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- ♪ MTV ♪
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- Previously on "Teen Mom:
The Next Chapter"...
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[all cheering]
- Make a wish.
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[laughter]
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- You know the statistics
for Nova, right?
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- What?
- She'll become a teenage mom.
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This is why it's so important
that at the age of 13,
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we fucking stay on it.
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- Nova's about
to be a teenager.
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I don't know how
to handle that.
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And the one person that
I should be able to go to
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is her father,
and he's not around.
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- The only thing
that we require
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for getting pregnant
with type 1 diabetes
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is having that A1C number
at a 6.5.
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- I am raising a teenage son.
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All of this stuff
he's doing with girls
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screams "I am raising Josh."
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And I'm like, mm.
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Think about when you were 13.
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- [chuckles]
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- I want to be 10 steps ahead.
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I know some
of the people you dated,
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and they've kind of
told me, like, ways
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you've broken their heart.
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- Me?
- That's not cool.
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- My long-term goal is
to be a nurse practitioner.
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- How's school?
- I'm on leave.
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- Okay.
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- I can't keep
my head on straight.
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- You know Granny has got
to take a job, right?
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- Yeah.
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- I'm going to be on the cruise
for a long time,
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and I'm gonna miss you, Belle.
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- I'm gonna miss you, too.
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- All right.
See y'all later.
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- It's just you and me again.
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- Surprise!
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[car horn honking]
- Surprise!
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- This year is going to be
a little different
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because Bentley's turning 16,
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so he's going
to have a driver's license.
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- We all know
Bentley's a good kid,
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but do we need to get on
the same page as far as rules?
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- You get a set of wheels, and
the devil horns start growing.
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[upbeat music]
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♪ ♪
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- ♪ Here comes trouble
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♪ Ready or not,
yeah, here it comes ♪
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- Khes, I have a surprise.
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- [gasps]
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- My A1C is now 6.5,
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and that is what I needed
to start my IVF journey.
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Give me a hug!
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- No.
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- I worked really, really
hard to get there,
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and I'm very proud of myself.
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- Oh, my God, no way.
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- The next step is to
get pregnant.
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- ♪ Ready or not,
yeah, here it comes ♪
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[suspenseful music]
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♪ ♪
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- We're very concerned
about this area of Tampa Bay,
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Sarasota, Manatee County.
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This is a destructive,
life-threatening storm.
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- All right, guys.
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It is Monday night,
and we are having
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a hurricane hit in two days.
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- It doesn't matter
where it makes landfall.
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We're going to feel
the catastrophic effects.
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You must be prepared.
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- Stock up on insulin.
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Can't forget that.
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Neighbors helping neighbors.
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♪ ♪
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- Bridges across the entire
region are being shut down.
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It is time to shelter
in place.
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Stay indoors.
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- Oh!
- And the power is out.
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- Please, someone, help.
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- Guys, I think I lost service.
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- The death toll
rose to 16 tonight,
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and more than 2 million
homes and businesses
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are still without power.
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♪ ♪
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- Oh, I don't think we have too
much roof damage, but they did.
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- We do--we do have
on the other side.
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- Aw, look at our bushes.
Oh, my gosh.
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- Yeah, those are gone.
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- But we're so lucky, Khes.
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- Did the kids' dad
reach out to...
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see if they were good?
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- He doesn't speak to me.
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- But did the kids say they
spoke to him or anything?
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- I know they spoke to his mom.
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I'm not sure about him.
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It's not my responsibility
to be like,
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hey, you should probably
reach out to your kids.
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- Oh, no.
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- There's a hurricane
coming our way.
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I'm gonna be honest.
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I'm really just...
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disappointed in the father
he is being now.
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But he's always been like this.
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What are you doing?
Because I need help with kids.
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I'm not taking all
the kids by myself.
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I have never
and would never as a mother
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put my phone away
for five hours
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while you and the kids
were off somewhere.
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Something bad
could have happened.
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- Fine. I'm fucking done.
- Wait.
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I'm just trying
to put everything aside
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and figure out what you want
with your marriage.
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What do you want with us,
with our family?
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- There is no family.
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- When our divorce went down,
I said,
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what kind of custody
do you want?
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I want you in the kids' life.
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And any school break,
you can see them
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as long as you provide
the transportation.
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The only two times he sees them
is Christmas and summer.
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And who transports them?
You and I.
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And they're starting
to catch on.
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And I just want to shake him
and say,
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your children are catching
on to your bull crap,
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and you are going to
regret this one day.
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- Yep.
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- I've been here every day
for these kids since day one.
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I just don't feel like
he deserves all the work
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we put in...
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to make sure
he gets those visits, you know?
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- Sure.
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- It's time for me
to do something.
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[dramatic music]
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[92elm's "Numb"]
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- ♪ I'm numb ♪
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♪ Numb to your ways ♪
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♪ The cold nights
seem to blur ♪
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♪ Got no feelings,
no feelings... ♪
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[line trilling]
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- Hello?
- Hi.
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How's life on the ship?
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- Life on the ship
is interesting.
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But I'm enjoying it.
What's going on with you?
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- I'm just getting ready
to set up my security cameras.
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- Well, I can imagine,
you know,
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you having to relive
coming up your stairs
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into that blind spot.
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- When I first
got into my house,
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I see Bar sitting on my couch.
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What the fuck
are you doing here?
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He was pissed.
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Well, you just worry
about yourself on that ship.
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We'll see you
when you get back.
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- Yeah, any day now, baby.
I miss y'all.
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- Okay, bye.
- Okay, bye.
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- My anxiety is
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worse than it's ever been.
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So I got a new
security-camera system,
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because walking in
your house and having
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someone sitting in your house,
it's just frightening.
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[bell chimes]
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That should do it.
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There are a lot of things
taking place in my life
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that are contributing
to my anxiety,
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like the criminal court case
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and my mom leaving
for six weeks.
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I think it's been taking
a toll on my day-to-day life.
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That will work.
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So I've been reaching out
to friends
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as much as possible to widen
my support system.
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- ♪ It's so heavy ♪
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♪ Carrying this weight
on my shoulders ♪
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♪ I'm not ready ♪
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♪ Someone wake me up
when it's over ♪
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♪ My soul... ♪
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- Are you trying
to make a bowl?
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- I'm trying to make a house.
[laughter]
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- Okay, thank you.
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What's getting you
into your artistic side?
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- Life.
- Like, inspiration?
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- Yeah.
[laughs]
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- Since I'm not in school,
I just need to fill my time
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with, like,
enriching activities.
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As much as a mental break
I need, I'm floating in space.
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Like, I have no structure.
- Yeah.
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- But I will be back
in the full swing
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of nursing school
in a few weeks.
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- Get your mental right?
- Yeah.
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I feel like I've just
been having anxiety
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with, like, the divorce.
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- So is it official?
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- I basically have to wait
until next month
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to go to court,
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but I don't see anything that's
going to stop the divorce.
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- Yeah, from happening?
- Yeah.
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- It's just time?
- Yeah.
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- How do you feel
you're holding up mentally?
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Do you feel like you're taking
steps to make sure
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that you're okay
in that department, too?
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- No.
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- What about therapy?
Are you open to that?
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- Yeah.
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I've been in therapy, but I'm
looking for something outside
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the "sit on my couch and talk."
- Yeah?
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- Something less
medicine-based, more holistic.
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- Yeah, something outside of
the box, like, out of the norm.
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I think that's something
cool to look into.
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- I'm just in a place
to try anything
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to quiet some of the noise.
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I mean, I have a kid.
I think that's the only thing--
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is, like, I just
feel the pressure of just--
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- Yeah.
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- ♪ Girl, I swear to God ♪
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♪ I'm ready to let go ♪
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♪ ♪
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♪ Let go, oh, oh, oh
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♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
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- Mornin'.
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- [sighs] Today's the day.
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- So how are you feeling
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about Bentley taking
his driving test today?
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Are you nervous?
- I am nervous--
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nervous for him,
nervous for me.
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- Yeah.
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- But I don't want to be
nervous in front of him.
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- Yeah.
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- I'll need you to come meet us
there and pick me up,
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because if he passes,
he'll go to school, so...
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- Go straight to school
from there?
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- I'm gonna need a ride home.
- Yep. Here we go.
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- Let's go get a license.
- Let's go.
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[upbeat music]
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- Hey, come here.
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You nervous?
About to be a licensed driver.
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- I am kind of nervous
if you pass and then you just--
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then you just go on about your
merry way all by yourself.
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- Mm-hmm.
- [scoffs]
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Can't we just wait,
like, another year?
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You might be ready.
I'm not.
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All right.
Ready to go?
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♪ ♪
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We're next in line.
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Are you nervous?
- I am now, yeah.
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- It's happening.
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♪ ♪
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He's taking his test right now.
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I'm very nervous for him.
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♪ ♪
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- ♪ All my people get live ♪
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♪ Hands up,
go and touch the sky ♪
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♪ Ready or not,
we're coming in hot ♪
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♪ ♪
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- You guys want to make some
"bagel pizza bite" things?
255
00:11:22,103 --> 00:11:23,689
Yeah?
256
00:11:23,758 --> 00:11:26,034
- ♪ La, la, like this ♪
257
00:11:26,103 --> 00:11:28,000
- Are you excited
for this weekend, Nova?
258
00:11:28,103 --> 00:11:29,793
You get to see Taylor Swift.
- Yeah.
259
00:11:29,896 --> 00:11:31,724
- And you're going
with Grandma.
260
00:11:31,793 --> 00:11:34,586
Which era are you
most excited for?
261
00:11:34,655 --> 00:11:36,344
- "The Tortured Poets
Department," because...
262
00:11:36,413 --> 00:11:37,517
- Really?
263
00:11:37,620 --> 00:11:40,448
- I haven't seen
what she does for that.
264
00:11:40,482 --> 00:11:43,586
- No? What song are you most,
like, excited to, like,
265
00:11:43,655 --> 00:11:44,793
sing along to?
266
00:11:44,896 --> 00:11:46,655
- All of them.
- All of them?
267
00:11:46,758 --> 00:11:48,586
I'm excited for you.
268
00:11:48,655 --> 00:11:50,551
Stella, you excited
to spend the day with me?
269
00:11:50,620 --> 00:11:52,586
- Yeah.
- Yeah?
270
00:11:52,655 --> 00:11:54,965
- ♪ You're looking
at the Sunshine Queen ♪
271
00:11:55,068 --> 00:11:57,758
♪ Yeah, you're looking
at the Sunshine Queen ♪
272
00:11:57,827 --> 00:12:00,931
- So I've been thinking
about what I want
273
00:12:01,000 --> 00:12:03,482
for myself and my children.
274
00:12:03,551 --> 00:12:07,448
I have been thinking
about tying my tubes.
275
00:12:07,517 --> 00:12:09,482
I don't want to have
any more children.
276
00:12:09,551 --> 00:12:13,034
And here in Florida,
the laws are so crazy.
277
00:12:13,137 --> 00:12:15,758
You can't even get
a goddamn abortion.
278
00:12:15,827 --> 00:12:17,344
For the last few years,
279
00:12:17,379 --> 00:12:19,137
it's something
that I've thought about.
280
00:12:19,206 --> 00:12:21,724
And I just want to be
100% sure,
281
00:12:21,827 --> 00:12:24,551
because tying my tubes
would be permanent.
282
00:12:24,620 --> 00:12:26,827
You know, there's
no going back from that.
283
00:12:26,896 --> 00:12:29,344
So I want to talk to someone
who's been through it,
284
00:12:29,448 --> 00:12:31,034
like Mackenzie.
285
00:12:31,137 --> 00:12:33,137
- ♪ You're looking at
the Sunshine Queen ♪
286
00:12:33,206 --> 00:12:35,758
♪ Summer's not a thing
without me, yeah ♪
287
00:12:35,827 --> 00:12:38,379
[line trilling]
288
00:12:38,448 --> 00:12:41,137
- Hi.
- What's up?
289
00:12:41,206 --> 00:12:43,793
- How are you?
- I'm good.
290
00:12:43,862 --> 00:12:45,517
How are you
after the hurricane?
291
00:12:45,551 --> 00:12:46,689
- I'm okay.
292
00:12:46,724 --> 00:12:48,862
Thankfully,
there was no damage here.
293
00:12:48,896 --> 00:12:51,068
We still have our power.
294
00:12:51,172 --> 00:12:53,034
No flooding.
Everybody is fine here.
295
00:12:53,137 --> 00:12:54,655
How about you?
- Good.
296
00:12:54,724 --> 00:12:56,206
We just have
some roof damage...
297
00:12:56,310 --> 00:12:57,379
- Okay.
298
00:12:57,448 --> 00:12:59,793
- And didn't have power,
but we're good.
299
00:12:59,862 --> 00:13:01,068
- That is crazy.
300
00:13:01,103 --> 00:13:02,758
Thankfully, you guys are
all good and nothing,
301
00:13:02,793 --> 00:13:04,310
you know, like, crazy happened.
302
00:13:04,379 --> 00:13:05,655
We're literally, like, what,
303
00:13:05,724 --> 00:13:07,379
like, two hours away
from each other?
304
00:13:07,448 --> 00:13:08,758
That's not far at all.
305
00:13:08,793 --> 00:13:11,241
We need to get together
and, like, hang out and stuff.
306
00:13:11,344 --> 00:13:12,655
- I know.
307
00:13:12,724 --> 00:13:14,793
The girls would have
so much fun together.
308
00:13:14,896 --> 00:13:17,206
- Yes. Maybe I can come over
this weekend.
309
00:13:17,275 --> 00:13:18,482
Nova won't be with me
310
00:13:18,551 --> 00:13:20,862
'cause she's going to be
in Miami with my mom.
311
00:13:20,931 --> 00:13:22,793
They're gonna go to a concert.
312
00:13:22,862 --> 00:13:24,827
But it'll just be me
and Stella.
313
00:13:24,931 --> 00:13:26,931
Maybe we could swing by.
- We would love that.
314
00:13:27,034 --> 00:13:28,413
- I think that'd be
a good idea.
315
00:13:28,482 --> 00:13:30,379
Plus, I want to pick your brain
about some things
316
00:13:30,448 --> 00:13:32,206
that I have going on,
and I want your advice.
317
00:13:32,275 --> 00:13:34,000
So maybe we can, like, chat
and stuff
318
00:13:34,068 --> 00:13:36,793
and let the kids hang out.
- I'm here to listen.
319
00:13:36,862 --> 00:13:39,896
Now I'm curious
as to what it's about.
320
00:13:39,965 --> 00:13:42,586
- It's nothing bad, I promise.
I promise it's nothing bad.
321
00:13:42,620 --> 00:13:44,068
[laughs]
322
00:13:44,137 --> 00:13:47,034
- ♪ Tomorrow is a new day ♪
323
00:13:47,103 --> 00:13:48,551
- ♪ I'm a menace ♪
324
00:13:48,620 --> 00:13:50,034
♪ The only difference
right now ♪
325
00:13:50,103 --> 00:13:51,241
♪ Is I'm done playing
pretend with ♪
326
00:13:51,310 --> 00:13:52,586
♪ The whole world ♪
327
00:13:52,655 --> 00:13:54,241
♪ I'm gonna drown
in my contentment ♪
328
00:13:54,310 --> 00:13:55,931
♪ Free fall, shots fired,
no Lennon ♪
329
00:13:56,034 --> 00:13:57,793
- Mom, can you tell Broncs
330
00:13:57,896 --> 00:14:00,137
to get my bracelet
out of his mouth?
331
00:14:00,241 --> 00:14:01,793
- What?
- Mom.
332
00:14:01,862 --> 00:14:04,172
- Stop.
Get it out.
333
00:14:04,275 --> 00:14:09,103
Are you guys excited for Mommy
to maybe be pregnant?
334
00:14:09,172 --> 00:14:11,275
- Yes.
- I hope that it's a boy.
335
00:14:11,344 --> 00:14:15,000
- No. If it's a boy, you will
never be seeing me again.
336
00:14:15,034 --> 00:14:16,931
- Love you guys.
337
00:14:17,000 --> 00:14:18,793
Have you guys talked
to your dad lately?
338
00:14:18,827 --> 00:14:20,206
- No.
- No.
339
00:14:20,310 --> 00:14:22,034
- Dad doesn't answer
my calls no more.
340
00:14:22,137 --> 00:14:24,517
- Me either.
Dad never answers me.
341
00:14:24,620 --> 00:14:27,034
- He answers Gannon but not me.
342
00:14:27,137 --> 00:14:29,551
- I don't even have
to call Dad--he calls me.
343
00:14:29,620 --> 00:14:32,620
- He doesn't call me
or answer me.
344
00:14:32,689 --> 00:14:35,482
He said he would come
to one of my competitions.
345
00:14:35,517 --> 00:14:38,448
Guess what.
He had plans that day.
346
00:14:38,517 --> 00:14:40,689
- The first time that
he left, like, whenever
347
00:14:40,793 --> 00:14:43,896
you guys got divorced, that's
when I first started knowing.
348
00:14:43,965 --> 00:14:45,137
- Knowing what?
349
00:14:45,206 --> 00:14:48,034
- He don't, like, stick up
for what he says.
350
00:14:48,103 --> 00:14:51,310
Like, don't trust his word.
351
00:14:51,379 --> 00:14:54,034
- Well, I just always want
you guys
352
00:14:54,137 --> 00:14:56,172
to have whatever
kind of relationship
353
00:14:56,241 --> 00:14:58,275
you want to with him.
354
00:14:58,344 --> 00:15:00,206
And I know you guys
don't see him often,
355
00:15:00,310 --> 00:15:03,413
and it's just like,
twice a year.
356
00:15:03,482 --> 00:15:05,206
- [exhales deeply]
357
00:15:05,241 --> 00:15:06,620
- Did that feel good
to let out?
358
00:15:06,689 --> 00:15:07,793
- No!
359
00:15:07,862 --> 00:15:09,275
- Okay.
360
00:15:09,344 --> 00:15:12,827
I feel like y'all just need
to let some things out.
361
00:15:12,896 --> 00:15:14,448
You guys want to scream
in a pillow?
362
00:15:14,551 --> 00:15:16,517
- Mom, if you try to scream--
- Okay. Come here, Gannon.
363
00:15:16,586 --> 00:15:18,655
Get a pillow.
All at the same time.
364
00:15:18,724 --> 00:15:22,344
Ready?
One--as loud as you can--
365
00:15:22,413 --> 00:15:25,379
two, three.
366
00:15:25,413 --> 00:15:28,206
[muffled screaming]
367
00:15:28,241 --> 00:15:30,275
[laughter]
368
00:15:30,344 --> 00:15:32,517
Oh, yay!
369
00:15:32,586 --> 00:15:34,689
Ah, what an amazing feeling!
370
00:15:34,724 --> 00:15:36,482
Bring it in!
Group hug!
371
00:15:36,551 --> 00:15:38,103
- That actually felt good.
372
00:15:38,206 --> 00:15:39,551
♪ ♪
373
00:15:39,620 --> 00:15:41,517
- ♪ These are the good days ♪
374
00:15:45,758 --> 00:15:48,655
[dramatic music]
375
00:15:48,724 --> 00:15:55,793
♪ ♪
376
00:16:00,896 --> 00:16:02,655
- Passed?
- Passed.
377
00:16:02,724 --> 00:16:05,275
- Let's go.
Was it hard?
378
00:16:06,965 --> 00:16:09,068
- So what you got?
You got a license?
379
00:16:09,137 --> 00:16:11,620
- Yeah.
- You got something?
380
00:16:11,724 --> 00:16:14,172
- Paper for now.
- Nice.
381
00:16:14,275 --> 00:16:15,931
Well, congratulations.
382
00:16:16,000 --> 00:16:17,758
Make sure you keep that on you.
Don't lose it.
383
00:16:17,793 --> 00:16:19,517
- Watch your speed.
384
00:16:19,620 --> 00:16:21,172
- He needs to go to school.
- Yeah.
385
00:16:21,275 --> 00:16:23,620
Wear your seat belt.
386
00:16:23,724 --> 00:16:25,103
Love you.
- Love you.
387
00:16:25,172 --> 00:16:26,172
- Be careful.
388
00:16:26,241 --> 00:16:28,551
Let me know
when you get there, okay?
389
00:16:28,620 --> 00:16:32,344
♪ ♪
390
00:16:32,413 --> 00:16:35,000
Oh, my goodness.
391
00:16:35,103 --> 00:16:37,068
- ♪ All right ♪
392
00:16:37,137 --> 00:16:40,620
- And he's off.
A little scary, isn't it?
393
00:16:40,655 --> 00:16:44,172
- ♪ Good luck, oh
394
00:16:44,241 --> 00:16:46,034
♪ Fresher than fresh ♪
395
00:16:46,103 --> 00:16:47,413
♪ All right ♪
396
00:16:47,482 --> 00:16:50,862
- Wonder if we should follow
him to school and home.
397
00:16:50,931 --> 00:16:52,793
- I feel like we've done
so much to mold him
398
00:16:52,862 --> 00:16:54,275
into the young man that he is,
399
00:16:54,310 --> 00:16:56,275
and now it's just--
you're letting him drive,
400
00:16:56,344 --> 00:16:58,310
and you're like,
did we do enough?
401
00:16:58,413 --> 00:17:01,137
- Yeah.
Like, I'm so excited for him.
402
00:17:01,206 --> 00:17:02,482
- Yeah.
403
00:17:02,551 --> 00:17:04,724
- And then, literally,
I want to crawl in a hole.
404
00:17:04,827 --> 00:17:05,896
- Yeah.
405
00:17:06,000 --> 00:17:08,000
- [laughs]
- No, I feel the same way.
406
00:17:08,068 --> 00:17:10,310
- Terrified.
[cell phone chimes]
407
00:17:10,379 --> 00:17:11,551
- Made it.
- Yay.
408
00:17:11,655 --> 00:17:13,896
- He sent a text.
- Text him back.
409
00:17:14,000 --> 00:17:15,620
[cell phone chimes]
410
00:17:15,689 --> 00:17:18,482
- He said, "Love you, too."
- He better.
411
00:17:18,551 --> 00:17:22,379
- ♪ Falling asleep
on my own ♪
412
00:17:22,413 --> 00:17:24,275
- ♪ 'Cause I'm fallin'
413
00:17:24,344 --> 00:17:26,793
♪ With thunder
comes pouring rain ♪
414
00:17:26,862 --> 00:17:30,000
♪ I feel you rush
in my veins ♪
415
00:17:30,068 --> 00:17:32,068
♪ And I'll go where... ♪
416
00:17:32,137 --> 00:17:34,241
- All right.
This is your pajamas.
417
00:17:34,310 --> 00:17:36,137
Pack that in there.
418
00:17:36,206 --> 00:17:39,793
Nova's going to see T-Swift.
- Wait. Can I see your dress?
419
00:17:39,862 --> 00:17:41,931
- So cute.
420
00:17:43,413 --> 00:17:46,000
Go put your stuff by the front
door so we don't forget it.
421
00:17:46,034 --> 00:17:48,137
Grandma will come
pick you up early.
422
00:17:48,206 --> 00:17:50,793
And then, Stella, we're
going to go visit Mackenzie.
423
00:17:50,862 --> 00:17:53,724
- ♪ Lightning
blows up the sky ♪
424
00:17:53,827 --> 00:17:55,862
♪ It's true ♪
425
00:17:55,965 --> 00:17:58,000
- ♪ I say, say hello ♪
426
00:17:58,068 --> 00:18:00,931
♪ Three, two, one,
ready, set, go ♪
427
00:18:00,965 --> 00:18:02,344
- Look at what happened.
428
00:18:02,413 --> 00:18:04,241
The hurricane did that,
I think.
429
00:18:04,310 --> 00:18:05,586
Oh, my gosh.
430
00:18:05,689 --> 00:18:07,620
This is down over here.
431
00:18:07,724 --> 00:18:09,931
Oh, my God,
look at that roof over there.
432
00:18:09,965 --> 00:18:12,241
- ♪ Say, say hello
433
00:18:12,310 --> 00:18:13,448
♪ Say, say hello ♪
434
00:18:13,551 --> 00:18:15,413
♪ Three, two, one,
ready, set, go ♪
435
00:18:15,482 --> 00:18:16,862
♪ Say, say hello ♪
436
00:18:16,931 --> 00:18:19,103
- Hello.
- Hey.
437
00:18:19,206 --> 00:18:21,172
Look how cute you look.
438
00:18:21,241 --> 00:18:22,586
- Hi.
439
00:18:22,620 --> 00:18:24,758
- Hi.
You have no clue who I am.
440
00:18:24,862 --> 00:18:26,172
- This is Stella.
441
00:18:26,241 --> 00:18:28,000
Oh, my God,
Stella's almost as tall as you.
442
00:18:28,068 --> 00:18:29,793
- I know. This is Jaxie.
- Hi, Jaxie.
443
00:18:29,896 --> 00:18:32,758
- Hi.
- So pretty.
444
00:18:32,862 --> 00:18:34,275
- She did her makeup, too.
445
00:18:34,379 --> 00:18:35,620
Okay, come on in.
446
00:18:35,724 --> 00:18:37,931
- They love makeup, huh?
- Mm-hmm.
447
00:18:37,965 --> 00:18:40,103
Girly girls.
448
00:18:40,137 --> 00:18:41,689
This is the gym.
449
00:18:41,758 --> 00:18:44,310
- Oh, I love it.
- [chuckles]
450
00:18:44,413 --> 00:18:48,241
- You guys can go tumble,
make TikToks.
451
00:18:48,310 --> 00:18:51,241
Do you know any TikTok dances?
- Yes. She knows all of them.
452
00:18:51,310 --> 00:18:52,655
- [laughs]
453
00:18:52,724 --> 00:18:54,862
- Is this on?
Is it recording?
454
00:18:54,931 --> 00:18:56,206
- Yeah, it's recording.
- Okay.
455
00:18:56,275 --> 00:18:57,586
Don't touch
if it's recording already.
456
00:18:57,655 --> 00:18:59,068
- Oh, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba.
457
00:18:59,103 --> 00:19:00,827
- ♪ Top of the world,
top of the stack ♪
458
00:19:00,896 --> 00:19:02,862
♪ Doing my thing,
it's as simple as that ♪
459
00:19:02,931 --> 00:19:04,827
♪ Better than ever,
and I'm never the same ♪
460
00:19:04,931 --> 00:19:06,965
♪ Always gonna change
the game ♪
461
00:19:07,000 --> 00:19:09,379
[laughter]
462
00:19:09,482 --> 00:19:12,448
- I think we did it.
463
00:19:12,517 --> 00:19:13,689
So what's up?
464
00:19:13,793 --> 00:19:15,586
Last time I seen you was
in Colombia.
465
00:19:15,655 --> 00:19:17,620
- I've just been vibing,
you know, with the kids.
466
00:19:17,689 --> 00:19:21,000
Devoin moved to another state,
so he's out.
467
00:19:21,103 --> 00:19:23,000
Luis is not really around.
468
00:19:23,034 --> 00:19:24,586
It's just me and the girls now.
469
00:19:24,655 --> 00:19:28,275
My mom is back from Texas.
She's doing fine.
470
00:19:28,344 --> 00:19:30,448
So everything's been
pretty good where I'm at.
471
00:19:30,517 --> 00:19:32,482
But what's up with you?
How's the wedding planning?
472
00:19:32,517 --> 00:19:35,310
- I've been engaged
for, like, six months,
473
00:19:35,379 --> 00:19:37,379
and Khes hasn't mentioned
a wedding once.
474
00:19:37,448 --> 00:19:38,862
- No?
475
00:19:38,931 --> 00:19:40,344
- Yeah, he's just
all about the baby.
476
00:19:40,413 --> 00:19:41,482
- Okay.
477
00:19:41,551 --> 00:19:43,551
- But I'm going through
IVF right now
478
00:19:43,655 --> 00:19:45,206
because my tubes are tied.
- Mm-hmm.
479
00:19:45,275 --> 00:19:46,655
- I want to pick
your brain about it.
480
00:19:46,724 --> 00:19:48,137
Like, do you regret doing that?
481
00:19:48,172 --> 00:19:49,551
Because I don't want
any more kids,
482
00:19:49,655 --> 00:19:52,551
so I was thinking about
possibly, like, tying my tubes.
483
00:19:52,655 --> 00:19:56,310
- I mean, I do now, yeah,
'cause I met someone.
484
00:19:56,344 --> 00:19:59,000
But I never thought I would be
in a relationship
485
00:19:59,103 --> 00:20:00,275
like this, so...
486
00:20:00,344 --> 00:20:01,896
But I did it at 20.
487
00:20:01,965 --> 00:20:04,655
- I don't know.
488
00:20:04,689 --> 00:20:07,689
- Can we create
male birth control already?
489
00:20:07,758 --> 00:20:09,241
- [laughs]
- Like, come on.
490
00:20:09,310 --> 00:20:10,965
It's so stupid.
491
00:20:11,000 --> 00:20:13,827
But you're single, right?
- Yeah, I am single.
492
00:20:13,896 --> 00:20:16,655
And I don't want to be
in a relationship right now.
493
00:20:16,758 --> 00:20:17,896
I'm not looking.
494
00:20:17,965 --> 00:20:20,758
I want to be focused
on Nova and Stella.
495
00:20:20,827 --> 00:20:22,379
Nova's 13.
496
00:20:22,448 --> 00:20:24,103
Like, I remember me being 13.
497
00:20:24,172 --> 00:20:26,241
I was doing things
that I shouldn't have done...
498
00:20:26,310 --> 00:20:27,310
- I know.
499
00:20:27,344 --> 00:20:29,344
- Because my mom
was so busy working.
500
00:20:29,448 --> 00:20:31,931
My mom was so busy
dealing with my father.
501
00:20:32,000 --> 00:20:35,689
My mom never really paid
100% attention
502
00:20:35,758 --> 00:20:38,275
on me and my sister.
503
00:20:38,344 --> 00:20:41,620
So it was like, I don't want
to follow the same footsteps.
504
00:20:41,689 --> 00:20:43,344
- So you're making
decisions based off
505
00:20:43,448 --> 00:20:45,862
of things you went through...
- Mm-hmm.
506
00:20:45,931 --> 00:20:48,068
- And those feelings that you
don't want your kids feeling.
507
00:20:48,137 --> 00:20:49,758
- Yeah.
Yeah.
508
00:20:49,827 --> 00:20:51,724
- Isn't that crazy
that we do that as moms?
509
00:20:51,827 --> 00:20:52,758
- So crazy.
510
00:20:52,827 --> 00:20:55,344
Being parents
to teenagers, like,
511
00:20:55,379 --> 00:20:56,862
I don't know what I'm doing.
- Mm-hmm.
512
00:20:56,965 --> 00:20:58,482
- Do you know
what you're doing?
513
00:20:58,551 --> 00:20:59,517
- I know.
- [laughs]
514
00:20:59,551 --> 00:21:01,275
- And, you know,
I had a baby at 16,
515
00:21:01,379 --> 00:21:03,137
and now Gannon's
rocking my world.
516
00:21:03,241 --> 00:21:04,551
- Really?
- Yes.
517
00:21:04,620 --> 00:21:06,137
- Oh, my gosh.
518
00:21:06,241 --> 00:21:08,689
- I had to talk to Gannon
about sex.
519
00:21:08,758 --> 00:21:10,275
- Is he having sex?
520
00:21:10,379 --> 00:21:11,931
- I hope not.
521
00:21:12,000 --> 00:21:14,655
Oh, my gosh, he's 13.
522
00:21:14,758 --> 00:21:17,413
But the problem is,
I went through his phone,
523
00:21:17,482 --> 00:21:19,379
and he was talking
about blow jobs.
524
00:21:19,448 --> 00:21:23,000
And I'm like, my son knows
what a blow job is?
525
00:21:23,068 --> 00:21:25,379
And my heart fell
out of my butt.
526
00:21:25,448 --> 00:21:27,965
[laughs]
Have you had that talk yet?
527
00:21:28,068 --> 00:21:30,655
- Yes and no. Like, there's
these books that you can get.
528
00:21:30,724 --> 00:21:32,551
Like, it teaches them
about their bodies,
529
00:21:32,620 --> 00:21:34,379
what they're
going to be going through.
530
00:21:34,448 --> 00:21:36,482
And I gave them to her,
and she will, like, read them.
531
00:21:36,551 --> 00:21:37,793
And she'll ask me questions,
532
00:21:37,862 --> 00:21:39,862
and she knows what it is,
but, like--
533
00:21:39,931 --> 00:21:43,310
- It's so different with girls.
534
00:21:43,413 --> 00:21:45,241
I still feel lost.
- Same.
535
00:21:45,310 --> 00:21:47,482
- Do we ever feel
like we have it together?
536
00:21:47,551 --> 00:21:48,965
- No.
- Yeah.
537
00:21:49,068 --> 00:21:50,862
- I still feel like
I'm a teenager.
538
00:21:50,931 --> 00:21:52,689
- I know.
- And I'm looking for guidance.
539
00:21:52,758 --> 00:21:55,172
- I woke up 2 days ago, right?
And I'm like, I'm 30.
540
00:21:55,241 --> 00:21:58,793
And I thought I would feel like
I have my shit together,
541
00:21:58,896 --> 00:22:00,379
and I don't still.
542
00:22:00,448 --> 00:22:01,620
- Yeah.
543
00:22:01,655 --> 00:22:04,137
♪
544
00:22:07,517 --> 00:22:09,379
- ♪ Whoo! Love it
when I feel like this ♪
545
00:22:09,448 --> 00:22:11,000
♪ Love it
when I feel like this ♪
546
00:22:11,103 --> 00:22:13,000
♪ Love it when
I feel like this ♪
547
00:22:13,068 --> 00:22:15,206
♪ Sexy and amazing ♪
548
00:22:15,275 --> 00:22:17,482
♪ Love it
when I feel like this ♪
549
00:22:17,586 --> 00:22:19,137
[line trilling]
550
00:22:19,241 --> 00:22:21,137
- Hi.
551
00:22:22,862 --> 00:22:26,000
- Ugh, you'll never guess
where I'm going.
552
00:22:26,103 --> 00:22:29,724
To hypnotherapy.
553
00:22:29,827 --> 00:22:32,310
Bitch, I'd rather be there
than here.
554
00:22:32,379 --> 00:22:34,000
- Oh, okay.
555
00:22:36,448 --> 00:22:37,758
- TikTok.
556
00:22:37,827 --> 00:22:40,896
Went down a rabbit hole,
and I was like, you know what?
557
00:22:40,965 --> 00:22:42,275
I should just try this.
558
00:22:42,344 --> 00:22:46,413
Since Mom is gone,
I have to bring Holly.
559
00:22:46,482 --> 00:22:48,827
I don't think she's going
to be in the room with me.
560
00:22:50,275 --> 00:22:51,827
- Okay, bye.
561
00:22:51,896 --> 00:22:56,379
- ♪ Incredulous, getting
better all the time ♪
562
00:22:56,448 --> 00:22:57,862
- Mom, where are we going?
563
00:22:57,965 --> 00:23:01,758
- We are going
to a hypnotherapist.
564
00:23:01,862 --> 00:23:03,068
- Why?
565
00:23:03,103 --> 00:23:05,896
- Because therapy is for people
566
00:23:06,000 --> 00:23:08,379
who are emotionally mature
and intelligent.
567
00:23:08,413 --> 00:23:09,620
- ♪ Like, wow
568
00:23:09,724 --> 00:23:11,517
♪ It's getting better,
better ♪
569
00:23:11,586 --> 00:23:13,689
♪ Getting better
all the time ♪
570
00:23:13,758 --> 00:23:16,275
- Do you want to sit here
for me?
571
00:23:16,379 --> 00:23:17,758
- ♪ Like, wow ♪
572
00:23:17,827 --> 00:23:19,275
♪ It's getting better,
better ♪
573
00:23:19,379 --> 00:23:21,103
♪ Getting better
all the time ♪
574
00:23:21,206 --> 00:23:22,413
- Knock, knock.
- Oh, hey.
575
00:23:22,448 --> 00:23:23,413
- Hi.
- Hi.
576
00:23:23,482 --> 00:23:25,034
Grab a seat.
- Okay. Thank you.
577
00:23:25,103 --> 00:23:26,137
- Can I get you some water?
578
00:23:26,206 --> 00:23:27,551
Are you good
with your green tea or--
579
00:23:27,620 --> 00:23:29,275
- I'm good with my green tea.
Thanks so much.
580
00:23:29,310 --> 00:23:30,275
- So, now, let me ask you this.
581
00:23:30,379 --> 00:23:32,034
On a scale of one to ten,
582
00:23:32,103 --> 00:23:34,310
ten being, like,
the highest level of anxiety,
583
00:23:34,379 --> 00:23:36,344
what would you give yourself
on a scale of one to ten?
584
00:23:36,413 --> 00:23:37,931
- A nine.
- Nine--Wow.
585
00:23:37,965 --> 00:23:39,068
Okay, wow.
- Mm-hmm.
586
00:23:39,137 --> 00:23:41,137
I think life is stressful
as it is.
587
00:23:41,241 --> 00:23:45,551
And then a mom that kind of
moved out here on my own--
588
00:23:45,620 --> 00:23:48,275
my support circle
is not as big as it used to be.
589
00:23:48,379 --> 00:23:49,275
- Okay.
590
00:23:49,379 --> 00:23:52,206
- And I took a break
from school.
591
00:23:52,275 --> 00:23:55,068
The biggest thing is just,
while going through a divorce
592
00:23:55,137 --> 00:23:56,758
and all these big life changes,
593
00:23:56,793 --> 00:23:59,000
how do I maintain
some sense of calm?
594
00:23:59,068 --> 00:24:01,413
- Yeah. Okay.
Very, very soon here
595
00:24:01,482 --> 00:24:04,586
I'm going to help you
to feel a lot more calm, okay?
596
00:24:04,655 --> 00:24:06,413
When we're breathing properly,
597
00:24:06,482 --> 00:24:08,827
it automatically gives us
emotional balance.
598
00:24:08,896 --> 00:24:12,551
So go ahead and have a seat
in the hypnosis chair.
599
00:24:14,344 --> 00:24:15,931
Close your eyes.
600
00:24:17,689 --> 00:24:21,689
Imagine floating to
a beautiful beach,
601
00:24:21,758 --> 00:24:24,827
letting go of certain feelings
602
00:24:24,931 --> 00:24:27,206
that no longer serve you.
603
00:24:27,275 --> 00:24:30,965
As you continue
going even deeper
604
00:24:31,034 --> 00:24:32,620
into hypnosis,
605
00:24:32,689 --> 00:24:35,379
feeling even more
606
00:24:35,482 --> 00:24:37,931
how good that feels,
607
00:24:38,000 --> 00:24:42,793
especially
as I begin counting down--
608
00:24:42,862 --> 00:24:44,793
down to three...
609
00:24:44,862 --> 00:24:47,379
[clock ticking]
610
00:24:47,448 --> 00:24:50,655
Two...
611
00:24:50,758 --> 00:24:53,827
one, and all the way down.
612
00:24:53,931 --> 00:24:56,206
All the way down.
613
00:24:56,275 --> 00:24:58,551
As you allow yourself
to continue feeling
614
00:24:58,620 --> 00:25:00,931
these wonderful feelings--
615
00:25:01,034 --> 00:25:03,586
calm...
616
00:25:03,655 --> 00:25:05,862
peaceful--
617
00:25:05,931 --> 00:25:08,275
and without thinking
about it very much at all,
618
00:25:08,344 --> 00:25:11,862
just take your hands
and place it on your body
619
00:25:11,931 --> 00:25:14,379
wherever you're feeling
these wonderful feelings
620
00:25:14,413 --> 00:25:15,758
the strongest.
621
00:25:15,862 --> 00:25:20,655
And opening your eyes now,
coming back into the room,
622
00:25:20,724 --> 00:25:24,034
feeling even more wonderful.
623
00:25:25,137 --> 00:25:27,586
When you're ready, what was
your favorite part about that?
624
00:25:27,689 --> 00:25:30,551
- I think
that just being able
625
00:25:30,620 --> 00:25:33,448
to have a silent moment
to take yourself somewhere
626
00:25:33,517 --> 00:25:35,620
was very peaceful.
627
00:25:35,689 --> 00:25:37,103
Yeah.
628
00:25:37,172 --> 00:25:38,724
- We all deserve it.
629
00:25:38,793 --> 00:25:41,517
And you always have
at least a little bit of time
630
00:25:41,586 --> 00:25:43,689
to just take some deep breaths.
- Mm-hmm.
631
00:25:43,758 --> 00:25:45,275
Whew!
632
00:25:45,344 --> 00:25:46,965
I do feel a lot more relaxed.
633
00:25:47,034 --> 00:25:48,413
- Yeah.
- I can tell you that.
634
00:25:49,758 --> 00:25:51,517
- ♪ Wait a minute ♪
635
00:25:51,586 --> 00:25:52,758
♪ Show you how we live it ♪
636
00:25:52,862 --> 00:25:55,758
♪ Yeah, we 'bout
to get up in it now ♪
637
00:25:55,793 --> 00:25:58,413
- All right, well,
I'll send you my address.
638
00:25:58,448 --> 00:25:59,655
- Okay.
- I don't live far.
639
00:25:59,724 --> 00:26:02,103
And then there should be food
at the house.
640
00:26:02,172 --> 00:26:04,448
- Okay. Yeah, let's go eat.
I'm starved.
641
00:26:04,482 --> 00:26:06,068
- ♪ Clap your hands
642
00:26:06,137 --> 00:26:07,655
♪ Move your feet ♪
643
00:26:07,724 --> 00:26:10,310
♪ One, two, one, two, repeat ♪
644
00:26:10,413 --> 00:26:13,068
♪ Clap your hands,
follow me... ♪
645
00:26:13,137 --> 00:26:14,724
- So you guys have
a whole spread here.
646
00:26:14,793 --> 00:26:16,137
What's this?
Oh, the pie.
647
00:26:16,241 --> 00:26:17,310
There's key lime pie here.
648
00:26:17,413 --> 00:26:19,586
- Bri, I haven't seen you
in a long time.
649
00:26:19,620 --> 00:26:21,344
- So long.
- How is life?
650
00:26:21,448 --> 00:26:22,689
Life is good?
- Life is great.
651
00:26:22,758 --> 00:26:23,758
- Mom.
652
00:26:23,827 --> 00:26:26,586
When can Stella
come see my room?
653
00:26:26,655 --> 00:26:28,758
- You guys want to go upstairs?
- Yeah.
654
00:26:28,827 --> 00:26:30,965
- You can show her your room.
- Okay.
655
00:26:31,068 --> 00:26:32,344
- I'll go show you guys--
656
00:26:32,448 --> 00:26:34,068
- Show Khes
your guys' TikTok dance.
657
00:26:34,137 --> 00:26:35,517
- Okay.
658
00:26:35,586 --> 00:26:38,034
- Khes is so good
with the kids.
659
00:26:38,103 --> 00:26:40,655
Where is their dad at?
- Oklahoma.
660
00:26:40,758 --> 00:26:42,275
He's just not very present.
661
00:26:42,310 --> 00:26:43,310
Like, we don't hear
662
00:26:43,344 --> 00:26:45,448
from him a lot.
- Wow.
663
00:26:45,482 --> 00:26:47,724
- And he kind of picks
and chooses
664
00:26:47,793 --> 00:26:49,758
which kids he talks to.
- Yeah.
665
00:26:49,793 --> 00:26:51,862
- So I went through
Jaxie's phone,
666
00:26:51,931 --> 00:26:56,103
and the last time he replied
to her was six months ago.
667
00:26:56,172 --> 00:26:57,931
But she'll be like, hi.
Hey, Dad.
668
00:26:58,000 --> 00:26:59,517
Hey. Love you.
- And nothing?
669
00:26:59,586 --> 00:27:00,965
- Mm-mm.
- [gasps]
670
00:27:01,034 --> 00:27:04,275
- So I'm going to look
into getting full custody.
671
00:27:04,344 --> 00:27:06,413
Is there not, like, a thing
in the court
672
00:27:06,517 --> 00:27:08,965
where, if they're not around
for so many years,
673
00:27:09,034 --> 00:27:11,137
you automatically get it?
- I think it just depends.
674
00:27:11,206 --> 00:27:14,000
Because I went to a lawyer
a few years ago,
675
00:27:14,068 --> 00:27:18,172
multiple lawyers, actually, and
I always got the same advice.
676
00:27:18,241 --> 00:27:20,034
Don't open a can of worms.
677
00:27:20,068 --> 00:27:23,068
If they're not bothering you,
to just leave it as is.
678
00:27:23,137 --> 00:27:24,827
- [sighs]
- I don't know.
679
00:27:24,896 --> 00:27:27,379
I say go talk to a lawyer
and see what they say,
680
00:27:27,482 --> 00:27:29,724
'cause you may get
a different response.
681
00:27:29,793 --> 00:27:33,000
- Yeah. I just kind of wanted
to lock this stuff in
682
00:27:33,068 --> 00:27:34,620
before having a baby.
683
00:27:34,689 --> 00:27:39,000
To me, I'd rather them be
completely out
684
00:27:39,068 --> 00:27:41,310
and gone and distant,
and let's do the work here,
685
00:27:41,379 --> 00:27:44,586
let's do the therapy, than,
like, gone but still there.
686
00:27:44,655 --> 00:27:46,000
- Mm-hmm.
687
00:27:46,068 --> 00:27:48,862
- Like that, like, popping in
every six months...
688
00:27:48,896 --> 00:27:51,310
- Mm-hmm.
- Or replying to a text.
689
00:27:51,379 --> 00:27:53,413
- I don't know
what I'm going to do,
690
00:27:53,517 --> 00:27:55,172
because I'm living
two situations,
691
00:27:55,241 --> 00:27:56,655
where Luis is completely out...
- Mm-hmm.
692
00:27:56,724 --> 00:27:59,206
- And I'm seeing the effects
that has on Stella.
693
00:27:59,241 --> 00:28:01,482
And then I see Devoin
coming in and out
694
00:28:01,551 --> 00:28:04,862
and what that does to Nova,
and they're both not good.
695
00:28:04,931 --> 00:28:07,448
- Right.
- It's causing a lot for Nova.
696
00:28:07,482 --> 00:28:09,448
And, like,
now she's in therapy,
697
00:28:09,551 --> 00:28:11,310
and thank God for that.
698
00:28:11,413 --> 00:28:14,448
- Doesn't that suck--
to know that you're doing
699
00:28:14,517 --> 00:28:17,379
all the right things as a mom
and it's not enough?
700
00:28:17,448 --> 00:28:20,310
[serious music]
701
00:28:20,413 --> 00:28:24,758
- ♪ Where do we go
from here? ♪
702
00:28:27,137 --> 00:28:30,137
[upbeat music]
703
00:28:30,206 --> 00:28:37,103
♪ ♪
704
00:28:37,172 --> 00:28:40,965
- "What are the three
common states of matter"?
705
00:28:41,034 --> 00:28:43,689
- Solid, liquid--
solid, gas, liquid.
706
00:28:43,758 --> 00:28:46,620
- She sure is pretty.
- Yep.
707
00:28:46,724 --> 00:28:51,482
♪ ♪
708
00:28:51,551 --> 00:28:54,206
- Help me.
No, really.
709
00:28:54,275 --> 00:28:55,758
Ugh.
710
00:28:57,551 --> 00:28:59,724
- I think I need
some gas already.
711
00:28:59,793 --> 00:29:01,793
- You need a job.
712
00:29:01,862 --> 00:29:03,862
No, you got some money
for your birthday.
713
00:29:03,931 --> 00:29:05,344
Oh, that gas station
right there...
714
00:29:05,413 --> 00:29:06,551
- Yeah.
715
00:29:06,620 --> 00:29:08,517
- Sign up for their,
like, rewards thing...
716
00:29:08,586 --> 00:29:10,206
- Yeah.
717
00:29:10,275 --> 00:29:12,551
- Because you get, like, cents
off a gallon or whatever.
718
00:29:12,620 --> 00:29:13,896
- Mm-hmm.
- That'll help.
719
00:29:13,965 --> 00:29:17,137
All right, with a license...
720
00:29:17,206 --> 00:29:20,379
this is a lot of freedom but...
- Yeah.
721
00:29:20,482 --> 00:29:23,000
- A lot of responsibility.
- Yeah.
722
00:29:23,068 --> 00:29:26,965
- Never, ever, ever drive
if you're not up to driving.
723
00:29:27,034 --> 00:29:31,689
If you're tired or you're just
mentally or physically--
724
00:29:31,793 --> 00:29:33,517
like, you just don't want to,
725
00:29:33,620 --> 00:29:35,379
don't--don't feel
like you have to.
726
00:29:35,482 --> 00:29:37,206
- Yeah.
- It's not going to be an--
727
00:29:37,310 --> 00:29:39,689
We will drop whatever
and come get you.
728
00:29:39,793 --> 00:29:42,172
Anytime you have
anybody in your car,
729
00:29:42,275 --> 00:29:43,724
make sure they're buckled.
730
00:29:43,793 --> 00:29:44,689
Make sure they're
not acting a fool.
731
00:29:44,758 --> 00:29:46,103
- Yeah.
732
00:29:46,172 --> 00:29:48,103
- I don't really want Jayde
and Mav in the car with you.
733
00:29:48,172 --> 00:29:50,931
You need more experience
before I think
734
00:29:51,000 --> 00:29:53,758
even you would be comfortable
with a bunch of people,
735
00:29:53,827 --> 00:29:55,275
especially little kids,
in your car.
736
00:29:55,344 --> 00:29:59,310
So communication...
- Yeah.
737
00:29:59,379 --> 00:30:02,551
- Trust, and it goes both ways.
- Yeah.
738
00:30:02,620 --> 00:30:05,068
- Remember, this is
a huge responsibility,
739
00:30:05,137 --> 00:30:07,517
but it's gonna be awesome.
- Yeah.
740
00:30:07,620 --> 00:30:09,551
- Don't take advantage of it.
- Yeah.
741
00:30:09,620 --> 00:30:13,172
- It can be taken away.
742
00:30:13,241 --> 00:30:15,793
I'm genuinely not a worrier--
743
00:30:15,862 --> 00:30:17,310
what's going to happen
is going to happen,
744
00:30:17,344 --> 00:30:18,689
what's meant to be will be--
745
00:30:18,793 --> 00:30:20,965
until my oldest son
got his driver's license.
746
00:30:21,034 --> 00:30:22,827
And now I feel like I'm just
going to be worried
747
00:30:22,931 --> 00:30:24,275
all the time.
748
00:30:24,344 --> 00:30:26,793
Maybe after a couple weeks,
it'll settle down.
749
00:30:26,862 --> 00:30:30,793
It's just that it's
the very beginning.
750
00:30:30,862 --> 00:30:33,413
Good times, y'all.
Good times.
751
00:30:33,482 --> 00:30:36,344
[laughs]
752
00:30:36,448 --> 00:30:38,551
- ♪ When you're close to me ♪
753
00:30:38,655 --> 00:30:41,896
♪ Chemistry is boiling
at 1,000 degrees ♪
754
00:30:41,965 --> 00:30:44,413
♪ And I love it
when you walk my way ♪
755
00:30:44,482 --> 00:30:46,551
- Bye, girlfriend.
756
00:30:46,655 --> 00:30:48,310
Thanks for coming.
- Thank you for having me.
757
00:30:48,344 --> 00:30:50,793
- Let's do this again.
- Yes, for sure.
758
00:30:50,862 --> 00:30:53,517
- Maybe next time we'll have
some better updates.
759
00:30:53,620 --> 00:30:55,275
- Ah!
Seriously.
760
00:30:55,344 --> 00:30:56,586
- I'll be pregnant.
You'll be tied.
761
00:30:56,655 --> 00:30:58,172
- Yeah!
- [laughs]
762
00:30:58,206 --> 00:30:59,586
- I love that!
763
00:30:59,655 --> 00:31:01,517
Give her a hug.
764
00:31:01,586 --> 00:31:03,965
Bye.
- Bye.
765
00:31:04,034 --> 00:31:05,931
♪ ♪
766
00:31:06,034 --> 00:31:10,586
- ♪ When you walk my way ♪
767
00:31:10,689 --> 00:31:14,620
♪ When you walk my way,
when you walk my way ♪
768
00:31:14,689 --> 00:31:18,206
- You look tired.
- We are tired.
769
00:31:18,241 --> 00:31:19,758
- How was your day?
770
00:31:19,862 --> 00:31:21,206
Was it fun?
- It was good.
771
00:31:21,275 --> 00:31:23,241
They were doing TikToks
the whole time.
772
00:31:23,310 --> 00:31:24,344
- [laughs]
773
00:31:24,413 --> 00:31:26,620
- Bri and I got to have
good talks.
774
00:31:26,724 --> 00:31:29,068
She has a lot going on
in her life.
775
00:31:29,103 --> 00:31:30,551
I have a lot going on.
776
00:31:30,620 --> 00:31:32,965
And they align in, like,
such different ways
777
00:31:33,034 --> 00:31:35,586
but the same ways.
778
00:31:35,655 --> 00:31:36,931
You know, I'm going
through all this,
779
00:31:37,034 --> 00:31:39,172
and I'm regretting
tying my tubes.
780
00:31:39,241 --> 00:31:41,310
And she's tying her tubes.
- Aw.
781
00:31:41,379 --> 00:31:42,620
- So...
782
00:31:42,724 --> 00:31:44,413
- How many kids
does she have, two?
783
00:31:44,448 --> 00:31:47,655
- She only has two, and
she's just done having kids.
784
00:31:47,724 --> 00:31:50,103
But I'm like, are you sure?
785
00:31:50,172 --> 00:31:51,793
I'd hate for her to regret it.
786
00:31:51,896 --> 00:31:54,827
She's been through a lot
because the girls' dad
787
00:31:54,896 --> 00:31:57,068
isn't really around,
kind of like... [mouths words]
788
00:31:57,103 --> 00:32:00,000
Just, like, not there
789
00:32:00,068 --> 00:32:04,068
but barely enough
to still know, like...
790
00:32:04,137 --> 00:32:05,586
he exists.
791
00:32:05,655 --> 00:32:08,586
She was talking to me about
talking to a lawyer in court.
792
00:32:08,655 --> 00:32:11,275
And she was like, they say,
if they're not bothering you,
793
00:32:11,310 --> 00:32:14,448
then don't even open
a can of worms, you know?
794
00:32:14,517 --> 00:32:16,896
- I mean, that was
my thought, you know.
795
00:32:16,965 --> 00:32:18,689
Like, I understand
you just want to hear
796
00:32:18,758 --> 00:32:20,413
and just, like, see
what your options are.
797
00:32:20,482 --> 00:32:23,241
But, like, you don't really
have no problems
798
00:32:23,310 --> 00:32:26,655
except, you know,
you just don't have help.
799
00:32:27,827 --> 00:32:29,896
- When I think of our family,
800
00:32:29,965 --> 00:32:33,275
I think of, like, me and
Khesanio and the three kids.
801
00:32:33,310 --> 00:32:38,241
What I want is for Josh to be
more involved in their life,
802
00:32:38,310 --> 00:32:39,793
and he's just not.
803
00:32:39,862 --> 00:32:43,241
These kids love their dad,
but Khes is also Dad now,
804
00:32:43,310 --> 00:32:46,344
and he is consistency.
805
00:32:46,448 --> 00:32:48,448
And he's been solid
for two years.
806
00:32:48,482 --> 00:32:50,241
Josh and I were together
for ten years.
807
00:32:50,310 --> 00:32:51,655
I can't even tell you
808
00:32:51,758 --> 00:32:55,724
a month that my kids
had something that was solid.
809
00:32:55,793 --> 00:32:57,344
I still won't stop the kids
810
00:32:57,448 --> 00:32:59,655
from having their own
personal relationship
811
00:32:59,724 --> 00:33:01,068
with him, you know?
812
00:33:01,137 --> 00:33:05,827
But I'm gonna talk to a lawyer
and find out more info.
813
00:33:05,862 --> 00:33:07,724
As much as he's not involved,
814
00:33:07,793 --> 00:33:10,724
I just want him not even...
815
00:33:10,827 --> 00:33:13,413
existing in their life at all.
816
00:33:13,482 --> 00:33:14,758
- Yeah.
817
00:33:14,827 --> 00:33:18,689
[somber music]
818
00:33:21,724 --> 00:33:23,689
- ♪ Guess it's my lucky day
819
00:33:23,724 --> 00:33:26,137
♪ Everything's going my way
820
00:33:26,206 --> 00:33:28,344
♪ And it feels
so nice to say ♪
821
00:33:28,413 --> 00:33:30,724
♪ I'm feeling lucky today ♪
822
00:33:30,827 --> 00:33:35,034
♪ ♪
823
00:33:36,034 --> 00:33:38,413
- What the fuck?
824
00:33:42,344 --> 00:33:43,931
[sighs]
825
00:33:44,000 --> 00:33:46,482
[line trilling]
826
00:33:46,517 --> 00:33:48,965
- Hello?
- Hi.
827
00:33:49,034 --> 00:33:50,931
- What you doing?
828
00:33:51,034 --> 00:33:53,724
- Not a damn thing, apparently,
for the next four months.
829
00:33:53,827 --> 00:33:55,068
- What are you talking about?
830
00:33:55,137 --> 00:33:57,344
- Why did I just get an email
from the dean
831
00:33:57,413 --> 00:34:00,793
saying that I have to start
school next semester?
832
00:34:00,896 --> 00:34:03,000
And it says
that the next semester
833
00:34:03,068 --> 00:34:05,034
is not a guarantee,
so to get everything in
834
00:34:05,103 --> 00:34:06,379
as soon as possible.
835
00:34:06,448 --> 00:34:07,965
- So you have to wait
four months,
836
00:34:08,068 --> 00:34:10,068
and then you still might not
be able to go back?
837
00:34:10,103 --> 00:34:11,586
- This is fucking ridiculous.
838
00:34:11,620 --> 00:34:13,379
All this money
I done gave y'all?
839
00:34:13,448 --> 00:34:15,068
- And there's nothing
you can do about it?
840
00:34:15,103 --> 00:34:16,172
Like, what was the reason?
841
00:34:16,241 --> 00:34:17,586
- He didn't even give me
a reason.
842
00:34:17,620 --> 00:34:18,655
They made it seem like
843
00:34:18,758 --> 00:34:20,448
everything was on go
for come back.
844
00:34:20,551 --> 00:34:22,482
Then as soon as I'm trying
to press the "go" button,
845
00:34:22,551 --> 00:34:24,413
they're like,
yellow-lighting me.
846
00:34:24,482 --> 00:34:25,931
- That doesn't make any sense.
847
00:34:25,965 --> 00:34:29,827
- What the fuck am I going
to do for four more months?
848
00:34:29,896 --> 00:34:31,965
The only real options I have
849
00:34:32,068 --> 00:34:35,034
are to either just wait
four months
850
00:34:35,103 --> 00:34:37,793
and hope that I have
a seat guaranteed.
851
00:34:37,862 --> 00:34:41,586
I could move to another place
852
00:34:41,655 --> 00:34:43,965
and get into a school there,
853
00:34:44,034 --> 00:34:47,172
but I would have to literally
restart the program.
854
00:34:47,275 --> 00:34:49,655
So I don't really have
any other options
855
00:34:49,758 --> 00:34:51,275
except for to wait,
856
00:34:51,344 --> 00:34:53,827
because I'm literally
way too close to graduating
857
00:34:53,931 --> 00:34:56,793
to have to retake
everything I've done.
858
00:34:56,862 --> 00:34:59,137
I definitely need
an anti-crash-out dinner.
859
00:34:59,241 --> 00:35:01,310
Since Holly's at her friends
house, want to meet up?
860
00:35:01,379 --> 00:35:04,241
I feel like we need
to just talk about it.
861
00:35:04,344 --> 00:35:06,241
- Intervention.
- Yeah, intervention.
862
00:35:06,344 --> 00:35:07,724
- So just send me
all the details.
863
00:35:07,758 --> 00:35:11,206
- Okay, I will. Bye.
- All right. Bye.
864
00:35:11,241 --> 00:35:16,000
- ♪ Make me feel alive
865
00:35:16,068 --> 00:35:18,000
- You ready?
- Yes.
866
00:35:18,068 --> 00:35:19,517
Coconut shrimp.
- Coconut shrimp.
867
00:35:19,586 --> 00:35:20,827
- Mm-hmm.
- And then the rangoon.
868
00:35:20,896 --> 00:35:22,482
- You got it.
Thank you so much.
869
00:35:22,551 --> 00:35:23,965
both: Thank you.
- Of course.
870
00:35:24,034 --> 00:35:25,551
- WTF?
871
00:35:25,620 --> 00:35:27,517
- So I'm trying to be
glass half full.
872
00:35:27,586 --> 00:35:29,310
I feel like at first,
I was, like, angry
873
00:35:29,379 --> 00:35:31,379
because it's, like--
I'm still angry.
874
00:35:31,413 --> 00:35:33,310
But I feel like
there's been a lot of nos.
875
00:35:33,379 --> 00:35:35,551
There could be a reason
why the nos are coming.
876
00:35:35,655 --> 00:35:38,344
Maybe I'm not ready
for the yeses I'm asking for.
877
00:35:38,448 --> 00:35:39,827
I don't know.
878
00:35:39,862 --> 00:35:41,172
- Here you go.
- Thank you so much.
879
00:35:41,206 --> 00:35:42,793
You can't control
any of these things.
880
00:35:42,862 --> 00:35:44,689
- Yeah.
- Now that we're here...
881
00:35:44,724 --> 00:35:46,586
- Yeah.
- You know, what's the plan?
882
00:35:46,689 --> 00:35:47,965
- Well, I tried hypnotherapy.
- Mm.
883
00:35:48,034 --> 00:35:48,965
- I didn't tell you that?
884
00:35:49,034 --> 00:35:50,413
- No, you didn't
tell me about that.
885
00:35:50,482 --> 00:35:53,448
- It was more of,
like, a meditative situation
886
00:35:53,517 --> 00:35:54,655
for me than, like, a--
887
00:35:54,724 --> 00:35:56,448
than I saw it as, like,
a hypno--
888
00:35:56,517 --> 00:35:59,310
like, a look into my eyes--
- Yes.
889
00:35:59,379 --> 00:36:01,137
- Like, I would say
that I would like to go
890
00:36:01,241 --> 00:36:03,517
down the route
of, like, serious meditation.
891
00:36:03,586 --> 00:36:06,551
- This is a life lesson of,
when life gets tough,
892
00:36:06,620 --> 00:36:09,206
we get tougher
in a healthy way, though.
893
00:36:09,275 --> 00:36:11,379
We're not tougher like, suck
it up, never deal with it.
894
00:36:11,448 --> 00:36:13,586
We're like, no, actually,
we're dealing with it.
895
00:36:13,655 --> 00:36:15,482
- We're lemons to "lemonading"
right now.
896
00:36:15,586 --> 00:36:16,689
- Yes.
- Lemonade to "lemonading."
897
00:36:16,758 --> 00:36:18,379
- Cheers to lemons
to "lemonading."
898
00:36:18,448 --> 00:36:21,620
both: Yes, ma'am.
- [chuckles]
899
00:36:21,724 --> 00:36:23,379
- I don't think anything
in my life is going
900
00:36:23,448 --> 00:36:24,965
as planned right now.
901
00:36:25,000 --> 00:36:27,586
If it would be my way, Bar
probably wouldn't be in jail.
902
00:36:27,655 --> 00:36:30,551
I wouldn't be taking a break
from nursing school.
903
00:36:30,620 --> 00:36:32,793
But I need to take
the four months
904
00:36:32,862 --> 00:36:35,137
and be productive with it
and be ready
905
00:36:35,241 --> 00:36:37,896
to hit the ground rocking
and rolling when I get my seat.
906
00:36:37,931 --> 00:36:40,724
[laughter]
907
00:36:40,793 --> 00:36:42,896
- ♪ Today could be the day ♪
908
00:36:42,965 --> 00:36:45,379
[upbeat music]
909
00:36:45,448 --> 00:36:49,000
- ♪ Watch me coming up
on you ♪
910
00:36:50,793 --> 00:36:53,758
♪ But in time, it all aligns ♪
911
00:36:53,827 --> 00:36:57,551
♪ When you can find
your stride in your heart ♪
912
00:36:57,620 --> 00:36:59,241
♪ See the signs ♪
913
00:36:59,310 --> 00:37:03,206
♪ It's gonna find you
when you barely try ♪
914
00:37:03,310 --> 00:37:05,586
♪ That's when it starts ♪
915
00:37:05,655 --> 00:37:10,448
♪ ♪
916
00:37:10,517 --> 00:37:12,586
- Oh, I think I hear--
917
00:37:12,655 --> 00:37:14,655
Hello!
918
00:37:16,655 --> 00:37:19,103
Oh, my goodness,
I missed you so much.
919
00:37:19,172 --> 00:37:21,068
How are you feeling?
- Good.
920
00:37:21,137 --> 00:37:24,275
- Good? What were you feeling
when you first got there?
921
00:37:24,344 --> 00:37:27,000
- Happy.
- "Happy"? Yeah.
922
00:37:27,068 --> 00:37:28,448
How did you like it, Mom?
923
00:37:28,517 --> 00:37:30,586
- I think I'm a Swiftie
after 50.
924
00:37:30,655 --> 00:37:32,655
[laughter]
925
00:37:32,758 --> 00:37:35,689
- ♪ We already made it ♪
926
00:37:35,758 --> 00:37:38,793
♪ Time for celebrating ♪
927
00:37:38,862 --> 00:37:40,827
- I got you a coffee,
and I got mine.
928
00:37:40,862 --> 00:37:41,862
Sorry, Mom.
929
00:37:41,965 --> 00:37:43,137
- No, I don't want coffee.
Thank you.
930
00:37:43,241 --> 00:37:44,379
- Sorry.
931
00:37:45,620 --> 00:37:48,172
Um, so, while you guys
were at the concert,
932
00:37:48,275 --> 00:37:50,793
I went to go visit Mackenzie
just to, like,
933
00:37:50,862 --> 00:37:52,896
talk to her about, like,
the process of, like,
934
00:37:53,000 --> 00:37:55,931
getting my tubes tied
'cause she had them tied.
935
00:37:56,000 --> 00:37:59,413
I just need to make sure
that I wipe out
936
00:37:59,482 --> 00:38:03,103
any possibility
of me having another baby
937
00:38:03,172 --> 00:38:06,379
with someone
like Luis or Devoin.
938
00:38:06,482 --> 00:38:07,793
- Hmm.
939
00:38:07,862 --> 00:38:10,068
- Three baby daddies--
no, not me.
940
00:38:10,172 --> 00:38:13,206
Once is a mistake,
three times is a pattern.
941
00:38:13,275 --> 00:38:14,827
And that's just
not gonna be me.
942
00:38:14,896 --> 00:38:16,862
- You're young
to tie your tubes.
943
00:38:16,931 --> 00:38:19,793
No doctor in their right mind
is gonna tie your tubes.
944
00:38:19,862 --> 00:38:21,206
- I'll drive you.
- They're gonna let me do it.
945
00:38:21,241 --> 00:38:22,965
I already have two kids,
and I'm 30.
946
00:38:23,068 --> 00:38:25,758
- I don't understand. Why not
do the birth-control method?
947
00:38:25,862 --> 00:38:28,000
- I just don't want to do
birth control.
948
00:38:28,068 --> 00:38:29,275
Birth control is not for me.
949
00:38:29,379 --> 00:38:31,379
It gives me horrible
side effects.
950
00:38:31,413 --> 00:38:34,724
Birth control works for other
people, but for me, it doesn't.
951
00:38:34,758 --> 00:38:37,206
So how else
can I protect myself?
952
00:38:37,275 --> 00:38:41,103
I'm not having sex.
I'm extremely celibate, Jesus.
953
00:38:41,206 --> 00:38:43,310
- You don't got to explain
yourself to nobody.
954
00:38:43,379 --> 00:38:45,103
- Yeah.
- 'Cause at the end of the day,
955
00:38:45,172 --> 00:38:47,206
"no" is a complete
fucking sentence.
956
00:38:47,241 --> 00:38:49,896
And it's your body,
your choice.
957
00:38:49,931 --> 00:38:51,275
- You're gonna regret it.
958
00:38:51,379 --> 00:38:55,379
You still haven't found
a stable relationship.
959
00:38:55,448 --> 00:38:57,689
- But what does that have to do
with having a baby?
960
00:38:57,758 --> 00:38:58,931
- When there's
a solid relationship,
961
00:38:59,034 --> 00:39:01,137
you both want to--
going to want to procreate.
962
00:39:01,241 --> 00:39:02,931
- But I don't.
- Now you don't, but...
963
00:39:02,965 --> 00:39:04,620
- I can't physically
see myself--
964
00:39:04,689 --> 00:39:07,103
- Five years from now,
you might.
965
00:39:07,172 --> 00:39:09,310
- Honestly, I've been thinking
about this decision
966
00:39:09,413 --> 00:39:10,724
for a really long time.
967
00:39:10,793 --> 00:39:12,965
I had two kids.
968
00:39:13,068 --> 00:39:14,689
I struggled hard.
969
00:39:14,758 --> 00:39:17,275
[serious music]
970
00:39:17,310 --> 00:39:20,586
[crying] And I think about that
all the time.
971
00:39:20,655 --> 00:39:23,413
And like, I try to make
that up to Nova,
972
00:39:23,482 --> 00:39:27,137
because I know I was so young.
973
00:39:27,241 --> 00:39:30,551
And I felt like Nova wasn't,
like, my main priority
974
00:39:30,620 --> 00:39:32,413
when I was younger.
975
00:39:32,482 --> 00:39:34,344
What if I have
another baby now?
976
00:39:34,448 --> 00:39:36,724
Like, my full attention
will go to that baby,
977
00:39:36,793 --> 00:39:38,793
and...
[sniffles]
978
00:39:38,862 --> 00:39:40,965
it wouldn't be fully
on Nova and Stella.
979
00:39:41,000 --> 00:39:45,724
And I feel like Nova and
Stella just deserve everything.
980
00:39:45,793 --> 00:39:47,965
And in order for me
to give them everything,
981
00:39:48,000 --> 00:39:50,344
I need to make sure...
982
00:39:50,448 --> 00:39:53,724
that I don't let
what I did twice
983
00:39:53,793 --> 00:39:55,965
happen one more time.
984
00:39:56,068 --> 00:39:59,137
[sniffles]
I don't want to continue
985
00:39:59,206 --> 00:40:01,517
to create these broken homes.
986
00:40:01,586 --> 00:40:03,931
♪ ♪
987
00:40:04,000 --> 00:40:06,896
- ♪ If only you knew
what it took to get here ♪
988
00:40:06,965 --> 00:40:10,241
♪ I faced things
you'd never believe ♪
989
00:40:10,310 --> 00:40:12,931
♪ And even though I'm not
where I want to be yet ♪
990
00:40:12,965 --> 00:40:16,827
♪ It somehow always
turns out better ♪
991
00:40:16,931 --> 00:40:20,137
♪ Tell me, do you know
what it feels like ♪
992
00:40:20,241 --> 00:40:23,827
♪ When you're not alone
but it feels like it? ♪
993
00:40:23,862 --> 00:40:26,862
♪ Hard to say the truth
when it's too deep ♪
994
00:40:26,965 --> 00:40:29,068
♪ That's why I really hate
small talk ♪
995
00:40:29,137 --> 00:40:32,551
♪ If only you knew
what it took to get here ♪
996
00:40:32,620 --> 00:40:35,586
♪ I faced things
you'd never believe ♪
997
00:40:35,655 --> 00:40:38,586
♪ I'm harder on myself
than anyone else ♪
998
00:40:38,655 --> 00:40:43,344
♪ But I won't give up, just
gotta remember to breathe ♪
999
00:40:57,586 --> 00:40:59,241
- When my dad
went to the doctor,
1000
00:40:59,310 --> 00:41:00,724
they found a mass
on his kidney.
1001
00:41:00,827 --> 00:41:01,896
The mass is cancer.
1002
00:41:02,000 --> 00:41:03,068
- In the past year,
1003
00:41:03,172 --> 00:41:04,724
Amber's seen her daughter
four days.
1004
00:41:04,827 --> 00:41:06,620
- That stinks as abandonment.
1005
00:41:07,310 --> 00:41:08,310
- Your heart?
1006
00:41:08,379 --> 00:41:09,482
- [sobs]
- It hurts?
1007
00:41:09,551 --> 00:41:11,137
With Ry having a rare disease,
1008
00:41:11,206 --> 00:41:13,275
when she is sick,
it terrifies me.
1009
00:41:13,344 --> 00:41:15,689
- My mom admitted
that she relapsed.
1010
00:41:15,758 --> 00:41:17,689
- Christy, we're here tonight
because we love you.
1011
00:41:17,793 --> 00:41:20,103
- Oh, I'm--
- No, no! Sit down!
1012
00:41:20,172 --> 00:41:21,655
- This is a fucking setup!
1013
00:41:24,241 --> 00:41:27,137
[upbeat music]
1014
00:41:27,206 --> 00:41:34,241
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