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- ♪♪ MTV ♪♪

- Guess what I have.

Final judgment of
dissolution of marriage.

I am a divorced woman.

- The recipe for IVF,
it's like two or three

weeks of birth control pills.

And then with a needle, we go
in your body and get the eggs.

- Out of the 15 eggs, I
have four frozen embryos.

So now our only stress
is my blood sugars.

- Apparently you found
something going on

with Barb and another woman.

- I'm beyond upset.

We're filing
for a joint divorce.

- Once a dude is not
attached to the mama no more,

he ain't really interested
like he was in the kid.

- I'm just going
to do my own thing.

- Are you ready to
have a hot girl summer?

- I mean, lukewarm, [bleep].

- Hey, this is Jenelle
Eason from yesterday.

I'm going to sign
on that second house.

Got it.

Vegas is closer to Nathan.

- Make sure this move
is for you and the kids,

where you will see yourself
most happiest and safe.

- Nova started sobbing.

And she was, like--
- Crying hard?

- Yeah.

She was like,
I really miss Carly.

And she's like,
and I don't-- why

did you have to separate us?

Just never occurred to me when
I was making the decision at 16

how it would impact
my future children, you know?

- I know that you envision
our family together.

I want kids, and that's
something that I would

love to experience with you.

Finding somebody
that I actually truly love,

it's like that's
what I've wanted.

You know, my goal
is to get to know

everybody better and
just for us to be

just one big happy family.

- Holy crap.

- Amber Portwood, I love
you, and will you marry me?

- Yes, I will.

I actually really
will marry you.

- What if she wants you to
be a part of her wedding?

- I don't want anything
to do with Gary stuff.

[upbeat music]

♪♪ ♪♪

[tense music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- My brother Bobby got
married in North Carolina.

Gary went to the
wedding with me.

It was the first time
he met my family.

The wedding was beautiful.

And that night,
everything seemed perfect.

- The fiancé of "Teen Mom"
reality star Amber Portwood

is missing here
in the mountains.

- Last seen at 6:00 Sunday
night along Arlington Avenue.

Police are getting out
the word for the public

to be on the outlook for Gary.

- Amber's new
fiancé is missing.

- What?

- Like I know she had
mentioned something about going

to her brother's wedding.

Like North Carolina police.

- He is missing.

Nobody has found him
or heard from him.

- I'm trying my best
to not think the worst.

[sobs]

I am not what people have
been saying about me.

I did not hurt him.

[somber music]

♪♪ ♪♪

[line trilling]

- Hey.

- I just got sent this article
that Gary 2.0 is missing.

- I don't know what
the hell is going on.

- That's scary.

- I know if my
husband was missing,

I'd be freaking the hell out.

- She shouldn't be by
herself having to, like,

go through all this
and try-- like,

somebody needs to be there.

And I feel like I know
if she's in the Carolinas

in the mountains, she
cannot be more than two

and a half hours away from me.

- OK.

- So I think I'm just like--

I'm just getting in the
car and I'm going to go.

- Definitely.

Keep me in the loop on what's
going on, what you hear.

- Yeah.

- So scary.

- Yes.

- Mm-mm.

♪♪ ♪♪

- All right.

I just talked to Amber.

She's in, like,
really bad shape,

so I'm going to leave
now to go to her.

I don't think she needs
to be alone right now.

You know, hold it--
hold down the fort.

- I got it here.

- All right.

♪♪ ♪♪

- All right, be careful.
- I will.

- Be safe.
- I'll try.

All right, love you.
- Love you.

♪♪ ♪♪

Hi.

It's OK, Amber.

- He took his keys,
and he took his wallet.

But he did not take his phone.

I cannot get myself to leave
without knowing something.

I can't.

I keep thinking
he will show up.

[tense music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- Today's the last day.

And I think I'm
crying because it's

more like it's happy tears.

Sad tears, happy tears.

But I'm leaving all
this behind, you know.

♪♪ ♪♪

It's a little bit bittersweet.

Remember all the
important stuff.

- Yep.

- You put anything
in there yet?

- Not yet.

- I have full custody of Jace.

I have full custody of Kaiser.

- Where do I put these?

- Put the LEGO things
in that little box, too.

Kaiser's dad, Nathan,
lives in Vegas.

And once I get all settled,
I'm going to see if I can

set up a day for them to meet.

I'm pretty confident
that I'm going

to get sole custody of Ensley.

But until the custody case
with David is settled,

we can't film with her.

- ♪♪ We're back ♪♪

♪♪ Better than ever ♪♪

♪♪ We're back ♪♪

- Look, this is our
living room area.

- Wow this is bigger.

- This is our kitchen.

- [gasps]

Yo, this has got
to be our game room.

I'm about to go
jump in the pool.

- There's no pool.

- Aw, man.

- ♪♪ Oh, whoa ♪♪

♪♪ Oh yeah, oh yeah ♪♪

♪♪ Oh yeah ♪♪

♪♪ Oh, whoa ♪♪

♪♪ Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh ♪♪

♪♪ Oh yeah ♪♪

- Hey.
- Hey.

- What are you doing?

- My knees hurt from those
steps, from lifting things.

Thank you for all
the help because you've

been helping a lot
with the kids and chores.

And I see it.

So how are you feeling here?

- I feel a lot
safer without David.

- I'm sorry it
didn't happen sooner.

But I was trying.

- He's gone now.

I'm, like, fine.

- Yeah.

And I remember you saying,
I want all the drama to stop.

CPS has been in my life
since I've been little.

I'm sick of them
comin' in and out.

And you said you just
want this all to be over.

With me and Memay, it was
like arguing about you.

And I know you were in
the middle of all that.

- You haven't been taking care
of this baby since it's born.

Damn it, stay home and
take care of the kid.

- All right, Jenelle.

You're agreeing to give
your mom temporary custody

of your child.

- Well, I don't want my
son in the same room as--

- You don't want your
[bleep] kid at all!

- Really?

You won't give me my kid!

- You know what?

- Is his room set up?

His room is set up
and ready to [bleep] go!

We're all sitting there,
you know, watching a movie.

And then all of a
sudden, I get a phone

call from Jace's cell phone,
and he's screaming, crying.

Can't even breathe.
I'm like, what's wrong?

What's going on?

And he's like, Memay.

Memay's yelling at me.

Memay's hitting me.

And I'm like, what?

- I just wanted everything
to, like, just calm down,

get on a good point,
everyone get on a,

you know,
good thing with everyone.

- So do you feel any anger
or resentment towards me?

[gentle music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- In the time, I did.

But now that we're out of
all this, like, crazy drama,

it's just calm.

Everything's good now.

- Like, you know I've made
tons of mistakes all my life.

But I just want you to
realize, like, my intentions

were never bad.

I always tried hard
to fight for you.

I just feel like you were
robbed from me as a baby,

you know.

And I don't think it was fair.

- Thank you.

- But give me a hug.

Stand up.

Give me a hug.

Taller than me.

I love you.
- I love you, too.

- Good job, OK?
- Thank you.

- Thank you.

- ♪♪ Turn up the heat wave
again ♪♪

♪♪ All around the
world, they talkin' ♪♪

♪♪ When I walk in ♪♪

♪♪ When I walk in ♪♪

♪♪ I got everybody stoppin' ♪♪

♪♪ When I walk in ♪♪

- Can you make it three?

- ♪♪ Iconic ♪♪

- I signed the divorce
papers Bar sent to me.

But since we got
married in California,

he has to file them.

I'm waiting on him to do
that, but I'm not waiting

to get on with my life.

I made plans
for my mom to watch Holly,

and I made plans with one
of my good friends, Orlando.

And he's, like, more than a
friend, I'm not going to lie.

He's like more than a
friend now, definitely.

And I was posting
on social media.

- ♪♪ Big news,
stopping traffic ♪♪

♪♪ Exclusive ♪♪

- But Bar did not
like the post.

Two seconds later, he calls me.

I hang up.

Then he's texting me.

And he's like,
is that your new guy?

Telling me like,
I'm coming to Nevada.

And I'm just like,
I don't know if he's serious,

because remind you, he's
on probation in California.

He cannot leave the state.

Honestly, I'm not even
going to go home tonight.

I'm going to my friend's
house.

[laughs]
Oh, [bleep].

- ♪♪ It's iconic ♪♪

♪♪ ♪♪

♪♪ It's iconic ♪♪

I called my mom while I was
driving home

in case he followed through
and came to Vegas

since things
can escalate quickly with us.

- Weak-ass bitch.

- I'm a bitch?

- Yeah, [bleep].
shut that [bleep], bruh.

- I know that he shouldn't
put his hands on me.

I know that.

♪♪ ♪♪

What the [bleep]
are you doing here?

[line trilling]

- Henderson 911.

- I've already
got a call, ma'am.

- I understand.

They're already-- they're
driving to right now, OK?

What's your daughter's name?

- ♪♪ Hey I shouldn't
keep it to myself ♪♪

♪♪ When there's no rules,
no need to delve ♪♪

- Since I moved to Florida,
every summer, my family

comes down to pick up my kids
so they can spend the summer

with them in Oklahoma.

You guys excited?

- Yes!
- Yes!

- Dance if you're excited.

[upbeat music]

[phone rings]

- How are you?

- Pretty good.

- So when you guys come
down here to visit and take

the kids up, I think
it's the perfect time

to do the proposal.

So I just got to figure out
how to do it without her

trying to figure it out.

Like, I know I want
to do it at the beach.

But how am I going to get her
to the beach with everybody?

And I think that's where
Kayla and Whitney comes in.

They're going to have
to work some magic.

- Whitney takes pictures.

She's a photographer, so
maybe she could act like she's

going to do a photoshoot
there.

- At the beach?

That's-- I think that's
a really good idea.

- ♪♪ I'm living in a dream ♪♪

♪♪ As real as it can be ♪♪

♪♪ I'm living happily ♪♪

♪♪ I'm living in a dream ♪♪

♪♪ I'm living happily ♪♪

- How are you?
- Good.

How are you?

- ♪♪ I'm living in a dream ♪♪

- OK, so what's the plan, Khes?

- My plan is to say we're
going to go fishing.

So Gannon is going
to come with us.

Bronx is going to come with us.

- OK.

When are we doing this?

Are we doing it tonight,
tomorrow?

- We're doing it tomorrow
evening, right before sunset.

- Perfect.

- I cannot wait
to see her reaction.

- She's going to pee herself.

♪♪ Out of mind state of bliss ♪♪

♪♪ Dreams right out
my fingertips ♪♪

- There they are!

- Rah!
- Oh my goodness!

- Welcome to Florida, everyone.

- Trixie misses me
more than anybody.

- I know.

The dogs aren't barking.

That means you
guys are welcome.

- Hi.
- Welcome back.

Welcome to the sunny side.

- Hey!

- Get your swimsuits on.

Let's party.
- We're so hot.

Like, sweating.

- You want to go
fishing in the morning?

- Hey, I want Spanish mackerel.

- OK.

- I am so excited
you guys are here.

- Trixie, come on.

Come on.

- How's IVF going?

- Did the egg retrieval.

Out of the 15 eggs,
only four of them fertilized.

So now they're frozen until
I can get my A1c down.

- Good.

- OK, so plan of action, OK.

Tomorrow is a girls' day.

What are we going to do?

- It's been a while since
we've had a sister photoshoot.

- I know.

- I think we need some
updated sister pictures.

Well, let's take some
new pictures then.

- So you have your camera here.
- I have my camera.

We need to go--

- We have to wait
for the sunset.

- Sunset.

- We actually have not done
photos since mom has died.

- Let's do it.

- ♪♪ It's as good as it gets ♪♪

♪♪ ♪♪

- Oh, Mom,
he's nibbling on stuff.

He's probably hungry.

- Oh, Mom,
do you see what it did?

It's like--

I've got a question.

I really want to
see Carly this year.

- I get that.

I'm going to text
Teresa and ask her

if they've thought about
having a visit this year.

- All right.

- Mm-hmm.

Oh, Nova Lee.

It's been a year since
we last saw Carly,

and my girls really
want to see her, which

just makes my heart hurt.

15 years ago, when we
signed the adoption papers,

we thought we'd
have yearly visits.

But it turns out
that's not the case.

- I want to take you
guys back to 2009.

- And visits are at Brandon
and Teresa's discretion.

I didn't know
what I knew now.

- It's OK.

[somber music]

- So I reached out to Teresa
to see if we can get together

this summer.

♪♪ ♪♪

[phone chimes]

♪♪ ♪♪

[phone dings]

♪♪ ♪♪

Teresa texted back
and said I guess

she's not thinking
that we're going to be

able to do a visit this year.

- Got it.

- As a birth parent,
it still sucks

having to be in the mercy
of somebody else's control

when all you want to do is
just see your kids together.

Because at the end
of the day, these kids

is what is important.

- Yeah.

- Carly and her sisters.

It hurts all the kids.

- Adoption equals trauma.

Period.

- Trauma, yeah, period.

It's literally a ripple
effect for everybody involved.

It's going to be
tough telling Nova.

It's going to break
her little heart.

- Yeah.

♪♪ ♪♪

[phone dinging]

[phone dinging]

[tense music]

- I've already
got a call, ma'am.

I need you to just
try and settle down.

- When I first
got into my house,

I see Bar sitting on my couch.

I could tell that he was like--

he was pissed.

So Bar and I are going back
and forth, just, like,

you know, arguing.

Then I hear
knocking at my door.

And I hear, come out, come out!

We're going to
kick your door in.

We're going
to kick your door in.

We're coming in.

So I look out of my window.

And there are cops hiding
behind dumpsters with guns.

So he starts grabbing
my bar stools

and, like, putting them
in front of my door, like,

trying to, like,
barricade the door.

It scared the [bleep]
out of me,

because trigger-finger
happy-ass cops.

I'm scared to open
the door, because I'm like,

do they know
I'm opening the door?

Like, the last thing I need
is someone, like, getting

shot or getting real hurt.

And I turned to Bar and I'm
like, they're coming in.

And I was like, the best
bet is for me to go out

there and say he
doesn't have any weapons

and he's willing to cooperate.

And he's like, OK.

So he moves the bar stools.

I go downstairs.

The police are all out there.

They're screaming like,
put your hands up,

put your hands up.

So I'm walking down
my [bleep] stairs.

The police had him
down everything,

and they walked him out.

So Bar is currently in jail.

And it was very, very scary.

- ♪♪ So I'm changing my ways ♪♪

♪♪ Done dealing with pain ♪♪

♪♪ Yeah, I'm changing my ways ♪♪

- I hope they keep
him in jail forever.

And I wouldn't care less
if he ever seen Holly again.

- Sounds extreme.

- No, that-- that the
[bleep] is extreme!

- And I understand that.

I mean, overall, I'm just
happy Holly wasn't there.

- But hold on.

I love how you deal
with Holly, because you're

always going to put her first.

But right now, Ashley,
we're not talking about Holly.

We talking about how
desensitized you are

and how that can
even impact Holly.

She still is
picking up the vibe.

- I know.

- In all honesty, Ashley--

I didn't know if I was going
to see your face again.

[somber music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- I have cried my
tears over his actions.

And I'm just not going
to cry any [bleep] more.

- As you should not.

♪♪ ♪♪

- ♪♪ Oh don't make me wake
up from this dream ♪♪

♪♪ ♪♪

- Hello?

- Hi.

- Hey, girl.

- So Amber's inside.

If you just saw the state
that she is in right now,

it's like--

beyond.

- Oh, really, Mace?
- Yeah.

It's so bad.

And I feel so terrible for her.

Like, we did call
the chief of police today.

And he basically
was like, you know,

you've done everything
you can to help us here,

but you just need to
go home, get some rest.

- OK.

- She's not in a headspace that
I feel is safe for driving.

So we plan on leaving
here in just a little bit.

I'm driving her two
hours to Knoxville,

because it's on my way home.

And then MTV is going to
drive her the rest of the way.

- OK.
- All right, love you.

- All right, I love you guys.
- Bye.

[gentle music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- ♪♪ Hold on ♪♪

♪♪ Hold on, don't stop ♪♪

♪♪ When your heart
wants to just give up ♪♪

- It's OK, babe.

- [sobs]

♪♪ ♪♪

- Yeah.

- ♪♪ Hold on ♪♪

♪♪ Hold on, don't stop ♪♪

♪♪ You're strong ♪♪

♪♪ You don't give up ♪♪

- [sobbing]

[gentle guitar music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- I'm going to drive you the
rest of the way to Indiana.

- Thank you.

I appreciate it.

- All right.

Let's go.

- ♪♪ And I'm going
to find you ♪♪

♪♪ Please don't forget me ♪♪

- So what happened?

- I guess his dad,
like, read my Wikipedia.

I think he was
holding in the fact

that maybe heard from
his family or something

and not telling me.

I was just like saying,
like, I can't do this.

Like, no.

How can we get married, then,
if your family can't accept me

and stuff?

And maybe he took that as
me breaking up with him.

It seemed like
to me like he was upset

and maybe, like, hopeless.

- Yeah.

- [sobbing]

[somber music]

[phone rings]

- Hey.

- He has?

- Are you serious?
- What happened?

- So--

- Wow.

So it didn't even say, like,
where he was or anything?

- That makes me feel, like,
great, though, you know.

So, like, he's not a
missing person anymore.

♪♪ ♪♪

- Thank you so much.

♪♪ ♪♪

- So he was able
to reach out to the police.

Has he sent you any messages?

- No.

- That's throwing up
a little red flag.

- ♪♪ Left with no warning ♪♪

♪♪ Not that I blame you ♪♪

♪♪ No kind of mourning ♪♪

♪♪ I can't explain ♪♪

♪♪ Stuck in this pain ♪♪

♪♪ Oh, I just keep
on spinning ♪♪

♪♪ Spinning ♪♪

♪♪ Round and round
without you ♪♪

♪♪ Round
and round without you ♪♪

- Police say case is closed.

Leah's friends asked her if she
thought her mom would off him.

And she laughed and said no.

- It's not new to Leah.

I've messaged
Amber a few times.

I think everything going right
here is taking a toll on Amber.

She said she hadn't
been eating a whole lot

and pretty much
was just out of it.

Like, I mean, I have to
feel a little compassion

for her because of
what's going on, but--

- No, I get it.
I get it.

- It's very-- I don't
have compassion for you

not seeing your child, though.

- That's another thing, too.

Like, I wish Amber
would realize.

Like, men come and go.

Friends come and go.

But the ones who stay
are your children.

[sighs]

- ♪♪ [indistinct] around
the sun like a satellite ♪♪

♪♪ ♪♪

- OK, well, listen.

Today, me and you are
going to see your dad.

- Yay!

- My relationship with
Kaiser's dad, Nathan,

was an intense love.

- Put your stuff
over at my place,

and then I'll take day by day.

- We got engaged.

- Jenelle Evans,
will you marry me?

- Yes, I will.

And he was a very present dad.

But his alcohol issues
got out of hand.

- Jenelle!

You know I didn't do anything.

I didn't do anything.

- So we broke up.
- Jenelle!

- He's had numerous legal
issues throughout the years.

He is currently
in Las Vegas in a rehab.

And I'm OK with
Kaiser seeing his dad

as long as it's supervised.

So are you excited
to see your dad, Kaiser?

- Yeah.
- Yeah?

- I'm so hot.

- Well, take your hoodie off.

- Yeah, that's what
I'm about to do.

[gentle music]

All right, I'm going in.

- No, we got to wait.

- Why?

- Because I'm waiting.

We're waiting on your dad.

- When's he going to be here?

- Should be here any second.

- Oh, OK.

Good.

♪♪ ♪♪

[phone dings]

- Um, so Kaiser.

- Yeah?

- I've just got a
message from your dad.

And, um,

he said he thought
he was able to come today,

but he couldn't get permission.

- Aw.

- It's hard as a mom
to see your kids get

disappointed like this, because
it's like out of your control.

You can't really control
people or what they do.

But you try your best
to be there for your kids.

- It's just, like, I haven't
seen them in two years.

- I know, Bubba.

It's OK, Bubba.

- ♪♪ I won't give up on you ♪♪

- ♪♪ You can leave ♪♪

♪♪ You're my reason, baby ♪♪

♪♪ ♪♪

- So what do you feel
about what's going

on with your post and stuff?

Like--

- I mean, I made the post
out of anger and

frustration, obviously.

Well, people on the internet,

I don't really
give a [bleep] about.

They aren't sitting here when
my kids ask me questions.

Are we seeing Carly this year?

I really miss her.

- My job is not to protect
Brandon and Teresa.

It is not.

And I will not do it.

And I have a right to express
my story and share it.

- Absolutely.

- Teresa just will not
respond to me whatsoever.

- Well, because-- I think it's
because of the post you made.

But did she see
the post I made?

- Maybe not.

- I responded in defense of--

I don't think you need defense.

- Well, thanks, but I always
do appreciate when you--

because you have different
ways of speaking on things,

so, you know.

- Carly is almost 15 years old.

Throughout those 15
years, her parents

have chosen not to have
our mutually agreed

upon annual visit
multiple times.

Now, is it always disappointing
and hurtful when it happens?

Yes, of course.
Is it sad?

Yeah.

But at the end of the
day, Brandon and Teresa

are her parents.

They are the only ones
who have the authority

to make that decision.

That is the honor,
privilege, and gift

we chose to give them when
we decided that they would

raise her and be her parents.

But that choice does not come
without a natural human cost.

So with that pain inevitably
comes emotional reactions

and expressions.

My wife fights this
pain every day.

Some days are a victory,
and some days are not.

But her expressing that pain on
those particular days when she

is vulnerable, sad,
at a loss should

never be used as an attack
against her character.

I'm going to start crying.

- ♪♪ I'll be your ♪♪

♪♪ I'll be your rescue ♪♪

♪♪ I'll be your ♪♪

♪♪ I'll be your rescue ♪♪

- Silly.

- You're silly.

♪♪ ♪♪

- We haven't done a family
movie night in a long time.

- I know.

- I want to bring
Carly over here.

- We're not going to
see Carly this year.

This summer.

- Why?

- Her parents said this year--

- Her parents said no.

- Why did they say no?

- We don't know
why they said no.

They just said no.

Do you think that we deserve
a reason, or do you--

- Well, we deserve
to meet Carly.

That's the thing.

- You always hear,
like, adoptions,

it's a beautiful thing.

And you should be so lucky.

Yeah, you know,
all those things are true.

But it's like, the things
that we're not told

is hard, like how, you
know, adoptive parents can

change visits or totally
cut you off completely

if they want to.

- It's just not fair.

- Yeah, I agree with that.

[somber music]

[light music]

- ♪♪ But you know
you've [indistinct] ♪♪

- Hi.
- Nice to meet you.

- I'm Meredith.

- I'm Ashley.

- Hi, nice to meet you.
Have a seat.

Tell me a little
bit about yourself

and what's going on,
how I can maybe help you.

- Um, getting a divorce.

- OK.

- It's ten years.

A lot to divvy up.

I mean, not property-wise,
but emotionally wise.

- Sure.

- And a child.

- Is it my correct
understanding that he's

currently in custody?
- Yes.

- Is there a protective
order in place right now?

- There is.

- Does it extend
to your daughter?

- It does.

- So if he is
ultimately sentenced

to a very long,
extended period of time,

you would have the
grounds to ask the court

for sole legal custody.

- OK.

- Once we serve him, whether
he's in custody or not,

he'll have 21 days to respond.

- OK.

- It will come directly
through this office.

You won't have to have any
communication with him,

nor should you because
of the protective order.

- Right.
- This is a no-fault state.

So whether he wants
to be divorced or not,

he is going to get it.

- I am saddened that this is
the route that I had to take,

because my job as a
mother is to always uphold

the image of her dad
and make sure that she

thinks he's a superhero.

So it makes my job harder when,
you know, he's doing things

that aren't superhero-like.

- It would be a good idea to
finding some type of therapy.

Divorce can be
a stressful process.

- And I want to
fix what in me was

accepting bull[bleep]
for so long.

And I feel like my next
chapter is just me.

Just me.

That's really it.

Just me.

- ♪♪ All these times ♪♪

♪♪ We sat above ♪♪

♪♪ I'm stuck here ♪♪

- Hey, Amber, your car
just got here to take

you to your psychiatrist.

- I'm trying to keep
myself together.

Like-- I'm shaking.

Like, this is mania.

- Yeah.

♪♪ ♪♪

- [sighs]

- How's it going today?
- My body--

my body
is, like, swelling.

I'm OK.

Thank you for asking.

That's really nice.

Um--

I've had to deal with
thinking that my fiancé was

dead for three to four days.

I had to deal with literally
grieving and trying

to make sense
of why the [bleep]

would somebody do this to me?

This is a trauma response
because what happened

to me in North Carolina.

I am going through
something right now.

I'm in such a weird space
that I've never been in.

This rambling
is so backwards for me.

- You have arrived.

- I don't even want to get out.

[tense music]

I don't want to get out.

♪♪ ♪♪

- Come here, baby. Come here.

- [sobs]

Right now, this man broke me.

I was stable.

And right now, this is
the first time in years,

in my life.

I am 34.

I am not [bleep] right,

because a man put a ring
on my finger.

You broke me, because we
were actually in love.

The day that man
left for no reason--

and I'ma say no reason, because
there was no [bleep] reason.

And he ruined something
so [bleep] good.

I am so [bleep] right now.

Why am I getting persecuted?

Every single media outlet lied
about what the [bleep] I did

and catastrophized what I did.

We know Amber killed him.

I had to deal with that.

I had to deal.

Listen to me.

Do you know how that
feels when people

are calling you a murderer
to your [bleep] fiancé?

No.
- Come here.

- Do you know how
that [bleep] feels?

- Come her.
Come here.

Come here.
Come here.

Oh, baby, I'm so sorry.

- He doesn't know what he did.

They were calling
me a murderer.

And they said
I [bleep] killed him.

[upbeat music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- Hey, ladies!

Woo, woo!

- ♪♪ We're good to go ♪♪

♪♪ Going to get some
hustle till dawn ♪♪

♪♪ Next day, dawn, I'm poor ♪♪

- How you doing?

- I'm doing good.

How are you?

- I'm doing good.

AJ?

- Yes.

- He is sweating.

- Bro.

That's nerve sweat.

- It's going to be a good time.
Sarasota?

- Sarasota.
Yes, yes.

The Keys.

- OK, I am with my sisters.

- Woo!

- My daughter, my bestie,
all from Oklahoma.

We're in Florida.

Whitney,
the photographer, she's

going to do a sister photoshoot
with us on the beach.

[upbeat music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- Guys, I haven't felt this
nervous in a long while.

- This is nice temperature.

- So great.

- They're going to be
coming around that corner

here in just a minute.

- I'm just so happy that I'm
here with, like, you guys.

- Look how pink
we are, you guys.

- We are.
We're peachy.

- Oh my gosh, they're close.

- Go this way.

[gentle music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- Whew.

♪♪ ♪♪

- Hey, shorty.

♪♪ ♪♪

- ♪♪ Yeah,
we've been through it ♪♪

♪♪ Through the thick and thin ♪♪

- Whew.

- ♪♪ Now stronger than ever ♪♪

♪♪ Heaven giving in ♪♪

♪♪ ♪♪

- Give me your hand.

♪♪ ♪♪

I met you.

And all I was talking
about was Mackenzie.

I don't know what happened.

I don't know what you did.

But you've made me
extremely happy.

And I hope that I make you
as happy as you make me.

And I do have
something for you.

♪♪ ♪♪

Mackenzie, will you marry me?

Yes?

♪♪ ♪♪

- ♪♪ Can I be closer to you ♪♪

- Woo!

- Hey!

- ♪♪ One last time ♪♪

- I feel on top of the world.

I did it, Mom.

I did it.

I found love.

And I found a true love.

I get to marry my best friend.

- Wait, he was
your best friend?

[laughter]

♪♪ Can I be closer to you ♪♪

♪♪ One last time ♪♪

[tense music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- This is [bleep] horrific.

Like, I'm just done.

So [bleep] done.

♪♪ ♪♪

I'm having
a really bad episode.

I'm so sorry.

And I can't think straight.

- Sit down.

When you get stressed, you
have a history of dissociating.

- I need help right now.

I need help, because
Andrew didn't break me.

Matt didn't break me.

Nobody but this man.

Why?

Because this,
this is not right.

This is what I--

[sobs]

If you want to show what
heartbreak is, this is it.

It's not just about a man.

It's about we have
something better

than we both have even seen
in our lives with other people.

He looked at my family,
my daughter,

and just asked to be
a big, happy family.

- It's definitely a loss.

♪♪ ♪♪

- How many people have
I lost in my life?

♪♪ ♪♪

- ♪♪ You're living in
the past ♪♪

♪♪ That time will not erase ♪♪

♪♪ Hold on ♪♪

♪♪ Stay strong ♪♪

♪♪ We're never going
to lose ourselves ♪♪

♪♪ Never going to
lose ourselves ♪♪

♪♪ Just breath in together ♪♪

♪♪ Keep holding on ♪♪

♪♪ When the waves
are pulling you under ♪♪

♪♪ Keep holding on ♪♪

♪♪ Even with the world
on your shoulders ♪♪

♪♪ Lies not so far ♪♪

♪♪ As far as we can see ♪♪

♪♪ Doing this whole,
it's so close ♪♪

♪♪ The burning in your heart ♪♪

♪♪ Will set your spirit free ♪♪

♪♪ So keep holding on ♪♪

♪♪ Keep holding on ♪♪

♪♪ When the waves
are pulling you under ♪♪

♪♪ Keep holding on ♪♪

♪♪ Even with the world
on your shoulders ♪♪