Original subtitles

[light techno music]

[upbeat instrumental music]

You know that friend you have?

The girl who seems

to have it all figured out?

She's got the great job,

the great guy, the great life?

[horn honks]

[siren blares]

Well I'm not that girl.

My name is Erica Strange.

I'm 32.

Still working a dead end job.

Still sleeping with my cat.

[elevator dings]

I know people wonder why the cute

girl with the great education

and the great friends can't get it together.

There's a simple answer.

Bad decisions.

I could teach a course on

messing up your life.

Really, I am that good at

getting everything wrong.

The worst part is,

it wasn't always like this.

I used to be a rising star,

but these days

I just feel like a flame out.

WTP insurance, this is Erica speaking,

how can I help you?

Yes sir, were you planning on

purchasing a policy with us?

Uh-huh, and how many people

would you like to insure?

Uh, let me put you through

to another agent.

Okay, okay.

So, I know it's my fault

my life is where it's at,

but I figure I gotta catch a

break some time, right?

[Woman] He fired you?

He said I was too bright for the job.

Well, that's wrongful dismissal.

I mean, clearly you can't fire

someone for being too smart.

It's just embarrassing.

I mean, I have my master's degree

and I can't keep a customer service job.

I'm sorry, I,

I want to talk about this

but I've got a meeting.

Will you call me tonight after your date?

Yeah.

Lava life, right?

What's his name?

Trevor.

Oh, yeah, the dentist.

Third date?

Yeah.

Wow, you're excited.

Well, we had some trouble setting this one up.

I mean, he keeps telling me how busy he is

and you know what that means.

That he's fixing teeth.

Come on, Erica, I mean,

he's cute, he's smart,

he's got a great job and he's into you.

I mean, three dates?

Three dates means you're basically together.

If we're basically together I guess

I shouldn't be looking up

Noah LaFleur on Facebook, right?

Wait, Noah from High School?

Come on, the past is the past.

Go out with the dentist, you know?

Flash ta beautiful smile of yours and just,

just have a good time.

-Okay. -All right, bye.

-Love ya. -Love ya.

[upbeat instrumental music]

♪ What what

♪ What what

♪ What what

♪ Ladies if you came tonight

♪ To get away from your man

♪ Just lean to your right

♪ Let me here you say what what ♪

[phone ringing]

Hi, Trevor.

[Trevor] Have you, um, have you left yet?

Uh-huh, yeah, I'm just on my way.

Why?

Is there something wrong?

I'm sorry about this.

I'm gonna have to cancel.

Why?

Are you okay?

[Trevor] Not really.

I haven't gone to the gym

in two weeks and I just, uh,

I'm out of shape, I don't feel like myself.

Uh, okay.

[Trevor] All right, well, I gotta jet.

The weight room gets really packed in the evenings.

So, I'll talk to you later.

Okay, bye.

♪ Don't take it personal

-♪ Just let them do their thing ♪ -[thunder clapping]

-♪ Do what they want to do -[rain splattering]

Ah!

Excuse me!

Taxi!

♪ I cannot tell you

♪ All of the thing

♪ All of the hell you put me through ♪

♪ You'll never know

[sobs]

[Man] Can I offer you a mocha mint latte sample?

Thanks.

Thanks.

♪ All of the stress you caused my soul ♪

[sobbing]

♪ You'll never know

♪ Not a single let's just be friends ♪

[coughs]

♪ Because you could not go free as ♪

[gasping]

Excuse me

Excuse me.

[gasps] Was there any almonds or

walnuts in that latte?

Any nuts in the latte?

Yeah, it's actually the hazelnut

mocha mint latte.

[gentle instrumental music]

Can you please call an ambulance?

[gasping]

[siren blaring]

Erica Strange?

That's me.

How are you feeling?

I'm feeling a little better.

What happened?

I'm allergic to nuts and I had this

-mocha mint lappa-frip. -No no.

Frappa.

I mean, before that.

Anything else happen today?

Anything particularly upsetting?

Yes, I was

fired from my job and dumped.

Sort of. [chuckles]

So, all in all, a pretty bad day.

I'm sorry, you're a doctor, right?

In a manner of speaking.

I'm a therapist.

I don't need a therapist.

I had an allergic reaction.

Well, tell me if I'm getting warm, okay?

It's not just that today was bad,

it's every day.

It's the feeling that

nothing seems to work out for you.

Still single.

All those nights alone with the cat.

All your successful married friends

feeling bad for you.

[gentle instrumental music]

Am I getting warm?

Who are you?

In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity.

Albert Einstein.

Well,

you think about it.

And if you're interested,

you can give me a call.

[dog barking]

[light pop music]

♪ Sometimes I still catch myself ♪

♪ Going back in time

♪ All the light that I had inside ♪

[sighs]

♪ But how I was so blind

[sighs]

Hey.

Careful, sweetheart, it still might be hot.

Thanks.

Look, I gotta get home.

Where are my clothes?

Oh, you're not leaving.

You're staying here 'til you get some rest.

Please, mom, don't be paranoid.

-I'm fine. -I'm not paranoid.

Judith's called four times, your sister's

beside herself, and your dad--

Mom, I hope you were nice.

I'm always nice.

-[doorbell rings] -Oh!

Come on, come on.

[knocking]

Surprise!

Your sister's here!

-Hi Mom. -Hi, sweetheart.

-Oh my god, are you okay? -Hey Sam.

-How are you feeling? -Good, I'm fine.

-Okay. -Good.

Good, good, we're good.

-Hi Joe. -Hi.

How's my girl?

Hey, Aunt Roberta, wow.

Uncle Joe.

Mom, what's going on?

I made a nice brunch so you

can visit with everyone.

Great.

What an awesome idea.

Mm-hmm.

Come, come, everyone sit.

Eat.

Wow.

That's good.

Nice pajamas.

It's perfect brunch attire.

Don't.

[laughs]

It's in Forest Hill, and I wouldn't

exactly call it little.

[chuckles]

It's brand new.

I hope you'll take some time off to enjoy it.

Sam, take time off?

No, she's a typical surgeon, she loves to work.

Unlike you, of course.

You're the only slacker investment banker I know.

-Ooh. -That's right.

So, Erica, how's the job?

It's the call center, right?

Uh, I'm not working there anymore.

Oh.

[gentle instrumental music]

Anyone hiring?

What kind of position are you looking for, dear?

Oh, you know, a food stylist,

a calligrapher, cat psychic.

Something that suits my unique abilities.

So, what?

You just quit without finding another job first?

-Josh. -What?!

Erica, tell us about

that guy you've been dating.

The one from Lava Life.

He's a doctor you know.

Dentist, actually.

And I'm not dating him anymore.

Yeah.

Oh, no.

No, it didn't work out.

He spits a lot when he talks, so,

and he has herpes.

In both places, so I just, [coughs]

I, uh, I felt at risk and,

great dentist though.

Trevor Markowitz.

Tell your friends.

Did anyone else catch

the debate last night?

Well, seriously now, Erica,

when are you gonna get a real job?

An MBA would, would be--

A foot in the door at least.

I agree, Joe.

I mean, you're beautiful, smart.

Maybe I have the answer.

I know a really great therapist.

-[thuds] -[dishes clang]

Ouch.

-That hurt. -Excuse me.

Oh, Erica.

She's always been my sensitive daughter.

You know what?

Don't, okay?

I know what you all think.

That there is something wrong with me.

That Erica, she's so pretty and,

and so bright, and such a friggin' disappointment.

I get it.

And um, I'm suffocating under the weight

of your collective disapproval.

Oh.

Erica!

Erica, unlock this door right now!

[Sam] Erica, come on, we want to apologize!

[Barb] Erica, I made your favorite dinner, for what?

Come on out!

♪ Sometimes I still catch myself ♪

♪ Going back in time

[gasping]

♪ All the love that I had inside ♪

[gasps]

♪ But how I was so blind

Okay.

Ow.

♪ Honey I'll be here for you

♪ Always here to sing

♪ Watching every play but don't know ♪

♪ Why you're mad at me

♪ I know it can't matter

♪ But you say what

♪ I want to do the next two

♪ I'm asking you to stay

♪ If you could only be

♪ There beside me

Sorry, I don't have any change.

♪ 'Cause baby, baby

♪ We could be free

Oh, man.

[gentle instrumental music]

♪ Honey we could be free

[Woman] Can I help you?

Uh, yes, um, I just wanted some information.

[Woman] Oh, Dr. Tom is between patients at the moment.

You can go right up.

Okay.

[dramatic instrumental music]

Please, have a seat.

Curiosity does no less than devotion, pilgrims make.

Abraham Cowley.

You must be wondering how

this whole thing works.

Well kinda, yeah.

Full disclosure,

my brand of therapy is not traditional.

I don't claim to have a lot

of letters after my name,

but what I will say is this.

Whatever it is that you are

unhappy about, I can fix it.

And all I ask from you is that

you make a commitment.

Now I'm not really interested

in working with fence-sitters.

You're gonna have to agree to see things

through to the very end.

And I, for my part, will promise you

that you'll emerge

from therapy with your problems solved.

Isn't that a lot of pressure for you?

Pressure makes diamonds.

General George S. Patton.

It's not really about me, is it?

It's about you.

So, what seems to be the problem?

Sorry.

Why are you here?

Uh, why am I here?

Um, I don't know.

I just you know, I just,

I just keep thinking that, you know, things weren't

supposed to be this way.

You know, I always thought I'd grow up

and I'd get a great career, and I'd

meet a fabulous guy, and I'd have

an amazing life and--

And what happened to that?

I blew it.

I mean, I had everything going for me

and I screwed it up.

How?

Bad choices.

You know, most people, they have a few regrets.

I got tons. [laughs]

There are so many things that I would've

done differently.

Like what?

What are they, these bad choices,

these regrets of yours?

Well, like I said there's a whole bunch.

Would you like me to pick one?

You know what?

Why don't you write them down.

Seriously?

Just point form.

How much time you got?

It was a joke.

[upbeat instrumental music]

[clears throat]

How's it going?

It's going.

I mean, there's more of course, but um,

these are the ones that keep me up at night.

Thank you.

Whoa.

What about this one?

Why that one?

That's weird 'cause, uh,

it happened in grade 11

at the fall dance.

It's like the biggest

formal of the year.

[upbeat dance music]

It was supposed to be the best night ever.

I was gonna make out with Noah

and dance my ass off.

A bunch of friends and I,

we got some vodka.

We were drinking it, but

I drank the most, and an hour into it

I could barely stand.

My friends, I mean they

thought it was hilarious

until I completely fell apart.

I passed out on the dance floor.

I was vomiting, convulsing

it was a nightmare.

And after that, I mean, my boyfriend Noah

broke up with me.

And, uh and all the kids in school they just,

they talked for ages about how I was this big slut

and how I'd ruined the dance for everyone.

And I know this sounds like

some dumb high school thing, but,

that night, it really changed my life.

It changed the way that everyone

in school saw me.

[sighs]

It changed the way that I saw myself.

You care a lot about

what other people think

about you, don't you?

Not really.

-I mean-- -You know what?

This has been interesting.

It's really, it's been illuminating,

but, unfortunately, until you're ready

to make a decision,

there's not that much I can do for you.

A decision, you mean--

Yeah, no, I mean, you need to decide.

Do you wanna jump off the cliff?

Do you wanna fix your life or not?

I need to decide right now?

Yeah, right now.

Uh, I'm sorry, but

coming here is starting to feel

like another bad decision.

Oh well, what's one more then, really?

I can't believe because I won't give

you an answer right now.

I mean, you haven't even told me

how much this therapy costs.

Did I ask you for any money?

No.

I asked you a simple question.

Do you wanna fix your problems or not?

Yes or no?

Yes!

Good.

Okay, then answer me this.

If you could go back to that day and do it over,

what would you do differently?

I'd uh,

I'd uh,

I would make that night

what it should've been.

You know, the best night of the year.

I'd, hm.

Is there a window open in here?

It's really cold.

It's uh.

Uh.

It's uh.

Help me!

[bell ringing]

[students shouting]

♪ I need you here with me

♪ Do you hear me oh

♪ Our love is down the street

[upbeat pop music]

[people chattering]

Oh my god, careful!

Katie?!

You are such a spaz.

Look, I can't talk.

I gotta go pick up my dress.

We are gonna look crazy hot!

Best night ever!

Seth is hooking us up with some vodka.

How great is that?

We are gonna get loaded!

Oh, wait, wait, wait!

Katie, what year is it?

You're hilarious.

This isn't happening.

This isn't happening.

No, no.

Erica.

Hey, I just saw the yearbook layout.

It looks great.

Mr. Leeds?

Yeah, I don't think you'll have any

problem getting that approved.

I think it, it looks great.

-Oh. -Are you okay?

Are you all right?

No, I'm not.

I can't, I can't talk really right now.

[door clicking]

[upbeat jazz music]

♪ Ooh

Okay.

Dad?

Dad?

♪ Don't do it halfway

Everything okay?

Uh, um.

Where's mom?

At work.

It's four o'clock.

Hey, how's it going?

Sam?

Hey.

Josh, come on.

Okay.

Dad.

Okay.

So dad's in the living room smoking pot

and my 13-year-old brother-in-law

just checked me out.

If this is a dream it's scary real.

I have no words.

Well, maybe three.

What the hell?!

Apparently, back in high school.

[laughs] Okay, okay.

Panicking here.

Stop. [gasping]

What did he say?

Okay, he asked me if I wanted

to fix my problems.

He asked me if I could go back

and do it differently.

That's it, let's do it differently.

Just fix it and then go home.

Okay.

Okay, I can do that.

Yeah.

[Man] Good morning, Blue Jay fans.

It's 7:30 and 16 degrees

in downtown Toronto.

Here is a little something

special to start your day.

[upbeat pop music]

♪ Modern love

Oh boy.

Oh boy, oh boy, oh boy.

Wow.

Wow.

Oh. [blows air]

Seriously?

Okay.

[sighing]

Okay, okay.

It's like a swimsuit.

I can do that.

Good morning.

[Barb] Morning.

Come here, Miss computer expert.

I'm trying to load this, but it keeps coming up

syntax error, what do I do?

Um.

Do, star, comma, eight,

comma, one.

Yeah, that's right.

You use that stupid thing every day, Gary.

You'd think you'd have the hang of it by now.

Eggs, Erica?

Dad?

We gotta get going.

Suitcase is in the trunk.

[Gary] Okay.

Bye sisters.

Bye, Leo.

[dramatic instrumental music]

-Leo. -Whoa.

[sighs]

Oh, Erica.

Erica!

I'll be back at Christmas.

[sighs]

[upbeat instrumental music]

[students chattering]

[whistling]

[Vendor] Enjoy your day.

What can I get for you?

Can I get a coffee, please?

[whistling]

Milk or sugar?

Or you change your mind?

What did you do?

Did you hypnotize me?

Did you drug me?

Because this,

I didn't sign up for this and I want out, now.

Oh boy.

The world is full of fence-sitters.

You know, you sit on a fence long enough

and you're liable to fall off.

What is that, Plato?

No, I just made that up.

The life which is unexamined,

is not worth living.

That's Plato.

Look, I am not a fence-sitter, okay?

Okay.

You think I'm, I'm supposed to accept

that I'm just like what,

time travelling?

Because this, this can't be for real.

Feels real enough.

What about paradoxes, huh?

Butterfly effect?

Back to the Future?

I love that movie.

If I change the past,

if I don't get drunk,

won't that cause, like,

World War III in the present?

Or is it possible that your alcohol consumption,

though very important to you,

might not play a role in influencing world events?

That's it?

You're just gonna stand there,

eat your hot dog and make fun of me?

You came to me because you wanted a coffee.

I wanted help.

And I'm giving you what you need.

I'm giving you what you asked for.

We learn by doing, there is no other way.

John Holt.

Next!

Dog?

[humming]

Have a good day.

We learn by doing, huh?

Right, dance my ass off,

make out with Noah.

Okay, first things first, remember my locker combination.

♪ I want to know you

♪ Forget her

Yes.

[Both] Erica!

Hey.

Um, we have to talk.

Yeah, we just want to make sure that you're okay.

Oh, I'm fine.

You were acting a little weird yesterday.

Okay, did you do shrooms without us?

What?

No. [laughs]

[Noah] Hey, baby.

Noah!

[giggling]

Hi.

Sorry.

[laughing]

Sorry.

♪ There she goes

♪ I'm missing her now

♪ Even more she's still around

♪ There she goes

[coughs]

Do wanna go find a supply closet?

I don't know.

What's, what's gotten into you?

Maybe I've changed.

Do you like it?

Hell yeah.

Good.

My boyfriend.

Mm.

♪ It's hard to hold back these feelings ♪

Sam, Josh is here!

♪ Tonight I know you're dancing with someone ♪

♪ Striking all those fancy moves I see ♪

♪ She's getting all your affection ♪

♪ Loving you she faking it

Hello, epi-lady.

♪ Oh, take your love for me

♪ I want you to take your love for me ♪

[epi-lady whirring]

Yikes!

♪ Baby, I keep my heart in love for you baby ♪

♪ Won't you take your love for me ♪

Ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow!

[groaning]

[moaning]

[screams]

Oh God.

Ha!

[soft pop music]

Erica, Erica whoa, whoa!

It's, it's,

it's not that I'm not enjoying this,

but, but, you know, the

dance is happening out there, and,

and we're in here and uh--

Oh.

Oh, did you wanna stop?

Did you wanna,

'cause we could go inside.

[chuckles] Not really.

Okay.

Do you have any condoms?

Huh?

Ooh, huh, where are they?

-Uh, uh. -Ah-ha!

I knew it.

What're you, what are you doing?

You have no idea how long

I've thought about this.

Whoa, Erica, stop.

Stop!

Stop, stop.

What?

You don't want to?

No.

Why?

Well, because I, um,

well because I don't want to be jammed

up against the steering wheel

in my sisters car the

first time we have sex.

Hey, hey come on, what's the matter?

What's this rush all of a sudden?

Why not just wait?

Why not wait?

Very good question, why not wait?

And I just, I, I think waiting's overrated.

Patience is overrated.

It'll happen when it's meant to

is overrated.

Sometimes when you wait, you lose,

you miss your chance,

and I don't want to miss

my chance with you, Noah.

[laughs]

Jesus.

You're not gonna miss anything,

we can have sex tomorrow.

Tomorrow?

What if we break up tomorrow, huh?

What if we break up tomorrow and

I spend the next 16 years

dating guys that I have no chemistry with?

And then I wake up one day

and I'm like 32-years-old,

I'm still single

and I'm still wondering what it would

have been like to sleep with you?

Okay.

Um.

Okay.

Okay, shh, okay.

Yep, right there.

Okay.

I'm gonna go park the car.

Uh-huh.

Yeah, and um,

maybe you should just,

maybe you should go inside, okay?

-Okay. -Okay.

Okay, yeah.

Okay.

Okay.

That's yours I think.

Thank you.

-Okay. -Okay.

[upbeat pop music]

♪ In time all I ask

♪ Is why you never call me

♪ Don't know why I keep hanging on, hanging on ♪

♪ You never told me what was wrong ♪

♪ Never told me

Wow.

♪ That your foolish to lead me on ♪

Hey!

Thank god you're here.

Everyone is talking about you.

Some kid in grade 9 started this rumor

that he saw you, like,

doing it with, like, a vibrator.

Oh, you've gotta be kidding me.

No no, it's not true.

Okay, god.

The little punk's tellin' the world

he saw you naked?

Well, it's a lie.

It's more of a misunderstanding.

A misunderstanding involving you

and a vibrator.

Okay, let's just say that I was shaving

and that there was a little problem.

Josh!

Is that him?

Is that, hey!

Talking about my girlfriend, huh?

Come here!

Noah!

No, it's all right, it's all right.

Josh and I are gonna spend

a few minutes in the parking lot.

Noah, don't, seriously!

Seriously!

He's just a little kid.

He's half your size.

Josh, goodbye.

Look, I know that you're upset,

but attacking him like that is not okay.

What the hell is wrong with you?

What's wrong with you?

He's just a little kid.

He's trying to get attention.

I mean what do you care?

No, you know what?

Here's a better question.

Why don't you care?

All right, first, you act like

some nympho, out in the car,

now you're lecturing me,

like you're my mom.

And in the meantime, the whole school

is acting like your some skank!

What?!

♪ You never told me what was wrong ♪

♪ You never told me

♪ I have been foolish to believe you are the one ♪

♪ It's all I can do

♪ It's all I can do

Are you okay?

You keep asking me that.

Maybe I should ask you, are you okay?

I'm fine.

Good.

That makes one of us.

Because I was thinking

chaperoning these events,

it can't be that much fun for you.

It's all right.

It's a little, uh--

Boring and ridiculous.

I mean, how do you do it?

Being in high school all day,

dealing with this

solipsistic bullshit?!

[students cheering and applauding]

God, teenagers are idiots.

I mean it, it's true.

People say it because it's true.

And the confusing thing is, is that physically,

I mean, they look like adults.

So I mean, a 17-year-old's body,

it's gorgeous.

So, if you don't think about it too hard,

you can convince yourself

that they're like,

but then you really start

talking to them and it's like.

Yeah.

Um, sorry.

Maybe I should go find my friends.

Yeah.

But thank you for the.

Okay bye!

♪ Trying to believe you

♪ Maybe I am being a selfish fool thinking ♪

♪ I want you, I want you all to myself ♪

[gentle instrumental music]

Oh, hey.

Uh, did you want a hot dog?

Uh, if the point was for me

to change my past, I did.

'Cause there's the dance and

here's me, and I'm totally sober.

So?

So?

What?

Oh, that's good.

Congratulations.

You know what?

Go to hell, seriously.

Do not weep.

Do not wax indignant.

Understand.

Baruch Spinoza.

Understand what?

I don't understand, I don't

understand anything. [sobs]

Why're you crying?

Because you won't help me.

And you've trapped me in this nightmare

where you offer me hot dogs

and quotes that make no sense, but you won't

tell me what I have to do.

You won't.

I'm not sure what it is that

you want from me.

I want to know what I have to do.

Is this ever gonna be over?

I mean, am I just stuck here?

Well, no one's ever stuck anywhere.

You are where you need to be right now.

And when you're finished doing

whatever it is that

you're meant to be doing,

then you move on.

What is it that I am meant to be doing?

What is my goal here?

What is my purpose?

If life's journey be endless, where is its goal?

The answer is,

it's everywhere.

Raindranath Tagore.

God, I like him.

Erica, there you are!

Come on. [laughs]

Pass the vodka.

Where's Noah?

I dunno.

Where's the vodka?

[Erica] Oh hey.

Hey hey.

[Katie] What're you doing?

Nothing, it's just,

I don't want you to overdo it, okay?

You're kind of hammered.

That's kinda the point.

[Jenny] Hey!

God, Erica, what's your damage?

What's my, what's my damage?

You've been acting like, no offense,

a bitch for the past two days.

She doesn't want me to overdo it.

Okay, you know what?

Fine, here, go ahead.

It's none of my business,

you can go do what you want.

Katie's right, you're totally

wrecking this for everyone.

Wrecking what?

This is, this is ridiculous.

I can't even believe that I'm

having this conversation.

I'm just saying, first

you yell at Noah,

then you won't drink with us, like--

Look, I decided not to drink and

that is my prerogative.

You decided not to drink?

Like, since when?!

Like, what the hell?!

Then you come down here and

tell Katie she's had enough.

Who died and made you the boss of her?

Nobody, you know what?

I'm leaving.

-[retching] -[yells]

-[retching] -That's great.

Oh, I'm sorry.

That's just really disgusting.

Katie, maybe you should've listened to me, huh?

Hey, I'll, I'll do that.

I'll do it.

Go deal with ugh, that.

[retching]

Oh, my dress.

[retching]

Jenny, honey, I need you to come here.

[retching]

Okay.

Listen, I have extra gym clothes

in my locker, it's 12, 33, 24.

Okay, listen, 12, 33, 24.

Just take this,

dump it in there and bring back

my gym clothes, okay?

12, 33, 24.

12, 33, 24.

Oh god.

Hey, Katie, honey,

how are you doing?

[thudding]

Katie?

Katie.

Katie, oh, Katie.

Katie!

Katie, please.

Katie, Katie, Katie.

Wake up, come on.

Come on!

Come on, open your eyes.

Shit!

Somebody, we need help!

Hello, Jenny!

Jenny, somebody please help us!

Please!

Hello?!

[upbeat instrumental music]

Katie.

Katie?

No, don't don't don't don't.

I don't even know how to do this.

Somebody help me!

Somebody!

-[groaning] -Shit!

Shit!

[retching]

Okay honey.

Okay, okay, okay.

[upbeat pop music]

[crowd murmuring and whistling]

[gentle instrumental music]

[siren blaring]

[radio chatter]

Is she gonna?

I just called her parents.

They're gonna meet her at the hospital.

Thank you.

♪ Of you

♪ You you you

[horn honking]

[gentle instrumental music]

[sighs]

♪ Sometimes I still catch myself ♪

Judith?

Judith, what are you doing here?

Do we know each other?

Uh no, sorry.

I, I just thought that you were, um

I just got confused.

Forget it.

♪ How I was so blind

Erica.

Erica.

Can I speak with you, please?

I wanted to find out if you're--

Okay?

Now I don't want to pry, but if

you need someone to talk to,

I'm available, you know.

Or I can recommend someone.

No, I, thank you.

I don't think a therapist

is really what I need right now.

Listen, Erica.

I mean, it's really nice of you to take

an interest, though.

It's just, it's really, it's,

it's complicated.

It is?

Yeah, it is.

Maybe you've noticed that I've been

acting a little strange lately,

a little unlike myself, but,

and that would be because

I'm not really myself.

You're not?

No.

This is gonna make me sound crazy,

but the truth is, is that I'm from the future.

Wow, that sounds even more crazy

out loud than it does in my head.

Erica.

Look, I'm a 32-year-old woman,

and I'm stuck inside a 16-year-old body

and I know that you're not gonna

believe me, but I'm telling you anyways,

because you, you seem nice

and normal, and my age.

Actually, you're probably

a little bit younger.

Uh.

You don't believe me, right?

Of course you don't believe,

I'm just gonna forget it.

Ignore me, is.

I wanna help you.

The only way that you could help me

is if you believe me and I know

that that's impossible.

What the really unbelievable thing is,

is that I screwed it up again.

God, I'm such an idiot and,

and now you're standing here, you're thinking,

crazy girl just walked naked through the formal.

Actually, you know, I was thinking

that you did what you had to do,

to get your friend the help that she needed.

And, under the circumstances,

I wouldn't say that that's crazy,

I'd say that that's brave.

I know you've had a difficult night.

You have no idea.

And I know that some of the students

are probably gonna talk.

That's the story of my life.

God, it's really cold.

Why don't we go inside

and we can talk and I'll call your parents

and they can come and pick you up, okay?

Uh, I'm just gonna get home, just,

I'm really exhausted and

[upbeat instrumental music]

it's time for me to go home.

-[whooshing] -[knocking]

[gasping]

Um.

Yes!

Oh, thank god, Erica.

I have been worried sick about you.

Why aren't you answering your phone?

What is the point of having a phone

unless you answer the phone?

Hey, dad?

Thank god, you're safe.

You know I called the police when

you jumped out the window.

Well, of course she jumped.

I would jump if I were her.

Okay, Gary, don't start.

Um, what time is it?

[Gary] Two o'clock.

I called you at least 15 times.

Okay, so it was just,

we just had brunch an hour ago?

Yes.

-Trevor! -Hi.

Um, Trevor, Mom and Dad,

this is Trevor.

The doctor?

Dentist, he's a dentist.

[laughs] That's right.

-Nice to meet you. -Likewise.

So, I was in the neighborhood,

plans fell through,

thought I'd drop by.

Oh, how lovely.

[Trevor] Am I interrupting anything?

No, no.

We were just leaving.

Yes we were.

All right.

You wanna grab a bite?

Okay.

Yeah?

You gonna get changed first?

People might think you look a little strange.

[laughing]

Right.

But you know what?

Actually, so what?

Erica.

Seriously, at least I'm dressed.

Right?

On second thought, Trevor,

I think that we should skip that bite.

I don't wanna waste your time.

Actually, I don't wanna waste mine.

[gentle instrumental music]

So, I'm gonna jet.

♪ It's clearer inside of me

♪ Who I will always be

♪ Open me up to my heart

That's impossible.

♪ Feels like I'm sitting in the dark ♪

♪ Waking me up to my life

Here you are.

What happened to your office?

I don't routinely keep an office.

You know, I find that too confining.

Oh, I apologize, I'm not able

to chat with you right now.

But our next session will begin shortly.

I have your list.

Oh, no, wait, wait, wait, wait!

We have a lot of work to do, you and me.

No, I'm just kidding.

But you did make a commitment.

No, what commitment?!

You set me up.

You set me up and I

humiliated myself again.

Only this time, I really gave

everyone something to talk about.

As always, it's what everyone else thinks.

What, you expect me not to care?

Is that the whole point of this exercise?

Because if it is, guess what?

I failed.

Because I still care, and I'm always gonna care!

You realize you're screaming.

So?!

So when you blew off that dentist,

you cared that your parents were

gonna be disappointed, right?

Yes, but that--

And when you walked through

that gymnasium, you cared that

everybody was staring at you.

Yes!

But you did it anyway.

Yeah, because I had to.

We don't have to do anything.

You know what?

Screw this!

I am done.

No, you're not done!

I never expected you to stop caring, Erica.

I just wanted you to stop letting

that get in your way.

You didn't fail, Erica.

With your parents' opinions, and your,

and your friends' opinions.

Yeah, of course, they're always gonna matter,

they just don't matter as much as your own.

[gentle instrumental music]

I have to leave now.

I'll see you soon.

Wait.

Hey!

Change.

Sometimes it sneaks up on you.

Sometimes it hits you over the head.

And sometimes you turn a corner

only to find you're different

in some small way

and the world, it doesn't

look quite like it used to.

So where do I go from here?

No idea.

And for the first time I feel

like that's a good thing.

♪ It's clearer inside of me

♪ Who I will always be

♪ Open you up to the stars

♪ Crystals and mystics and cynics and reveries ♪

♪ Beginning to open my mind

♪ Shining a sign in the sky

♪ Shining a sign in the sky

♪ Waking me up to my life

♪ Waking me up to my life

♪ Waking me up to my life

♪ I have my life

♪ I have my stride

♪ Sun of my dreams

♪ And everything I ever wanted to be ♪

♪ Ba da ba ba

♪ Ba da ba ba

♪ Calm my un-shooting stars

♪ Angels and astronauts

♪ Circling outside my sphere

♪ Mercy and graciousness

♪ Cleptics and laureates

♪ Something made talisman charms ♪

♪ Open my heart and my eyes

♪ Open my heart and my eyes

♪ Do it all over again

♪ Do it all over again

♪ To do it all over again

♪ Over again

♪ Up to the end

♪ Ba da ba ba

♪ Gonna find the answers

♪ I'm starting to see

♪ It's capturing me

♪ Flows like a stream

♪ It's everything I ever wanted ♪

♪ Everything I ever wanted to be ♪