All language subtitles for Being Erica (2009) - S04E03 - Baby Mama (1080p AMZN WEB-DL x265 MONOLITH)_track3_[eng]

What? Are you... Are you sure?

Pretty sure.

Oh, my...

You can't tell me you didn't
notice.

Well, I didn't wanna say
anything,

but I thought that you
just looked a little--

-Fat?
-No, I did not say fat.

And, oh, my God, Sam!

How long have you known?
And why didn't you say anything?

[sighs] At first, I was in
total denial.

You know I've always
had irregular periods.

-Yeah.
-Sorry, Adam.

It's fine. Should--

And so I thought
I was just gaining weight

-until my nipples started
changing colour.
-Really?

-Yeah.
-I'm just...

So then I...

I don't know, I guess
I was just embarrassed.

I feel like a walking, talking
Jerry Springer episode.

I'm sorry. I shouldn't be
laughing.
I mean, it's not...

It's not funny. It's just...

Have you told Mum and Dad?

No. You're the first.

And are you...

I mean, I just, I can't
tell how you're feeling.

Are you happy?

Yes. I love Lenin and, and,

getting to have a baby
with him just feels like...

-A gift.
-Oh, my God, Sam.

[Erica] Life works in funny
ways.

Just when you think you've
got things figured out,

just when it seems like
everything's going according to
plan...

That's when something happens.

[Amanda] Tom?

Is that you?

Amanda.

Do you live around here?

Because I stop for a latte
every day
and I've never seen you.

No, no. I was, er...

I was just on a walk,
I stopped in for a coffee.

Oh.

So...

Are you married with 2.2 kids?

Er, divorced. One daughter.

Me too. Divorced.

But no kids.

Paul and I, er,

split five years ago.

Well, I should probably be on
my way.

Of course, but it'd be nice to
catch up.

Oh, yes. No, that would be nice.

I'll give you a call.

[Erica] Something small.
Something big.

Something that makes us
realise we aren't in control

and never were.

Something that lands in our
feet and leaves us speechless

and unsure of where to turn

-and what to do.
-[phone rings]

Hello?

Yes, this is she.

[Erica] Something that
blindsides us,
leaving us gasping for air.

No thought in our heads except
how could this be happening

-and what do we do now?
-[inhales sharply]

[theme song playing]

♪ It's clearer inside of me

♪ Who I will always be

♪ Open me up to my heart

♪ Feels like
I'm singing in the dark ♪

♪ Waking me up to my life

♪ To do it all over

♪ Again and again

♪ Back to the end

♪ The sum of my dreams

♪ And everything
I ever wanted to be ♪

[Erica] No, I think my mum will
be fine.
I'm more worried about my dad.

[Adam] Why, 'cause he's more
conservative?

No, because Sam and
Lenin, they're not married.

I know. Who cares, right?

Well, I care about marriage.

Like should David and I
wear suits or tuxedos?

Gold rings or platinum?

Who should we invite, and will
those
not invited hate us for
eternity?

-It's just decisions, decisions.
-[Ivan] Yup.

Just some of the many
topics we'll be going over

at my big fat stag weekend.

So, pumpkin, you ready to hit
the woods?

Oh, yeah, bring it on.

Now my best man Benny's
picking us up in five, so
chop-chop!

-Down that latte.
-Have fun!

I just... I wonder...

How do you think Lenin's
dealing with the news?

Oh, I don't know.
I don't envy him though.

I mean, can you imagine
if I came home one day

and I told you that I was
pregnant?

[laughs] It would be a disaster.

A disaster?

Well, yeah. You know, it's the
kind of
thing you wanna plan, right?

Yeah. Mmm-hmm.

Plus, I don't know
if I even wanna have kids, so...

What? Wait a minute, you
don't...

You don't know if you wanna
have kids?

Like, since when?

I don't know. Since always.

It's not something
I've been thinking about.

-Why is this...
-Because...

I want kids for sure.

[sighs]

I don't know what you want me
to say.

It's not something
I've been thinking about.

No, I mean, I know and I get it,

and I'm not trying to pressure
you into making a decision,

-but I mean, it's good that we--
-Adam? Come on.

Let's go, pumpkin!

[sighs]

Let's just cross that bridge
when we come to it, okay?

Yeah.

-[Adam] Bye.
-Bye. Have fun.

Let's do it.

[knocking on door]

Come in.

Dr. Naadiah.

What can I do for you?

Amanda Mathieson.

There's a name I haven't heard
in a while.

A woman who was very important
to you once upon a time,

expresses an interest
in meeting you for coffee

and you throw her card in the
garbage.

Well, I have no interest
in catching up with Amanda.

Why? You still angry with her?

No. Of course not.
The whole thing is ancient
history.

-Well, then why--
-Why do I have to justify this
to you?

I don't wanna call her.

I don't know what I would even
say.

You ever heard the expression
"things happen for a reason"?

-Oh, come on.
-[Naadiah] I'm not suggesting

that you should rekindle
your romance with Amanda.

I'm just wondering after the
promise
you made to Dr. Arthur...

-No, I've been taking steps.
-You've taken on two more
patients.

[sighs]

You continue to do nothing but
work.

You'll figure out what to say.

[door closing]

Now, girls, I just wanna warn
you, your mum's in a tizzy.

You know her and parties.

-Erica, did you remember the
eggs?
-Yes, I did.

We got two dozen, free range.

But honestly, how many
parents does Lenin have?

Gary, can you please
help me cut the bagels?

-[Samantha] Here.
-Oh, thank you.

Okay, so, erm...

How did it go when you told
them?

Dad took it surprisingly well.

-Really?
-Yeah.

And Mum?

Mum was a little quiet.

Well, she's probably still in
shock.

That's what I figured. And, you
know,
all morning she's been like--

-Super stressed?
-Yes.

-I hope that Lenin's parents
aren't fussy.
-Fussy? No.

Lenin's parents are a whole
other deal.

Look at this work of beauty.

And I'm not talking about my
handiwork.

I'm talking about your
fertility basket.

-Your womb.
-Thank you.

No, thank you. For the gift of
life.

So, how are you handling
everything?

Well, I'm always up for an
adventure,

and this probably the biggest
adventure I could ever face.

So, yeah, I'm good,
it wasn't planned at all.

-But, er, it feels right.
-Good.

By the fire of your bright
spirit
and by the water of your
radiant womb...

Oh, yeah, by the way,
my parents can be a bit much.

What, are you... Are you
kidding me?
Look at my dad. He just found a
new hero.

You were in the '63 march on
Washington?

-The march!
-I was only 10 at the time.
[laughs]

Barb! Gus was in the '63 march!

That's great. Trifle anyone?
Phoebe?

No, thank you.

Just being here, Barb,
imbibing in the sweet aura of
new life,

is sugar enough for me.

Okay then.

Everyone, I'm gonna pass
this bowl of beads around

and I want each one of you
to pick one that speaks to you.

It's for the birth necklace.

Our grandchild needs all the
positive
energy we can send his way.

-Oh, wow, these are beautiful.
-Mum, bead?

Are you sure that one spoke to
you?

Loud and clear, Erica.
Hand me that bowl, please.

Yeah.

-[playing drums]
-[all laughing]

-Yes!
-That was great.

[clinks glass] Everyone?

I wanna thank Gary and Barb

for bringing us here to
celebrate

this coming together of two
souls.

And to invocate the spirit of
love
growing within Sam's womb.

We couldn't be happier
to welcome all of you

into our family circle.

Barb and I would like
to say something, too.

Lenin,

welcome to our family.

I've never seen Sam happier.
Right, Barb?

Right.

So, let's raise a glass
to the happy couple.

To Sam and Lenin. Mazel tov!

[all] To Sam and Lenin.

I'm just gonna make some more
coffee.

[Gus] Cheers.
[all] Cheers!

[glasses clinking]

[silverware clattering]

Hey...

-Is everything okay?
-Yeah, I'm fine.

[dishes clatter loudly]

I think that the dishwasher
would disagree.

Mum, what's going on?

I can't do this any more, Erica.
I've tried all day, but I'm
done.

I'm done pretending
like everything is fine.

Like everything's wonderful!

My daughter has screwed up her
life

because she was too stupid
to use protection.

[SCOFFS] Mom, whoa, okay. First
of all,
Sam did not screw up her life.

-Mom, she's happy.
-Sam just got divorced, Erica.

She just got her career back on
track
and now she's pregnant by
someone

who she's been dating
for less than a year!

And I'm supposed to celebrate
that?

Shh!

Your sister should
not be having this baby.

Mum?

[whooshing]

Okay, you know what?
I get that it is a lot to
handle,

and she might be having
trouble dealing with it,

but don't offer to host a party
and then sulk your way through
it,

and don't act like it's
the end of the world.

I mean, Sam, she's an adult.

It's not like she's 16,
asking her mum to take care of
her kid.

It's clear you have
a definite point of view,

which will be useful, seeing
as your mother is your patient.

-My mother is my patient?
-Mmm-hmm.

Makes you look at it a little
differently, doesn't it?

Well, yeah. Yeah. Because now
I'm like...

I'm like why is she acting that
way?

You know, what is, what is it
about?

And? Why is she?

What do you think?

Well, I... I have a theory.

Do tell.

[clears throat]

See, Mum and Sam, they've
always been very similar, right?

They follow the rules and they
care a lot
about how they're perceived.

But now, Sam, she's... I mean,
she's divorced, she's pregnant.

She's dating a janitor
not an investment banker,

and she's breaking all these
rules.
And, and you know what?

She's happier for it.

But then my mum,
it's like she can't let go.

She's got all these expectations
about how things are supposed
to be done.

You know, you grow up,
and you get married,

and you have kids, in that
order.

Well, that is a well-reasoned,
well thought-through hypothesis.

Not bad, right?

And I think that I know
what today's assignment is.

Really? Enlighten me.

I need to help my mum realise
that this is about her, not Sam,

and her expectations are
old-fashioned.

She just needs to let go and
just be happy for her daughter.

"Life is so constructed
that events cannot,

will not, match our
expectations."

Charlotte Bronteë.

-[whooshing]
-[school bell ringing]

Erm...

John Lennon?

Oh...

-Miss Strange?
-Oh!

Why am I in The Brady Bunch?

Actually, The Brady Bunch
premieres is in just two weeks,

as part of the fall
television schedule for 1969.

Oh, my God!

You said you wanted
to talk to your mother?

Well... There she is.

[Erica] That's my mother?
[Tom] It is.

Although technically,
not for a few more years.

I can't believe this. How old
is she?

Seventeen. She just started
her senior year.

[Erica] And I'm just supposed
to like walk up to her

and see if she's digging my
vibe?

Mmm. Maybe let me do the
talking.

Miss Fraiberg? Hi.

I'm Mr. Wexlar,
the new guidance counsellor.

Hi. Am I in trouble?

No, no, far from it. As a
matter of fact,

you were recommended to me
as an honour roll student

with a perfect record.

So, I was hoping that you
could show Erica around.

-She's new to our school.
-Hey.

Of course. I'd be happy to.

Cool. Well, I'll let you two
get to know one another.

-Good luck, Erica.
-[laughs nervously]

Erica... That's a pretty name.

-Erica what?
-[hesitatingly] Lennonowitz.

Well, er, first bell's gonna
ring,
so we should probably start the
tour.

-Groovy.
-[laughs]

Er, after you, Barb.

-Okay.
-Barb.

The lunch room is just
at the end of this hall.

[sighs] What else?

That is the pit.

All the hippies and
burnouts smoke out there.

-[school bell dings]
-Oh. Warning bell.

Er, your next class is home ec.
It's the second door on the
right.

Home ec, huh? Far out.

-Not really.
-Betty's a real fox.

-Barb?
-I got dibs. Don't you forget
it.

So? Who is he?

-No one.
-Really, you're into guys like
that?

And why wouldn't I be into
someone like Allan Milley?

-He's a hunk.
-He is a, a hunk.

I just... He seems kind of like
a...

[both] Jerk.

[laughs] Jinx, you owe me a
Coke.

Oh, yeah!

Okay, erm...

Well, I guess I'll meet you
after class
and we can finish the tour.

Swell. Thanks, Barb.

[school bell rings]

Your husband expects a
delicious meal
at the end of a long day.

His favourite dish
is the warm welcome he deserves.

You've gotta be kidding me.

Turn to page 50, ladies, for
today's
tasty recipe. Pretzel meatloaf.

Pretzel meatloaf?

I know. Something my nana would
make.

[both laughing]

You're new, right? I'm Nancy.

Hi, Nancy. I'm Erica.

You're gonna love it here.

Our football team?
Regional champions three years
running.

We have a first rate
glee club, if singing's your
thing.

No, not at all.

Well, hey, if you want,
I'd be more than happy to show
you around.

That's very sweet of you, Nancy,

but actually the guidance
counsellor,
he already set me up with a
student.

Barbara Fraiberg.

Oh.

What?

Oh, well, I'm not one to gossip,

but since you're new
you should probably know.

Okay, this past summer, Barbie
got
completely smashed at Matty
Gibson's party

and word is
her and Allan Milley went all
the way.

-All the way, all the way?
-Mmm-hmm.

She was nuts about him,
everyone knew it.

-And?
-And it was a huge scandal.

So if you'd like me to show you
around
instead, I'd be more than happy.

No. I'm fine with Barb. Thank
you.

Touch up your makeup,
put a ribbon in your hair.

Looking fresh is just as
important
as a well set table, ladies.

[school bell rings]

-Barb, hey!
-Hi. How was home ec?

It was, er, enlightening.

So, should we eat outside
or in the lunch room?

All the jocks and cheerleaders
eat out in the quad.

Really?

Whatever you like.

Actually, Barb,

before we head off,
do you remember that guy, the...

-The hunk?
-Why?

Well, I just, erm...

What?

Did you hear something about me?

Someone mentioned
something about a party.

It's not true. We did not do it.
I am not that kind of girl.

Look, Barb, it's okay.

Whatever you did or didn't
do, it's none of my business...

Barb?

Barb!

Hey.

It's okay.

You've been at this school two
hours

and you've already
heard that rotten story.

All we did was make out.
He wanted to go further, but I
wouldn't.

-So it's a lie?
-Of course it's a lie.

But it doesn't matter,
because everyone believes it

and now I've been branded a
slut.

I know it feels like
the end of the world,

but it's a rumour and it'll
pass.

No, it won't.
Not when Allan's the one
spreading it.

Allan?

He's getting back at me
because I wouldn't do what he
wanted.

Huh.

Listen, Barb, where I'm from,
girls
don't put up with that sort of
thing.

-Take me to Allan.
-What are you gonna do?

You guys wanna hear a joke?
I don't got one.

[jocks laughing]

Allan Milley?

That depends. Who's asking?

I am. I wanna talk to the jerk

that's been spreading false
rumours about Barbara Fraiberg.

Hate to break it to you,
but those aren't rumours.

Okay. I'm gonna keep this real
simple
so that you'll understand.

If you ever tell a lie about
Barb again,

I will hunt you down
and make you pay for it.

[laughs]

Okay. Sure you will, you ugly
skag.

I don't even know
what that means, but I am
offended.

I am a woman, hear me roar.

[groans]

Good enough.

-[gasps]
-Asshole.

-All done!
-I can't believe you just did
that.

-And the look on Allan's face.
-It was... It was priceless.

So, tell me, Barb, what do you
want to be when you grow up?

That's a funny question.

I'm just curious about you, you
know?
Do you have any hobbies?

Musical tastes?
John Lennon is holding a
concert.

Boy, would I love to get to see
that.

I'm not really a big Beatles
fan,
but I do find Davy Jones really
dreamy.

Davy Jones? The Monkees?

Of course. Yeah.

I mean, he's the most.

Is everything okay?

It's, erm...

-This tuna, it must be off.
-Oh.

Smells fine to me.

Oh, but you should've got a
whiff
of what we cooked in home ec
class.

It was bits of pretzel and
ketchup

all mashed together
in this, like, coagulated...

-Barb?
-[retches]

[groaning]

-You okay?
-I'm so sorry. I...

I can't believe I just did that.

You're sweating. Are you okay?

Er, I don't know. Erm...

Maybe I'm coming down with
something.

-[school bell rings]
-Anyway, erm...

We should get back.

I hope I didn't ruin your lunch.

No, er... No, not at all.

Here, let me, erm, help you.

Thanks.

My mum is pregnant, isn't she?

She was pregnant at 17?

Mmm-hmm.

How did we not know about this?

No one knows about it,
except for your grandparents.

Your grandmother figured
it out eventually.

She sent your mum to get a
pregnancy test

and the whole thing blew up.

Did they make her get an
abortion?

No.

They pulled her from school.

They sent her to live
with your great-aunt Avra in
Montréal.

She had the baby,

and she came back
and she never told a soul.

[stammers]

Oh, my God.

I just, I mean, I can't believe
this.

It was a painful experience for
her.

It was so painful, that after
her parents
arranged for the adoption,

she simply put it out of her
mind.

She never thought about him
again.

Him?

-She had a son?
-Yes.

Sam and I have a brother.

Leo... Had a brother.

A brother that he didn't even
know about.

She is...

She is reliving this whole
experience

all over again, isn't she?

Through Sam.

It was an experience
that she never fully
acknowledged

or dealt with herself.

Not when it happened, and not
after.

So what do I do?

You go back out there and you
listen.

That's your job today.

To really understand
where your mother is coming from

and what she went through.

Because until you know,
you can't help her.

[phone ringing]

Oh, and I forgot to tell you.
Mr Hopkins, the math teacher?

He's got shell-shock from
the Korean War or something.

Anyway, he has been
a real thorn in my side.

Use pencil, never pen,
for your assignments.

-What?
-Nothing.

Just wondering if you were
feeling better?

Yeah, I don't know what that
was.
I feel fine now.

You know, Barb, I really like
you,

and I think what people
are saying is awful.

I like you too, Erica.

I'm glad I was chosen
to be your tour guide.

I wanna ask you a personal
question

and I want you to know that
whatever your answer is,

-I'm never gonna tell anyone.
-Okay.

Did you go all the way with
Allan Milley?

No!

Why would you ask me that?
I told you I didn't.

I'm not lying!

Barb...

I gained a few pounds from all
the stress.

It's...

It's stressful having
people lie about you.

Do you remember when
you last got your period?

You lost track, right?

I'm not pregnant.

Barb...

Did he use a condom?

It's okay.

[crying softly]

Everything's gonna be okay. I
promise.

How?

Everyone already thinks
I'm the school slut

and now I'm pregnant?

I have always done everything
right,

followed all the rules, worked
hard
at school, been responsible.

And now, the one time I let
myself go,

I mean...

I thought he loved me, Erica.

That's why I let him.

My parents are gonna kill me.

-No, they won't.
-No, you don't understand.

I am their honour roll student,

the one who never gives them
any trouble.

They expect me to go
to university next year.

You know what? And you will,
okay?

Listen to me.

You are gonna get through this.

-I promise you.
-You? Promise?

What are you gonna do?

Snap your fingers and
make everything okay?

-Barb...
-Don't touch me!

Barb!

[whooshing]

[indistinct chatter]

Erica, what is going on with
Mum?
Is everything all right?

Er...

-Ivan, stay still.
-[mosquito buzzing]

-[winces] Ow!
-I got it.

So, Ivan, you have the boy, the
ring,
the house in the 'burbs...

-The baby's coming in three
months.
-[all laughing]

You and Dave thinking of
adopting?

Well, we've had our fun in the
sun,
so it's time to pay things
forward.

-What about you and Erica?
-[chuckles uncomfortably]

Erica asked me that exact
same thing this morning.

-And?
-And my answer didn't go down
so well.

Why, you don't want kids?

I don't know.

Erica does, and I want to want
to have kids, it's just...

I don't know.

Adam, we may all look like
bikers,
but we're still homosexuals,

so, come on, emote.

Share.

I just don't think I'd make a
good dad.

How could you know that?

I had awful parents, and, you
know,

"The sins of the father
are visited on the sons."

It scares me.

I don't think I could love you
any more right now if I tried.

-Come on, come on.
-Ivan.

[Ivan] No, come to papa.

-You're gonna make the best dad
ever.
-There you go.

-You sure are.
-Come on.

-Sure are.
-[Adam, muffled] Guys!

Guys, I can't breathe.

Thanks again for having us.
We should be going.

-Okay.
-I'll, er, see you at home.

-Okay.
-[kissing]

Thank you.

[Gary] Hey. Thank you.

Okay, Mum, what is going on?

-Sam...
-[phone rings]

No, I'm serious.
Could you have been any more
rude?

If you're through yelling
at me, I'm gonna answer that.

-What is wrong with her?
-Barb...

Dad, just leave her alone.

-Barb?
-Okay, fine.

[phone beeps off]

I'm going out.

-What? Where?
-Mum...

[mobile rings]

Adam, hey.

Hey, I'm just checking in.

-I'm really glad you called.
-Yeah.

Listen, I wanted to talk
to you about earlier.

I know it was weird, but,
you just caught me off guard.

Don't even worry about it.
I'm not even thinking about it.

I'm just trying to get through
this weekend without freaking
out.

Erica, slow down. What's going
on?

[sighs]

So my mum is my patient,

and Mrs. Tom, he brought
me back to her past.

And I found out that she got
pregnant
when she was 17 and she had a
little boy.

What?

And now she's a mess because of
everything
that Sam's going through,

and I don't know how I'm
supposed to help her,

you know, I just don't know
what I am supposed to do here.

[Erica] Look, I gotta go. Sam and Dad are waiting for me.

Wait, Erica.

[Erica] Don't worry, everything's gonna be fine. Bye.

[line disconnects]

-[mobile beeps off]
-[sighs]

Your son hired us to find you

for the purpose of accessing
his medical history.

His medical history? Why?

Well, he and his wife
just had their first baby,

they're concerned about
hereditary diseases.

-They had a baby?
-Mmm-hmm.

Look, if you'd be willing to
fill out a
medical questionnaire and
return it to us,

he would very much appreciate
it.

Fine. Where is it?

Mrs. Strange, this is
extremely helpful, so thank you.

But I have one final
request from your son.

What is it?

He's indicated he would like to
meet you.

No. Absolutely not.

Look, I understand,
and I will let him know.

Rest assured we will not
be contacting you again.

[door closes]

Barb? Where have you been?

-Mom!
-Hey, Sam, let me talk to her.

-Erica, this has nothing to do
with you.
-Please, just...

I'm serious. Just let me handle
this.

Okay?

Mom.

Look, we know that you're upset.

Erica, please, leave me alone.

You know Sam, she's putting
on a brave face right now,

but she really needs
your help and support.

Sam made a huge mistake
and I can't pretend she didn't.

[clears throat]

You know what? You don't have
to pretend.

We all know that is was a
mistake.

Sam knows.

But she wants to have this baby
and,

and she's having it with
a man that she loves.

-Did you see this?
-I don't want to.

This is your first grandchild.

This little boy is gonna
be a part of our family.

And once he's born and once you
meet him,
I mean, none of this is gonna
matter.

And Sam, she's gonna be a
terrific mother.

I thought your sister was
smarter.

To make a mistake like this...

Sam and I, we have made tons of
mistakes.

Same with Dad.

And you.

Mom, it's...

It's not the mistakes
that we make that define us,

it's how we deal with them.

Erica...

There's something I wanna tell
you.

What?

I...

It's okay, Mom, you can tell me.

Whatever it is.

Mom?

Oh, honey, I'm sorry.

I... I ruined the brunch.

Mom, what's going on?

I need to explain things...

About something that happened
to me a long time ago.

When I was 17,

I got pregnant.

I had a baby.

You think you've got it all
figured out.

You think you know,
you've got a plan, and then...

[mimics explosion]

Sam's pregnant.

My mum had a baby when she was
17.

My boyfriend, he doesn't even
know
if he wants to have kids.

And nothing in life turns out
the way that you think it will.

Nothing ever does.

The more we learn, the less we
know.

Keeps us humble,

and it keeps us growing and
changing,
which, in the end, is the whole
point.

You know, sometimes
I can't believe how lucky I am

to be living the life that I'm
living.

And then I get to go back in
time

and hang out with my mum
when she was a teenager.

I mean, can we just acknowledge
for one moment how awesome that
is?

I'm glad you enjoyed yourself.

Even if I didn't get to see
John Lennon.

Live in concert.

-John Lennon.
-[chuckles] Maybe next time.

Yeah.

[sighs]

[clears throat]

You know, the first day that I
met you?

It was the worst day of my life.

And then, out of the blue,
there you were.

And I didn't expect it,
I didn't ask for it,

and it scared the hell out of
me.

But looking back?

It's the best gift
that's ever been given to me.

Thank you.

Good night, Erica.

Good night.

[door opens, closes]

-Hey, you.
-[gasps]

Oh, my God, you scared me.
What are you doing back?

You're not supposed to be
back till tomorrow night.

I wasn't.
I took a bus back this
afternoon.

I was worried about you. You
okay?

Wow. Now I'm better.

[sighs]

Good. 'Cause you sounded like
you were about to lose it.

[chuckles] I almost did.

But, Adam, honestly, you
didn't have to come back early.

Yeah, I did.

Did you figure everything
out with your mum?

[sighs] Not as much as I could.

I couldn't imagine keeping
a secret like that for so long.

From us, from my dad.

And to know that she has
another child out there,

especially after Leo...

-She was pretty traumatised by
it.
-I know.

I mean, of course she was.
Who wouldn't be?

And listen, about earlier.

I'm sorry for coming down on
you so hard.

Erica,

I'm not saying I don't wanna
have kids.

I'm saying I want them when
we're ready.

When it makes sense, okay?

Yeah. Of course.

[dialling]

Hello, is this Amanda?

Hi. It's Tom.

Er, I'm good actually.

I'm really good.

-Barbara?
-Daniel.

Thank you for changing your
mind.

Please, sit.

-I'm sorry, I'm staring at you.
-No, I'm doing the same.

I wondered if you would
look like me, and you do.

I mean, I guess I have that
backwards,
I look like you.

The woman I spoke to
told me you have a baby.

Yes. Little girl.

Oh.

And you?

Ah, well, I had three
children, but one died.

-Oh.
-I'm sorry.

No. Don't be.

My son, Leo,
died 12 years ago, in an
accident.

I have two daughters, Erica and
Samantha,

and Samantha's expecting her
first.

We just found out.

-Well, congratulations.
-Thank you.

I hope that me getting in touch
with you,

it hasn't upset you?

I wasn't upset with you.

I was upset with myself,
and the call forced me to deal
with that.

Why were you upset with
yourself?

Because I gave you away.

-You were 16.
-17.

Yeah. You did the right thing.

I got great parents.

You do?

I had an amazing childhood.

-[inhales]
-I got a wonderful wife and
daughter.

I'll show you a picture.

-Look.
-Oh.

[laughs]

Red hair, like Erica.

So that's where that comes from.

-Her name's Jada.
-Oh. Pretty name.

[Erica] The gift that lies
waiting for us
is growth, is change,

is the possibility that something good comes from pain.

And when the crisis hits,

when our world is turned upside down, when we are afraid...

Will we have the strength, the
wisdom,

to embrace the gift that's there and welcome it with open arms?