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♪ I must be lost in my regrets ♪

♪ I must be down, I must be stressed ♪

♪ I got, like, 13 years of age ♪

OK.

♪ That I ain't still got off my chest ♪

♪ It must be so much more to life ♪

♪ If I had diamonds and baguettes...

Chapter One: "Change."

While inevitable, we often resist it

out of fear of the unknown,

instead clinging to the familiar,

our old routines and patterns that make us feel safe.

But sometimes life throws you a curveball

that you never saw coming.

I'm pregnant?

I'm pregnant!

Wait, are you absolutely sure?

The blood and urine tests

confirm a positive for pregnancy.

This...

Yay.

How did this happen?

Bitch, fucking is how this happened.

Ian's pullout game is weak as fuck.

Or Camille's a Little Miss Leave-It-In.

It is a little flattering

when a man's pullout game is weak, you know?

And with that, the world worries for Quinn.

What?

Are you sure it's even Ian's baby?

Of course it's Ian's!

- It is Ian's, right? - Yes!

Yes, of course!

We were always so careful.

OK, fine, yes, I let him shoot up the club once.

OK, twice.

Fine, I let him do it a few times, but you know what?

I was under the impression that I was more likely

to get struck by lightning than I was to get pregnant.

Ooh, girl, do not say that.

You might fuck around and have twins.

What?

My Great-Aunt Mae was pregnant with one child.

Lightning struck the hospital while she was in labor,

and boom, twins.

Ms. Parks, you should see your ob-gyn as soon as possible

to discuss options and next steps.

Best of luck.

Thanks.

What am I gonna do?

♪ Is it difficult feeling with your good eye...

♪ Are we visible only in the good light? ♪♪

Twelve weeks.

Twelve weeks.

I've been pregnant for 12 weeks?

I mean, I don't... I don't understand,

because you basically said that I can't get pregnant.

I said you had less than a five percent chance

of getting pregnant.

The odds are stacked against you, but...

Yeah, but I am OK with not being a mother, actually.

I see things like this all the time,

women desperate to get pregnant and their bodies say no,

but when it is the furthest thing from their mind,

suddenly they're able to conceive.

Yeah, but you know that I wasn't desperately

trying to conceive, and my body had no business

basically saying yes to something

that I didn't even ask about.

I know this is unexpected,

but luckily we are in New York, so terminating the pregnancy

is still an option.

Do you want to move forward with the process or terminate?

I don't know.

If you want to keep it, I suggest we draw some blood

in the next week or so to do what's called

noninvasive prenatal testing

so we can check for defects or cognitive abnormalities.

And you should also talk to your mother

about maternal history, as there are sometimes

similarities between mothers and daughters.

Dear God, no, not in the maternal area.

And if you want to terminate,

I can offer you options for that as well.

Aw, Camille, listen.

The important thing is,

there is no right or wrong,

no good or bad here.

This is your body, honey.

It's your choice.

Yeah, and I've said that at a lot of rallies.

And I believe that.

But right now, I am feeling the weight...

of this decision.

And I need you to understand that since you're nearing

the end of the first trimester,

the window for the least medically invasive termination

is closing.

OK, so if... if I...

accidentally got pregnant once, right,

I could probably, on purpose, get pregnant again later, so...

I can't answer that.

Your statistically low chance of conceiving hasn't changed.

I think you should consider this

may be your only shot at ever having a biological child.

If that's important to you,

you should do your best to make a decision quickly.

Oh, my gosh.

I've been trying to wait until Camille gets here,

but if I do not say something soon, I'm gonna burst.

Oh, what's the tea?

I got the role in Girls Trip: The Musical.

- Angie! - Oh!

And not just any role,

a lead role.

I'm playing Dina, the Haddish role, y'all.

Oh!

I heard they were turning that into a musical!

Damn, congratulations.

I didn't even know you were auditioning.

Oh, I didn't want to jinx it 'cause, you know.

Oh, my gosh, Angie! I am so proud of you!

That's dope.

To the newest star on Broadway.

Yes.

Oh, my God.

It's adorable.

Oh, girl, why are you lying?

That looks like a wrinkled kidney bean.

Ow, what? I'm just being honest.

But don't worry.

My grandma says a funny-looking baby

happens to the best of us.

You just keep it lotioned up and dressed nice.

How is this life?

I am almost three months.

Damn!

What? But your period.

No, I know.

I've always been a little bit on the irregular side,

but I just figured, between the breakup

and the quitting of the job, that my being late

was stress-related, not fetal-related.

Could this be a sign from God

that Ian is your person?

Oh, girl, not that shit again.

It was a mishap, a slipup.

God has wasted far too much time

on the Ian and Camille saga to still be invested.

Me and God both.

And what did Ian say? He must be so excited.

You have told Ian, right?

Uh, no.

Girl.

Well, all the blogs say that you have

a solid 24 hours of denying your situation

before getting responsible.

It's been more than 24 hours.

I know! It's just...

I mean, what's the point of dropping a bomb

when I'm not even sure if I want to keep it?

Really? I mean...

Cam, I would understand if this was some

smash and dash off the street,

but it is still Ian's kid too.

Oh, it's not a kid. It's a bean.

And according to Angie, it's an ugly bean.

I said wrinkled and funny-looking.

That means it's just temporary ugly.

There's time.

Regardless, Ian told you how much he wanted to be a dad,

and this was the reason that you guys broke up.

Yeah, but Ian made it very clear

that him and Portia are a whole thing now.

Fuck Portia.

She's not a motherfucking friend.

That bitch could drive off a cliff,

and I would not give a fu-u-uck.

OK, sure.

He said that he was with her,

but things have clearly changed.

Maybe if you tell him, he might have some insight.

He might.

But, Cam, you have to figure out

if you want to be a mom with or without him.

You know that shit always falls on the woman.

Mm, facts on facts.

So...

no.

- Um... - Um...

Yes?

Well, there's good arguments for both.

All you need to do is make a pros and cons list.

OK.

Tell Ian.

He comes running back.

Y'all have a bigheaded baby and live happily ever after.

Nah, pro: don't tell Ian, don't have the baby,

and move on with your life as planned.

Um, that's a con.

Mm, I have the best pro ever.

Tell Ian. Still don't have the baby.

Let Ian have babies with that other chick

and get a dad bod.

Then you run into him, looking fabulous

with your new finer, fitter boo,

and refuse to fuck him.

You win. Checkmate.

Definitely a con.

It's just above y'all right now.

Think about it. Let it fester.

It's a con.

I don't like this conversation.

What do you think, Cam?

What feels right for you?

Except that.

♪ Eyes shut but never sleeping ♪

♪ I don't know if I was dreaming ♪

♪ Been there before, seen it unfold ♪

♪ I always end up right here ♪

♪ Steady trying to find the meaning ♪

♪ Of everything that I've been feeling ♪

♪ Let down my guard, opening up ♪

♪ Just when I thought I was done ♪

♪ Everything just started flowing out ♪

♪ Three a.m., thinking in the dark ♪

♪ I'm here...

You've reached Deborah's voicemail.

Stay blessed.

And remember your umbrella.

♪ Feel like I've been going 'gainst the tide ♪

♪ But still, I swim ♪

♪ I need to let it all go ♪

♪ 'Cause I've been feeling inside out ♪

♪ Know that this will pass me by ♪

- ♪ But still... - No.

♪ My head's underwater ♪

♪ Try to stay afloat, but I need to let it all go ♪

♪ 'Cause I've been feeling inside out ♪

♪ Hoping it'll just take time but still...

OK.

♪ My head's underwater ♪

♪ And I'm getting stronger...

Hey, leave it at the beep.

♪ Tell you giving up, it ain't an option here ♪

♪ I'ma keep on going till the lights go down ♪

♪ If the sun don't shine ♪

♪ Again ♪

♪ And what if I told you everything that's on my mind ♪

♪ Feel like I've been going 'gainst the tide ♪

♪ But still, I swim ♪

♪ I need to let it all go ♪

♪ 'Cause I've been feeling inside out ♪

♪ Know that this will pass me by ♪

♪ But still, my head's underwater ♪♪

You know, I-I'm not even gonna say what I'm thinking.

What?

What... what are you thinking? Just say it.

A-all right, well, this feels just like Mira again.

The world's biggest

"Huh to the fuck are you talking about?"

Camille, I was over you, about to marry Mira,

and all of a sudden, at the eleventh hour,

here you come with the big news.

I know that you are not implying

that I'm doing all this just to get back with you.

Look, I'm just calling the spade

the motherfucking spade. This is what...

Oh, so... so you really think that I just woke up one morning

and I was like, you know what?

I just miss Ian so much that,

I don't know, I'm gonna quit my steady job

and I'm gonna get knocked up by him,

even though he's my ex, and I'm gonna raise a baby

on my freelance writer's income,

all so that I can trap Ian into getting back with me?

You trippin'!

Nobody said nothing about a trap.

My life is not a reaction to you.

I'm allowed to feel what I'm feeling.

Ha! You did listen to that therapy podcast.

Yeah, 'cause you sent the shit 50 times.

Well, that's because you needed to listen to it.

Look, I can't.

It had good information.

I can't do this shit with you.

I mean, you throwing... you picked a hell of a time

to throw a-a whole shitload onto me right now.

Well, welcome to my world.

It's not like this wasn't just plopped in my lap too.

You know, I don't... I don't want to argue with you.

This is just a courtesy visit.

I guess I'll let you know what I decide.

What you decide? What you... what you mean?

I don't have a say in this?

You're in a serious, committed relationship.

And this is happening in my body.

So I will decide.

Well, yeah, but I mean, what if...

what if we have it?

And, what, you tell Portia that you knocked up your ex,

break her heart,

then we magically live happily ever after,

all because of some kid that neither one of us planned?

I mean, that's not likely, right?

No, I mean, it ain't likely at all.

I'm not... I'm not breaking it off with Portia.

I ain't gonna do her like that.

So your choice is for me to be a side project

that you check on every now and then

while you lie up with your childhood sweetheart.

Why would you even want to be in that situation?

Camille, this... this...

all this shit...

this shit we going through right now

is the exact opposite of what I wanted.

I wanted to be with you.

I wanted to have a baby with you.

You didn't want that, so we broke up.

It... it is what it is.

But now we're here.

All right, we got a chance to do something about this now.

I mean, we're not the first two people

to get caught in a surprise pregnancy.

I mean, it happens every day.

I mean, we could, I don't know,

come up with our own situation,

like, our own co-parenting situation, kind of like...

like... Amber Rose and Wiz Khalifa.

So now we're Amber and Wiz?

Look, if... I mean, if Portia was just some... some fling,

this... this wouldn't even be a conversation.

It wouldn't, but...

I-I mean, it ain't that.

This ain't just some fling.

You know, we got real shit going on.

And what's more real than being pregnant with your baby?

Camille, I'm gonna always take care of mine, always.

Sweetheart, you never have to worry about that ever.

I'm not worried...

because we don't have anything to figure out.

I do.

A lot of people think that means the vagina,

but actually, it's the butthole.

I got drugs in my booty.

I don't believe you.

Bitch, what?

Give it to me again, like you mean it this time.

You getting on my nerves. OK.

I got drugs in my booty.

Mm-hmm. So much for work, then, yeah?

Th-this is work.

We've been running lines for, like, the last three hours.

Wait, so you are really talking about

putting drugs in your booty in the script?

Yeah.

Didn't you see the movie?

Yeah, maybe once.

Get your man.

You know what? He was homeschooled.

- Baby girl. - Yes, baby.

Once we catch up to Camille,

we'll have all the time in the world

to catch up on movies, OK?

- Mm. - Mm.

Wait, what?

Yeah, you know, when we're pregnant too.

He doesn't know about your Plan B regimen?

Oh.

All of that is a ways away.

Yeah, no, we're gonna get married first.

But I wasn't thinking that babies would be

too much further behind, did you?

Honestly, I wasn't thinking about babies at all.

Ooh!

What... what do you mean?

I thought we were on the same page about having kids.

Did something change?

Y'all should've been discussed this. Oh.

I meant I'm not thinking about them right now.

We have a lot of time to think about that.

- Do we? - Mm-hmm.

We're both not exactly spring chickens.

OK, speak for yourself.

Vikram at the corner store just carded me last week.

- Yes, melanin! - OK? I look good.

- Yes, you do! - Thank you.

Angie, come on, you know what I mean.

OK.

Yes, we'll do the baby thing

but not before I get myself to a place

where I can actually take care of them.

Baby, that's what partnership is for.

OK, I'm here. I'm here.

I'm here to help with everything.

- I know that. - Yeah? OK.

And that's mad sexy.

But until People magazine is bidding

on our baby's first pictures, then I ain't made it yet.

And that is the level of success

your girl is visualizing.

- OK? - OK, OK.

Well, if that's the game plan, I should leave you two to it.

What happened to "Sundays are for football"?

I just got word from a seller that he wants me

to put his brownstone on the market ASAP.

Oh, I cannot wait until I'm rich enough

to make people drop everything for me.

Me too, girl!

- Mm, I'll miss you, baby. - I'll miss you too.

- Mm-hmm, prove it. - Come here, aw.

- Mm. Yeah. - Mm.

- Yeah. - Mm.

Mm. Mm.

OK. I got to go.

I love you.

I love you too.

Now, that's how you sell a scene, bitch!

Come on. Back to the top.

You in it now. Let's go.

You know, Barack Obama was raised by a single mom.

- Mm-hmm. - Mm-hmm.

And he became president.

- Mm-hmm. - Yes!

But then again, so was Charles Manson.

Ooh, yikes.

I'm gonna go ahead and say that there was

more to blame there than his mom.

You know the ancient Greeks believed that a fetus

obtained a soul during fertilization?

But then again, the Tallensi people of Ghana

didn't believe that you achieved personhood

until after you died.

Pay up, Angie.

I told you she would get anthropological

before she finished a slice.

Damn, Camille, defy an expectation for once.

I'm just... I am usually really good at making decisions.

Harpo, who this woman?

I don't know, but it's not our little overthinking friend.

OK, we're out of balls.

What's the verdict?

All right, OK.

OK, OK, OK.

Mm-hmm, and...

it's even.

Ugh!

Guys, if there was ever a time to overthink,

it would be for a baby.

I mean, it is... it's a whole person.

Camille's right.

There are no takesy-backsies on a baby.

Exactly! Right?

I mean, if a job's not working out, you quit.

Damn straight, you do.

Mm, or you stick it out until they fire you

so you can collect unemployment.

You know my business had to pay for that, right?

That's what you get for firing me.

I'm gonna go ahead and say that sex on the job

is a fireable offense.

But he bought the dress,

so I should've been given employee of the month

for my above-and-beyond customer service.

- I love Angie logic. - Yeah.

Anyway, so if a relationship is not working out,

you break up with him.

Or if you're you, then you get back together.

Then you break up again.

And then you have sex without using birth control.

And then you sit around a table with your friends,

letting good pizza go cold, hmm.

You is not helping.

No, but seriously, guys.

What if I become a mom and I hate it?

Want me to call my mom and ask her?

Or what if I have an abortion

and I spend the rest of my life being tormented by the fact

that I gave up my only opportunity

to have a biological kid?

Shit, well, when you put it like that...

- Yeah. - I cannot fuck this up.

Oh, you won't.

You'll stay up all night.

And the next night.

And then you'll know.

Camille, on any of those sleepless nights,

you call us and we will be there for you

because you are not alone.

And if you decide not to have this baby,

we'll take you to the appointment.

And if you decide that you do want to keep it,

we're gonna be right there with you in the delivery room.

Yeah, not sure if I need to see all of that,

but I will be the auntie who teaches her about Plan B

because clearly her mother doesn't know shit

about not birthing no babies.

You guys.

It really helps that you all are here,

everybody except maybe Angie.

It's OK.

Truth teller wins again.

♪ This can't be the same life ♪

♪ I was looking forward to ♪

♪ Overstimulated but I be overboard too ♪

♪ Ain't got time for niggas ♪

♪ 'Cause these niggas ain't gon' court you ♪

♪ Quick to criticize but don't do shit to support you ♪

♪ Does it cost too much to live? ♪

♪ I got feels I'm missing all the shade from shit I did ♪

♪ I be all up in my mind overthinking ♪

♪ God forbid, maybe I just need a second ♪

♪ There's been a lot on my plate ♪

♪ And I'm trying and I trust it ♪

♪ Ain't giving up or giving in ♪♪

Hey, Mom.

Camille.

Yes.

- Mom? - Hey, honey.

I'm sorry I took so long to call you back.

I'm at a craft retreat upstate.

OK, um, I called because...

I have some news.

So far, my favorite part

was the decoupage tree ornament session.

You know, I really think I found my calling.

All the women said that mine was the best.

That's great, Mom.

You know, I really wish

you supported my interests more.

I go to all your events.

Uh, you've been to exactly one.

Um, but anyway...

I'm pregnant.

- Janet! - Hey, girl!

I love the sparkles.

It's lovely.

Did you hear what I said?

Hey, can I make the baby a decoupage ornament?

Or I could crochet little bootees

or, like, a little baby hat or, like, little mittens.

I could knit or crochet.

Mom, the situation is really complicated, though.

Um...

I'm not even sure I'm gonna go through with it.

Well, I mean, that's... that's beautiful too.

Um, um, I don't... I don't think you heard me right.

You're coming to the fair next month, right?

- Definitely. - You better, OK?

Mom, you're not even listening to me.

You know, I hope your baby doesn't

criticize you all the time.

I mean, I did my best.

That's all we can do.

Sure.

Why are you ruining my trip?

I'm not try... oh, my...

The doctor just told me to ask you,

did you have any complications,

or do we have any hereditary defects in our family?

You can tell your doctor that not everything is my fault.

Listen, I have to go.

Hi, this is, uh, Camille Parks.

Dr. Lisbon said that, uh,

you could refer me to someone for... um...

♪ I got my guard up...

termination, or...

you know, an abortion.

♪ I'll be like the sun, turn back into stardust..

Yeah, um, they... they have my number.

- ♪ I'm disappearing... - OK.

♪ That's on purpose, being honest ♪

♪ I'm overwhelmed, I'm overwhelmed, oh, oh ♪

♪ I'm so fucking tired ♪

♪ I feel so exhausted ♪

♪ I've been grinding all my life ♪

♪ Tell me why I gotta be so independent all the time ♪

♪ I'm tired of being tired ♪

♪ I'm tired of being tired, yeah ♪♪

Camille, Camille.

Oh, shit.

My sentiments exactly.

Uh, is Ian home?

I was just trying to catch him before work.

He and Portia had an appointment.

Great.

Thanks.

Camille Parks, you know I don't run,

but I will boomerang your ass back here with this Louboutin.

You know, I really... I really can't talk today.

But you're going to.

We have important business to discuss.

Did Ian...

I'm staying here while I'm renovating my brownstone,

and y'all asses weren't exactly quiet

the other night in the kitchen.

But my question is,

with eight million stories in the city,

how do you keep turning up on this one doorstep?

It's complicated.

No, it's simple.

You two lemonheads are just hell-bent

on making it complicated.

And now adding a baby to it?

Child, it's messy.

Well, I'm hoping that my choice makes it less messy.

And can you please just spare me the judgment?

If you'll spare me yours.

Come in.

Come on.

I am not gonna hurt you, not today.

Come on.

Nell's nightclub, 1993.

A party promoter named Dante, mm,

he ran through his supply of free drink tickets

trying to impress me.

Um...

you know, what girl isn't impressed

by free drink tickets?

One night, Dante showed up in these Enyce overalls,

and the way that one strap hit that chiseled shoulder...

you not too young to see where this is going.

N-no, I'm not.

The timing could not have been worse.

My life was finally starting to look

the way I wanted it to after a lot of hard, hard work.

So I decided to have an abortion.

Oh.

Oh.

Thank you for sharing that with me.

So you're saying that I'm making the right decision?

I'm saying I understand that this will be

one of the hardest decisions that you'll ever have to make.

But you have to do what will leave you

with the least regrets.

So then I shouldn't do it?

Baby girl, if you came here for shoulds, I ain't the one.

I came here to talk to Ian, but he's not here.

So y'all can keep arguing?

You better be glad that I was the one

who overheard you and Ian

and not Regina.

I know Regina does not want me to be her grandbaby's mom.

She knows the kind of mom I have,

and I'm sure that she's worried I'm gonna be the same flaky,

just distant, self-absorbed, undiagnosed hot mess

that my mom can be.

Is that what you're worried about?

Yes. Aren't you?

Isn't everybody?

So Regina never told you about our mom?

No.

Our mom is a big reason why Regina and I

didn't want to have kids.

But then... here came Ian.

Wait, Ian wasn't planned?

As planned as a gas station rose on Valentine's Day.

But Regina decided to have him and became a great mom.

Yeah, she is amazing.

She is.

She's not our mother,

any more than you'll be yours.

You know, we're not destined

to repeat our parents' mistakes.

We're out here breaking patterns, baby.

♪ So grateful, you might have saved me ♪

♪ From all of the dark in my head lately ♪

♪ You might have saved me ♪

♪ You made me feel something good lately ♪

♪ 'Cause you're good, baby ♪

♪ You might have saved me ♪

♪ You might have saved me ♪

♪ You made me feel something good lately...

Congratulations.

Everything is looking really good at this stage.

You have three boys and one girl.

Three boys and a girl?

Wow.

That suddenly made it very real to me.

- That's... I'm sorry. - Baby.

I'm suddenly kind of emotional.

Aw. Tears are to be expected.

This is a lot to take in.

I'm so excited.

When I first came here, I just wanted to freeze my eggs

'cause I was single, you know, and motherhood

was starting to feel further and further out of reach.

And now we have four little embryos.

That's enough to build a band.

- Right. It's a rock band. - Right.

I'm finally gonna be a mom.

Ian, you're gonna be a dad.

We really want to be parents.

We do.

The next step is to decide if you want to freeze

all the embryos now to implant at a later date

or decide to move forward right away

and... and try to implant one.

Oh, so if we... if we do it now,

I can get pregnant as soon as next month?

It absolutely does mean that.

There's a great chance of success,

though every experience, of course, is different.

Ian, can you believe this?

It's incredible.

I mean, it's, uh...

it's a miracle.

Mm.

I just have some paperwork.

Yeah, of course.

Uh...

♪ Falling in love with who I am ♪

♪ I don't have time for anything ♪

♪ That's gonna harm me ♪

♪ It may be hard to understand...

Chapter One...

♪ Words have the power to empower or destroy me now...

"Breaking Patterns."

♪ New beginning, hello ♪

♪ Hello, hello ♪

♪ So I can't fix your lonely ♪

♪ Gotta fix the whole me now ♪

♪ Don't need no one to hold me ♪

♪ But only if you can hold me down ♪

♪ Some things really happen for the better ♪

♪ I had to take a fall so I could settle ♪

♪ Found my peace and grounding ♪

♪ Now I'm levelled ♪

♪ New beginning, hello ♪

♪ Hello ♪

♪ Hello, hello ♪

♪ Hello ♪

♪ Hello, whoa-whoa, whoa-whoa ♪

♪ Whoa-whoa-whoa, whoa-whoa ♪

♪ It's the way it is ♪

♪ Feeling like a kid ♪

♪ All 'cause I'm letting go ♪

♪ All because I'm letting go ♪

♪ It's the way it is ♪

♪ Feeling like a kid ♪

♪ All because I'm letting go ♪

♪ All because I'm letting go ♪