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- People always talk about knowing your own mind

like it's the easiest thing in the world.

But I mean,

what if what your mind's telling you is wrong?

- I got two wrong in the math section?

How is that possible?

This has to be a mistake.

There's no way I got that question wrong.

- You're looking for the possible values of C, right?

- Yeah.

- It's A. 31 and 41.

- That's...

correct?

- Don't look so surprised.

I took the SATs last year. Did pretty well too.

- What about you guys? Shouldn't you be studying?

The stakes are high, people! - Amy...

you have been studying for this test

since seventh grade. You're gonna do great, okay?

- I don't understand why none of you

are taking this seriously.

This is a huge deal

that will affect the course of your entire life.

(sneezing) - Gesundheit.

- Are you sick?

- Oh no. It's probably just allergies.

- No, no, no, no.

I cannot get sick before this test.

- Oh wait, I do kind of have a tickle

at the back of my throat.

Maybe I am coming down with a cold.

- Where are you going?

- To study at home.

Away from this cesspool of disease.

(sneezing)

♪ You and me run to a different beat ♪

♪ We are brave Lead the way lead the way ♪

♪ Be the you inside ♪

♪ And watch the world take flight ♪

♪ We are brave Lead the way lead the way ♪

♪ Be the change ♪

♪ Be the change ♪

♪ Gotta be the change ♪

(bright music)

- Thought there was an open mic tonight?

- Oscar was coming down with a cold.

So I can't risk getting sick by cramming myself

with a bunch of disease vectors right before the SAT.

- Is that what this is all about?

- Yes. It's an immune booster. Piper sent me the recipe.

- Is it worth pointing out that there's very little

science to suggest that any of this actually works?

- I have to try something, okay?

(clears throat)

My throat feels kind of dry.

Maybe a little tickly?

Oh no.

I think it's happening.

I shouldn't have even been at Calico in the first place.

- Relax, Amy.

You wouldn't have symptoms if you just caught the cold.

If your throat's sore, it's something else.

- Like cancer?

I feel kind of sweaty.

- You just need a glass of water and a good night's sleep.

Okay?

- Yeah. Maybe.

- I can't watch.

- She's gonna do it. - No, she's not.

- okay, nobody say a word. - No way!

- What did I just say?

- They just cancelled the eighth grade grad trip

to Coaster Dome Amusement Park.

- They what?! They can't do that!

- What a shame. Oh well.

- The trip to Coaster Dome is a tradition.

Robbie and Holly are always going on about

how it was the best, most fun time ever, okay?

They cannot deprive us! How dare they deprive us!

- Well, I mean, it's not the end of the world.

We'll probably get to do something else.

- Oh yeah? Like what?

- Well, the high school seniors always paint some sort of mural.

Maybe we could do that?

- Yeah, because painting a stupid wall is as awesome

going to an amusement park. - It says here

that some students didn't feel included?

- Who could possibly not feel included?

- I mean, I guess someone who hates rollercoasters.

- Great, now you're gonna tell me

there are people that hate fun.

- Well, you know what? I don't know about you guys,

but I am not going to stand by while these fun haters

decide who can and can't go to Coaster Dome.

- What are you going to do? - The only thing a fun-loving

rollercoaster aficionado such as myself can do.

I'm going to save our trip.

(sighing)

- Hey. What's up? We missed you at the open mic.

- Hey. How'd it go?

- Russel's one-man barber shop quartet was actually

better than anticipated.

And we wrapped up super early so that we could rest up

for the test tomorrow. You'd be proud.

- That was very responsible of you.

- Alright, what's wrong? You sound weird.

- I think I have cancer, Holly.

- What kind is it this time?

- Okay, never mind.

- I'm sorry it's just...

you do this sometimes, okay?

You're probably just freaking out about the test.

- Yeah. Maybe.

- Amy, listen, you are probably the most prepared

anyone has ever been for the SAT.

Just try and get a good night sleep.

- Have you been talking to my mom?

- I'll see you tomorrow. You'll be fine. I promise.

- Bye.

(sighs)

(sighs)

- Okay, which one sounds better, Funnel Cake Heartbreak,

or Less Hate, More Rollercoasters?

- Well, in my experience naming jams,

the rhyme always wins. - Okay.

- But I also have no idea what you're talking about.

- The faculty cancelled our trip to Coaster Dome.

So now, I'm getting everyone to protest

until they un-cancel it. - Oh, I get it,

you should make one that says Fun Fair?

More like unfair! - Yes, that's perfect.

- Oh, look at you doing protesty stuff.

You're fighting for the greater good,

or whatever Holly is always going on about.

- Yeah, also funnel cakes, bumper cars and midway games.

- You know you don't actually need to school's permission

to go to Coaster Dome? You can just organize your own trip.

- Robbie Hobbie, you're a genius.

(man): The SATs are about to begin.

Everyone, you have 65 minutes for this section.

(bell ringing)

(pensive music)

(heart beat pounding)

(coughing)

(heart beat pounding)

(breathing heavily)

- That wasn't nearly as scary as I thought it was going to be.

- I think I might have actually done well.

- What do you say, Ames? Celebratory milkshake?

Amy?

- I didn't even get through the first section.

- What?

- It's like...

my brain stopped working.

(breathing heavily)

My heart started racing

and it felt like I couldn't breathe.

- Amy...

I think you need to go to the doctor.

It's okay.

- We should get matching t-shirts for everyone

who comes to the trip. - And matching baseball tees.

Oh, and matching ball caps.

- We could stitch everyone's name,

any unique number on the back and design

a special logo on the front.

- This is gonna be so much better

than anything the school could plan.

- The coasters at the Coaster Dome are for babies.

- I highly doubt they would let an infant ride.

Their necks aren't strong enough.

- They let you ride, don't they?

- I see what's going on here.

You're just afraid of going on rollercoasters.

- Hmm. - Yeah, the bad ones.

- That sounds like something a scaredy-cat would say.

- I'm not a scaredy-cat. - I'm sorry, all I heard was,

"Meow, meow, meow."

- You guys care way too much about this.

It's kind of embarrassing.

- Hey, don't let him get under your skin.

- I'm not.

Okay, maybe I am, but I'm over it.

Because when people who aren't Mark

hear about how awesome our own trip is going to be,

everyone will want to come.

Cheers to that, and not Mark. - Yes.

- Everything okay with your friends?

- Yeah, but okay, what does this have to do

with my sweating, and headaches, and everything?

- I'm just trying to get a complete picture.

- Okay, I was Googling it, and it said that people sweat

like this when they have leukemia. And then I noticed

a bruise on my leg and I-- - Amy, you don't have cancer.

- How do you know that? It literally said

that those were two symptoms.

- I'm going to write you a prescription.

- "Stop Googling." Seriously?

- I have no doubt that you're experiencing all these things.

But they're also all symptoms of anxiety.

- Well, see, that's a relief.

- So you're saying it's all in my head?

- I'm saying anxiety is powerful.

- Okay, I feel like I would be able to tell

if it was because I'm worried, or whatever.

There's something else!

There has to be. Something real! - How about this?

Stay off your phone for a few days.

Try to get a lot of sleep.

- Oh and drink a big glass of water?

- It couldn't hurt.

And if you're still having these symptoms after a few days,

we follow up. Sound like a plan?

- Sure.

You are the medical professional.

- There's no way you can ride the Mind Melter

ten times in a row.

- This is boring.

Go find someone else to throw the ball with.

- What is your problem?!

You've been a real jerk all week, you know that?

And for what? Just because you hate rollercoasters?

Are you crying? - No. It's just sweat.

- Eyes don't sweat.

- You don't know everything, Heather.

Like, you think that the only reason

that someone would want to skip a trip to the Coaster Dome

is because they hate rollercoasters?

Well, guess what? You're wrong!

- Thank you for joining me here today.

I won't take up too much of your time.

- What's going on?

- To you, Holly.

My beloved friend and likely soulmate.

I bequeath my most prized possession.

My notes from the entire school year.

They're colour-coded by subject and you'll find

a cross reference index at the front.

- Amy I, I don't understand.

- I'm dying.

- Is that what the doctor said?

- No, she thinks I'm totally fine, that quack.

- Oh my gosh, Amy! You scared me!

- She thinks those weird symptoms were all in my head.

- All in your head as in...?

- She thinks it's anxiety.

Have you ever heard of anything more ridiculous?

- Uh, I don't know.

Remember a couple of years ago when Tyler was having

all those panic attacks?

That stuff is for real.

- So you think I'm crazy too?

- You've been under a lot of pressure lately.

And you were super stressed about the SATs.

- I can't believe you don't believe me!

- Well, this isn't exactly the first time

you've convinced yourself you had some deadly disease.

You thought that you had typhoid for all of sixth grade!

- When I die, suddenly, because everyone refused

to take me seriously, I am going to haunt you so hard.

- And why wouldn't you at least consider

the less serious thing?

Maybe there's something you can do.

- Like what? Deep breathing and meditation?

- Those sound like they could help.

- I was being sarcastic!

Good to know you've got my back, Holly.

That was sarcasm too, FYI.

- Amy, where are you going?

- I need some air for my crazy brain.

(insects, birds chirping)

(splashing)

How much of that did you hear?

- All of it.

- Great. So you think I'm nuts now too.

- Nah. Just give me your phone.

Come on.

I just put in my doctor's info.

He's the best there is.

And if something's going on, he'll figure out what it is.

- You're the first person to actually believe me.

- Yeah, well, it's your body, right?

No one knows what you're feeling but you.

(sighs)

In the meantime, let's go.

- Let's go?

Let's go where?

- Just seems like you could use a little adventure, is all.

What else do you have to do?

- I should probably study for a history test.

After bombing the SAT, every mark is going to count.

- Why do you care about a test if you're dying?

(scoffs)

You'll be back before dinner.

Come on.

(humming) - Hey, hey.

- Do eye balls sweat? - Um, I certainly hope not.

You wanna come and help?

So what, are you just going to drop that pearl

and leave me hangin'?

- It's just Mark, he's being a total jerk

about the whole grad trip.

I mean, one second he's angry at me for saving it,

and the next, he's crying.

- I see.

- What do you know?

- There's certain families that, well, they can't afford

the cost of the trip.

- But there are no poor kids in Collinsville,

and if there are, Mark isn't one of them.

I mean, he always has clean clothes, and a lunch and stuff.

- Just because someone doesn't look the way

that you think poor looks,

it doesn't mean that families aren't struggling.

I mean, look at us. Do you remember when Dad was injured?

If it wasn't for Holly, we could not have afforded

to send you to the amusement park, right?

Because extracurriculars, they cost a lot of money.

And sometimes parents, they have to make very

difficult decisions about how to spend it.

- You mean, they had to choose between the grad trip

and new clothes?

- Yeah, or whatever else they might need,

and we're very fortunate right now that we can afford

all of the necessities and have a little bit left over

for the fun stuff.

- So, that means that Mark didn't want to cancel

the grad trip, he was just upset that he couldn't go.

So by me organizing a second trip, I was just

basically excluding him all over again.

He's not the jerk at all.

I am. - Oh no, honey,

you're not at all.

You didn't know the whole story. Right?

- I do now.

- Let me guess...

You're gonna try to get me to jump off a cliff

to help me come to terms with my mortality?

- Guess again.

- Hmm... Climb behind a waterfall?

- Nope.

For what it's worth,

I think Holly is just worried about you.

- Ha. I think she's convinced I'm nuts.

- Quick question, though.

Why wouldn't you just believe the trained

medical professional?

- You don't think doctors can be wrong?

- Just seems like you'd rather be dying from a mystery illness

than admit it could be anxiety.

- Okay, I know what I felt.

And if there's something wrong with my body, I get that.

But if it's my mind?

What does that even mean? That my brain is busted?

What am I supposed to do about that?

- Okay, we're here.

You ready?

- Ready for what?

- Shinrin-yoku.

It's Japanese for forest bathing.

- No. I will not be doing any kind of bathing with you.

- All you have to do is lie down and just be here.

Don't be weird, just try it.

- Fine. (sighs)

Now what?

- Focus on your senses.

What you hear, what you smell,

and what you feel.

(joyful music)

(birds chirping)

How do you feel?

- A little better.

How did you learn how to do this?

- My therapist taught me about it.

- Justin Lewis has a therapist?

- Yeah. Because Justin Lewis

has his own mental health issues.

Since I was a kid.

Took me a while to get to the bottom of it,

and I still struggle sometimes.

But I've learned stuff that helps. Like this.

- I'm sorry I said that stuff earlier.

About it not being real.

- I get it. I used to feel the same way.

(sighs)

- Just the idea that I'm not in control of my own brain

is terrifying.

- Sure. But there are lots of things you are in control of.

Like when did you start to feel like this?

- Right before the SATs.

And then I completely bombed it

and totally messed up my entire future.

- See, there you go.

Do you feel it?

So, take a deep breathe.

(exhales)

The test, and how it's making you feel.

That's something you can control.

Just take it again.

- What if I bomb it again? And again.

And then I don't get into any good colleges and...

- See, that right there is called catastrophizing.

Your anxiety is making you assume

that the worst will happen.

- Is that something else your therapist taught you?

- Still think you're dying?

(bird cawing)

(water trickling)

Shall we take another bath?

(laughing)

- I have gathered you all here today to discuss something

of utmost importance.

We're not going to Coaster Dome.

We're going to do something better.

- We're getting posters? - Maybe this will help.

- You want us to paint the mural on the east wall?

- That's better than rollercoasters how?

- I realized that not everyone can go to Coaster Dome.

And at first I was like, whatever, it's their problem.

But I started thinking about it, and a school trip

isn't about rollercoasters.

It's about our entire graduating class

building memories that will stay with us

for the rest of our lives.

And it doesn't matter what we're doing.

What matters most is that we're doing it together.

- What an absolutely lovely idea.

- Aren't you worried about like, breaking tradition?

- No. Because we're starting a new one.

- Well, it's no funnel cake, but I'm in.

- Great. Now let's have some ground rules, Claudia.

There will be no poop emojis on the grad wall,

am I understood? - No promises.

(guitar tuning)

(door opening)

- I've been thinking I should learn to play an instrument.

Might help me relax.

(sighs)

You're right.

Everyone was right.

It was anxiety.

- Do you feel any better?

- Yeah. A bit.

I'm really sorry I got mad at you.

I just didn't like the idea that my brain

was making me feel like that.

- Well, if there's one thing that I know about you,

it is that your brain is a force to be reckoned with.

- Just gotta make sure I harness her power for good.

(laughing)

I was also wondering if I-- - Could have your notes back?

- Yes. - Obviously.

Just give me a second.

I put them in my closet for safe-keeping.

(sighs)

(door opening and closing)

- Hey.

- Just grabbing one of Missus Hobbie's

chocolate chip cookies. They are seriously addictive.

You and Holly make up?

- Oh, yeah. Yeah, we always do.

Um... I don't think I'm gonna need to see your doctor.

But I really appreciate it.

- No worries. Just glad you're feeling better.

- Yeah. Me too.

- If you found it helpful,

maybe we could take a forest bath again sometime.

- Yeah.

Yeah, I'd really like that.

(chuckling)

- Here you go!

What are you two grinning about?

- Justin was just telling me a really funny story.

- Oh. - Yeah!

About the time I pranked Milly Bobby Brown

at the Teen Choice Awards. (laughing)

- That sounds amazing! Okay, start from the beginning.

- Okay, well. First, when we got there, um...

(Holly): Maybe we shouldn't believe everything

that we think.

Because sometimes, what we think is one thing

and it turns out to be something completely unexpected.

(joyful music)