All language subtitles for Being Erica (2009) - S02E10 - Papa Can You Hear Me (1080p AMZN WEB-DL x265 MONOLITH)_track3_[eng]

ERICA: Relationships,

they're like pillars
in our lives,
providing support,

defining the space
in which we live.

-Good morning.
-Hey, you.

[CLEARS THROAT]

-Is everything okay?
-Yeah.
Everything's fine. Why?

You know,
you're the worst liar
on the planet.

Sorry, I'm just, uh,
I'm just a little distracted.

Because?

Because the...

The Noneis launching,
and Alexis owes me a draft
of the third chapter.

It's four days late.
Julianne is breathing
down my back.

And, of course, I forgot
to pick up the dry cleaning.
Again.

Plus, we got the hydro bill,
and it's crazy this month.

-Yeah.
-Anything else you
want to stress about?

Point taken.

Hey, I'll pick up
the dry cleaning.
It's going to be okay.

-It always is.
-Thanks.

We think of them
as solid, immutable.

The world may change
around us,
but our relationships?

They remain constant.

No, and I agree.
I think that the orgasm
chapter is compelling,

but I feel like
it's coming too
soon in the book.

Uh, no pun intended, I hope.

And chapter three?
Where's that one, exactly?

-I'm hoping it's in my inbox.
-[BOTH LAUGH]

[CLEARS THROAT]

Hey, what're you doing here?

Just, uh...

[COUGHS]

I didn't sleep last night.
I kept thinking about
what you said.

And I realised that this
was a big mistake,
us becoming friends.

-Kai...
-I came back here to

have a normal life,
not to screw up yours.

No, you came back
to undo a regret.

At first.

And then I realised that I can
do a lot more than that.

-I can rewrite my
whole existence.
-No, you can't.

I can, and I was,
until you showed up.

You know, getting in the
middle, between you and Ethan,
that was the old me,

and I won't go
down that road again.

And I'm not asking you to.

We should've stuck to coffee
and small talk, like I said.

-I think that you're
overreacting.
-Really?

-Yeah.
-You think you
can just say that...

That you feel something
for me and it doesn't
change anything?

Well, not if we don't let it.

Just do yourself a favour
and stay away from me.

-Kai...
-I'm serious.

I'm done, with this whole
screwed up situation,
this friendship

or whatever the hell it is.
It's over.

ERICA: Relationships,
they feel so permanent,
so solid.

So why are we always
surprised to find out that,
like everything else,

they are not immune to change?

[THEME SONG PLAYING]

# It's clearer inside of me

# Who I will always be

# Open me up to my heart

# Feels like
I'm singing in the dark

# Waking me up to my life

# To do it all over

# Again and again

# Back to the end

# The sum of my dreams

# And everything
I ever wanted to be #

[SIGHS]

Brent?

We can't talk here.

What? Why not?

Count to 15
before you follow me.

Second thought, make that 20.

-Brent!
-[METAL CLANGS]

-I said 20.
-What has gotten into you?

You've become a cub scout?

No. These two
fingers represent
the pause button...

-On our friendship.
-What?

River Rock Publishing
is in the middle of
a cold war.

I'm America,
and you're the USSR.

-That's ridiculous.
-Crossing enemy
lines is a mistake.

-It complicates things.
-Oh, Brent, come on.

This is crazy.
How long can you
two keep this up?

Don't blame me.
Blame Julianne.

[SCOFFS]

By the way, fierce heels.

I am the one that's
paid the lion's share
of the mortgage!

I am the one that's
bought the groceries!
I paid the bills!

I arranged and funded
all of our vacations!

Hey! Sam. What's going on?

Divorce papers?

Wait, Josh is asking
for a divorce?

Not just a divorce, Erica.

He wants to wipe me out.

Claire and Josh,
separated at birth.

He wants you to pay
him $80,000?

Yup. Yup. Because,
according to him,
he put me through med school.

That's ridiculous. He didn't.

You know,
all of the signs were there,
even from the beginning.

I, I just didn't even
want to see them.

-Like what?
-Like...

We just never talked,

never about
anything important,
never about how I felt.

So,

of course, after a while
we become like strangers...

It was like he had this
made-up idea in his
mind of who I was...

and now here we are.

You know what's really,
really pathetic?

I just want to run away
from this whole thing.

So, I go to Goblins like
some desperate loser,
looking for Kai.

Kai.

Really? And, uh, how was that?

He wasn't there.
He quit, actually.

What?

-I mean, are you sure?
-Yeah.

Dave said
he came in this morning
and didn't give any notice.

Just walked out the door.

[PHONE RINGS]

Oh, that's the lawyer
calling me back.
One sec.

Hello? Yes, this is Samantha.

[SIGHS]

[DOOR CLOSES SOFTLY]

Hey. There you go.

Sorry, we're closing.
I know. But, Dave, look,
I heard that Kai quit,

and I really need
to talk to him.

So, do you have
his phone number?

He doesn't want me
giving that to anyone,
especially you.

Dave! Look, please.

Something is going
on with him, and...

-Kai, he loves this job.
-Apparently not.

He didn't even give me
two weeks' notice.

-Did he tell you that
he's quitting his band?
-What?

Last thing he said
before he walked out.

I don't know what's
happening to him.

Please, please, Dave,
I really need to talk to him.

This is his address.
He's not answering
his phone.

You didn't get this from me.

-Uh-huh?
-Mmm-hmm!

-You don't...
-Oh, Dave, thank you!

Okay.

Thank you! You're the best!

-[KNOCK ON DOOR]
-[ROCK MUSIC PLAYING]

Kai! It's Erica!

[MUSIC STOPS]

-Look, I came all this way!
-Uninvited.

To talk to you. Please.

Hey.

Can I come in?

Look, I know that I made
everything really complicated
for you, and I'm sorry.

Whatever.
It's not you, it's me.
I screw everything up.

It's always the same bullshit.

Why did you quit your job?

Because I figured then,
if I disappear,

you and Ethan can go back to
being in love,

Travis can have a nice
little musical career.

No, that's not the
way that this works.

I don't care how this works.

You can go. Now!

-Kai...
-I told you to stay away,
all right?

Stop trying to save me.
It's not your job.

If Dr Fred can give up,
so can you.

-No, Dr Fred,
he hasn't given up.
-Really?

Do you see him here,
laying down the law? No.

Tomorrow, I tell Travis
I quit the band,
then I'm gone.

[ROCK MUSIC PLAYING]

You...

Erica. Please, have a seat.

He won't listen. I mean,
he's being irrational
and unreasonable.

But why is he doing this?

Well, those are all
valid questions,

-but they're not for you
and I to discuss, so...
-Why not?

Why? Because.

In here, we talk about you.

Right? Your life...

and your choices and,
lo and behold, your list.

But I can't just ignore
what's happening to him.

Kai, he has no one.
I feel responsible,
and so should you.

I mean, you let
Dr Fred send me to
his future for a reason.

Yes. I did.

And, you know,
it's a decision that
I've since come to regret.

Well, then why did you agree?

Because I thought
that it would help you,

that it might provide for you
some useful, you know,
perspective.

But instead,
you've gotten completely
caught up in his life.

-[SCOFFS]
-What you need to
do is focus on yourself.

Okay? So, please, sit.

-No.
-No?

This is my therapy,
and I should be allowed to
decide what we talk about.

Erica, just drop it. Okay?
You're not his doctor.

-This is not your problem.
-No, because his
doctor is MIA,

and Kai is out there drowning,
and you are acting like
you don't even care.

-You could talk to him.
-No.

Yes. You could get
through to him.

You and I are not going to
discuss this any further.

You know, unlike Dr Fred,
I don't become involved in
the lives of other patients.

-That's a rule?
-That's my rule.

Fine.

-We are not doing this today.
-Erica, come back.

-Open the door.
-Come back and sit down
in the chair, please.

Open the door!

[DOOR SLAMS SHUT]

[DOOR SHUTS]

Everything okay?

We had a disagreement.

It wasn't our first,
won't be our last.

Well, disagreements
are a normal part
of the process.

This was different.

This felt like

the fights that I used
to have with Sarah.

In what way?

Well, you know,
she and I would
get going, and, uh,

you know, there was
never any middle ground.

It just would always end up
being an all-out war.

And it never
accomplished anything.

It would just end up
leading...

Well, you know where it led.

You lost her.

Are you afraid that
you might lose Erica?

I don't know.

I, I don't understand.
I mean, I don't even know
what that was in there.

I was not a good father.

And I'm aware of that,
but I am a good therapist.

Yes, but even the best
therapists miss things.

What? Just tell me, then.
What is the connection here?

You know, why am I having the
same fight with Erica that I
used to have with my daughter?

Only one way to find out.

-Stop it!
-Sarah.

Let go of me!

-Sarah!
-Forget it, Dad,
I'm never coming home!

Sarah, wait. Wait!
I just want to talk to you.

Yeah, well,
you never listen to me.
There's no point.

Wait, wait, wait!
This time, I will listen.

She said she
doesn't want to talk.

-Yeah, just go back
to work, okay?
-Work?

I don't care about work.
Oh, you see this?

-This is work, okay?
-Dad...

Okay, what else?
My cell phone? Work.

Definitely work. Garbage.

And uh, what, watch?

You take that.
No more work, okay?

Dad, what's gotten into you?
You're embarrassing yourself.

I want you to come
and have some lunch with me.

Just lunch,
one hour, that's all.

Please.

Okay, I'll meet you
back at the van, Martin.
Okay?

Don't let him do this.
He's just messing
with you again.

I'll be fine. I promise. Okay?

Just go.

We leave at 5:00.
Don't be late.

Hey, you ready?

You remember this place?

Of course. I'm not brain-dead.

[SIGHS]

You used to bring me
here every Sunday.

We'd get
strawberry milkshakes.

Yeah.
With extra whipped cream.

Yeah, and you'd always
let me eat yours.

Yeah.

Seems like a lifetime ago.

So, what did you want to
talk to me about?

You.

Uh, let me guess.
Okay, you hate my hair.
My clothes, my friends...

-Sarah...
-How I'm ruining my life.

Sarah, I'm here because
I want to understand
what happened.

I just want to know
how you and I
ended up like this.

I don't know.
It just happened.

Listen, I understand

that the problems between
your mum and I didn't

or haven't helped
the situation, but...

-Can we, can we
just order already?
-All right.

I'm just trying to
understand here.

Well, you never do.
You just believe
what you want.

Well, maybe you do that, too.

What can I get you?

Two eggs, over medium,
multigrain toast.

Uh, I'll do the mushroom
and cheese omelette, please.

-Anything to drink?
-No. Water for me.

Nothing, thanks.
No, excuse me, uh...

Actually, we'll have two
strawberry milkshakes,
extra whipped cream.

We couldn't find you anywhere.
You know, finally,
your mum stayed up top,

and I took the elevator
all the way down to
the ground floor,

and I got out of the elevator,
and there you were,

reciting the alphabet,
in French,

to, uh, the security guards
at the CN Tower.

And you were little, too.
You couldn't have
been more than five.

Not scared though.
Nah, not one bit.

-Take your time.
-Thank you.

Oh. Damn.

What's wrong?

My, uh, wallet
was in my jacket.

-Oh, no way.
-Way.

Do you have money?
I'll pay you back.
I promise.

Yeah.

-Three and change.
-That's it?

-Yup.
-Not enough.

-Let's go.
-No, no.

-We can't do that.
-What, you got a better idea?

Come on, Dad, our window's
closing, and we need to
dine and dash now.

Excuse me, sir. Sir!

[SARAH GIGGLING]

-[BOTH PANTING]
-Wow. I can't believe
you did that.

Yeah, neither can I.

That is so not you.

Can I ask you something?

Sure.

So, where are you
and Martin going?

-Dad.
-What?

Come on,
I don't wanna talk about that.
We're just gonna fight, okay?

Forget it, then. It's okay.

Well, I should get back.

Oh, Martin said that you
had till 5:00, right?

Sarah, I really just...

Just want to
tag along with you,
see how you spend your time.

I'm not going to interfere.
I'll just sit there,
won't say a word.

What is it you think I do?
Steal cars?

Vandalise private property?
Beg?

Sarah, I have no
idea what you do.

And that's why I'm asking.

This is a life drawing class.

Yeah, sorry to disappoint.

-Here you go.
-Thanks.

-Hey.
-You come here a lot?

Yeah, two or times a week.

You want to sit there?

-There?
-Yeah.

-So, you want to show
me what you did?
-Oh, uh, sure.

All right. [CHUCKLES]

Oh, that's very abstract.

Well, that's, that's a smudge
from my hand, that part.

It's good.

Can I see yours?

Come on, fair is fair.

Um, well, okay. Well...

-It was a bit rushed.
I could do better.
-Okay.

That's good.

Sarah, that's really good.

And Debbie's actually
one of my favourite models

because she's so flexible,
and she moves in really
interesting ways, you know?

So, what do you do
with that now?

Oh, nothing.
It's just an exercise.

You mind if I keep that?

-Thanks.
-Yeah.

You know, you really should've
gone to art school.

What is this,
a mid-life crisis
or something?

-Do you have cancer?
-No, no. No, no.

Well, then what? Art school?

That's what I should do?
I thought it was
Commerce or...

Pre-med or I'm on my own.

I said that?

Well, I wish I hadn't.

I mean, I know that
doesn't really help.

It helps a little.

Well...

I had a really nice
time today, Sarah.

Yeah, me, too.

Good.

You take care of yourself.

Bye, Dad.

Hey, I already know
where I'm going
to hang this.

-Dad?
-Yeah.

What, Sarah? What is it?

I don't think I want to go.

[BOTH ARGUING INDISTINCTLY]

Hey, what is this?

What are you
trying to do here?

I just came to say hello.
No need to get testy.

You and I both know,
I cannot change Sarah's path.

I can't influence her to
make a different decision.

I can't this, I can't that.
It's all about you, isn't it?

-What?
-Wonder why that is.

I have no idea
what you're talking about.

Where's Sarah in
this equation, Tom?

You're not making the choice.
She is.

Come on,
that is pure semantics,
and you know it.

The only reason
that she's changing her mind

is because
I'm a different person.

So, you know what?
Actually, yes, it has
everything to do with me.

-Hey, Dad, what's going on?
-Nothing.

Oh, I was just describing
to the officer about my
wallet, my lost wallet.

So, thank you, Officer.

Well, we'll be sure
to put every resource
we have on this,

-just for you.
-Let's go.

Marjorie?

[CLOCK BELL TOLLS]

-I'm gonna go have
a shower.
-Okay.

Uh, Sarah?
What should I make
us for dinner?

-Don't you mean,
what should you order in?
-No, I cook.

Sometimes I cook.

Yeah, I'd wait for mum
if I were you.

-Wow, look at you.
-Yeah, please don't.

I look like I walked off
the set of 7th Heaven
or something.

I hope you don't mind,
I put my clothes in the wash.

And since everything else
I own is in Martin's van...

It's totally fine.

-What's that?
-This is Fettuccine Bolognese.

-Wow. Props, Dad.
-Thanks.

-[DOOR OPENS]
-MARJORIE: Hello?

-Tom?
-Yeah, we're in the kitchen.

-Sarah.
-Hey, Mum.

Um, Dad said it'd be okay
if I came home with him.

Of course it's okay,
if you're here to stay.

Sarah's here for dinner,
which, uh,

is actually going to be
ready momentarily, so...

So, what was it this time?

Did you run out of money,
or did you have another fight
with Martin?

Yeah, it was a big mistake.
I really shouldn't have
come here.

-Sarah, wait.
-One of many.

-Marjorie, please.
-What?

She's here.

-That's a good thing.
-It is, but I think I have the
right to know why she's here

-and if she's going
to stay this time.
-Just drop...

[CLEARS THROAT]

Uh, could you, um,
set the dining room table
for us, please?

-I cannot believe you!
-Shh! I know. Shh!

I thought we agreed
we'd be a united front.

Yeah. Listen, I spent
the day with her today.

And I really believe
that we all have an
opportunity here.

And, Marjorie, I don't want to
drive her away again.

-We have been down this road
before and every time...
-Every time, we fail.

Yeah, all of us.

But let's, can we just
have some dinner?

As a family?

Pasta's not overcooked,
I hope?

It's really good.

So, have you, um...

Have thought about your plans
now that you're home?

-No.
-Well, I'm here,

if you want help
with your resume

or if you decide
you want to apply
to university again.

Well, I just got
back an hour ago.

Of course.

We can think ahead.

She is, actually.

Sarah tells me that
she wants to pursue art.

Yeah, maybe even,
um, art school.

Well, that could be good.
You've always liked art.

So you'd study graphic design,
that sort of thing?

Maybe a bit, but...

Yeah, I think that what
Sarah wants to do
is to be an artist.

You know, the, uh,
and the thing is,
she's good.

You know, we went to
her art class today.

-To an art class?
-Yeah.

-She did this.
-Yeah, it's lovely.

But drawing is a hobby.
It's not a career.

-Marjorie, don't.
-Don't? Why? It's true.

How many artists
do you know
who make a living?

-Who aren't forced to waitress
or clean houses?

Mum,
there's more to life
than money, actually.

-I know that's really hard
for you to understand.
-TOM: Sarah.

Come on, Tom,
you agree with me.

I don't, actually.
It's Sarah's life.

And I don't think that
shutting this down
is the right thing.

-Really? Since when?
-What?

Do you know
what your dad told me
last night?

He said it killed him,
waking up every morning,

knowing that his daughter
was living on the streets

and throwing away
her whole life.

Would you stop?

Why did you come
looking for me?

-Sarah...
-I was fine.

I came because I wanted
to understand
why this happened.

This happened
because you and mum,
you won't let me live my life.

You think you can make
decisions for me for the
rest of my life, forever.

No, Sarah, that's not true.
I want you to decide.

-Right. Decide to go
to art school?
-Yes.

Yeah, so even there,
you're taking the thing
that I love, and you're...

You know I'm an adult, right?
And so, that means,

for the first time,
finally, finally,

I can make my own decisions.

You can't control me.
I can do what I want!

And right now,
what I want is to get
the hell out of here!

[DOOR CLOSES]

-Tom.
-Just, uh...

Just give me a minute.

Thank you.

For taking me back there.

I know it was hard.

Yeah, you know, I always
assumed that it was the
problems between

Marjorie and I
that were to blame
for what happened with Sarah.

And now?

Well, now I know
it was more complicated
than that.

We were scared.

We thought
she was just messing around,
you know?

We thought she just
didn't want to grow up.

When, in fact, that's exactly
what she was trying to do.

She accused you
of wanting to make
decisions for her, forever.

Is that what I'm
doing with Erica?

Making her decisions for her?

What do you think?

You can't deny
the fact that Kai...

He has become a distraction.

Maybe he has.

But why does that preclude him
from being a necessary part
of Erica's journey?

Especially
if she wants him to be?

How did you know
when I was ready?

You knew.

And you let me know.

Thank you.

Fred?

-Hey.
-Cheers.

So, what do they do
to doctors who crash and burn?

Same thing they do
to doctors who quit.

-I heard about that.
-Yeah.

Uh, not my finest moment.

Hmm.

You know,
this thing that we do,

it's not easy.

No kidding.

I can't reach him.

I've tried everything
I can think of.

Sometimes you need
a little help.

I did.

Yeah, well, no one's offered.

Well, consider this an offer.

Hey, I'm not saying
it's going to change anything.

But if you wanted me to,
I'd be happy to give it a try.

Be my guest.

I'm not sure if Kai
will let you be his,

but you might as well try.

[KNOCK ON DOOR]

[KNOCK ON DOOR]

Hold on a second!

[KNOCK ON DOOR]

Hold on a second!

Yeah, what?

It's funny.
I think was expecting
someone more charming.

You know, for a rock star.

-May I come in?
-Who are you?

Dr Tom, Erica's therapist.

Thanks.

So, what, are you
tag-teaming me now?

So, Dr Fred sent
you in here to

talk me back on the
straight and narrow,

convince me
I'm destroying my life?

Erica ever mentioned to you
that she had a brother?

No.

Well, he died ten years ago
in a tragic accident.

One that Erica tried to
go back and prevent

by twisting this therapy
into something that it's not.

-Did it work?
-What do you think?

So, well, explain to me, Kai,

what is it that you want,
exactly?

-To disappear.
-Why?

I mean, what is it that
you figure that's going to do?

It's going to make things
better for everybody,
including me.

Just seems to me
you've tried that already,
though, haven't you?

I mean, you ran away
from your whole life.

And yet, here you are again,

running.

I'm just wondering
where it ends.

It ends with Travis
still alive.

You know, Kai,
just because you want
that to happen

doesn't mean that it will.

You know, that might be
something you need to face.

-Are we done?
-No.

No. One more thing.

Be sure, Kai.

And before you make
any big changes,

before you start messing
around with your past,

be sure that you're making
the right choices this time.

"Act the way you'd like to be,
and soon you'll be the way
you act."

Bob Dylan.

You know, Alexis,
she may know a lot
about sex,

but she sure doesn't know
how to use the apostrophe.

Well, that's why we pay you
the medium-sized bucks,
chicken.

Dori swears by this
new raw food place.

That being said, raw food
plus Dori equals a bathroom
break every 20 minutes.

[ALL GIGGLE]

Hey, maybe Erica can think of
someplace we can go...

Actually, I feel like Italian.

Carb cleansing's so 2005.

Ouch.

I can't believe that
I actually thought that
I was friends with him.

Yeah, I kinda figured out
he couldn't be trusted

when I found his nail file
sticking straight
out of my back.

Erica, it's awful, I know,
but it is what it is.

Maybe if I could just talk
to him away from here...

Or maybe you just need
to accept that fact that your
friendship has changed.

Probably for good.

-Here it is.
-Thanks.

Hey, so, uh, how is this?

It's a little high on
the left, you think?

Maybe you didn't get
the message when I walked
out of here yesterday.

No, I got it loud and clear.

Erica, you were right
to be upset.

-Really?
-Yeah.

And also,
to answer your question,

when are you allowed
to decide what we talk about?

When you're ready.

And apparently, that's now.

So let's talk about Kai.

Okay.

Okay, what's the catch?

No catch.

Sit. Please.

Well, he...

He is withdrawing
from everything,

and I feel like it's my fault.

Why? Because you told him
that you felt something
for him?

And he thinks that changes
everything, and I told him
it doesn't have to,

but he, he doesn't listen.

And you think that he's wrong,

that after your confession,
that you can continue
to be just friends.

Yes, because I made it
very clear to him that...

That you were not
breaking up with Ethan.
Right. I know.

-What?
-It's funny.

You know, a year ago,
you and I couldn't
have this conversation.

You know, I would have
shut it down and, uh,
you would have dropped it.

You would've done
as you were told.

-Yeah.
-Things are different now.

You're different.

And that's a sign.

A sign of what?

Change.

You know, in here,
one gets the feeling
that time stands still.

Of course, it does, in a way.

But, uh, you and I,
our, uh, patient-therapist
relationship,

it's, uh...

It's evolving.

It is.

What is it that they say?
Change or die.

Well, you know, that's,
that's the same for
relationships, too.

You know, if we don't
allow them to change,

then we run the risk
of destroying them.

So, I think the
question here is,

can you accept
that your relationship
with Kai is changing?

I have a crush on a
damaged rock star
from the future.

I'm not going to throw away
everything that I have
for that.

For nothing.

I'm not stupid.

Well, then,
there's your answer.

Right?

[CRYING]

Yeah.

It's beautiful.

It's very raw, in a good way.

Yeah, it is.

ERICA: Change is inevitable.

The only constant is that
nothing is constant,

and our best defence
is to change
how we deal with it.

I'm just here for
a decaf vanilla latte.

-Or not?
-He's here.

-Kai?
-Yes.

-Hey.
-Hey. Hi.

So, you're just here
picking up
your last pay cheque?

No, more like begging
for my job back.

Yup.

-Wow, that's,
that's a surprise.
-I thought you'd be happy.

No, I, of course I am.
But what changed?

Your doc, he paid me a visit.

We had an interesting
conversation.

Wait, I'm sorry.
Dr Tom, he spoke with you?

-Yeah, I thought he did
it because of you.
-No, no.

I asked him to,
but he said no.

Well, I guess
he changed his mind.

Yeah, I guess he did.

Anyway,
some of the things he said,
made me reconsider.

Really?

I think
I'll stick around a while,
do some thinking.

Decide what I want to do next.

Last thing I need is
another regret, right?

Right.

Listen, Kai, about the...

I mean, about this situation
and what you said about
us not talking to each other.

Yeah, I'm sorry.
I was overreacting.

No, I think that
you were right.

I really need to focus on
Ethan and me right now.

Oh, no, of course, I get it.

You gotta do what feels right.

Okay.

Thanks.

So, we'll still see you
for your morning coffee?