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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:41,932 --> 00:00:46,811 - 7:45 on this beautiful, almost balmy 22nd of September in Schenectady. 2 00:00:46,978 --> 00:00:48,562 And it's the first day of fall. 3 00:00:48,730 --> 00:00:51,482 So in honor of that fact, we have Elke Putzkammer... 4 00:00:51,650 --> 00:00:53,734 ...professor of literature at Union college... 5 00:00:53,902 --> 00:00:56,153 ...to talk about autumn in poetry and literature. 6 00:00:56,321 --> 00:00:58,239 - Good morning, professor. - Hi, Alex. 7 00:00:58,407 --> 00:01:01,867 So, what about it? Why do so many people write about the fall? 8 00:01:02,035 --> 00:01:05,579 Well, I think it's seen as the beginning of the end, really. 9 00:01:05,747 --> 00:01:09,542 If the year is a life, then September, the beginning of fall... 10 00:01:09,709 --> 00:01:12,962 ...is when the bloom is off the rose and things start to die. 11 00:01:13,130 --> 00:01:17,049 It's a melancholy month and maybe because of that, quite beautiful. 12 00:01:17,217 --> 00:01:19,093 Is there something you might read to us? 13 00:01:19,261 --> 00:01:21,470 Oh, I'd love to. 14 00:01:21,638 --> 00:01:25,516 Whoever has no house now Will never have one. 15 00:01:25,684 --> 00:01:29,061 Whoever is alone will stay alone 16 00:01:29,229 --> 00:01:33,774 Will sit, read, write long letters Through the evening 17 00:01:33,942 --> 00:01:37,445 And wander the boulevards Up and down, restlessly 18 00:01:37,612 --> 00:01:39,864 While the dry leaves are blowing 19 00:01:40,031 --> 00:01:42,324 Goodness, that harsh, isn't it? 20 00:01:42,492 --> 00:01:46,662 Well, perhaps. But truthful. 21 00:01:49,249 --> 00:01:51,125 Mommy, done. 22 00:01:51,293 --> 00:01:53,252 Okay. 23 00:01:54,796 --> 00:01:56,088 - Good morning. - Good morning. 24 00:01:56,256 --> 00:01:58,340 - I tried not to wake you. - Well, thanks. 25 00:01:58,508 --> 00:02:00,843 You didn't. I just... You know, I couldn't get up. 26 00:02:07,642 --> 00:02:10,186 - Caden, can you get that? - It's Maria, I don't want to. 27 00:02:10,353 --> 00:02:13,481 - Caden... Oh, that's weird. - Hey, it's me. How are you? 28 00:02:13,648 --> 00:02:15,858 Mommy, is something wrong with my poop? 29 00:02:16,568 --> 00:02:19,820 No, honey, it's just green. You probably ate something green. 30 00:02:19,988 --> 00:02:23,407 I didn't. What's wrong with me? 31 00:02:23,909 --> 00:02:26,744 I have to get that, Olive. You're gonna be fine, okay? 32 00:02:26,912 --> 00:02:29,205 - But, Mommy... - Yeah, I'll be right back, Olive. 33 00:02:29,372 --> 00:02:33,042 Oh, nothing. Just wiping Olive's ass. You? 34 00:02:33,210 --> 00:02:36,754 - An earthquake in Kashmir... - Oh, you're kidding. Holy fuck. 35 00:02:36,922 --> 00:02:41,008 ...has killed an estimated 73,000... - I don't feel well. 36 00:02:41,718 --> 00:02:43,260 Oh, my goodness. 37 00:03:03,949 --> 00:03:06,242 - March in Washington, D.c., today, October 15th. 38 00:03:07,619 --> 00:03:10,955 - Harold Pinter died. - Well, he's old, right? 39 00:03:11,122 --> 00:03:13,332 - No, wait. He won the Nobel Prize. - Mom. 40 00:03:13,500 --> 00:03:15,793 - What, honey? - Do you need to look at my poop? 41 00:03:15,961 --> 00:03:20,589 - You sure it's all right? - It's fine, Olive. Just flush. 42 00:03:20,757 --> 00:03:23,467 What if it's alive? What if I kill it? 43 00:03:23,635 --> 00:03:25,844 - It's green like plants. - It's not alive, honey. 44 00:03:26,012 --> 00:03:29,765 Remember the production of The Dumb Waiter I did at Albanyfest? 45 00:03:32,060 --> 00:03:33,477 Have your oatmeal, honey. 46 00:03:34,354 --> 00:03:37,273 - I want peanut butter and jelly. - You said oatmeal. 47 00:03:37,440 --> 00:03:40,818 - This isn't a restaurant. - I don't want oatmeal. 48 00:03:40,986 --> 00:03:43,487 - Okay. Fine. - Mommy, I'm sorry. 49 00:03:43,655 --> 00:03:48,576 They found avian flu in Turkey. In the country Turkey, not turkeys. 50 00:03:48,743 --> 00:03:52,538 - Can I watch TV till school? - In some chickens. Yeah. 51 00:03:55,125 --> 00:03:58,294 There is a secret something at play under the surface... 52 00:03:58,461 --> 00:04:01,338 ...growing like an invisible virus of thought. 53 00:04:01,506 --> 00:04:03,591 But you're being changed by it... 54 00:04:03,758 --> 00:04:05,467 - Milk's expired. - Okay. 55 00:04:05,635 --> 00:04:06,677 Jesus. 56 00:04:08,513 --> 00:04:10,014 - You better eat this. - I will. 57 00:04:11,308 --> 00:04:12,641 Yeah. 58 00:04:13,059 --> 00:04:15,102 How did I guess you'd ask me that question? 59 00:04:15,270 --> 00:04:17,813 Happy Halloween, Schenectady. 60 00:04:18,857 --> 00:04:21,191 And how long have you been in New York for? 61 00:04:21,359 --> 00:04:25,195 The first black graduate of the University of Alabama died. 62 00:04:25,363 --> 00:04:27,281 Vivian Malone Jones. 63 00:04:28,325 --> 00:04:32,036 Stroke, 63. 64 00:04:48,845 --> 00:04:50,638 Fuck! 65 00:04:50,805 --> 00:04:54,308 God! Somebody! Adele, help! 66 00:04:55,560 --> 00:04:58,979 - Jesus, Caden, what the fuck? - I was shaving and the thing flew off! 67 00:04:59,147 --> 00:05:01,649 Oh, my God! Jesus, look at your head. 68 00:05:01,816 --> 00:05:03,901 Oh, shit. 69 00:05:04,069 --> 00:05:06,070 Oh, God, I can't turn it. 70 00:05:06,738 --> 00:05:08,489 Oh, wait. 71 00:05:13,536 --> 00:05:16,914 - Mommy, Daddy has blood. - Yeah. 72 00:05:17,082 --> 00:05:20,751 - Will there be a scar? - Probably. It looks like a mud flap. 73 00:05:20,919 --> 00:05:24,213 - I prefer there not to be a scar. - Yeah. 74 00:05:25,090 --> 00:05:26,173 That fellow is annoying. 75 00:05:26,341 --> 00:05:28,884 He's in here every week, like clockwork. 76 00:05:29,552 --> 00:05:32,721 There. I think that should... Let's see. 77 00:05:34,766 --> 00:05:37,601 - What? - Change in bowel movements? 78 00:05:37,769 --> 00:05:40,854 It's a little more yellow than usual. Why? 79 00:05:42,732 --> 00:05:45,776 Yeah, I'd like you to see an ophthalmologist. 80 00:05:45,944 --> 00:05:48,278 - A neurologist? - What? No. 81 00:05:48,446 --> 00:05:51,240 An ophthalmologist. I said, ophthalmologist. 82 00:05:51,908 --> 00:05:53,492 Do you hear that? 83 00:05:53,827 --> 00:05:55,244 Yeah. 84 00:05:55,829 --> 00:05:59,123 And today is Tuesday. Mommy, is today Tuesday? 85 00:05:59,290 --> 00:06:03,210 No, honey, today is Friday. So, what exactly did he say? 86 00:06:07,173 --> 00:06:12,678 That my pupils weren't properly opening and closing. 87 00:06:12,846 --> 00:06:14,138 Dilating. 88 00:06:14,305 --> 00:06:16,640 - No. - Yeah. 89 00:06:16,808 --> 00:06:19,518 - I don't think that's what he said. - Yes. 90 00:06:19,686 --> 00:06:22,229 - That's not what he said. - Is it the bump to your head? 91 00:06:22,397 --> 00:06:24,022 He doesn't know. Maybe. 92 00:06:24,190 --> 00:06:27,317 He said he doesn't think so, but maybe. But he doesn't know. 93 00:06:27,485 --> 00:06:30,988 - But maybe. Who knows? - Okay, Jesus, Caden, I got it. 94 00:06:31,823 --> 00:06:34,032 - He doesn't know... - Sorry. I'm a little anxious. 95 00:06:34,200 --> 00:06:36,660 - Did you have to get a shot, Daddy? - No, honey. 96 00:06:36,828 --> 00:06:39,705 - It's the start of something awful. - Do I have to get a shot? 97 00:06:39,873 --> 00:06:42,499 - Course not. - Did you tell him I have green poo? 98 00:06:42,667 --> 00:06:44,918 - It's fucked timing. - Call the plumber. Hey. 99 00:06:45,086 --> 00:06:47,129 Sorry. I have rehearsal. Fuck. 100 00:06:47,297 --> 00:06:51,341 - Hey, come on. - Sorry, sorry, sorry. Everybody, sorry. 101 00:06:51,509 --> 00:06:53,677 How many years until I have to get more shots? 102 00:06:53,845 --> 00:07:00,184 - Not for a really long time, babe. - A million years? 103 00:07:00,643 --> 00:07:04,146 - Remember what Dr. Woodman said... - Dad, what's a plumber? 104 00:07:04,314 --> 00:07:06,231 - He's a man... - Or a woman, Dad. 105 00:07:06,399 --> 00:07:13,030 Right. He's a man or a woman who fixes sinks and toilets and... 106 00:07:13,198 --> 00:07:15,240 - Do you know what pipes are? - No. 107 00:07:15,408 --> 00:07:18,869 - Hey, Jim. I had an accident. - Like to smoke out of? 108 00:07:19,037 --> 00:07:22,164 A different kind of pipe, honey. All right, bye. 109 00:07:24,417 --> 00:07:28,378 Houses have pipes, and they're made of... 110 00:07:28,546 --> 00:07:31,298 They're like tubes, and they're behind the walls... 111 00:07:31,466 --> 00:07:34,593 ...and they're under the floors and everywhere. 112 00:07:34,761 --> 00:07:36,220 - And... - What's the matter? 113 00:07:36,387 --> 00:07:38,680 - Every single where? - It's okay, honey. 114 00:07:38,848 --> 00:07:41,642 They just carry water to and from sinks and toilets. 115 00:07:41,810 --> 00:07:44,812 - It's like in your body. You have veins. - Capillaries. 116 00:07:44,979 --> 00:07:46,688 Capillaries filled with blood. 117 00:07:46,856 --> 00:07:50,400 I have blood? I don't want blood. I don't want blood. 118 00:07:50,568 --> 00:07:52,820 - What are you doing? - Trying to explain plumbing. 119 00:07:52,987 --> 00:07:54,446 - Stop. - I can't do this now. 120 00:07:54,614 --> 00:07:58,242 - Don't worry, you don't have blood. - Don't tell her she doesn't have blood. 121 00:07:58,409 --> 00:08:01,245 - Caden, stop it. - I don't want blood. 122 00:08:08,294 --> 00:08:10,754 Thanks for getting me in right away. 123 00:08:13,925 --> 00:08:17,761 - Was it the bump to the head? - No. 124 00:08:22,308 --> 00:08:25,936 Could be, but I think we need to get you to a neurologist. 125 00:08:26,104 --> 00:08:28,689 - Neurologist? - It's a brain expert. 126 00:08:28,857 --> 00:08:30,190 I know what a neurologist is. 127 00:08:30,358 --> 00:08:34,444 - I thought from the way you asked... - I just thought you said "urologist. " 128 00:08:38,867 --> 00:08:42,953 - Why do I need to see a neurologist? - Just for a look-see. 129 00:08:43,955 --> 00:08:46,790 The eyes are part of the brain, after all. 130 00:08:48,084 --> 00:08:50,460 No, that's not true, is it? 131 00:08:52,714 --> 00:08:58,010 - Why would I say it if it weren't true? - It doesn't seem right. 132 00:08:58,761 --> 00:09:01,430 Like morally correct, or "right" as in accurate? 133 00:09:05,810 --> 00:09:10,480 I don't know. Accurate, I guess? 134 00:09:12,817 --> 00:09:13,984 Interesting. 135 00:09:14,152 --> 00:09:17,070 Now, when you kick off, boy, I want a 70-yard boot. 136 00:09:17,238 --> 00:09:19,239 And get right down the field under the ball. 137 00:09:19,407 --> 00:09:23,327 And when you hit, hit low and hit hard, because it's important, boy. 138 00:09:23,494 --> 00:09:25,913 There's all kinds of important people in the stands. 139 00:09:26,080 --> 00:09:29,625 And the first thing you know... Ben? 140 00:09:30,501 --> 00:09:32,336 Ben, where do I? 141 00:09:33,838 --> 00:09:37,507 - Ben, how do I? - Willy, you coming up? 142 00:09:38,301 --> 00:09:40,135 Willy? 143 00:09:40,970 --> 00:09:43,180 Willy, answer me. 144 00:09:43,848 --> 00:09:47,434 Willy! No! 145 00:09:48,353 --> 00:09:49,853 - Oh, Jesus, come on. - Oh, crap. 146 00:09:50,021 --> 00:09:52,022 Claire, are you okay? What's happening here? 147 00:09:52,190 --> 00:09:54,441 It's too late in the game to have these problems. 148 00:09:54,609 --> 00:09:57,027 - I know, Caden. I'm sorry. We'll get it. - Oh, my God. 149 00:09:57,195 --> 00:10:01,365 - You okay? - Yeah, I think the wig saved my life. 150 00:10:01,532 --> 00:10:04,368 - Yeah. - It's okay, honestly. 151 00:10:04,869 --> 00:10:06,078 That was good, Tom. 152 00:10:06,245 --> 00:10:07,329 - Yeah? - Yeah. 153 00:10:07,497 --> 00:10:10,749 I was trying something different. I was crashing differently. 154 00:10:10,917 --> 00:10:14,252 - Ambivalently. - Yeah, I saw that. I liked it. 155 00:10:21,302 --> 00:10:24,221 Try to keep in mind that a young person playing Willy Loman... 156 00:10:24,389 --> 00:10:28,517 ...thinks he's only pretending to be at the end of a life full of despair. 157 00:10:28,685 --> 00:10:31,645 But the tragedy is that we know that you, the young actor... 158 00:10:31,813 --> 00:10:35,232 ...will end up in this very place of desolation. 159 00:10:35,400 --> 00:10:37,067 Okay. 160 00:10:40,321 --> 00:10:41,905 That's great. 161 00:10:42,740 --> 00:10:46,410 - Let's try it again. How long, David? - I think 15. 162 00:10:49,205 --> 00:10:50,831 Anything? 163 00:10:52,875 --> 00:10:54,584 So now what? 164 00:10:58,423 --> 00:11:00,549 - Hey. - Hey. 165 00:11:00,717 --> 00:11:04,928 - In search of the elusive signal. - The signal's good here, oddly. 166 00:11:05,096 --> 00:11:08,140 - That is odd. - I know. Cell phones, they're crazy. 167 00:11:08,307 --> 00:11:10,726 - See you in a few. - Yep. 168 00:11:13,938 --> 00:11:18,108 Yeah, Dr. Heshborg said I should see a Dr. Scoriano. 169 00:11:19,777 --> 00:11:21,737 My pupils don't work. 170 00:11:28,745 --> 00:11:31,413 I think I have blood in my stool. 171 00:11:34,459 --> 00:11:37,127 That stool in your office? 172 00:11:38,796 --> 00:11:42,466 - When I was pregnant with Olive. - What was it like? 173 00:11:42,633 --> 00:11:46,094 I don't know. Hopeful or something. Like something was gonna change. 174 00:11:46,262 --> 00:11:48,305 - Yeah, something did. No? - Yeah. 175 00:11:48,473 --> 00:11:50,098 - Yeah, of course. - I mean, bigtime. 176 00:11:50,266 --> 00:11:53,101 I mean, maybe not as much as I'd hoped. 177 00:11:53,436 --> 00:11:55,687 I'm sorry. That's a terrible thing to say. 178 00:11:55,855 --> 00:11:59,566 There are no terrible things to say in here, only true and false. 179 00:11:59,984 --> 00:12:04,154 - Can I say something awful? - Yes, please do. 180 00:12:06,407 --> 00:12:09,659 I've fantasized about Caden dying. 181 00:12:13,164 --> 00:12:15,874 Being able to start again, guilt-free. 182 00:12:16,626 --> 00:12:20,462 I know that's... That's bad. 183 00:12:21,506 --> 00:12:24,174 - Caden, does that feel terrible? - Yeah. 184 00:12:24,342 --> 00:12:26,301 Okay, good. 185 00:12:43,861 --> 00:12:46,363 It's a nightmare in there. 186 00:12:47,198 --> 00:12:49,282 I'm sorry. 187 00:12:59,877 --> 00:13:01,920 So, I'm reading The Trial. 188 00:13:02,088 --> 00:13:03,547 - Yeah? - Yeah. 189 00:13:05,174 --> 00:13:08,051 - You like? - Love. 190 00:13:08,219 --> 00:13:11,680 I'm such an idiot for not knowing about this book. 191 00:13:11,848 --> 00:13:14,808 - It's famous, as it turns out. - Yeah. 192 00:13:15,434 --> 00:13:17,602 You're not an idiot. 193 00:13:20,356 --> 00:13:22,607 Then you say: 194 00:13:22,775 --> 00:13:27,904 "In fact, Hazel, you're very bright, and I love your eyes. " 195 00:13:32,243 --> 00:13:35,912 - In fact, Hazel, you're very bright. - Oh, am I? 196 00:13:36,080 --> 00:13:41,042 - And I love your eyes. - Do you? Oh, you're a darling. 197 00:13:47,216 --> 00:13:49,301 Then what do I say? 198 00:13:49,594 --> 00:13:53,263 - I can't say what then you say. - Why? 199 00:13:53,848 --> 00:13:56,099 Because it's dirty. 200 00:14:00,021 --> 00:14:02,230 Could you step out for a second? 201 00:14:02,607 --> 00:14:06,318 Go ahead. I've seen boy parts. 202 00:14:13,326 --> 00:14:18,121 - Can I take a piss in your sink? - Yeah, sure. I guess. 203 00:14:28,716 --> 00:14:30,634 We're sold out. 204 00:14:30,801 --> 00:14:32,594 Great. 205 00:14:40,228 --> 00:14:42,145 Gorgeous. 206 00:14:43,648 --> 00:14:45,273 Thanks. 207 00:14:45,441 --> 00:14:49,069 - How was rehearsal? - Awful. 208 00:14:49,237 --> 00:14:52,989 We have 560 lighting cues. 209 00:14:53,199 --> 00:14:57,160 - I don't why I make it so complicated. - Because that's what you do. 210 00:14:57,620 --> 00:14:59,162 Yeah. 211 00:15:01,832 --> 00:15:05,877 We got through it though. That's really pretty. 212 00:15:07,338 --> 00:15:10,131 Caden, I'm sorry, I... 213 00:15:13,344 --> 00:15:15,095 I can't come tonight. I'm sorry. 214 00:15:15,263 --> 00:15:18,431 I have two canvasses I have to get ready to ship for tomorrow. 215 00:15:18,599 --> 00:15:20,433 - I know it sucks... - It's opening night. 216 00:15:20,601 --> 00:15:24,104 I know. I wish I could come. I would if I could. 217 00:15:24,272 --> 00:15:26,273 - I've gotta get ready. - Tomorrow... 218 00:15:26,440 --> 00:15:29,192 I have to get ready. I don't know what I'm gonna wear. 219 00:15:29,568 --> 00:15:31,861 I have to figure out what I'm gonna wear. 220 00:15:51,757 --> 00:15:53,508 Hey. 221 00:16:07,064 --> 00:16:10,859 - Oh, boy, oh boy. - Willy? 222 00:16:11,444 --> 00:16:13,903 It's all right, I came back. 223 00:16:16,574 --> 00:16:18,950 I hated myself tonight. 224 00:16:20,036 --> 00:16:22,412 - Plus, I'm so... Excuse me. - Hey, Tom. 225 00:16:22,580 --> 00:16:23,997 I'm so bloated and enormous. 226 00:16:24,165 --> 00:16:26,708 No, you look good. You were great. I was very pleased. 227 00:16:26,876 --> 00:16:29,753 - You okay? - Sorry. A little bit of a headache. 228 00:16:29,920 --> 00:16:31,588 Willy Loman. 229 00:16:34,383 --> 00:16:37,218 I just wanted to say thank you for everything. 230 00:16:37,386 --> 00:16:39,596 You've been absolutely brilliant. 231 00:16:39,764 --> 00:16:42,766 It's gonna be miserable going ahead without you. 232 00:16:42,933 --> 00:16:46,436 - I'll be around. I'll check in. - I'm such a baby. 233 00:16:47,063 --> 00:16:49,064 Okay. I'm gonna go get drunk, that's what. 234 00:16:49,231 --> 00:16:53,443 Okay. Claire. Sweetheart. 235 00:16:57,406 --> 00:17:00,325 - Good. Good job. - Oh, don't worry, I'll get better. 236 00:17:00,493 --> 00:17:03,078 - Good work. - Don't worry, it'll get better. 237 00:17:05,623 --> 00:17:09,209 Hey. I figured I'd better get in fast. 238 00:17:09,377 --> 00:17:13,296 - Hey, you wanna sit? - Yeah, yeah. 239 00:17:19,303 --> 00:17:23,807 - Where's el wife-o? - Had to work. 240 00:17:24,141 --> 00:17:26,976 Her show in Berlin is in two weeks. 241 00:17:27,144 --> 00:17:29,145 We're gonna go there for like a month. 242 00:17:29,313 --> 00:17:33,108 - Why do I like you so much? - I couldn't begin to guess. 243 00:17:33,275 --> 00:17:35,110 Me neither. 244 00:17:36,320 --> 00:17:39,114 Do you get high, my friend? 245 00:17:41,033 --> 00:17:43,493 You know, sometimes. 246 00:17:44,870 --> 00:17:47,497 Do you want to now? With me, in my car? 247 00:17:47,665 --> 00:17:50,208 I get kind of... 248 00:17:51,877 --> 00:17:54,295 ...something when I'm stoned. 249 00:17:54,463 --> 00:17:57,048 What does "something" mean? 250 00:17:57,675 --> 00:17:59,509 You know... 251 00:18:01,220 --> 00:18:03,012 ...bothered. 252 00:18:03,180 --> 00:18:06,182 - What does "bothered" mean? - You know. 253 00:18:06,892 --> 00:18:10,228 Bothered. Horny. 254 00:18:13,190 --> 00:18:16,276 And me with a station wagon and all. Could be dangerous. 255 00:18:16,444 --> 00:18:20,864 - Yeah, could be. - You're absolutely zero fun. 256 00:18:34,378 --> 00:18:37,213 When are the reviews gonna get here? 257 00:18:40,593 --> 00:18:42,302 Don't know. 258 00:18:47,641 --> 00:18:50,894 His best friends finger two babies... 259 00:18:51,061 --> 00:18:53,438 One this big, one this big. - And two kittens. 260 00:18:53,606 --> 00:18:57,484 - Hey. - Hi, Caden. How'd it go? 261 00:18:59,528 --> 00:19:00,945 - Hi. - Hi. 262 00:19:01,113 --> 00:19:02,780 It's late. 263 00:19:04,074 --> 00:19:06,743 Maria came over to keep me company because... 264 00:19:06,911 --> 00:19:09,037 And we just lost track. I got everything done. 265 00:19:09,205 --> 00:19:14,292 But I'm sorry I missed your play. I'm sorry. But how'd it go? 266 00:19:14,919 --> 00:19:17,045 Great. We're a hit. 267 00:19:18,047 --> 00:19:19,756 Reviews are great. 268 00:19:19,924 --> 00:19:24,427 Times said it was brilliant casting young people as Willy and Linda. 269 00:19:24,595 --> 00:19:28,598 - That's great, Caden. Good for you. - Great. 270 00:19:28,766 --> 00:19:32,352 I can't wait to see it tomorrow. That's... Tonight. 271 00:19:33,479 --> 00:19:34,604 That's great. 272 00:19:35,397 --> 00:19:38,775 Wow, it's really late... Early. 273 00:19:39,360 --> 00:19:41,110 Early. 274 00:19:41,570 --> 00:19:44,572 It's late. Hey, I would love to see it too. 275 00:19:44,740 --> 00:19:48,284 - Can we get Maria a ticket? - You're stoned. 276 00:19:49,578 --> 00:19:52,580 I mean, a little. It's, you know... I don't know. 277 00:19:52,748 --> 00:19:55,583 But are you happy with it? 278 00:19:55,751 --> 00:20:00,004 Yeah. Yeah, I'd love for you to see... To know what you think. 279 00:20:00,631 --> 00:20:02,215 It doesn't matter what I think. 280 00:20:02,383 --> 00:20:07,804 Absolutely. It's all about your artistic satisfaction, Caden. 281 00:20:17,439 --> 00:20:20,149 - Congratulations. - Yeah. 282 00:20:31,412 --> 00:20:36,416 - I've always loved this house. - Yes, it's a wonderful place. 283 00:20:36,667 --> 00:20:39,919 The truth is, I never really imagined I could afford it. 284 00:20:40,087 --> 00:20:42,088 Well, the sellers are very motivated now. 285 00:20:46,510 --> 00:20:52,348 It's a scary decision. I never thought I'd buy a house alone. 286 00:20:52,516 --> 00:20:56,352 But, you know, I'm 36, and I wonder what it is I'm waiting for. 287 00:20:56,520 --> 00:21:00,315 - Home buying is always scary. - And with the fire and all especially. 288 00:21:00,482 --> 00:21:02,734 Well, it's a good size though, 2200 square feet... 289 00:21:02,901 --> 00:21:05,320 ...not including the partially finished basement. 290 00:21:05,487 --> 00:21:07,614 Oh, I don't know. 291 00:21:08,699 --> 00:21:12,785 - I'm thinking I should go. - It's a perfect size for someone alone. 292 00:21:12,953 --> 00:21:19,500 I like it, I do. I'm just really concerned about dying in the fire. 293 00:21:19,835 --> 00:21:23,129 It's a big decision how one prefers to die. 294 00:21:23,297 --> 00:21:26,215 Would you like to meet my son? Derek. 295 00:21:27,384 --> 00:21:30,970 Derek's living in the basement since his divorce, if that's okay. 296 00:21:31,138 --> 00:21:32,847 Hey, Mom. 297 00:21:38,562 --> 00:21:41,439 - Let's go, Ma. - I want just a minute. 298 00:21:49,865 --> 00:21:51,741 I never... 299 00:21:53,410 --> 00:21:57,246 Forgive me, dear. I can't cry. 300 00:21:59,625 --> 00:22:01,751 I don't know what it is, but I can't cry. 301 00:22:05,047 --> 00:22:09,342 It seems to me that you're just on another trip. 302 00:22:09,510 --> 00:22:13,096 I keep expecting you. Why did you do it? 303 00:22:13,263 --> 00:22:17,266 I search and I search and I can't understand it. 304 00:22:17,434 --> 00:22:21,896 I made the last payment on the house today. 305 00:22:22,064 --> 00:22:26,776 We're free and clear. We're free. We're free. 306 00:22:32,866 --> 00:22:35,201 - Well done. - Bravo. 307 00:22:35,953 --> 00:22:40,998 - Well done. It was very successful. - I thought it was wonderful. 308 00:22:41,166 --> 00:22:43,251 Why did the older people look so young? 309 00:22:43,419 --> 00:22:45,962 It was a choice, Dad. I'll explain later. 310 00:22:46,130 --> 00:22:51,384 I can't get excited about your restaging someone else's old play, it just... 311 00:22:51,552 --> 00:22:53,094 There's nothing personal in it. 312 00:22:53,262 --> 00:22:55,680 People are coming out of the theater crying. 313 00:22:55,848 --> 00:22:58,266 Great. Be a fucking tool of suburban, blue-haired... 314 00:22:58,434 --> 00:23:00,184 ...regional-theater subscribers. 315 00:23:00,352 --> 00:23:02,145 - You didn't you think it was long? - No. 316 00:23:02,312 --> 00:23:03,771 But what are you leaving behind? 317 00:23:03,939 --> 00:23:06,232 You act as if you have forever to figure it out. 318 00:23:06,400 --> 00:23:08,901 When you're dead, there's no time. The world is... 319 00:23:09,069 --> 00:23:12,405 I don't know. I slept maybe three hours. 320 00:23:12,573 --> 00:23:14,782 So we're both tired. 321 00:23:16,326 --> 00:23:19,495 No, I cuddled with Olive all night. It was great. 322 00:23:24,752 --> 00:23:27,503 Morning. Morning. 323 00:23:28,922 --> 00:23:32,925 - Morning, Caden. - I think I might have arthritis. 324 00:23:33,093 --> 00:23:34,635 Friends on fire. 325 00:23:37,347 --> 00:23:38,806 I'm going to. 326 00:23:41,185 --> 00:23:45,938 No, I know exactly. Okay, I will. I'll call you later. 327 00:23:46,106 --> 00:23:47,356 I know. You're right. Bye. 328 00:23:50,277 --> 00:23:52,820 My joints are stiff. 329 00:23:55,532 --> 00:23:57,450 Who was that? 330 00:23:59,620 --> 00:24:01,829 - Maria. - Right. 331 00:24:02,372 --> 00:24:05,041 Three hours since you spoke. 332 00:24:05,501 --> 00:24:08,878 Caden, I think I wanna go to Berlin with just Olive. 333 00:24:11,548 --> 00:24:15,301 - I think it would be good for us. - Oh, Christ. 334 00:24:15,469 --> 00:24:17,386 Morning, kiddos. 335 00:24:19,223 --> 00:24:21,724 Why don't you want me to go? 336 00:24:21,892 --> 00:24:27,230 You know, I think it would be a good thing for the two of us to do alone. 337 00:24:27,397 --> 00:24:31,067 How do you think I'm supposed to respond to something like that? 338 00:24:33,904 --> 00:24:36,739 - Want me to zip your coat up? - Yeah. 339 00:24:41,662 --> 00:24:44,539 What's wrong with your face, Daddy? 340 00:24:45,791 --> 00:24:47,959 It's pustules. 341 00:24:48,460 --> 00:24:51,170 It's called sycosis. 342 00:24:51,338 --> 00:24:55,424 Spelled differently than "psychosis," but it sounds the same. 343 00:24:55,592 --> 00:24:57,218 I don't know what that means. 344 00:24:57,386 --> 00:24:58,928 Of course not. 345 00:24:59,096 --> 00:25:03,140 Well, there are two kinds of psychosis. They're spelled differently. 346 00:25:03,308 --> 00:25:08,020 P- S-Y is like if you're crazy, like Mama. 347 00:25:08,981 --> 00:25:11,941 S- Y is like these ugly things on my face. 348 00:25:12,317 --> 00:25:14,902 - You could have both, though. - I could, but I don't. 349 00:25:24,454 --> 00:25:26,747 Can I ask you something, Ad? 350 00:25:30,794 --> 00:25:33,588 Have I disappointed you somehow? 351 00:25:34,673 --> 00:25:38,885 I don't know what I'm doing. We're just spending a little time apart. 352 00:25:43,265 --> 00:25:45,474 We'll talk when I get back, okay? 353 00:25:49,062 --> 00:25:53,149 Everyone is disappointing. The more you know someone, it just... 354 00:25:54,276 --> 00:25:57,987 This whole romantic-love thing, it's just a projection anyway, right? 355 00:25:58,363 --> 00:26:00,531 I mean, I don't know. 356 00:26:04,661 --> 00:26:07,371 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. 357 00:26:09,499 --> 00:26:11,626 I love you. 358 00:26:17,966 --> 00:26:21,844 I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know. 359 00:26:29,144 --> 00:26:30,728 We'll talk when I get back. 360 00:26:34,441 --> 00:26:36,150 Okay? 361 00:26:48,163 --> 00:26:50,957 Flurostatin TR allows you to live life... 362 00:26:51,124 --> 00:26:55,044 ...when it's your turn to face the challenges of chemotherapy. 363 00:27:10,102 --> 00:27:13,229 Ask your doctor if Flurostatin TR is right for you. 364 00:27:30,539 --> 00:27:33,499 - And I'm on the first train out of Palookaville. 365 00:27:33,667 --> 00:27:36,335 - The Miracle Brush can scour everything from bottles... 366 00:27:36,503 --> 00:27:39,255 - Rise and shine... - Lift those legs... 367 00:27:59,693 --> 00:28:03,320 - I'm lonely. - Yes. Anything else? 368 00:28:04,906 --> 00:28:08,117 - I'm hurt. - Yes. And? 369 00:28:13,290 --> 00:28:15,708 I think Adele's right. I'm not doing anything real... 370 00:28:15,876 --> 00:28:17,752 What would be real? 371 00:28:17,961 --> 00:28:20,337 I'm afraid I'm gonna die. 372 00:28:21,423 --> 00:28:23,674 I don't know what's wrong with me. 373 00:28:23,842 --> 00:28:26,260 I wanna do something important while I'm still here. 374 00:28:26,428 --> 00:28:30,806 That would be the time to do it. I have a book that might help you get better. 375 00:28:30,974 --> 00:28:34,810 - Better? - It's called Getting Better. 376 00:28:35,771 --> 00:28:39,106 - Who wrote it? - I did. All of these. 377 00:28:39,274 --> 00:28:42,651 - Wow, I never knew that. - Yes. Well, wow, indeed. 378 00:28:44,988 --> 00:28:46,822 In conclusion... Cats eat rats... 379 00:28:46,990 --> 00:28:50,117 Within his own plumbing... Me who am as a raw nerve... 380 00:28:50,285 --> 00:28:52,828 Synthetic vaginal juices... Substantial crease... 381 00:28:52,996 --> 00:28:54,663 That's $45. 382 00:29:07,469 --> 00:29:11,138 Five. Five. 383 00:29:12,474 --> 00:29:14,225 Five. 384 00:29:16,019 --> 00:29:18,229 Some fives. That's not good. 385 00:29:18,396 --> 00:29:21,357 Keep with the flossing. We'll see you in three months. 386 00:29:21,691 --> 00:29:25,694 Six. Six. Six. 387 00:29:25,862 --> 00:29:28,531 I'm gonna recommend you see a periodontist. 388 00:29:28,698 --> 00:29:30,825 He'll probably recommend gum surgery. 389 00:29:37,082 --> 00:29:40,459 - Hello? - Hey, I'm so glad I finally got you. 390 00:29:40,627 --> 00:29:43,754 - Hello, who is this? - It's Caden. 391 00:29:43,922 --> 00:29:45,756 Ellen? 392 00:29:46,258 --> 00:29:49,885 It's Caden. I can't wait to see you and Olive on the 12th... 393 00:29:50,053 --> 00:29:54,974 No, I have to go. I'm sorry, there's a party. I'm famous. 394 00:29:55,142 --> 00:29:56,517 Have fun... 395 00:30:12,075 --> 00:30:14,034 911, state your emergency. 396 00:30:14,202 --> 00:30:16,245 - I'm sick! I'm sick! - Ma'am? 397 00:30:40,770 --> 00:30:42,021 Mr. Cotard? 398 00:30:58,914 --> 00:31:00,998 Mr. Cotard. 399 00:31:11,092 --> 00:31:13,552 You've had a seizure of sorts. 400 00:31:15,931 --> 00:31:16,972 What does that mean? 401 00:31:17,140 --> 00:31:21,310 Seems to be some synaptic degradation, fungal in origin. 402 00:31:21,478 --> 00:31:23,646 Autonomic functions are going haywire. 403 00:31:23,980 --> 00:31:26,649 You'll lose your ability to salivate, cry, et cetera. 404 00:31:26,816 --> 00:31:31,070 - Is it serious? - We don't know. But, yes. 405 00:31:31,738 --> 00:31:34,073 We'll get you enrolled in some biofeedback program. 406 00:31:34,241 --> 00:31:37,159 Maybe you can learn some sort of manual override. 407 00:31:49,381 --> 00:31:52,341 We should get a drink. It would be fun. 408 00:31:52,509 --> 00:31:58,347 - It would be weird. - I like weird. I like you. See? 409 00:31:59,683 --> 00:32:02,476 Anyway, I don't wanna make you uncomfortable, I... 410 00:32:04,688 --> 00:32:08,274 Okay, so I do wanna make you uncomfortable. 411 00:32:19,577 --> 00:32:21,620 And what do we do with all this? 412 00:32:24,624 --> 00:32:28,002 You wanna come over to my place, Cotard? 413 00:32:31,756 --> 00:32:35,843 I won't let you off the hook this time by saying, "Never mind. " 414 00:32:36,011 --> 00:32:38,554 Adele is only on vacation. 415 00:32:38,722 --> 00:32:43,225 She hasn't called since she left. It's been a year. 416 00:32:43,768 --> 00:32:46,020 It's been a week. 417 00:32:47,897 --> 00:32:50,441 I'm gonna buy you a calendar. 418 00:32:58,908 --> 00:33:00,826 Okay. 419 00:33:03,413 --> 00:33:05,456 Just for one drink. 420 00:33:09,127 --> 00:33:12,171 Come on. Scraps for my scrapbook. 421 00:33:16,760 --> 00:33:20,763 I can't... I really can't drink very much because of my condition. 422 00:33:30,440 --> 00:33:32,107 Did you put something in it? 423 00:33:32,275 --> 00:33:36,528 If that's what it takes, consider it done. 424 00:33:38,573 --> 00:33:41,658 Love potion number 69. 425 00:33:44,746 --> 00:33:47,206 - It's good. - Does it make you wanna kiss me? 426 00:33:48,458 --> 00:33:51,919 - Kind of. - Tell me why. 427 00:33:52,504 --> 00:33:55,631 Because I feel a lot of longing. 428 00:33:55,799 --> 00:33:58,384 Beg a girl, why don't you? 429 00:33:58,635 --> 00:34:00,469 - Please, Hazel. - On your knees. 430 00:34:02,097 --> 00:34:03,764 What? 431 00:34:03,932 --> 00:34:07,768 I want you to beg me on your knees for a kiss. 432 00:34:07,936 --> 00:34:09,520 Just for fun. 433 00:34:12,816 --> 00:34:14,316 Why am I doing this? 434 00:34:16,277 --> 00:34:18,153 For fun, baby. 435 00:34:21,908 --> 00:34:24,701 Will you help me forget my troubles? 436 00:34:25,203 --> 00:34:27,079 Oh, kiddo. 437 00:34:28,998 --> 00:34:30,332 You don't even know. 438 00:34:34,671 --> 00:34:37,089 - What? - I don't know. 439 00:34:37,424 --> 00:34:40,467 - What is it? - I don't know, I'm sorry. 440 00:34:42,345 --> 00:34:44,221 I'm sorry. 441 00:34:46,182 --> 00:34:48,851 - What? - I don't know, I'm just... 442 00:34:51,104 --> 00:34:54,273 I'm just really confused. 443 00:34:54,899 --> 00:34:56,775 I'm sorry. 444 00:34:57,694 --> 00:34:59,236 I... 445 00:35:03,116 --> 00:35:06,452 I'm really sick. 446 00:35:08,037 --> 00:35:10,539 And I think I'm dying. 447 00:35:12,208 --> 00:35:16,170 I have a kid, and I'm married. 448 00:35:21,092 --> 00:35:26,180 I just thought this might change things, you know? 449 00:35:26,347 --> 00:35:31,059 I had a good time, and I think you're a very nice person. 450 00:35:32,395 --> 00:35:36,106 That is just the wrong thing to say right now, Caden. 451 00:35:48,578 --> 00:35:50,537 You should go. 452 00:35:56,461 --> 00:35:59,588 Hazel. Leave a message or not. It's your dime. 453 00:36:00,173 --> 00:36:02,633 Hi. You know, I haven't heard from you in a while... 454 00:36:02,800 --> 00:36:05,427 ...and I just thought I'd call and say hi. 455 00:36:05,595 --> 00:36:07,429 Hi, Hazel. 456 00:36:13,436 --> 00:36:16,271 Now. Now. Be here now. 457 00:36:17,357 --> 00:36:19,650 Olive wanted me to ask you not to read her diary. 458 00:36:19,817 --> 00:36:23,403 She left it under her pillow by mistake. 459 00:36:41,047 --> 00:36:43,590 Dear Mr. Cotard, it is my pleasure to inform you... 460 00:36:43,758 --> 00:36:46,593 ...that you have been named a 2009 MacArthur Fellow. 461 00:36:46,761 --> 00:36:50,055 It is our hope that you will use your newly found financial freedom... 462 00:36:50,223 --> 00:36:53,308 ...to create something unflinchingly true, profoundly beautiful... 463 00:36:53,476 --> 00:36:56,353 ...and of unremitting value to your community and to the world. 464 00:36:56,521 --> 00:36:58,355 - I got this MacArthur grant. - Oh, Caden. 465 00:36:58,523 --> 00:37:01,191 - Yeah, a lot of money. - Know what you're gonna do with it? 466 00:37:01,359 --> 00:37:05,737 Theater piece. Something big and true and tough. 467 00:37:05,905 --> 00:37:08,156 I'm gonna finally put my real self into something. 468 00:37:08,658 --> 00:37:12,578 What is your real self, do you think? 469 00:37:13,454 --> 00:37:15,372 I don't know yet. 470 00:37:16,666 --> 00:37:19,334 The MacArthur is called "the genius grant"... 471 00:37:19,502 --> 00:37:21,503 ...and I wanna earn it. 472 00:37:21,671 --> 00:37:24,298 That's wonderful. God bless. 473 00:37:24,465 --> 00:37:27,801 I guess you'll have to discover your real self, right? 474 00:37:27,969 --> 00:37:29,511 Yeah. 475 00:37:30,722 --> 00:37:33,640 I wanted to ask you, how old are kids when they start to write? 476 00:37:33,808 --> 00:37:36,685 There's an absolutely brilliant novel written by a 4-year-old. 477 00:37:36,853 --> 00:37:40,522 - Really? - Little Winky by Horace Azpiazu. 478 00:37:40,690 --> 00:37:42,316 - That's cute. - Oh, hardly. 479 00:37:42,483 --> 00:37:44,901 Little Winky is a virulent anti-Semite. 480 00:37:45,069 --> 00:37:48,280 The story follows his initiation into the Klan... 481 00:37:48,448 --> 00:37:51,366 ...his immersion in the pornographic snuff industry... 482 00:37:51,534 --> 00:37:54,786 ...and his ultimate degradation at the hands of a black ex-convict... 483 00:37:54,954 --> 00:37:58,665 ...named Eric Washington Jackson Jones Johnson... 484 00:37:58,833 --> 00:38:00,792 - Written by a 4-year-old? ... Jefferson. 485 00:38:02,837 --> 00:38:04,087 Written by a 4-year-old? 486 00:38:04,255 --> 00:38:06,506 Well, Azpiazu killed himself when he was 5. 487 00:38:06,674 --> 00:38:09,635 - Why did he kill himself? - I don't know. Why did you? 488 00:38:09,802 --> 00:38:11,303 What? 489 00:38:11,721 --> 00:38:13,305 I said, why would you? 490 00:38:14,724 --> 00:38:16,683 Oh, I don't know. 491 00:38:19,646 --> 00:38:23,231 Yeah, I wanna bring my production to New York... 492 00:38:23,399 --> 00:38:28,403 ...to get it seen by people, you know, who matter. 493 00:38:28,738 --> 00:38:31,365 - The sooner the better. - This theater, centrally located. 494 00:38:31,532 --> 00:38:34,409 Heart of the theater district, so, you know, great for plays. 495 00:38:34,577 --> 00:38:38,955 - Yeah? - Oh, yeah. Absolutely. There it is. 496 00:38:40,249 --> 00:38:43,085 - What was this used for? - Plays. 497 00:38:45,004 --> 00:38:48,674 - Like, theater plays? - Shakespeare. 498 00:38:50,426 --> 00:38:52,302 King Lear. 499 00:38:52,637 --> 00:38:54,554 The storm. 500 00:38:55,515 --> 00:38:59,476 You see, the idea is to do a massive theater piece. 501 00:38:59,686 --> 00:39:02,938 You know, uncompromising, honest. 502 00:39:05,024 --> 00:39:09,194 Here's what I think theater is. It's the beginning of thought. 503 00:39:10,154 --> 00:39:12,572 It's the truth not yet spoken. 504 00:39:12,740 --> 00:39:16,410 It's what a man feels like after he's been clocked in the jaw. 505 00:39:17,161 --> 00:39:22,082 It's love in all its messiness. 506 00:39:22,792 --> 00:39:26,378 You know, and I want all of us, players and patrons alike... 507 00:39:26,546 --> 00:39:30,465 ...to soak in the communal bath of it... 508 00:39:30,633 --> 00:39:34,469 ...the mikvah, as the Jews call it. 509 00:39:34,637 --> 00:39:40,142 Because we're all in the same water, after all. 510 00:39:40,518 --> 00:39:46,648 You know, soaking in our very menstrual blood... 511 00:39:46,816 --> 00:39:48,650 ...and nocturnal emissions. 512 00:39:49,485 --> 00:39:51,945 This is what I wanna try to give people. 513 00:39:52,405 --> 00:39:55,407 Okay, here you go. Here's your salad. 514 00:39:57,785 --> 00:40:00,120 - Here's your soup. - Thanks. 515 00:40:02,123 --> 00:40:04,541 - Thank you. - Enjoy. 516 00:40:10,673 --> 00:40:14,426 - What are you doing? - Salivating. 517 00:40:15,178 --> 00:40:17,679 The biofeedback training. 518 00:40:20,975 --> 00:40:23,518 - So I was wondering if you'd help. - In your box office? 519 00:40:23,686 --> 00:40:27,606 No, as my assistant. 520 00:40:27,815 --> 00:40:30,484 I'm not sure I can work with you, Caden. 521 00:40:31,903 --> 00:40:33,195 I'm kind of angry. 522 00:40:34,113 --> 00:40:36,281 I just wanna normalize it. 523 00:40:39,035 --> 00:40:41,578 I think we'd have a lot of fun together. 524 00:40:55,176 --> 00:40:57,260 I miss you. 525 00:40:58,554 --> 00:41:00,806 - Really disturbing. - I know. 526 00:41:03,726 --> 00:41:07,062 Dear diary, thank you for being my new best friend. 527 00:41:07,230 --> 00:41:10,982 My name is Olive Cotard, and I'm 4 years old. 528 00:41:11,150 --> 00:41:13,527 I like chocolate, and my favorite color is pink. 529 00:41:17,031 --> 00:41:19,074 This is pink. 530 00:41:21,494 --> 00:41:23,829 Yeah, that's good. 531 00:41:23,996 --> 00:41:25,914 - Next. - Hi. 532 00:41:33,506 --> 00:41:35,549 We'll start by talking honestly... 533 00:41:35,716 --> 00:41:39,594 ...and out of that, a piece of theater will evolve. 534 00:41:40,429 --> 00:41:42,097 I'll begin. 535 00:41:44,517 --> 00:41:46,852 I've been thinking a lot about dying lately. 536 00:41:47,270 --> 00:41:51,064 - You're gonna be fine, sweetie. - Well, I appreciate that, Claire, but... 537 00:41:51,232 --> 00:41:52,315 You are, you poor thing. 538 00:41:52,483 --> 00:41:56,987 Yeah, well, regardless of how this particular thing works itself out... 539 00:41:57,613 --> 00:42:00,240 ...I will be dying. 540 00:42:01,617 --> 00:42:03,743 And so will you. 541 00:42:05,121 --> 00:42:07,414 And so will everyone here. 542 00:42:11,294 --> 00:42:13,920 And that's what I wanna explore. 543 00:42:14,088 --> 00:42:16,548 We're all hurtling towards death. 544 00:42:20,511 --> 00:42:23,805 Yet here we are, for the moment, alive... 545 00:42:24,515 --> 00:42:26,725 ...each of us knowing we're gonna die... 546 00:42:28,728 --> 00:42:31,438 ...each of us secretly believing we won't. 547 00:42:32,815 --> 00:42:34,816 It's brilliant. 548 00:42:36,277 --> 00:42:38,987 It's everything. 549 00:42:40,406 --> 00:42:42,824 It's Karamazov. 550 00:42:47,538 --> 00:42:49,831 - Stop. - I'm just asking. 551 00:42:49,999 --> 00:42:52,667 - You're so obnoxious. - You're so obnoxious. 552 00:42:53,336 --> 00:42:55,879 - You do not wanna cross me. - Don't I? 553 00:43:01,344 --> 00:43:03,178 Hi, Claire. 554 00:43:04,013 --> 00:43:06,932 - Hi. - Hazel. 555 00:43:07,099 --> 00:43:09,935 Yeah. No, no. I know, I know. Hazel. You're the box office. 556 00:43:10,102 --> 00:43:12,604 - Yeah, I'm the box office. - How are you? 557 00:43:12,813 --> 00:43:15,023 Wonderful. You? 558 00:43:15,191 --> 00:43:17,108 Yeah, yeah. I'm good. I'm fine. Thank you. 559 00:43:17,610 --> 00:43:21,196 Actually, I'm meeting Caden here. You know Mr. Cotard, right? 560 00:43:21,364 --> 00:43:24,115 Yes, I recall Mr. Cotard. 561 00:43:26,035 --> 00:43:27,243 Yeah. I'm waiting... 562 00:43:33,042 --> 00:43:35,502 - Hey. - Hi, Caden. 563 00:43:35,670 --> 00:43:38,588 - Hi, Caden. - Hi, Hazel. Hi, Claire. 564 00:43:38,756 --> 00:43:40,590 Hi. 565 00:43:40,800 --> 00:43:42,634 - This is Derek. - Hi, Derek. 566 00:43:42,802 --> 00:43:45,553 - Hi, Derek. - Hi, Derek. 567 00:43:45,721 --> 00:43:46,763 Hi. 568 00:43:50,726 --> 00:43:54,104 Well, we'll leave you be. It's nice to see you again. 569 00:43:54,271 --> 00:43:58,066 - Take care. - Why am I bowing? Okay, bye. 570 00:44:01,195 --> 00:44:04,739 - That was awkward. - Yeah, I guess. 571 00:44:07,201 --> 00:44:08,243 Do you like beaver...? 572 00:44:08,411 --> 00:44:11,413 So could you tell me maybe what it is that you want from me? 573 00:44:13,416 --> 00:44:15,750 You know, like, from my character. 574 00:44:18,045 --> 00:44:20,714 Well, we'll build it over time together. 575 00:44:20,881 --> 00:44:23,925 You know, try to find a real person, maybe, to model it after. 576 00:44:24,093 --> 00:44:26,428 That Hazel girl's kind of interesting maybe. 577 00:44:26,595 --> 00:44:28,304 - You know, like, why...? - Although... 578 00:44:28,472 --> 00:44:30,890 Why is she still working at a box office at her age? 579 00:44:31,058 --> 00:44:33,101 I don't know. Probably not that interesting. 580 00:44:33,269 --> 00:44:36,271 Maybe she wanted to be an actress, but she lacked the confidence. 581 00:44:36,439 --> 00:44:38,690 - Yeah, we'll talk about it. - I'm so excited. 582 00:44:38,858 --> 00:44:40,483 Really? Why? 583 00:44:42,111 --> 00:44:45,780 Because I think that it's brave. 584 00:44:45,948 --> 00:44:50,535 And I just feel like I'm gonna be part of a revolution. 585 00:44:50,703 --> 00:44:53,830 I keep thinking about Artaud, Krapp's Last Tape... 586 00:44:53,998 --> 00:44:57,125 ...you know, and Grotowski, for chrissake. 587 00:44:57,293 --> 00:44:59,419 I don't know what I'm doing. 588 00:45:00,337 --> 00:45:01,963 But that's what so refreshing. 589 00:45:02,131 --> 00:45:04,382 Knowing that you don't know... 590 00:45:04,550 --> 00:45:08,970 ...is the first and the most essential step to knowing, you know? 591 00:45:09,930 --> 00:45:11,848 I don't know. 592 00:45:16,479 --> 00:45:19,105 - Well, I'm proud of you. - Thanks. 593 00:45:19,273 --> 00:45:21,232 - Don't say that, not to me. - Oh, sorry. 594 00:45:23,819 --> 00:45:26,237 My mother died last night. 595 00:45:27,323 --> 00:45:32,911 Oh, my God. I'm so sorry. What are you doing out? 596 00:45:36,499 --> 00:45:39,667 - This is me. - Well... 597 00:45:40,169 --> 00:45:43,755 Well, it was nice meeting you. Oh, God, did I just say "meeting"? 598 00:45:43,923 --> 00:45:48,927 - I'm sorry. I'm so stupid. - Slip of the tongue, is all. 599 00:45:49,136 --> 00:45:51,846 Yeah, it's a Freudian slip, right? 600 00:45:53,015 --> 00:45:54,974 I don't know how it's Freudian. 601 00:45:55,142 --> 00:46:00,021 To meet, you know? Like, to meet. 602 00:46:03,859 --> 00:46:08,071 There she met Ralph Keene. They fell in love, married... 603 00:46:08,239 --> 00:46:10,698 ...and soon their first child, Claire, was born. 604 00:46:11,242 --> 00:46:12,992 I used to be a baby. 605 00:46:13,160 --> 00:46:15,995 Claire Elizabeth Keene was a joyous child... 606 00:46:16,163 --> 00:46:18,873 - I'm sorry. ... the apple of her mother's eye. 607 00:46:19,041 --> 00:46:23,586 She made her parents proud with her politeness and gymnastic skills. 608 00:46:23,754 --> 00:46:25,922 God, you're beautiful. 609 00:46:26,090 --> 00:46:30,093 When she was 7, little Claire was bitten by the acting bug. 610 00:46:30,261 --> 00:46:33,012 She starred in almost every school musical... 611 00:46:33,180 --> 00:46:35,390 ...playing Ado Annie in Oklahoma... 612 00:46:35,558 --> 00:46:40,395 ...Adelaide in Guys And Dolls, and Maria in The Sound Of Music. 613 00:46:40,563 --> 00:46:44,149 I have to fuck you. I have to. 614 00:46:48,487 --> 00:46:51,364 There will be no other before you. 615 00:46:56,579 --> 00:46:58,913 I'd like to buy a ticket, please. 616 00:46:59,081 --> 00:47:02,584 - Okay. Hold it. - That'll be $40. 617 00:47:04,670 --> 00:47:08,673 We're not really... We need to investigate. 618 00:47:09,133 --> 00:47:12,594 You know, to really discover the essence of each being. 619 00:47:14,430 --> 00:47:17,515 You know, I think I need to work with both of you separately. 620 00:47:17,683 --> 00:47:19,851 Davis, I'll start with you. 621 00:47:21,437 --> 00:47:25,773 I liked the beginning. I don't wanna see a good scene... 622 00:47:25,941 --> 00:47:27,609 "Davis, I'll start with you"? 623 00:47:27,776 --> 00:47:31,112 There's a difference between favoring me and pretending we've never met. 624 00:47:31,280 --> 00:47:34,157 I mean, we've had Ariel. I think people know that we've fucked. 625 00:47:35,284 --> 00:47:38,953 We'll talk about your character after we put Ariel to bed, okay? 626 00:47:39,663 --> 00:47:40,788 Okay. 627 00:47:48,505 --> 00:47:51,049 I think I made a breakthrough. 628 00:47:51,217 --> 00:47:54,886 - This character is so beautiful... - Yeah, I have to go find my daughter. 629 00:47:55,262 --> 00:47:57,388 - Your daughter's right here. - My real daughter. 630 00:47:57,556 --> 00:48:00,308 - Excuse me? - I mean, my first daughter, Olive. 631 00:48:00,476 --> 00:48:03,478 - I have to go find her. - Please don't do this to us. 632 00:48:03,646 --> 00:48:05,980 She's tattooed. She's tattooed. 633 00:48:06,148 --> 00:48:08,816 Oh, everyone is tattooed. 634 00:48:09,068 --> 00:48:11,819 Oh, I've never seen that before. 635 00:48:12,196 --> 00:48:16,032 - You have responsibilities. - Yeah, I'll be quick. I'll do it quick. 636 00:48:16,200 --> 00:48:20,203 Redundancy is fluid. Life moves to the south. 637 00:48:20,371 --> 00:48:23,998 There is only the now, and I am always with you. 638 00:48:24,166 --> 00:48:26,501 For example, look to your left. 639 00:48:27,962 --> 00:48:29,671 Hi. 640 00:48:30,422 --> 00:48:35,134 When you canceled, it freed me up, so I'm traveling too. 641 00:48:39,181 --> 00:48:42,183 You know, I'm not sure I'm getting the book. 642 00:48:51,860 --> 00:48:57,865 Oh, but it's getting you. You're almost non-recognizable now. 643 00:49:03,080 --> 00:49:04,872 Thank you. 644 00:49:10,045 --> 00:49:15,425 I show you my leg. I stand close, and you inhale my perfume. 645 00:49:15,592 --> 00:49:19,262 I offer my ripe flower to you and you deny it. 646 00:49:19,430 --> 00:49:21,806 This book is over. 647 00:49:36,196 --> 00:49:37,572 Hi. 648 00:49:38,073 --> 00:49:39,407 I don't speak German. 649 00:49:39,575 --> 00:49:41,826 Yeah, yeah. I may help you, mister? 650 00:49:42,411 --> 00:49:45,413 I'm looking for Adele Cotard. Adele Lack. 651 00:49:45,581 --> 00:49:48,583 We must not give addresses or other personal informations. 652 00:49:49,126 --> 00:49:52,420 - I'm her husband. - No, you are not her husbands... 653 00:49:52,588 --> 00:49:54,881 ...which is named Gunther und Heinz. 654 00:49:55,049 --> 00:49:57,550 I'm the father of her daughter, Olive. 655 00:49:57,968 --> 00:50:01,929 I see. I'm sorry, I cannot help you. 656 00:50:02,097 --> 00:50:07,018 Dear diary, Germany is wonderful. So many friends here. 657 00:50:07,186 --> 00:50:09,437 My new dads are great and handsome... 658 00:50:09,605 --> 00:50:11,856 ...and brilliant directors of theater. 659 00:50:12,024 --> 00:50:13,691 Hello. 660 00:50:18,322 --> 00:50:19,364 You're here? 661 00:50:19,531 --> 00:50:23,826 Yeah. I live with Adele and Olive and Gunther and Heinz... 662 00:50:23,994 --> 00:50:28,206 ...and Uschi and Britt. I'm everyone's nanny. 663 00:50:28,374 --> 00:50:30,541 I wanna see my daughter. 664 00:50:31,210 --> 00:50:34,253 - Yeah, they sent me. - They? 665 00:50:35,881 --> 00:50:38,508 Who are they? Who the fuck are Uschi and Britt? 666 00:50:38,675 --> 00:50:41,302 Yeah, they decided it's not time to see you yet. 667 00:50:41,470 --> 00:50:44,055 They decided? Who decided? They had her tattooed. 668 00:50:44,473 --> 00:50:46,599 Oh, I did that. Olive is my project... 669 00:50:46,767 --> 00:50:49,060 She's a 4-year-old! 670 00:50:49,478 --> 00:50:52,980 She's a fucking 4-year-old! 671 00:50:56,485 --> 00:50:59,070 She's almost over 11 now. 672 00:51:02,199 --> 00:51:03,741 She's my muse. 673 00:51:04,743 --> 00:51:06,285 I love her. 674 00:51:10,082 --> 00:51:12,250 You don't love her! 675 00:51:14,211 --> 00:51:16,003 Where is she? 676 00:51:17,172 --> 00:51:20,174 What did you do to my daughter? 677 00:52:18,066 --> 00:52:22,361 Death comes faster than you think. 678 00:52:24,406 --> 00:52:28,075 - That was your last patient for the day. - Let's stop this charade. 679 00:52:28,243 --> 00:52:30,369 I don't know what you're talking about, doctor. 680 00:52:30,537 --> 00:52:32,914 You're actually having an affair off set. 681 00:52:33,081 --> 00:52:34,790 - Palpable, huh? - Oh, okay. 682 00:52:34,958 --> 00:52:37,418 - Who told you? - And it's not good. 683 00:52:37,586 --> 00:52:40,087 - Not good, oh, okay. - You're actors playing actors. 684 00:52:40,255 --> 00:52:43,758 You're in this scene, you're not just filming it. You're in this scene. 685 00:52:43,926 --> 00:52:45,051 Just like that... 686 00:52:45,219 --> 00:52:48,137 As you're telling him this, you realize you're attracted to him. 687 00:52:48,305 --> 00:52:49,764 How are you gonna let him know? 688 00:52:49,932 --> 00:52:53,184 And the guilt you feel about telling him about somebody else knowing. 689 00:52:53,352 --> 00:52:55,269 Daddy, Daddy is mine. 690 00:52:55,437 --> 00:52:57,772 Daddy can't play now, honey. 691 00:52:57,940 --> 00:53:01,442 Daddy doesn't live with us anymore, baby. He had to go find himself. 692 00:53:02,110 --> 00:53:04,111 They still feel a little tight in the toe. 693 00:53:04,279 --> 00:53:08,449 Have an argument. You're having an argument. Have it. 694 00:53:08,700 --> 00:53:11,536 - I don't buy it. - You, sir, are a horse's ass. 695 00:53:11,703 --> 00:53:15,248 What? Just get the fucking shoe. You gave me two sizes too big. 696 00:53:15,415 --> 00:53:19,252 Tom, don't turn into another person just because I say change your action. 697 00:53:19,419 --> 00:53:24,924 And this started just today? It never happened before? 698 00:53:25,384 --> 00:53:27,552 Okay. Good. 699 00:53:27,719 --> 00:53:29,679 You can get dressed. 700 00:53:32,933 --> 00:53:36,143 I mean, you're a doctor, right? Am I dying? Can you tell me that? 701 00:53:36,311 --> 00:53:38,938 - No. - No, you can't tell me? 702 00:53:39,106 --> 00:53:42,400 - I can't tell you. - You can't tell me if you can't tell me? 703 00:53:42,568 --> 00:53:44,360 - No. - No, you can't tell me... 704 00:53:44,528 --> 00:53:48,281 ...because you're not allowed to? - No. 705 00:54:12,973 --> 00:54:16,100 - Caden. - What are you doing here? 706 00:54:17,853 --> 00:54:20,563 I was wondering if I was gonna bump into you. 707 00:54:20,731 --> 00:54:22,773 - You look great. - Thanks. 708 00:54:22,941 --> 00:54:26,444 - Is that a new haircut? - Yeah. For a while now. 709 00:54:27,321 --> 00:54:29,363 What are you doing in New York? 710 00:54:29,531 --> 00:54:32,908 I'm here with Derek and the boys. A mini vacation. 711 00:54:33,076 --> 00:54:36,454 - The boys? - Yeah. I thought you knew. 712 00:54:37,372 --> 00:54:40,207 - How old? - Five. 713 00:54:40,375 --> 00:54:43,711 Twins. Robert and Daniel and Alan. 714 00:54:45,797 --> 00:54:47,465 Yes. 715 00:54:48,342 --> 00:54:51,427 They're nice names. Where are they? 716 00:54:51,595 --> 00:54:56,057 Derek took them to the Natural History so I could shop. 717 00:54:58,685 --> 00:55:02,480 It's so good to see you, Caden. L... How are things? 718 00:55:02,648 --> 00:55:06,067 You know, I was with Claire. 719 00:55:06,401 --> 00:55:10,196 And we have a daughter. But we're separated. 720 00:55:11,239 --> 00:55:13,240 How about with you? 721 00:55:14,409 --> 00:55:17,912 Good. I have a great job at Lens Shapers. 722 00:55:18,080 --> 00:55:21,999 Shapers. Great. You wear a lab coat. 723 00:55:24,628 --> 00:55:28,089 - It's so good to see you. - Oh, good to see you, Hazel. 724 00:55:58,954 --> 00:56:01,205 Hey! What are you doing? 725 00:56:03,250 --> 00:56:04,750 - I got you. - Let me go. 726 00:56:04,918 --> 00:56:06,043 How I love Maria. 727 00:56:06,211 --> 00:56:09,672 She is so much more of a father than Caden ever was... 728 00:56:09,840 --> 00:56:14,176 ...with his drinking and unfortunate body odor and rotting teeth. 729 00:56:14,344 --> 00:56:18,305 I could only loathe him, and perhaps pity him. 730 00:56:18,473 --> 00:56:20,433 But Maria. 731 00:56:23,812 --> 00:56:25,813 I wanna come back. 732 00:56:25,981 --> 00:56:30,651 I wanna take care of you and Olive. Ariel. Ariel. Fuck. 733 00:56:33,613 --> 00:56:35,322 Ariel. 734 00:56:45,250 --> 00:56:47,668 No, no, no, it's so late. Please. 735 00:56:47,836 --> 00:56:49,044 No, no, no. Please. 736 00:56:51,840 --> 00:56:53,340 Hello? 737 00:56:57,137 --> 00:56:58,179 Okay. 738 00:57:08,774 --> 00:57:10,983 My father died. 739 00:57:14,696 --> 00:57:16,530 Oh, baby. 740 00:57:21,036 --> 00:57:25,456 They said his body was riddled with cancer and that he didn't know. 741 00:57:25,624 --> 00:57:27,875 That he went in because his finger hurt. 742 00:57:28,960 --> 00:57:31,879 They said he suffered horribly. 743 00:57:34,800 --> 00:57:36,550 And that he... 744 00:57:38,970 --> 00:57:42,181 That he called out for me before he died. 745 00:57:43,391 --> 00:57:48,103 They said that he said he regretted his life. 746 00:57:50,273 --> 00:57:53,192 And they said he said a lot of things. 747 00:57:54,361 --> 00:57:56,237 Too many to recount. 748 00:57:57,280 --> 00:57:59,740 They said it was the longest... 749 00:57:59,908 --> 00:58:04,119 ...and saddest deathbed speech any of them had ever heard. 750 00:58:04,746 --> 00:58:07,206 There was so little left of him... 751 00:58:07,916 --> 00:58:11,085 ...they had to fill the coffin with cotton balls... 752 00:58:11,253 --> 00:58:13,712 ...to keep him from rattling around. 753 00:58:20,011 --> 00:58:22,012 I'm really sorry for your loss. 754 00:58:22,180 --> 00:58:24,348 Thank you. Can you excuse me a moment? 755 00:58:24,516 --> 00:58:28,102 - Of course. - I need to use the bathroom. 756 00:58:28,270 --> 00:58:29,979 - All right. - Okay. 757 00:58:31,106 --> 00:58:33,732 God bless you and your family. 758 00:58:33,900 --> 00:58:36,193 God bless you. Will you excuse me? 759 00:58:38,697 --> 00:58:42,366 It's Hazel. Leave a message or not. It's your dime. 760 00:58:48,248 --> 00:58:50,040 It's left five people dead. 761 00:58:50,208 --> 00:58:51,834 Sorry. 762 00:58:53,628 --> 00:58:55,462 - Caden? - Hi, Derek. 763 00:58:55,714 --> 00:58:57,923 Officials suspect arson. 764 00:58:58,091 --> 00:59:00,676 In other news, German pharmaceutical giant... 765 00:59:00,844 --> 00:59:02,928 ...has won its libel suit against patients... 766 00:59:03,096 --> 00:59:06,390 ...claiming chromosomal damage from use of the arthritis medication... 767 00:59:06,558 --> 00:59:10,978 Will you just tell me what to do? 768 00:59:14,399 --> 00:59:17,026 In Pakistan today, the government... 769 00:59:26,202 --> 00:59:30,164 Caden, everyone has to figure out their own life, you know. 770 00:59:30,916 --> 00:59:33,167 I just want you to look at me the way you used to. 771 00:59:33,335 --> 00:59:36,754 Oh, honey, I can't anymore. 772 00:59:37,339 --> 00:59:39,298 You know I'm sorry. 773 00:59:40,467 --> 00:59:45,054 I screwed everything up, and I don't have any courage. 774 00:59:45,597 --> 00:59:48,807 - And I'm sorry. - Caden. 775 00:59:50,018 --> 00:59:54,021 - I'm okay. - I don't want you to be okay. 776 00:59:54,189 --> 00:59:59,109 I mean, I do, but it just... 777 00:59:59,527 --> 01:00:01,654 It rips my guts out. 778 01:00:01,821 --> 01:00:03,864 I'll help you through any way I can. 779 01:00:04,574 --> 01:00:06,825 And I'll help you through too. 780 01:00:08,870 --> 01:00:11,038 I'm fine. 781 01:00:12,082 --> 01:00:13,374 I have Derek. 782 01:00:20,882 --> 01:00:23,050 Okay, I'm going. 783 01:00:30,725 --> 01:00:31,976 Honey, I'm coming. 784 01:00:32,394 --> 01:00:36,230 Dear diary, today I felt a wetness between my legs. 785 01:00:36,398 --> 01:00:39,483 Maria explained to me now I am a woman. 786 01:00:39,651 --> 01:00:43,237 And being a woman is wonderful with Maria to guide me. 787 01:01:36,166 --> 01:01:37,875 Olive? 788 01:01:43,631 --> 01:01:45,424 Olive. 789 01:01:47,052 --> 01:01:55,309 Olive, it's Daddy. 790 01:01:56,811 --> 01:02:00,814 Olive, it's Daddy! Olive, it's Daddy! 791 01:02:00,982 --> 01:02:04,318 Don't fucking stare at me! Olive! 792 01:02:04,486 --> 01:02:09,156 Get off! It's my daughter! That's my daughter! 793 01:02:09,991 --> 01:02:14,244 Get off! Get off! 794 01:02:17,999 --> 01:02:21,752 I won't settle for anything less than the brutal truth. 795 01:02:22,712 --> 01:02:26,381 Brutal. Brutal. 796 01:02:27,634 --> 01:02:31,178 Each day I'll hand you a paper. It'll tell you what happened to you that day. 797 01:02:31,346 --> 01:02:32,846 You felt a lump in your breast. 798 01:02:33,014 --> 01:02:35,641 You looked at your wife and saw a stranger, et cetera. 799 01:02:35,809 --> 01:02:38,477 - Caden? - What? 800 01:02:38,853 --> 01:02:41,522 When are we gonna get an audience in here? 801 01:02:42,190 --> 01:02:44,274 It's been 17 years. 802 01:02:47,946 --> 01:02:50,864 All right, I'm not excusing myself from this either. 803 01:02:51,032 --> 01:02:53,200 I will have someone play me... 804 01:02:53,368 --> 01:02:56,036 ...to delve into the murky, cowardly depths... 805 01:02:56,204 --> 01:03:00,374 ...of my lonely, fucked-up being. 806 01:03:01,751 --> 01:03:04,753 And he'll get notes too, and those notes will correspond... 807 01:03:04,921 --> 01:03:10,300 ...to the notes I truly receive every day from my god. 808 01:03:16,224 --> 01:03:18,225 Get to work! 809 01:03:42,000 --> 01:03:44,042 They fired me. 810 01:03:46,129 --> 01:03:49,464 - I caused an outbreak of conjunctivitis. - Oh, God. 811 01:03:49,632 --> 01:03:52,092 I didn't wash my hands. I had pinkeye hands. 812 01:03:52,260 --> 01:03:54,887 - Oh, God. - I'm a stupid cow. 813 01:03:55,054 --> 01:03:58,932 Fucking private Christian school is killing us. You know, it's not cheap. 814 01:03:59,100 --> 01:04:02,019 It's Derek's thing. I don't believe in that shit, you know. 815 01:04:02,187 --> 01:04:04,855 You try to be a good person. I mean, that's all there is. 816 01:04:07,192 --> 01:04:09,276 Do you have anything for me, Caden? 817 01:04:12,780 --> 01:04:15,657 I mean, I already have an assistant. 818 01:04:16,951 --> 01:04:20,454 - I don't have a box office yet, but... - Please, caden. 819 01:04:20,622 --> 01:04:22,664 Please, Caden. I... 820 01:04:23,833 --> 01:04:25,959 Please, Caden. 821 01:04:29,881 --> 01:04:32,674 Sammy Barnathan? 822 01:04:42,560 --> 01:04:45,562 Sit. Sammy Barnathan. 823 01:04:55,865 --> 01:04:59,618 I don't have a r�sum� or a picture. 824 01:05:01,162 --> 01:05:05,165 - I've never worked as an actor. - Good. Tell me why you're here. 825 01:05:05,708 --> 01:05:07,417 Well, I've been... 826 01:05:08,628 --> 01:05:11,463 I've been following you for 20 years. 827 01:05:11,923 --> 01:05:15,008 So I knew about this audition because I follow you. 828 01:05:15,385 --> 01:05:18,178 And I've learned everything about you by following you. 829 01:05:18,596 --> 01:05:22,766 So hire me, and you'll see who you truly are. 830 01:05:25,687 --> 01:05:26,937 Peekaboo. 831 01:05:30,817 --> 01:05:32,359 Okay. 832 01:05:35,280 --> 01:05:39,074 Hazel, I don't think we need to talk to anyone else. This guy has me down. 833 01:05:40,201 --> 01:05:43,370 I'm gonna cast him right now. Then maybe you and I can get a drink. 834 01:05:43,538 --> 01:05:45,956 And we can try to figure out this thing between us... 835 01:05:46,124 --> 01:05:48,000 ...why I cried. 836 01:05:48,209 --> 01:05:54,548 Because I've never felt about anybody the way I feel about you. 837 01:05:55,800 --> 01:05:59,553 And I wanna fuck you until we merge into a chimera... 838 01:06:00,722 --> 01:06:04,891 ...a mythical beast with penis and vagina eternally fused... 839 01:06:05,560 --> 01:06:08,520 ...two pairs of eyes that look only at each other... 840 01:06:08,938 --> 01:06:12,941 ...and lips ever touching. 841 01:06:13,901 --> 01:06:18,363 And one voice that whispers to itself. 842 01:06:31,044 --> 01:06:32,669 Okay. 843 01:06:33,546 --> 01:06:36,840 Yeah. You've got the part. 844 01:06:56,611 --> 01:06:59,446 I've never seen your shit gray. 845 01:07:00,448 --> 01:07:02,366 It's new. 846 01:07:06,662 --> 01:07:08,121 That's a good boy. 847 01:07:14,754 --> 01:07:18,131 - When is it opening? - When it's ready. 848 01:07:18,299 --> 01:07:22,344 - We need to get in. It's bad out here. - Sorry. 849 01:07:26,474 --> 01:07:29,518 You know, I was thinking of calling it Simulacrum. 850 01:07:30,395 --> 01:07:33,438 I don't even know what it means. 851 01:07:33,731 --> 01:07:38,318 Can I have a nickel if I doesn't play with my pee-pee no more? 852 01:07:38,903 --> 01:07:40,612 Yeah. 853 01:07:42,949 --> 01:07:45,492 How about The Flawed Light of Love and Grief? 854 01:07:45,701 --> 01:07:47,160 I'm not sure. 855 01:07:49,163 --> 01:07:52,082 Claire, I want you to play yourself. 856 01:07:52,250 --> 01:07:55,001 Sammy's gonna move into your apartment set as me. 857 01:07:59,340 --> 01:08:01,591 It would be my honor to play your husband, Claire. 858 01:08:01,759 --> 01:08:03,677 You're an amazing actress. 859 01:08:03,845 --> 01:08:07,722 No, I saw you do Bernarda Alba last year at the Roundabout. 860 01:08:08,307 --> 01:08:09,850 Yeah? 861 01:08:10,435 --> 01:08:12,018 That was a fun play. 862 01:08:12,186 --> 01:08:17,149 Emotionally, it was tough, but fucking fulfilling. 863 01:08:17,358 --> 01:08:20,694 Plus, I loved working with so many strong female actresses. 864 01:08:25,158 --> 01:08:27,826 I'm gonna start thinking about myself. 865 01:08:31,038 --> 01:08:33,039 Start, huh? 866 01:08:34,542 --> 01:08:38,378 Who is Claire Keen? Claire Keen. Claire Keen. 867 01:08:38,546 --> 01:08:42,549 - Why did we leave Adele, Caden? - Claire Keen. Well... 868 01:08:44,427 --> 01:08:46,553 She left us. 869 01:08:48,347 --> 01:08:50,891 You know that better than anybody. 870 01:08:51,893 --> 01:08:53,685 Except me. 871 01:08:54,270 --> 01:08:58,064 An amazing artist though. The best living artist. 872 01:08:58,232 --> 01:09:01,902 I mean, there's no one who stares the truth in the face like she does. 873 01:09:02,570 --> 01:09:04,905 Sweet pussy too. 874 01:09:07,325 --> 01:09:09,326 How do you know that? 875 01:09:13,247 --> 01:09:14,998 I read it. 876 01:09:21,756 --> 01:09:23,423 Anyway... 877 01:09:25,593 --> 01:09:28,053 I mean, I don't know where she is. 878 01:09:29,180 --> 01:09:31,932 Well, maybe she's got a sublet in New York. 879 01:09:32,391 --> 01:09:37,604 Maybe she's got a retrospective at the Met. Maybe, baby. 880 01:09:44,946 --> 01:09:46,196 Why are you giving me this? 881 01:09:46,364 --> 01:09:50,992 I wanna follow you there and see how you lose even more of yourself. 882 01:09:53,329 --> 01:09:55,038 Research. 883 01:09:57,250 --> 01:09:59,209 You know, for the part. 884 01:10:00,127 --> 01:10:01,795 Partner. 885 01:10:50,511 --> 01:10:53,096 Hold it. Hold it, please. 886 01:10:53,264 --> 01:10:55,140 Hold it, please. 887 01:10:57,977 --> 01:11:00,854 I asked you to hold the door. 888 01:11:01,188 --> 01:11:04,024 I'm sorry. I pressed the button, but I think it was too late. 889 01:11:04,191 --> 01:11:06,026 You didn't press it. 890 01:11:08,988 --> 01:11:10,989 - Have a good night. - Yeah, thanks. 891 01:11:13,326 --> 01:11:15,535 - Are you Ellen? Ellen? - What? 892 01:11:15,703 --> 01:11:17,621 - Are you Ellen Bascomb? - What? 893 01:11:17,788 --> 01:11:20,206 I'm to give the key to 31Y to Ellen Bascomb. 894 01:11:22,293 --> 01:11:23,335 Yes, I'm Ellen. 895 01:11:23,502 --> 01:11:25,754 She said you should just go ahead and get started. 896 01:11:25,921 --> 01:11:29,215 - And don't forget to change the sheets. - Okay, thanks. 897 01:11:30,801 --> 01:11:32,510 Oh, sweetheart. 898 01:11:44,357 --> 01:11:56,618 Adele? 899 01:12:01,374 --> 01:12:06,419 Hi, Ellen. Be a doll and do the sheets and whatever's in the hamper. 900 01:12:06,921 --> 01:12:09,547 Your money's under the toaster. Kisses, Adele. 901 01:12:09,715 --> 01:12:13,593 P.S. Bag of stuff in bedroom closet for Goodwill. Take what you want. 902 01:12:37,618 --> 01:12:41,579 Went for a walk. I had to think. 903 01:12:50,589 --> 01:12:52,298 All night? 904 01:12:53,259 --> 01:12:58,138 You smell weird. Are you wearing lipstick? 905 01:12:58,431 --> 01:12:59,931 No. 906 01:13:01,559 --> 01:13:03,893 What do I smell like? 907 01:13:05,646 --> 01:13:07,981 Like bad? Like an old person? 908 01:13:08,149 --> 01:13:10,233 I don't know. Like mold and cleaning products. 909 01:13:10,401 --> 01:13:12,318 Like you're menstruating. I don't know. 910 01:13:12,486 --> 01:13:14,112 Menstruating? 911 01:13:14,280 --> 01:13:15,739 You tell me. 912 01:13:16,323 --> 01:13:19,659 I don't menstruate. I don't know how I could smell like I'm menstruating. 913 01:13:20,035 --> 01:13:21,453 I wouldn't know. 914 01:13:33,007 --> 01:13:34,883 I don't like the guy you got to play you. 915 01:13:35,050 --> 01:13:37,135 You don't like Sammy? Why? I think he's good. 916 01:13:39,013 --> 01:13:42,515 Fuck you. I'm 45 years old. I don't wanna do this shit anymore. 917 01:13:42,683 --> 01:13:44,684 He's the best thing in the play except you. 918 01:13:44,852 --> 01:13:47,687 He's coming on to me. He's grabbing my ass in rehearsal. 919 01:13:47,855 --> 01:13:49,481 - He's your husband. - Good, Jimmy. 920 01:13:49,648 --> 01:13:51,357 He's not my goddamn husband. You are. 921 01:13:51,525 --> 01:13:53,943 What the fuck is wrong with you? 922 01:13:55,696 --> 01:13:57,822 - I'm going to rehearsal. - It's about the play. 923 01:13:57,990 --> 01:14:01,117 - We're getting at something real here. - That's great, you guys. 924 01:14:01,285 --> 01:14:03,119 Beautiful, Sammy. 925 01:14:05,915 --> 01:14:09,584 - Caden? Time-out? - Yeah. 926 01:14:09,752 --> 01:14:11,336 What's up? 927 01:14:12,046 --> 01:14:15,298 Well, I feel we need a Hazel in here. 928 01:14:15,925 --> 01:14:19,177 I mean, there's a whole side of Caden I can't explore without a Hazel. 929 01:14:21,597 --> 01:14:23,807 - I guess, yeah. - I get to be a character? 930 01:14:23,974 --> 01:14:25,391 Yeah. 931 01:14:30,689 --> 01:14:34,859 Hi, Ellen. Crackerjack job last night. 932 01:14:35,736 --> 01:14:37,320 Would you do sheets again? 933 01:14:37,488 --> 01:14:41,699 We had quite a fuck, and it's musky and gross. Kisses, A. 934 01:14:42,701 --> 01:14:45,578 Hi, Adele. Relined the cabinets. 935 01:14:45,746 --> 01:14:48,915 I just wanted to let you know I won a MacArthur Grant. 936 01:14:49,083 --> 01:14:52,919 And I'm mounting a play which I think is gonna be pure and truthful. 937 01:14:53,087 --> 01:14:56,089 Best, Ellen. 938 01:15:02,012 --> 01:15:04,931 I went for a walk. I had to think. 939 01:15:06,684 --> 01:15:10,812 Caden, what are you doing at night? 940 01:15:11,564 --> 01:15:14,065 I have a right to fucking know. 941 01:15:14,775 --> 01:15:17,277 I've been going to Adele's place. 942 01:15:18,779 --> 01:15:21,030 And cleaning it. 943 01:15:24,118 --> 01:15:27,203 Do you have any idea what I've given up for you? For this? 944 01:15:27,371 --> 01:15:30,039 For you? For you? Could you please get that? 945 01:15:38,924 --> 01:15:42,135 - This looks serious. Am I interrupting? - What's going on, Hazel? 946 01:15:43,637 --> 01:15:46,222 I just wanted you to know that the actress playing me... 947 01:15:46,390 --> 01:15:47,974 ...is ready to start today. 948 01:15:48,142 --> 01:15:51,311 That's great. That's all we need around here, is two Hazels. 949 01:15:51,478 --> 01:15:53,980 Okay, I'll take that as my cue. 950 01:15:55,649 --> 01:15:57,984 - Maybe you could clean her toilet. - Maybe I will. 951 01:16:00,738 --> 01:16:01,988 This is over. 952 01:16:02,823 --> 01:16:05,408 - No, Claire... - I'm not talking to you. 953 01:16:05,576 --> 01:16:08,661 I didn't say I was gonna clean Hazel's toilet. He did. 954 01:16:08,829 --> 01:16:11,581 - But you thought it! - I thought it, but I didn't say it. 955 01:16:11,749 --> 01:16:15,668 I got an offer to do Needleman in a Haystack. 956 01:16:16,170 --> 01:16:19,422 And I'm gonna take it. I want you out of the apartment. 957 01:16:20,090 --> 01:16:22,342 The real one. You can keep this one. 958 01:16:22,509 --> 01:16:24,010 Claire. 959 01:16:24,178 --> 01:16:27,138 Jesus. Claire. 960 01:16:28,223 --> 01:16:30,892 Hi, yeah, we're gonna need a Claire replacement. 961 01:16:31,060 --> 01:16:34,479 Claire, I didn't say it. 962 01:16:39,944 --> 01:16:42,195 I already put out a call for a Claire replacement. 963 01:16:44,782 --> 01:16:46,950 But I'm afraid I'm gonna have to move on. 964 01:16:47,117 --> 01:16:50,161 Just like that? You don't give a guy even a chance? 965 01:16:50,329 --> 01:16:54,874 I'm not a chance-giving girl. I'm a fun-loving girl, remember? 966 01:16:55,042 --> 01:16:57,710 I try and be fun-loving, see? 967 01:16:58,629 --> 01:16:59,671 Sorry. 968 01:16:59,838 --> 01:17:01,631 My analyst says you have complexes. 969 01:17:01,799 --> 01:17:04,217 Once you enjoyed Needleman's complexes. 970 01:17:04,385 --> 01:17:07,512 - That's before my analyst taught me... - This is the last of my stuff. 971 01:17:07,680 --> 01:17:09,847 - Bye. - Bye. From the top? 972 01:17:10,015 --> 01:17:12,350 Oh, Needleman, you had such potential. 973 01:17:12,518 --> 01:17:15,061 But I'm afraid I'm gonna have to move on. 974 01:17:25,531 --> 01:17:27,907 I'm sorry. Okay. 975 01:17:40,254 --> 01:17:42,922 Oh, Needleman, you had such potential. 976 01:17:43,090 --> 01:17:45,842 But I'm afraid I'm going to have to move on. 977 01:17:46,010 --> 01:17:48,177 Just like that? You don't give a guy a chance? 978 01:17:48,345 --> 01:17:51,723 I'm not a chance-giving girl. I'm a fun-loving girl. 979 01:17:51,890 --> 01:17:54,267 Once you enjoyed Needleman's complexes. 980 01:17:54,435 --> 01:17:56,310 That's before my analyst taught me... 981 01:17:56,478 --> 01:17:57,729 This is a lie. 982 01:17:57,896 --> 01:18:01,065 Come here. I try to be fun-loving, see? 983 01:18:01,233 --> 01:18:03,735 - She told me your hatred of... - Will. 984 01:18:03,902 --> 01:18:06,904 Wall it up. All of it. 985 01:18:15,789 --> 01:18:17,373 Claire. 986 01:18:22,963 --> 01:18:24,630 Oh, Needleman. 987 01:18:25,299 --> 01:18:27,133 All right. 988 01:18:30,929 --> 01:18:32,889 Good for you with your grant. 989 01:18:33,057 --> 01:18:36,142 Listen, I fixed up the walk-in as a sort of bedroom if you want. 990 01:18:36,310 --> 01:18:37,435 We'd love to have you... 991 01:18:37,603 --> 01:18:40,396 ...and you wouldn't have to schlep all the way to Queens. 992 01:18:41,106 --> 01:18:44,692 It's just a thought. Kisses, A. 993 01:18:53,744 --> 01:18:56,788 Dear diary, I'm afraid I'm gravely ill. 994 01:18:58,332 --> 01:19:02,293 It is perhaps times like these that one reflects on things past. 995 01:19:02,711 --> 01:19:05,004 An article of clothing from when I was young. 996 01:19:05,172 --> 01:19:07,632 A green jacket. A walk with my father. 997 01:19:07,800 --> 01:19:10,676 A game we once played. Pretend we're fairies. 998 01:19:10,844 --> 01:19:13,429 I'm a girl fairy, and my name is Lauralee... 999 01:19:13,847 --> 01:19:16,933 ...and you're a boy fairy, and your name is Teetery. 1000 01:19:17,101 --> 01:19:19,310 Pretend when we're fairies, we fight each other. 1001 01:19:19,478 --> 01:19:23,940 And I say, "Stop hitting me or I'll die. " And you hit me again, and I say: 1002 01:19:24,108 --> 01:19:27,819 "Now I have to die. " And you say, "But I'll miss you. " 1003 01:19:27,986 --> 01:19:30,530 And I say, "But I have to. 1004 01:19:30,697 --> 01:19:34,033 And you'll have to wait a million years to see me again. 1005 01:19:34,201 --> 01:19:35,660 And I'll be put in a box... 1006 01:19:35,828 --> 01:19:38,704 ...and all I'll need is a tiny glass of water... 1007 01:19:38,872 --> 01:19:40,832 ...and lots of tiny pieces of pizza. 1008 01:19:40,999 --> 01:19:43,626 And the box will have wings like an airplane. " 1009 01:19:43,794 --> 01:19:46,629 And you ask, "Where will it take you?" 1010 01:19:46,797 --> 01:19:49,841 "Home," I say. 1011 01:20:05,440 --> 01:20:08,442 This is to hear. 1012 01:20:08,986 --> 01:20:13,865 - So words... English here, yeah? - Okay. 1013 01:20:20,164 --> 01:20:21,914 I'm dying... 1014 01:20:23,083 --> 01:20:24,667 ...as I'm sure Maria told you. 1015 01:20:28,589 --> 01:20:32,466 The flower tattoos have become infected and they're dying. 1016 01:20:33,385 --> 01:20:37,305 So I am as well. This is life. 1017 01:20:38,015 --> 01:20:40,766 It's Maria. She did this. 1018 01:20:42,019 --> 01:20:44,645 Maria gave me a reason to live once you left. 1019 01:20:45,731 --> 01:20:46,772 The flowers defined me. 1020 01:20:46,940 --> 01:20:49,192 Your mother and Maria took you away. 1021 01:20:49,359 --> 01:20:52,528 I've tried for years to find you. I didn't leave you. 1022 01:20:53,363 --> 01:20:56,324 I want to talk to you about your homosexuality. 1023 01:20:56,742 --> 01:20:59,952 - I'm not a homosexual. - Maria said you would deny it. 1024 01:21:00,120 --> 01:21:03,456 Well, she's a liar. She's lying to you. 1025 01:21:03,624 --> 01:21:08,169 I had the same struggle when I first fell in love with Maria... 1026 01:21:08,337 --> 01:21:10,796 ...and we began to have dirty, aching sex. 1027 01:21:10,964 --> 01:21:13,216 Maria is your lover? 1028 01:21:13,383 --> 01:21:16,844 Of course. She introduced me to myself... 1029 01:21:17,971 --> 01:21:19,305 ...to my vagina and to hers. 1030 01:21:19,473 --> 01:21:22,808 You have no idea how evil she is. 1031 01:21:22,976 --> 01:21:25,478 I need to forgive you before I die... 1032 01:21:25,646 --> 01:21:29,315 ...but I can't forgive someone who has not asked for forgiveness. 1033 01:21:29,983 --> 01:21:33,069 - I just want... - I have no time. 1034 01:21:33,362 --> 01:21:36,906 I need you to ask for forgiveness. 1035 01:21:38,659 --> 01:21:41,160 Can you ever forgive me? 1036 01:21:42,412 --> 01:21:44,497 - For what? - For abandoning you. 1037 01:21:44,665 --> 01:21:49,669 For abandoning you to have anal sex... 1038 01:21:49,836 --> 01:21:52,755 ...with my homosexual lover, Eric. 1039 01:21:55,467 --> 01:21:57,843 I will, I'll say it. 1040 01:21:59,805 --> 01:22:02,139 For abandoning you... 1041 01:22:03,684 --> 01:22:09,146 ...to have anal sex with my homosexual lover, Eric. 1042 01:22:11,400 --> 01:22:12,817 No. 1043 01:22:18,532 --> 01:22:20,658 No, I'm sorry. 1044 01:22:27,457 --> 01:22:29,125 I cannot. 1045 01:22:46,435 --> 01:22:49,979 I hope you are happy, faggot. 1046 01:22:50,147 --> 01:22:54,150 I'm not happy. I'm not happy. 1047 01:23:42,407 --> 01:23:45,951 I've talked to you before. This is not a play about dating. It's about death. 1048 01:23:46,119 --> 01:23:48,287 Make it personal. Move along. 1049 01:23:49,623 --> 01:23:51,957 He doesn't need to yell at them. 1050 01:23:55,295 --> 01:23:59,840 It is a play about dating. It's not a play just about death. 1051 01:24:00,008 --> 01:24:02,009 It's about everything. 1052 01:24:02,386 --> 01:24:06,639 Dating, birth, death, life, family... 1053 01:24:06,807 --> 01:24:08,391 ...all that. 1054 01:24:09,017 --> 01:24:10,768 - This doesn't look real. - What? 1055 01:24:10,936 --> 01:24:13,396 - It's not real. - I can't hear you. 1056 01:24:44,261 --> 01:24:49,181 - Morning, Haze. - Hi, Caden. How was your night? 1057 01:24:49,349 --> 01:24:51,267 It was okay. Yours? 1058 01:24:52,185 --> 01:24:54,520 Phillip was colicky. I was up all night. 1059 01:24:55,772 --> 01:24:57,440 - Oh, sorry. - Sorry. 1060 01:24:57,607 --> 01:25:00,192 - Everybody here? - Sammy's not here. 1061 01:25:00,360 --> 01:25:04,363 Jimmy called and said there's some subway problem. 1062 01:25:04,531 --> 01:25:07,032 Sorry. Sorry. 1063 01:25:07,242 --> 01:25:10,077 - Hi, Hazel. - Hi, Sammy. 1064 01:25:14,416 --> 01:25:16,542 Sammy likes you. 1065 01:25:27,471 --> 01:25:30,514 I need you to build this. This is just the fa�ade. 1066 01:25:30,682 --> 01:25:32,766 It's Adele's place. We'll be casting an Ellen. 1067 01:25:32,934 --> 01:25:35,728 I can give you the interiors later. 1068 01:25:38,148 --> 01:25:40,065 A few days? 1069 01:25:43,904 --> 01:25:47,740 - Can I look again? - A slight shift in perspective on this. 1070 01:25:50,452 --> 01:25:53,329 Millicent Weems? 1071 01:26:00,587 --> 01:26:05,174 - Caden, this is... - Hazel, what do you think of this title? 1072 01:26:06,134 --> 01:26:09,428 Unknown, Unkissed and Lost? 1073 01:26:14,476 --> 01:26:17,978 Anyway, this is Millicent Weems. 1074 01:26:18,146 --> 01:26:19,230 Have a seat. 1075 01:26:21,775 --> 01:26:23,901 How are you at cleaning? 1076 01:26:25,362 --> 01:26:27,947 - Very, very good at it. - This part requires a lot of it. 1077 01:26:28,114 --> 01:26:30,699 You'd be playing a cleaning lady. 1078 01:26:31,368 --> 01:26:35,621 I played Egga, the cleaning lady, in Hedda Gabler at the Roundabout. 1079 01:26:35,789 --> 01:26:38,040 Great. Okay. 1080 01:26:39,459 --> 01:26:42,878 And Mrs. Dobson in Scrub-A-Dub at the Pantages. 1081 01:26:44,673 --> 01:26:47,925 You're weirdly close to what I visualize for this character. 1082 01:26:51,346 --> 01:26:53,973 Glad to be weirdly close. 1083 01:27:00,063 --> 01:27:02,481 Sorry, everybody. 1084 01:27:03,817 --> 01:27:06,151 - Maurice, what's going on? - I'm sorry. 1085 01:27:06,319 --> 01:27:09,280 We have a couple of new guys on. We're not in sync yet. 1086 01:27:09,447 --> 01:27:11,907 - We good to go? - Yes, sir. 1087 01:27:14,911 --> 01:27:16,537 I'm sorry. 1088 01:27:17,706 --> 01:27:18,747 Fuck. 1089 01:27:19,791 --> 01:27:24,169 Are you Ellen? Are you Ellen Bascomb? 1090 01:27:24,337 --> 01:27:25,838 Shit. 1091 01:27:26,631 --> 01:27:27,673 Line, please? 1092 01:27:29,634 --> 01:27:31,844 Ellen... "What?" 1093 01:27:32,012 --> 01:27:34,138 Right, right. What? 1094 01:27:34,306 --> 01:27:38,767 I'm to give the key to 31Y to Ellen Bascomb. 1095 01:27:38,935 --> 01:27:40,811 Yes, I'm Ellen. 1096 01:27:44,357 --> 01:27:47,109 Oh, dear. It's the wrong key. 1097 01:27:47,277 --> 01:27:48,694 I'll be in, in a second. 1098 01:27:48,862 --> 01:27:50,529 - Did you hear that? - What? 1099 01:27:52,616 --> 01:27:55,618 - You're breaking the fourth wall. - This is the wrong key. 1100 01:27:55,785 --> 01:27:57,870 - I'm supposed to open the door. - Hold on. 1101 01:27:59,539 --> 01:28:02,291 - Are you in there? - There's no one in there. 1102 01:28:03,084 --> 01:28:04,543 - Adele? - Caden. 1103 01:28:04,711 --> 01:28:07,004 I don't think it's... It's not quite... 1104 01:28:07,172 --> 01:28:10,466 I'm jumping in the shower. I'll be out in a second. 1105 01:28:12,177 --> 01:28:15,054 Do you want some coffee? I can make a fresh pot. 1106 01:28:15,597 --> 01:28:20,184 Did you look at the new painting on my easel? What do you think? 1107 01:28:20,518 --> 01:28:22,853 Hey, thanks for the fuck this morning. 1108 01:28:23,229 --> 01:28:26,607 - People don't walk like that. - What? Is it too? 1109 01:28:26,775 --> 01:28:29,234 No, just walk like yourself. 1110 01:28:29,861 --> 01:28:31,945 Watch. Watch this. 1111 01:28:33,657 --> 01:28:35,574 I gotta go. 1112 01:28:36,326 --> 01:28:38,035 Watch this. 1113 01:28:56,096 --> 01:28:59,390 Where's Hazel and Sammy? 1114 01:29:06,439 --> 01:29:08,023 Sammy. 1115 01:29:08,441 --> 01:29:12,111 Sammy. Sammy. 1116 01:29:12,278 --> 01:29:14,196 - Hi, Caden. - What are you doing? 1117 01:29:16,074 --> 01:29:18,117 I was being you. 1118 01:29:19,119 --> 01:29:20,911 You know, you like Hazel, I like Hazel. 1119 01:29:21,079 --> 01:29:24,623 This Hazel doesn't exist for you. If you wanna like a Hazel, like that one. 1120 01:29:24,791 --> 01:29:26,250 That's what I tried to tell him. 1121 01:29:26,418 --> 01:29:29,044 No harm, no foul, Caden. It's equity break anyway. 1122 01:29:29,212 --> 01:29:31,422 Ten minutes, everybody! 1123 01:29:32,924 --> 01:29:34,216 - Hazel. - What? 1124 01:29:34,968 --> 01:29:38,595 - You don't like him, do you? - Yeah, he reminds me of you. 1125 01:29:40,306 --> 01:29:43,517 I'm me. You don't need someone to remind you of me. 1126 01:29:43,685 --> 01:29:46,895 Oh, don't worry, Caden. I like you more. 1127 01:29:47,063 --> 01:29:50,315 I do. It's just, Sammy's fun. 1128 01:29:50,734 --> 01:29:54,820 - I'm fun. - Oh, sweetie, no, you're not. 1129 01:29:54,988 --> 01:29:56,655 Hold on a sec. Yes? 1130 01:29:56,823 --> 01:29:58,615 - Is this Caden cotard? - Yes. 1131 01:29:58,783 --> 01:30:01,076 This is Officer Melnin of Schenectady P.D. 1132 01:30:01,244 --> 01:30:04,663 I'm sorry to inform you your mother's been the victim of a home invasion. 1133 01:30:04,831 --> 01:30:07,666 - What does that mean? - She is dead. 1134 01:30:15,717 --> 01:30:18,594 Was my father standing with us? 1135 01:30:19,471 --> 01:30:21,889 I don't know what he looks like. 1136 01:30:22,640 --> 01:30:24,391 He's dead. 1137 01:30:24,851 --> 01:30:29,313 - So he looks dead, I guess. - Probably wasn't him, then. 1138 01:30:30,064 --> 01:30:32,065 He was a big guy. 1139 01:30:35,695 --> 01:30:37,488 Anyway... 1140 01:30:41,826 --> 01:30:43,202 Thanks for coming with me. 1141 01:30:45,622 --> 01:30:47,372 That's okay. 1142 01:30:49,042 --> 01:30:50,375 I asked Hazel... 1143 01:30:50,543 --> 01:30:53,921 ...but she was busy tonight, and you're the next best thing. 1144 01:30:54,297 --> 01:30:59,510 I mean, it's not that you're the next best thing... 1145 01:30:59,677 --> 01:31:03,096 ...but because you play her, it feels comforting. 1146 01:31:04,474 --> 01:31:06,391 Does that make sense? 1147 01:31:09,312 --> 01:31:13,649 Although the thing is, off-stage you're nothing like her. 1148 01:31:13,858 --> 01:31:17,069 But you play her very well, though. 1149 01:31:26,746 --> 01:31:29,331 Did Hazel mention what she was doing tonight? 1150 01:31:29,499 --> 01:31:31,500 Because I called her house before we left... 1151 01:31:31,668 --> 01:31:35,254 ...and her husband told me she wasn't gonna be back till late. 1152 01:31:35,421 --> 01:31:40,217 And I just thought that was weird because she said Phillip was sick. 1153 01:31:40,927 --> 01:31:42,928 She's having dinner with Sammy. 1154 01:31:43,096 --> 01:31:45,514 - That's interesting. - He's supposed to like me. 1155 01:31:45,682 --> 01:31:47,975 I'll have another talk with him. 1156 01:31:52,689 --> 01:31:56,191 Will you excuse me? I need to go to the bathroom. 1157 01:31:59,696 --> 01:32:01,947 Don't forget your phone. 1158 01:32:04,117 --> 01:32:06,118 Thanks, Yammy. 1159 01:32:11,291 --> 01:32:15,085 It's Hazel. Leave a message or not. It's your dime. 1160 01:32:23,720 --> 01:32:26,597 You can stay in my parents' room. 1161 01:32:34,063 --> 01:32:36,565 I thought someone would have cleaned it up. 1162 01:32:37,483 --> 01:32:39,151 Who? 1163 01:32:39,986 --> 01:32:41,653 I don't know. Someone. 1164 01:32:45,992 --> 01:32:49,536 This is my room. You can sleep here. 1165 01:32:49,704 --> 01:32:51,830 Where are you going to sleep? 1166 01:32:53,041 --> 01:32:57,085 - The living-room couch. - Don't you want to sleep with me? 1167 01:32:59,297 --> 01:33:02,674 - It's just sex. - Okay. 1168 01:33:03,009 --> 01:33:05,010 If you think it's okay. 1169 01:33:08,640 --> 01:33:12,017 - How can you be like that? - I get undressed every day. 1170 01:33:12,352 --> 01:33:15,187 In front of someone is different. 1171 01:33:16,105 --> 01:33:17,940 I don't see why. 1172 01:33:18,107 --> 01:33:20,108 Maybe because you have a beautiful body. 1173 01:33:20,276 --> 01:33:24,029 - Maybe that makes it easier. - Yeah, I suppose it might. 1174 01:33:25,156 --> 01:33:27,240 Do you want to fuck? 1175 01:33:27,533 --> 01:33:30,535 I do. Do you? 1176 01:33:31,204 --> 01:33:33,956 - Take your clothes off. - I'm sorry. 1177 01:33:34,374 --> 01:33:37,960 I'm very, very lonely. 1178 01:33:39,921 --> 01:33:42,005 I don't... 1179 01:33:43,299 --> 01:33:46,176 ...know what's wrong. I just... 1180 01:33:48,346 --> 01:33:50,097 I'm sorry. 1181 01:33:52,934 --> 01:33:55,143 Do you understand? 1182 01:33:55,311 --> 01:33:59,064 I mean, can you understand loneliness? 1183 01:34:00,733 --> 01:34:03,568 Yeah. I mean... 1184 01:34:04,404 --> 01:34:08,615 I don't know, I feel okay, mostly. 1185 01:34:10,076 --> 01:34:12,285 Fucking might help. 1186 01:34:14,872 --> 01:34:16,498 I'm sorry. 1187 01:34:16,916 --> 01:34:21,253 It's okay, I don't mind. Take your clothes off. 1188 01:34:22,547 --> 01:34:25,966 - You're very pretty. - Thanks. 1189 01:34:26,134 --> 01:34:30,804 Sometimes I wish I could be pretty like that. 1190 01:34:31,431 --> 01:34:33,056 What, you wish you were a girl? 1191 01:34:33,224 --> 01:34:35,517 Sometimes I think I might have been better at it. 1192 01:34:35,685 --> 01:34:40,272 Interesting. It's kind of a drag in a lot of ways. 1193 01:34:41,607 --> 01:34:45,777 - Do you like guys? - No. I only love women. 1194 01:34:45,945 --> 01:34:49,114 Well, I'm getting cold. 1195 01:35:00,752 --> 01:35:02,961 You're pretty, Caden. 1196 01:35:05,298 --> 01:35:08,550 Thanks for saying that. 1197 01:35:10,470 --> 01:35:13,096 Come to bed, pretty Caden. 1198 01:35:17,810 --> 01:35:21,188 I shouldn't have drunk so much fucking beer last night. 1199 01:35:24,817 --> 01:35:28,028 - What are you gonna do about it? - Get lunch. What are you going to do? 1200 01:35:28,196 --> 01:35:29,821 - For chrissake. - Good, Roland. 1201 01:35:29,989 --> 01:35:31,364 Thanks, Caden. 1202 01:35:31,532 --> 01:35:33,742 We need to fire him. 1203 01:35:35,828 --> 01:35:37,579 We don't need to fire him. 1204 01:35:38,998 --> 01:35:40,707 Jeremy's playing to us. 1205 01:35:40,875 --> 01:35:43,418 Tell him to talk to Donna and we'll hear what we hear. 1206 01:35:43,586 --> 01:35:46,671 Sammy's explaining too much. It feels expository. 1207 01:35:46,839 --> 01:35:49,925 It needs to be shorthand, like, "Jeremy, big. " 1208 01:35:51,094 --> 01:35:53,553 Caden, can we stop a second? 1209 01:35:54,013 --> 01:35:55,597 Sure. 1210 01:35:55,848 --> 01:35:59,142 If Hazel's in love with Sammy, and Caden's in love with Hazel... 1211 01:35:59,310 --> 01:36:02,604 ...there would be a big confrontation where Caden turns to me and says: 1212 01:36:02,772 --> 01:36:05,190 "It's obvious he's a substitute for me. " 1213 01:36:05,358 --> 01:36:08,318 Then I think Hazel would have a good moment where she cries... 1214 01:36:08,486 --> 01:36:13,198 ...or gets angry, I'm not sure which yet, but I think it's dramatically sound... 1215 01:36:13,366 --> 01:36:15,951 - That didn't happen. - I think Hazel would do that. 1216 01:36:16,119 --> 01:36:20,205 - But Hazel hasn't done that, Tammy. - Caden, what do you think? 1217 01:36:26,379 --> 01:36:29,506 I feel like we could try it. 1218 01:36:30,424 --> 01:36:32,467 - Great. - Fuck. 1219 01:36:37,765 --> 01:36:43,353 Let's try it. Maybe it could happen at the director's table. 1220 01:36:47,525 --> 01:36:49,401 Fuck. 1221 01:36:51,737 --> 01:36:52,821 You know, Tammy's right. 1222 01:36:52,989 --> 01:36:55,490 I don't understand why you're with Sammy. 1223 01:36:56,200 --> 01:37:00,203 He's nice, he's available, he fucks me without crying. 1224 01:37:00,371 --> 01:37:02,372 Since when are you available? 1225 01:37:03,457 --> 01:37:07,169 Derek left because of you. 1226 01:37:09,505 --> 01:37:12,465 When? How come you never told me? 1227 01:37:12,633 --> 01:37:15,969 I don't know, Caden. How come a lot of things, huh? 1228 01:37:16,429 --> 01:37:20,432 Fuck. I gotta let go of the actor who played Derek. What's his name? 1229 01:37:20,600 --> 01:37:24,436 What? That is such a romantic response. 1230 01:37:24,604 --> 01:37:26,313 - I am touched. - It's not my response. 1231 01:37:26,480 --> 01:37:27,606 Derek is played by... 1232 01:37:27,773 --> 01:37:31,109 We have enormous budgetary concerns here. 1233 01:37:33,779 --> 01:37:36,740 ...Joe. - Stop. Okay? No, just stop. 1234 01:37:36,908 --> 01:37:41,161 I do not like Tammy, and she's nothing like me. 1235 01:37:41,412 --> 01:37:43,747 - How can you like her, anyway? - She looks like you. 1236 01:37:43,915 --> 01:37:47,042 - Joe Abernathy. No, she does not. - She offered to have sex with me. 1237 01:37:47,210 --> 01:37:49,502 - Abernathy? - Yeah. 1238 01:37:50,296 --> 01:37:52,297 - Was it good? - It was nice. 1239 01:37:52,465 --> 01:37:56,301 I'm just being honest. It was nice. It wasn't earth-shattering. 1240 01:37:58,804 --> 01:38:00,305 - Did you cry? - No. 1241 01:38:00,973 --> 01:38:03,183 You're making progress. 1242 01:38:04,518 --> 01:38:07,562 Okay, I cried a little before. 1243 01:38:15,154 --> 01:38:18,740 Hazel, you've been a part of me forever. Don't you know that? 1244 01:38:22,662 --> 01:38:25,830 I breathe your name in every exhalation. 1245 01:38:29,794 --> 01:38:32,921 - What are we doing? - I don't know. 1246 01:38:52,942 --> 01:38:57,445 Oh, this is the place I stayed with Derek and the kids. 1247 01:38:57,613 --> 01:39:00,115 - Yeah, we're almost... - Caden. 1248 01:39:01,826 --> 01:39:03,493 Caden. 1249 01:39:03,911 --> 01:39:07,122 - Caden. Caden, look at me. - What are you doing? 1250 01:39:07,290 --> 01:39:09,416 Sammy, stay right where you are. I'm coming up. 1251 01:39:09,583 --> 01:39:12,377 There's nothing to talk about, Hazel. It's not your fault. 1252 01:39:12,545 --> 01:39:15,380 - What are you doing? - I've watched you forever, Caden. 1253 01:39:15,548 --> 01:39:18,842 But you've never really looked at anyone other than yourself. 1254 01:39:19,260 --> 01:39:20,385 So watch me. 1255 01:39:21,637 --> 01:39:25,056 Watch my heart break. Watch me jump. 1256 01:39:26,559 --> 01:39:28,768 Watch me learn that after death there's nothing. 1257 01:39:28,936 --> 01:39:31,521 No more watching, no more following, no love. 1258 01:39:31,689 --> 01:39:36,693 Say goodbye to Hazel for me. And say it for yourself too. 1259 01:39:37,069 --> 01:39:40,030 - None of us has much time. - Sammy! Come down! 1260 01:39:40,197 --> 01:39:44,242 Hazel, I love you! 1261 01:39:44,410 --> 01:39:46,161 Sammy! 1262 01:39:46,412 --> 01:39:49,080 I didn't jump, Sammy. 1263 01:39:49,707 --> 01:39:52,375 A man stopped me before I jumped. Get up! 1264 01:39:54,879 --> 01:39:56,588 I didn't jump. 1265 01:40:03,012 --> 01:40:05,513 I know how to do it now. 1266 01:40:05,848 --> 01:40:09,059 There are nearly 13 million people in the world. 1267 01:40:09,226 --> 01:40:11,102 I mean, can you imagine that many people? 1268 01:40:11,270 --> 01:40:14,439 And none of those people is an extra. 1269 01:40:15,274 --> 01:40:21,363 They're all leads in their own stories. They have to be given their due. 1270 01:40:21,947 --> 01:40:23,448 I know how to do it now. 1271 01:40:23,616 --> 01:40:25,784 There are 13 million people in this world. 1272 01:40:25,951 --> 01:40:28,661 Can you imagine how many people that is? 1273 01:40:28,829 --> 01:40:32,874 None of those people are an extra. They're all a lead in their own story. 1274 01:40:33,042 --> 01:40:35,168 They have got to be given their due. 1275 01:40:35,336 --> 01:40:37,712 Do you see what I'm saying? 1276 01:40:38,422 --> 01:40:40,423 Come over tonight. 1277 01:40:43,469 --> 01:40:45,470 Please. 1278 01:40:46,931 --> 01:40:48,932 You know, we could get a place together. 1279 01:40:49,100 --> 01:40:53,812 - We could get a loft. - God, Caden, that sounds nice. 1280 01:40:53,979 --> 01:40:56,481 I miss my daughter. Maybe she could come live with us. 1281 01:40:56,649 --> 01:40:58,775 I miss Olive. 1282 01:40:59,402 --> 01:41:00,985 And the other one. 1283 01:41:01,612 --> 01:41:04,114 - I'm a bad person. - Oh, no, you're not. 1284 01:41:04,281 --> 01:41:07,992 I am. I should never have gone out with Sammy. 1285 01:41:08,369 --> 01:41:10,703 I was just trying to get to you. 1286 01:41:10,871 --> 01:41:13,498 You can't cause someone to kill himself. 1287 01:41:14,458 --> 01:41:16,751 He was very troubled. 1288 01:41:17,044 --> 01:41:19,003 God, Caden. 1289 01:41:21,841 --> 01:41:24,884 I wish we had this when we were young. 1290 01:41:27,847 --> 01:41:30,014 And all those years in between. 1291 01:41:30,182 --> 01:41:32,684 My heart aches so much for you. 1292 01:41:32,852 --> 01:41:35,353 We're here, Caden. 1293 01:41:36,188 --> 01:41:40,942 - I'm here. - I'm aching for it being over. 1294 01:41:42,528 --> 01:41:47,031 Yeah. The end is built into the beginning. 1295 01:41:47,783 --> 01:41:49,868 What can you do? 1296 01:41:50,035 --> 01:41:53,872 - God, you're just perfect. - I'm a mess. 1297 01:41:54,498 --> 01:41:58,209 - But we fit, don't we? - Yeah. 1298 01:42:08,637 --> 01:42:10,555 It doesn't always happen for me now... 1299 01:42:10,723 --> 01:42:13,516 ...because of the medication and everything. 1300 01:42:13,684 --> 01:42:17,437 - I take a lot of pills. - It's okay. 1301 01:42:18,564 --> 01:42:23,193 I'm embarrassed. I don't want you to think it's about you or me. 1302 01:42:23,360 --> 01:42:25,111 It's okay. 1303 01:43:09,698 --> 01:43:11,783 I have a title. 1304 01:43:13,619 --> 01:43:19,249 The Obscure Moon Lighting an Obscure World. 1305 01:43:22,795 --> 01:43:25,964 I think it might be too much. 1306 01:43:27,383 --> 01:43:29,842 Yeah, probably. 1307 01:43:41,939 --> 01:43:44,566 Sir, could you come up here, please? 1308 01:44:02,626 --> 01:44:05,128 Might be smoke inhalation. 1309 01:44:10,467 --> 01:44:13,553 It's Hazel. Leave a message or not. It's your dime. 1310 01:44:13,721 --> 01:44:16,556 I know how to do the play now. 1311 01:44:19,518 --> 01:44:23,104 It'll all take place over the course of one day... 1312 01:44:24,356 --> 01:44:27,692 ...and that day will be the day before you died. 1313 01:44:29,111 --> 01:44:32,071 It was the happiest day of my life. 1314 01:44:34,867 --> 01:44:37,827 And I'll be able to relive it forever. 1315 01:44:38,245 --> 01:44:40,204 See you soon. 1316 01:44:45,044 --> 01:44:50,340 So have you got any thoughts for today's rehearsal? 1317 01:44:51,425 --> 01:44:53,635 I have a new title, maybe. 1318 01:44:53,802 --> 01:44:56,804 Infectious Diseases in Cattle. 1319 01:45:00,684 --> 01:45:04,854 The title means a lot of things. You'll see, it means a lot. 1320 01:45:16,325 --> 01:45:18,910 I need a Caden for my Hazel. 1321 01:45:19,912 --> 01:45:22,038 I'd very much like to play Caden. 1322 01:45:23,749 --> 01:45:26,376 I know that... 1323 01:45:26,752 --> 01:45:30,213 I know that it would be nontraditional casting... 1324 01:45:30,881 --> 01:45:34,634 ...but I think I could do it. I think I understand him. 1325 01:45:34,802 --> 01:45:36,427 I don't understand him. 1326 01:45:36,595 --> 01:45:43,101 Well, Caden Cotard is a man already dead. 1327 01:45:43,268 --> 01:45:50,108 He lives in a half world between stasis and antistasis... 1328 01:45:50,275 --> 01:45:53,986 ...and time is concentrated, chronology confused. 1329 01:45:54,154 --> 01:46:00,284 Yet up until recently, he's strived valiantly... 1330 01:46:01,370 --> 01:46:04,580 ...to make sense of his situation. 1331 01:46:05,708 --> 01:46:08,209 But now he's turned to stone. 1332 01:46:09,169 --> 01:46:12,964 - Okay. Sounds good. - Okay. 1333 01:46:14,466 --> 01:46:16,634 - Thanks. - She's right? 1334 01:46:16,802 --> 01:46:20,722 I didn't see that at all. I saw it as much more hopeful. 1335 01:46:22,307 --> 01:46:25,518 None of those people is extras. 1336 01:46:25,686 --> 01:46:28,146 They're all leads in their own stories. 1337 01:46:32,151 --> 01:46:35,820 No, this is tedious. This is nothing. 1338 01:46:39,992 --> 01:46:42,744 Hi, your scene's over. Would you leave the stage? 1339 01:46:42,911 --> 01:46:45,788 - What is she doing? - He's directing. 1340 01:46:45,956 --> 01:46:48,791 Can I get you down at the coffin there? 1341 01:46:48,959 --> 01:46:51,627 She not getting the feel of you, Caden. 1342 01:46:51,795 --> 01:46:55,506 You don't move around like that. You don't talk to people. 1343 01:46:59,052 --> 01:47:02,764 Sit on the ground there. Okay, everybody, let's run it. 1344 01:47:04,725 --> 01:47:07,685 Everything is more complicated than you think. 1345 01:47:07,853 --> 01:47:10,605 You only see a tenth of what is true. 1346 01:47:10,773 --> 01:47:15,985 There are a million little strings attached to every choice you make. 1347 01:47:16,153 --> 01:47:18,780 You can destroy your life every time you choose. 1348 01:47:18,947 --> 01:47:22,366 But maybe you won't know for 20 years... 1349 01:47:22,701 --> 01:47:25,203 ...and you may never, ever trace it to its source. 1350 01:47:25,370 --> 01:47:27,872 And you only get one chance to play it out. 1351 01:47:28,040 --> 01:47:30,875 Just try and figure out your own divorce. 1352 01:47:31,585 --> 01:47:36,839 And they say there is no fate, but there is, it's what you create. 1353 01:47:37,549 --> 01:47:40,259 And even though the world goes on for eons and eons... 1354 01:47:40,427 --> 01:47:44,972 ...you are only here for a fraction of a fraction of a second. 1355 01:47:45,140 --> 01:47:48,351 Most of your time is spent being dead or not yet born. 1356 01:47:48,519 --> 01:47:51,979 But while alive, you wait in vain... 1357 01:47:52,147 --> 01:47:56,067 ...wasting years for a phone call or a letter or a look... 1358 01:47:56,235 --> 01:47:58,569 ...from someone or something to make it all right. 1359 01:47:58,737 --> 01:48:03,199 And it never comes, or it seems to, but it doesn't really. 1360 01:48:03,826 --> 01:48:06,202 So you spend your time in vague regret... 1361 01:48:06,370 --> 01:48:10,039 ...or vaguer hope that something good will come along. 1362 01:48:10,207 --> 01:48:11,916 Something to make you feel connected. 1363 01:48:12,084 --> 01:48:14,418 Something to make you feel whole. 1364 01:48:14,586 --> 01:48:17,588 Something to make you feel loved. 1365 01:48:18,799 --> 01:48:20,675 And the truth is... 1366 01:48:21,844 --> 01:48:24,220 ...I feel so angry. 1367 01:48:25,389 --> 01:48:27,265 And the truth is... 1368 01:48:27,975 --> 01:48:31,269 ...I feel so fucking sad. 1369 01:48:32,437 --> 01:48:38,192 And the truth is, I've felt so fucking hurt for so fucking long. 1370 01:48:38,360 --> 01:48:41,195 And for just as long, I've been pretending I'm okay... 1371 01:48:41,363 --> 01:48:44,824 ...just to get along, just for... 1372 01:48:45,951 --> 01:48:47,577 I don't know why. 1373 01:48:47,744 --> 01:48:52,540 Maybe because no one wants to hear about my misery... 1374 01:48:53,125 --> 01:48:55,459 ...because they have their own. 1375 01:48:58,964 --> 01:49:00,631 Well, fuck everybody. 1376 01:49:03,302 --> 01:49:05,136 - Amen. - Amen. 1377 01:49:21,778 --> 01:49:23,821 - Delightful. - Thanks. 1378 01:49:23,989 --> 01:49:25,114 I'm out of ideas. 1379 01:49:29,036 --> 01:49:30,953 I'm dead. 1380 01:49:32,331 --> 01:49:38,085 Well, I could take over as you for a bit until you feel refreshed. 1381 01:49:38,253 --> 01:49:42,131 I think you're tired, Caden. All these years of creative work. 1382 01:49:42,674 --> 01:49:48,971 I think you just need some time to regroup. 1383 01:49:49,806 --> 01:49:53,351 - I need to keep my hand in. - Well, Ellen needs to be filled. 1384 01:49:53,518 --> 01:49:56,562 - What do you mean? - Her role. Just for a bit. 1385 01:49:56,730 --> 01:49:59,023 It's a choice role. 1386 01:50:00,901 --> 01:50:03,235 I do like to clean. 1387 01:50:17,834 --> 01:50:19,710 Ellen? 1388 01:50:23,924 --> 01:50:27,885 - Yes? - Caden asked me to give you this. 1389 01:50:28,053 --> 01:50:31,180 You're to keep it in all the time. 1390 01:50:35,769 --> 01:50:41,065 So touched by the sadness of Adele's neighbor so close to death. 1391 01:50:42,401 --> 01:50:44,568 Say, "Thank you," to Adele's neighbor. 1392 01:50:45,153 --> 01:50:46,362 Thank you. 1393 01:50:46,530 --> 01:50:49,031 You're very welcome, young lady. 1394 01:50:49,199 --> 01:50:52,576 - Now say, "Have a very good day. " - Have a very good day. 1395 01:50:52,744 --> 01:50:55,079 I will indeed. 1396 01:50:59,001 --> 01:51:01,585 Reach for the toilet paper. 1397 01:51:02,295 --> 01:51:05,047 Wrap some around your hand. 1398 01:51:05,424 --> 01:51:07,508 Wipe yourself. 1399 01:51:12,597 --> 01:51:14,932 There was supposed to be something else. 1400 01:51:16,393 --> 01:51:20,938 You were supposed to have something, a calm. 1401 01:51:21,106 --> 01:51:22,982 Love. 1402 01:51:23,150 --> 01:51:25,026 Children. 1403 01:51:25,193 --> 01:51:28,112 A child, at least. 1404 01:51:28,655 --> 01:51:30,781 Children. 1405 01:51:31,700 --> 01:51:33,576 Meaning. 1406 01:51:40,709 --> 01:51:43,377 Everything okay, Eric? 1407 01:51:45,338 --> 01:51:49,050 - Everything is everything. - He hates me. 1408 01:51:51,053 --> 01:51:54,597 I disappointed him, and he hates me. 1409 01:51:56,016 --> 01:52:00,102 Everyone is disappointing when you know someone. 1410 01:52:04,983 --> 01:52:10,237 I remember having that picnic with my mother. Look at me. 1411 01:52:10,405 --> 01:52:12,198 Ellen, what is it? 1412 01:52:12,365 --> 01:52:14,492 I was so young. 1413 01:52:14,659 --> 01:52:17,828 I'm going to remember this moment for the rest of my life, Mama... 1414 01:52:18,246 --> 01:52:22,249 ...and in exactly 20 years, come here with my daughter... 1415 01:52:22,417 --> 01:52:24,168 ...and have exactly the same picnic. 1416 01:52:24,336 --> 01:52:25,419 There was so much hope. 1417 01:52:25,587 --> 01:52:28,839 Baby, that the loveliest thing I've ever heard. 1418 01:52:31,009 --> 01:52:36,472 Oh, God. Sorry, Mommy. I'm sorry. 1419 01:52:55,867 --> 01:52:58,202 Where is my little girl? 1420 01:52:58,370 --> 01:53:02,748 Where is my little girl? Where is my little girl? 1421 01:53:13,135 --> 01:53:16,345 Look at the night table for a note from Adele. 1422 01:53:24,312 --> 01:53:26,897 Stare out the window. 1423 01:53:28,275 --> 01:53:32,027 Remember the time she got you to pose for one of her paintings? 1424 01:53:32,195 --> 01:53:34,780 How she told you how beautiful you were? 1425 01:53:34,948 --> 01:53:38,909 How she made you feel pretty again for a little while? 1426 01:53:39,077 --> 01:53:41,412 Think how you'll miss her. 1427 01:53:42,080 --> 01:53:43,956 Stand up. 1428 01:53:52,424 --> 01:53:56,093 Now it is waiting, and nobody cares. 1429 01:53:56,261 --> 01:54:00,431 And when your wait is over, this room will still exist... 1430 01:54:00,599 --> 01:54:05,144 ...and it will continue to hold shoes and dresses and boxes... 1431 01:54:05,312 --> 01:54:08,522 ...and maybe someday another waiting person. 1432 01:54:08,690 --> 01:54:10,608 And maybe not. 1433 01:54:10,942 --> 01:54:13,485 The room doesn't care either. 1434 01:54:29,878 --> 01:54:31,754 Hello? 1435 01:54:51,942 --> 01:54:56,070 There's nobody running the elevator anymore. 1436 01:55:30,939 --> 01:55:35,109 What was once before you, an exciting and mysterious future... 1437 01:55:35,277 --> 01:55:40,364 ...is now behind you, lived, understood, disappointing. 1438 01:55:40,865 --> 01:55:43,367 You realize you are not special. 1439 01:55:43,535 --> 01:55:48,914 You have struggled into existence and are now slipping silently out of it. 1440 01:55:49,082 --> 01:55:53,168 This is everyone's experience. Every single one. 1441 01:55:53,336 --> 01:55:58,215 The specifics hardly matter. Everyone is everyone. 1442 01:55:58,383 --> 01:56:00,301 So you are Adele... 1443 01:56:00,468 --> 01:56:04,930 ...Hazel, claire, Olive. 1444 01:56:05,890 --> 01:56:10,644 You are Ellen. All her meager sadnesses are yours. 1445 01:56:10,812 --> 01:56:15,357 All her loneliness. The gray, straw-like hair. 1446 01:56:15,525 --> 01:56:19,486 Her red, raw hands. It's yours. 1447 01:56:19,654 --> 01:56:22,865 It is time for you to understand this. 1448 01:56:33,585 --> 01:56:35,377 Walk. 1449 01:56:41,718 --> 01:56:44,928 As the people who adore you stop adoring you... 1450 01:56:45,096 --> 01:56:48,098 ...as they die, as they move on... 1451 01:56:48,266 --> 01:56:52,770 ...as you shed them, as you shed your beauty, your youth... 1452 01:56:52,937 --> 01:56:56,273 ...as the world forgets you, as you recognize your transience... 1453 01:56:56,816 --> 01:57:00,819 ...as you begin to lose your characteristics one by one... 1454 01:57:00,987 --> 01:57:03,197 ...as you learn there is no one watching you... 1455 01:57:03,365 --> 01:57:07,326 ...and there never was, you think only about driving. 1456 01:57:07,494 --> 01:57:11,622 Not coming from anyplace, not arriving anyplace... 1457 01:57:11,790 --> 01:57:15,667 ...just driving, counting off time. 1458 01:57:15,835 --> 01:57:19,296 Now you are here. It's 7:43. 1459 01:57:19,464 --> 01:57:22,424 Now you are here. It's 7:44. 1460 01:57:22,592 --> 01:57:25,928 Now you are gone. 1461 01:57:32,852 --> 01:57:34,978 Where is everybody? 1462 01:57:36,189 --> 01:57:41,318 Mostly dead. Some have left. 1463 01:57:47,575 --> 01:57:53,914 Would you sit with me for a moment? Because I'm very tired and lonely. 1464 01:58:13,852 --> 01:58:16,019 I feel like I know you. 1465 01:58:16,563 --> 01:58:21,108 Well, I was the mother in Ellen's dream. 1466 01:58:21,276 --> 01:58:22,776 Yes. 1467 01:58:25,738 --> 01:58:28,532 You seem a bit older than I remember. 1468 01:58:28,700 --> 01:58:31,034 That dream was quite a while ago. 1469 01:58:31,953 --> 01:58:34,121 Apologize. 1470 01:58:34,289 --> 01:58:36,123 I didn't mean to say you looked old. 1471 01:58:46,676 --> 01:58:49,470 There's everyone's dreams in all those apartments. 1472 01:58:52,932 --> 01:58:58,020 All those thoughts I'll never know. That's the truth of it. 1473 01:59:03,610 --> 01:59:07,237 I wanted to do that picnic with my daughter. 1474 01:59:11,034 --> 01:59:13,327 I feel like I've disappointed you terribly. 1475 01:59:13,495 --> 01:59:17,706 Oh, no. I am so proud of you. 1476 01:59:18,708 --> 01:59:21,251 Ask her if you can put your head on her shoulder. 1477 01:59:21,419 --> 01:59:24,588 Can I lay my head on your shoulder? 1478 01:59:24,839 --> 01:59:26,381 Yes. 1479 01:59:35,808 --> 01:59:37,809 I love you. 1480 01:59:41,064 --> 01:59:43,106 I love you too. 1481 02:00:05,296 --> 02:00:08,298 I know how to do this play now. 1482 02:00:10,301 --> 02:00:12,636 I have an idea. 1483 02:00:13,137 --> 02:00:15,681 I think if everyone... 1484 02:00:15,848 --> 02:00:18,348 Die. 115403

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