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COIN RATTLES

SIGHS You've got to be kidding me?

Come on. SHOUTS: Come on!

COIN RATTLES Oh, my God, what's the point?

Can I help?

Yeah, it's not taking my coins, it's just dropping straight through.

Yeah, sorry, we've been having a few problems recently.

Then why 'ant you got a sign up, then?

OK, calm down.

Calm down? Calm down? I AM calm!

- An engineer's been called. - So what am I supposed to do, then?

Because I can't wait for an engineer to get here.

I'm here to see my baby son.

Well, you can always download the app.

It's the only other way.

So how am I supposed to download a stupid app

if I can't get a signal?

Yeah, bit of a black spot, to be honest.

But if you walk round that side of the hospital,

you can usually get 5G up the steps.

Are you winding me up?

Is there no Wi-Fi or anything here?

There is.

But I don't know the password. Mine connects automatically, so...

I can ring someone who will know it.

Yeah, please.

Macca, awright?

Yeah, yeah, not bad.

Oh-ho, seriously, mate, what was I thinking?

Two months out, they reckon.

Done the hamstring.

Yeah, I know, that's what I said, if you don't warm up properly...

I need to see my son. So get me the password, NOW!

I know it's a lot to take in at this stage,

but if there's any good news, this is it.

But he's still gonna need to be here, in and out,

for two-to-three years, right?

Where he'll receive the best care.

His prognosis is good, Dawn.

Thank you.

Oh, I'm so sorry, you won't believe what happened out there,

stupid parking machine.

After Dawn explains everything,

if you've any questions, just speak to Jenny.

I'm sure she'll be able to answer them for you.

We'll speak soon.

- Where were you? - That's what I was saying.

This parking machine wasn't taking coins, then suddenly,

this attendant turns up, pretty much useless,

demands I download this stupid app.

Have you got any idea what I've just had to listen to on my own?

No, no, but I'm here now, so tell me.

OK...

..the test results were back, and...

he doesn't need a bone marrow transplant.

That's... that's great news.

That's what we were hoping for, isn't it?

But he will still need chemotherapy for two-to-three years.

Ah, we... we knew that already, we accepted that.

I guess.

I was just clinging onto this ridiculous hope of a miracle

that everything would be OK.

But it's not OK.

Our son is never gonna have a normal childhood.

You think you're doing this by yourself?

- There's always an excuse. - Yeah, it's called life.

All right, you're here non-stop, all the time, but at home,

what, do you think everything's just stopped? Cos it hasn't.

And you know what, it's exhausting.

Oh, right, must be really exhausting making breakfast (!)

Lucas was crying this morning.

Clemmie didn't wanna go to school

and they're both wondering when you're coming home.

Why are you trying to make me feel even worse?

I'm here because I have to be.

Yeah, and I'm there because I have to be.

It's not a competition.

I just feel like I am doing this all by myself.

Yeah, well, that's not fair. I offered to stay here with Evan.

I slept out in the corridor. We are in this together.

Me and you. - None of it is "fair", Billy,

because everything that normal children have, he's not gonna have.

Look, we both knew how difficult this was gonna be,

but this is not a life sentence, Dawn.

Yeah, but every day for the next two-to-three years

will be about keeping that child alive,

and I just don't think that that has sunk in with you yet.

Oh, yeah, cos I'd rather put my head in my hands,

pretend none of this is happening. - I'm not saying that.

But this isn't about first words and first steps.

This is about first time not wired up to a machine.

That's his life.

The life we created.

Me and you.

We need to stop picking each other apart.

I haven't left this place in weeks.

Yeah, you keep saying. So go home. Go now. I'm here.

What, you think I can just walk away from him?

- I can't. - What, and I can?

Because I clearly don't care as much as you do, do I?

- Did I say that? - Well, you're having a go at me.

Cos you need something, you need someone to go at, something to hit.

Don't tell me what is going on in my head

when you have absolutely no idea.

And you have no idea what's going on in mine either.

Because I'm not allowed to show it.

So I hold it in.

Because all this is about is you, all anyone talks about is you.

Oh, well, Billy, if I'd have known

that you weren't having enough attention...

Yeah, cos that's what it's about, isn't it?

That's exactly what I was saying. If you're actually listening,

you would have heard me saying that we're on the same side.

So you're not blaming me?

You what?

It always catches up with you in the end.

That's what you're thinking, isn't it?

What you talking about?

All the messed-up things I've done in my life...

..this is payback.

Why don't you just say it?

- No. No. - A smackhead?

- On the game? - Stop it.

"God knows what she put in her body. She got lucky with Lucas,

"but she didn't get lucky with MY baby."

Why don't you just say it?

Just say it to me if you're thinking it, Billy.

Why don't you just say it? JUST SAY IT, BILLY!

Is everything OK?

Yeah.

Yeah, sorry. It's...

I don't know what else you want from me.

I am trying my best, I really am.

But that's not good enough.

No, Billy, I...

FRUSTRATED SIGH

TAKES DEEP BREATHS