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[therapist] Sophie, are you ready to begin?

[thunder rumbling]

Now, take me back.

You're getting to know your life,

your family, your husband.

Now the basics.

Coming home for the first time.

Hey, hey, hey. Let me... Let me take that.

[therapist] Where were you before?

- [breathing heavily] - [nurse] Look at me. It's okay.

- Okay, okay. Look at me. - [grunting, panting]

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.

You were in a coma.

Your name is Sophie Ellis. [shushes]

[therapist] And before that?

[monitor beeping]

- Excuse me, are you Mr. Ellis? - Yeah.

[speaks indistinctly]

Is she gonna be okay?

- Are you her husband? - Yeah, I'm her fucking husband.

[therapist] Try to remember getting to the hospital.

[EMT 1] Why didn't we take her to County?

[EMT 2] Did you see the shirt I just cut off her?

Costs more than me and you make in a week.

[EMT 1] Fucking bored rich people.

[therapist] The rescue.

And the water.

You're falling.

You're falling.

Can you keep going?

Get back on that boat, Sophie.

Stay in it.

[gasps, inhales deeply]

[breathes shakily]

[breathing heavily]

[therapist] What did you see?

There was a man… [breathes heavily] …on the ferry.

Where on the ferry?

[breathing heavily]

On the edge.

And what does seeing that man mean to you?

That maybe I didn't jump.

Maybe… I was pushed.

[inhales sharply] I'd like to be honest with you, Sophie.

- Is that all right? - Of course.

The reason I'm asking is,

I don't think you're going to like what I have to say.

I can't help but wonder if the man you saw

is just a manifestation of your subconscious.

Another way to avoid taking responsibility for your own actions.

I think it's hard to take responsibility for a decision you don't remember making.

I know it is,

but continuing to deny your own agency in this…

It only disempowers you.

I saw him.

This wasn't some figment of my imagination.

Isn't there something else we can try? Some experimental treatment

- or new therapy? Something more extreme. - I'm sorry, Sophie.

- There are no shortcuts… - [sighs]

…no magic pill that's gonna fix this.

And any clinician that tells you otherwise is a hack.

Okay, then what do you think my subconscious is trying to tell me?

Let's say you're right.

A man pushed you from the ferry.

Who exactly do you think that man is?

[breathes shakily]

[inhales deeply]

I did a hypnotherapy session with Hannah yesterday.

[James] Really?

Hmm.

[grunts] That doesn't seem like you.

Actually, it was my idea.

Revisiting the accident's supposed to help me process my trauma.

What?

I mean, I-I just... I thought we were past this.

I-I don't understand why you keep putting yourself through it, is all.

I mean, is-is it... is it working?

Bringing up more questions than answers.

You have questions for me?

Go ahead.

Go ahead. I want to help.

Okay.

How long was I in the ICU?

[inhales deeply] Three weeks.

Okay, I was there every day.

Where were you when I woke up in the hospital?

Well, the nurse sent me home to shower.

Uh, I was halfway there when they called and said you'd woken up.

[breathes heavily]

I ran a red light trying to get back to you.

[laughs] Nearly crashed the car, actually.

- Sorry. - No, please. Keep going.

What were you doing in Portland the day of the accident?

What?

Was it a business trip or...

No, it was a conference. Yeah, I go every year.

What does my conference have to do with your accident?

Just putting the pieces together.

I know it sounds random,

but every little bit gets me closer to being whole.

Uh, well… [inhales sharply] …like I said,

I'm here to help, okay?

I better get going.

- See you tonight for dinner? - Yeah.

[inhales sharply]

[engine starts]

Gloria. [sighs] How you doing? When's that surgery?

Stupid doctor postponed it a week.

You got a haircut. It must be a new girl, huh?

[both chuckle]

[Gloria] To-go order. Three bean baleadas.

Got it.

[Baden] Julio. Julio. Julio.

If this is about what I said to your boss, I was just joking.

Don't even worry about it, man. It's all good.

Okay.

But I am gonna need a favor from you though,

from your other job.

- Look, man, I don't want any trouble. - Then you won't get any.

I... I really need that job. I make good tips over there.

Did I say I was asking?

[line rings]

[exhales sharply]

[phone rings]

- James Ellis's office. - [Sophie] Hi, Victoria.

It's Sophie.

Um, I am so sorry to bug you with this,

but I was just going through all of our travel receipts,

and I seem to be missing some. [inhales sharply]

Hold on. [exhales deeply] Let me check.

[inhales sharply] Right, that's it. Portland.

I think it was four or five months ago.

Ugh, I really don't want to bother James with this.

- He's got so much on his plate. - Hmm. Doesn't ring a bell.

[exhales deeply]

[inhales sharply] I think it was a conference?

I forget the name, but he said he goes every year.

- Maybe you have it? - [typing]

Uh, weird. Nothing's coming up.

He might have used his personal Amex.

Oh, you can ask him yourself. He just walked out of a meeting.

- Oh, it's okay, I don't need to... - Sophie.

Oh. Hey, Soph. What's up?

Babe?

[stammers] You know what,

I think I just found what I was looking for.

You sure?

Hey, you want to get takeout from that Korean place on Geary tonight?

Uh, yeah, yeah, yeah. That sounds good.

I'll call in the order.

Okay, see you soon.

Okay, bye.

[sighs]

[typing]

[sighs]

[sighs deeply]

You look nice today.

Oh, thanks.

[inhales sharply] I've been meaning to get some new things

now that I'm getting out of the house more, you know.

[inhales deeply] I tried to buy something online today, actually.

Well, I mean, I can take you shopping any time you want.

[chuckles]

I was locked out of the accounts.

Amex, Chase, everything.

[sighs]

[exhales shakily] Uh, look... I've, uh…

I've been meaning to tell you.

I guess I just didn't really know how.

Tell me what?

After your accident…

I had to file for conservatorship.

And doctors, they all said the same thing.

It's a standard procedure in a situation like ours.

And what kind of situation is that?

Sophie, you weren't capable of making decisions on your own.

Medical, financial, or stuff like that.

I was trying to do the right thing.

It's not always so fucking clear what that is these days.

[Sophie] I know.

But I'm better now.

Do you still think it's necessary?

It's not easy to unravel.

I mean, lawyers have to get involved. The whole thing, it's... [sighs]

It's a mess.

But if it's important to you…

then we'll figure something out.

Okay?

[breathes shakily]

Good.

I wait at the same light,

make the same right turn every single day.

Sometimes I just feel like I'm running in circles.

That sounds more honest.

I thought about what you said, looking inward.

I've really been trying hard to do that. [sighs]

I just want to feel like I belong.

I second-guess every decision I make

wondering if it's what the old me would do.

[sighs]

Maybe I just need a change of scenery.

This whole fucking city's surrounded by water.

Well, here's a thought. Why don't you get out of the city?

You and James get away. Break the routine.

I'd love that.

In my professional opinion, it'll be good for both of you.

[Sophie] I saw Hannah today.

It was good.

She had some really good ideas.

I don't think I've ever heard you describe a session as good before.

I feel like I've been stuck in a rut lately.

My whole life basically takes place in this house or in therapy.

I... I didn't... I didn't realize you felt so isolated.

- I wish you would've told me. - You already do so much for me.

I just feel like we're both tired, you know?

Hmm.

Hannah thought a change of scenery might be good for me.

[James] Huh.

She suggested I take a break, get out of town.

I thought I might do a girls' trip with Caroline.

Just an overnight thing.

She said a break would be good for you too.

I mean, y-you haven't... you haven't spent a night away from home since the accident.

Hannah says I'm making progress,

and you have no idea how hard it is to get a compliment from her.

[chuckles]

Well, what about our vacation home in Marin?

You always liked it there. It's, uh... It's quiet and secluded.

It sounds perfect.

You know me so well.

[kisses]

[exhales deeply]

Oh, fuck.

You'll have to go over the bridge.

It's worth it.

I have to face my fears someday, right?

Would you rather fresh air?

No, this is good.

Are you sure you want to do this? 'Cause I'll be just as happy staying here.

- [chuckles] I'm good. Promise. - Okay.

Well, just so you know, I've engaged the safety locks

just in case we decide to have a little repeat performance today.

[chuckles]

If me jumping out of a cab on the freeway

is the worst thing that driver's seen in San Francisco,

- he hasn't driven long enough. - [chuckles]

[breathes heavily]

[Caroline] Breathe.

- Just breathe. - [breathing heavily]

[breathes shakily]

["Valerie" playing]

[scoffs] You are not serious.

- [Sophie blows] - [singing "Valerie"]

Oh, yeah, I'm serious.

And you better not fucking leave me hanging.

[chuckles]

[both laugh]

[continues singing]

[mumbles]

[laughs]

Oh, my God.

[sighs]

- Doing real good. - [smacks lips] Thanks.

[exhales sharply]

[sighs]

[line rings]

[Sophie] You've reached Sophie Ellis. Leave a message.

[beep]

["Chopstix" playing]

- [music stops] - [paper rustling]

- Morning, sir. - Thanks.

[grunts, sighs]

[sighs]

[music resumes]

[inhales sharply] You're late.

And you are hungover.

Ouch. Okay. We're, uh... We're touchy today, huh?

[chuckles softly]

- Sophie good? - Yep.

She left for Marin this morning with Caroline.

[chuckles] Wait, what? Sophie went to Marin without you?

Yeah. Her therapist thought it'd be good for her, for us.

Well, fuck yeah. Doctor's right, man. No, no, you deserve a break.

You've been at her beck and call for months now.

Well, she's my wife.

Well, may not be my place to say, but… [sighs]

…you've always been better to her than she ever was to you, so…

- [elevator bell dings] - You're right. It's not your place to say.

Oh, fuck. I'm... I'm sorry.

Just let me make it up to you. Tonight. First round on me.

That disgusting Scotch you like that tastes like the bottom of a bonfire.

- We're getting that? - No, thanks.

Come on. I know you're psyched to have the night off.

You're not staying home. I'm not taking no for an answer!

["Dark Days" playing]

[Sophie sighs] It's so beautiful.

[Caroline] Hmm.

Hey, are there stables around here?

Um, yeah, probably.

Maybe we should go riding later.

On a horse?

Is that not… something we do?

You and me, on horses?

[laughs]

Mm-mmm. No.

We're more like, the, um… [smacks lips] …sit by the pool, drink rosé,

don't get the blowouts wet kind of friends.

- That's why I like you. - [chuckles]

[sighs]

- Welcome home, buttercup. - [chuckles]

[phone buzzes]

[Caroline sighs]

[Caroline] Oh! I'm sorry. You need the code.

Uh, code is… "2448."

[door whirs, clicks]

Well?

What do you think?

[Sophie] I love it.

[Caroline] Good. You always did.

Did I come here a lot?

Mm-hmm. Yeah.

Mostly by yourself.

Said you could hear yourself think here.

[Caroline's phone buzzes]

Oh, my God. These nouveau riche types.

They keep coming to the gallery looking for obscure art.

Who knew selling art meant exclusively talking to people

who know nothing about art?

Um, okay.

I have to finish this deal. It shouldn't take more than an hour.

Do you mind? And then I'm all yours.

Oh… [stammers] …it's no problem.

I wanted to take a walk anyway.

[Caroline] Okay, good.

Enjoy.

[horse snorts, blows]

Are you here to ride?

Yeah.

You have a horse I can take out today?

Yeah.

Hi.

[trail guide] Whenever you're ready.

[exhales sharply]

Hey, look, you're a pro.

- [horse snorts] - [trail guide clicking tongue]

[Sophie] Come on, boy. Let's go.

[horse snorting]

Tess!

[gasps]

[breathing heavily]

[sighs]

["Heartbroken, In Disrepair" playing]

- [sighs] - [door bell rings repeatedly]

[knocking]

[sighs]

- Yes. - Surprise.

You know I hate surprises, right?

[Harrison] Yeah, I don't recall you hating box seats, though?

- Wait, you got box seats? - Warriors, Lakers, baby.

[clicks tongue] Steph. Bron-Bron.

You owe me big fucking time, man.

Fuck.

I haven't been anywhere in months.

Yeah. Exactly.

I was, uh… just doing some work.

- Of course you were. - [chuckles]

Will you just go put on some real clothes? We're going out.

["Five Days a Week and Twice on Sunday" playing on radio]

[music continues]

[music stops]

[Baden sighs]

Is that everything?

It's all there. GPS coordinates, dates, times.

Everywhere he's been for the last six months.

Hey, I put a little extra in there for your mom's surgery.

Make sure she gets it, all right?

[engine starts]

[Caroline] Sophie?

Oh, my God. Thank God! Where have you been?

I just... I lost track of time.

[Caroline] Wha... What's going on? Are you okay?

I rode a horse.

[chuckles] Like, you just decided to ride a horse?

I think I might have done it before.

Do you think that's possible?

[Caroline] I don't know. Do you?

Sometimes I have these dreams. [stammers] Maybe they're not dreams.

I don't know.

What else would they be? [chuckles]

Memories?

[sighs]

- Please don't be upset with me. [chuckles] - Oh, no. God, I'm not upset with you.

I'm just so happy you're okay.

I'm fine.

Look, let's just forget about it and have a drink.

- [Caroline] Please? [chuckles] - Guess who found the wine cellar?

[Caroline] Ooh!

[crowd cheering through television]

[Harrison] Nice! We're up by three.

[chuckles] Yeah.

[mouth full] I paid, like, $1,600 for this box.

[James sighs]

[mouth full] James fucking Wiseman is on pace for a triple-double.

But I guess your phone is just way more interesting. [chuckles]

What are you eating?

Oh, there's like a butler with a whole cart of desserts out there.

[announcer speaking indistinctly]

[Harrison] Oh, come on! Are you serious?

[phone buzzes]

[James] Hey, what happened to no phones?

Shut up. It's from the office.

Wow, looks like it was sent to all the partners.

[James] What about?

Huh. Internal auditing department has found a major discrepancy.

Big chunk of the firm's money went out, and now it's unaccounted for. [chuckles]

Wait, that doesn't make sense.

We've received the quarterly financial statements

from every company we've invested in this year.

But investments reported don't match our books.

Total's off. [chuckles]

[exhales sharply] By how much?

Uh, millions.

Huh.

They wanna see everybody in the morning, for a meeting.

Good.

- You know what? - Hmm?

- I bet it's one of fucking Todd's clients. - [chuckles]

Remember last time? The guy's a fucking idiot.

- [Harrison] They'll figure it out. - [buzzer sounds]

Oh, fuck!

[crowd cheering]

[announcer speaking indistinctly]

I feel awful saying it, but… [sighs]

…I'm more relaxed here than I've ever been with him.

[Caroline] Mmm.

He has these… expectations.

That I should act the same way I did before.

Mmm.

But I don't know who that is. What she's like.

[Caroline] Hmm.

So instead, I'm just walking on eggshells the whole time.

Mmm, yeah. I get it. I mean, sort of, you know.

I can't spend a week with the same guy, never mind five months.

And a lifetime? Please. [chuckles]

[inhales sharply] Can I ask you a question now?

You're my best friend, right?

Sophie, of course.

So what was I really like? Before.

Um, you were interesting.

You were skeptical and… complicated.

Complicated?

Well, you just didn't really open up a lot.

Like, you preferred hearing other people's stories.

I think it took me a year or two before you really gave me the time of day.

- What? - [chuckles]

You are the one who's supposed to know me best,

and you're saying you didn't really know me at all. [chuckles]

No, no, no. That's not what I'm saying. I'm… just saying, you didn't…

talk about deep things.

Your feelings. And neither did I.

And… you know what?

Maybe we should've.

[chuckles]

Sorry, I should just stop talking.

[both chuckling]

No, I'm a big girl. I can handle it. [chuckles]

Okay.

[sighs] What do you wanna know?

Me and James.

What was the connection?

He was loyal and stable and devoted.

And it seemed like those things meant a lot to you.

And our marriage?

We were happy?

Um…

[stammers, chuckles] No, I... Um…

I don't really know how to answer that.

[laughs]

I... I must've said something.

Yeah, n... Your marriage was multifaceted. It just had layers.

Meaning, we had secrets?

No, no, no. That's not what I'm saying. Just… every marriage has issues.

But you know something.

No, I don't. You should ask him.

I'm asking you.

Well, you know, one time, I thought that you were maybe

seeing someone else.

But, even if you did, I wouldn't have judged you.

We all make mistakes.

Did James think I was having an affair too?

I have no idea.

And even if I did, I never would have discussed it with him.

I was your friend.

If he did know, what would he have done about it?

Listen, I… [sighs]

Okay, I never thought that James was perfect.

But I know he loves you.

More than anything.

[beeps]

[breathes heavily]

[sighs]

How was it?

We had fun.

What about you?

[inhales deeply] Honestly, um… [sighs]

…the house felt very empty without you.

So… [chuckles]

[footsteps departing]

[breathes shakily]

[exhales deeply]

[sighs] Come on, James.

Where the fuck are you? [sighs]

Not in Portland.

[sighs]

[panting]

- Caroline? - Upstairs.

Okay.

[Caroline] No, you don't get it. She's been acting weird, James.

No, you're not listening. She's remembering things.

She's starting to ask questions I can't answer.

No.

[scoffs] James, I'm telling you. We have to get our stories straight here.

- [knocking on window] - [Baden] Jesus.

I told you to leave me alone.

Look, it's not like that, okay?

I saw you, camping outside my house. Following me.

I know. I wanted you to know I was there, just in case.

You were right.

I can't trust anyone.

Your husband's alibi is a lie.

He was never in Portland.

I know. [sniffs]

Where the fuck was he?

[sighs]

Come with me.

I'll tell you everything I know.

[engine starts]

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