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- ♪ MTV ♪

- Previously on "Teen Mom: The Next Chapter"...

[all cheering] - Make a wish.

[laughter]

- You know the statistics for Nova, right?

- What? - She'll become a teenage mom.

This is why it's so important that at the age of 13,

we fucking stay on it.

- Nova's about to be a teenager.

I don't know how to handle that.

And the one person that I should be able to go to

is her father, and he's not around.

- The only thing that we require

for getting pregnant with type 1 diabetes

is having that A1C number at a 6.5.

- I am raising a teenage son.

All of this stuff he's doing with girls

screams "I am raising Josh."

And I'm like, mm.

Think about when you were 13.

- [chuckles]

- I want to be 10 steps ahead.

I know some of the people you dated,

and they've kind of told me, like, ways

you've broken their heart.

- Me? - That's not cool.

- My long-term goal is to be a nurse practitioner.

- How's school? - I'm on leave.

- Okay.

- I can't keep my head on straight.

- You know Granny has got to take a job, right?

- Yeah.

- I'm going to be on the cruise for a long time,

and I'm gonna miss you, Belle.

- I'm gonna miss you, too.

- All right. See y'all later.

- It's just you and me again.

- Surprise!

[car horn honking] - Surprise!

- This year is going to be a little different

because Bentley's turning 16,

so he's going to have a driver's license.

- We all know Bentley's a good kid,

but do we need to get on the same page as far as rules?

- You get a set of wheels, and the devil horns start growing.

[upbeat music]

♪ ♪

- ♪ Here comes trouble

♪ Ready or not, yeah, here it comes ♪

- Khes, I have a surprise.

- [gasps]

- My A1C is now 6.5,

and that is what I needed to start my IVF journey.

Give me a hug!

- No.

- I worked really, really hard to get there,

and I'm very proud of myself.

- Oh, my God, no way.

- The next step is to get pregnant.

- ♪ Ready or not, yeah, here it comes ♪

[suspenseful music]

♪ ♪

- We're very concerned about this area of Tampa Bay,

Sarasota, Manatee County.

This is a destructive, life-threatening storm.

- All right, guys.

It is Monday night, and we are having

a hurricane hit in two days.

- It doesn't matter where it makes landfall.

We're going to feel the catastrophic effects.

You must be prepared.

- Stock up on insulin.

Can't forget that.

Neighbors helping neighbors.

♪ ♪

- Bridges across the entire region are being shut down.

It is time to shelter in place.

Stay indoors.

- Oh! - And the power is out.

- Please, someone, help.

- Guys, I think I lost service.

- The death toll rose to 16 tonight,

and more than 2 million homes and businesses

are still without power.

♪ ♪

- Oh, I don't think we have too much roof damage, but they did.

- We do--we do have on the other side.

- Aw, look at our bushes. Oh, my gosh.

- Yeah, those are gone.

- But we're so lucky, Khes.

- Did the kids' dad reach out to...

see if they were good?

- He doesn't speak to me.

- But did the kids say they spoke to him or anything?

- I know they spoke to his mom.

I'm not sure about him.

It's not my responsibility to be like,

hey, you should probably reach out to your kids.

- Oh, no.

- There's a hurricane coming our way.

I'm gonna be honest.

I'm really just...

disappointed in the father he is being now.

But he's always been like this.

What are you doing? Because I need help with kids.

I'm not taking all the kids by myself.

I have never and would never as a mother

put my phone away for five hours

while you and the kids were off somewhere.

Something bad could have happened.

- Fine. I'm fucking done. - Wait.

I'm just trying to put everything aside

and figure out what you want with your marriage.

What do you want with us, with our family?

- There is no family.

- When our divorce went down, I said,

what kind of custody do you want?

I want you in the kids' life.

And any school break, you can see them

as long as you provide the transportation.

The only two times he sees them is Christmas and summer.

And who transports them? You and I.

And they're starting to catch on.

And I just want to shake him and say,

your children are catching on to your bull crap,

and you are going to regret this one day.

- Yep.

- I've been here every day for these kids since day one.

I just don't feel like he deserves all the work

we put in...

to make sure he gets those visits, you know?

- Sure.

- It's time for me to do something.

[dramatic music]

[92elm's "Numb"]

- ♪ I'm numb ♪

♪ Numb to your ways ♪

♪ The cold nights seem to blur ♪

♪ Got no feelings, no feelings... ♪

[line trilling]

- Hello? - Hi.

How's life on the ship?

- Life on the ship is interesting.

But I'm enjoying it. What's going on with you?

- I'm just getting ready to set up my security cameras.

- Well, I can imagine, you know,

you having to relive coming up your stairs

into that blind spot.

- When I first got into my house,

I see Bar sitting on my couch.

What the fuck are you doing here?

He was pissed.

Well, you just worry about yourself on that ship.

We'll see you when you get back.

- Yeah, any day now, baby. I miss y'all.

- Okay, bye. - Okay, bye.

- My anxiety is

worse than it's ever been.

So I got a new security-camera system,

because walking in your house and having

someone sitting in your house, it's just frightening.

[bell chimes]

That should do it.

There are a lot of things taking place in my life

that are contributing to my anxiety,

like the criminal court case

and my mom leaving for six weeks.

I think it's been taking a toll on my day-to-day life.

That will work.

So I've been reaching out to friends

as much as possible to widen my support system.

- ♪ It's so heavy ♪

♪ Carrying this weight on my shoulders ♪

♪ I'm not ready ♪

♪ Someone wake me up when it's over ♪

♪ My soul... ♪

- Are you trying to make a bowl?

- I'm trying to make a house. [laughter]

- Okay, thank you.

What's getting you into your artistic side?

- Life. - Like, inspiration?

- Yeah. [laughs]

- Since I'm not in school, I just need to fill my time

with, like, enriching activities.

As much as a mental break I need, I'm floating in space.

Like, I have no structure. - Yeah.

- But I will be back in the full swing

of nursing school in a few weeks.

- Get your mental right? - Yeah.

I feel like I've just been having anxiety

with, like, the divorce.

- So is it official?

- I basically have to wait until next month

to go to court,

but I don't see anything that's going to stop the divorce.

- Yeah, from happening? - Yeah.

- It's just time? - Yeah.

- How do you feel you're holding up mentally?

Do you feel like you're taking steps to make sure

that you're okay in that department, too?

- No.

- What about therapy? Are you open to that?

- Yeah.

I've been in therapy, but I'm looking for something outside

the "sit on my couch and talk." - Yeah?

- Something less medicine-based, more holistic.

- Yeah, something outside of the box, like, out of the norm.

I think that's something cool to look into.

- I'm just in a place to try anything

to quiet some of the noise.

I mean, I have a kid. I think that's the only thing--

is, like, I just feel the pressure of just--

- Yeah.

- ♪ Girl, I swear to God ♪

♪ I'm ready to let go ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Let go, oh, oh, oh

♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪

- Mornin'.

- [sighs] Today's the day.

- So how are you feeling

about Bentley taking his driving test today?

Are you nervous? - I am nervous--

nervous for him, nervous for me.

- Yeah.

- But I don't want to be nervous in front of him.

- Yeah.

- I'll need you to come meet us there and pick me up,

because if he passes, he'll go to school, so...

- Go straight to school from there?

- I'm gonna need a ride home. - Yep. Here we go.

- Let's go get a license. - Let's go.

[upbeat music]

- Hey, come here.

You nervous? About to be a licensed driver.

- I am kind of nervous if you pass and then you just--

then you just go on about your merry way all by yourself.

- Mm-hmm. - [scoffs]

Can't we just wait, like, another year?

You might be ready. I'm not.

All right. Ready to go?

♪ ♪

We're next in line.

Are you nervous? - I am now, yeah.

- It's happening.

♪ ♪

He's taking his test right now.

I'm very nervous for him.

♪ ♪

- ♪ All my people get live ♪

♪ Hands up, go and touch the sky ♪

♪ Ready or not, we're coming in hot ♪

♪ ♪

- You guys want to make some "bagel pizza bite" things?

Yeah?

- ♪ La, la, like this ♪

- Are you excited for this weekend, Nova?

You get to see Taylor Swift. - Yeah.

- And you're going with Grandma.

Which era are you most excited for?

- "The Tortured Poets Department," because...

- Really?

- I haven't seen what she does for that.

- No? What song are you most, like, excited to, like,

sing along to?

- All of them. - All of them?

I'm excited for you.

Stella, you excited to spend the day with me?

- Yeah. - Yeah?

- ♪ You're looking at the Sunshine Queen ♪

♪ Yeah, you're looking at the Sunshine Queen ♪

- So I've been thinking about what I want

for myself and my children.

I have been thinking about tying my tubes.

I don't want to have any more children.

And here in Florida, the laws are so crazy.

You can't even get a goddamn abortion.

For the last few years,

it's something that I've thought about.

And I just want to be 100% sure,

because tying my tubes would be permanent.

You know, there's no going back from that.

So I want to talk to someone who's been through it,

like Mackenzie.

- ♪ You're looking at the Sunshine Queen ♪

♪ Summer's not a thing without me, yeah ♪

[line trilling]

- Hi. - What's up?

- How are you? - I'm good.

How are you after the hurricane?

- I'm okay.

Thankfully, there was no damage here.

We still have our power.

No flooding. Everybody is fine here.

How about you? - Good.

We just have some roof damage...

- Okay.

- And didn't have power, but we're good.

- That is crazy.

Thankfully, you guys are all good and nothing,

you know, like, crazy happened.

We're literally, like, what,

like, two hours away from each other?

That's not far at all.

We need to get together and, like, hang out and stuff.

- I know.

The girls would have so much fun together.

- Yes. Maybe I can come over this weekend.

Nova won't be with me

'cause she's going to be in Miami with my mom.

They're gonna go to a concert.

But it'll just be me and Stella.

Maybe we could swing by. - We would love that.

- I think that'd be a good idea.

Plus, I want to pick your brain about some things

that I have going on, and I want your advice.

So maybe we can, like, chat and stuff

and let the kids hang out. - I'm here to listen.

Now I'm curious as to what it's about.

- It's nothing bad, I promise. I promise it's nothing bad.

[laughs]

- ♪ Tomorrow is a new day ♪

- ♪ I'm a menace ♪

♪ The only difference right now ♪

♪ Is I'm done playing pretend with ♪

♪ The whole world ♪

♪ I'm gonna drown in my contentment ♪

♪ Free fall, shots fired, no Lennon ♪

- Mom, can you tell Broncs

to get my bracelet out of his mouth?

- What? - Mom.

- Stop. Get it out.

Are you guys excited for Mommy to maybe be pregnant?

- Yes. - I hope that it's a boy.

- No. If it's a boy, you will never be seeing me again.

- Love you guys.

Have you guys talked to your dad lately?

- No. - No.

- Dad doesn't answer my calls no more.

- Me either. Dad never answers me.

- He answers Gannon but not me.

- I don't even have to call Dad--he calls me.

- He doesn't call me or answer me.

He said he would come to one of my competitions.

Guess what. He had plans that day.

- The first time that he left, like, whenever

you guys got divorced, that's when I first started knowing.

- Knowing what?

- He don't, like, stick up for what he says.

Like, don't trust his word.

- Well, I just always want you guys

to have whatever kind of relationship

you want to with him.

And I know you guys don't see him often,

and it's just like, twice a year.

- [exhales deeply]

- Did that feel good to let out?

- No!

- Okay.

I feel like y'all just need to let some things out.

You guys want to scream in a pillow?

- Mom, if you try to scream-- - Okay. Come here, Gannon.

Get a pillow. All at the same time.

Ready? One--as loud as you can--

two, three.

[muffled screaming]

[laughter]

Oh, yay!

Ah, what an amazing feeling!

Bring it in! Group hug!

- That actually felt good.

♪ ♪

- ♪ These are the good days ♪

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- Passed? - Passed.

- Let's go. Was it hard?

- So what you got? You got a license?

- Yeah. - You got something?

- Paper for now. - Nice.

Well, congratulations.

Make sure you keep that on you. Don't lose it.

- Watch your speed.

- He needs to go to school. - Yeah.

Wear your seat belt.

Love you. - Love you.

- Be careful.

Let me know when you get there, okay?

♪ ♪

Oh, my goodness.

- ♪ All right ♪

- And he's off. A little scary, isn't it?

- ♪ Good luck, oh

♪ Fresher than fresh ♪

♪ All right ♪

- Wonder if we should follow him to school and home.

- I feel like we've done so much to mold him

into the young man that he is,

and now it's just-- you're letting him drive,

and you're like, did we do enough?

- Yeah. Like, I'm so excited for him.

- Yeah.

- And then, literally, I want to crawl in a hole.

- Yeah.

- [laughs] - No, I feel the same way.

- Terrified. [cell phone chimes]

- Made it. - Yay.

- He sent a text. - Text him back.

[cell phone chimes]

- He said, "Love you, too." - He better.

- ♪ Falling asleep on my own ♪

- ♪ 'Cause I'm fallin'

♪ With thunder comes pouring rain ♪

♪ I feel you rush in my veins ♪

♪ And I'll go where... ♪

- All right. This is your pajamas.

Pack that in there.

Nova's going to see T-Swift. - Wait. Can I see your dress?

- So cute.

Go put your stuff by the front door so we don't forget it.

Grandma will come pick you up early.

And then, Stella, we're going to go visit Mackenzie.

- ♪ Lightning blows up the sky ♪

♪ It's true ♪

- ♪ I say, say hello ♪

♪ Three, two, one, ready, set, go ♪

- Look at what happened.

The hurricane did that, I think.

Oh, my gosh.

This is down over here.

Oh, my God, look at that roof over there.

- ♪ Say, say hello

♪ Say, say hello ♪

♪ Three, two, one, ready, set, go ♪

♪ Say, say hello ♪

- Hello. - Hey.

Look how cute you look.

- Hi.

- Hi. You have no clue who I am.

- This is Stella.

Oh, my God, Stella's almost as tall as you.

- I know. This is Jaxie. - Hi, Jaxie.

- Hi. - So pretty.

- She did her makeup, too.

Okay, come on in.

- They love makeup, huh? - Mm-hmm.

Girly girls.

This is the gym.

- Oh, I love it. - [chuckles]

- You guys can go tumble, make TikToks.

Do you know any TikTok dances? - Yes. She knows all of them.

- [laughs]

- Is this on? Is it recording?

- Yeah, it's recording. - Okay.

Don't touch if it's recording already.

- Oh, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba.

- ♪ Top of the world, top of the stack ♪

♪ Doing my thing, it's as simple as that ♪

♪ Better than ever, and I'm never the same ♪

♪ Always gonna change the game ♪

[laughter]

- I think we did it.

So what's up?

Last time I seen you was in Colombia.

- I've just been vibing, you know, with the kids.

Devoin moved to another state, so he's out.

Luis is not really around.

It's just me and the girls now.

My mom is back from Texas. She's doing fine.

So everything's been pretty good where I'm at.

But what's up with you? How's the wedding planning?

- I've been engaged for, like, six months,

and Khes hasn't mentioned a wedding once.

- No?

- Yeah, he's just all about the baby.

- Okay.

- But I'm going through IVF right now

because my tubes are tied. - Mm-hmm.

- I want to pick your brain about it.

Like, do you regret doing that?

Because I don't want any more kids,

so I was thinking about possibly, like, tying my tubes.

- I mean, I do now, yeah, 'cause I met someone.

But I never thought I would be in a relationship

like this, so...

But I did it at 20.

- I don't know.

- Can we create male birth control already?

- [laughs] - Like, come on.

It's so stupid.

But you're single, right? - Yeah, I am single.

And I don't want to be in a relationship right now.

I'm not looking.

I want to be focused on Nova and Stella.

Nova's 13.

Like, I remember me being 13.

I was doing things that I shouldn't have done...

- I know.

- Because my mom was so busy working.

My mom was so busy dealing with my father.

My mom never really paid 100% attention

on me and my sister.

So it was like, I don't want to follow the same footsteps.

- So you're making decisions based off

of things you went through... - Mm-hmm.

- And those feelings that you don't want your kids feeling.

- Yeah. Yeah.

- Isn't that crazy that we do that as moms?

- So crazy.

Being parents to teenagers, like,

I don't know what I'm doing. - Mm-hmm.

- Do you know what you're doing?

- I know. - [laughs]

- And, you know, I had a baby at 16,

and now Gannon's rocking my world.

- Really? - Yes.

- Oh, my gosh.

- I had to talk to Gannon about sex.

- Is he having sex?

- I hope not.

Oh, my gosh, he's 13.

But the problem is, I went through his phone,

and he was talking about blow jobs.

And I'm like, my son knows what a blow job is?

And my heart fell out of my butt.

[laughs] Have you had that talk yet?

- Yes and no. Like, there's these books that you can get.

Like, it teaches them about their bodies,

what they're going to be going through.

And I gave them to her, and she will, like, read them.

And she'll ask me questions,

and she knows what it is, but, like--

- It's so different with girls.

I still feel lost. - Same.

- Do we ever feel like we have it together?

- No. - Yeah.

- I still feel like I'm a teenager.

- I know. - And I'm looking for guidance.

- I woke up 2 days ago, right? And I'm like, I'm 30.

And I thought I would feel like I have my shit together,

and I don't still.

- Yeah.

♪

- ♪ Whoo! Love it when I feel like this ♪

♪ Love it when I feel like this ♪

♪ Love it when I feel like this ♪

♪ Sexy and amazing ♪

♪ Love it when I feel like this ♪

[line trilling]

- Hi.

- Ugh, you'll never guess where I'm going.

To hypnotherapy.

Bitch, I'd rather be there than here.

- Oh, okay.

- TikTok.

Went down a rabbit hole, and I was like, you know what?

I should just try this.

Since Mom is gone, I have to bring Holly.

I don't think she's going to be in the room with me.

- Okay, bye.

- ♪ Incredulous, getting better all the time ♪

- Mom, where are we going?

- We are going to a hypnotherapist.

- Why?

- Because therapy is for people

who are emotionally mature and intelligent.

- ♪ Like, wow

♪ It's getting better, better ♪

♪ Getting better all the time ♪

- Do you want to sit here for me?

- ♪ Like, wow ♪

♪ It's getting better, better ♪

♪ Getting better all the time ♪

- Knock, knock. - Oh, hey.

- Hi. - Hi.

Grab a seat. - Okay. Thank you.

- Can I get you some water?

Are you good with your green tea or--

- I'm good with my green tea. Thanks so much.

- So, now, let me ask you this.

On a scale of one to ten,

ten being, like, the highest level of anxiety,

what would you give yourself on a scale of one to ten?

- A nine. - Nine--Wow.

Okay, wow. - Mm-hmm.

I think life is stressful as it is.

And then a mom that kind of moved out here on my own--

my support circle is not as big as it used to be.

- Okay.

- And I took a break from school.

The biggest thing is just, while going through a divorce

and all these big life changes,

how do I maintain some sense of calm?

- Yeah. Okay. Very, very soon here

I'm going to help you to feel a lot more calm, okay?

When we're breathing properly,

it automatically gives us emotional balance.

So go ahead and have a seat in the hypnosis chair.

Close your eyes.

Imagine floating to a beautiful beach,

letting go of certain feelings

that no longer serve you.

As you continue going even deeper

into hypnosis,

feeling even more

how good that feels,

especially as I begin counting down--

down to three...

[clock ticking]

Two...

one, and all the way down.

All the way down.

As you allow yourself to continue feeling

these wonderful feelings--

calm...

peaceful--

and without thinking about it very much at all,

just take your hands and place it on your body

wherever you're feeling these wonderful feelings

the strongest.

And opening your eyes now, coming back into the room,

feeling even more wonderful.

When you're ready, what was your favorite part about that?

- I think that just being able

to have a silent moment to take yourself somewhere

was very peaceful.

Yeah.

- We all deserve it.

And you always have at least a little bit of time

to just take some deep breaths. - Mm-hmm.

Whew!

I do feel a lot more relaxed.

- Yeah. - I can tell you that.

- ♪ Wait a minute ♪

♪ Show you how we live it ♪

♪ Yeah, we 'bout to get up in it now ♪

- All right, well, I'll send you my address.

- Okay. - I don't live far.

And then there should be food at the house.

- Okay. Yeah, let's go eat. I'm starved.

- ♪ Clap your hands

♪ Move your feet ♪

♪ One, two, one, two, repeat ♪

♪ Clap your hands, follow me... ♪

- So you guys have a whole spread here.

What's this? Oh, the pie.

There's key lime pie here.

- Bri, I haven't seen you in a long time.

- So long. - How is life?

Life is good? - Life is great.

- Mom.

When can Stella come see my room?

- You guys want to go upstairs? - Yeah.

- You can show her your room. - Okay.

- I'll go show you guys--

- Show Khes your guys' TikTok dance.

- Okay.

- Khes is so good with the kids.

Where is their dad at? - Oklahoma.

He's just not very present.

Like, we don't hear

from him a lot. - Wow.

- And he kind of picks and chooses

which kids he talks to. - Yeah.

- So I went through Jaxie's phone,

and the last time he replied to her was six months ago.

But she'll be like, hi. Hey, Dad.

Hey. Love you. - And nothing?

- Mm-mm. - [gasps]

- So I'm going to look into getting full custody.

Is there not, like, a thing in the court

where, if they're not around for so many years,

you automatically get it? - I think it just depends.

Because I went to a lawyer a few years ago,

multiple lawyers, actually, and I always got the same advice.

Don't open a can of worms.

If they're not bothering you, to just leave it as is.

- [sighs] - I don't know.

I say go talk to a lawyer and see what they say,

'cause you may get a different response.

- Yeah. I just kind of wanted to lock this stuff in

before having a baby.

To me, I'd rather them be completely out

and gone and distant, and let's do the work here,

let's do the therapy, than, like, gone but still there.

- Mm-hmm.

- Like that, like, popping in every six months...

- Mm-hmm. - Or replying to a text.

- I don't know what I'm going to do,

because I'm living two situations,

where Luis is completely out... - Mm-hmm.

- And I'm seeing the effects that has on Stella.

And then I see Devoin coming in and out

and what that does to Nova, and they're both not good.

- Right. - It's causing a lot for Nova.

And, like, now she's in therapy,

and thank God for that.

- Doesn't that suck-- to know that you're doing

all the right things as a mom and it's not enough?

[serious music]

- ♪ Where do we go from here? ♪

[upbeat music]

♪ ♪

- "What are the three common states of matter"?

- Solid, liquid-- solid, gas, liquid.

- She sure is pretty. - Yep.

♪ ♪

- Help me. No, really.

Ugh.

- I think I need some gas already.

- You need a job.

No, you got some money for your birthday.

Oh, that gas station right there...

- Yeah.

- Sign up for their, like, rewards thing...

- Yeah.

- Because you get, like, cents off a gallon or whatever.

- Mm-hmm. - That'll help.

All right, with a license...

this is a lot of freedom but... - Yeah.

- A lot of responsibility. - Yeah.

- Never, ever, ever drive if you're not up to driving.

If you're tired or you're just mentally or physically--

like, you just don't want to,

don't--don't feel like you have to.

- Yeah. - It's not going to be an--

We will drop whatever and come get you.

Anytime you have anybody in your car,

make sure they're buckled.

Make sure they're not acting a fool.

- Yeah.

- I don't really want Jayde and Mav in the car with you.

You need more experience before I think

even you would be comfortable with a bunch of people,

especially little kids, in your car.

So communication... - Yeah.

- Trust, and it goes both ways. - Yeah.

- Remember, this is a huge responsibility,

but it's gonna be awesome. - Yeah.

- Don't take advantage of it. - Yeah.

- It can be taken away.

I'm genuinely not a worrier--

what's going to happen is going to happen,

what's meant to be will be--

until my oldest son got his driver's license.

And now I feel like I'm just going to be worried

all the time.

Maybe after a couple weeks, it'll settle down.

It's just that it's the very beginning.

Good times, y'all. Good times.

[laughs]

- ♪ When you're close to me ♪

♪ Chemistry is boiling at 1,000 degrees ♪

♪ And I love it when you walk my way ♪

- Bye, girlfriend.

Thanks for coming. - Thank you for having me.

- Let's do this again. - Yes, for sure.

- Maybe next time we'll have some better updates.

- Ah! Seriously.

- I'll be pregnant. You'll be tied.

- Yeah! - [laughs]

- I love that!

Give her a hug.

Bye. - Bye.

♪ ♪

- ♪ When you walk my way ♪

♪ When you walk my way, when you walk my way ♪

- You look tired. - We are tired.

- How was your day?

Was it fun? - It was good.

They were doing TikToks the whole time.

- [laughs]

- Bri and I got to have good talks.

She has a lot going on in her life.

I have a lot going on.

And they align in, like, such different ways

but the same ways.

You know, I'm going through all this,

and I'm regretting tying my tubes.

And she's tying her tubes. - Aw.

- So...

- How many kids does she have, two?

- She only has two, and she's just done having kids.

But I'm like, are you sure?

I'd hate for her to regret it.

She's been through a lot because the girls' dad

isn't really around, kind of like... [mouths words]

Just, like, not there

but barely enough to still know, like...

he exists.

She was talking to me about talking to a lawyer in court.

And she was like, they say, if they're not bothering you,

then don't even open a can of worms, you know?

- I mean, that was my thought, you know.

Like, I understand you just want to hear

and just, like, see what your options are.

But, like, you don't really have no problems

except, you know, you just don't have help.

- When I think of our family,

I think of, like, me and Khesanio and the three kids.

What I want is for Josh to be more involved in their life,

and he's just not.

These kids love their dad, but Khes is also Dad now,

and he is consistency.

And he's been solid for two years.

Josh and I were together for ten years.

I can't even tell you

a month that my kids had something that was solid.

I still won't stop the kids

from having their own personal relationship

with him, you know?

But I'm gonna talk to a lawyer and find out more info.

As much as he's not involved,

I just want him not even...

existing in their life at all.

- Yeah.

[somber music]

- ♪ Guess it's my lucky day

♪ Everything's going my way

♪ And it feels so nice to say ♪

♪ I'm feeling lucky today ♪

♪ ♪

- What the fuck?

[sighs]

[line trilling]

- Hello? - Hi.

- What you doing?

- Not a damn thing, apparently, for the next four months.

- What are you talking about?

- Why did I just get an email from the dean

saying that I have to start school next semester?

And it says that the next semester

is not a guarantee, so to get everything in

as soon as possible.

- So you have to wait four months,

and then you still might not be able to go back?

- This is fucking ridiculous.

All this money I done gave y'all?

- And there's nothing you can do about it?

Like, what was the reason?

- He didn't even give me a reason.

They made it seem like

everything was on go for come back.

Then as soon as I'm trying to press the "go" button,

they're like, yellow-lighting me.

- That doesn't make any sense.

- What the fuck am I going to do for four more months?

The only real options I have

are to either just wait four months

and hope that I have a seat guaranteed.

I could move to another place

and get into a school there,

but I would have to literally restart the program.

So I don't really have any other options

except for to wait,

because I'm literally way too close to graduating

to have to retake everything I've done.

I definitely need an anti-crash-out dinner.

Since Holly's at her friends house, want to meet up?

I feel like we need to just talk about it.

- Intervention. - Yeah, intervention.

- So just send me all the details.

- Okay, I will. Bye. - All right. Bye.

- ♪ Make me feel alive

- You ready? - Yes.

Coconut shrimp. - Coconut shrimp.

- Mm-hmm. - And then the rangoon.

- You got it. Thank you so much.

both: Thank you. - Of course.

- WTF?

- So I'm trying to be glass half full.

I feel like at first, I was, like, angry

because it's, like-- I'm still angry.

But I feel like there's been a lot of nos.

There could be a reason why the nos are coming.

Maybe I'm not ready for the yeses I'm asking for.

I don't know.

- Here you go. - Thank you so much.

You can't control any of these things.

- Yeah. - Now that we're here...

- Yeah. - You know, what's the plan?

- Well, I tried hypnotherapy. - Mm.

- I didn't tell you that?

- No, you didn't tell me about that.

- It was more of, like, a meditative situation

for me than, like, a--

than I saw it as, like, a hypno--

like, a look into my eyes-- - Yes.

- Like, I would say that I would like to go

down the route of, like, serious meditation.

- This is a life lesson of, when life gets tough,

we get tougher in a healthy way, though.

We're not tougher like, suck it up, never deal with it.

We're like, no, actually, we're dealing with it.

- We're lemons to "lemonading" right now.

- Yes. - Lemonade to "lemonading."

- Cheers to lemons to "lemonading."

both: Yes, ma'am. - [chuckles]

- I don't think anything in my life is going

as planned right now.

If it would be my way, Bar probably wouldn't be in jail.

I wouldn't be taking a break from nursing school.

But I need to take the four months

and be productive with it and be ready

to hit the ground rocking and rolling when I get my seat.

[laughter]

- ♪ Today could be the day ♪

[upbeat music]

- ♪ Watch me coming up on you ♪

♪ But in time, it all aligns ♪

♪ When you can find your stride in your heart ♪

♪ See the signs ♪

♪ It's gonna find you when you barely try ♪

♪ That's when it starts ♪

♪ ♪

- Oh, I think I hear--

Hello!

Oh, my goodness, I missed you so much.

How are you feeling? - Good.

- Good? What were you feeling when you first got there?

- Happy. - "Happy"? Yeah.

How did you like it, Mom?

- I think I'm a Swiftie after 50.

[laughter]

- ♪ We already made it ♪

♪ Time for celebrating ♪

- I got you a coffee, and I got mine.

Sorry, Mom.

- No, I don't want coffee. Thank you.

- Sorry.

Um, so, while you guys were at the concert,

I went to go visit Mackenzie just to, like,

talk to her about, like, the process of, like,

getting my tubes tied 'cause she had them tied.

I just need to make sure that I wipe out

any possibility of me having another baby

with someone like Luis or Devoin.

- Hmm.

- Three baby daddies-- no, not me.

Once is a mistake, three times is a pattern.

And that's just not gonna be me.

- You're young to tie your tubes.

No doctor in their right mind is gonna tie your tubes.

- I'll drive you. - They're gonna let me do it.

I already have two kids, and I'm 30.

- I don't understand. Why not do the birth-control method?

- I just don't want to do birth control.

Birth control is not for me.

It gives me horrible side effects.

Birth control works for other people, but for me, it doesn't.

So how else can I protect myself?

I'm not having sex. I'm extremely celibate, Jesus.

- You don't got to explain yourself to nobody.

- Yeah. - 'Cause at the end of the day,

"no" is a complete fucking sentence.

And it's your body, your choice.

- You're gonna regret it.

You still haven't found a stable relationship.

- But what does that have to do with having a baby?

- When there's a solid relationship,

you both want to-- going to want to procreate.

- But I don't. - Now you don't, but...

- I can't physically see myself--

- Five years from now, you might.

- Honestly, I've been thinking about this decision

for a really long time.

I had two kids.

I struggled hard.

[serious music]

[crying] And I think about that all the time.

And like, I try to make that up to Nova,

because I know I was so young.

And I felt like Nova wasn't, like, my main priority

when I was younger.

What if I have another baby now?

Like, my full attention will go to that baby,

and... [sniffles]

it wouldn't be fully on Nova and Stella.

And I feel like Nova and Stella just deserve everything.

And in order for me to give them everything,

I need to make sure...

that I don't let what I did twice

happen one more time.

[sniffles] I don't want to continue

to create these broken homes.

♪ ♪

- ♪ If only you knew what it took to get here ♪

♪ I faced things you'd never believe ♪

♪ And even though I'm not where I want to be yet ♪

♪ It somehow always turns out better ♪

♪ Tell me, do you know what it feels like ♪

♪ When you're not alone but it feels like it? ♪

♪ Hard to say the truth when it's too deep ♪

♪ That's why I really hate small talk ♪

♪ If only you knew what it took to get here ♪

♪ I faced things you'd never believe ♪

♪ I'm harder on myself than anyone else ♪

♪ But I won't give up, just gotta remember to breathe ♪

- When my dad went to the doctor,

they found a mass on his kidney.

The mass is cancer.

- In the past year,

Amber's seen her daughter four days.

- That stinks as abandonment.

- Your heart?

- [sobs] - It hurts?

With Ry having a rare disease,

when she is sick, it terrifies me.

- My mom admitted that she relapsed.

- Christy, we're here tonight because we love you.

- Oh, I'm-- - No, no! Sit down!

- This is a fucking setup!

[upbeat music]

♪ ♪