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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:09,142 --> 00:00:13,479 [social worker] We have a new member of the group. 2 00:00:13,480 --> 00:00:16,149 She was diagnosed as stage four a month ago. 3 00:00:16,150 --> 00:00:18,484 This is Molly, and I warned her 4 00:00:18,485 --> 00:00:21,087 that the stage four group is kind of a wild bunch. 5 00:00:21,088 --> 00:00:23,889 Is there anything you wanted to discuss with the group? 6 00:00:23,890 --> 00:00:28,094 So, I actually was wondering if anyone had any tips 7 00:00:28,095 --> 00:00:30,130 for how to keep dating and having sex? 8 00:00:31,131 --> 00:00:34,067 I left my husband when I found out I was stage four, 9 00:00:34,068 --> 00:00:35,602 and I've been having sex. 10 00:00:35,603 --> 00:00:38,204 And I actually thought the sex would be better, 11 00:00:38,205 --> 00:00:40,206 but I'm starting to worry it might just be me. 12 00:00:40,207 --> 00:00:43,643 I guess I was wondering if anyone knows 13 00:00:43,644 --> 00:00:47,581 how to tell a stranger you just met on the internet how to make you come? 14 00:00:49,383 --> 00:00:50,433 Um 15 00:00:53,420 --> 00:00:55,255 Maybe you're with the wrong man. 16 00:01:10,704 --> 00:01:13,206 Come here. You look beautiful. 17 00:01:13,207 --> 00:01:16,243 [Molly] Who's this group? Do they have fun cancer? 18 00:01:18,712 --> 00:01:21,481 Early stagers. Stage one, two and three. 19 00:01:22,115 --> 00:01:26,152 They don't wanna see us. We're scary, like ghosts. 20 00:01:26,153 --> 00:01:27,320 Ooh. 21 00:01:27,854 --> 00:01:31,124 [group leader] Cookies are reserved for amazing women only. 22 00:01:31,125 --> 00:01:32,792 So everyone. 23 00:01:32,793 --> 00:01:36,196 [Molly] They look so happy. Oh, she's getting laid. 24 00:01:37,664 --> 00:01:38,732 Fuck it. 25 00:01:40,267 --> 00:01:42,302 [patient 1] Boom. Instant serotonin. 26 00:01:43,332 --> 00:01:46,072 [group cheering, clapping] 27 00:01:46,073 --> 00:01:47,373 - Hey. - [group leader] Yes! 28 00:01:47,374 --> 00:01:50,110 That mind-body connection is real. 29 00:01:50,611 --> 00:01:53,746 That stress and pain that we carry around from our childhood, 30 00:01:53,747 --> 00:01:55,682 that's what cancer feeds off of. 31 00:01:55,683 --> 00:01:59,085 A positive attitude can help fight cancer. 32 00:01:59,086 --> 00:02:00,620 [patient 2] Yes! 33 00:02:00,621 --> 00:02:03,489 [Molly] Yes. I need to be happier, more positive. 34 00:02:03,490 --> 00:02:06,292 That's how I'm gonna start having really good sex. 35 00:02:06,293 --> 00:02:09,796 I need to be one of those fully realized women who has sex while wearing jewelry. 36 00:02:09,797 --> 00:02:11,798 Long, dangly earrings. 37 00:02:11,799 --> 00:02:14,734 I wanna be so emotionally stable that I make eye contact 38 00:02:14,735 --> 00:02:16,469 every moment a man is inside me. 39 00:02:17,571 --> 00:02:19,239 Like, even during doggy style. 40 00:02:19,873 --> 00:02:22,075 I feel like I'm just gonna surround myself 41 00:02:22,076 --> 00:02:24,744 - with light and joy and positivity. - Mmm. Yes. 42 00:02:24,745 --> 00:02:26,646 - Like, I feel good. - Mm-hmm. 43 00:02:26,647 --> 00:02:29,249 But you lied to a cancer support group. 44 00:02:29,250 --> 00:02:30,650 - No. - Yes. 45 00:02:30,651 --> 00:02:32,785 I just didn't tell them everything. 46 00:02:32,786 --> 00:02:34,054 [phone vibrates] 47 00:02:35,055 --> 00:02:39,359 It's been a good first month. I feel healthy, and I'm having sex, 48 00:02:39,360 --> 00:02:43,296 - which is what I wanted. - Yeah. Yes. But you're not having orgasms. 49 00:02:43,297 --> 00:02:47,467 Oh, no, I am. I just do, like, a little buzz buzz after they leave. 50 00:02:47,468 --> 00:02:49,736 - Uh-huh. - I take my orgasm to go. 51 00:02:49,737 --> 00:02:53,640 Like a come doggie bag. Using a vibrator. 52 00:02:53,641 --> 00:02:54,691 [singsongy] Yes. 53 00:02:57,110 --> 00:03:01,614 But seriously, you never had an orgasm with Steve? For ten years? 54 00:03:01,615 --> 00:03:04,384 - No. No, like, I would get close. - Mm-hmm. 55 00:03:04,385 --> 00:03:06,352 Like, you know when it feels like a little sneeze? 56 00:03:06,353 --> 00:03:08,054 Like [imitates sneeze] 57 00:03:09,456 --> 00:03:11,625 - I don't I'm not sure - [imitates sneeze] 58 00:03:12,659 --> 00:03:14,260 - No? - No, I haven't felt that. 59 00:03:14,261 --> 00:03:15,795 [chitters] 60 00:03:15,796 --> 00:03:17,666 - I'd like to try that. Yeah. Yeah. - Yeah. 61 00:03:18,132 --> 00:03:20,266 - No. - Oh, my God. I can't with you. 62 00:03:20,267 --> 00:03:22,101 You can just, like, always come from sex. 63 00:03:22,102 --> 00:03:24,638 I like a good old-fashioned dick in vagina. 64 00:03:24,639 --> 00:03:28,074 - I'm a real Penetration Patty. - [sighs] 65 00:03:28,075 --> 00:03:30,605 [sighs] I just can't. Like, every time I get close, 66 00:03:30,606 --> 00:03:34,414 it's like somebody throws a blanket on my brain and the light goes out. 67 00:03:34,415 --> 00:03:36,482 And then I'm just, like, not there. 68 00:03:36,483 --> 00:03:38,484 [footsteps approaching] 69 00:03:38,485 --> 00:03:41,121 - Okay, Molly. - Here we go. 70 00:03:44,767 --> 00:03:47,760 [Nikki] Are you walking weird? 71 00:03:47,761 --> 00:03:50,196 No. Stop watching me walk. 72 00:03:50,917 --> 00:03:55,134 I know how you walk, and that is not how you walk. 73 00:03:55,135 --> 00:03:57,337 Now I am walking weird because you're watching me. 74 00:03:57,338 --> 00:04:00,528 No, I'm not. I don't care how you walk. Oh, my God. Get over yourself. 75 00:04:01,541 --> 00:04:03,476 - Okay, so- - She's walking weird. 76 00:04:03,477 --> 00:04:06,679 - [Nikki] Hi. - What? No, I'm I'm doing great. 77 00:04:06,680 --> 00:04:09,482 Okay. I-I don't know what "walking weird" means. 78 00:04:09,483 --> 00:04:13,152 It means I've seen her walk before, and now she's walking different. 79 00:04:13,153 --> 00:04:15,221 Well, any other symptoms that have come up? 80 00:04:15,222 --> 00:04:18,491 Um, yes. Insomnia, hot flashes 81 00:04:18,492 --> 00:04:21,294 and vaginal dryness during intercourse. 82 00:04:21,295 --> 00:04:22,762 [Molly] I am, yes. 83 00:04:22,763 --> 00:04:24,764 [in Scottish accent] A wee bit dry. [chuckles] 84 00:04:24,765 --> 00:04:26,600 A wee bit dry in my vagina. 85 00:04:27,034 --> 00:04:31,137 Oh, my God. Did I just pretend my vagina has a Scottish accent? 86 00:04:31,138 --> 00:04:33,072 Okay, Sonya, you wanna take this? 87 00:04:33,073 --> 00:04:34,823 - It's a mental health issue. - Yeah. 88 00:04:34,842 --> 00:04:38,344 How is having a dry vagina a mental health issue? 89 00:04:38,345 --> 00:04:41,081 Well, it's be- You know, women, you know 90 00:04:41,682 --> 00:04:44,150 Emotional feelings. 91 00:04:44,151 --> 00:04:46,653 It's so common. I have some really fun lube options that I can offer you. 92 00:04:46,654 --> 00:04:49,122 Would you like some? Slick, slick, slick. 93 00:04:49,123 --> 00:04:50,256 Yes, yes, yes. 94 00:04:50,257 --> 00:04:51,517 [Dr. Pankowitz chuckles] 95 00:04:51,726 --> 00:04:54,127 Check, please. Waiter, get me out of here. 96 00:04:54,128 --> 00:04:56,062 Moving on. 97 00:04:56,630 --> 00:04:59,666 Okay, so we're going into full attack mode. 98 00:05:00,134 --> 00:05:03,269 Your numbers are holding on leuprolide and letrozole, 99 00:05:03,270 --> 00:05:04,650 so I'm gonna add Ribociclib. 100 00:05:05,206 --> 00:05:08,741 And I am supposed to have a licensed clinical social worker check in 101 00:05:08,742 --> 00:05:11,144 to see if you are mentally fit, 102 00:05:11,145 --> 00:05:16,749 because palliative care is just such an important part of our team. Huh? 103 00:05:16,750 --> 00:05:18,785 And I I believe that. 104 00:05:18,786 --> 00:05:21,354 Okay, but just so that you have all the information, 105 00:05:21,355 --> 00:05:25,491 this combination of medicine can really cause your mood to change. 106 00:05:25,492 --> 00:05:27,093 Feelings can become amplified. 107 00:05:29,529 --> 00:05:32,065 [Molly] This is it. It's gonna happen tonight. 108 00:05:33,000 --> 00:05:36,910 You know, I almost never take elevators 'cause I'm trying to bulk up my calves. 109 00:05:42,242 --> 00:05:44,344 [groans] This fucking guy. 110 00:05:44,711 --> 00:05:46,446 [elevator dings, doors open] 111 00:05:50,851 --> 00:05:53,419 Stay positive. Focus on your date. 112 00:05:53,420 --> 00:05:56,456 He's 25, he smells like bar soap. 113 00:05:57,024 --> 00:05:58,791 You're both wearing cool jackets. 114 00:05:58,792 --> 00:06:00,693 What is that taco? Why does it smell so bad? 115 00:06:00,694 --> 00:06:03,162 Hi, I'm Molly. I moved in across from you last month. 116 00:06:03,163 --> 00:06:06,473 I wrote you a note about eating food in the elevator. Did you get it? 117 00:06:06,867 --> 00:06:08,068 I did. 118 00:06:13,187 --> 00:06:18,778 'Cause I would just really love to keep our shared spaces clean. 119 00:06:18,779 --> 00:06:21,648 It just really helps me to Mentally. 120 00:06:30,324 --> 00:06:32,359 Joy and light. Joy and light. 121 00:06:32,860 --> 00:06:34,594 Fucking joy and fucking- 122 00:06:40,467 --> 00:06:42,735 [console chimes] 123 00:06:42,736 --> 00:06:44,704 [loud TV sounds] 124 00:06:45,205 --> 00:06:47,607 I'm sorry. My neighbor plays video games. 125 00:06:48,275 --> 00:06:51,044 It's cool. It's like we're making out in a battlefield. 126 00:06:51,778 --> 00:06:53,179 Uh, sort of. 127 00:06:54,514 --> 00:06:55,715 I like to keep my bra on. 128 00:06:57,250 --> 00:06:58,484 You're amazing. 129 00:06:58,485 --> 00:07:00,386 I am amazing and you're amazing, 130 00:07:00,387 --> 00:07:02,622 and I'm a fully-realized, emotionally-stable woman. 131 00:07:02,623 --> 00:07:05,453 And you don't have any hair on your balls, and let's fuck. 132 00:07:13,400 --> 00:07:14,501 Can I touch you? 133 00:07:17,237 --> 00:07:20,207 Okay, it doesn't have to be weird. Make it sexy. 134 00:07:22,109 --> 00:07:23,777 Is that hand sanitizer? 135 00:07:24,712 --> 00:07:29,215 Oh, no, it's lube. Okay. It's a lot. Do we need all that? 136 00:07:29,216 --> 00:07:30,650 - Yes. - Okay. 137 00:07:41,428 --> 00:07:44,664 Talk to me. Tell me what you like. Tell me what you want. 138 00:07:44,665 --> 00:07:48,168 Stay connected. Eye contact. Like a normal- 139 00:07:49,236 --> 00:07:51,605 [high-pitched ringing] 140 00:07:55,509 --> 00:07:56,576 [ringing fades] 141 00:08:00,247 --> 00:08:03,216 I don't know. What do- What do you like? 142 00:08:03,650 --> 00:08:06,386 Um, clasp my balls? 143 00:08:09,122 --> 00:08:10,490 I can clasp your balls. 144 00:08:12,526 --> 00:08:15,262 Uh, um, clasp. 145 00:08:15,663 --> 00:08:19,399 Am I tugging down, or, like, a loose handshake with your balls? 146 00:08:21,101 --> 00:08:22,151 Clasp. 147 00:08:22,569 --> 00:08:23,770 - Clasp. - No. 148 00:08:24,238 --> 00:08:26,072 - Clasp? - Clasp? 149 00:08:26,073 --> 00:08:27,273 [shower running] 150 00:08:27,274 --> 00:08:29,109 [running stops] 151 00:08:31,311 --> 00:08:32,445 [gasps] Oh. 152 00:08:35,315 --> 00:08:39,352 I'm sorry, I know you, right? I know you, right? 153 00:08:39,353 --> 00:08:42,622 Yeah. You live here? I shower here. 154 00:08:42,623 --> 00:08:45,573 - I knew you from the shower. - That's right. That's how we met. 155 00:08:51,398 --> 00:08:53,628 I'm sorry we haven't been having a lot of sex. 156 00:08:54,201 --> 00:08:57,604 I just I feel like I always smell like the hospital. 157 00:08:58,138 --> 00:09:00,307 I'm just worried about you. 158 00:09:00,875 --> 00:09:04,444 That's all. Like, are you really okay? 159 00:09:08,248 --> 00:09:11,784 I can't actually talk about it. Let's just have sex. 160 00:09:11,785 --> 00:09:15,188 - Oh. Oh. Oh, wow. Oh, gosh. - I know, babe. 161 00:09:15,555 --> 00:09:17,290 [Nikki] You're just 162 00:09:17,291 --> 00:09:19,525 - You're dressed so slutty. Sorry. - Okay, I'm- 163 00:09:19,526 --> 00:09:22,161 - Hold on. I actually wanna talk about it. - No. 164 00:09:22,162 --> 00:09:25,098 - Like, we don't have to have sex. - Yes. Mm-hmm. Yes, we do. 165 00:09:25,099 --> 00:09:26,399 - Okay. Okay. - Yes, we do. 166 00:09:38,258 --> 00:09:42,749 Hello. This is Patricia. Thank you for holding. 167 00:09:42,750 --> 00:09:44,350 Please provide your case number. 168 00:09:44,351 --> 00:09:46,119 - What the fuck? - I'm 169 00:09:47,387 --> 00:09:50,356 I'm on hold with Molly's insurance company. 170 00:09:50,357 --> 00:09:52,759 - Hello? Can I help you? - This whole time? 171 00:09:52,760 --> 00:09:54,761 It usually takes 45 minutes. Wait. Hold on. 172 00:09:54,762 --> 00:09:57,430 - Is someone there? - I'm here, ma'am. 173 00:09:57,431 --> 00:10:00,233 Can you just rub your dick until I'm done? It won't take that long. Or I can rub it. 174 00:10:00,234 --> 00:10:02,135 I can rub it while I do this. 175 00:10:02,136 --> 00:10:04,786 Excuse me? Is this a prank call? Are you a prankster? 176 00:10:05,105 --> 00:10:08,608 I'm not a prankster, okay? I'm talking to my boyfriend. Just grow up. 177 00:10:08,609 --> 00:10:10,610 Ma'am. 178 00:10:10,611 --> 00:10:11,544 - I'll finish in the bathroom. It's okay. - Please don't- 179 00:10:11,545 --> 00:10:12,712 I love you. Okay. Bye. 180 00:10:13,480 --> 00:10:20,587 - Hello. Case number "J8329390YM." - Hello. 181 00:10:22,255 --> 00:10:24,457 - Do you mind clasping - Fuck. 182 00:10:34,101 --> 00:10:36,751 No, that's the taint. Come on, get your shit together. 183 00:10:39,373 --> 00:10:40,423 Uh, clasp. 184 00:10:41,575 --> 00:10:44,611 - No. Clasp. - Do you mean cup? 185 00:10:44,612 --> 00:10:46,580 No, clasp. 186 00:10:46,581 --> 00:10:49,282 What if I push them inside you and move you around like a puppet? 187 00:10:49,283 --> 00:10:51,517 Why don't we get the vacuum cleaner and suck your balls up into it? 188 00:10:51,518 --> 00:10:53,286 Why don't I sit on them or kick them? 189 00:10:53,287 --> 00:10:55,755 That's hot. I'd kick you in the fucking balls. 190 00:10:55,756 --> 00:10:58,358 - Clasp. - My shoulder hurts. 191 00:10:58,359 --> 00:11:01,094 - Can you stop saying "clasp"? - Well 192 00:11:01,795 --> 00:11:04,497 you're not saying anything. Tell me what you want. 193 00:11:04,498 --> 00:11:05,765 Tell me what feels good. 194 00:11:07,100 --> 00:11:08,435 I told you, I don't know. 195 00:11:09,003 --> 00:11:11,171 How do you not know what feels good? 196 00:11:11,972 --> 00:11:14,474 I'm sorry. It's just, the people I have sex with, 197 00:11:14,475 --> 00:11:16,825 they tell me what they like and what feels good. 198 00:11:17,177 --> 00:11:21,080 Especially older women, and that's one of the reasons why I- 199 00:11:21,081 --> 00:11:22,182 Leave. 200 00:11:31,458 --> 00:11:34,661 [sighs] I'm sorry. I just wanted you to cla 201 00:11:40,267 --> 00:11:42,335 [vibrator vibrating] 202 00:11:42,336 --> 00:11:44,604 [panting, grunting] 203 00:11:51,411 --> 00:11:52,461 [neighbor moaning] 204 00:11:55,115 --> 00:11:56,195 [moaning continues] 205 00:11:58,318 --> 00:11:59,619 [vibrator stops] 206 00:12:00,220 --> 00:12:04,791 What's happening? He's jerking off 'cause I'm jerking off? 207 00:12:04,792 --> 00:12:06,225 That's basically a crime. 208 00:12:06,226 --> 00:12:07,493 [neighbor, moaning continues] 209 00:12:07,494 --> 00:12:09,229 [vibrator starts] 210 00:12:09,663 --> 00:12:11,064 Oh, no. 211 00:12:13,300 --> 00:12:16,036 He hates me. He hates himself. 212 00:12:16,837 --> 00:12:19,272 And he's probably got guacamole on his hands. 213 00:12:19,273 --> 00:12:21,308 [Molly, moaning intensifies] 214 00:12:36,123 --> 00:12:37,390 [console chimes] 215 00:12:38,292 --> 00:12:40,093 [videogame sounds] 216 00:12:40,460 --> 00:12:41,595 [vibrator stops] 217 00:12:46,533 --> 00:12:47,600 It was a mistake. 218 00:12:47,601 --> 00:12:49,436 A mistake orgasm? 219 00:12:49,970 --> 00:12:51,771 What is a mistake orgasm? 220 00:12:51,772 --> 00:12:54,807 He's disgusting. He wanted me to hear him jerking off. 221 00:12:54,808 --> 00:12:56,809 Totally. And you were also jerking off. 222 00:12:56,810 --> 00:12:59,646 I came so hard I think I pulled a stomach muscle. 223 00:12:59,647 --> 00:13:01,614 That's That's beside the point. 224 00:13:01,615 --> 00:13:04,745 How did it make you feel afterwards? That's the main question. 225 00:13:04,885 --> 00:13:06,786 Did you feel good? 226 00:13:06,787 --> 00:13:09,489 It was like a full marching band in my pants. 227 00:13:09,490 --> 00:13:10,724 It was a mistake. 228 00:13:13,427 --> 00:13:15,595 Okay, I'm ready. 229 00:13:17,197 --> 00:13:21,107 Let's take intense mood-altering drugs that may or may not turn my poop black. 230 00:13:25,238 --> 00:13:27,073 Let's enjoy it. 231 00:13:27,074 --> 00:13:28,408 Yeah. 232 00:13:28,409 --> 00:13:30,076 Find your joy! 233 00:13:30,077 --> 00:13:31,110 Yeah! 234 00:13:31,111 --> 00:13:32,479 Fuck, yeah! 235 00:13:34,581 --> 00:13:39,486 We're literally not even on step one. 236 00:13:41,555 --> 00:13:43,256 [crying] I hate it. 237 00:13:43,257 --> 00:13:45,625 It's not even a coffee table. 238 00:13:45,626 --> 00:13:47,496 It doesn't bring the space together. 239 00:13:55,535 --> 00:13:57,704 Course you're awake too, you sad fuck. 240 00:13:58,238 --> 00:14:01,341 What are you wearing? Your little basketball shorts. 241 00:14:01,342 --> 00:14:04,477 I can see the hair poking out from the hole in your T-shirt. 242 00:14:04,478 --> 00:14:07,547 Bet you shed like a dog. I hate everything about you. 243 00:14:07,548 --> 00:14:09,449 There's trash on the floor. 244 00:14:12,586 --> 00:14:13,753 Look! 245 00:14:19,793 --> 00:14:23,763 You think you can just make a mess and expect that other people will clean it up? 246 00:14:25,832 --> 00:14:27,067 Yeah. 247 00:14:29,369 --> 00:14:30,470 Pick it up. 248 00:14:36,710 --> 00:14:41,348 Oh, my God. You're doing what I say. 249 00:14:54,394 --> 00:14:56,196 Now say, "I'm disgusting." 250 00:14:59,199 --> 00:15:00,333 I'm disgusting. 251 00:15:08,108 --> 00:15:09,158 Say it again. 252 00:15:11,645 --> 00:15:12,779 I'm disgusting. 253 00:15:16,416 --> 00:15:18,184 [door opens] 254 00:15:20,520 --> 00:15:21,755 [door closes] 255 00:15:30,530 --> 00:15:32,732 - [neighbor moaning] - [vibrator starts] 256 00:15:38,551 --> 00:15:41,608 - Oh, stop it! - [vibrator stops] 257 00:15:41,609 --> 00:15:42,642 [moaning stops] 258 00:15:42,643 --> 00:15:44,044 Stop it. 259 00:15:45,379 --> 00:15:47,480 [neighbor] Please. Please can I come? 260 00:15:48,815 --> 00:15:50,784 No! 261 00:15:59,826 --> 00:16:01,595 You were strong. 262 00:16:06,366 --> 00:16:10,336 I know. I know, I know. Listen, my friend has cancer and I'm taking care of her. 263 00:16:10,337 --> 00:16:13,072 I swear, like, when I don't have anywhere to be, 264 00:16:13,073 --> 00:16:14,707 the appointment does start on time, 265 00:16:14,708 --> 00:16:17,343 and when I do have somewhere to be, it takes hours. 266 00:16:17,344 --> 00:16:20,513 And I can't complain to her because she is terminally ill, 267 00:16:20,514 --> 00:16:25,485 which is worse than being late for rehearsal, I feel like. Right? 268 00:16:25,486 --> 00:16:28,421 Your performance today is 269 00:16:39,700 --> 00:16:43,403 Is that Would that be a dead bird? 270 00:16:44,371 --> 00:16:45,572 Yeah. I get it. 271 00:16:47,541 --> 00:16:49,175 Please don't fire me. 272 00:16:51,345 --> 00:16:52,478 [chuckles] 273 00:16:52,479 --> 00:16:54,481 Oh, I'm feeling these drugs. 274 00:16:54,882 --> 00:16:58,151 I don't think anyone can tell. I think I look normal. 275 00:16:58,685 --> 00:17:02,622 I thought we could all talk a little about our cancer journeys. 276 00:17:03,423 --> 00:17:06,493 - When I started my cancer journey - [Molly chuckling] 277 00:17:10,831 --> 00:17:12,065 Sorry. 278 00:17:13,233 --> 00:17:14,283 I just 279 00:17:15,169 --> 00:17:17,604 When you say "cancer journey" it just I'm sorry. 280 00:17:17,605 --> 00:17:20,075 It just makes it sound like it's a really fun trip. 281 00:17:21,375 --> 00:17:22,742 No. 282 00:17:26,113 --> 00:17:28,014 Why don't you speak to your journey? 283 00:17:28,415 --> 00:17:32,352 I got cancer, and then it was gone for two years. 284 00:17:32,353 --> 00:17:36,323 And then it came back as stage four. 285 00:17:38,759 --> 00:17:40,493 Shit. 286 00:17:40,494 --> 00:17:44,464 Sorry. I didn't tell you guys I'm stage four 287 00:17:44,465 --> 00:17:47,033 'cause I wanted to be in this group. 288 00:17:47,034 --> 00:17:51,337 Anyway, the whole time that I thought that I was healthy, my body was just like 289 00:17:51,338 --> 00:17:55,208 like, waiting to give me more cancer. [chuckles] 290 00:17:55,209 --> 00:17:57,610 Uh, that's my cancer journey. 291 00:17:57,611 --> 00:18:01,014 Molly, I'm so sorry. I'm gonna have to ask you to leave the group. 292 00:18:01,715 --> 00:18:03,783 - What? - What's happening to you 293 00:18:03,784 --> 00:18:06,052 is their worst fear. 294 00:18:07,254 --> 00:18:08,421 Mine too. 295 00:18:09,122 --> 00:18:13,026 What if we've gone through all this, and the cancer comes back? 296 00:18:14,127 --> 00:18:15,177 Hey. 297 00:18:20,100 --> 00:18:23,703 Joy and light. Fucking joy and fucking light. 298 00:18:35,515 --> 00:18:36,583 [Molly groans] 299 00:18:37,651 --> 00:18:39,486 Pick up your fucking trash! 300 00:18:39,920 --> 00:18:41,688 What the fuck is wrong with you? 301 00:18:42,589 --> 00:18:45,225 Are you gonna go back inside and jerk off to this? 302 00:18:46,660 --> 00:18:47,710 Yeah. 303 00:18:51,632 --> 00:18:52,682 Let me watch. 304 00:19:00,374 --> 00:19:02,364 - [door closes] - Take off your clothes. 305 00:19:04,244 --> 00:19:07,714 - Why do you have this? - I work in city government for 311. 306 00:19:09,383 --> 00:19:10,584 Touch your dick. 307 00:19:15,222 --> 00:19:17,590 - Can I get some lotion? - You do what I say. 308 00:19:17,591 --> 00:19:18,641 Okay. 309 00:19:21,261 --> 00:19:23,063 Yeah, you should get some lotion. 310 00:19:29,136 --> 00:19:30,437 What else should I do? 311 00:19:33,407 --> 00:19:35,041 You like this? 312 00:19:35,042 --> 00:19:37,392 - Yeah. I like it. - Did I say you can fucking talk? 313 00:19:44,484 --> 00:19:45,534 Is this your dad? 314 00:19:45,535 --> 00:19:50,390 How did such an attractive man produce such a sack of shit like you? 315 00:19:50,391 --> 00:19:53,193 That's not my dad. That's Bill de Blasio. 316 00:19:55,796 --> 00:19:57,463 Is his dick as boring as yours? 317 00:19:57,464 --> 00:19:58,765 More. 318 00:19:58,766 --> 00:20:02,101 You like it when I talk about your little medium-sized dick? 319 00:20:02,102 --> 00:20:04,692 Look at the way you're jerking off. Your pinky is out. 320 00:20:05,005 --> 00:20:08,174 You think your dick is fancy? That sucks. 321 00:20:08,575 --> 00:20:13,046 I hate that. I want to hit you and kick you in the dick and destroy you. 322 00:20:14,514 --> 00:20:17,317 Do it. Do it. Kick me. 323 00:20:17,918 --> 00:20:20,487 Do it. Kick me in the dick. 324 00:20:22,255 --> 00:20:23,323 Please. 325 00:20:37,471 --> 00:20:40,340 [screams] Shit! 326 00:20:41,241 --> 00:20:43,209 [neighbor] Oh, God. [groans] 327 00:20:43,210 --> 00:20:44,444 [Molly groans] 328 00:20:45,479 --> 00:20:47,414 What Are you okay? 329 00:20:48,682 --> 00:20:50,183 Is that part of this? 330 00:20:50,184 --> 00:20:51,484 [Molly screams] 331 00:20:54,855 --> 00:20:59,525 treatment with leuprolide, letrozole, 332 00:20:59,526 --> 00:21:02,161 - and she just started Ribociclib- - We gave her morphine. 333 00:21:02,162 --> 00:21:04,097 It's not fucking working! 334 00:21:04,098 --> 00:21:06,366 - I don't think it's working. - The hormones she's on 335 00:21:06,367 --> 00:21:10,203 - can amplify what she's already feeling. - Really? That's so interesting! 336 00:21:10,204 --> 00:21:12,605 Fucking bastard! Get me a fucking doctor! 337 00:21:12,606 --> 00:21:15,475 - I am a doctor. - Then why are you so young? 338 00:21:16,710 --> 00:21:20,113 I don't want this virgin on my cancer journey! 339 00:21:20,647 --> 00:21:22,782 - She doesn't mean that. - I do! I really do! 340 00:21:22,783 --> 00:21:25,433 - She does mean that. - I'm gonna page palliative care. 341 00:21:25,786 --> 00:21:27,621 Excuse I'm 342 00:21:27,622 --> 00:21:33,226 I don't know what to do right now. I don't know how to help you. 343 00:21:33,227 --> 00:21:35,595 - Help me! - Okay. 344 00:21:38,265 --> 00:21:41,401 Can I get another doctor? Do you Who else do you have? 345 00:21:41,402 --> 00:21:44,337 Like, I need, like, a doctor, like an older doctor-doctor. 346 00:21:44,338 --> 00:21:46,773 - You can't choose your own doctor. - [groans] Yeah. I can. 347 00:21:46,774 --> 00:21:49,342 - You can't choose your own fucking doctor. - What are you doing? 348 00:21:49,343 --> 00:21:51,678 - Hey. Can you see my friend? - Of course. 349 00:21:51,679 --> 00:21:53,813 Oh, thank you so much. Why don't you take some fucking notes? 350 00:21:53,814 --> 00:21:55,615 Here. 351 00:21:55,616 --> 00:21:58,326 Hi, is there anything I can do to make your day better? 352 00:21:58,585 --> 00:22:00,754 Please, please help me. 353 00:22:01,521 --> 00:22:02,589 Okay. 354 00:22:11,531 --> 00:22:15,235 - Are you a clown? - Oh, my God. You're the hospital clown. 355 00:22:15,236 --> 00:22:17,504 - Yeah. It's on my jacket. - Get out. Get out. 356 00:22:19,239 --> 00:22:22,576 Why does it hurt this much? Did I kick his dick off? 357 00:22:25,445 --> 00:22:27,514 Hey, hey. Look at me. Take a breath. 358 00:22:28,148 --> 00:22:31,585 The best thing you can do for Molly is to breathe. Yeah. 359 00:22:31,986 --> 00:22:35,622 I'm fine. This is not about me. I just- I got I fucked it up. 360 00:22:35,623 --> 00:22:38,157 I fucked up and I got the fucking clown doctor. 361 00:22:38,158 --> 00:22:39,358 Have you been drinking? 362 00:22:40,227 --> 00:22:43,696 I got fired from my job, and I went and I drank a whole lot, 363 00:22:43,697 --> 00:22:46,799 but don't worry about me. Can you just please help her? 364 00:22:46,800 --> 00:22:49,769 - Please, please, please, please. - Okay. Drink that. 365 00:22:50,804 --> 00:22:52,038 Molly? 366 00:23:04,651 --> 00:23:09,088 I told them that she was in pain, and it was like they did not even hear me. 367 00:23:09,089 --> 00:23:11,190 And you're white. 368 00:23:11,191 --> 00:23:14,227 Black women say they're in pain and they give them some red Jell-O. 369 00:23:14,228 --> 00:23:15,828 That's why I do this. 370 00:23:15,829 --> 00:23:19,198 Pain is political. Pleasure is political. 371 00:23:19,199 --> 00:23:21,301 You know, don't get me started. 372 00:23:21,302 --> 00:23:24,037 [Nikki] I want to get you started, and I want you to never stop. 373 00:23:24,038 --> 00:23:25,105 [Sonya chuckles] 374 00:23:36,283 --> 00:23:37,350 Hi. 375 00:23:40,187 --> 00:23:41,555 Are you in any pain? 376 00:23:43,657 --> 00:23:45,025 No. 377 00:23:47,828 --> 00:23:51,197 Okay, the doctor came in while you were sleeping. 378 00:23:51,198 --> 00:23:56,135 And you have a fracture in your femur, 379 00:23:56,136 --> 00:24:00,306 and they think that it's probably because the cancer in your hip 380 00:24:00,307 --> 00:24:02,075 has spread a little bit. 381 00:24:06,847 --> 00:24:08,781 You said I was walking weird. 382 00:24:08,782 --> 00:24:11,218 Yeah, I know how baby walks. 383 00:24:11,786 --> 00:24:16,055 I also want you to know that they are gonna put a rod in your leg 384 00:24:16,056 --> 00:24:20,193 to prophylactically stabilize the femur bone. 385 00:24:20,661 --> 00:24:23,311 They're gonna come in and go over all of this with you. 386 00:24:25,265 --> 00:24:27,100 They're going to put a rod in my leg? 387 00:24:27,101 --> 00:24:29,369 Yeah, I know. I know. 388 00:24:31,305 --> 00:24:32,672 Oh, Molly. 389 00:24:34,708 --> 00:24:36,309 It's my fault. 390 00:24:37,844 --> 00:24:40,346 You know, I tried so hard to be positive 391 00:24:40,347 --> 00:24:44,284 but I'm just like a naturally fucked-up, negative person, and it's my fault. 392 00:24:44,285 --> 00:24:46,319 No, no, no, no, no, no, no. No. 393 00:24:47,654 --> 00:24:50,423 Cancer doesn't care if you're a positive person. 394 00:24:50,957 --> 00:24:54,394 Positive, wonderful, beautiful people die all the time. 395 00:24:56,763 --> 00:25:00,300 It's my stupid, fucked-up, broken body. I hate it. 396 00:25:00,701 --> 00:25:02,469 I got cancer twice. 397 00:25:03,370 --> 00:25:06,406 I can't even have normal orgasms from normal sex. 398 00:25:06,407 --> 00:25:10,377 Normal sex? Who decides what that means? 399 00:25:11,278 --> 00:25:12,328 Just tell them. 400 00:25:15,215 --> 00:25:18,585 I made my neighbor jerk off in front of me 401 00:25:18,586 --> 00:25:21,554 while I said truly horrible things about his penis 402 00:25:21,555 --> 00:25:23,223 and then I kicked him in the dick. 403 00:25:25,258 --> 00:25:26,326 And I loved it. 404 00:25:26,327 --> 00:25:30,497 Yes. Amazing. Yes! Yes. Yes. 405 00:25:31,465 --> 00:25:33,099 Why is that amazing? 406 00:25:33,100 --> 00:25:35,702 Because you figured out something that you want. 407 00:25:35,703 --> 00:25:39,139 No. I don't want to have to hurt people to have orgasms. 408 00:25:39,806 --> 00:25:41,107 I 409 00:25:42,075 --> 00:25:43,309 What is wrong with me? 410 00:25:43,310 --> 00:25:44,477 Nothing. 411 00:25:44,478 --> 00:25:45,712 Mm-mmm. Mm-mmm. 412 00:25:45,713 --> 00:25:47,447 Nothing the fuck is wrong with you. 413 00:25:47,448 --> 00:25:50,416 You early millennials are so tragic. 414 00:25:50,417 --> 00:25:55,222 You know, you think sex is just penetration and orgasms. Why? 415 00:25:57,524 --> 00:25:59,334 Because that's what Samantha said. 416 00:26:00,327 --> 00:26:01,661 Sex 417 00:26:03,196 --> 00:26:04,631 Sex is a wave. 418 00:26:05,732 --> 00:26:09,536 You know, sex Sex is a mindset. 419 00:26:10,137 --> 00:26:14,741 Sex is the nonlinear emergent phenomenon 420 00:26:14,742 --> 00:26:18,144 that arises when two or more beings 421 00:26:19,279 --> 00:26:21,414 they touch energy fields. 422 00:26:21,948 --> 00:26:24,083 Here's the thing about your body: 423 00:26:24,084 --> 00:26:25,385 you have to listen to it. 424 00:26:25,386 --> 00:26:28,521 Yes, maybe it's saying something that you don't want 425 00:26:28,522 --> 00:26:30,356 and you don't understand, 426 00:26:30,357 --> 00:26:34,628 but give it a chance and listen to it. Both of you. 427 00:26:36,330 --> 00:26:38,197 Here. Here's my card. 428 00:26:38,198 --> 00:26:40,133 I want you to call me whenever. 429 00:26:40,734 --> 00:26:42,135 Thanks. 430 00:26:42,136 --> 00:26:43,570 Sleep well. 431 00:26:47,541 --> 00:26:49,609 You kicked him in the dick? 432 00:26:49,610 --> 00:26:51,745 [? The Earth Won't Hold Me plays] 433 00:26:54,548 --> 00:26:59,752 ? I get so tall on being me ? 434 00:26:59,753 --> 00:27:05,592 ? Oh, I am joy, I am a song There is no place I don't belong ? 435 00:27:06,093 --> 00:27:11,565 ? And now the earth can't hold me The earth will never hold me ? 436 00:27:11,932 --> 00:27:17,637 ? I know the earth won't hold me While I want to live ? 437 00:27:19,573 --> 00:27:24,711 ? I follow walls that lead to space ? 438 00:27:24,712 --> 00:27:31,217 ? I tumble into what I say I track the dark and find the day ? 439 00:27:31,218 --> 00:27:36,489 ? And now the earth can't hold me The earth will never hold me ? 440 00:27:36,490 --> 00:27:43,129 ? 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