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- The only thing that we require

for getting pregnant with Type I diabetes

is having that A-1C number at a 6.5.

- I have a surprise.

- [gasps]

- My A-1C is now 6.5.

Come give me a hug.

And that is what I needed.

The next step is to get pregnant.

- My divorce with Bar is still ongoing.

There's just a lot going on in terms of, like,

me trying to cover all the bases

so Holly doesn't feel any absence with her dad

and she knows he's in jail.

She does not know why.

And of course, we don't know for how long.

- I'm just calling to let you know I was gonna

come down for Nova's birthday.

- Oh. - Hey.

- You know the statistics for Nova, right?

- What?

- She'll become a teenage mom.

- Devoin coming in and out is causing a lot for Nova.

And, like, now she's in therapy.

- Me being 13, I wanted my father around,

and it didn't happen.

'Cause of that, I looked elsewhere for attention.

And I'm terrified that that will happen with Nova.

- So what brings you in today?

- We were looking into the different options

of having another baby. - Mm-hmm.

Or freezing my eggs and waiting.

We are trying to get pregnant.

It's definitely taking longer than I thought.

Maybe the timing just isn't right,

'cause could I be excited for a new baby

when my first baby is, like, suffering right now?

- My mom doesn't want to take a drug test.

- But if you were clean, it's a simple test.

- Christy, she needs an intervention

with everybody there.

- This is bullshit! - Just hear me.

- A fucking setup, man.

- You won't hear a fucking word I say.

[tense music]

[upbeat music]

♪ ♪

[melancholy music]

♪ ♪

- She won't let me say a fucking word,

just like she always overpowers me my whole God-dang life.

- Why are you leaving? Nobody has even said anything.

- 'Cause I should have known this was a fucking setup.

Get the fuck away, please.

- It's not a setup!

We literally are trying to sit here and talk.

- Shut the door, Jade, and I'll talk to you.

Shut the door. - Oh, my God.

- What is this shit?

- We want to sit down and have a family conversation.

- But that's not how you start a family conversation.

- No one's airing out nothing crazy.

- Aunt Christy, what are you so afraid of us saying?

- What are you running from? What--

- 'Cause I don't want to do it.

- Do what? We haven't even talked!

- Y'all are disrespectful as fuck.

- Aunt Christy, but we gotta do this 'cause, look,

you won't sit down and talk.

I mean-- - I have a phone.

As a matter of fact, I need my phone.

- You sit inside the house all goddamn day.

- I can't even believe you would do this to me.

- Aunt Christy, it's not-- - You are fucking--

That is two-faced as fuck, Jasmine.

- Aunt Christy, it is not what you think.

- Oh, my motherfucking gosh.

- We knew this was how it's gonna go.

We said it-- - Couldn't even get

a goddamn sentence out. - We knew it.

- Aunt Christy, I want you to stop walking.

- I just want her to talk.

- But you see-- but hey, hey, listen,

listen though. Listen, listen.

- I don't know if she's stressed out

or if she's on drugs. - No, listen. listen. Listen.

- But my mama laid up in the hospital,

and my sister didn't show up.

- Listen, we tried. We just tried, right?

You just tried.

That's all you can do.

- No. She's not going nowhere!

- Fucking disrespectful as fuck.

- What is disrespectful? - They see--

- No one said two words to you!

- They see that I don't want them over here.

- Aunt Christie, look, so--

- Put yourself in my shoes for five seconds.

- I would be-- I would be upset.

- Um, OK. - I'm not gonna lie.

- OK, thank you.

- But I would still listen.

Why would I not listen if my fuck--

my whole family's here?

We hadn't even said nothing.

- We don't have to go any further.

I know where it's going. - But you don't know--

- Of course you know where it's going,

'cause it's giving projection.

It's giving guilty conscience of something.

- Yeah, I know where it's going.

It's like people want to pry into my emotional shit.

- No, we don't.

- You know, I've got enough going on.

I don't want-- I don't want to deal with it.

Why would nobody have reached out just reaching out?

Why does it have to be this spectacle?

- Sis, can we please go inside?

I'm not here to attack you. I love you.

- No one is trying to attack you.

- I love you.

I'm here. Look.

- Enough! You don't call me and tell me.

- Girl, you know what? I call you.

- Fuck y'all!

But you would lie to me and get me out here like this.

- Aunt Christy, it's the-- - This ain't going nowhere.

- Fuck. - Can get you help, though.

- Please. I can get my own fucking help.

- But you could have got your help if you wanted the help.

- OK. Well, evidently, I don't.

- Well, we're obviously-- - Why not?

That's why we want to figure out.

- You're missing out on your kid's life.

Your grandkids' life.

- You're missing out. - Go ahead.

You can go in the fucking car.

- Go take your fucking ass home.

Don't call me. - I am. Don't worry.

And don't talk to me like that.

- Yeah, OK.

♪ ♪

- ♪ If I fall now, would you fall too? ♪

♪ Let me give all my love to you ♪

♪ If you run out, I can push through ♪

♪ I don't need love letters or proof ♪

- Hi.

We've arrived, baby.

♪ ♪

You're in the sunny state!

- Yay. - Welcome.

- Time to get warm.

Time to get pregnant. - I know,

I don't need this cardigan.

[upbeat music]

- Oh.

- We have a visitor!

- Let's get pregnant. - Yay!

- I know, right?

- I worked really hard to get my A-1C down

and taking hormone shots

to prepare my body for the embryo transfer.

And that has been very rough.

Ooh, that's a big one.

OK, here we go.

You know, it's not the most romantic way to make a baby,

but it's going to hopefully be worth it.

I mean, I've worked all year for this.

And unfortunately, my family can't make it.

So my best friend is here from Oklahoma

to watch me get knocked up, hopefully.

[laughs]

- Are you excited? - I'm so excited.

- I'm gonna see if they'll let Kayla in the room.

- I think they might.

- What if they say one person and Kayla wants to come

and we'll be like, OK, Khes, who's your favorite?

[laughter]

- Who's known you longer? - Yeah.

She never missed a baby coming out of me.

- Really? - And she ain't missing

babies going in these days either, so.

- Well, I just can't miss anything.

I won't miss anything.

Like, nothing.

- This is so different than the times we did this before.

- [laughs] - I'm just saying.

Like, she's never had this kind of support from a partner.

[gentle music]

- You can't leave me to do this on my own.

That's horrible.

- Sometimes, you know, I'm at the point where I don't care.

- If you can live with yourself

not attending your child's birthday party--

this is just sad.

What do you want with our family?

- There is no family.

♪ ♪

- You know, like, there's a lot of people going through this

by themselves, emotionally.

- Yeah.

- You're being really supportive.

So I'll let you be in there if there's only one, OK?

I'll let it be you.

- And if it ends up being twins,

she can be the first to hold one,

you can be the first to hold one.

- See how that works? - Sure. Sure.

- So is there a good chance you could have twins?

- Yes. I got my spoons out.

OK, these-- - OK. What is happening?

- Jesus. Ooh, yi-yi.

- Well, look.

They took an egg, they took a sperm,

and they made an embryo, all right?

So these are our embryos.

These are little Khessy and Mac.

Um, this is called the MacKhessy embryos.

All right, we have four embryos, right?

But we are choosing to transfer two.

Why are we choosing to transfer two?

Because if you transfer two embryos,

there's an 80% chance

one of them sticks and you have one baby.

However, this comes with the risk

that there's a 20% chance that both of them stick

and you have twins.

There's a 2% chance that these both split

into two different babies.

Now you got four.

- That would be very bad.

- OK, but we should acknowledge that she is risking that.

- Yes. - Yes.

- That's a huge health risk on her body.

- But I would rather be told I'm pregnant with twins

than I'm not pregnant because I don't think

I can go through this again.

I'm gonna be very, very honest.

[tense music]

♪ ♪

- I'm gonna take these braids out,

wash your hair,

blow dry your hair.

So I know there's been a lot of changes recently.

Granny's gone.

I know that's a little strange, right?

- Mm-hmm.

- You know you can always talk to me.

- Yeah.

- And I know you said you wanted to go see your dad.

- Mm-hmm. - And I'm working on that.

- OK.

- I can't make no promises, but I am working on it.

- OK. - And I love you.

- Good.

- Good?

[laughter]

♪ ♪

[knocking on door]

Hi.

- What are you doing?

- Something I have no business doing.

I can't get it straight. - Yeah.

- These little seasoning things.

What have you been up to?

- Nothing--dealing with the kids, you know.

How's it been with your mom gone?

- I talk to her every day.

- Has Holly been missing Grandma?

- Yeah. So many people missing.

- Yeah.

Has Holly brought up her dad?

- She wants to go visit him in jail.

- Oh. - Yeah.

- How do you feel about that?

- I don't know.

It's, like, traumatizing to have her see her dad there.

But it's also traumatizing for her

to not see her dad anywhere.

And she hasn't spoken to him in three months.

- Yeah.

I know there's a lot of, like, legal stuff going on.

- Yeah. I don't know.

Tricky situation, but I'm gonna call a social worker

and just see what I can do in terms of her,

'cause it's kind of hard,

like, her not being on the restraining order.

I'm on the order and obviously she's not 18,

and da, da, da, da, da.

But she knows he's in jail.

She just knows it's because he has made some bad decisions.

Like, it'll-- I think it'll just clear up

some things in her mind.

Like, the idea of him being in one place is one thing,

but now you see it and you understand

for your own self, like,

why Daddy can't call,

or why Daddy can't come over.

'Cause I know she wants to see her dad,

and I know her dad wants to see her.

I know he's-- - Yeah.

- I know he's, like--

- Yeah, he's--he's a good dad.

He just--

- He makes fucked up decisions. - Yeah.

- He cares about his daughter, but he's just not--

not at the forefront to be able to make the right decisions.

So maybe a video visit first. - Yeah, that's what I'm saying.

If we can do a visit, maybe a video visit first.

- And that way--

- 'Cause that's, like, less intense.

- Yeah.

Just look into it and see what they say.

- Yeah, because she's been asking,

I think it's only right

that I'm, like--

I don't know. - Trying?

- Make an effort to make it happen.

- Yeah.

- I think I'm doing what I think is best for Holly.

And when it comes to his daughter,

I always try to really separate

me and him personally

from him and her,

because they really are two different things.

As a mom, there's, like, literally no worse feeling

than not being able to give your kid what they need.

And she is sometimes too aware of my emotions

to where she doesn't want to--

she knows I'm going through something.

I know it affected her to literally not see her dad.

And I saw it in ways of just, like, "Well, I guess,

you know, I'll tell Dad when I can,"

or "I'll write this down so I can remember it."

I just saw the sadness, and I'm not even sure

that I saw the total capacity of what she was going through.

♪ ♪

[upbeat music]

- ♪ I'm fired up, huh!

♪ Come on, too hot, too hot ♪

♪ Throw the water on me, watch it turn in steam ♪

♪ Yeah, uh ♪

- OK.

I'm really happy that we got

Ryder's heart monitor results back

and that it's not something to worry about.

Now that we kind of have that figured out,

I feel like now I'm back looking at myself,

trying to figure out why I haven't gotten pregnant.

Last year, we went and saw a fertility doctor,

but now that we are deciding to try for another baby,

we feel like we should go back to see her

just to see is everything working the way it should be?

At this point, we've been trying

to get pregnant now for around seven months

and it just hasn't happened yet.

We need to head out soon.

- Oh, my gosh-- - So the doctor said that

they could do your sperm count.

Are you ready for that?

You want me go in the bathroom and take some sexy pictures?

- What? Oh, yeah.

Here you go.

- Oh, hell no.

- Come on.

- You can't just, like, use your imagination?

It doesn't work like that? - [grumbles]

OK, let's go.

Let me go get some shoes.

[upbeat music]

- But I am genuinely curious to see what she has to say.

Only because the last time we went to the doctors,

we were all over the place of like, do we freeze eggs?

Do we want to have another baby?

Do we not want to have another baby?

Do we have time?

And I think this time,

it's like we're going in, like--

- With a-- - With a goal.

- A goal, yeah.

- Yeah, a goal that we've been trying to get to

but it hasn't been successful yet.

[somber music]

But let's just see what she has to say.

Keep an open mind.

- All right. Let's do it.

- ♪ But I'm not giving up this time ♪

♪ Oh, oh

♪ I'm not giving up this time ♪

- Here. - Thank you.

- Of course. - Hi.

- Hi.

- Nice to see you again.

- Dr. Tina again. Hi.

Nice to see you.

Come sit down.

So tell me what's happened in the last year.

- Uh, we're trying to have a baby.

I feel like last time we were here,

we didn't know what to do.

- Yeah. - But we've been trying now.

- Uh-huh.

- But it's been, like, around seven-ish months.

- Oh. - And yeah,

it hasn't been successful yet.

- And are your periods coming every month

during that seven months?

- So the first, like, two months,

it was kind of, like, hit or miss

because I was off birth con-- I was getting--

- So you had been on birth control?

- I've been on birth control, yeah.

- OK.

So it may be that you're not ovulating.

And then we want to help you ovulate.

Right? - Mm-hmm.

It may be that you're ovulating different than what you think

you're supposed to be ovulating,

and so you're missing it because you're trying

to get pregnant on day 14, and you're actually ovulating

on day 18 to 20,

and you're tired by then and you've stopped trying.

- Makes sense. - So sometimes

that's all it is.

So what we need to do, we want to check up

if we think you're ovulating

and what your ovaries look like.

- OK. - And obviously,

things can change with sperm. OK?

So let us be off and we're going to do an ultrasound.

And then you're going to do a sperm test.

- All right. - All right?

- Let's do it. - Have fun.

- Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. [laughter]

Really?

♪

OK.

- All right, so you're going to go in here.

- OK.

- And then I'll be right in to do your ultrasound.

- Good luck. - You're going to come with me.

- OK.

♪ ♪

- Focus, babe!

- Wow.

[laughter]

- ♪ You're a kaleidoscope, baby ♪

♪ All your colors go crazy ♪

- ♪ Children ♪

What are you guys doing?

Dang, you got the snacks in here?

Wow. I'm jealous.

I want to eat.

I want one of those, but I have the Invisalign in my mouth.

Ahh.

Stella, how are you doing?

- Good. - You're good?

You want to talk about your feelings?

- No. - No?

So Nova, how are you feeling? - Good.

- Yeah?

When do you have therapy again? - Tuesdays.

- I like that you have somebody that you can talk to

that's, you know, like, not me.

It's been two months since Devoin was here

for Nova's 13th birthday.

Now it's literally just a text message

and a phone call here and there.

And the girls, they do sense, like, him being missing,

but I'm always worried about the things

that Nova's not saying.

She may end up having abandonment issues,

and I know what that is like because I went through that,

you know, with my dad, and I'm still going through that.

So Nova has been going to therapy and she loves it.

But the therapist asked to speak with me

about some concerns after Nova's next appointment.

[somber music]

♪ ♪

Stella, you're going to also go to therapy too.

I think that's going to be amazing.

- I don't want to do it, and I don't want to talk about it.

- Well, you're going to at least try to do it.

I wish when I was your age,

I was doing therapy on a regular basis.

But unfortunately, that just wasn't the case for me.

So that's why I pushed really hard for you guys

to do the things that I wasn't able to do,

'cause I want you guys to have that experience.

- ♪ Just let it go ♪

And there's nothing wrong with therapy.

I think therapy is absolutely amazing.

- ♪ Everything is going to be OK ♪

♪ OK, OK, OK ♪

[upbeat music]

- ♪ What I want ♪

♪ I'm one of a kind ♪

♪ ♪

- All right, girl.

The day has come.

OK, Sonia is getting the kids right now from school

and Jordan should be here any minute to watch the kids.

So life is good. It's good.

[knocking on door] [dog barking]

Zion.

Hey. - Hi.

- I was just talking about you.

Are you ready to watch kids?

- I'm always ready.

I don't know if they're ready for me, though.

- Eh, it'll be fine.

I wanted to fly my dad in, but he shot himself in the arm

with an arrow.

So he's recovering.

Whatever you need, just call.

We'll be two hours-- [laughs]

- I'm not weird.

- Oh, where-- where's your shoes?

No one had shoes on for school? - Where's your shoes at?

- I took them off in the truck.

- OK. [laughter]

All right, do so you guys know

I'm getting my embryo transferred?

Everyone say, "Yay, baby.

Let's make a baby."

One, two, three.

all: Let's make a baby!

Whoo!

Thanks, Jordan.

Thanks.

- Make sure you be good. - OK.

- Mommy has to go, OK?

- I might be knocked up next time you see me.

- I know!

- Bye! - Bye, Mommy.

- ♪ Hit the road ♪

♪ And bring a baby back, a baby back, a baby back ♪

♪ A baby back, a baby back ♪

- ♪ Right here, right now ♪

♪ Look at the dreams we're making ♪

♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪

♪ Right here, right now ♪

- I'm ready to make this baby.

Hi.

- Yes.

- Is there any way two people can go back in?

- Sorry, we can only allow your partner in the room with you.

- OK.

- And you're ready to go.

- OK.

- I'm going to give you a hug. - OK.

- I'm going to go get knocked up.

[laughter] - Good luck.

- She's going to get a pretty little--

pretty little superstar.

- How are you? - Hi. I'm good.

[gentle music]

- I wasn't nervous until now.

- I know.

Like, I'm happy, and nervous, and yeah.

I knew your sperm had it going on.

- [grunts] - [chuckles]

But twins sounds-- is sounding more--

how would we raise twins?

How does that work?

Ah!

Oh, my gosh.

Come here.

So you look more nervous than me.

- I am nervous.

I am. I am.

[tense music]

♪ ♪

- I'm a little worried about pain.

Is this--

♪ ♪

[upbeat music]

♪ ♪

[phone dings]

♪ ♪

- "We have reviewed your request and information

"surrounding contact with Bariki

"in regards to your daughter.

"I know you have--

"I know you and the father share a child.

"It's OK to have nonthreatening communication

"as it relates to your daughter

"to facilitate their relationship.

Please let me know if you have any questions."

I can feel how I want about Bar,

But if Holly wants to talk to her dad,

and I think that it's not a danger to her,

I think I should do everything I can

to make that happen as her mother.

So I decided to call the DA

and ask her what am I allowed to do

as it pertains to Bar and his daughter?

Because that still is very much a relationship

I would like to see continue.

So I asked the DA how I could safely

and lawfully facilitate a visit with Bar.

I'm grateful that finally I got an answer that, like,

it's not going to be violating an order or whatever,

however it all plays out.

So it's like a relief for me.

- ♪ Broken pieces

♪ I want to piece them ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Wish I was superhero ♪

- Hi, Mom. - Hi, bug.

What's up?

Why didn't you show me your progress report?

- I got a B.

- That's OK.

Yeah, you brought that computer science up.

Good job, baby.

I got some news for you.

- What?

- I-- - Hmm.

- Remember I told you I was going to be working on

getting you talking to your daddy?

- Uh-huh.

- I did it.

- Thank you, Mommy.

- So we're going to be able to have

a phone call with Daddy, a video call with Daddy

today after dinner.

And I know you wanted to go visit in person,

but do you understand why we can't do that?

- Yeah.

- What do you think the reason is?

- Yes, that they--they won't let us do it in person.

So we have to take what we can get, right?

- And I'm also very grateful that you did it because--

- Aw.

- If you didn't do it, I wouldn't be able to see him.

- I know.

[somber music]

- ♪ I know you're shaking ♪

♪ I know that I could ♪

♪ Be the reason that you breathe ♪

♪ So my day ♪

♪ You move me ♪

♪ If you love me ♪

♪ I did it for you ♪

- Hey. - Hi.

- Where are the girls?

- They're in their room.

- Oh, florist? Nice.

- Cute, right?

- So what have you been doing? - Vibing,

dealing with life, you know?

Doing what I gotta do.

You know, Nova's been in therapy.

- How's it going?

- She likes it.

She actually is very motivated

and going, like, all the time.

- Oh, what are they talking about?

- I don't know. - She don't tell you?

- Mm-mm.

But her therapist has some things to discuss with me

after her next appointment.

- Is that normal?

- I don't know if this is something

that they do with every child, but I'm just worried

'cause, like, this is my baby.

- You got real mommy problems.

- Mm-hmm. - Oof.

- When I had Nova, I didn't think about any of this.

Like, I was so naive.

- Of course you was. You was a baby.

- So naive.

- I thought it was, like, very quick and simple.

Like, you take care of the baby, you make sure it's fed.

And now I'm raising a teenager, and I'm like,

oh, my God, there's this, there's that,

and I don't know what I'm doing.

- And her hormones are crazy.

She's at that, you know, adolescent age.

- I'm literally faking it till I make it.

Like, I don't know what I'm doing.

- And Devoin?

He knows?

- No, he doesn't know anything.

I don't even think he knows she's in therapy.

- Why?

- He don't ask.

Like, he doesn't--

I don't know. I don't bring it up either.

Like, I don't know if that's something

she wants him to know.

So I'm like respecting-- - No, no, no, no.

He should know.

He should definitely know.

- But Nova told me that

"I just don't want to talk about my dad.

We could talk about anything else."

And I asked why, and she was like, "I just--

I just don't want to."

But maybe Nova's learning a boundary or two at therapy.

- But you can't fight this battle alone.

But I think you're smart enough,

wise enough

to help Nova cope.

And you're a good mom.

You are.

[tense music]

♪ ♪

[upbeat music]

[birds chirping]

- All right, got you guys early from school.

Now we are going to take you to therapy, Nova.

And me and Stella will just wait for you, OK?

How are you feeling?

- Fine. - Yeah?

After you're done, your therapist wants

to talk to me real quick.

Her therapist called me,

and I don't know what to expect.

This is something that is new for all of us.

And I'm scared for my daughter.

Come on, guys. Come on.

[tense music]

♪ ♪

- ♪ And yesterday was yesterday ♪

♪ Today is today ♪

♪ Today is all we have ♪

♪ Today is all we have ♪

♪ ♪

- How have you been doing since you got out of the hospital?

- I feel a little better today.

Yeah, I missed dinner.

What happened?

- I mean, everybody but you was basically there.

And we had a good dinner at first.

And then Aunt Kim said--

oh, she said she was proud of my mom.

She was like, I'm really proud of you for keeping--

you know, paying your bills, and, you know,

having an apartment.

And then she--then she said--

what did you say?

I love you very much.

And before she could finish, my mom jumped the fuck up

and said, fuck no.

- I know what this bullshit--

I should know what this bull shit is--

- I know what the fuck's going on in here.

And then my mom was basically yelling,

"I don't want no fucking help."

And-- - What?

She thought it was an intervention?

- Yeah. I think it was--

- She must've sensed something.

- Guilty conscience, maybe.

- Thank you. - [coughs]

Hey, I was shaking.

You know-- - I was shaking.

- I'm glad I wasn't there.

- Yeah, you're--yeah.

Yeah. Yeah.

- 'Cause I've just come to the point where

she's going to do what she wants.

- Yeah, that's what I said to Aunt Kim, was like--

- You might as well just enjoy her.

- I don't want no parts. Yeah.

My peace of mind is important.

- It is.

- So I just don't want to bother

with the situation no more.

'Cause I think we were just coming from a place of,

you know, looking out, like, hey, we care about you.

But it turned into this--

basically, we're all evil people plotting on her.

And I'm like, that's not-- you know that's not who we are,

and that's not what we're trying to do.

- Well, I think she thought that we were just

trying to check her for drugs.

- No one's trying to point your finger

and say you're doing this.

We're saying, like, we're seeing your behavior--

- I can tell you this-- - And we're worried about it.

But I know that there's a day that my mom

won't be here either.

I want to be able to spend time with my mom

and have a good time with her and hang out with her.

I'm just hoping with that whole dinner

that maybe that made her start to like, you know,

rethink a little bit, or take into consideration

some of the stuff that we were saying in a positive way

and not a negative way.

So I'm just hoping as we get older

that maybe it can get better as adults.

'Cause now we're adults.

You don't need to raise me.

But I think what hurt us more is me trying to raise you.

I wish I could just grab my mom, like, give her a kiss

and be like, oh, I love you.

It's just I don't have that relationship with her.

Mm-mm.

Yeah, I don't think it's my job to really do anything else

for my mom, or for her sobriety,

or for her mental health.

Like, I think I've done my fair share.

There's--there's no other change

that I need to make with how I move.

There's nothing else I need to do or change

'cause it's not my life.

I can only control me.

Me, myself, I've done more than enough.

I think I'm allowed to say, you know what?

This isn't good for me.

I don't want to do this anymore.

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♪ ♪

- Whoa.

Holy shit.

Oh, my God.

[groovy music]

- So see these little black circles?

- Yeah.

- Those are all the eggs.

13 to 15 on this side.

So the good news, when you have a lot of eggs,

the likelihood is you have good eggs in there.

- OK. - OK?

So put your clothes on, get dressed,

come back in my office,

and then we'll figure out the other half.

- All right.

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- How'd it go?

- Yeah, scarred.

- [laughs] Why? What happened?

- I missed the cup.

- What do you mean, you missed the cup?

- Like, I missed the cup.

I'm sitting, like, down with the cup, and--

- So where did it go? - I should have stood up.

That's what I realized. [laughter]

- All right, guys.

- I barely got any in there.

- Oh, my God.

- So good news, there are eggs in your ovaries.

- OK. - OK?

What we need to make sure of is that they're growing.

So either you ovulate late or you're not really ovulating.

We'll do another ultrasound in about two, two and a half weeks

to see if you're ovulating. - OK.

- Today's sperm.

You have lots of sperm.

So that's good.

But...

they weren't swimming.

[buzzer blares]

- Oh, hell no.

- So they look normal. And so--

- You just ruined his whole day.

- They need to learn to swim better.

- Why aren't they swimming?

- We don't always know.

Some people don't always get all the semen into the cup.

- I missed.

- And so when we have abnormal semen, right, step one,

is there something we can figure out that's abnormal?

If someone's smoking a lot of marijuana,

we're going to want them to stop that,

because it's toxic for sperm.

- [groans]

Keep them--keep them grounded.

- This isn't right.

- So if a repeat analysis doesn't do it,

three months of no marijuana doesn't do it, then--

- Then?

- Then we talk about inseminations or in vitro.

- When I come back, should he come back and he can retest?

- He can do it again, yeah.

Ideally, we fix the sperm first.

Healthy diet, healthy lifestyle.

- OK.

- Does that make sense? - Yeah.

- All right, I'm gonna let you two chat it out.

- All right, thank you. - You're welcome.

- Oh, my God.

I wasn't expecting that, but OK.

Maybe they're just on hold.

- Maybe it's because you smoked this morning before we came.

- Oh, I did.

- Yeah, well, can you not smoke

for, like, a few weeks

and let's come back and see if they swim then?

- OK. - OK.

- Deal.

I don't have a problem with not smoking.

- Right. - It's never been a problem.

But I just don't want to.

But I'll stop for this.

- I just don't want to.

- Yeah. I mean, shit.

It's not stopping me from doing anything,

but now it's stopping me from having a kid.

So yes, I will stop.

- OK.

I feel like as women, we always just think, OK, it's me.

Like, my body is not allowing my body to get pregnant.

It must be me.

But it takes two people.

So I appreciated Zach from the beginning even saying,

"OK, I'll get checked too,

"because it does take both of us.

It could be me."

And now it's on him to make certain lifestyle choices

and decisions that he's going to have to commit to

in order for us to have another child.

- ♪ I can take you twice as high ♪

[upbeat music]

- Kids, start your homework.

♪ ♪

[line ringing]

- Hello?

- Hey, hey. - What's up?

- Well, I just got back from Nova's therapy session.

- Mm-hmm.

- And basically she said something like, um,

she wants me, her mom,

to spend more time with her dad's side of the family.

She basically was telling the therapist

that her dad shouldn't have left Florida,

that he needs to move back.

- Are you going to talk to Devoin about this?

- Yeah. Yeah.

But it's like, the past is all I know.

And, like, every time we do have a conversation about Nova,

it's very, like--

he's very nonchalant about it, and he brushes it off

like, "Oh, you know, Nova's just going to have to

"deal with it 'cause this is just what it is.

I did it. She can do it type of thing."

- Oh, then that's--

- And I feel like that would bother me a lot.

- No, of course it's going to bother you,

and it's only going to make Nova resent him more

in the future, to the point where Nova don't even want to,

like, have a relationship with him no more.

- And I think that's what's happening now,

because she doesn't really text him back.

She doesn't call him back.

It's kind of like what I knew what was going to happen is,

like, happening right now.

- And she's having resentment for him or something.

Damn.

I don't know what else to say

about these fucking men.

- Well, I think this would probably

have to be the last conversation

that I have with him. - I know.

And that's what I'm saying.

Like, like if it's the last conversation,

then what the fuck do we go--where do you--

where do you go from here?

Like, my mind goes to it being how it ended up

being for me and you where, like, he just--

our dad just never came back.

Is Nova and Stella, are they going to end up like us?

With no dad at all?

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[dour country music]

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- Mm-hmm.

- Good job.

- You got to continue taking all the medications

the way you've been.

And hopefully in 12 days we're going to have good news.

All right? - All right.

Thank you. - Thank you.

- Appreciate it. - Take care.

- Oh, we get a picture?

- You want to see that? - Mm-hmm.

[gasps] Oh, my gosh.

- Yeah.

- That one looks like a soccer player.

- That one looks like cheer.

[laughs] Like a cheerleader.

- That was so emotional.

Like, I was just in there for not even a minute.

- Yeah.

- And I was so emotional the whole time.

[laughs]

Oh, my gosh, we just inserted two embryos.

- We are crazy people.

- Ah, Khes, we might be pregnant.

[laughs]

My gosh.

All right, let's get me dressed.

We just transferred these embryos

and that is a big milestone.

- Hey. - Hey.

- How'd it go? - It was good.

- Yay.

- I just cannot believe that our family

is so close to being complete.

And Khesanio is, like, right there of becoming a dad.

So now we wait.

In less than two weeks, I am going to find out

if I'm pregnant or not.

That's wild.

♪

[somber music]

- ♪ How long do we get ♪

♪ How much has been spent ♪

♪ What's gone and what's left ♪

- Hey, girl. - One day--oh, hey.

- I'm going to get you set up

to have a phone call with your dad.

- Yeah.

- I'm going to give you your privacy.

[phone ringing]

OK, let me know if you need something.

- OK.

Hi, Dad.

I miss you.

♪

Hi, Mom.

- Hey, girlfriend.

I thought we could draw a picture for dad.

- Sure.

- How was your call?

- It was good. - It was good?

- Yeah. - Yeah?

- What should I draw him, Mom?

- I don't know.

What do you think Dad would like to see?

- Maybe a picture of Sagwa?

- Should I draw Nory?

- Sure.

When I talk to Daddy

and we stopped and I stopped talking to him,

it makes me want to talk to him more.

- Yeah. - Yeah.

Yeah. - Yeah?

Would you like to schedule another call,

make sure you talk to Daddy again?

- Yeah. - Yeah?

So I was able to talk to the DA,

and she told me that I can get

two calls with Daddy a week.

And we'll send these off to Daddy

so he can always think about his family.

- Yeah.

♪ ♪

- So, you know,

I know you wanted to talk to Daddy.

And now that we've done that, that's important.

But promise me that if anything changes, you'll tell me.

- OK. - Pinky.

And seal it.

Double pinky. - [laughs]

- Double seal it.

Kiss it.

Kiss your thumb.

All right.

Scout's honor.

I love you.

- ♪ Till we meet again ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Till we meet again ♪

♪ Can I stay in this dream? ♪

♪ Oh, I don't want to blink

♪ Afraid of missing ♪

♪ Missing a thing ♪

♪ Losing my grip ♪

♪ 'Cause I know what this is ♪

♪ Till we meet again ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Until we meet again

♪ ♪

- Cate and Ty are coming to Chattanooga.

They're starting a podcast together.

- What are you doing here?

- What are youdoing here?

- Half the people want you to shut up.

- Bring it.

- My C section led to me becoming hooked

on pain medication.

It's important that I teach them

what they need to do

when they're being prescribed medication.

- Fucking sucks...

- I'm always scared that people are just

going to leave me for no reason.

- It's time for presents.

- Promise I will be there till the end of my time.

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