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- ♪♪ MTV ♪♪

- Guess what I have.

Final judgment of dissolution of marriage.

I am a divorced woman.

- The recipe for IVF, it's like two or three

weeks of birth control pills.

And then with a needle, we go in your body and get the eggs.

- Out of the 15 eggs, I have four frozen embryos.

So now our only stress is my blood sugars.

- Apparently you found something going on

with Barb and another woman.

- I'm beyond upset.

We're filing for a joint divorce.

- Once a dude is not attached to the mama no more,

he ain't really interested like he was in the kid.

- I'm just going to do my own thing.

- Are you ready to have a hot girl summer?

- I mean, lukewarm, [bleep].

- Hey, this is Jenelle Eason from yesterday.

I'm going to sign on that second house.

Got it.

Vegas is closer to Nathan.

- Make sure this move is for you and the kids,

where you will see yourself most happiest and safe.

- Nova started sobbing.

And she was, like-- - Crying hard?

- Yeah.

She was like, I really miss Carly.

And she's like, and I don't-- why

did you have to separate us?

Just never occurred to me when I was making the decision at 16

how it would impact my future children, you know?

- I know that you envision our family together.

I want kids, and that's something that I would

love to experience with you.

Finding somebody that I actually truly love,

it's like that's what I've wanted.

You know, my goal is to get to know

everybody better and just for us to be

just one big happy family.

- Holy crap.

- Amber Portwood, I love you, and will you marry me?

- Yes, I will.

I actually really will marry you.

- What if she wants you to be a part of her wedding?

- I don't want anything to do with Gary stuff.

[upbeat music]

♪♪ ♪♪

[tense music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- My brother Bobby got married in North Carolina.

Gary went to the wedding with me.

It was the first time he met my family.

The wedding was beautiful.

And that night, everything seemed perfect.

- The fiancé of "Teen Mom" reality star Amber Portwood

is missing here in the mountains.

- Last seen at 6:00 Sunday night along Arlington Avenue.

Police are getting out the word for the public

to be on the outlook for Gary.

- Amber's new fiancé is missing.

- What?

- Like I know she had mentioned something about going

to her brother's wedding.

Like North Carolina police.

- He is missing.

Nobody has found him or heard from him.

- I'm trying my best to not think the worst.

[sobs]

I am not what people have been saying about me.

I did not hurt him.

[somber music]

♪♪ ♪♪

[line trilling]

- Hey.

- I just got sent this article that Gary 2.0 is missing.

- I don't know what the hell is going on.

- That's scary.

- I know if my husband was missing,

I'd be freaking the hell out.

- She shouldn't be by herself having to, like,

go through all this and try-- like,

somebody needs to be there.

And I feel like I know if she's in the Carolinas

in the mountains, she cannot be more than two

and a half hours away from me.

- OK.

- So I think I'm just like--

I'm just getting in the car and I'm going to go.

- Definitely.

Keep me in the loop on what's going on, what you hear.

- Yeah.

- So scary.

- Yes.

- Mm-mm.

♪♪ ♪♪

- All right.

I just talked to Amber.

She's in, like, really bad shape,

so I'm going to leave now to go to her.

I don't think she needs to be alone right now.

You know, hold it-- hold down the fort.

- I got it here.

- All right.

♪♪ ♪♪

- All right, be careful. - I will.

- Be safe. - I'll try.

All right, love you. - Love you.

♪♪ ♪♪

Hi.

It's OK, Amber.

- He took his keys, and he took his wallet.

But he did not take his phone.

I cannot get myself to leave without knowing something.

I can't.

I keep thinking he will show up.

[tense music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- Today's the last day.

And I think I'm crying because it's

more like it's happy tears.

Sad tears, happy tears.

But I'm leaving all this behind, you know.

♪♪ ♪♪

It's a little bit bittersweet.

Remember all the important stuff.

- Yep.

- You put anything in there yet?

- Not yet.

- I have full custody of Jace.

I have full custody of Kaiser.

- Where do I put these?

- Put the LEGO things in that little box, too.

Kaiser's dad, Nathan, lives in Vegas.

And once I get all settled, I'm going to see if I can

set up a day for them to meet.

I'm pretty confident that I'm going

to get sole custody of Ensley.

But until the custody case with David is settled,

we can't film with her.

- ♪♪ We're back ♪♪

♪♪ Better than ever ♪♪

♪♪ We're back ♪♪

- Look, this is our living room area.

- Wow this is bigger.

- This is our kitchen.

- [gasps]

Yo, this has got to be our game room.

I'm about to go jump in the pool.

- There's no pool.

- Aw, man.

- ♪♪ Oh, whoa ♪♪

♪♪ Oh yeah, oh yeah ♪♪

♪♪ Oh yeah ♪♪

♪♪ Oh, whoa ♪♪

♪♪ Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh ♪♪

♪♪ Oh yeah ♪♪

- Hey. - Hey.

- What are you doing?

- My knees hurt from those steps, from lifting things.

Thank you for all the help because you've

been helping a lot with the kids and chores.

And I see it.

So how are you feeling here?

- I feel a lot safer without David.

- I'm sorry it didn't happen sooner.

But I was trying.

- He's gone now.

I'm, like, fine.

- Yeah.

And I remember you saying, I want all the drama to stop.

CPS has been in my life since I've been little.

I'm sick of them comin' in and out.

And you said you just want this all to be over.

With me and Memay, it was like arguing about you.

And I know you were in the middle of all that.

- You haven't been taking care of this baby since it's born.

Damn it, stay home and take care of the kid.

- All right, Jenelle.

You're agreeing to give your mom temporary custody

of your child.

- Well, I don't want my son in the same room as--

- You don't want your [bleep] kid at all!

- Really?

You won't give me my kid!

- You know what?

- Is his room set up?

His room is set up and ready to [bleep] go!

We're all sitting there, you know, watching a movie.

And then all of a sudden, I get a phone

call from Jace's cell phone, and he's screaming, crying.

Can't even breathe. I'm like, what's wrong?

What's going on?

And he's like, Memay.

Memay's yelling at me.

Memay's hitting me.

And I'm like, what?

- I just wanted everything to, like, just calm down,

get on a good point, everyone get on a,

you know, good thing with everyone.

- So do you feel any anger or resentment towards me?

[gentle music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- In the time, I did.

But now that we're out of all this, like, crazy drama,

it's just calm.

Everything's good now.

- Like, you know I've made tons of mistakes all my life.

But I just want you to realize, like, my intentions

were never bad.

I always tried hard to fight for you.

I just feel like you were robbed from me as a baby,

you know.

And I don't think it was fair.

- Thank you.

- But give me a hug.

Stand up.

Give me a hug.

Taller than me.

I love you. - I love you, too.

- Good job, OK? - Thank you.

- Thank you.

- ♪♪ Turn up the heat wave again ♪♪

♪♪ All around the world, they talkin' ♪♪

♪♪ When I walk in ♪♪

♪♪ When I walk in ♪♪

♪♪ I got everybody stoppin' ♪♪

♪♪ When I walk in ♪♪

- Can you make it three?

- ♪♪ Iconic ♪♪

- I signed the divorce papers Bar sent to me.

But since we got married in California,

he has to file them.

I'm waiting on him to do that, but I'm not waiting

to get on with my life.

I made plans for my mom to watch Holly,

and I made plans with one of my good friends, Orlando.

And he's, like, more than a friend, I'm not going to lie.

He's like more than a friend now, definitely.

And I was posting on social media.

- ♪♪ Big news, stopping traffic ♪♪

♪♪ Exclusive ♪♪

- But Bar did not like the post.

Two seconds later, he calls me.

I hang up.

Then he's texting me.

And he's like, is that your new guy?

Telling me like, I'm coming to Nevada.

And I'm just like, I don't know if he's serious,

because remind you, he's on probation in California.

He cannot leave the state.

Honestly, I'm not even going to go home tonight.

I'm going to my friend's house.

[laughs] Oh, [bleep].

- ♪♪ It's iconic ♪♪

♪♪ ♪♪

♪♪ It's iconic ♪♪

I called my mom while I was driving home

in case he followed through and came to Vegas

since things can escalate quickly with us.

- Weak-ass bitch.

- I'm a bitch?

- Yeah, [bleep]. shut that [bleep], bruh.

- I know that he shouldn't put his hands on me.

I know that.

♪♪ ♪♪

What the [bleep] are you doing here?

[line trilling]

- Henderson 911.

- I've already got a call, ma'am.

- I understand.

They're already-- they're driving to right now, OK?

What's your daughter's name?

- ♪♪ Hey I shouldn't keep it to myself ♪♪

♪♪ When there's no rules, no need to delve ♪♪

- Since I moved to Florida, every summer, my family

comes down to pick up my kids so they can spend the summer

with them in Oklahoma.

You guys excited?

- Yes! - Yes!

- Dance if you're excited.

[upbeat music]

[phone rings]

- How are you?

- Pretty good.

- So when you guys come down here to visit and take

the kids up, I think it's the perfect time

to do the proposal.

So I just got to figure out how to do it without her

trying to figure it out.

Like, I know I want to do it at the beach.

But how am I going to get her to the beach with everybody?

And I think that's where Kayla and Whitney comes in.

They're going to have to work some magic.

- Whitney takes pictures.

She's a photographer, so maybe she could act like she's

going to do a photoshoot there.

- At the beach?

That's-- I think that's a really good idea.

- ♪♪ I'm living in a dream ♪♪

♪♪ As real as it can be ♪♪

♪♪ I'm living happily ♪♪

♪♪ I'm living in a dream ♪♪

♪♪ I'm living happily ♪♪

- How are you? - Good.

How are you?

- ♪♪ I'm living in a dream ♪♪

- OK, so what's the plan, Khes?

- My plan is to say we're going to go fishing.

So Gannon is going to come with us.

Bronx is going to come with us.

- OK.

When are we doing this?

Are we doing it tonight, tomorrow?

- We're doing it tomorrow evening, right before sunset.

- Perfect.

- I cannot wait to see her reaction.

- She's going to pee herself.

♪♪ Out of mind state of bliss ♪♪

♪♪ Dreams right out my fingertips ♪♪

- There they are!

- Rah! - Oh my goodness!

- Welcome to Florida, everyone.

- Trixie misses me more than anybody.

- I know.

The dogs aren't barking.

That means you guys are welcome.

- Hi. - Welcome back.

Welcome to the sunny side.

- Hey!

- Get your swimsuits on.

Let's party. - We're so hot.

Like, sweating.

- You want to go fishing in the morning?

- Hey, I want Spanish mackerel.

- OK.

- I am so excited you guys are here.

- Trixie, come on.

Come on.

- How's IVF going?

- Did the egg retrieval.

Out of the 15 eggs, only four of them fertilized.

So now they're frozen until I can get my A1c down.

- Good.

- OK, so plan of action, OK.

Tomorrow is a girls' day.

What are we going to do?

- It's been a while since we've had a sister photoshoot.

- I know.

- I think we need some updated sister pictures.

Well, let's take some new pictures then.

- So you have your camera here. - I have my camera.

We need to go--

- We have to wait for the sunset.

- Sunset.

- We actually have not done photos since mom has died.

- Let's do it.

- ♪♪ It's as good as it gets ♪♪

♪♪ ♪♪

- Oh, Mom, he's nibbling on stuff.

He's probably hungry.

- Oh, Mom, do you see what it did?

It's like--

I've got a question.

I really want to see Carly this year.

- I get that.

I'm going to text Teresa and ask her

if they've thought about having a visit this year.

- All right.

- Mm-hmm.

Oh, Nova Lee.

It's been a year since we last saw Carly,

and my girls really want to see her, which

just makes my heart hurt.

15 years ago, when we signed the adoption papers,

we thought we'd have yearly visits.

But it turns out that's not the case.

- I want to take you guys back to 2009.

- And visits are at Brandon and Teresa's discretion.

I didn't know what I knew now.

- It's OK.

[somber music]

- So I reached out to Teresa to see if we can get together

this summer.

♪♪ ♪♪

[phone chimes]

♪♪ ♪♪

[phone dings]

♪♪ ♪♪

Teresa texted back and said I guess

she's not thinking that we're going to be

able to do a visit this year.

- Got it.

- As a birth parent, it still sucks

having to be in the mercy of somebody else's control

when all you want to do is just see your kids together.

Because at the end of the day, these kids

is what is important.

- Yeah.

- Carly and her sisters.

It hurts all the kids.

- Adoption equals trauma.

Period.

- Trauma, yeah, period.

It's literally a ripple effect for everybody involved.

It's going to be tough telling Nova.

It's going to break her little heart.

- Yeah.

♪♪ ♪♪

[phone dinging]

[phone dinging]

[tense music]

- I've already got a call, ma'am.

I need you to just try and settle down.

- When I first got into my house,

I see Bar sitting on my couch.

I could tell that he was like--

he was pissed.

So Bar and I are going back and forth, just, like,

you know, arguing.

Then I hear knocking at my door.

And I hear, come out, come out!

We're going to kick your door in.

We're going to kick your door in.

We're coming in.

So I look out of my window.

And there are cops hiding behind dumpsters with guns.

So he starts grabbing my bar stools

and, like, putting them in front of my door, like,

trying to, like, barricade the door.

It scared the [bleep] out of me,

because trigger-finger happy-ass cops.

I'm scared to open the door, because I'm like,

do they know I'm opening the door?

Like, the last thing I need is someone, like, getting

shot or getting real hurt.

And I turned to Bar and I'm like, they're coming in.

And I was like, the best bet is for me to go out

there and say he doesn't have any weapons

and he's willing to cooperate.

And he's like, OK.

So he moves the bar stools.

I go downstairs.

The police are all out there.

They're screaming like, put your hands up,

put your hands up.

So I'm walking down my [bleep] stairs.

The police had him down everything,

and they walked him out.

So Bar is currently in jail.

And it was very, very scary.

- ♪♪ So I'm changing my ways ♪♪

♪♪ Done dealing with pain ♪♪

♪♪ Yeah, I'm changing my ways ♪♪

- I hope they keep him in jail forever.

And I wouldn't care less if he ever seen Holly again.

- Sounds extreme.

- No, that-- that the [bleep] is extreme!

- And I understand that.

I mean, overall, I'm just happy Holly wasn't there.

- But hold on.

I love how you deal with Holly, because you're

always going to put her first.

But right now, Ashley, we're not talking about Holly.

We talking about how desensitized you are

and how that can even impact Holly.

She still is picking up the vibe.

- I know.

- In all honesty, Ashley--

I didn't know if I was going to see your face again.

[somber music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- I have cried my tears over his actions.

And I'm just not going to cry any [bleep] more.

- As you should not.

♪♪ ♪♪

- ♪♪ Oh don't make me wake up from this dream ♪♪

♪♪ ♪♪

- Hello?

- Hi.

- Hey, girl.

- So Amber's inside.

If you just saw the state that she is in right now,

it's like--

beyond.

- Oh, really, Mace? - Yeah.

It's so bad.

And I feel so terrible for her.

Like, we did call the chief of police today.

And he basically was like, you know,

you've done everything you can to help us here,

but you just need to go home, get some rest.

- OK.

- She's not in a headspace that I feel is safe for driving.

So we plan on leaving here in just a little bit.

I'm driving her two hours to Knoxville,

because it's on my way home.

And then MTV is going to drive her the rest of the way.

- OK. - All right, love you.

- All right, I love you guys. - Bye.

[gentle music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- ♪♪ Hold on ♪♪

♪♪ Hold on, don't stop ♪♪

♪♪ When your heart wants to just give up ♪♪

- It's OK, babe.

- [sobs]

♪♪ ♪♪

- Yeah.

- ♪♪ Hold on ♪♪

♪♪ Hold on, don't stop ♪♪

♪♪ You're strong ♪♪

♪♪ You don't give up ♪♪

- [sobbing]

[gentle guitar music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- I'm going to drive you the rest of the way to Indiana.

- Thank you.

I appreciate it.

- All right.

Let's go.

- ♪♪ And I'm going to find you ♪♪

♪♪ Please don't forget me ♪♪

- So what happened?

- I guess his dad, like, read my Wikipedia.

I think he was holding in the fact

that maybe heard from his family or something

and not telling me.

I was just like saying, like, I can't do this.

Like, no.

How can we get married, then, if your family can't accept me

and stuff?

And maybe he took that as me breaking up with him.

It seemed like to me like he was upset

and maybe, like, hopeless.

- Yeah.

- [sobbing]

[somber music]

[phone rings]

- Hey.

- He has?

- Are you serious? - What happened?

- So--

- Wow.

So it didn't even say, like, where he was or anything?

- That makes me feel, like, great, though, you know.

So, like, he's not a missing person anymore.

♪♪ ♪♪

- Thank you so much.

♪♪ ♪♪

- So he was able to reach out to the police.

Has he sent you any messages?

- No.

- That's throwing up a little red flag.

- ♪♪ Left with no warning ♪♪

♪♪ Not that I blame you ♪♪

♪♪ No kind of mourning ♪♪

♪♪ I can't explain ♪♪

♪♪ Stuck in this pain ♪♪

♪♪ Oh, I just keep on spinning ♪♪

♪♪ Spinning ♪♪

♪♪ Round and round without you ♪♪

♪♪ Round and round without you ♪♪

- Police say case is closed.

Leah's friends asked her if she thought her mom would off him.

And she laughed and said no.

- It's not new to Leah.

I've messaged Amber a few times.

I think everything going right here is taking a toll on Amber.

She said she hadn't been eating a whole lot

and pretty much was just out of it.

Like, I mean, I have to feel a little compassion

for her because of what's going on, but--

- No, I get it. I get it.

- It's very-- I don't have compassion for you

not seeing your child, though.

- That's another thing, too.

Like, I wish Amber would realize.

Like, men come and go.

Friends come and go.

But the ones who stay are your children.

[sighs]

- ♪♪ [indistinct] around the sun like a satellite ♪♪

♪♪ ♪♪

- OK, well, listen.

Today, me and you are going to see your dad.

- Yay!

- My relationship with Kaiser's dad, Nathan,

was an intense love.

- Put your stuff over at my place,

and then I'll take day by day.

- We got engaged.

- Jenelle Evans, will you marry me?

- Yes, I will.

And he was a very present dad.

But his alcohol issues got out of hand.

- Jenelle!

You know I didn't do anything.

I didn't do anything.

- So we broke up. - Jenelle!

- He's had numerous legal issues throughout the years.

He is currently in Las Vegas in a rehab.

And I'm OK with Kaiser seeing his dad

as long as it's supervised.

So are you excited to see your dad, Kaiser?

- Yeah. - Yeah?

- I'm so hot.

- Well, take your hoodie off.

- Yeah, that's what I'm about to do.

[gentle music]

All right, I'm going in.

- No, we got to wait.

- Why?

- Because I'm waiting.

We're waiting on your dad.

- When's he going to be here?

- Should be here any second.

- Oh, OK.

Good.

♪♪ ♪♪

[phone dings]

- Um, so Kaiser.

- Yeah?

- I've just got a message from your dad.

And, um,

he said he thought he was able to come today,

but he couldn't get permission.

- Aw.

- It's hard as a mom to see your kids get

disappointed like this, because it's like out of your control.

You can't really control people or what they do.

But you try your best to be there for your kids.

- It's just, like, I haven't seen them in two years.

- I know, Bubba.

It's OK, Bubba.

- ♪♪ I won't give up on you ♪♪

- ♪♪ You can leave ♪♪

♪♪ You're my reason, baby ♪♪

♪♪ ♪♪

- So what do you feel about what's going

on with your post and stuff?

Like--

- I mean, I made the post out of anger and

frustration, obviously.

Well, people on the internet,

I don't really give a [bleep] about.

They aren't sitting here when my kids ask me questions.

Are we seeing Carly this year?

I really miss her.

- My job is not to protect Brandon and Teresa.

It is not.

And I will not do it.

And I have a right to express my story and share it.

- Absolutely.

- Teresa just will not respond to me whatsoever.

- Well, because-- I think it's because of the post you made.

But did she see the post I made?

- Maybe not.

- I responded in defense of--

I don't think you need defense.

- Well, thanks, but I always do appreciate when you--

because you have different ways of speaking on things,

so, you know.

- Carly is almost 15 years old.

Throughout those 15 years, her parents

have chosen not to have our mutually agreed

upon annual visit multiple times.

Now, is it always disappointing and hurtful when it happens?

Yes, of course. Is it sad?

Yeah.

But at the end of the day, Brandon and Teresa

are her parents.

They are the only ones who have the authority

to make that decision.

That is the honor, privilege, and gift

we chose to give them when we decided that they would

raise her and be her parents.

But that choice does not come without a natural human cost.

So with that pain inevitably comes emotional reactions

and expressions.

My wife fights this pain every day.

Some days are a victory, and some days are not.

But her expressing that pain on those particular days when she

is vulnerable, sad, at a loss should

never be used as an attack against her character.

I'm going to start crying.

- ♪♪ I'll be your ♪♪

♪♪ I'll be your rescue ♪♪

♪♪ I'll be your ♪♪

♪♪ I'll be your rescue ♪♪

- Silly.

- You're silly.

♪♪ ♪♪

- We haven't done a family movie night in a long time.

- I know.

- I want to bring Carly over here.

- We're not going to see Carly this year.

This summer.

- Why?

- Her parents said this year--

- Her parents said no.

- Why did they say no?

- We don't know why they said no.

They just said no.

Do you think that we deserve a reason, or do you--

- Well, we deserve to meet Carly.

That's the thing.

- You always hear, like, adoptions,

it's a beautiful thing.

And you should be so lucky.

Yeah, you know, all those things are true.

But it's like, the things that we're not told

is hard, like how, you know, adoptive parents can

change visits or totally cut you off completely

if they want to.

- It's just not fair.

- Yeah, I agree with that.

[somber music]

[light music]

- ♪♪ But you know you've [indistinct] ♪♪

- Hi. - Nice to meet you.

- I'm Meredith.

- I'm Ashley.

- Hi, nice to meet you. Have a seat.

Tell me a little bit about yourself

and what's going on, how I can maybe help you.

- Um, getting a divorce.

- OK.

- It's ten years.

A lot to divvy up.

I mean, not property-wise, but emotionally wise.

- Sure.

- And a child.

- Is it my correct understanding that he's

currently in custody? - Yes.

- Is there a protective order in place right now?

- There is.

- Does it extend to your daughter?

- It does.

- So if he is ultimately sentenced

to a very long, extended period of time,

you would have the grounds to ask the court

for sole legal custody.

- OK.

- Once we serve him, whether he's in custody or not,

he'll have 21 days to respond.

- OK.

- It will come directly through this office.

You won't have to have any communication with him,

nor should you because of the protective order.

- Right. - This is a no-fault state.

So whether he wants to be divorced or not,

he is going to get it.

- I am saddened that this is the route that I had to take,

because my job as a mother is to always uphold

the image of her dad and make sure that she

thinks he's a superhero.

So it makes my job harder when, you know, he's doing things

that aren't superhero-like.

- It would be a good idea to finding some type of therapy.

Divorce can be a stressful process.

- And I want to fix what in me was

accepting bull[bleep] for so long.

And I feel like my next chapter is just me.

Just me.

That's really it.

Just me.

- ♪♪ All these times ♪♪

♪♪ We sat above ♪♪

♪♪ I'm stuck here ♪♪

- Hey, Amber, your car just got here to take

you to your psychiatrist.

- I'm trying to keep myself together.

Like-- I'm shaking.

Like, this is mania.

- Yeah.

♪♪ ♪♪

- [sighs]

- How's it going today? - My body--

my body is, like, swelling.

I'm OK.

Thank you for asking.

That's really nice.

Um--

I've had to deal with thinking that my fiancé was

dead for three to four days.

I had to deal with literally grieving and trying

to make sense of why the [bleep]

would somebody do this to me?

This is a trauma response because what happened

to me in North Carolina.

I am going through something right now.

I'm in such a weird space that I've never been in.

This rambling is so backwards for me.

- You have arrived.

- I don't even want to get out.

[tense music]

I don't want to get out.

♪♪ ♪♪

- Come here, baby. Come here.

- [sobs]

Right now, this man broke me.

I was stable.

And right now, this is the first time in years,

in my life.

I am 34.

I am not [bleep] right,

because a man put a ring on my finger.

You broke me, because we were actually in love.

The day that man left for no reason--

and I'ma say no reason, because there was no [bleep] reason.

And he ruined something so [bleep] good.

I am so [bleep] right now.

Why am I getting persecuted?

Every single media outlet lied about what the [bleep] I did

and catastrophized what I did.

We know Amber killed him.

I had to deal with that.

I had to deal.

Listen to me.

Do you know how that feels when people

are calling you a murderer to your [bleep] fiancé?

No. - Come here.

- Do you know how that [bleep] feels?

- Come her. Come here.

Come here. Come here.

Oh, baby, I'm so sorry.

- He doesn't know what he did.

They were calling me a murderer.

And they said I [bleep] killed him.

[upbeat music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- Hey, ladies!

Woo, woo!

- ♪♪ We're good to go ♪♪

♪♪ Going to get some hustle till dawn ♪♪

♪♪ Next day, dawn, I'm poor ♪♪

- How you doing?

- I'm doing good.

How are you?

- I'm doing good.

AJ?

- Yes.

- He is sweating.

- Bro.

That's nerve sweat.

- It's going to be a good time. Sarasota?

- Sarasota. Yes, yes.

The Keys.

- OK, I am with my sisters.

- Woo!

- My daughter, my bestie, all from Oklahoma.

We're in Florida.

Whitney, the photographer, she's

going to do a sister photoshoot with us on the beach.

[upbeat music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- Guys, I haven't felt this nervous in a long while.

- This is nice temperature.

- So great.

- They're going to be coming around that corner

here in just a minute.

- I'm just so happy that I'm here with, like, you guys.

- Look how pink we are, you guys.

- We are. We're peachy.

- Oh my gosh, they're close.

- Go this way.

[gentle music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- Whew.

♪♪ ♪♪

- Hey, shorty.

♪♪ ♪♪

- ♪♪ Yeah, we've been through it ♪♪

♪♪ Through the thick and thin ♪♪

- Whew.

- ♪♪ Now stronger than ever ♪♪

♪♪ Heaven giving in ♪♪

♪♪ ♪♪

- Give me your hand.

♪♪ ♪♪

I met you.

And all I was talking about was Mackenzie.

I don't know what happened.

I don't know what you did.

But you've made me extremely happy.

And I hope that I make you as happy as you make me.

And I do have something for you.

♪♪ ♪♪

Mackenzie, will you marry me?

Yes?

♪♪ ♪♪

- ♪♪ Can I be closer to you ♪♪

- Woo!

- Hey!

- ♪♪ One last time ♪♪

- I feel on top of the world.

I did it, Mom.

I did it.

I found love.

And I found a true love.

I get to marry my best friend.

- Wait, he was your best friend?

[laughter]

♪♪ Can I be closer to you ♪♪

♪♪ One last time ♪♪

[tense music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- This is [bleep] horrific.

Like, I'm just done.

So [bleep] done.

♪♪ ♪♪

I'm having a really bad episode.

I'm so sorry.

And I can't think straight.

- Sit down.

When you get stressed, you have a history of dissociating.

- I need help right now.

I need help, because Andrew didn't break me.

Matt didn't break me.

Nobody but this man.

Why?

Because this, this is not right.

This is what I--

[sobs]

If you want to show what heartbreak is, this is it.

It's not just about a man.

It's about we have something better

than we both have even seen in our lives with other people.

He looked at my family, my daughter,

and just asked to be a big, happy family.

- It's definitely a loss.

♪♪ ♪♪

- How many people have I lost in my life?

♪♪ ♪♪

- ♪♪ You're living in the past ♪♪

♪♪ That time will not erase ♪♪

♪♪ Hold on ♪♪

♪♪ Stay strong ♪♪

♪♪ We're never going to lose ourselves ♪♪

♪♪ Never going to lose ourselves ♪♪

♪♪ Just breath in together ♪♪

♪♪ Keep holding on ♪♪

♪♪ When the waves are pulling you under ♪♪

♪♪ Keep holding on ♪♪

♪♪ Even with the world on your shoulders ♪♪

♪♪ Lies not so far ♪♪

♪♪ As far as we can see ♪♪

♪♪ Doing this whole, it's so close ♪♪

♪♪ The burning in your heart ♪♪

♪♪ Will set your spirit free ♪♪

♪♪ So keep holding on ♪♪

♪♪ Keep holding on ♪♪

♪♪ When the waves are pulling you under ♪♪

♪♪ Keep holding on ♪♪

♪♪ Even with the world on your shoulders ♪♪