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[gentle music]

- Okay, Erica, as much as I love

being on a test drive with you,

I think we have to get back to work at some point today.

[Erica whimpers]

- What is it the two of you do, anyway?

- We run a publishing company.

- Shut up!

Me, I'm an aspiring author.

- Who isn't?

- Jullianne.

- No, no, I'm serious.

I sell cars by day

and by night, I write.

[phone rings] - Oh, oh.

Erica, I think you have a voice mail.

- Really?

- Yeah, it's probably just Ray Ray

stalking us.

Do you want me to check it?

- Well, I actually synced Erica's phone already,

so all you gotta do is press that button right there

and say the magic words. - Please say a command.

- Call voice mail.

[car chimes] - Calling voice mail.

- [Kai] Hey gorgeous,

just confirming tonight.

I'll see you at nine o'clock, and don't be late.

[phone chimes]

- [Julianne] Who was that?

- Oh, you know, it was just,

just someone.

- Someone who?

- Um,

it's a secret.

- A secret.

Since when do you keep secrets?

- Since now.

- [Dealer] [chuckles] Okay.

Time for the coolest feature.

Let's park between those two cars.

- [Erica] Right there?

That's a little bit tight.

I kinda, kinda suck at parallel parking.

- Trust me, so do I,

which is why the Focus can parallel park itself.

- Huh? - No way.

- Way.

All you gotta do is press the Park Assist button

and drive ahead. [car dings]

Now you'll hear a ding

when the car finds its sweet spot.

[car dings] There we go.

Now, let go of the steering wheel

and this baby will ease into the spot all on its own.

- What?

[Erica shrieks] - Pretty neat, eh?

So, let me tell you about my book.

It's called The Secret Life

of a Salesman. [car beeping]

It's kinda like Death of a Salesman, only funny.

- Uh, sounds interesting.

- Oh, yeah, best seller in the making.

I'd love to send you the manuscript.

But first, madame, [Erica shrieks]

I need you to put this car in Park.

- [gasps] Yea! [clapping]

So high-tech.

- Jason Knight.

Lovely meeting both of you.

Consider the car.

Great fuel economy, and hey,

consider the pitch.

We all have secret lives,

even you, it seems.

- Secrets, they say, are all revealed in time.

Most of us know this,

that almost all secrets have a way of getting out

eventually.

Thanks, Jason.

- The Secret Lives of Book Publishers.

Maybe there's a book in that.

[bouncy music with humming]

♪ It's clearer inside of me

♪ Who I will always be

♪ Open me up to my heart

♪ Feels like I'm seeing in the dark

♪ Waking me up to my life

♪ To do it all over again and again

♪ It's fun to the end

♪ Some of my dreams

♪ And everything I ever wanted to be

[inquisitive music]

- So was the guy's voice more baritone

or was it more tenor?

- I don't know, I heard it for 10 seconds.

- Well I won't be able to get a wink of sleep tonight

unless I find out who this mystery man is.

- [chuckles] Well, I'm sorry I asked, but

Erica was pleading the fifth, so.

- Mm, and since when do you take no for an answer?

- Um, hello, hypocrites.

I mean, how can I grill her when

you and me are, you know.

- Having hot, crazy sex behind her back?

- Well, yes, that.

- Jules, we've been together for weeks now.

I for one would like to start shouting it

from the rooftops.

- Well, Erica's my business partner and

I mean, I'm sleeping with one our two employees.

It's just not gonna go over well, so.

- Oh, see, oopsie.

- Hey, you two.

- [Julianne] Hey.

- What's with the pow-wow?

- No, no pow-wow.

We were, we were, I-I-I was--

- We were just drooling over your new wheels.

- Oh.

- I call shotgun on the first spin around the block.

- Well, you might have to wait on that.

I mean, I want a car and I need a car but it's just,

it's a big purchase.

[phone rings]

Where's Rachel?

- She went home with the flu.

- It was like The Exorcist in here

minus the spinning head.

- Eech.

Good morning, 50/50.

- E. Strange, how's it hangin'?

- [snaps] Scott?

This is unexpected.

- Julie Jack in the house?

Put me on speaker I want to speak to 51 and 52.

[phone beeps]

- Okay, you're on with both of us.

So, what's up?

- Your fortunes, as I am sure Brent has told you.

Howdy, B.K.

- Hello, Scott.

- [chuckles] Listen, the Rock has put our focus

on the dudes, and while we've enjoyed some success,

I gotta admit, our slate has become

too much of sausage-fest.

[Julianne sighs in disgust]

- Okay, how does that affect us?

- I'm glad you asked.

Word on the street is 50/50 is cornering the estro market.

You got some primo women's titles in the pipeline.

Well, the Rock wants a piece of your pie.

- Scott?

- Oh, now look, before you say no,

why don't you pop by this week and hear me out.

You open your kimonos, I'll open mine.

You might just like what you see.

- Yeah, we'll noodle on that, Scott.

- Sure thing.

And although my noodle is long, it is not patient.

Later.

- [Erica And Julianne] Bye.

- Okay, so if you can't bankrupt the competition

you might as well buy them?

Dream on, Scott.

Anyways, I'm gonna go next door

and join Sam and Lenin.

Her baby's overdue and she's,

she's kinda getting a little stir crazy,

so I'll be back in 20 minutes.

Is that cool?

- Of course.

- Great.

[chattering]

- [Erica] Hey, guys.

- Your sister's here, would you stop?

- [Erica] Stop what?

- Nothing, nothing, how are you?

- Oh, good.

- Why nothing?

Is it a secret?

Are you asking me to keep this a secret from my sister?

- No, no, I'm not asking you to do anything, Sam,

I'm just tryin' to be supportive

because you're very grumpy and

I recognize I have no idea what it's like to be pregnant.

- Bingo!

You don't.

By the way, patronizing me,

not the same as being supportive.

- Well, I have attended every midwife appointment,

I've read all the pregnancy books,

I've supported your decision to have a home water birth

at your mother's house.

- You know what?

I'm just gonna leave you guys.

- [Sam] No, no, no, you're not leaving.

Here, just--

- Okay, okay, got it.

- You want to support me?

Supporting me would be--

- Can we just not talk about this right here?

- No, no, 'cause we are talking about it,

'cause I am two weeks overdue,

and you need to do the one thing you can

to make this baby come quickly.

- Which is?

[pleasant, jazzy piano music]

- No.

- Sperm contains prostaglandins

which help soften the cervix.

- Sorry, um,

sperm, like you want him to--

- She wants to have sex.

Right now.

- Right now, like right now.

- Yeah.

- I want Lenin to show his unconditional support

by asking for the bill, getting in the car,

driving us home and

bathing my cervix in prostaglandins

so that I will go into labor, already!

[plucky music]

[Erica laughs nervously]

- Okay, okay, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine.

I'll do it, okay?

If that's what you want, I will bathe your cervix.

All afternoon if necessary.

I'm gonna get the check.

- Actually, you know, why don't you guys just go

and I'll get it, that's my treat.

- Yeah, okay. - Yeah.

Thank you. - Okay.

Okay.

- All right, just here, I'll get that for you.

- [Erica] Good luck, there.

- [Sam And Lenin] Thank you.

[plucky music] [laughing]

- No, listen, I swear to you.

- Why, why would you want to learn that?

- I was in university, I took theater arts

as an elective, and I thought, "Well, this is gonna be easy"

and it was not.

But luckily I have very good hand-eye coordination.

[laughs] Oh boy, oh boy.

Okay, I'm goin' in.

Oh ye of little faith.

[Amanda laughs]

This is for you, okay?

One time only.

- Oh my god.

- Huh?

- You're really good at that.

- You thought I was lying, okay, wait for it.

- Okay.

[crunching]

Go, Tom, wow, go Tom!

[laughing]

- [Adam] Hey, Jimmy, right over here.

- I'm definitely going to...

- Do you know where to put 'em?

[apprehensive music]

- I, I will definitely keep my day job, I promise.

Do you want to uh,

- Is he waving at us?

- Oh, yeah.

- Hey.

- Adam, sorry, I didn't see you there.

- Yeah, no, no worries.

So this is my friend Amanda.

- Hello. - Hi.

- So you're workin'?

- Yeah, yeah, we're

just doin' these gardens.

Big project.

My first as foreman, so.

- Right.

- Keep me busy for a while.

Speaking of which I should probably get back to it, so.

- [Tom] Okay.

- Nice to meet you.

- You too.

Who is Aadam?

- Oh, he's just somebody that I know.

I'm afraid that I've made applesauce outta this one.

I should just, I'll just toss it.

[gentle music] [sirens wailing]

- It's nine o'clock.

Where are you?

[dog barking]

[Erica gasps]

- Erica, over here.

- This?

This is our romantic date, in a dark alleyway with rats?

- Open your mind and follow me.

[uplifting music]

- What is this place?

- Patience, patience.

[lights clicking]

[Erica laughs]

- Kai, how did you?

- I know a guy who knows a guy.

Jody's got friends in high places.

Do you like it?

- Um,

[lights clicking]

[Erica and Kai laugh]

do I like, it?

This is, this is

incredible.

- [Kai] Come on, let's sit down.

[serene music]

- [Erica] Thank you.

- Dinner is served.

- [laughs] I remember the first time we met.

You were all like, "We're not gonna talk about time travel

"so don't get too excited, okay?

"'Cause I'm Kai."

[Kai laughs]

- Yeah, I was such a tool.

- No, you were just scared.

- Yeah, I was.

Not anymore.

Now I time travel like a pro.

Sometimes I even wish Dr. Fred'd make a mistake

and send me far back.

Like to the dinosaurs, that'd be fun.

- Me?

I would like to go back to ancient Egypt.

You know, hang with the pharaohs.

You know.

[Kai chuckles]

What?

- Nothing, nothing.

- What is that look on your face?

- It's nothing.

- [Erica] No, come on.

- It's just you, being with you is so different.

I've tried dating girls in my own time

and it never works.

There's a secret I can't share.

I'm always pretending except

when I'm with you, it's,

[gentle piano music]

I don't have to do that, I don't have to pretend or hide,

I can just be me.

- Come here.

[chuckles] It feels funny kissing on stage.

It's like there's a whole audience out there

of people watching us.

- There's no one here.

It's just us, we can do whatever we want.

- No, no. [laughing]

No way.

- Why not?

- Ha!

Well, I'd have to have a whole lot more to drink

before I'd

- make love on stage?

- Yes.

- Well, in that case.

[Erica laughs]

- And you know, I'd probably need

some kind of a serenade.

- Ooh, demanding. - Mm-hmm.

- I like it.

All right.

What would you like to hear?

- Anything.

- All right.

[upbeat guitar music]

♪ I

♪ I'm sold on lovin' you

♪ Can't stop thinkin' 'bout you

♪ It's all I do

♪ Oh, please make my dreams

♪ All come true

♪ 'Cause I'd never think

♪ Of leavin' you

♪ Oh, baby yeah, oh

♪ Just us forever

♪ We're birds of a feather, yeah

♪ Times are good, babe

♪ I'm happy you stayed

[romantic music]

- If I had doctor powers

I would stop time

and make this moment last forever.

- Well, when you become a doctor

jump back in time to tonight and do exactly that.

- How do you know I haven't already?

- Oh yeah?

- Maybe I'm Dr. Erica,

visiting you from the future.

[apprehensive music]

- I need to tell you something.

- What?

- What happens in a few years.

- Kai, Kai, we can't talk about that.

- I need you to know what happens.

- Uh, Kai?

Kai, if you tell me, Dr. Fred, he will stop you.

He will pull you out, okay.

- That's not fair.

- No, it isn't.

But it's the way it has to be.

You can't talk about the future,

and if you keep talkin' about it--

- What?

What, what, Dr. Fred?

What are you gonna do?

Are you gonna pull him out?

Right, or report me to some,

some doctor's council?

You know what?

In fact, why don't you do that?

Seriously, Dr. Fred.

Why don't you put me

in front of your superiors

and I can tell them who to blame.

- Erica, you're--

- Kai, I'm sorry, but this

needs to be said. - Kai?

Would you mind giving Erica and I some space

so we can talk?

- It's fine.

- Okay, I'll be right outside.

- Erica, I get that you're upset.

But you know that I can't allow Kai to--

- To what?

To tell me what I already know?

That I'm dead in 2019?

- You don't know that for sure.

- Really?

'Cause it's written all over your face.

If I'm wrong,

you look me in the eye and say so.

[tense music]

That's what I thought.

So, what happens?

- Erica, I can't.

- You already have.

And now you're trying to make me pay for your mistake?

Well, I won't and I shouldn't have to.

- I'm sorry.

- Sorry is not gonna cut it.

You tell me.

Please, Dr. Fred, I need to know.

Tell me now.

- In 2019, Union Station is attacked.

- Attacked how?

- It's bombed.

You, along with many others

die.

- And if I don't go to Union Station?

If I avoid it?

- Erica, this is new territory for me.

All I know is that in the future that I'm from,

you're not alive.

[bouncy music]

- What are you doin'?

- I have to get to work.

- You want some breakfast before you go?

- No, I'm good, I'm not hungry.

All right, I'll see you in a bit.

Oh.

- You didn't want to talk last night,

now you're rushin' off.

- Well, what is there to talk about?

- [Kai] Erica.

- Seriously.

I mean, Dr. Fred, he just,

he just confirmed everything that I suspected to be true

so I'm not gonna, you know, I'm not gonna whine about it

and fall apart I'm just gonna get on with my day.

And hey, there's some plusses, right?

I'll never grow old, I'll never get gray hair.

Lucky me.

- Come here.

- What?

- Just hear me out.

[gentle guitar music]

- What is that for?

- I think you should make a list.

- I thought that I was the one in doctor training here.

- Not that kind of list.

I want you to write down everything

you ever wanted to do with your life

but you haven't done yet. - Oh, Kai.

So what, like a bucket list?

- Exactly, your bucket list.

We all waste so much of our lives

putting things off till tomorrow, and then it's too late,

but you, you know how much time you have left.

[Erica groans]

- All right, I

you know what?

I want to finish a novel,

even if it's crap.

- [chuckles] Okay.

Good, what else?

- I don't, I,

well, I want to buy a car.

- Okay.

- I want to start a fiction division.

Julianne'll love that.

And I want to see my friend Cassidy in Brazil.

- Keep goin'.

- I want to,

I want to go skydiving and

I want to take piano lessons, and

you know what I really want to do?

I want to see the Rockies.

What?

What is this?

- Tour dates to support the album.

- Kingston, Montreal, Halifax.

- And then we fly to Vancouver,

Nelson, Banff, Jasper.

- I hear that Jasper is stunning.

- So, come with us.

[Erica laughs nervously]

- But when would we go?

- Go right after Dave and Ivan's wedding.

Be gone three, maybe four weeks.

What do you say?

- I say a big yes.

- [Kai] Yeah!

[inspiring music]

- Carpe diem.

- Seize the day.

- Thank you.

- [Kai] For what?

- For making a bad morning better.

I gotta go.

Seizin' the day.

[thundering chord]

[uplifting, exotic music]

[Erica sighs]

Dr. Tom, I know what you're gonna say.

- No you don't.

- Oh, yes I do, because I can see it all over your face.

You are disappointed in me

for wanting to know the truth, for,

for Kai, for everything.

- Erica,

I'm not mad at you.

- You're not?

- Before, would I have been disappointed in you?

Well, possibly.

But now if I say anything, I'm a hypocrite, so.

- Dr. Tom, what are you talking about?

- Secrets.

The big ones.

They're hard to live with.

They're hard to keep,

and very difficult to resist digging into

once we know they're there.

So how can I be disappointed in you

when I find myself struggling with the same thing.

But sorry, I'm not really bringing

my therapist A-game today.

- No, hey, I mean,

everyone is entitled to an off-day.

Even you.

- Thanks.

So, looks like you're gonna have to

manage this one on your own.

It's a little ahead of schedule but

there it is.

I don't always have the answers for you.

- [Erica] Okay.

[wistful music]

[thundering chord]

- "Just call my assistant

"and she'll clear my schedule whatever works for you and E.,

"Your humble servant, Scotty."

Ugh.

When will Scott Galvin learn to take a hint?

- And when will you learn

that you are utterly and completely irresistible?

Especially in silk.

- Ooh, ooh.

Yep, there it is.

There's your contact lens.

It's right there.

- Oh, um, thank you, Julianne, boo.

- Hey did you get that email from Scott?

- Yeah, I sure did,

and now it's sitting in my Trash folder

where it belongs.

I have a mind to call that guy

and tell him to take his offer and shove it up his--

- Or we could hear him out.

- Huh?

- Well, he cleared his schedule for us.

Why don't we go over there right now and just

get it over with.

- Really?

- Yeah, why not?

I mean, he can't make us do anything

that we don't want to do, right, so

why bother putting it off.

Why don't you grab your purse and

[keys jingle]

meet me in my new car.

- You bought the car.

- I bought the car.

Carpe diem.

Hey, meet me outside.

[bouncy music]

- So first of all, thanks for coming to hear me out.

You two have built a firecracker of a company,

you got a slate full of exciting female-driven projects,

and we want that kind of mojo at the Rock,

so we're comin' to the best.

- Oh, well, thank you, that's very flattering.

- It's very flattering, Scott, so

what exactly are you proposing?

- Well, 50/50 on its own isn't worth much.

You two are the company.

It's your know-how that I'm interested in,

and I'm prepared to make it worth your while

and offer you more, much more

than fair market value.

- How much, exactly?

- 500,000.

Each.

Plus an additional 500,000

after the first six months of a five-year contract.

- Um, a five-year contract?

- To build 50/50 into what it could be,

what it should be.

A million buck-a-roos in your wallet,

plus the power, freedom

and enough money to go after A-listers.

Fiction, non-fiction, cream of the crop.

Noodle on that.

And if you're interested we can put some meat on the bones.

[bouncy music]

- A million dollars?

Scott's right about one thing.

50/50 is not worth that much,

I mean not by a long-shot.

- Yeah, well, I didn't open a company

so I could sell it two years later.

- You know, we're just

exploring our options.

- Okay, let's explore.

We sell the company and our souls,

we work for Scott.

- We call the shots.

I mean, he said that we would get free reign.

- No, no, no, Scott would be our boss.

Okay, he can spin it any way he wants.

Erica, I can't even believe you're considering his offer.

- Merging with River Rock--

- Selling to River Rock.

- It would give us deeper pockets

and we could get there faster.

- Building a company takes time, years.

It takes patience.

- What if I can't be patient?

I mean, we're investing in the future, yes,

but the future, it's, I mean,

it's a big question mark.

Julianne, you could,

you could get struck by lightening tomorrow,

I could get hit by a car. [phone rings]

- I'm gonna get that

and you need to go home and figure out

what you really want,

a million bucks or our business.

- Julianne--

- I'm serious.

Hello, 50/50.

[tense music]

[Erica gasps]

- Hello, Erica.

[tense music]

- You, you look like me.

- Because I am you.

You at 43.

- Ahh.

I don't know, I,

I just um, this is uh, it's--

- It's a lot to take in.

I know.

Are you okay?

- No, I mean I would be if I understood

what was happening right now, but I'm,

I'm talking to myself in my apartment and it's--

- It's a shock, I know,

but I wouldn't have come if it wasn't important.

- Wait a minute, I'm,

I'm supposed to be dead.

But you're here, so I'm not?

- That's what I've come to talk to you about.

- I survived?

- We did, and we didn't.

- Okay, what does that mean,

because Dr. Fred said that in the future, I'm dead.

- He wasn't wrong.

In his reality you are dead.

- Okay, I don't understand, am I,

I mean, am I dead or do I survive?

- Both.

You're both dead and alive.

In two different threads.

- This is crazy.

I, I mean.

- Okay.

Can we just back it up a sec?

- Sure, yeah, that's a good idea.

- Question for you.

Who did we lose our virginity to?

- Why are you asking?

- Just answer the question.

- Zach Creed?

- Are you sure it wasn't Alex Berlin?

Because actually it's both.

- Mmm.

- Think of it like this.

There are two realities,

one in which we slept with Zach,

and one in which we slept with Alex.

Two realities.

Two choices.

They both exist.

- Um.

- Come with me.

- [Young Erica] Where are you taking me?

- I'm gonna show you something that

might make things clearer.

[tense music] [thundering chord]

- Whoa, what have you done to my apartment?

- This is sometimes things are easier to understand

if you can see them with your own eyes.

This is a manifestation of our life.

The doors are the choices we make every day.

We cross the threshold

and our future is created

moment by moment,

breath by breath,

step by step.

- So this door?

- Our life if we would have stayed at River Rock.

And behind here,

our life if we would have married Ethan.

[Erica laughs nervously]

- And this one?

- A reality in which

Leo didn't go to the barn that night,

where he's alive in 2011.

[wistful music]

But that's not our reality,

no matter how much we'd like it to be.

And here's where we find ourselves now.

Behind this door,

Kai and Dr. Fred, they don't tell you about 2019,

and you die.

But behind this door, they do tell you,

and because you know what happens in 2019

you avoid it, and you survive.

- This is our door.

- It is.

- Why are you telling me all this?

- So that you'll stop allowing your future

to dictate your present.

We all know that we're gonna die,

but the date, the exact moment, it's,

it's a mystery, it's a secret.

And for a good reason.

Knowing, it changes things,

the way you act, the choices you make.

You need to live fully in the present,

unencumbered by the past

or the future.

[gentle music]

- Thank you.

Feels kinda weird to thank myself, but.

- [laughs] You're welcome.

[thundering chord]

[tense music]

[thundering chord]

- Erica.

[chuckles]

Or should I say Dr. Erica?

- Are you asking me about the future, Dr. Tom?

- Maybe.

[Dr. Tom laughs]

Oh, it's strange

seeing you this way.

- Mmm.

I mean, you know, the same, but uh,

[chuckles] yeah, different.

- Eight years.

It's a long time.

A lot happens.

It's strange seeing you, too,

in a really great way.

- You look happy.

- I am.

And how are you?

- Well, you know.

Yeah, it's been an interesting few months.

The more you learn, the less you know.

- Mm-hmm.

- Well I would ask you how it all turns out but,

but then you can't tell me, can you?

[wistful music]

- Well, I,

I wish that I could stay and talk, but--

- Oh, yeah, all right.

I mean, if you have to go.

Yeah, yeah.

I'm sure we'll still be talking

eight years from now.

- Good-bye, Dr. Tom.

- Good-bye, Erica.

[thundering chord]

[Erica sighs]

- So, what's on your to-do list today?

You goin' to work?

- Uh, yeah, probably.

Why?

- Why?

I don't know, I was just asking.

- No, I mean I'm,

I'm on call, so I'll,

yeah, I'll probably go in.

- On call, what are you, Batman?

- No, I just mean my availability is open today, so.

- Right, your availability is open,

but you, on the other hand,

closed shut.

- [sighs] Amanda, it's,

my work, it requires confidentiality, right?

- You mean like the guy we saw yesterday?

He's a patient, right?

- Yeah, yeah.

- So why didn't you just say so,

instead of acting all strange

and like you were hiding something.

- Because my work is,

well, it's not us.

I mean, it's got nothing to do with what,

what we have.

- It's a part of you,

and you have a history of shutting me out,

and if that's the way it's gonna be

then you need to tell me

because I can't go through it again.

- Okay, okay.

I'm sorry.

And truly, this is not the way that it's going to be.

Amanda, I promise you.

- Okay.

- Okay.

[bouncy music with humming]

[phone rings]

- Hey, Mom.

What do I,

okay, whoa, whoa, whoa, slow down.

What?

Oh my god.

No, okay, I'll be right there, just, just,

just tell her to hang on.

Okay, bye.

[Erica squeals]

Heloo!

- Erica, she's already started pushing.

- What, already?

- Yes! - I've said it before

and I'll say it again,

Sam should be having the baby in the hospital,

and not in the living room in a kiddie pool.

Why a water birth? [Sam groaning]

- Gary, stop being so melodramatic.

- Listen, I thought that the first labor

was supposed to be really like long and drawn out.

- Yeah, but the midwife said she's just

progressing incredibly quickly.

- So it worked.

- What worked?

- The prostaglandins.

It's nothing. - Come, come, come, come!

[gentle music]

[Sam groaning] - You're doin' great,

you're doin' great.

- Oh my god.

[Sam breathes heavily]

I gotta move.

- Oh my god.

I'm getting a flashback of your mother's Cesarean.

- Who's idea was it to invite Dad?

- Sam didn't want to hurt his feelings.

Gary, I think you should wait in the other room.

- Good idea.

- Okay.

- [Erica] Woo!

[Sam groaning]

- [Midwife] Okay, good job.

Push for me, Sam.

- Doing great, Sammie.

- [Midwife] Good, good, okay.

Again, push.

[Sam breathing heavily] - Push, push.

You're doin' great, you're doin' great honey,

you're doin' great. [Sam groans loudly]

- [Midwife] You're almost there,

you're almost there.

One more time.

[Sam moans] - Yeah, come on.

- [Midwife] Come on, Sam.

- [Barb] You're doing so well, sweetie.

- And here he is.

Push.

All right, here he comes, here he comes.

- [Barb] Honey!

- [Midwife] Okay, and here he is.

[baby crying]

Are you ready to see your baby boy?

[laughing]

[inspiring music]

- Hey little guy.

Hey.

- Hey, Leo.

[baby crying] - Leo?

Leo?

[Sam laughs]

- Oh, wow.

Oh, wow, wow, wow.

[gentle music]

[baby cooing]

[bouncy music]

- Hey.

- Hey.

- Julianne, I'm sorry.

- Look, just do it.

Just say it,

whatever it is you're gonna say.

Do you wanna sell 50/50 or not?

- No, I don't, I don't want to sell, no.

But.

- One Girl, Two Hands.

Oh, come on, Erica, another sex book?

- [chuckles] No, it's not a sex book.

It's a novel and

I'm in love with it.

- Okay, so

first you want to sell 50/50 to our arch enemy

and now you're bringing me

fiction titles.

I mean, who are you?

- I know.

- [Julianne] I feel like I don't even know you anymore.

- Listen, Julianne, I've been going

through some stuff lately,

and what I figured out is that I need to seize the day.

Now your first love is non-fiction, and I know that,

but I need something more.

- So you want to open a fiction department?

- I do.

- Okay.

Why didn't you just say so?

I mean if this is what you need to be fulfilled

then of course I support you.

- Okay, thank you.

- [Julianne] Yeah.

- And I'm sorry but there's

one other thing that I need to ask, and that is,

to take a few weeks off.

- What, you're going away somewhere?

- On tour, actually.

So the secret someone is Kai,

[Julianne gasps]

and he's asked me to follow his band

across the country, and I,

I want to go and know that that sounds crazy, but I--

- Chicken, no, your personal life is your personal life and

I mean, Brent and I can hold down the fort.

- Thank you.

- Yeah!

- Thank you.

- [Julianne] Of course, oh, wow!

- You know what?

Why don't I get us some lattes?

- Yeah, and then we can talk this through.

- That sounds good.

- [Julianne] That sounds great.

[Julianne sighs]

- OMG did you tell her?

Is that what you were just talkin' about?

What'd she say?

Oh.

We're still in the closet.

- Brent, as soon as the time is right I--

- No, no, no, it's fine.

It's fine, you do what you gotta do.

[tense music]

- [Dr. Naadiah] You're struggling.

- I can't keep lying like this.

- I'm not gonna say it isn't hard because it is.

- Hard?

It's impossible.

How am I supposed to build an open, honest relationship

if I can't share the biggest thing in my life?

- To be open about everything else.

- And what if that's not enough for Amanda?

You have never told your wife?

- No.

- And you're okay with that.

I destroyed our relationship the first time

by holding myself apart from Amanda,

by not letting her in.

I won't do that again.

- You can't tell her, Tom.

It's simply not an option.

You must keep this, what we do,

a secret.

- And if I can't?

- Then we need to have a bigger conversation.

- Well, I'll figure it out.

- You sure?

- Mm-hmm.

- Okay, so we can talk about assigning you more patients.

We have some candidates,

and if you're open to taking on more?

- Oh, yes, please.

Thank you, Dr. Naadiah.

[bouncy music with humming]

- Okay, so I'll call the agents

and let them know that 50/50 is open for fiction submissions

but that being said, we still need to find

our Secret of Now, you know,

something for women, by women,

something that moves units

the way that Freakens book did.

- [Julianne] Secrets.

Some buoy us up, give us strength,

others exhaust us and zap our energy.

- Julianne, do you know of anyone?

- I'm sorry, anyone who?

- A woman that can fill Freaken's shoes

and his ego, I guess.

- [Julianne] Some secrets we long to share

but can't, because we fear the consequences

will be too dire.

[wistful music]

Or, because the secret isn't ours to tell.

[bouncy music with humming]