All language subtitles for Holly.Hobbie.S04E06.The.Anxious.Achiever..1080p.DSNP.WEB-DL.DDP5.1.H.264-LAZY_track3_[eng]

- People always talk about
knowing your own mind

like it's the easiest
thing in the world.

But I mean,

what if what your mind's
telling you is wrong?

- I got two wrong
in the math section?

How is that possible?

This has to be a mistake.

There's no way I got
that question wrong.

- You're looking for
the possible values of C, right?

- Yeah.

- It's A. 31 and 41.

- That's...

correct?

- Don't look so surprised.

I took the SATs last year.
Did pretty well too.

- What about you guys?
Shouldn't you be studying?

The stakes are high, people!
- Amy...

you have been studying
for this test

since seventh grade.
You're gonna do great, okay?

- I don't understand
why none of you

are taking this seriously.

This is a huge deal

that will affect the course
of your entire life.

(sneezing)
- Gesundheit.

- Are you sick?

- Oh no. It's probably
just allergies.

- No, no, no, no.

I cannot get sick
before this test.

- Oh wait, I do kind of have
a tickle

at the back of my throat.

Maybe I am coming down
with a cold.

- Where are you going?

- To study at home.

Away from this cesspool
of disease.

(sneezing)

♪ You and me
run to a different beat ♪

♪ We are brave
Lead the way lead the way ♪

♪ Be the you inside ♪

♪ And watch
the world take flight ♪

♪ We are brave
Lead the way lead the way ♪

♪ Be the change ♪

♪ Be the change ♪

♪ Gotta be the change ♪

(bright music)

- Thought there was
an open mic tonight?

- Oscar was coming down
with a cold.

So I can't risk getting sick
by cramming myself

with a bunch of disease vectors
right before the SAT.

- Is that what this
is all about?

- Yes. It's an immune booster.
Piper sent me the recipe.

- Is it worth pointing out
that there's very little

science to suggest that any
of this actually works?

- I have to try something, okay?

(clears throat)

My throat feels kind of dry.

Maybe a little tickly?

Oh no.

I think it's happening.

I shouldn't have even been
at Calico in the first place.

- Relax, Amy.

You wouldn't have symptoms
if you just caught the cold.

If your throat's sore,
it's something else.

- Like cancer?

I feel kind of sweaty.

- You just need a glass of water
and a good night's sleep.

Okay?

- Yeah. Maybe.

- I can't watch.

- She's gonna do it.
- No, she's not.

- okay, nobody say a word.
- No way!

- What did I just say?

- They just cancelled
the eighth grade grad trip

to Coaster Dome Amusement Park.

- They what?!
They can't do that!

- What a shame. Oh well.

- The trip to Coaster Dome
is a tradition.

Robbie and Holly
are always going on about

how it was the best,
most fun time ever, okay?

They cannot deprive us!
How dare they deprive us!

- Well, I mean, it's not
the end of the world.

We'll probably get to do
something else.

- Oh yeah? Like what?

- Well, the high school seniors
always paint some sort of mural.

Maybe we could do that?

- Yeah, because painting
a stupid wall is as awesome

going to an amusement park.
- It says here

that some students
didn't feel included?

- Who could possibly
not feel included?

- I mean, I guess someone
who hates rollercoasters.

- Great, now you're
gonna tell me

there are people that hate fun.

- Well, you know what?
I don't know about you guys,

but I am not going to stand by
while these fun haters

decide who can and can't go
to Coaster Dome.

- What are you going to do?
- The only thing a fun-loving

rollercoaster aficionado
such as myself can do.

I'm going to save our trip.

(sighing)

- Hey. What's up?
We missed you at the open mic.

- Hey. How'd it go?

- Russel's one-man barber shop
quartet was actually

better than anticipated.

And we wrapped up super early
so that we could rest up

for the test tomorrow.
You'd be proud.

- That was very
responsible of you.

- Alright, what's wrong?
You sound weird.

- I think I have cancer, Holly.

- What kind is it this time?

- Okay, never mind.

- I'm sorry it's just...

you do this sometimes, okay?

You're probably just freaking
out about the test.

- Yeah. Maybe.

- Amy, listen, you are probably
the most prepared

anyone has ever been
for the SAT.

Just try and get
a good night sleep.

- Have you been talking
to my mom?

- I'll see you tomorrow.
You'll be fine. I promise.

- Bye.

(sighs)

(sighs)

- Okay, which one sounds better,
Funnel Cake Heartbreak,

or Less Hate,
More Rollercoasters?

- Well, in my experience
naming jams,

the rhyme always wins.
- Okay.

- But I also have no idea
what you're talking about.

- The faculty cancelled our trip
to Coaster Dome.

So now, I'm getting
everyone to protest

until they un-cancel it.
- Oh, I get it,

you should make one
that says Fun Fair?

More like unfair!
- Yes, that's perfect.

- Oh, look at you doing
protesty stuff.

You're fighting
for the greater good,

or whatever Holly
is always going on about.

- Yeah, also funnel cakes,
bumper cars and midway games.

- You know you don't actually
need to school's permission

to go to Coaster Dome? You can
just organize your own trip.

- Robbie Hobbie,
you're a genius.

(man): The SATs are about
to begin.

Everyone, you have 65 minutes
for this section.

(bell ringing)

(pensive music)

(heart beat pounding)

(coughing)

(heart beat pounding)

(breathing heavily)

- That wasn't nearly as scary
as I thought it was going to be.

- I think I might have
actually done well.

- What do you say, Ames?
Celebratory milkshake?

Amy?

- I didn't even get through
the first section.

- What?

- It's like...

my brain stopped working.

(breathing heavily)

My heart started racing

and it felt like
I couldn't breathe.

- Amy...

I think you need to go
to the doctor.

It's okay.

- We should get matching
t-shirts for everyone

who comes to the trip.
- And matching baseball tees.

Oh, and matching ball caps.

- We could stitch
everyone's name,

any unique number
on the back and design

a special logo on the front.

- This is gonna be
so much better

than anything
the school could plan.

- The coasters at
the Coaster Dome are for babies.

- I highly doubt they would let
an infant ride.

Their necks
aren't strong enough.

- They let you ride, don't they?

- I see what's going on here.

You're just afraid of going
on rollercoasters.

- Hmm.
- Yeah, the bad ones.

- That sounds like something
a scaredy-cat would say.

- I'm not a scaredy-cat.
- I'm sorry, all I heard was,

"Meow, meow, meow."

- You guys care
way too much about this.

It's kind of embarrassing.

- Hey, don't let him
get under your skin.

- I'm not.

Okay, maybe I am,
but I'm over it.

Because when people
who aren't Mark

hear about how awesome
our own trip is going to be,

everyone will want to come.

Cheers to that, and not Mark.
- Yes.

- Everything okay
with your friends?

- Yeah, but okay,
what does this have to do

with my sweating,
and headaches, and everything?

- I'm just trying to get
a complete picture.

- Okay, I was Googling it,
and it said that people sweat

like this when they have
leukemia. And then I noticed

a bruise on my leg and I--
- Amy, you don't have cancer.

- How do you know that?
It literally said

that those were two symptoms.

- I'm going to write
you a prescription.

- "Stop Googling." Seriously?

- I have no doubt that you're
experiencing all these things.

But they're also
all symptoms of anxiety.

- Well, see, that's a relief.

- So you're saying
it's all in my head?

- I'm saying anxiety
is powerful.

- Okay, I feel like I would be
able to tell

if it was because I'm worried,
or whatever.

There's something else!

There has to be. Something real!
- How about this?

Stay off your phone
for a few days.

Try to get a lot of sleep.

- Oh and drink a big
glass of water?

- It couldn't hurt.

And if you're still having
these symptoms after a few days,

we follow up. Sound like a plan?

- Sure.

You are the medical
professional.

- There's no way you can
ride the Mind Melter

ten times in a row.

- This is boring.

Go find someone else
to throw the ball with.

- What is your problem?!

You've been a real jerk
all week, you know that?

And for what? Just because
you hate rollercoasters?

Are you crying?
- No. It's just sweat.

- Eyes don't sweat.

- You don't know everything,
Heather.

Like, you think that
the only reason

that someone would want to skip
a trip to the Coaster Dome

is because they hate
rollercoasters?

Well, guess what? You're wrong!

- Thank you for joining me
here today.

I won't take up
too much of your time.

- What's going on?

- To you, Holly.

My beloved friend
and likely soulmate.

I bequeath my most
prized possession.

My notes from
the entire school year.

They're colour-coded
by subject and you'll find

a cross reference index
at the front.

- Amy I, I don't understand.

- I'm dying.

- Is that what the doctor said?

- No, she thinks
I'm totally fine, that quack.

- Oh my gosh, Amy!
You scared me!

- She thinks those weird
symptoms were all in my head.

- All in your head as in...?

- She thinks it's anxiety.

Have you ever heard
of anything more ridiculous?

- Uh, I don't know.

Remember a couple of years ago
when Tyler was having

all those panic attacks?

That stuff is for real.

- So you think I'm crazy too?

- You've been under a lot
of pressure lately.

And you were super stressed
about the SATs.

- I can't believe
you don't believe me!

- Well, this isn't exactly
the first time

you've convinced yourself
you had some deadly disease.

You thought that you had
typhoid for all of sixth grade!

- When I die, suddenly,
because everyone refused

to take me seriously,
I am going to haunt you so hard.

- And why wouldn't you
at least consider

the less serious thing?

Maybe there's something
you can do.

- Like what? Deep breathing
and meditation?

- Those sound like
they could help.

- I was being sarcastic!

Good to know
you've got my back, Holly.

That was sarcasm too, FYI.

- Amy, where are you going?

- I need some air
for my crazy brain.

(insects, birds chirping)

(splashing)

How much of that did you hear?

- All of it.

- Great. So you think
I'm nuts now too.

- Nah. Just give me your phone.

Come on.

I just put in my doctor's info.

He's the best there is.

And if something's going on,
he'll figure out what it is.

- You're the first person
to actually believe me.

- Yeah, well,
it's your body, right?

No one knows what you're feeling
but you.

(sighs)

In the meantime,
let's go.

- Let's go?

Let's go where?

- Just seems like you could
use a little adventure, is all.

What else do you have to do?

- I should probably study
for a history test.

After bombing the SAT,
every mark is going to count.

- Why do you care about a test
if you're dying?

(scoffs)

You'll be back before dinner.

Come on.

(humming)
- Hey, hey.

- Do eye balls sweat?
- Um, I certainly hope not.

You wanna come and help?

So what, are you just
going to drop that pearl

and leave me hangin'?

- It's just Mark,
he's being a total jerk

about the whole grad trip.

I mean, one second he's angry
at me for saving it,

and the next, he's crying.

- I see.

- What do you know?

- There's certain families that,
well, they can't afford

the cost of the trip.

- But there are no poor kids
in Collinsville,

and if there are,
Mark isn't one of them.

I mean, he always has clean
clothes, and a lunch and stuff.

- Just because someone
doesn't look the way

that you think poor looks,

it doesn't mean that families
aren't struggling.

I mean, look at us. Do you
remember when Dad was injured?

If it wasn't for Holly,
we could not have afforded

to send you
to the amusement park, right?

Because extracurriculars,
they cost a lot of money.

And sometimes parents,
they have to make very

difficult decisions about
how to spend it.

- You mean, they had to choose
between the grad trip

and new clothes?

- Yeah, or whatever else
they might need,

and we're very fortunate
right now that we can afford

all of the necessities
and have a little bit left over

for the fun stuff.

- So, that means that Mark
didn't want to cancel

the grad trip, he was just upset
that he couldn't go.

So by me organizing
a second trip, I was just

basically excluding him
all over again.

He's not the jerk at all.

I am.
- Oh no, honey,

you're not at all.

You didn't know
the whole story. Right?

- I do now.

- Let me guess...

You're gonna try to get me
to jump off a cliff

to help me come to terms
with my mortality?

- Guess again.

- Hmm...
Climb behind a waterfall?

- Nope.

For what it's worth,

I think Holly is just
worried about you.

- Ha. I think she's convinced
I'm nuts.

- Quick question, though.

Why wouldn't you just believe
the trained

medical professional?

- You don't think doctors
can be wrong?

- Just seems like you'd rather
be dying from a mystery illness

than admit it could be anxiety.

- Okay, I know what I felt.

And if there's something wrong
with my body, I get that.

But if it's my mind?

What does that even mean?
That my brain is busted?

What am I supposed
to do about that?

- Okay, we're here.

You ready?

- Ready for what?

- Shinrin-yoku.

It's Japanese
for forest bathing.

- No. I will not be doing
any kind of bathing with you.

- All you have to do is lie down
and just be here.

Don't be weird, just try it.

- Fine.
(sighs)

Now what?

- Focus on your senses.

What you hear, what you smell,

and what you feel.

(joyful music)

(birds chirping)

How do you feel?

- A little better.

How did you learn
how to do this?

- My therapist
taught me about it.

- Justin Lewis has a therapist?

- Yeah. Because Justin Lewis

has his own
mental health issues.

Since I was a kid.

Took me a while
to get to the bottom of it,

and I still struggle sometimes.

But I've learned stuff
that helps. Like this.

- I'm sorry I said
that stuff earlier.

About it not being real.

- I get it.
I used to feel the same way.

(sighs)

- Just the idea that I'm not
in control of my own brain

is terrifying.

- Sure. But there are lots
of things you are in control of.

Like when did you start
to feel like this?

- Right before the SATs.

And then I completely bombed it

and totally messed up
my entire future.

- See, there you go.

Do you feel it?

So, take a deep breathe.

(exhales)

The test, and how
it's making you feel.

That's something
you can control.

Just take it again.

- What if I bomb it again?
And again.

And then I don't get into
any good colleges and...

- See, that right there
is called catastrophizing.

Your anxiety
is making you assume

that the worst will happen.

- Is that something else
your therapist taught you?

- Still think you're dying?

(bird cawing)

(water trickling)

Shall we take another bath?

(laughing)

- I have gathered you all here
today to discuss something

of utmost importance.

We're not going to Coaster Dome.

We're going to do
something better.

- We're getting posters?
- Maybe this will help.

- You want us to paint
the mural on the east wall?

- That's better
than rollercoasters how?

- I realized that not everyone
can go to Coaster Dome.

And at first I was like,
whatever, it's their problem.

But I started thinking
about it, and a school trip

isn't about rollercoasters.

It's about our entire
graduating class

building memories
that will stay with us

for the rest of our lives.

And it doesn't matter
what we're doing.

What matters most is that
we're doing it together.

- What an absolutely
lovely idea.

- Aren't you worried about
like, breaking tradition?

- No. Because we're starting
a new one.

- Well, it's no funnel cake,
but I'm in.

- Great. Now let's have
some ground rules, Claudia.

There will be no poop emojis
on the grad wall,

am I understood?
- No promises.

(guitar tuning)

(door opening)

- I've been thinking I should
learn to play an instrument.

Might help me relax.

(sighs)

You're right.

Everyone was right.

It was anxiety.

- Do you feel any better?

- Yeah. A bit.

I'm really sorry
I got mad at you.

I just didn't like the idea
that my brain

was making me feel like that.

- Well, if there's one thing
that I know about you,

it is that your brain
is a force to be reckoned with.

- Just gotta make sure
I harness her power for good.

(laughing)

I was also wondering if I--
- Could have your notes back?

- Yes.
- Obviously.

Just give me a second.

I put them in my closet
for safe-keeping.

(sighs)

(door opening and closing)

- Hey.

- Just grabbing one
of Missus Hobbie's

chocolate chip cookies.
They are seriously addictive.

You and Holly make up?

- Oh, yeah. Yeah, we always do.

Um... I don't think I'm gonna
need to see your doctor.

But I really appreciate it.

- No worries. Just glad
you're feeling better.

- Yeah. Me too.

- If you found it helpful,

maybe we could take
a forest bath again sometime.

- Yeah.

Yeah, I'd really like that.

(chuckling)

- Here you go!

What are you two grinning about?

- Justin was just telling me
a really funny story.

- Oh.
- Yeah!

About the time I pranked
Milly Bobby Brown

at the Teen Choice Awards.
(laughing)

- That sounds amazing!
Okay, start from the beginning.

- Okay, well.
First, when we got there, um...

(Holly): Maybe we shouldn't
believe everything

that we think.

Because sometimes,
what we think is one thing

and it turns out to be
something completely unexpected.

(joyful music)