malay
Malayalam
Maltese
Maori
Marathi
Mauritian Creole
Moldavian
Mongolian
Myanmar (Burmese)
Montenegrin
Nepali
Nigerian Pidgin
Northern Sotho
Norwegian
Norwegian (Nynorsk)
Occitan
Oriya
Oromo
Pashto
Persian
Polish
Portuguese (Brazil)
Portuguese (Portugal)
Punjabi
Quechua
Romanian
Romansh
Runyakitara
Russian
Samoan
Scots Gaelic
Serbian
Serbo-Croatian
Sesotho
Setswana
Seychellois Creole
Shona
Sindhi
Sinhalese
Slovak
Slovenian
Somali
Spanish
Spanish (Latin American)
Sundanese
Swahili
Swedish
Tajik
Tamil
Tatar
Telugu
Thai
Tigrinya
Tonga
Tshiluba
Tumbuka
Turkish
Turkmen
Twi
Uighur
Ukrainian
Urdu
Uzbek
Vietnamese
Welsh
Wolof
Xhosa
Yiddish
Yoruba
Zulu
It was July 18th, 1969
It was early in the morning, about 5:30 am
It was a beautiful day to fly
No wind to speak of
So how could it be better?
We start up the engines
We were full of fuel
Everything was fine
And we started taxiing
And then sure enough,
the aircraft started to climb
Chuck brought the landing gear up
We were accelerating and climbing
above the runway,
and I think we were about
100 feet above the ground when I started noticing
that something was wrong
You have one engine at higher rpm
another low rpm
Now that can happen with an engine failure
And I mean, I grabbed the chairs
and held on and looked out
and I saw a bunch of green grass
and it looked like a city park
And I thought, well, worst case scenario,
we've always been trained to just land in a park
But the next thing I noticed was
towering trees were filling our windshield
Chuck grabbed the flight controls
and he yanks them all the way left
As far as they'll go
And then he pulls them all the way back
against his chest
I suddenly found myself
above the crash site,
but unaware
of what I was looking at or why
I was not in any pain
I was not in any fear or discomfort
I was just above this crash site
I could see an airplane and I could see a pilot
First of all, my eyes went right to one pilot
This was Gene
And then I went over and I saw another pilot
right next to him five feet away
And I recognized this as Chuck
And while I'm processing what I'm looking at
I see a third pilot also about five feet away
And this is me
Imagine if what we're living here on this
earth is really being lived on a flat, black
and white painting on a wall,
and death is separation
So when we die, our
spirit separates from our physical body
You die and you're ripped off
that flat, black and white
two-dimensional painting
your brought out into a three-dimensional room
of color all around you
You're experiencing things
you've never experienced before,
even though you can see your world
is contained within this world,
then imagine you're put back into
that flat, black and white painting,
and you have to describe
three dimensions of color
in two-dimensional black and white terms
How would you do it?
Medically,
Scientifically,
the point of death
cannot be defined
What we do know is there is a process of dying
during which I feel the
near-death experience occurs
75% of the people in that first study
have had a documented cardiac arrest
Part of the experience is they
said they floated up out of their body
and they can see what was going on
during the resuscitation
I felt that myself, as a cardiologist
could pick that apart
This is clinical death as we know it,
sometimes for a few minutes,
sometimes 30 minutes, sometimes hours
And yet modern medicine or the miraculous,
I don't know,
resuscitated them
and they were able to come back
and talk about it
You may think you've died
All definitions, medically,
scientifically, and legally
state that once you go across that red line,
ie you die,
you don't come back
And I like to say doctors resuscitate,
not resurrect their patients
I was actually an agnostic
I didn't know if I believed there was a God
I thought, I don't know if I believe
there's a heaven or not,
but my dad was dying of cancer
and someone gave him the very first research
on what's now called near-death experiences
And I saw it on his nightstand,
picked it up and read it in one night
And that just got me curious
So I kind of opened my my eyes, my mind,
and I started to explore from there
I found it fascinating,
kind of, the train of how this
whole near-death experience phenomenon
started to get traction in America
Dr George Ritchie was the first one
to really talk publicly about this
He was actually at Camp Barkeley
getting ready to go fight in World War II
What happened during those 9 minutes?
What did you see? What happened?
I met the Christ
because I was told to stand up, you are
in the presence of the Son of God
He came into my room
and he conducted me through four different
realms of life after death
Life really is forever We don't die
Death is nothing more than just a gateway
through which we go
Dr Moody actually heard him lecture
at the University of Virginia,
where he was a visiting professor
and heard him talk about
this near-death experience
In 1969,
I became a professor of philosophy
at East Carolina University
and in teaching courses on Plato
I began to hear these
experiences from my students
and also from other faculty members
I was brought into this
field kicking and screaming
I was at the University of Florida in Gainesville
with Sarah Kreissinger
who was a psychiatric, social worker
at the hospital I was working at
And she had picked up
Raymond Moody's book Life After Life,
about two months
after it was initially published
She read it She gave it to me
She asked me what I thought
This is Dr Raymond Moody,
noted psychiatrist, lecturer, and researcher
He is perhaps best known as the author
of the groundbreaking examination
of the near-death experience
The bestselling book, Life After Life
It has sold upwards of 15 million copies,
and has been printed in 14 different languages
They tell us, first of all,
that they seem, from their point of view,
to leave their physical bodies
to float up above the scene of the resuscitation
and to watch the events going on down below
They tell us that they go
through a narrow passageway or a tunnel
into an incredibly brilliant
and warm and loving light
Hogwash
I never heard these experiences before
I went into the hospital
asking some of the older physicians,
"Hey, you ever heard a patient say this?"
"No"
So I was very skeptical
that these things were even occurring
And if they were occurring,
they were either hallucinations
or delusions or whatever
In cardiology, we're about scientific studies
So I asked a few people
who had been resuscitated,
and the third patient
I talked to had an experience
similar to what Moody talked
about in his book, Life After Life
So, Sarah and I said,
Well, maybe we ought to look into this further
We devised a scientific protocol
to interview these people
We tape recorded the interviews
We took down their background data,
the demographics, etc And
this went on for five years
First of all, I'd get permission
to tape record it and then say,
okay, go
These people say,
"I've never told anybody about this, doc
And by the way, I'm the only one
that's ever had this"
So the near-death experience at that time,
and that's about 45 years ago was not well known
And so these people were sort of
coming up with it on their own,
and they were suspicious of me asking the questions,
which to me
lent credibility to what they were telling me
Many of them said, for example,
that they had tried to tell their doctor about it
or a minister about it and that they were dismissed
And in those initial years,
the people that I talked with were just very happy
that at last somebody would listen to them
I started at Northern Kentucky University
in 1972
I was hired as an assistant professor and I was
offered a promotion to full professor
at the age of 25, and I was also given tenure
my third year
Seven students, myself
and my wife
toured Amsterdam
and then went up to Denmark
Spent a few days there, went to Sweden for a day
And last week, it was a three week trip,
and our last week, was a week in Paris
It was an art tour, it was, pretty much all museums
On that Saturday morning,
June 1, 1985,
and I had the most acute
pain I'd ever experienced in my life
in the center of my abdomen Right there
It was terrifying because it
it just came from nowhere
And I never experienced such acute pain
I mean, this was like
the kind of pain that blows
the top of your head off
A doctor came very quickly,
got me up off the floor,
with a great deal of difficulty because
I couldn't move
He knew exactly what was wrong
and told me that I had a perforation
of the duodenum
Which means I had a hole
go through my small stomach
What was happening was the hydrochloric acid
and the enzymes
and the bacteria in everything
are now migrating, leaking
into my abdominal cavity
To put it in crude terms
I was digesting myself, on the inside
Without exaggeration,
what it felt like was fire
my wife riding alongside me
in the back of the ambulance
as we traveled 70, 80 miles an hour
through the streets of Paris to the big
city hospital
they confirmed basically,
if I didn't have the surgery in an hour,
I would die
So they sent me to the surgical hospital
And because it was the weekend,
there was no doctor available
No surgeon available at the hospital
they sent me to So I was put in a room
I begged, I screamed,
I yelled,
and my wife begged
and yelled and screamed,
Nurse, can someone please come in here?
Sorry
We need a doctor to prescribe something
Can you please talk to someone who can help us?
There has to be somebody,
how can there not be someone here?
There I was for 10 hours
About once an hour, the nurse would come in
and ask how I was doing, and I would tell her in
French and English that I was dying and
shrug their shoulders and walk away
I wasn't in fear
I was in terror
Because I was 38 years old, very successful
in my career at the university,
you know, wife and two kids, nice house, two cars
The thing that kept going through
my mind is this can't be happening
This can't be happening This can't be happening
People ask me,
How do you know you were dying?
It's like the stupidest question in the world
when you're dying, you know it
with every breath
I felt like I had one more breath to go
Nurse came into the room at 8:30 that night
and said they were sorry,
but they were
unable to locate a doctor and they would try
to find one the next day, which was Sunday
Well, when she said that, I was like,
okay, it's over Done
You know, I can't do this anymore
You know, I'm exhausted
and it was horrible to see her crying like that
And I closed my eyes and stopped trying to breathe
And I went unconscious
I was an atheist, and I knew that
when you die, it's just over
It's like the big nothing, you know, void the end
The official
impact speed recorded by the National
Transportation Safety Board was 135 miles an hour
We impacted right below the cockpit
with that impact speed
It just exploded the cockpit into
We just, everything was opened up
We hit that dome and fell,
boom, right down to the ground
I'm told by the curator
of the mausoleum, that the mausoleum
was six stories, seven stories tall
And we slammed
right into the top of it
I can remember today
as well as I could five years ago, ten years ago
You realize that you are not
a body
I believe it's
what happens to everyone when they die
I awoke from unconsciousness
standing there
next to the bed,
feeling better than I ever felt before in my life
My vision was greatly increased
Instead of seeing 106
degrees, I could see almost 360 degrees
My depth of field was total
When I looked at something close, I, everything
far was in focus
Being an artist and being a visual person, not much
The first thing I was like, Wow, I've never been able
to see like this
Then I realized I could hear,
smell, taste, touch, everything
I could feel
all the little nuances in the cold linoleum floor
I could hear the buzzing of the fluorescent lights
in the ceiling really loudly
All of my senses were greatly, greatly enhanced
I'm looking down and I'm realizing
there's my body, but I'm up here
I can't be dead because I've never felt more alive
I was not only alive, I was free
And I didn't understand this
But I realized then, okay,
I am a spirit
I have a soul
And I used to live
in that body
I was pressed up against the instrument panel
and was motionless
It was 16 minutes before the fire department
got there
The paramedics got there right after
they put me and Chuck in the same ambulance
And I have tremendous strong memories
that I'm watching my body and Chuck and I'm chasing
that ambulance as it goes through the streets
I have no idea how to explain
a lot of the things we're talking about
But chasing that ambulance without really any effort
How did I do that?
I don't know
I wasn't worried
I wasn't in pain
I wasn't concerned really
I was questioning, what is this all about
Now, while no two near-death experiences
are the same,
they have a very consistent
pattern of elements or what occurs
during the near-death experience
That typically occur in a very consistent process
The very first thing that
happens is that close brush with death
They're unconscious
They may be clinically dead with absent heartbeat,
absent breathing
At that time when they shouldn't
have any experience at all, they do
Often the first thing that happens is
what's called an out-of-body experience
People leave their bodies
They're, they're watching
the resuscitation many times, but they say
they still have a spiritual body
From that vantage point,
they can see ongoing earthly events
and often later describe
frantic efforts at their own resuscitation
They move out of that place
of their resuscitation,
and they come to a place of exquisite beauty
They very commonly see a light at times
They interpret that as a religious figure
And this light was light that is love and life
It was palpable
and not hard to look at,
but it came out of everything,
and yet it made everything vibrant
The colors, they say, are far
beyond our color spectrum
Music has been
described so beautiful
that they say they've never heard anything like it
Nothing like that is possible on earth
Deceased relatives or friends often
come to meet them there
You know, they say we still have all our memories
our humor, we're the same people
But we meet again on the other side
And some of them say, well, I reached a place where
I felt like
if I went any further, I wouldn't come back
At that time,
they may then have a life review
They may see part or all of their prior life
The whole experience is
very calm, it's very peaceful
Some people don't want to come back
And then many talk
about a God of light and love
that they experience in this presence
This light is brighter than the sun,
but again, not just light like we would see
here on earth
And they feel an unconditional love
and peace and acceptance
from this God like they've never experienced before
Ultimately, they either make the choice to return
to the earthly body or sent back involuntarily
This God almost always says to them,
Your time is not up yet
You still have a purpose on Earth
Sometimes he asks them,
Do you want to stay or do you want to go?
Many times he says, You got to go back
None of them want to go back
Not every single one of
them experiences all the commonalities
Some do, some experience three, four or five,
some ten, 20, some, all of them
But those commonalities overlap
But there are uniqueness to each experience
Like when they encounter this god of light and love,
each one of them feels like
they are the only one God loves
And yet,
they all feel that way
You know actually, these near-death
experiences are not new
Plato wrote in the Republic about
a soldier who comes to on his funeral pyre
and had an experience like this
Paul in the New Testament, who wrote much of
the New Testament,
I believe in Acts chapter 14,
He's stoned to death in Lystra
and left for dead
And then he gets back up and he talks about
how he had an experience of going to heaven
In the ancient world
Presumably these experiences were very rare
By the time I started investigating it
in the 60s and 70s,
the advent of cardiopulmonary
resuscitation had greatly increased
the number of people who had been to the brink
of death and recovered
So there were a lot of cases
Some of them say, well, I reached a place where
I felt like
if I went any further, I wouldn't come back
And I get questioned about this a lot
And the question
is, well, is that really a barrier or not?
And my answer is,
well, I've not been able to interview
any of them that didn't come back
So I assume
that if they do go over that, it very well may be
a point of no return
I have no evidence to suggest that,
except I have no evidence to refute it either
Raymond Moody heard about our work,
so he called us up to his house,
along with two other researchers
And that's when I met all of these wonderful people
Bruce Grayson and Mike Sabom and Kenneth Ring
We got together, we compared notes
and we said, you know, we ought to form
a group and share with one another what we're doing
And it eventually turned out to be
what's now known as IANDS
International Association and Near-Death Studies
After five years of doing research, Dr Sabom
ends up writing a book convinced that
this really does show that there is life after death
But then even more fascinating, he publishes
in the Journal of the
American Medical Association
his findings and what changed his mind
I was in my residency training
and I was going through a bound journal
looking for a cancer related article
And completely by accident, I found in the title
of an article the term Near-Death experience
Everything I knew as a doctor said,
This is medically inexplicable
In this article
all around the world, were people
having these experiences while they were unconscious
or even clinically dead
who can't be mystified by that question
of what happens after you die?
As I've traveled around the world to China
and Japan and India
and North and South America and all over Europe,
people all over the world use the word light,
but they say that it's not
the light that comes
from a light bulb or from the sun
But universally the description is that the
light of complete compassion and love
And people also say that they learned
from their experience that what we call
death is a transition into some other reality
So they lose their fear of death
The day was January 18th, 1989
very chilly by South Texas standards
I almost stopped in a little town
before you cross all the bridges to get some
some coffee I didn't
The people who were on the highway ahead of me,
she wanted some coffee They pulled over
I drove past them and they came in behind me,
Dick and Anita, Onarecker
It was foggy and a slight rain
It was wet
and I knew I would have to cross some bridges
It was an old bridge
and it is very narrow
I'm just really focused on getting back
to Alvin, Texas where I lived
I was headed back that way
and looking forward to seeing my family,
which I missed for three days, especially my wife
What I didn't know
was that steep embankment was there
It's like going on a tunnel
because you had this big metal superstructure
above you, on both sides of you
You can see only really
to the end of the bridge and then
the highway goes up
So I couldn't see beyond the end of the bridge
Out of nowhere, a tractor
trailer truck hit the car in his lane,
then came over to my lane and hit me head on
When we approached the bridge,
the first thing on the right
was this large 18 wheeler, and then the next
thing on the left, I believe, was a gray car
It had a single older man in it
Then the next thing was Don's red car
that was all crushed and smashed
So we were only four vehicles on the bridge
at that point
I was stationed
in Walker County at the time
I said, How does it look for him?
And they said, "not good at all"
That was, you know, just something I never forgot
I mean, was seeing that
it was a miserable miserable day
Traffic is backed up from miles
in both directions because at that time
there was the only bridge across that lake,
in fact, Dick Onarecker
And Anita
had to leave their car and walk up on the bridge
to get to where the accident was
Police approached Dick first and said,
Don't even bother with that man
I've already checked him and he has no pulse
And then Dick did check,
and he could not identify any pulse
You could see from this wrecking yard picture that
the trajectory of the truck as it went over
When the truck hit me, it literally took
this arm over my shoulder into the back seat
The steering wheel
actually went horizontal and into my chest
My head had banged up against the metal side
of the interior of the car
My right leg was broken at the knee,
but I must have slid on the seat a little sideways
because it hit from that angle
And when it did, it literally severed my left
leg just above the knee,
and four and a half inches of the femur
was ejected from the car and actually never found
I had been killed instantly
My heart was not beating,
so it was not pumping blood
I died on the bridge
I'm a board certified orthopedic spine surgeon
and physicians spend their entire career
evading death
We believe that if we are smart enough,
if we are well-trained enough,
and if we do a good enough job that we can control
the outcomes, that we can control the variables
and we can cheat death
My husband and I were avid kayakers
Kayaking is
both challenging and exhilarating
We began to go down the river
We went over the first couple of drops
It was very high flow, very high
current, strong current
There is another client that sort of bobbled
her way past me and
ended up sideways at the entrance to the chute
So my only option was to veer over
and go over the main part of the waterfall
and the front end of my boat
became pinned
and the boat and I were then
completely submerged under 8 to 10 feet of water
I recognized that I was probably going to drown
I would think about the fact that
I must be dead, but I didn't feel dead
I felt more alive than I've ever felt
I felt this incredible experience
like I was just part of the water
I felt magnificent, actually
I knew that I was being held by Christ
as purely as I know,
anything
I know it sounds crazy,
but it's just something that
is outside of our language
We went up a world famous climb,
maybe 500 feet, three pitches up
As the train started pulling out,
I just thought, This is it I'm going to die
I took a corner to a 90 miles
an hour, flipped over, and it landed on the top
All I remember seeing was a big white, white light
The knife had gone all the way through my liver
I had a punctured lung and I started feeling myself
leave my body
You were in the hospital bed, right?
But you had left your body and you
My body was on the bed and my spirit
and I could see in every direction
Up on the ceiling looking down
There was this feeling of a presence It felt like God
Not like this guy up in the sky
And that was God
I just know it was God
The meaning of life, of everything,
It was unlike anything I've ever experienced
I have no fear of death
it's with total knowledge and unconditional love
It was all the love that is in the universe
Death is not the end It's probably the beginning
I looked into his eyes, It was like
I was looking at forever inside of him,
and I could see the love he had for me
You know, people don't believe you
when you say the story, but it's just so real
Almost 30 minutes had gone by
Enough time had passed that they had shifted from
a rescue mode to purely a body recovery mode
I could see this bloated purple body
and I never felt alive and then dead
I never felt conscious and unconscious
I felt conscious and then more conscious
I felt alive and then more alive
I came into this thing skeptical, mean
I could have very easily blown this whole thing off
If you go to the resuscitation
for 20 minutes
and you've been
without oxygen for 20 minutes or whatever,
you're going to lose some neurons,
You're going to have brain damage
You may not live either
You'll die a neurologic death
general rule is, the longer without the oxygen
Normally, the more brain damage you're going to have,
and it's progressive until it's restored
A new study may provide answers
to the age old question
What happens to our brains when we die?
The brain has always been the most fascinating
and the most interesting
organ to me because to the world
it is completely unexplored
I was working in Vancouver at the Vancouver
General Hospital
This was the 87 year old gentleman
He came during the emergency shift
with a bleed between the brain and the skull
We call it a subdural hematoma
And we decided to operate
We removed the skull
We removed the bleeding
He did fairly well after the surgery
for about three days
And then he started having seizures
So we went and applied an EEG to see
where the seizures are coming from
and how to treat them
Once we had this applied,
he had a heart attack and died
So that left us with
the rare recording of the human brain
that went from a life to death
It's the first ever recording of a dying human
brain, one that happened entirely by chance
We've heard about people
before who have faced near death experiences
Describe this moment
where they were the important moments
in their life flashed before their head
Is that what we're talking about?
Is that what this is?
From what this case of
One tells us
all the things they are consistently
being described by people who undergo
near-death experience
These guys have exhibited these brain waves
that exactly the same ones we're measuring
when we record the activity of this patient
30 seconds
before the heart stops beating
and 30 seconds after the heart stops beating,
that we found was quite astonishing
After searching and searching,
we had not found anybody at the time when we wrote
the manuscript and submitted it
that had full brain recordings
from the dying human brain
Under acute clinical environments
brain waves are always present
in our brain
They differ in frequency,
meaning how many times per second they oscillate
The high frequency waves are called gamma waves
Then the lower ones we call them
beta, theta, alpha and delta waves
Those are slower frequent oscillations
We found an increased interplay
of these oscillatory bands with each other
We looked at how this, for example,
theta waves that are known for memory recall,
how do they couple with gamma waves?
And we found an increased coupling of the
two after a heart stopped beating
The brain is a prediction machine that is designed
for survival
So we see something,
we interpret the signal,
we generate a response
in all kinds of responses that the brain generates
The only one we can measure right now is movement
We can't measure what we call thinking
Can you measure emotions?
Feelings?
I don't know what to answer you
We can't measure all these things
We know that the brain somehow does these things
We may never understand
what exactly happens
And maybe that's not the most
important thing either
If the science
can contribute even a minute percentage
and can shed light
on the nature of the human brain dying
If I could go to my patients
and I could tell them,
it may be that your loved one is replaying
some of the memories of their life
It somehow makes things easier
It tells them they're not suffering
That, I think, would help patients in that
tremendously difficult time
Growing up in South Korea
I grew up in a Buddhist home
Ever since the age of six, seven,
I was asking questions like, Why are humans made?
Why are we born?
What is the purpose of mankind?
Why am I here?
The Buddhist monks at the temple
would say things like, Oh yeah, Steve,
you can go to heaven, you can go to hell,
come back,
you can get reincarnated
into an animal or a different species
They taught you how to do right and do wrong,
and try to earn your salvation
My mother, who was trained as a registered nurse,
she got recruited
by a VA veterans hospital in Boston
You know, she prepared the way for us to come
So I came with my younger brother in elementary school
The older I got,
middle school and even up to freshman year,
and I remember feeling a lot of confusion
I remember looking in the mirror and saying,
How come I'm the only one?
How come I have to be Korean?
And it was a big struggle and led me to become
a little rebellious
Like I joined the garage band I tried to
I think I tried a little harder
than others to try to fit in
And I just remember, you know, always feeling
a little empty, feeling confusion and emptiness
You know, from high school
I remember in the summer of 1998,
we will get high in the morning,
in the afternoon, in the evening, the whole summer
I don't remember being sober for an hour
And my mom and brother were getting super worried
I called the Buddhist temple for help
They didn't help either
So I realized, like,
this is something that is beyond my power ability to
to to save myself from
You know, people say when they see demons
or evil spirits, they might think
somebody comes with a pitchfork and horns
But I had an open eye
vision of all Asian grandpa coming
He's talking to me like I'm talking to you
He said, Hey, Steve, I know you're
having a hard time
If you commit suicide and take your own life,
then I can give you 50,000 less years of hell
And I'm like, That's a great deal
I went to the kitchen
I grabbed the biggest knife I could find
Got on my knees
So I grabbed a knife
and I cut my neck open here,
which, you know, was very painful
My mom sees the event happening,
so she calls 911
The cops came, and then there's
the Grandpa spirit is still there speaking to me,
says, Steve, you got to hurry up
You're going to miss your chance
Go for the stomach
So I cut my stomach open, which actually is,
you know, the scars go down all the way here
I lost a big part of my blood
The cops came and whacked me with a bat
I dropped the knife
I remember losing consciousness
The whole living was bloody red
My mom was crying I remember hearing her
They put me in the stretcher
because already I'm very damaged
I'm losing blood, like at a very fast rate
and I'm going in of conscious
The grandpa spirits gone
and then it was just into the unknown after that
I remember coming out,
seeing my body and then seeing the ER room
I remember going through just darkness, like even
seeing rocks and stones around me just falling
It just felt like I was falling in an elevator
And I don't know how to put it into words exactly,
but I knew I was going to a different place
There was still real,
more real than anything here on Earth
I was still fully conscious
Everything's happening,
but now it's like
there's different set of rules,
there's a different set of awarenesses
And you're saying goodbye to Earth
I knew I was saying goodbye to Earth
And going to another place of eternity
And then God came to me and like a ball of light,
that became like a triangle
Behind it I saw the city,
I looked up and it was glittering like gold
The walls were gold
I don't know how it works,
but it's definitely a place we go
I heard a voice before I woke up
I love you
And I open my eyes and I'm in the emergency room
I was like, Oh my God, I'm alive
So first of all, I was so thankful I was alive
I look around, my mom's there,
she's crying, grabbing my hand, son, you know,
you, you regained consciousness
And I was still trying to process what happened,
but I just knew I was back on Earth
They said it took two surgeries to cover
the blood vessels that were cut
A specialist had to fly in at the last minute,
and if he was late, they told me I would
have been bye, bye forever
My heart and blood wouldn't go back up
We just kept sinking, sinking, sinking,
during the whole surgery
And they said it was a miracle
Good timing
I know one thing, we all live once and die once
And there is judgment after
I think that there are
a lot of people that do take advantage of this
The novelty and the fascination
of this experience
We're all to die and we all want to know
what's going to happen once that happens
So, I mean,
this is speaking to us all And of great importance
That can be abused
Some of these these cases
are transmitted through
several different people before they get in print
And they get a lot of attention
because they're fantastic
But what I've tried to
do is remove some of the subjectivity
to these experiences
And put data out there
that's been scientifically, rigorously collected
There's no way you can verify
the transcendental part of the experience
The person feels like they go
to an otherworldly environment
as opposed to their environment
right there in the room with them
What really convinced me and what convinced
many skeptical doctors, oncologist, cardiologist,
is that when people initially leave their body,
they say that many times
they were in the room
still where they were being resuscitated or worked on
many times up
near the ceiling, looking down, watching
They felt incredible peace, even though
it was chaotic
oftentimes in the room
where they were working on their body,
When they would come back,
they were able to give corroborative evidence
that they actually saw
what was going on in the room,
even though they were unconscious
at the time they were worked on
They shouldn't have been able to see this
Autoscopic means self-visualization
They were visualizing themself from the ceiling,
lying in bed, lifeless, or being resuscitated
That is the verifiable part
of a near-death experience, where you can go back
and either verify what they said they saw
or what actually occurred
And that's what I wanted
That was the main thing
that got me hooked on this thing
And I paid very little attention
to the tunnel, the light, the deceased relatives
and friends, the religious figures
For me as a cardiologist, scientist,
and a physician,
I wanted some verification,
I wanted some medical records
I wanted to talk to people who had been there
and seen what had happened in the room
Back in the early 1990s,
when I was a resident training and neurosurgery
at Phoenix and at the Barrow Neurological Institute,
one of the best places to go in the world
It was a destination center for neurosurgery
I was on the Chairman Service,
Dr Robert Spetzler
and Dr Spetzler is world renowned
There was a patient who came to him
named Pamela Reynolds,
What we're looking at is the aneurysm that she had
Which is at the very base of the brain
This is the balloon that can burst
and cause this incredible catastrophe
It's all the way at the very base of the brain
And that is why it's so
incredibly difficult to get there
The anatomical location of the basal
artery is a neurosurgeons no man's land
She underwent an operation
Again,
pretty unusual operation called cardiac standstill
I came in several times into the operating room
because it's a cardiac
standstill case and they're fascinating
If you were going to do a laboratory experiment,
this is the perfect experiment
She was put on the operating room table
and immediately put under general anesthesia
The cardiac standstill operation requires
teams of medical providers, surgical providers,
all of which is designed to:
1 drop the temperature of a person's body
2 Drain out all the blood out of their body
3 Keep them in a state of suspended animation,
shut down brain function
And you've actually stopped the heart
They had these things in her ears
that emitted 95 to 100 decibel clicks
If the click went off
and you saw spike on the EEG
that was measuring the brain stem,
then you knew the brainstem was active
No heart that's beating,
a brain that's no longer functioning
And what they had to do is get it
so that those clicks were eliciting no
brainstem reactivity, ie
it was flatlined
So was pretty much totally isolated
from the environment physically
And medically, she was in a --
that's why they call procedure standstill
Everything was at a standstill
She would be clinically dead
for a whole hour of the operation
She had a three part near-death experience
The first part was out-of-body,
autoscopic part,
When Spetzler first started up the brain saw
she heard the conversation between Spetzler and
the surgeon
about the artery being too small
in her right femoral artery,
and they had to switch over to the left
The visual part
She saw the bone saw, which I didn't even know
what it looked like myself as a cardiologist
And I was then looking down at the body
I knew it was my body, but I didn't care
My vantage point was sort of
sitting on the doctor's shoulder
I remember the instrument in his hand
It looked like the handle of my electric toothbrush
And then she said that there was this tray
of instruments to the right of Spetzler,
that it looked like the socket wrench set that
her father used to have
And then the other stuff was the same autoscopic
And in between those two experiences,
which she relates
the experience as a continuous experience,
she had the transcendental experience
I felt a presence
I sort of turned around
to look at a pin-point of light
Well, how do you know the transcendental
experience happened
when the blood was drained out of her head?
Well, you don't
All you can do is infer it
You can't prove it
The other two are time anchored
The middle is not
Pam came back,
I believe, the following day
As with every patient, I'm rounding on her
in the intensive care unit before the chairman rounds
and she's awake talking with me
You know, usually ask the
typical questions How are you feeling?
after that tube was removed from her by extubation
and she was able to control her airway
and she was becoming more lucid?
Well, she had a lot to talk about
She began to
describe some details about her operation
And as she spoke,
I became spooked
She talked about her blood vessels and her
groin, being canulated and being too small
She talked about her heart being shocked twice
Giving me details that she just shouldn't know
I sort of put the kibosh on the conversation
"Pam, you need to get some rest
I'll come back later"
I went to my chairman
and told Dr Spetzler,
"You need to talk with Pam Reynolds
She's describing stuff that she just shouldn't know
This ain't right"
Functionally speaking,
Pam, was dead
Typically, when people are coming out of a dream
in the morning,
they feel like they're coming back to reality
But people who have a near-death experience
say that is they go into that experience,
it's this life that becomes dreamlike
People feel that when they, from the world's
point of view, are dying, they actually are waking up
to a reality that this state of existence
that we're in now seemed like a dream or
as though you're asleep
I think the near-death
experience is where science meets religion
There is a big difference between proof and evidence
This is all evidence,
but enough evidence at some point
makes it so close to proof that most people would say
it's right,
it's real
I got to watch what I say because I don't want to
unnecessarily alienate people
I think skepticism is good
skepticism, true skepticism
But rigidity is not
In other words, if you have an
ideological opposition to something
and you fight tooth and nail to support it,
or at least advocate it
and refuse to look at the other side,
that's not being objective
There's a lot about the afterlife
that we don't know for sure
We'll all know for real only after we die
And not completely before then
There have been lots of alternate theories
fighter pilots syndrome
You're pulling G's,
It feels like you're going through a tunnel
Some say
psychedelic drugs like DMT or LSD or mescaline,
vibrant colors and, and,
maybe going to another place,
You name it, DMT, Ketamine, LSD,
those are
generally illicit substances that produce
hallucinatory effects
And in fact, many people
that take these illicit substances
and the difference between the experience they have
and the typical near-death experience
is very striking
The problem is that
all of those might describe one aspect
You have people and we're talking thousands
and thousands of people all around the globe, old,
young, sighted people, blind people
And they're saying the same thing,
though on the other side, blind people can see
they have to adjust to it, to describing things
that they see, but they see the same things
And there was one study done with 23 blind people,
14 of them blind from birth,
two of them that I report
about describe the light coming out of everything
There's the near-death experience of Marta
She was a five-year-old girl and totally blind
Marta went into a lake and drowned,
and her consciousness rose above her body
She described vividly details of birds' feathers,
birds' eyes, details on telephone poles
It's remarkable to me how someone totally blind
can be fascinated
by mundane things that you and I
would not consider to be so exciting
Seeing this for the first time
while she's unconscious
and below the surface of the water
and yet having a near-death experience
So how do you get a lucid experience
that happens both for people who have had
hallucinogenic
drugs potentially in the hospital or,
you know, anesthesia,
But they're saying
the same things as those who have had no anesthesia
and the same things that little kids say,
the same things that people from different
religious backgrounds and cultures
say you don't have mass hallucinations
The moment the truck struck me,
I was standing at the gates of Heaven
And it was magnificent
It was like the inside of an oyster
It was pearl and dazzling,
almost like it was living
It just looked that way because of the light
reflecting off the gate
Heaven is light
God is light
It's it's astounding
One of the most difficult things
about talking about heaven
is that you have to do it with earthly words,
and there are no earthly words that do it justice
I did think for a moment, okay, I died
Okay, I'm gone
And was I sad?
No, not at all
I wasn't worried
about my mom or dad
or what they would think or my--, nothing
I was only looking forward to where I was going
and it was nothing but joy and peace, love and unity
I was surrounded by people I knew and loved in life
The first person I saw was my grandfather
I was very close to my grandfather
The last time I saw him, he was in a casket
At his funeral, he did not look good
Now I'm standing at the gates of Heaven,
and there he is to greet me
And he looked really good
He extended his hands to me
and spoke a language I've never heard before,
but fully understood and said, Welcome home, Donnie
I recognized this group of people
These people are looking at me with such love
They're all seemingly at the prime of their life
And these people
were greeting me and they were so delighted
that I was there,
And I knew that they were there for me,
to welcome me, to greet me, to to love me
to make me feel known
And I knew that they had known loved me
as long as I've existed
The music was phenomenal
Thousands of songs at the same time without chaos
all manner of music
instrumental
choruses,
Astoundingly, they just invade you
I mean, you're permeated by the music
My senses were incredibly vivid,
you know, touch and taste and feel and hearing
It was just all
It's just the most real thing
that's ever happened to me
After I greeted the people, they parted
and I could see through the gate
There was a long boulevard that
really bisects the city
and it appears to be constructed of gold
So many of the things that we experience here
are there, but much infinitely
more glorious and perfect
I wanted to climb that hill
and fall at the feet of the great
God of all creation and say,
"Thank you for letting me come"
That was my objective
Not every near-death experience is a good one
23% of those who come forward talking about them
talk about how they had hellish experiences
At that time,
I, I felt really empty
It just seemed like the best thing to do
was just to die at that point
If I die, then it's game over
And if I die, then the pain and the suffering,
the depression,
the darkness, all this is going to stop
Well, if I do enough cocaine,
then maybe my heart will stop beating
because it feels like it's racing out of my chest
And I didn't see a bright light
I saw a black tunnel
It felt like somebody grabbed me and dropped me
in this outer darkness
As I started racing down this tunnel,
it seemed like infinity
It was like a bottomless pit
I don't know how, but I was no longer high
All my senses were at 1,000
I knew that I had died,
and it was one of the scariest moments
in my entire life
And I'm racing down this tunnel
that seems like forever
like a thousand miles an hour
as I'm just freefalling
If I'm going to hell, there's got to be a mistake
because I never killed anybody
I didn't rob a bank
I mean, I'm a good person
I'm not a bad guy
The only person I hurt was myself
When I began to justify how good I was
it went faster
like 2,000 miles an hour
It speeded up the process
Like, now you're really going to Hell
I remember at that point I cried out
with all desperation
I said, "God, you need to come help me right now
because I need you
If you really exist I need your help
So you got to come help me
Please, God, I need your help"
In the bed
that I had been in was this big slab of meat
And when I looked at the face,
it bore an amazing resemblance to me
And I could not understand
how that could resemble me
But I was perfectly well standing there,
perfectly alive, looking at this,
hunk of meat
The other thing that bothered me was that
my wife would not respond to me
Well, at first I started talking in a nice voice,
and then I started yelling at her, like, you know,
what the hell is going on here?
Look at me Talk to me
You know, I'm all better
You know, what's that thing in the bed?
How did it get there?
I was very upset, very distressed
And then I heard people out in the hallway
outside the well-lit room
in the darkish-gray, hazy hallway
And there was a group of people standing
outside the light of the room in the hallway
I said, "I'm sick
I need a doctor"
And they said, "We know
We know all about you
It's time for you to come with us"
So I thought that they were
hospital personnel to take me to a doctor
When I left the room
and went into the hall,
I can't explain how I knew,
I couldn't go back into the room
The door didn't close,
but I knew that it was impossible
for me to go back into the light of the room
So I hesitated and the people became very
Hurry up, Let's go Let's go
We can't wait anymore You know
We've been here a long time waiting for you
Hurry up
So I gave in and went with them
and they immediately surrounded me
and moved me forward into that greyness
As we moved along, I could not perceive walls,
ceiling, any feature at all
And we walked and walked and walked
And after a while I was like, okay,
this hospital's not that big, you know?
I mean, we walked miles now, and it's like,
where's the stairs?
You know, where's the up and down?
Where's the walls? And there was nothing
We just walked and walked
So I was asking the people
around me like, this isn't the hospital,
This isn't right, you know, where are we?
Stuff like that, and
their response was, "Shut up, be quiet
Keep moving
Move, move, move"
They'd say, "You're going to find out
You'll find out
You're going to get there"
There was a lot of people around us,
possibly hundreds,
I don't know They were
being very vulgar, very threatening, very scary
I'm in abject darkness
I have absolutely no idea which way
is forward, backward I mean,
all I knew was I wanted to get away from them
They said, "No, you've got further to go"
And they started to push and shove me
And I fought back
They began by punching, shoving, kicking
And then they started biting, scratching
and tearing me apart, literally
disemboweling me, gouging my eyes
And it was all accompanied
with a great deal of laughter and joy
I thought about
my whole life and everything seemed like
what was the point
And I realized that my relationships
with my mother and father were a disaster
My relationship with my sisters wasn't good
My relationship with my wife was very troubled
I was not proud or pleased
with my relationship with my two children
I sank into
a pit of despair and hopelessness
that I can't begin to describe
My mind offered up a memory of myself as a little boy
going to a Sunday school singing "Jesus Loves Me"
When I was a little boy
and I was afraid, like having nightmares
at night or whatever, I would pray to Him and
He would chase the lions and tigers
and bears away
And as a child, it was, like, mostly
in the image of like a superhero
Jesus was like a superhero
And so
that's it
That was all I knew
So I called out to him in complete desperation,
A tiny little star appeared in the sky,
and very rapidly it got brighter
and brighter and brighter
I started moving
helplessly without direction
I had nothing to do with this
I started moving out of the room
I next realized that
I have left the hospital and now I'm traveling
almost like a rocket ship, just moving
out of this atmosphere
As if in deep space
I realized we were not on the ground anymore
We were moving upward, straight upwards
So I've got my face buried in His chest
hanging on to Him
I'm like, I don't want to let me go because I,
I'm afraid if I let go,
or if he lets go, I'm going to fall back
into that horrible place again
And there was a beam of light that was lighting
the pathway of where I was going
My whole life flashed in front of me
as big as the sky,
Tiny spheres of light
They weren't planets, they weren't stars
These were beings going to Earth
Where we were going is what I first thought
was a galaxy A huge world of light
The light that I'm looking at,
is coming from none other than God Himself
Inside the light was life,
And inside that light was love
And my body is still on Earth
My brain and eyeballs are back there
But, I'm sensing and discerning
all of these things
When you leave this earth
and you step into the eternity,
everything is crystal clear
I knew I was coming to this holy area
and obviously
it took another second to connect the dots
This is Heaven
And he spoke to me
for the first time in his voice,
but it was telepathic but it wasn't
a thought of mine
It was his voice in my head
And then he said, I've got some people
that I want you to meet
They've recorded your life
and they want show you your life
So they proceeded to
show me my life in chronological order
What I saw, to summarize it, was
happy youth
pretty much
going to adolescence, everything going sour,
particularly with my relationship
with my father
Because of my father's cruelty to me,
I was cruel back
My father was physically and emotionally abusive
every day to my mother, my sisters and to me
I mean, it never stopped
The only way that I could deal with it
was to try and not feel anything
And all he wanted for me
was to be a little duplicate of him,
you know, just be subservient to him
You know, being being disobedient
had immediate physical consequences
of being kicked or punched or hit
And I saw myself striving
to become emotionless and feeling-less,
which was a way for me to protect myself
from being hurt
As I became more manipulative
and successful,
the more the angels and Jesus expressed
their disappointment
and sadness with me and my life
And it really hurt to disappoint them
because I here
I have these newfound friends, my big rescuer,
you know, best friend I ever had
And I'm-- and I'm looking at my life
and I'm a big, huge disappointment
and you should put me back
I don't belong here
You know, you've made a mistake
I don't belong here
And he said, "We don't make mistakes
You do belong here"
At this point
I had had
a number of operations and
I was finally able to be upright instead of
wheelchair bound
But I,
wasn't able to walk very well
When I was sent back to my body,
I knew that sharing my experiences
with other people was part of the deal
I knew that part of that was writing about them
And so I woke up
and I spent the next week or so
getting up at three or four in the morning and
writing for a few hours before the morning routine
And so I, you know, made my final revisions
And when I hit the save button,
I took my youngest son, who was still living at home
into town to get ice cream so we could celebrate
And so as we were driving into town
to celebrate, I called my older boys
because my oldest son and his brother
were at the time living in Maine
They were ski training
And I called them
to share this great news
And the coach answered the phone
and told me that Willie had just been hit
by a car and killed
and um,
I mean,
I reacted
like any mother would
The depth of my spiritual knowledge,
does not protect me from grief
It doesn't protect me from
sorrow or any of those things
The depth of pain,
of losing a child is,
I don't think, a
pain that can be replicated by
any other human experience
I mean, I was devastated
And it all stopped
just as quickly I arrived
That accident happened at 11:45 in the morning
I arrived at Hermann Memorial Hospital
at like 6:15 that night
So they went and got my wife out of her classroom,
brought it down to the office
and told her the news
And I walked down the hall and into the office,
and our assistant principal
came out from around her desk
and just wrapped me in this hug
And she says, "Don's been in an accident"
And that's all that we knew
I was taken into surgery that evening
and was in surgery for 12 hours
The next day
was when I realized I was in the recovery room
The emergency room had called
and the nurse said, he can't hold the phone,
but I'm going to put it next to his ear
so he can hear you
And I started with the questions,
"Are you okay? What happened?
Do I need to come out there?"
just, you know, rambling sort of things
And all I could hear him say was,
"I just want to go home
I just want to go home"
Later, I understood
that he meant his Heavenly home
Had I had a choice,
I would not have come back here
I mean, I've had 30 wonderful years here,
but I would still rather be there
I know what happens next,
and it's it's always better there
than it will ever be here
So I didn't really want to come back, but
I didn't get a choice
He went into a deep depression
And I would go in, and he would just lay there
He wouldn't talk to me He wouldn't acknowledge me
I would bring papers to grade
I would sit over in the corner and grade
and stay there till about 11:00
almost every night
And then I'd tell him goodnight,
and I'd leave
And it was hurtful, because I thought, you're alive
You know, you're alive You're back with us
Don't you love us enough to
be glad to be back with us?
And to me, that was harder to deal with
The depression was harder to deal with
than the physical injuries, which were massive
And I remember one night,
I thought, you know what?
I'm going to go home early tonight,
and I'm going to take a warm shower,
and I'm going to crawl in the bed,
and get a good night's sleep
So I gathered up all my stuff,
and I just said,
well, I guess I'll see you tomorrow
No response
That night, something
clicked inside of me, and I had had it
And I dropped that book bag,
and I stomped my way over to the side of the bed,
and I let him have it
What is wrong with you?
Why aren't you glad to see us?
Why aren't you glad that you're back with us?
It was just-- it just tumbled out
And so I grabbed my stuff up,
and I'm walking out the door
And there was a big mirror next to his bed
And I looked over there, and he was crying
Just tears
So I walked myself back over, and I kind of had to-
he had so many metal things that we had kind of
got my way in and I just wrapped him in my arms
And I said, It's going to be okay
And I realized then that
I had to accept that sometimes
he was going through things I didn't understand
Finally,
I got through it
Jesus said, "Do you have any questions?"
I said, "I've got a million questions"
He said, "What do you want to know?"
So I asked him everything that
I could think of to know,
And if we went through that,
it would take us several years
And He gave me a whole
new understanding of everything
I said, "Great,
Now that I understand, I want to go to heaven"
He said, "um um,
You're not ready for Heaven yet"
Finally, I said, "What do you want me to do?"
"I want you to love the person
that you're with"
I said, "Okay, yeah, but then what
do you want me to do after I do that?"
And He said, "No, that's what I want you to do"
I said, you know, "What good is that going to do?"
He said, "It's going to change the world"
And I said, "That's going to change the world?
I don't think so, no"
I said, "You don't understand
The world is like a terrible, cruel place
Even if I love someone, they're just going to go
get beat up somewhere else and not going to--"
He said, "No, if you love someone,
they'll take that love out into the world
and maybe they'll love somebody and it'll
grow and grow and grow"
I said, "It's not going to work"
And He said, "It's God's plan
It's going to work"
Well, when he pulls out the God's plan work,
you know,
I mean, like, what can you say?
And so finally I conceded
and I said, "Okay, I'll go back"
And with that, bang,
I'm in the body, I'm in the bed
The nurse who'd been in the room
comes in and says,
a doctor has arrived at the hospital and
we're going to prepare you for surgery
When I awoke,
I knew that what had happened to me
was the most important thing in my life
Because now my life had real meaning and purpose
I was very, very weak
I had been in surgery for hours
I'd spent most of the morning
trying to think of how I was going
to tell my wife what had happened
I said to her, "It's all love"
She said, "I love you"
And I said, "I know you love me, but it's all love"
She said, "What are you talking about?"
And I said, "It's an ocean of love
And you have to just go in
into that ocean of love and be a part of it"
And she said, "Okay, honey,
Try to get some rest"
Here I am I'm I' giv--
I'm giving her the abbreviated
wisdom of God
And she's basically telling me,
you know, you're making no sense
It's crazy talk
From that day forward,
I tried to tell people about God, Heaven, Hell,
what I'd experienced, and nobody,
nobody took me seriously at all
I was a zealot
I was a complete zealot
And it was
not good for my relationship
with my kids because the more that they
did not respect what I was trying to tell them
and the more they told me I was nuts and crazy
and stuff like that, the more
it totally alienated them
from the Bible, from God, from me
I mean, it was completely counterproductive
It was a disaster
My wife left me
She poisoned the kids against me
They've rejected me
They don't want anything to do with me
They think I'm a crazy man
It's all going to work out
I know that God works stuff out
It just doesn't happen on our time frame
I mean, I'd like it now
It's not happening right now,
but it could happen tomorrow
It might take a long time
I don't know,
A couple of years down the road
when I found out
about the Heaven experience,
people have asked me,
"Aren't you mad that he didn't tell you?"
Not really
I was relieved because now I understand
You know, if you've been to Heaven,
why would you want to be back in the pain
that he was in?
I found myself on a daily basis
with all these devices attached to me
and unable to move at all
I couldn't do a single solitary thing
for myself at all
38 and then 39 year old man
who was completely helpless
Why?
You let me see that,
And you brought me back to this
What is going on here?
What was the purpose of this?
In my studies of psychiatry,
I quickly realized that practically
everybody is chasing something
Some chase fame or money or power
But what I quickly realized in talking with people
who had near-death experiences
is that whatever they were chasing
before this experience, convinced them that
what life is all about is learning to love
And they all come back all around the globe
with the same "aha" That God is love
And that how we treat and love one another
is what matters most to God
You have people
who have these experiences and come back
and their life is radically changed
When I came back
one of the things I knew I wanted
to make friends with my dad
Not only was I able to forgive my father
because I understood that he was just messed up
because of his messed up childhood
All my father really wanted to do
was to be loved but he
didn't know how to do that in an appropriate way
So he tried to be loved in inappropriate ways
He thought obedience and discipline
And my mother and my sisters
were really angry with me
because they all told me several times
"You and Dad hated each other
and now you're his best friend Why?"
And I'd say, "Because he's my dad"
Grace is passed along and passed along
and passed along And it's powerful
It's powerful because people change lives
for the good
They find hope, peace, love, joy, contentment
You know
And they also find
God and eternal life
When I was being shown
the ripple effect of my own actions
and my own words, I was able to see this
20, 25, 35 times removed from me
That's
a big distance
I understood all the hurts and sorrows and dreams
Everything that had brought me to that point in time
when I may have hurt someone else
I also had this complete understanding
of the back story
or the, you know, the life story
of the other people involved
and everything that had brought them
to that moment in time where they hurt me
or they hurt someone I loved
What we each say and what we
each do and the choices we make matter
They really do
When I talk about my son's death,
I know that he went home,
and I'm sure that he didn't want to come back either
I'm sure he was reassured that we would be fine
When my time on earth is done,
my oldest son will be there to greet me,
my father, my stepfather
I now know
other people who have died, people who I love, people
who are important in my life
I don't see
us here on Earth, and God's world is over here
I think we exist in the midst of it
I had the most
overwhelming sense of being home,
of being where I really belong,
where we really belong, all of us
It took about a few months to recover fully
I was still feeling the pain,
feeling a little down, depressed Seeing Hell
and Heaven, changed me to kind of prioritize others
So at the age of 35, I joined the Army Reserves
I became a chaplain
People just came back from war
and you could tell that they had
a very heartbroken experience
or a psychological damage, or the atrocities of war
So we did a lot of counseling
We would pick up phone calls at two,
three in the morning,
go with them to training, hang out with them
I would tell them that there's hope
I would tell them that depression is not forever
I believe all over the world,
there are so many unique
NDEs, near-death experiences,
and so many cultures
and backgrounds, American or not,
all types of religions, because
death is as real as life
And I believe God in his mercy,
no matter what religious background
you are, allows you to go through that
so that you can seek Him in the process
I don't know why some people survive
and some people don't
I wish
I wouldn't have survived
I've had some very real things
happen to me on Earth
The birth of five grandchildren,
seeing my children all graduate
I mean, it's been glorious in many ways,
but nothing compares to Heaven
It's just, that's the most real thing
That is my reality
This is not
What do we have
more in common as humanity than death?
And to know that there is hope beyond this life,
that there truly is beauty,
and relationship and love
and adventure ahead
You know, that
all of our our history and our memories,
they don't end and we don't become something else
It goes on
People ought to keep an open mind
to what's going on,
not accept everything they hear
from people, from me, from anybody
Be skeptical, ask questions,
think about it
There are things that we can't explain, and I think
it needs to be documented as much as we can
Documentation's important Without that,
it's an interesting story, and that's it
We can only do so much
You know, we're human beings
and we do the best we can
I think most people really do
We don't have all the answers,
and I don't think we ever will have all the answers
In the scientific realm
What is a human soul? Is a human soul?
does it live after death?
I don't think science is going
to answer those questions
I think all of these near-death experiences
suggest that that's possible
Can't find what you're looking for?
Get subtitles in any language from opensubtitles.com, and translate them here.