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- ♪♪ MTV ♪♪

- What's going on with Bar?

Apparently you found
something going on

with him and another woman.

- At this point,
do you trust him still?

- Uh-uh.

I was thinking about
filing for a divorce.

No matter what's going on
between me and your dad,

we still love you,
and you're the priority.

- I haven't spoken to my mom
in about six months,

ever since the Carly visit.

- I just miss her so much.

- I guess your grandma
went to the hospital.

- What?
- She's okay. No, she's fine.

If nobody's up there--
- I'll go up there.

- I'm gonna [bleep]
go up there.

[dramatic music]

- I know.

- I'll talk to you soon, okay?

- Okay.

- Oh, man, first time at the
age of 33, starting that.

So this is my boyfriend.

- Hello, everybody.

My name is actually Gary,
believe it or not.

- [laughs]
- Oh, my God.

Maybe this is the Gary for you.

- Khes and I are celebrating
our one-year anniversary.

- Okay.

- What do you think I'm
gonna surprise her with?

- A baby.
- A baby?

- A ring?
- Ring.

- Oh.

- And doctors are like,
there's nothing we can do.

You can't have a baby.

You're not married to me yet.

- Whichever news you get
will not alter

me wanting to be with you.

- There's so much that's been,
like, happening with my mom.

Like she'll call us,
cursing us out, crying.

- You're getting married.

I want us to focus on that.

- You might not be there
if you act like this.

- I don't wanna
[bleep] have to carry

this weight by myself anymore.

- What's in there?

- It's a narcotic.

It's methadone.

- You were on drugs?

[upbeat rock music]

♪♪ ♪♪

[intriguing music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- I [bleep] work
for my sobriety, okay?

You ever wonder where
my money [bleep] goes?

It goes to this [bleep].

I went every day for years
until I earned the trust

and the respect where
they were able to send

me home with a month's
supply of medication.

- You have to
take it every day?

- This I have to take
every day, Briana.

If I don't, I won't function.

Do you understand
what that's like?

Nova's age, doing drugs?

- But why don't you
be honest with us?

I think that's the
part that's so hard.

- Because--

- We're adults now, right?

And we have compassion,
and we love you.

And we would understand.

- Yeah, because I don't mean--

- Are you ashamed?

- Of course.

Because I knew I
had to save you two.

That was my priority--not me.

It was you two.

So I stood on this, because
this is what was able to keep

me balanced, to keep working,
to keep supporting you guys

and to keep being
there for you guys.

It's a [bleep] vicious cycle.

It's vicious.

[tense music]

- If you do not go
to whatever place

that specializes
in that to help--

- Don't say it.
- I am gonna say it.

- Don't say it.
- It's about--

- You're gonna regret it.
- Why? What are you gonna do?

- If you say anything, one
more thing about the wedding--

- 'Cause it's my wedding.
You don't need to be there.

- You gonna be
there by yourself?

- I will, with, my sister
and my nieces and my in-laws.

- I would never do
that to you or her.

Never.
- 'Cause I have a boundary.

- No, it's not a
[bleep] boundary.

- Yes, it is a boundary.
- Go [bleep] hug a tree.

- It's a boundary.
- Go hug a tree.

- It's a boundary.
- There's no boundaries.

[bleep] I'm done.
I'm leaving. I'm done.

- It's a boundary.

- I'm so confused,
and I'm so hurt.

And now I have to put
on a strong face

for my [bleep] kids.

♪♪ ♪♪

- ♪♪ Okay, I know ♪♪

♪♪ I'm trying to figure out ♪♪

♪♪ Why I'm feeling this way ♪♪

- Lately, I've been juggling
a lot since Bar has been gone,

and I'm still going to school.

- Push, push, push.

- My nursing program
is intense,

so I haven't filed
for divorce from Bar yet,

because it's a huge decision
that will affect Holly too.

Right now I wanna teach her
how to overcome any obstacles

that may come our way.

This community that we live
in, we spend a lot of time

at the pool, but the
other day, she told me

that some kid
called her a baby,

because she is wearing a life
jacket to the pool still.

That peer pressure,
that desire to want to fit in,

is coming, and it's new
for me too.

But I like to sit back
and see how she is going

to metabolize the situation.

I like when she comes to
me to bounce ideas off

of me versus me overloading
her with how I think

she needs to handle her life.

Knock, knock.

- Hi.

- What are you doing?

- Cleaning.

- How do you like
being at the pool

almost every day
with your friends?

- Well, I--

I'm not that good at swimming.

- Well, I think you're as
good as any other little kid.

- I'm not a little kid.

- What are you?

- I'm kind of little.

- Do you think you
need swim lessons?

- Yes.

It's kind of not fair that
they don't wear life jackets,

and I have to.

- Who doesn't wear
a life jacket?

- My other friends
that go to the pool.

- Well, you need to
wear a life jacket.

You--first of all, that pool
is deeper than you think it is.

It's taller than me.

- It's taller than you?

- Yeah, it's eight feet.
It's deep.

- You're a whole adult.

- Yeah, I know some
of your other friends

don't wear life jackets,
but maybe they can swim

a little bit better than you.

- Okay.

- And that's okay.

It just means you
have to learn.

A life jacket is necessary.

It saves people's lives.

It doesn't make you
a baby or whatever.

I love that you love the pool.

You're just trying to have fun,
and I respect that, girlfriend.

But I have to think
about your safety.

So how about this?

Let's make a deal.

I'll get you swim lessons.

If you're diligent in
them, and you prove to me--

do you know what
diligent means?

- No.

- It means you work
hard at something.

So if you're diligent, and
you show up to swim lessons

like you're supposed to, and
you keep up with your stuff,

I will consider letting you
swim without your life jacket.

Is that gonna be a deal?

- Uh-huh.

A pinky?

- What does that mean?

- Of a promise.

- Of a promise.
Right.

- A pinky of the promise.

- A pinky of the promise.

[upbeat music]

- ♪♪ Without you ♪♪

♪♪ There's nothing
I can do without you ♪♪

- Oh.

- Hello, pretty girl.

- We're cooking.

- How are you?

- I've been doing everything
by myself for so long,

and since Khes has come
along, that has changed.

He is so helpful,
especially with the kids,

and that makes me really
excited to build our future

together and grow the family.

- So I have to
run a few errands.

- Okay.

Have fun.

All right, so Gannon, we're
gonna make some curry chicken.

- My mom didn't even know how
to cook, so we couldn't learn.

When you're 16,
and you have a kid,

you don't know that much,
because you're still young.

So--

- That's a good point.

- Now that you're here,
she's learning a lot from you.

- We learn a lot
from each other.

I'm gonna learn from
you guys too, because I

don't have kids of my own.

So it's gonna be a
lot of good stuff.

- ♪♪ Oh ♪♪

[doorbell rings]

♪♪ ♪♪

- Guess what I have?

- What?

- It says final judgment
of dissolution of marriage.

- It is done.

- I am a divorced woman.

And then in the
bottom, it says you are

now free to marry Mr. Hall--

- Oh, does it?

- And you are now--

[laughs]

- I'm joking.

- Ah, you're silly.

Mwah.

It feels like--it
feels like I'm lifting.

I would never put my
phone away for five hours

while you and the kids
were off somewhere.

Something bad could
have happened.

- Fine.
I'm [bleep] done.

- Just wait.

Did you sleep with someone?

- I did go to a bar
and was inappropriate.

- To me, it's worth divorce.

- That, you know what?

That shouldn't even
be in your vocabulary.

- With cheating, in
this situation, yes.

- You brought me
divorce papers, but you

got 'em off the internet.

- And we can take 'em to court.

- You're all mine now, honey.

- I've been all yours
this whole time.

- Now you ain't going nowhere.

- I was never
gonna go anywhere.

- The fact that you got your
divorce is important to me,

because I don't wanna
talk about marriage

when somebody else is married.

- I filed for this divorce
a year before I met you,

and getting it is just
like a breath of fresh air.

Now we can plan the future.

We really want to
have a baby together.

- Positive?

Right now?

- Financially, it's
gonna be a lot of money.

- I've always been
a hard worker.

We just gotta figure stuff out.

- My preference is to be
married before we have a baby,

but I really don't wanna have
a baby in my 30s.

When you're a type I
diabetic, probably

the younger, the better.

But we are gonna get
married one day, right?

- Yes.
- Okay.

You ain't gonna drag
this out for, like,

five more years, right?

- [laughs] No, I
wouldn't do that to you.

I wouldn't do that to you.
That's torture.

- Okay, so what do
we do from here?

- The only option
is to speak to a--

- Fertility doctor.

- Since your tubes are tied,
just be as open minded as you

can and just hear all
options and see what works--

would work best for us.

- Okay, so I'll start
calling places.

- ♪♪ The way you feel ♪♪

♪♪ Crazy as it feels ♪♪

♪♪ Trying to get it
out of the way ♪♪

[upbeat music]

- Look, honey.
- Hello, honey.

- [laughs] Look at how cute--
- What is that? For Vaeda?

- Yeah, for school tomorrow,
to put over her leggings.

Isn't that cute?

- Aw.

- I cannot believe it,
but Vaeda is turning five.

So we're having
a birthday party.

I'm kind of on the fence
about inviting my mom or not.

But ever since Nova and her had
that visit, the kids, you know,

constantly wanna see her.

I kind of wanna do baby steps,

so I asked her if she would
go to therapy with me.

I was wondering if you
would be up to possibly

doing therapy with me.

- Yeah, sure, you know,
I'm always down to do

that stuff with you.

- So that's a positive step
in the right direction,

but we'll see where it goes.

- What are you doing?

- I'm doing that therapy
session with my mom.

- Okay.

- I hope it doesn't
bring stuff up for me.

- What--like, what is that?

- I don't know.

You know, sometimes
it brings up--

I get anxiety after
certain things.

- I'd be lying if I said
I wasn't worried for you,

getting--you know what I mean?

Because I know
there's a possibility

of digging [bleep] up.

Things getting--you
know what I mean?

So where are you
at as far as, like,

inviting her to
Vaeda's birthday party?

Because she always came.

- I mean, as of now, I'm not
really comfortable with it,

but we'll see how therapy goes.

- Choosing to have her
at the party or not,

it shouldn't, in my opinion,
inhibit any like, progress.

You know what I'm saying?
- Yeah.

- If you're not willing
to self-betray in order

to make this progress happen.

- Yeah.

♪♪ ♪♪

- Hi, baby.

Don't look.
Don't look.

- I'm not.

Okay, okay.

I'm gonna miss you.

Hi, ladies.

I hope everybody's doing well.

I just wanna give
you a little update.

Things are honestly
getting serious between me

and my boyfriend, Gary.

- Get this cooking going,
and I'll bring up the wine.

Okay?
- Okay.

He really treats
me like a queen.

[laughs]

♪♪ ♪♪

- ♪♪ Make 'em say wow ♪♪

- Oh, baby.

- Cilantro, baby.

- Bam.

It's really good.

I love you.
- Love you.

♪♪ ♪♪

- ♪♪ I can see that we
belong together ♪♪

♪♪ We are meant to
be friends forever ♪♪

- Oh.

This will be the
meditation room.

- Nice.

This is cute.

And it smells good.

- Yeah, that's my--

- Sage candle.

- Uh-huh.

- How has things been
going with you and Gary?

- Me and Gary,
we're doing really good.

Like, been staying with
each other a lot more,

spending more time together,
so--

- Has he ever been married?

- Yeah, he was
married, actually.

- Oh, okay.

- I feel like
I've been married,

like, five [bleep] times, so--

- [laughs]
Does he have any kids?

- No.

We're just going with the flow.

We're not moving fast.

We're not moving slow.

We're moving at a good pace,
whatever we're feeling.

The other day, he experienced,
like, my first manic episode,

almost a blackout.

- My journey with mental
health has been a long one.

- I'm very concerned about
your anxiety and depression.

I'd like to refer you
to a psychiatrist.

But in the meantime, I can
start you on medication, okay?

- I have been diagnosed
with borderline personality

disorder, and
also I am bipolar.

One of my symptoms is having
manic episodes, which means

I can experience blackouts.

When this happens, I actually
don't remember anything.

In the past, my
mental health has

definitely affected
my relationships

with my boyfriends.

So we started going to
couples therapy.

We've been there twice now.

- That's different from the
first couple relationships.

- It feels good to do
that for the first time,

because, you know, I'm
not good at relationships,

especially this type
of relationship where

it's actually a good one.

This is something, like,
I don't wanna mess up.

[intriguing music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- ♪♪ I feel with you ♪♪

[upbeat music]

- Okay, guys, my divorce is
finally over, and now

Khes and I can grow
our little family.

So we are going to
the doctor right now

to hopefully find out that
I can get my tubes untied.

- Please step into the room.
- Hello.

- Hi.
- Hi.

Nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you.

- My name is Lindsey.

I'm a nurse practitioner here.

It's nice to meet both of you.

So you're here trying
to get pregnant.

- Yes.
- Okay.

You've been together for
about a year, it looks like.

Okay.

And you had your tubes tied,
you said, seven years ago.

- Yes.

- Are you interested in doing
more of a tubal reversal

to get pregnant or--

- Yes.

- Okay, we can schedule
a surgery to see

what the tubes look like.

And then if
everything looks good,

and you're a good candidate
to do the reversal,

then we do the reversal.

And then we try at home.

Your age category,
you're close to,

like, 15% to 20% success rate.

[somber music]

- Um--so there's only
a 20% chance of getting

pregnant after tubal reversal?

- I would say around
20%, and that's with,

if nothing is wrong,
like sperm looks good,

and hormones are good,
you're ovulating.

- Is there another option?

- Yep.

So IVF pregnancy rates
are around 65% to 70%,

and we wouldn't have to
do any types of surgeries.

You don't need the
tubes at all for IVF.

It's just your ovaries
and your uterus.

- What's, like, an
estimate for IVF?

- Ballpark would be anywhere
from, like, 10,000 to 20,000.

- Okay.

- One very important
question is, have you

worked with type I diabetics?

- Yes.

- Okay.

- The only thing
that we require

for getting pregnant
with type I diabetes

is having that A1C
number at a 6.5.

- Is that your sugar level?

- Yeah.

- We are very strict
on where we're at

with that number in terms
of getting you pregnant.

- Okay, I've always ran high.

- Okay.
- Always.

Like 9.

- How were the pregnancies?

Any complications
in the pregnancies?

- So my first two, no.

My last one was a
disaster from day one.

When I was pregnant before, I
did not have an insulin pump.

- Okay.

I think that's
probably a good idea.

- So a possible solution for
maintaining healthy blood

sugars is an insulin pump.

The pump, without you
even doing the work,

it'll spit out insulin,
but it still doesn't mean

you have perfect blood sugar.

- I'm hopeful that we
will get you a baby, 100%.

I am hopeful of that.

And I know we can.

So it's in terms of how is
where we're kind of need

to figure out the next steps.

[upbeat music]

- ♪♪ What, what? ♪♪

♪♪ Hey ♪♪

- Doing all right today?

Okay.

- ♪♪ Huh ♪♪

- Hi.

- Are you excited? Yeah?

- She's nervous.

- Oh, that is totally fine.

We're gonna have so much fun.
I pinky promise.

- Do you have somewhere we
can put on her swimsuit?

- Yes, so around this way.

- ♪♪ Oh, yes, overtime
with the bonus ♪♪

♪♪ Anywhere you see me,
I'ma show up ♪♪

♪♪ Watch all your
driving approaches ♪♪

♪♪ When we did that work,
everybody did I love ♪♪

♪♪ Don't see the perks,
but you never--♪♪

Now hold your hands, and
keep puffing your cheeks.

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, and blow.

- I was very surprised
that she was so brave, just

jumping in the water
without the life jacket,

because I thought she was
gonna have a little pause.

But she didn't.

Confidence is important.

She's a little Black girl.

There's a lot of stereotypes.

You know, Black girls,
we don't swim.

We don't get our hair wet.

And I don't want her to fall
in line with any of them.

I want her to be free
and open and fearless.

There are no limitations
because you're Black

or because you're a girl.

Hello.

- She was super, super awesome.

You can tell she really
enjoys the water.

- I see myself
giving confidence

by believing in her goals
and actively showing up

and helping her
work towards them.

[uplifting music]

That was fun.

I had fun watching you.

- Oh.

- [vocalizing]

- How do you think your swim
lesson went, girlfriend?

- I loved it.

- Yeah, it looked like you
got comfortable really quick.

You didn't look
scared at all to me.

That girl is growing up.

That girl is doing things.

That girl is learning.

- ♪♪ La, la, la, la ♪♪

♪♪ La, la, la, la ♪♪

♪♪ La, la, la, la ♪♪

♪♪ Well, get that ♪♪

- ♪♪ And get out of my closet ♪♪

- [gasps] Mom, can I have this?

- Yeah, you can have it.

It's gotta be cleaned.

I just thrifted that.

- Yeah, that's really cute.

- So what's up?

What's up with Holly?

- She's in swim lessons.

She just had her first
one a few days ago.

She was in there.

She had a lot of fun.

She's very independent,
and I love that, because I

raised her like that.

- I think you're
doing a great job--

better than I did with you.

- My dad just was
throwing me in the pool

with no life jacket.

- You lived.
- And--

- [laughs]
- I know.

- [laughs] You lived.
- That's dangerous.

But then I did do lessons, and
then I was junior lifeguard

for a few years.

- Okay.

- So it worked out for me,
but, I mean, she gotta do that.

- You know, we didn't grow up
around a lot of swimming pools.

- Yeah, that's true.

- Just swimming pools
wasn't in the community.

I think Holly has been
exposed to the water way

before I was, way
before you were too.

And I think she's gonna be
a better swimmer than either

of us put together.

You know, my only
concern is her thinking

she's Wonder Woman overnight.

- She feels prepared to
swim across the ocean.

- Ocean.

That's what I'm scared of.

- I don't wanna, like,
mess up her confidence

or, like, stunt
her independence.

But also, I have to see
that you are understanding

some basic safety
rules first before you

take the life jacket off.

You know how Holly is.

She likes to skip levels.

The next time we go, I'm
pretty sure she's going

to ask me to take it off.
- Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

- And I'm gonna tell her no.

- One day, belle.

- Yeah, one day.
- One day.

- One day.

- ♪♪ Some things ♪♪

♪♪ Can't be undone ♪♪

- Love you.

I love you, Novi.

- Love you too.
- Love you too.

- Bye.
- Bye.

- ♪♪ You know
all those secrets ♪♪

- I'm still trying to
process everything

I found out last
night about my mom.

You know, I want
my mom to be okay,

but I have two kids that I
have to take care of also.

And my kids come first
before anybody, even my mom.

I don't know what to do.

- Have you talked to Mom?

- Have you?

- No.

I just don't trust her at all.

Like, it's just, you know, when
you've been lied to so much,

nothing she says or does will
ever, like, make me trust her.

For her being on that
[bleep] for so long,

I don't even know
how many years.

I don't know if she's
been on and off.

- I'm struggling here.

- You're struggling because
she did a lot for you.

Like, she's one of the
reasons, let's be honest,

that you're successful, because
she helped you with your kids--

way more than me, way
more than their dads.

So your bond with
her is different

than the bond I have with her.

- She's calling me.

- Don't tell her I'm here.

- Hello.

- Hey, you.
What are you doing?

- Nothing.

- You okay?

- Not really, but I'll be okay.

- I've been doing a little bit
of research this last night

and this morning.

Um, I found a place
that--it's a women's

center that deals with trauma.

The facility is in Texas.

So I think I'm
gonna go over there.

- When are you trying to leave?

- Tomorrow morning.

[somber music]

- [whispering]
Briana, it's okay.

It's good.

- How long are you
gonna be gone for?

- A month, and then
take it from there.

[crying] I just know
that this is not normal,

and I can't do it by myself.

- You have to make a promise to
me and the kids and to Brittany

that you are gonna stay there
for as long as you need.

And if you don't
complete this, I don't

want you around the kids.

Do you understand?

- Did you just say
what I think you said?

- Yes.

[tense music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- ♪♪ I wasn't the one ♪♪

♪♪ Oh, I still hurt ♪♪

♪♪ This pain is a constant ♪♪

♪♪ Yeah, left in my life ♪♪

- So I'm about to do my
first therapy session

with my mom and Dr. Dow.

Therapy is a big step and
probably the only step

that we have in order to
better our relationship,

because my mom and I
don't communicate well.

What do you mean, Mom?

There you go choosing your
boyfriends over me again.

[arguing]

- So get used to it.

- All right, what
did I do wrong?

- Okay, Mom.
- I wasn't being rude.

- Okay, Mom.

[bleep] you.

Get out of my [bleep] face.

- I'm just saying that
we need to fix something,

because I'm afraid that
me and you in the future

won't have anything
to do with each other.

My mom wants our therapy
sessions to be private,

so cameras won't be
filming it.

I just hope that it
does good, and we

can start to kind of process
things in a healthy way.

[thoughtful music]

♪♪ ♪♪

Hey.

- How are you feeling
after that conversation

with your mom?

- It definitely was
emotional, but I

think it was good
and necessary,

because for a long time, it was
like, this isn't even worth it.

I'm not trying.

I'm done.

- You know, in your voice,

when the two of you were
talking,

I heard that you
were really coming

from a different place with
her in terms of less anger.

Did anything surprise you?

Anything you heard?

- That she hates drinking.

I always thought she liked it.

That's why she did it.

- If she hates
drinking, then what?

- Then I have hope for
her to wanna change

that for herself, really.

- What does that let
you off the hook from?

- Not having to
police it, I guess.

- And what are you
gonna do differently?

- I think a step I can
take is reaching out more.

For instance, my
daughter's having

a birthday party this weekend.

And, I don't know,
at the moment,

I just don't feel
comfortable with her coming,

because we're not at, like,
a majorly healed point.

But if Vaeda wanted to go
to her house for a few hours

and do their own, little
celebration or something,

like, I'm all about that stuff,

- I like that option,
because then it's

not so much about what you're
taking away from your mom

and punishing her
and making her

feel like she's not
part of the family.

You can just do something
separate for her

and just honoring where
you're at in the relationship.

I was so proud of you
in that conversation.

There's, like, this whole
new Catelynn showing up.

- [laughs] Thanks.

- ♪♪ I'm starting over ♪♪

♪♪ Right from the beginning ♪♪

- Vaeda, Grandma wanted
to talk to you.

- Hi.

- Hi. Say hi, Grandma.
- Happy birthday.

- Thank you.

Grandma, I wanna
show you the balloons.

- Oh, show her the balloons?

- Look at the balloons.

- Whoa.

- Do you wanna
come to my house?

- I'm gonna see
you pretty soon.

- You'll go over there
next weekend, Vaeda.

- Bye, Grandma.

Bye.
- All right, honey.

Bye. I love you.
- Love you too.

- Love you, Grandma.

- ♪♪ I'm starting over again ♪♪

[tense music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- Briana, [bleep]
you and your sister.

I would never [bleep]
do that to you, Briana.

- You did worse.
- Never.

She did it with the wedding,
and now you're doing

it with the [bleep] kids.

Do you understand
why I stayed quiet?

Why I kept this
all these years?

Because I knew you guys would
[bleep] slap that [bleep]

in my face.

You can't do this
unless you do this.

What the [bleep] is that about?

- Mom.

- Don't threaten
me with the kids.

- These are my
kids, and I don't--

- Your kids?

I [bleep] carried
you guys on my back.

They're my kids too.

- No, Mom, they're my kids.

- And this is why you're
going there--to be

a better person for them.

- I would have said, Briana,
go and find your [bleep] self.

And when you come
back, I'm right here.

- I am gonna be here.
- No.

Didn't say that.

You said if you
don't, I'm gonna

keep the girls away from you.

- Mom, because I
know how you are.

You're stubborn.

I'm trying to protect
the kids.

I need you to be
okay first, though.

[sentimental music]

Are you really
leaving tomorrow?

- Yeah.

I don't wanna see the girls.

I don't want 'em to
see me like this.

- Listen.

Go.

You have my support, and
you have Brittany's support.

Bye.

- Bye.

- Need a second.

[bleep].
[sniffling]

[bleep] my life.
[bleep].

- [vocalizing]

[upbeat music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- No.

- So you haven't
had any, like, phone

calls or texting or anything?

- No she has a
boyfriend, so... [laughs]

She's not gonna text anybody.

- You know, I ain't trying
to throw no shade on Amber.

Your mom does love you,
and your mom does care.

But, you know, she
is with somebody.

I mean, that does play a role.

I truly want her to
be happy, and I want

her to have a relationship.

And I want her to
be healthy, but

that needs to incorporate you.

- ♪♪ Take it all ♪♪

♪♪ ♪♪

- I appreciate that you're
doing couples therapy.

- Yeah, and, you know, the
reason why I'm doing all this

is for you, because I love you.

And I'm willing to accept
everything about you.

♪♪ ♪♪

- So tell me what's happened
since we talked last.

- I'm kind of having
an issue right now.

Um--the mania, like, happened.

- Uh-huh.

- So I started blacking out.

It's been really hard.

Maybe you can explain
more, because I

kind of got foggy after that.

- She told me a few
things about what

to look for, like your
pupils get really dilated.

She starts talking a lot.

Her palms also
get really sweaty.

It's something that I've
never had to experience

with anybody else before.

- When she is hypomanic or
having those difficulties,

how does that experience
make you feel?

- I think I go into, you
know, the protector mode.

This is something that
she's used to dealing with

by herself, and I can't imagine

dealing with something
like that by yourself.

- But if I see his eyes,
or if he puts his hands,

or talks to me or something,
turns on music and stuff,

like, I--

I can--I'm just there.

- So he's kind of a
grounding force for you.

- Yeah.

Well, I've never
had anybody do that.

- Right.

- But I don't want it
to be too much for him.

I don't want it to be
a burden on anybody.

- One of the important things
for you both as a couple

is that you need to
take care of yourselves,

so you can take
care of each other.

- Yeah, that is something
I do need to get better at.

This has definitely
helped, though, for sure.

Finding somebody that
I actually, truly love,

it's like, that's
what I've wanted.

And we're both,
you know, all in.

- I love you.
- I love you.

- ♪♪ So I'm soaking
up the sunshine ♪♪

♪♪ ♪♪

♪♪ Putting out the good vibes ♪♪

- Okay, so that did take a
little longer than expected.

- I mean, we had questions, and
we went into it with our mind

that, you know, we're gonna
get your tubes untied,

and we're gonna have a
baby and blah, blah, blah.

- I didn't know it
was a 20% chance.

I don't wanna get
surgery for a 20% chance.

- Yes.

- But she did say
that IVF is 60%.

- Yeah.

I think IVF is the best option.

- Okay.

Wow, Khes, we're
gonna have a baby.

- Yes, we are.

[sentimental music]

- So now our only stress
is my blood sugars.

- Yeah.

- You know, a type I diabetic
doesn't live an easy

life, anyways.

The risks for IVF are
dealing with hormones that

could potentially
cause high blood sugars,

because anything changing
in my body can do that.

Anything could happen to me.

Anything could
happen to the baby.

But I love this person,
and he loves me back.

I want to have a baby
with this person.

That's just the truth.

- [vocalizing]

[upbeat music]

- So I am holding up
to my promise.

I am letting Vaeda and Nova
go over to my mom's.

After our therapy
session, I definitely

feel comfortable with the
kids going over there and just

spending the day there.

This is just the first
step in baby steps.

Are you excited to
go to Grandma's?

- Yeah.
- Yeah?

- Yeah.

Super.

- And then I'll pick
you guys up later today.

- All right.

♪♪ ♪♪

- Hey, kid.

- Hi.

- This is for Vaeda.

- Oh, thanks.

- Come here.

- Vaeda's first question, so
does Grandma have a potty?

- Nope.

Grandma don't have a potty.
I got rid of that.

[laughs]

- No, I'm like, yes,
Grandma's got a potty.

- Are you so excited?

I am.

Mm.

- All right.

I love you guys.
- All right.

Thank you.

- You're welcome.

We're gonna eat dinner
at Amber's house.

So when we're done there,
I can shoot over here.

- Okay.
All right.

You ready?
- Yeah.

- All right.

Let's go have some fun.

- [laughs]

[thoughtful music]

- ♪♪ And the more I look back ♪♪

♪♪ The more I expect to see ♪♪

♪♪ That I was unwilling ♪♪

♪♪ To give up what I had ♪♪

♪♪ I thought being a lover ♪♪

♪♪ Was folding your hand ♪♪

♪♪ But I'm done ♪♪

♪♪ I'm done with that ♪♪

- So how was the
drop-off with your mom?

- Oh, it was fine.

- First visit, right?

First day visit?
- Yeah.

- Because they've had--

has Vaeda ever, like,
did visits with her?

Like how Nova went
to go get lunch.

- No, no.

My mom asked about
Vaeda, and I didn't

send Rya, just because Rya
doesn't really know her.

She's never really been--
you know what I mean?

- Right.

- So, like, me letting them go
over there just for the day,

that's, you know, she's gotta
be able to earn trust

back somehow if she wants it.

- Yeah.
Right.

- And I feel like this is
the little olive branch--

- Uh-huh.

- You know?

- It makes me happy.

That's not, you know?
- Uh-huh.

- It's not easy.

- So, yeah, we shall see.

[uplifting music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- ♪♪ Got me acting
so brand new in my head ♪♪

♪♪ Don't usually do this
but I can't fake it ♪♪

♪♪ What is it about you
that I can't shake? ♪♪

♪♪ I can't walk away ♪♪

[upbeat music]

- Mom.
- Hmm?

- I feel like after one class,
I'll be able to take

my life jacket off.

- I don't think so.

- Hmm.

Why?

- Because I think you still
need to work up on your skills,

and how to, like, tread water.

- What do you
mean, tread water?

- See?

You don't even know
what that means.

Even though I think
you're doing good,

and you're learning,
and you're the most

amazing kid on the
planet, you still

have to wear your life jacket.

I believe in you, though.

I'm totally confident
that you can do it.

- Thank you.

- You're awesome.

So what if someone calls
you a baby for wearing

a life jacket again?

What are you gonna say?

- I'm gonna say, you used
to wear life jackets,

but you just don't know it.

- That's my girl.

You be confident
in your life, okay?

- Okay.

- Don't let anyone make
you feel like you're not

where you're supposed to be.

You're exactly where you're
supposed to be right now.

You're doing a good
job, girlfriend.

But right now, it's gonna
be life jackets this summer.

- Life jackets every summer?

- Maybe the goal could be
no life jacket next summer?

- Yeah.

- Okay, deal.

- Okay, pinky promise deal.

- Oh.

I think now Holly has
the confidence to say,

like, I'm in swim lessons.

Catch me next summer, or catch
me at the end of this summer.

Don't worry about me.

I'm gonna be taken off this
life jacket some point soon.

And I think the swim lessons
kind of gave her that umph.

She needed that, and I
think she's getting that.

You know, I'm doing
what I'm doing.

I'm just doing it
at my own pace.

- ♪♪ I get stronger ♪♪

♪♪ I get better ♪♪

♪♪ Every single day ♪♪

- Go ahead, baby.

[thoughtful music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- I just feel like this
is not my real life.

Like, I found out my mom
is a former drug addict,

and she left to
Texas to go to rehab.

Now she's detoxing
off of methadone.

I feel like this is
all just a dream.

And I'm gonna wake up,
and my mom never left.

I went to my mom's house, and
I, like, watered her plants.

I think we're both
still processing it.

She's like the main person
that helps me with the kids.

- Uh-huh.

What, you haven't told them?

- I didn't lie to them.

I told them that
she's with doctors,

and she's just trying
to figure it out.

I know Mom lied to
us our whole life,

but I don't wanna
do that with my kids.

I wanna be as
transparent as I can be--

obviously, with
still protecting

them the best way that I can.

- Uh-huh.

I don't know if I'll ever
have a good relationship

with her ever in my life.

- I know moms have done some
really bad things,

but at the end of the day
for me, like,

I still see her as,
like, the most

important person in my life.

- Oh, 'cause she is.

She's the most--one
of the most important

people in my life too.

But just because she
is an important person,

don't mean she's a good person
to me, or, like, she did good,

you know?
- Yeah.

- Now, you have two
little girls you

gotta hold it together for.
But one thing--

- Which is really hard.

I'm just struggling.

- You just feel alone?

- Yeah.

[somber music]

♪♪ ♪♪

- [vocalizing]

[phone ringing]

Hello?

Yeah.

What are you--

I'm okay.
I want you to be okay.

They're fine.

Do you know a time frame of
how long you're gonna be there?

Six weeks?

- Okay, bye.

Six weeks.

[sniffs]
[bleep].

- [vocalizing]

- I just want my mom.

- ♪♪ It was a knife
inside a broken heart ♪♪

♪♪ The day I found
out who you are ♪♪

♪♪ Killed me in the moment ♪♪

♪♪ Killed me in the moment ♪♪

♪♪ But I made it through ♪♪

♪♪ All the ones that
you rob blind ♪♪

♪♪ All the love
you left behind ♪♪

♪♪ Think your soul is frozen ♪♪

♪♪ Think your soul is frozen ♪♪

♪♪ Inside of you ♪♪

♪♪ Is it cold where you are? ♪♪

♪♪ Can you catch your breath
running from yourself? ♪♪

♪♪ Is it cold where you are? ♪♪

♪♪ ♪♪

♪♪ Cold where you are ♪♪

♪♪ ♪♪

♪♪ Where you are ♪♪

- I have some big news.

- You see Mackenzie
as your future wife?

- I own a cannabis
consumption lounge.

- When I was on "Teen Mom,"
I was like,

it's about this time
of the day.

So I want to start a weed brand
called This Time of the Day.

- I feel like I'm going into
this really dark place

and I don't wanna do that.

- I don't wanna cry in front
of all these people.

I just feel bad for her.

I just don't want it
to affect her in the future.